The love that has secretly liked one person for many years, never forgotten, willing to watch over and watch from a distance …………………….

Hello, my name is Irin. Now I'm 24 years old. I used to study technical school. One in Ubon Ratchathani province. Plastic Mold Factory Mechanics Department But now we have completed our studies at the Vocational Certificate level. We will tell you a story about when we were in school and secretly liked someone all along………….

Looking back to 4 years ago

Study period for Vocational Certificate 1, first day of classes, semester 1

the next morning I woke up and got dressed to go to the villa at 6:30 a.m. because I had to line up to salute the national flag at 7:20 a.m. When I arrived at the villa I was greeted. with normal friends

Friend: I haven't seen you in a long time. How about this cold one?

Me: Oh, Padi.

Friend: Teacher lets meet at your usual place.

Me: Hey, have you eaten yet? Do you want something to eat? Finished standing in line.

Friend: All of this.

Me: Yes, but I need to have a department meeting first.

Friend: Well, when I finished lining up. They went together to the front of the department to a department meeting. When they finished, they went to the cafeteria.

At the cafeteria

Ku: Why are there so many people looking at me? What did I do wrong?

Friend: Are you wearing a short skirt? You look at how short your skirt is.

Ku: Oh, haha.

Then they all sat and ate until they finished and then walked into the department.

Oh, I forgot to mention that I like a new teacher. He is 2 years older than me. He comes to teach in my department. But he doesn't teach vocational certificates or me. He teaches vocational certificate students.

When evening came, we went to sit and hang out with friends as we usually do every day because we have a shop for the team and we go there very often.

During the time I was studying Vocational Certificate 1 It was a chaotic time. There's a lot about internships. Because I have to do an internship for 1 year.

After studying for 6 months, time passed until the internship day. I went on an internship for 1 year before returning to study. I miss you sometimes. But we didn't talk at all at that time because I thought he probably already had a girlfriend. So we didn't want to be busy. As time passed, during the 1 year internship period there was both happiness and suffering mixed together, and we learned many more things. I had a boyfriend at that time.

I'm also an apprentice. At that time, I had been dating my boyfriend for about a year, during internship time 1. We lived together throughout the year until the internship ended. We went back and forth to see each other regularly. After a few months we broke up. Because he was unfaithful Go live with another woman During that time we were crazy for many days haha.

When we came back to study Vocational Certificate 2, semester 2, which at that time, during the Covid period, there was very little going to the villa. I studied online for 1 week, went to the villa for only 2-3 days, and didn't meet any professors I liked. We'll see each other in a long time. Until one day We began to talk and become closer. From never being able to chat to talking, from never being able to call each other to calling and talking for hours, there is

But there were a lot of people who flirted with us during that time because I was single. Including friends and teachers, but we don't like them. I didn't talk to anyone. Hope we can talk with Ajarn. One day we called him. And then it's wired. So we started to feel like we had to withdraw. We stopped talking for a while, “Are you stupid? Hahaha.”

Until we graduate We rarely see each other anymore. It was very sad at that time. I missed him but couldn't say. It's been a long time since we've seen each other.

One day we went to discuss with him that we liked a person. What should we do?….. He answered us that if you like someone, go flirt with them. At that time we will flirt with him. But I don't know why. We told him that we liked him, but we chose not to continue talking. “I'm probably crazy, haha.”

After another year, another friend of his came to flirt with me. At that time I didn't want to talk. I don't feel anything. I just want to win haha. Then I stopped talking to his friend for several months. Then during New Year's, his friend greeted me and asked to be his girlfriend. At that time, I was secretly confused, but then we didn't get along. Haha. After being together for a short while, we argued a lot until we had to break up. Haha until one day I don't know why.

We came back and talked about things that we couldn't forget. And then 5555 come back and talk to Teacher Nee. But we didn't talk all the time. We came and went and talked and talked. Just brother and sister, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha But I talked with him in a life-advising style haha ​​with him for a whole week, talked 1 time, what? Haha.

And now it's the status They are brothers and sisters. We can talk about things and discuss things. When I'm heartbroken, I consult him. Haha. Even if he's heartbroken, he comes to vent. Haha. What the fuck is this relationship? Haha. But I've never forgotten him. Oh, I remember that I disappeared for a year when I didn't talk because a junior told me that he had a girlfriend.

He posted pictures of his girlfriend, like normal, crazy in love with each other, so I backed off like I didn't want to talk because I was so angry, haha. But what right do I have to be angry at him? I'm confused too, but now I think about it.

Until now, it was I who couldn't forget him. It's not that I can't forget my boyfriend, I can't forget him. Haha. I'm always looking for him. I don't know why, but it was me who was at fault for going out with his friend. But I secretly hoped that he would open up and talk. But it's impossible, but I don't know why I'm still hoping. I'm also confused. I don't talk to anyone. There's no one.

Never opened up to anyone again. But he didn't come to like me. He lives his life. It's only us who tries. I don't know what I'm waiting for.

In the end, I am very confused about this relationship and don't know what to do next. I can only take it one day at a time. 55555555