Yesterday Once more

Long-lasting love often comes with indifference and indifference. If it were me when I was a kid The sentence may be seen as just a rhetorical excuse for a bored person. If we can truly love someone until time passes We should protect this and enjoy it to the fullest. But that is my opinion, who has never had love other than father and mother.

I am a good student. Has excellent diligence You can graduate from university before anyone else. Work life is great I got a job right after graduating. It is one of the famous banks in the country. Every work seems prosperous except love. I have loved and broken up with many young women since university. It's not that I'm a flirt or talk to many people.

I was just so focused on something that I missed the time to develop a relationship. Until time keeps falling I had the opportunity to be a mentor in teaching one of the interns. She has a rather ordinary appearance. Wears thick glasses, looks neat, like a normal kid. If she were to train with someone else, she would probably be put to heavy use due to her submissive nature.

But I don't quite care about the nonsense of taking advantage of interns. I just taught her the usual duties. She was working fine as usual. Everything looks normal But I just recently noticed this normality. She is someone who gets along with me normally. I'm not a special person or anything. But in work, there will always be problems or disagreements.

But with her, there isn't any. She can get along with me smoothly and naturally. I don't know. Maybe I just met someone who can get along with me to that extent. Other feelings naturally follow.

After she graduated I had a higher position and was able to hire her as a full-time employee. I have had the opportunity to work with her often. Until our relationship became closer I am about five years older than her. Gradually we went out together more often for work and personal matters.

But if this famous bank where we work Instead, there are old rules that are very ancient and bad luck. That is, employees in the company are prohibited from dating each other. We both know the rules. And we have seen many couples who were rudely kicked out. But we secretly dated for five years. Until finally, when the financial status was assessed

Career stability She offered to resign to get married. She and I decided to get married the following year.

Our married life is smooth. I work, she stays and does housework with the dog we bought as a pet. We decided not to have children for her health reasons. We have been together for more than twenty years. We are in a better position but that comes from my hard work. I hardly have time with her at all. My life is a loop: wake up, work, sleep, just this loop.

Don't just find time to travel. There's hardly any time to eat together. My life gradually Keep distance from her But about her health, she gradually He also left a distance from me that I never knew before. Throughout our relationship, she never complained about my lack of free time. Even if it's a birthday or anniversary that I can't free and have to cancel every appointment.

She never once scolded me or showed any signs of being upset with me. Everything mentioned here is my stupidity and mistake. one evening I came home from work earlier than usual.

“Oh, you came back so early today,” she asked in surprise.

“I forgot an important document,” I replied in a hurry.

“What should we eat this evening? Today is your birthday.” She asked about my birthday dinner. That I don't even remember.

“Whatever is up to you,” I replied and hurried out of the house.

Every time I come back and think about this time I still feel sorry every time. I came home quite late due to work. And of course, she prepared my favorite beef stew. When I got home, I went to grab a cold beer. and immediately threw himself onto the sofa She offered to warm up my dinner.

I was sitting and staring at the TV absentmindedly because of fatigue. My stomach started to growl so loud it drowned out the sound of the TV. Why have you been gone for so long? I became suspicious so I walked into the kitchen to look. What I saw was her lying on the floor with stew spilled everywhere. I'm very angry at myself. Not even aware that his own wife had fallen in the kitchen not far from him.

I rushed her to the hospital immediately. It's good that she's still conscious. I watched her in that hospital all night. But the misfortune isn't over yet. The doctor said that her symptoms were not just a health problem due to an underlying disease. But this is a serious disease that you may not be able to live with for much longer.

My heart dropped like I was playing on a laughing train. But the difference is that it has gone off the rails. What is all the time I've spent living? How much longer will she stay with me? Many things affect each other until it's all mixed up. Right now I'd rather vomit than cry. I really can't handle this.

I decided to take an indefinite leave of absence. Even if the company fires me for not going to work, I will accept it. I spent all I had left with her. The whole house was abandoned. All life is spent in the hospital. I asked the doctor for permission to bring the dog with me.

She must feel strange. That I did things that I had never done to her in thirty years. That is, pay attention and give her time. I feel so stupid In the end, he himself had a condition that was no different from the sentence he had never believed. And it's really too late I spent the whole day talking with her. Play video games with her read books together eat together

All the things I should have done before but always ignored. Believe it or not, she really looks brighter and stronger. I'm even happier than the salary increase. We're almost back at home. And when going through bad things We will definitely love each other even more than before. Then I will be a better husband for you from now on.

That night I went back to the house to bring the record player to the hospital. This was the first gift I bought her for her birthday. Every time she's home, she still uses this old device to play music. Before, I had never paid any attention to this matter. But I don't ignore this matter that much. I still remember her favorite songs.

“Yesterday Once More - Carpenters”

“Wow, do you still remember that?” she smiled and chuckled.

“You can think of me as a bad husband. I'm really sorry about everything." I answered her with a sad expression.

“What, what bad husband would forget the songs his own wife liked?” she defended.

“I always understand you. And I have never had a day when I saw you as a bad husband.”

“Smile, haha,” she laughed as she comforted me.

She slowly tried to stand up from the bed. I hurried to support him. But look, you're so strong you can almost stand on your own. My heart slowly swells like I've found a drop of water in the midst of the loneliness of space. Song

Yesterday Once More 

Gently and resonantly played from the player. Even if it is rude to make loud noises in a hospital. But Karen's cries faded. Loudly, the story of the past is recalled. Her singing voice was as beautiful as anything I had ever heard before. Combined with the music that pierces the heart smoothly and without criticism.

It felt like she was listening to this song for the first time again. She gently danced slowly with her weak body. I hugged her from behind. Support her gently Move to the melody

Look at you, even now your skin is wrinkled. The hair is starting to become thin and gray. Has she really slimmed down like this? I never noticed my wife. How long has it been since we were this close? Look at her now, she's still beautiful. Why am I so stupid? Can't we still dance like teenagers? The music slowly fades away.

It was quiet and I put her back on the bed. I sat with my face on her stomach like a little child with its mother. She used her hand to caress my head softly and gently.

“Since when did I have a nosy husband?” she smiled fondly.

“I just want to be with you longer.”

“I'm really glad we love each other this much. I really made the right decision by resigning that day, don't you think?”

“You don't blame yourself for being like this. Otherwise, I will be truly angry.”

“We have to go home and eat stew together,” I said with sobs mixed with tears.

“Sure,” she replied with the most beautiful smile of my life.

The night has passed No one knows when you and I fell asleep. The morning light slowly peeked through the curtains. The light was as warm as a mother's womb. But what if this light might not be sunlight but just the light of a little firefly? that was bright for only a blink of an eye and then extinguished If this warmth is only temporary Probably because it was immediately replaced by her lifeless coldness.