It is the first short story. Without conversation hahaha

Focus more on lecturing.

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Please leave Christian and James as well.

Christian and James met at boarding school in middle school. The couple lived in the same room. Christian is outgoing, empathetic, friendly, and sentimental. I am a person who likes to follow my feelings. I don't really pay much attention to the rules. Christians are loved by people. James, on the other hand, is a calm, gentle person.

Doesn't show much emotion They are stubborn and adhere to their ideas. Choose authenticity over personal emotions. A clean-cut, organized man, one day Christian noticed that James looked sad and distressed. Knowing this, Christian began to approach and spend more time with James.

He thought he might be able to help James more or less. Christian likes to tease and tease James and always smiles. He liked it when James was shy. That still face Slowly revealing a smile Squinted eyes with his head bowed as if to hide it completely like that Christian was especially observant and attentive to James.

He knew what James liked, what he didn't like, and he knew how to say things that would make James laugh. Because of that smile and those eyes Before he knew it, Christian had fallen in love with James and thought of him as more than a friend. James smiled more, was happier. Until James began to wonder about Christian's actions and the strange feelings that were building up inside himself.

He enjoyed spending time with Christian. He likes it when Christian teases him to make him feel embarrassed. He loved the way Christian held his hand and put his arm around his shoulder. He loved being woken up by this friend's sweet voice. Love the warmth of Christian's hands in winter. I like walking to school together. I like that Christian is cute and caring.

He looked out for this friend like never before. Keep yourself close Even though his stubborn nature prevents him from being the first to speak up. The days move by. James began to doubt his own feelings for this friend. It made him nervous. and not being yourself

Even though his face was smooth and expressionless, But who knew how turbulent his heart was? He thought he'd fallen in love with this friend. Everything seemed to go smoothly and the two were happy to be together. spend time together But how could life be that easy? The love that exists comes along with the guilt of what is.

James is a conservative who stands for faith and righteousness. He knew that God viewed the love of two men as sinful and abhorrent. The society around these two people repeatedly reminded them of this. He knew that this love could not be revealed and could not be accepted. Even though he had some special feelings for this friend.

But righteousness was like a noose around his neck. It forced him to choose, to make a decision, no matter how painful it was. James then began to try to distance himself from Christian. From when they used to walk to school together. Sit and eat together in the cafeteria. Talk and laugh together Small things in everyday life that show care for one another.

It turned out to be cold and distant. James was beginning to fear the eyes that were staring at them both. Afraid that others will notice Afraid of being judged James had to suppress his emotions. Even though inside my heart was in so much pain Christian, faced with James' coldness and distance, felt very sorry.

But he understood well the other party's reasons and feelings. Even though they have never opened up to each other about their feelings. But because he knew James well, he retreated and kept a distance between them. Christians continue to do small everyday things that show constant care. Like folding James' blanket in the morning.

Waiting to wake up James to go to school Or buy some food for the day James wakes up late. Christian did it to say that his good feelings for James were still the same. He understood James' feelings well. He knew that James would always choose what was right first. He will choose God. Choose your family, choose your society.

Choose to follow the traditions laid down by religion and society. No matter how much pain you cause yourself Christians understand this well. But Christian made his feelings known to James through various actions. Christians ignore God's rules. I don't care about the thoughts of family members or society.

He chose to listen and follow his own heart. But no matter how overwhelming the feeling is, Christian chooses to continue living as a good friend as he has always been. The topic of their feelings or relationship was never brought up to cause James any embarrassment.

Both of them had to suppress their feelings. One side is afraid of being judged. One side because of fear That saying all your feelings directly would make this relationship worse. In this matter, Christians themselves are at a loss for solutions. He walks the path of happiness all the time. But when he neared the destination, he found himself blocked by a sky-high wall.

The wall called God's destiny and destiny When there's no way to proceed Therefore it must be avoided helplessly. He had to keep his eyes closed, his face hidden, trying to keep his distance both physically and emotionally. All in order to prevent his little heart from being hurt further. Even though in his heart he wanted to hug the other person as tightly as possible.

Whispering out all your feelings and only hope for a response that the other party felt the same way Tears flowed in the hearts of the two of them. It was a pain that was difficult to describe. He felt as if everything had passed recently. The warm feeling of James's lips on his forehead was still that strong.

The lights of the annual festival still burned brightly in his memory. He remembered it well. He had just returned to his residence. James walked in slowly. Choose to invite him to a festival just the two of you, overlooking many other classmates. Christian didn't know until he noticed two attendance stamps on James' wrists while the two of them were walking through the festival. Yes.

James has been to this event twice now. And when I met him It must have been when James had just returned to his room. At that time, he couldn't help but feel embarrassed. The word love was spoken through the strange lyrics that James wrote that day. Still ringing in my ears repeatedly Even though we really are that happy Life often pulls us up to great heights.

Then he threw it down until it shattered. Life is always like this. While we are so immersed in happiness that we forget ourselves Suffering crept in until it was close to the tip of my nose. The story reaches its final scene. When both of them graduated A crossroads in life has arrived. On different roads Both of them had to walk away from each other.

Each person has a life that they choose, each person has a dream that they must pursue. All that is left is a light dust that settles in the memory.