only you

Kai x Baekhyun

I promise to love only you. That I will love only you

That I will love only you

For a long time, I will love only you. I'll love only you.

I want to have only you.

..Open your eyes, close your eyes and dream. The only thing in your mind is about that one person. The person who, no matter how many seconds you still breathe, I will still 'love' unchanged.

..because the heart never lies.

The heart never lies

Fiction by retif

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“Today I haven't seen anyone take any medicine. Please listen to the doctor!"

A small voice called out, causing the tall, slender face to turn and look. Slender fingers nudged Kim Jongin's head angrily because no matter what he said, this younger man would rarely do what he wanted. Jongin just sighed and reluctantly picked up a few pills in a clear glass and poured them into his mouth, smiling as he swallowed the bitter things down along with the clean water.

“What can you smile about!”

“Is it wrong to smile? Scold me every day so I can take the medicine. If you don't scold me, I won't take it.” A sick person who hates taking medicine like Kim Jongin just gives up some excuse to get another person's attention. Every day in the hospital, whether you take those drugs or not, they have the same value. Moreover, in Jongin's opinion, not taking medicine was better.

“When I don't take medicine, I can see you. If I eat any day, you won't come to me."

“Just sitting here every day delirious, where can I disappear?”

“Can you come and sit closer?” the younger man asked, but the other man didn't resist, moving closer and sitting down on the white bed that Jongin had been snuggled with for a month.

Strong arms pulled the thin body closer before gently embracing that heart. Slender arms slowly moved to embrace him and he smiled like he always did when he felt this warmth from this tall person. A person who loves..

“Every time I take medicine I have to sleep and when I sleep I can't see you. Even in my dreams I thought I might meet but in the end I never did. I don't want to take those pills, I don't want to sleep, I don't want you to disappear from my sight for even a second. I don't want you to disappear again."

“It's not going anywhere. Keep thinking too much, Kim Jongin!”

“Can you promise that you won't disappear again?”

"Um..Promise. Can you promise that you'll get better?"

There was no answer from Kim Jongin. There was no sign for the little person to understand the sudden and unreasonable action. For only a second, the thin lips were occupied by the tall person. The pounding sound of my heart almost stopped. The little body could never get used to such a sensitive touch from Kim Jongin, no matter how many times it was.

"yeah"

A soft sound in his throat made Jongin break off the kiss with a smile. Just knowing that Baekhyun responded to that touch was satisfying.

"Can't you just tell us first?!"

“What must I say? 'Please kiss me' or 'I'll kiss you in two seconds', which is better?"

"lewd!"

“If you want to kiss someone, you have to tell them first, Baekhyun. There's only you, the only one in the world."

“Yes, the only one in the world,” Baekhyun repeated as Jongin smiled upon hearing those words. 'The only one in the world' Jongin's world where there is only Baekhyun.

“My world.” He rested his forehead against the little person in front of him and smiled widely when he saw those eyes staring back at him before he looked away with a small smile to cover up the shyness that was showing on his hidden expression. Anyway, it's not bad. A thick hand smoothly intertwined all five fingers into the finger grooves of a slender, beautiful hand before gently squeezing to reassure the little person of the stability of his feelings.

"If you're gone.. Will you marry me, Jongin?”

“I trust you. You need to get better, Kim Jongin..”

The last sound from the small figure could be heard before a pair of eyes slowly closed as the effects of the medicine slowly spread. ..The powerful medicine that the large body hates is forcing his mind and heart to gradually forget Baekhyun's story in just a few minutes.

For so long he could hardly count the moments when the owner of the sweet face kept staring at the unconscious person sleeping on the white bed. How long had Jongin been asleep like this? How long had Jongin not thought about himself? How long will it be until this pain and suffering disappears from Kim Jongin? Many of those pains that I want to ease but I can't do anything about.

All you can do is look and cry at the same time. When will those stories end?

“I want this! Kim Jongin!!” A small voice called loudly, causing the tall people nearby to pay attention. People who stubbornly wanted to move forward had to stop because of the pull and the cloudy eyes of the small figure who owned Kim Jongin's heart.

“Huh, doesn't look pretty at all. The one next to me is even more beautiful.”

“Why do you keep interrupting me!” he said as he dragged the large figure to follow him inside the shop.

The many expensive accessories surrounding him didn't catch Baekhyun's attention at all. Aside from the luxurious pair of rings displayed in the glass cabinet, which was decorated with clear crystals that shimmered in the light..

The small figure stood at attention for a long time. The taller person knew what the person next to him wanted with that attitude. His thick, wavy lips held a smile as he followed the little man's every move.

“Damn beautiful!” Baekhyun said as he raised his hand with a platinum ring on his left ring finger to show to the person next to him. Those bright eyes looked at the tall man's face and the expensive ring in his hand like a puppy looking at a new toy. Smiling, he begged another person to buy it for him without any effort.

Which Kim Jongin couldn't deny how beautiful it was, like another person said. Those slender, beautiful fingers that, whether with an expensive ring or a cheap one on the street, look good. And with that smile, every time I see it, it seems like I'm losing my heart every time.. But this time, I'll have to be brave. Refusing to submit because of some hidden reason

“Oh, it's beautiful, but I haven't bought it yet. I'll take you to buy a new one for a while. Now, you don't have to make a face, Baekhyun." He hastened to speak before he could see the familiar expression of the person next to him when he was offended.

"You know I'm not ready to pay for something expensive like that right now." That was the same as every time I'd been offended. His childlike personality was evident from the moment he walked out of that jewelry store. Baekhyun barely spoke to Kim Jongin. If the taller person didn't rush to reconcile, it would have become a long story.

“And if you buy expensive things for your room, you can still pay.”

“But that's our room.”

“This is our ring too.” Baekhyun knew that Jongin's wealth wasn't that bad. Both salary and savings and money from various investments are enough to buy things like this. Baekhyun never asks for anything beyond his means, but this is one thing that he wants to be an exception to. When in your mind you have definitely decided that you will spend your life together.

Just one thing that is like an indication of who we are, we just want to have it and want it like other people.

“I will definitely buy it for you. But can't you just wait?”

“I want it now. If you don't buy it, I can buy it myself.”

“Stop thinking about buying it yourself, it would be better to save the money and use it for something else. I told you that I would take care of you. Whatever you want, I'll give it just now. It might not be time yet."

“And when?”

“Not long now.”

It won't be long before everything will be ready. It won't be long before we truly become a part of each other's lives. When that day comes, no matter what the other person needs, it will be ready for you at any time.

“Can we go back? Tomorrow I have a seminar in the morning. I want to hurry up and sleep. I don't want to fall asleep in the conference room."

“And when watching football late at night, how could you think of something like this!”

“Baekhyun! Byun Baekhyun!!”

There was a loud noise like every time when I opened my eyes and didn't see the person I wanted. Kim Jongin couldn't control himself every time the sedative wore off. Many objects nearby were thrown to vent out a violent anger that could not be controlled. An illness that almost every minute now seems difficult to alleviate.

The treatment did not improve, but only stabilized and deteriorated. ..and every time when something like this happens there is only one person who can stop Kim Jong In, Byun Baekhyun.

“Bring Baekhyun hyung to me!!”

The young man said to the nurse in charge, even though his tears had not stopped flowing. Loud shouts and fierce eyes that sometimes alternately revealed the sad eyes hidden inside. Nurses who had encountered this situation countless times never thought of being angry at Kim Jongin In. But it's a feeling of pity..

The pity that Kim Jongin never wanted from anyone, especially from the man who was Baekhyun.

“Jongin..”

The soft voice in front of the door was the voice of the person in need. The small figure moved quickly towards the tall person before quickly embracing and comforting the tall figure while tears could not be stopped when he felt Kim Jongin's frightened child-like sobs. broken

“I'm here now. Don't cry any more, Jongin. Don't you know that the more you cry, the more it hurts me? Why don't you hurt me, Jongin?

It hurts every time we have to cry together on a day when the other person is weak. How much suffering must it be to fight all that pain alone, Kim Jongin? How long will it take to escape?

“Sorry for disappearing. I'm sorry that when you woke up I wasn't there. I'm sorry, Jongin."

“You're not going anywhere again, are you? Won't lie to each other again, right? Even though I said I wouldn't go, I went.."

“Sorry.. I love you, Jongin.”

There were no words then only body language used to communicate. His tall figure gradually returned to normal. Let your mind be empty all the time being embraced by your little one.

'I told you not to feel sorry for me. I already told you that I don't want to be seen as a pitiful person. Why do I have to cry again, Baekhyun..'

The sound that was only heard in my heart when I felt the sound of my nose sniffling and the slender hand that loosened to wipe away the tears, making myself strong. Kim Jongin closed his eyes again and couldn't stop the tears that wet his white shirt.

“Don't cry because of me again. No matter how hurt I am, how much I suffer, you don't have to feel sorry for me, will you? It's not happy at all. Even now that you're hugging me, I'm not happy at all.”

"If I don't feel anything It probably means that I don't have feelings for you anymore. The day I stop crying will probably be the day I stop loving you, Kim Jongin. Please continue crying like this. Let's not stop each other.”

"no.."

“If you get hurt, I will get hurt. You laugh, I'll laugh. You cry, I'll cry. If you smile, I will smile. We love each other, don't we? Jongin."

“When will I be cured of this crazy disease?!”

“It won't be long, believe me. You're too strong to die, I know.” Even though it was a deceptive comforting word, I still thought about saying it. The little hope he had in his heart didn't want him to know it.

“I don't want to sleep anymore.”

“Are you going to sit and look at my face all day and all night?” He loosened his arms and pulled away to look at his sharp face and spread a small smile so he wouldn't be caught pretending like it was nothing.

“Do you know that I want your image to be the only one reflected in my eyes?”

“Then don't close your eyes,” he said in a softer voice as his hands gently caressed her soft hair. His deep gaze stared at his slender eyes for a long time, causing the other person to almost forget everything he was thinking about. ..Jonggin's eyes said everything as clearly as his heart felt.

“I can hear your heartbeat every time you're near me.. It hasn't changed at all from the first day we met until today.”

“Do you remember our first day?” Strong arms wrapped around the little man as he lay on the same small bed that was filled with the smell of medicine, the smell of disinfectant, the smell of a hospital.

“Remember, you used a yellow umbrella while I wore a yellow raincoat.”

“Because you look like a duck, I look.”

“If neither of us had used yellow that day, we might have walked past each other without thinking about each other. You laughed at me because I was wearing a yellow duck raincoat. I laughed at you when you used a yellow umbrella like my shirt. They walked in opposite directions and suddenly stopped to look at each other and laughed among themselves. Did we go crazy then? Jongin.”

“Um, we're both crazy..”

“I'm sorry I laughed. There really is no manners at all.” A tall figure with a low voice said first, still trying to suppress a smile. With a strange man who just happened to be walking in the opposite direction and caught the eye of a small figure in a brightly colored raincoat, cute like a kindergartener, even though everyone was now in the university area.

"It's okay. I laughed at you too."

“Do you want to go with me first?”

“Huh?” The little man looked down at himself, still in his yellow clothes. It would be quite funny to walk under that umbrella all dressed like this.

“I mean somewhere that can shelter from the rain. Waiting for the rain to stop.”

“Um, but I wouldn't take your umbrella. It would be funny if I wore a raincoat and an umbrella too. I'm going to the coffee shop over there.." After saying that, he lowered his head and hurriedly walked out, not knowing that the people still standing there were watching and smiling along with the sound of their hearts barely beating. Rhythm like never before

“Do you study here or are you just passing by?” The small figure chatted as he walked inside without the yellow uniform at this time.

“Fourth year aeronautical engineering, what about you?”

"I've graduated. Just stopping by to do some paperwork."

“Then you must be called a senior. The senior's name is…” Kim Jongin waited for the answer. His eyes stared at the little man in front of him and he smiled before softly saying his name.

“Baekhyun,” the small figure answered, acting like he was reading the drink menu in the store.. He already knew what he wanted to order, but he pretended to look away like that because he was still suspicious of his own actions. With that stranger who happened to be walking in the opposite direction, just asked to go somewhere and he easily agreed, like he didn't have to think about anything first.

“Jongin, my name is Kim Jongin.” A young boy who was only a year older than him introduced himself with a friendly smile while Baekhyun turned around and had to turn back in the same direction to greet him. Holding back a small smile of your own. Just seeing a beautiful smile on a dark face makes it seem like everything is completely distorted, whether it's your posture or your eyesight.

or even the sound of the heart

"pleased to meet Today must have been a rainy day and I suddenly got to know one more junior.”

“What about the other days..”

“Can I get to know you some other day? If you don't mind."

Baekhyun's mouth curled into a smile while the tall man in front of him smiled as well. For almost a minute there were no words from either of them, only two eyes that exchanged questions and waited for each other's words.

“Are you going to flirt with me?”

"That's right. If you dare to ask, I dare to answer..yes."

The little figure heard the answer and just smiled and shook his head lightly. With an incident like this for Baekhyun, it wasn't the first time someone asked to get to know him, but it seemed like it was the first time, probably because the tall person in front of him spoke directly and seemed so confident in his actions even when they got to know each other. That hadn't even been an hour yet.

"Why? Don't you believe me?"

“I don't know, I don't know anything. I wrote the drink menu I want to eat on this piece of paper. If you guess correctly what it is, I will treat you to Kim Jongin the next day.”

The tall figure smiled slightly at what he had just heard. 'Next day', what that word meant, he knew well in his heart. But I didn't think about it one bit because whether the answer was right or wrong, on any given day, Kim Jongin still wanted to get to know Baekhyun.

“Water,” Kim Jongin's thoughtless answer made the other person almost unable to hold back their laughter. The paper in his hand was immediately opened for the tall man to read.

'Water'

"You're the first person to answer correctly."

“It shows that you have played like this many times before.”

Baekhyun swayed his shoulders slightly when he heard Kim Jongin's words. Just by looking at Jongin's eyes, you know what that person is thinking. It definitely wasn't the couple's first experience.

“I answered correctly. Give me your phone.” Jongin placed his elbows on the table and held out his hand like a winner. The other person did not resist anything and willingly agreed to go easily.

“How do you know the answer, Kim Jongin?”

“Because I want to get to know you,” he replied, returning the phone to the original owner without forgetting to smile as he always did. What else can the person who receives do other than smile back?

“Don't you have class?”

"Yes, I have it now, but I'm stuck with you, so I'd rather not go to school."

“Okay! Do you think you're in first year of school?"

"And you, have you finished your business?"

“Um, just in time to return, the rain just started falling.”

“Your raincoat is cute.”

“Don't talk about that shirt again. It's embarrassing, what the hell am I doing to stop and make you laugh?” Baekhyun raised his hand to the fan near his face to ward off the heat rising from his embarrassment as he recalled what had just happened.

“You made me look at you and then walk toward you, even though I actually didn't intend to walk that way at all. And I don't think you'll stop looking at me like I stopped looking at you. At first glance, my mind looked like a yellow duck running to find shelter from the rain. But when I saw clearly, I was not a duck..”

“That's right, I'm a person, not a duck!”

“My second thought after mistakenly thinking that you were a duck. Once you see it clearly You were so cute when you stopped to look at me and laughed like I was acting crazy. If it had been anyone other than my older brother, I might have been punched in the face.”

Baekhyun smiled slightly when he heard those things from Jongin. I didn't know what else to say from then on. It was like the more we talked, the more bombs were being bombarded. Open, confident, and talkative..that's what defines Kim Jongin from the first time we met..

“You back then were no different from the you you are today, Jongin. A bold-mouthed child..” A slender, beautiful finger gently caressed the cheek of the tall person who was watching every action of the person they called her lover.

“Today and the days to come, nothing will change..”

“Do something, Jongin. Make me angry, do whatever makes me angry. ..It's been a long time since you haven't asked to reconcile with me. You know what, I love those times the most when you do whatever I want, no matter what I say or want. I can't even be angry at you for five minutes, but I like to tease you to give in to me more.”

“I always like to be asked to do strange things. I suddenly want to make you angry.. I want to get better quickly. Then I will make you angry at me every day so I can always follow you. Are you lonely that I'm like this?"

"Oh, hurry up and recover quickly and come back strong as usual." His slender arms tightened his embrace tighter than before. He buried his face into his broad chest and closed his eyes as if he was receiving all the feelings from the warm embrace of a tall person.

“Can it be like this forever? Before I closed my eyes or even when I woke up it was like this. Seeing you up close like this makes me really happy.”

“Why not, Jongin?”

“It really can be called that, what I am. The happiness of loving someone That person who wants to spend their lives together until the last day they breathe. I'm happy that you walked in and didn't walk away. I am extremely lucky that I got to know you.”

Many words that I don't know why ended in tears. Overflowing feelings that cannot be fully expressed can only be felt with the heart. True feelings that both of them know well.

“If I wake up tomorrow, you'll still be here, right? Right..Baekhyun?”

“Hi Jongin, it's good that I came today when you weren't asleep.”

“I'm tired of sleeping every day. When will I be able to leave the hospital? Can you ask the doctor for me, Junmyeon hyung?”

“Are you going to ask me every day you come?” Junmyeon said as he sat down on a chair not too far from the bed. The only blood brother that Jongin has. The person today was not in any less pain than his younger brother. Every time I come to visit and see the image of Kim Jong In raging, unable to control himself, the tears of a very strong man like Junmyeon must flow easily.

“Because you can't come see me every day. Baekhyun hyung has to take care of me every day. I feel sorry for Baekhyun hyung. Can't you come and see me often, Junma?!”

“I saw you only called for Baekhyun. I'm not that important.” Junmyeon played along as his younger brother held up a thumb to stop making noise and leaned forward towards the white sofa.

"Don't be so loud. Brother Baek is asleep, can't you see?"

“Ummm, okay, sorry for being too loud. Baekhyun almost always falls asleep when you come to see us, so we haven't talked in a while.”

“So how many minutes will you be here today?”

“Sarcasm again! We could last an hour today.” Jongin almost always had to be sarcastic. The longest time Kim Jonmyeon had visited her brother was two and a half hours. Even though Junmyeon tried to find time to visit Jongin as much as he could, he only managed to come often, but he didn't come for long because of his many work responsibilities that hardly gave him time to move around. Wow!

“You should probably take some vacation. The job is like a person who hasn't slept in weeks.”

“Um, I'll give it another month and then I'll probably take a leave right now and I'm working on a big project. I haven't been here for a long time, so don't be disappointed."

"I know. You said it sarcastically. I know you're tired."

“Just now, when walking up, I was in the opposite direction from Dr. Do. The doctor told me to come down and talk with him. Do you want anything when I come up so I can stop by and buy it?”

“I don't want anything. Oh, and don't flirt with the doctor. Doctor Do has a girlfriend."

“Oh, I know a lot! I'll be right back.” Jongin nodded and laid down on the bed again. But he hadn't been able to rest for long before a voice from the shadow-like person sounded.

“Is Brother Jun coming?”

"Oh, how do you wake up so early? You say you're so sleepy."

“Uncle Junmyeon came, why didn't you wake me up? Let it lie down.” The small figure walked up and stood, his arms and legs coming closer, then he jumped up and sat on Jongin's bed before burying the tip of his nose on the tall man's cheek as was his habit.

“Jonggin can shave his beard now,” Baekhyun smiled as he spoke, while Jongin let out a chuckle and raised his hand to rub his chin to examine himself.

“Did he poking you in the face?”

“Oh, you can take it out this evening. You know that I don't like this.”

"Yes, I understand. And what else do you want for jumping up and sleeping with me.."

“It's much more comfortable to sleep there, it's narrow and you'll die here,” the small figure answered without thinking, immediately leaning down to take the place of the tall person, not paying any attention to the mischievous eyes that were staring there.

“Baekhyun” called his name and rolled over to straddle his small body. He moved his body closer until their faces were almost close together, hoping to make the red-faced little man shout out loud, but that didn't happen. Still lying there, eyes closed, not knowing what was hot or cold.

“Oh, what?”

“Aren't you afraid of what I'll do? Even a little bit is good.”

“What are you going to do? This is a hospital, not at home.” Raising both hands, he squeezed the cheeks of the person above him until they were crumpled, then smiled and enjoyed being alone, playing off the people who wanted to tease him, almost losing the mood to tease him.

“It can be anywhere.”

“Oh, you idiot! Go down, go down, not gently, Jongin.” A slender hand pushes his handsome face out of sight with a smile while the other person only resists, shaking his head, refusing to stay in one position.

"Oh, bear, don't be stubborn!"

Jongin smiled and stopped as the other person wanted. The small figure beneath him revealed a satisfied smile before giving one reward to the stubborn but obedient person.

Pressing the back of the tall figure's neck to receive a quick kiss, he released his hand before pointing his finger and ordering him to go back down and lie next to him as before.

“Where is it enough, Baekhyun-hyung?”

He twitched a mischievous smile before carefully placing his lips on the beautiful colored petals. Before slowly spreading a smile when he saw those slender eyes that were smiling as well. Slender hands gently caressed his handsome face with a light touch before giving the other person a kiss himself..

The sweet touch lasts for a long time. Let your mind think back to the happy stories of the old days. Over and over again that is not enough..over and over again that is not enough. No matter how many times it is, it probably won't be the last time..for Kim Jongin.

“You're so talented, just like this!”

“Well..there are good teachers.”

The tall figure smiled in satisfaction at the joking and embarrassed answer of the person below him before turning over and lying next to the small figure as before, with a wide smile still on his face.

“Suddenly I want to listen to that song again..” Kim Jongin said suddenly, causing the eyes of the person next to him to turn and look. That song mentioned ..Baekhyun's song

“Actually, I recorded that song but now I can't find the file.”

“It's been a long time since I haven't listened to that song. Try closing your eyes and Jongin will hear you.” A beautiful smile from a sweet face made the tall man easily do as he said. Slowly closing their eyes, they slowly recalled the moment of that dreamy song.

“Baekhyun hyung, I'm here. Where are you?” A tall voice called out, drawing a smile from the younger one, who sat silently in the soft light giving a warm feeling as he looked at the candle flames in the medium sized practice room that was. Work of music teacher Baekhyun

“I saw the door and opened it, Jongin.” I was amused by Kim Jongin's timeless awe. Thinking of the image of the people outside, they probably stood there confused and timid, daring to open the door to come in even though they knew that at this time there was no one else in this place, like every time Jongin came. Taking Baekhyun back in this dark time

"elder sibling.."

“You're really late, the candles are all melted,” Baekhyun said with a small smile when he saw the image of a person standing in front of the door looking shocked. A room that Jongin seemed familiar to every day, but today it was different. The only lights that were currently lit were the beautiful scented candles scattered on the floor and on the luxurious black piano where Baekhyun sat.

“What are you doing..”

“Happy birthday, Kim Jongin.”

Before there was a word from the birthday person who almost forgot his own birthday, a clear sound began to be heard from the first note of the song being played on the piano that Baekhyun was best at playing. His sweet face smiled as he secretly looked at the tall man who was approaching with a smile that was not the slightest bit different.

His fingers glided across the black and white keys following the notes he had composed as a birthday gift to the one of the most important people in his life.

The sweet melody sounded warm, as if it could miraculously relieve the chills from the cold air that was covering it. One's heart swells with happiness like never before, eyes fill with clear water droplets and a smile that looks as if today there is only this one thing that can make one happy..

Something that I have never received from anyone before, no matter how much love I have had, with this person it is different. People who every day think about wanting to spend their lives together until the last day.

“The luckiest thing in this life is that you walked in, Kim Jongin.”

The little figure spoke up as soon as the song ended. Looking up at the tall man standing in front of him with a smile that seemed like it would not disappear for a second from Kim Jongin's sight.

“Thank you, Baekhyun,” his sharp face bowed low and he said in a deep voice before slowly raising his head to look at the little person who didn't know when he had appeared standing in front of him.

"Are you really going to cry? Giant!" He just said it teasingly, but his actions were something else.. Small arms moved to hug the tall man tightly, burying his face on his broad chest with a smile painted all over his face.

“No one has ever done anything like this. So I couldn't say anything. How much I used to love you, now it's so much more that I don't know how much I love you anymore."

“If you didn't love me, you wouldn't do it like this, right? I don't say the word love often. On any important day, I still act like normal. But you know, right? Jongin, that I love you. Sometimes I feel guilty that you say you love me every day but I never say those words. You're not angry, are you?”

“No, I never thought of being angry, just that sometimes I felt hurt. And those feelings of resentment suddenly disappeared when I saw you do something to let me know that what you did was for me. You have become the person taking care of my personal life. You know that means you are now a part of my life.”

“So every day you take care of me, aren't you a part of my life, Jongin? Thank you, no matter how tired I am, you always take good care of me. Do you like the gift?”

“Um, I like it the most, and I would like it even more if the gift was Baekhyun oppa.”

“Where have those hurtful eyes gone from just now, Kim Jongin?!” A thin hand slammed into the tall man's chest, even though his body was still tightly wrapped around him.

“It hurts, it hurts! Today is my birthday, right Baekhyun hyung?”

“When it's your birthday, you know what I'm thinking! You can do it any day, you idiot! Today I don't want to let go!!”

"Look at how you created the atmosphere!"

Just Baekhyun, seeing the mischievous look in his eyes and the mischievous smile at the corner of his mouth, knew everything Kim Jongin wanted and knew that it would be difficult to disobey or ban those thoughts.

“Oh Jongin, can't you just let it go overnight? I meant to make you so moved that you would shed tears. I didn't mean to make you think anything like that. Don't you see the intention at all? Can I be angry now?!”

“I'm teasing you. Why not? Tears will flow from the moment I open the door. Did you know that still smiling at you while watching you play the piano, you have to hold back the tears and keep them from flowing? It's difficult. It feels so good I don't even know what to say.”

Releasing the arms that had been teasing the small man, he wrapped his arms around his shoulders and walked back to sit at the same piano again.

“Can you play it for me one more time?”

A soft voice, like a whisper, made the other person easily comply with the request, with a tall person sitting nearby watching. ..The same song was played again, but this time there was not only music, but there were also soft voices accompanying the song to clearly convey the meaning of the song to others.

Do you know when we first met?

When did the memory occur?

When did the two of us start to waver?

Or will it be when you have to lie down and regret it?

Or when we have to be far away It made me realize that I only miss you.

And now, at this time, a year has passed.

Let the stars be like a witness of love

I promise to love only you. That I will love only you

That I will love only you

For a long time, I will love only you. I'll love only you.

I want to have only you.

“You have never sung a song for me before. This is the first time,” Jongin said, looking deep into those beautiful, sparkling eyes while the other person only looked back and then ducked away to form a smile all alone. ..Jong In's eyes were so deep, who could bear to look back for that long?

“Because?”

“The most, for me, is the most beautiful.”

“This song belongs to you now. I made you Jongin.”

“How many thousand thanks will be enough?”

“No need to thank me, just keep loving each other like that. That's enough. You can do it, right?”

The thick figure nodded in confirmation of the promise. Gently caressing the soft hair before slowly leaving a gentle kiss on the beautiful, round forehead before the small body moved closer and hugged the tall person again.

“I really believe that you like hugs.”

“Well, it's the best. A hug tells you every feeling. If you're happy, hug. If you're sad, hug. If you want to comfort, hug. It's like talking but there's no sound. If you hug me and it's warm, you'll die. Don't you like it?"

“Today, Yellow Duck used the perfume I bought for him.”

“My boyfriend bought it for me and I have to use it. I use it often too. Lately, many kids have said that I smell good.” Baekhyun pulled away. Speak with a smile, showing off beautiful straight teeth, almost all of them complete.

“I'm jealous.”

“Be possessive of children. And who bought it? Who said that it's good to use this scent and that I like this scent?"

"Um, I can accept it with children, but if it's an adult, that's a different matter."

“Say something funny, Jongin, you idiot!”

“Teacher Baekhyun is cute. It's normal for a teacher's boyfriend to be possessive. I don't see anything unusual or funny, right?" Turning to talk to the piano like a living being, even though another person had just accused him of being crazy, he still played and created a fun atmosphere.

“Whoa!

Someone call the doctor..”  

“Teacher Baek, please teach me how to play this,” Jongin said, lightly dipping his fingers into the keyboard.

“Clap your hands at the right time first, Jongin. It's better to learn how to clap first. If you pass, then I'll teach you piano.”

“You look down too much, teacher. Just keep it simple, whatever you press, let me press it.”

Baekhyun didn't say anything, but dipped his finger on the keys twice for two notes and looked at the tall man's face to try to follow. Which was just the first note, Jongin still couldn't follow along and pressed the others randomly, acting smoothly like he wouldn't be caught by another person.

“Damn! Let's go hitchhike like usual.” Baekhyun smacked Jongin's hand who was starting to act wildly.

"It's better to test. Because I've been around the piano since I was a kid, I have to be able to make the right note. If I press one key without looking at it, I have to be able to tell which one I pressed."

“Play like a child, Jongin. Take it, it's easy and you'll die.” Baekhyun nodded to Jongin, starting a game that seemed so easy to someone who had been involved with this thing for I don't know how many years ago.

And the first one that Jongin played Baekhyun just turned to face another direction and then turned around and pressed the same one that Jongin pressed without thinking much. His sweet face now had an expression so irritating that Jongin had to tell him to turn around and press the next note again.

“It's no use, Jongin,” Baekhyun said, smiling and turning around to hit the same note as Jongin without fail, until Jongin had to be the one to stop the ordeal himself.

"weak! Just sit and watch.” He gave a commanding look and carefully played the song as he was accustomed to.

A tall figure sat beside him, silently watching, intent on every action. Look at every movement of your slender, beautiful fingers. He unconsciously smiled when he looked at the corners of his mouth that twitched into a small smile, as if he was very happy when he was with the thing he loved and dreamed about since childhood.

“Phi Baek..”

“Huh?” His eyes widened, waiting for what the other person wanted to say as the two hands that were previously moving on the keyboard seemed to slowly stop as the person beside him at this time moved closer. Sit so close that your body is almost stuck.

Strong hands pulled her thin waist closer to her body. The tall body moved towards the small body while the other person did not retreat. Sending a hand up to raise her chin to admire her sweet face, giving her deep, enticing glances that made another heart tremble until she could hardly have any strength left. Warm breath mingled on the smooth cheek for only a second before thick lips pressed a gentle touch onto the smooth skin.

It didn't take too long for the little body to regain consciousness. He could hardly foresee or control the situation when he felt that his beautiful lips had been snatched away by a tall man. A moist tongue was flickered in to greet in amusement as the small body regained its composure and responded carelessly.

Rough hands gently caressed the beautiful skin with a trembling touch, unable to resist as the aroma of his favorite scent wafted into his nostrils.

The silence that existed here was broken by the sound of two breaths before it was soon swallowed up by the sound of a musical note that the tall man had accidentally pressed even though he had not yet removed his kiss from the small body.

Ding..

The thin hand that had been holding his face moved lower and pressed the same key on the keyboard that he had just heard a moment ago.

Ding..

For so long I don't know when it will end in the love that still flows through each other. Like the sound of a note being repeated again and again.

Ding..

Once again, the tall people's game began without hesitation. His moist tongue swept almost everywhere, holding everything from the sweet mouth as his own, triumphantly before he swung his tongue deep, causing the sensation to flash until the other person accidentally dropped his palm and pressed it on the keyboard, causing an inappropriate sound. will be

peg..!

His hand suddenly left the black and white keys and hung around the tall man's neck. The close touch from the tall person made the little body's consciousness, which was almost nonexistent, disappear in that moment. His breathing was as if he were about to be swallowed up as one, hotter than the flames that were burning around him.

"um.."

A soft moan sounded in his throat, causing the tall man to break the kiss even though the two bodies were still sitting upright. Sweet eyes looked at the large figure, not realizing that the image that appeared before the eyes of another person almost made him not want to stop what he was doing just now.

"You've lost to me.."

There were no more words from the figure from that moment when Kim Jongin's hoarse voice and deep evil eyes were heard. What can be seen is only the body language used to communicate. There were no words spoken to each other, but still, we knew from this minute what would happen next.

[Warning] LOVE SCENE ..COME IN!!

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“I just came and I'm going back now?” the tall man said, seeming displeased when his older brother, who had only been visiting for a few minutes today, acted like he was about to return.

“It's about to rain and I'm afraid of traffic jams.”

“Then why aren't you afraid of your loneliness?”

“Well, I'll come look again tomorrow. I have to run some more errands right now, don't want to be late."

“Oh, wherever you go, go. Baekhyun hyung will come back soon, I won't beg you.”

"Do you want to eat anything tomorrow? I'll buy it for you." Kim Junmyeon smiled kindly and asked in a placating manner, for fear that his younger brother would secretly feel really hurt because he didn't have much free time to come see him often these days.

"No, go ahead or you'll get stuck in traffic."

“You're so sarcastic!” The smaller brother walked back closer to Jongin, pressing the remote to change the channels on the television and making his head sway in annoyance.

“Hey, it's a toy, Jun!” Jongin's voice became serious while a smile appeared on his face in response to his older brother.

“Huh! Go ahead, call me if you have anything.”

"Oh, just call and act like you're coming to see me like that, team leader."

“Well, wait until the work is finished. See you later. I'm going to ask for a month's leave to sit and look at your face until you're bored. Wait and see so you can stop being sarcastic."

“He'll wait..” The tall figure used both his voice and his demeanor to look cute, which he had never seen before before anyone, even Baekhyun. Only Junmyeon had seen everything about Kim Jongin, who had been following each other since we were little.

“Dammit, everyone's got goosebumps!”

“Drive carefully.”

Kim Junmyeon turned around and smiled at his younger brother's final words. No matter how he teased and sarcastically, he always expressed his concern in the end. There are only two people left. What else can they do except take care of each other as best they can?

The tall figure who was the only breather in this quiet room looked at the evening sky, which today was darker than any other day. A large group of clouds moved down low, making the once bright atmosphere every day look dull and depressing to the point of being unsightly. Why are they calling out the loud warning signs that there are signs of abnormal weather?

Before pulling his eyes back to the empty place where the small figure always sat. I can't help but worry about where he is now. Is it close to arriving yet?

“Mr. Jongin..”

A voice called the room owner's attention. A small face with a kind smile emerged from the doorway to greet him first before moving to step inside.

“How did you check me today? Do I need to check again?”

“No, I just dropped by to see you.” The doctor sat down on the chair where Junmyeon had been sitting just a few minutes ago.

“So, does the doctor know what disease I really have? Is it a disease that no one has ever had? It's been a month and I still don't know anything.”

“The doctor himself doesn't know yet, so how do you know? The test results will probably be sent back no later than this week. We'll know for sure. Do you understand that the symptoms you are having overlap with two diseases and cannot be cured in any way? What can be done is as you can see. Just give the medicine to suppress the symptoms first.”

“Doctor, you know, that medicine I really hate. What medicine is it? Why is it that when I eat, I sleep longer than I wake up? Sometimes I sleep all day long.”

“The medicine has a sedative effect. It may be difficult to explain, but believe me, this medicine will make you rest more. Your body will improve accordingly.”

“It doesn't seem to get any better. Headaches become more frequent. Your head will almost explode.”

“Be patient. Once we know exactly what disease you have, we will treat you as quickly as possible. You already have good support.” Dr. Kyungsoo just mentioned Baekhyun and a small smile from the tall man immediately began to appear on his face.

“He must be very tired of me every day, every day that Baekhyun hyung takes care of me. No matter what job it is, people will be sick.."

“Is it a deal?”

Kyungsoo said a secret code that the two of them seemed to know each other like every time. Kim Jongin wanted to tell the stories of his life to the skilled doctor in order to vent his feelings that he wanted to share with someone. To ask for advice on certain matters in order to do everything that is currently going on better.

“Deal.. but how long do you have today's deal, doctor?”

“As much as you want,” Kyungsoo smiled friendly as he waited for the tall man sitting nearby to tell his story.

“It's about to rain. I'm worried about Baekhyun. He doesn't like the rain, he hates the rain even though it's funny because the first day we met was a rainy day. Many stories of me and Baekhyun always happened on rainy days. The first day we met A happy day together or even a day when we are going through bad things and helping each other overcome those things is a rainy day.”

“Once after we had been together for about a year. I got the job while Baekhyun hyung was doing well with his job. As we grow up, we each have our own responsibilities to deal with, plus at that time I moved out to be with Baekhyun hyung, just the two of us. At first everything was fine. We are very happy like people who are just beginning their lives with freedom.

But as time went on, those fun stories gradually disappeared one by one. We are both tired. Everyone needs their own time. We fought so hard that we almost had to break up, but in the end we passed the test.”

“So I promised Baekhyun that I wouldn't make him tired. If we are tired, let us join together to lighten each other's burdens. I made that promise, but now I'm tearing it up. It's like I'm doing something like that again. Things that make him tired.”

The doctor with the fever sat quietly listening, looking at the tall man who at this time was staring out the window where water droplets began to stream down along with the soft roar of the dark sky.

“Ever since I came to be treated at the hospital. It's like Baekhyun hyung's burden is getting heavier than before and I can't help lighten it. He looked so tired that I felt like it was all my fault.”

“Have you ever heard it said? If we love someone, we are ready to do everything for that person. The word tired or the word discouraged will erase those words from that person's life. Because he had really decided that he would do everything for the people he loved. Love is so much bigger than being tired that you can't think of it, Mr. Jongin.”

Do Kyungsoo spoke in a calm voice while looking outside like a tall person was doing at this time.

“You would never have thought, Kim Jongin, that what you said was actually yourself doing that. I know how tired you are right now but you still do everything for Baekhyun.”

“What did I do for Baekhyun hyung besides lying around in the hospital?”

“What you do is you keep thinking about Baekhyun. You are not thinking about your own life or death. You keep thinking about your other heart Do you know how much the things you are subconsciously doing make Baekhyun happy with who he is?”

“How did you know Dr. Kyungsoo that Baekhyun hyung would be happy?”

“Did you see his smile? You should know how happy Baekhyun's smile looks.”

Kyungsoo smiled slightly at his own words as he looked back at Kim Jongin, whose expression now looked a little better than it had in the beginning. As one of Jongin's best listeners, Kim Jongin always said things like this to him.

“Even I myself am happy when I know that there is someone who is thinking of me and caring about me in every situation. Sometimes I feel jealous of Baekhyun, who always has someone thinking of him.”

"And the doctor's girlfriend?"

“Is that one… It's been a long time since I've seen you worry. He doesn't express much like you, Mr. Jongin.”

“Did I express myself that clearly?”

“Ask the nurse taking care of you. Everyone is jealous of Baekhyun-san,” Kyungsoo said with a soft laugh while Jongin could only smile shyly.

“I used to think for fun that if one day I broke up with Chanyeol. Or maybe one day Chanyeol isn't with me anymore. How do I continue to live my life without him? I've thought about those things but I can't figure out what to do.”

“That's because the doctor didn't think he would go,” Jongin turned around and said before turning to look out the window again.

“And have you ever thought about it for fun? That if one day Baekhyun isn't with you.."

“I probably couldn't figure it out like Dr. Don. Because I don't have that idea in my head. The idea that Baekhyun will leave me or that I will leave Baekhyun.”

Crack..

“Baekhyun!” Jongin's voice suddenly sounded louder as the door closed softly, causing Do Kyungsoo who was sitting with him to look after him.

“I thought I was stuck in the rain.” The tall figure still asked his lover with concern, while Kyungsoo just smiled and asked to get away from here.

"Alright, deal time is over. Let's talk later. I believe you have a lot of stories to tell."

“Thank you, doctor.”

“Then let's talk, Mr. Baekhyun.”

The small doctor walked outside with a smile. Just as he walked away, something forced him to stop and continue standing behind that door. Looking back for just a moment, a heavy feeling in my heart suddenly surged in like every time I talked to Kim Jongin alone like this.

This talented doctor at this time had no idea how to treat this patient completely because the situation was too difficult to deal with.

The longer the day passed, the more I heard Jongin's story. The more I listened to many stories, I began to think about blaming fate for playing tricks on this person. Why must good people become the sole bearers of this grief? ..One heart wants to be completely cured, but another heart doesn't think like that.

I am so afraid that this good person will suffer from the terrible disease that he is facing. Because I know how great the pain is. It's more than this person can bear..

“Did you get hit by a naughty student again today?”

“Then try being naughty with Teacher Baekhyun.” The small figure dragged a chair in and sat nearby, resting both elbows on the bed, looking up at the tall person who today had only seen the face of late.

“What are you doing sitting there? Come and sit up here. You really like it, don't you? It's my bed."

“Oh, so what did you talk about with Dr. Do?” The younger one easily did as the other said. He asked and got up and sat on the same bed as Jongin, and when the tall man didn't even have time to say anything, he pulled out his thick hand and squeezed it playfully, until Jongin had to smile before answering the question.

"Talk about your brother."

“Why is it about me?”

“Just consult Dr. Do that if you're very harsh or angry with me, what should I do? Every time something like this happens, I can't do anything. You're too scary."

“Huh!” The younger man shook off the thick hand he was playing with and pursed his lips. Before the tall man smiled fondly and pulled the small body into a hug from behind.

“Really crazy. Just a bit of teasing and it flows along with the water. But when you think about it, you're really scary. Have you never been afraid of yourself when you're angry?"

“When I'm angry, I never look in the mirror, I only look at the face of the person who caused it. Do you want me to tell you about the many heroic deeds that make me angry? Let's start with my work, which happened not too long ago.”

“Not telling seems like a better option, right?” He rested his chin on the small shoulder before resting his head on the other person's, pleadingly.

“I imagine you are very light, Yak, hmm?”

"Oh, can't I just beg you to be cute, Duck!"

Baekhyun didn't say anything else after that. Letting the tall people do whatever they wanted, talking quietly, the two of them competed with the sound of the rain outside, which began to pour down harder and harder.

“Are you tired these days of having to take care of me? If you're tired, please tell me."

“Some days I'm tired from work. But when I came back to see you, I forgot how tired I was before. Don't worry, I'm physically and mentally fine, there's nothing tiring about me.”

“When it rains, what is the first thing that comes to mind? For me, when it rains, I think about the first day we met first.”

“The day the yellow duck met the crazy kid. And then that crazy kid suddenly came and asked to flirt?” Baekhyun turned to look at the tall man who was still hugging him from behind and chuckled before turning around to look at the dark stomach outside again. with his head resting on his broad shoulders

“I don't know if I can call it the first thing I think about on a rainy day, but whenever I think back, I feel good about our story during a bad time, and we got through it until today. ..That day when we almost broke up was also a rainy day.”

Thick, dark mist clouds hung low in the dark sky, covering the moonlight that once shone softly every night. The rain fell heavily on the ground for a long time, which was one of the biggest obstacles that made it difficult for the young man to return home. One thought of people who hate the rain is to blame the sky for causing the rain to be unfavorable on a day when there are so many chaotic things happening that it's almost crazy.

The issue of people alone was enough of a headache, and I still had to be stuck in the rain for an hour before reaching the room. It was already 9:00 p.m. and the first moment I stopped standing in front of the room made me even more upset than before when the door to the room opened. It's not locked like it should be. Even if the other person has returned, you shouldn't leave it like this.

The smell of alcoholic beverages hit your nose as soon as you stepped into the room. Looking from here, not too far away, you could see the broad back of Kim Jongin, who was slumped over the dining table with a beer can in his hand. Baekhyun looked at the picture, sighing in boredom.

Putting the damp bag on the living room table, he bent down to pick up the things that the tall man had left scattered about, beginning to feel helpless.

It's like that time has passed, a time of happiness. It's like this love is slowly approaching the saturation point. Everything that used to be good today has suddenly become an eyesore. What was once right has now become wrong. Everything seemed to be the opposite of the first.

Lately, after work, I came back to my room and kept drinking until I was drunk and fell asleep without thinking about anyone's stories. Asked and answered with almost no words spoken. There was no questioning of any grievances from the people who had always been beside him.

“Why don't you eat anymore?” The small voice sounded loudly as he walked in and cleaned up the food scraps on the table.

“And..?” The tall figure didn't pay any attention to the one person standing there looking stressed. Instead, he raised the beer in his hand and drank it as if sarcastically.

“I don't mind picking you up. I understand that you want to get drunk. But why don't you call first so I don't have to wait?” Baekhyun scavenges his things, his whole body still cool and damp from his rain-soaked clothes.

“Now that you've come back, why are you complaining? Can you not complain for a day? Can I please be quiet for a day? Why do you have to find arguments every day?”

“If you keep quiet, you're not a human being anymore! Who the hell was he who said he was going to pick him up? Who the fuck said they wouldn't drink any of this damn beer!! If you can't do it, you don't have to talk, it's a waste of saliva!”

Baekhyun's loud shout that he couldn't take it anymore only caused the tall man to look up and look away before he said something that made the younger man's good feelings almost shatter.

“The noise is annoying!”

“What the fuck is wrong with Jongin, can't we talk nicely? Tell me, tell me, what's the problem? You act like a child who has problems every day. You're not alone!”

“It's not your problem!” Jongin raised his voice, his free hand slamming the table loudly, his eyes clearly looking at the other person who was now trembling with anger.

“No, saying that I am half of your life is such a stupid thing to say. Just babbling, right?!” Everything he held in his hand was thrown on the ground due to Baekhyun's hot temper, which was many times higher than the younger man's.

The tall figure didn't say anything in response, only having a silent expression with a blank stare that only the man looked at, then turned to look at the dark sky outside before being unable to stand still and having to get up and walk away.

“Try taking another step, Jongin. One more step and we break up!”

“Are you challenging me?”

“If you want to know if it's a challenge or not, try it. ..The more days it gets, the worse it gets, like nothing is getting better. You don't say anything, but you know there's a problem. Haven't you ever thought that I'm not the only one who has headaches coming up all the time? After finishing work, I still had to come back and face this terrible situation again. It's so tiring!!”

Some of them could control their voices so as not to tremble, but that was impossible. Especially in the last sentence that ended with tears, it was like a moment when I didn't want to endure everything that was happening right now.

It's like I've endured too much. It's been quiet for too long. The more you stay, the more uncomfortable you feel. The more I saw it, the more I wanted to cry. …It's like the time hand has ticked past right now. When everything should end

“Where has the old Kim Jongin I once knew gone?! Why don't you walk? Take another step and let it end!”

“Are you tired of being the only one? What will you say? Will you understand anything? These days, no matter how stressed I am with work, you should know. I just want to get off work and come back to myself quietly, eat something to stop thinking about things, and then fall asleep.”

“If you want to be on your own, you don't have to let me come into your life. What does it mean when I do something for another person and that person does everything for themselves? Is that right? Jongin!!”

“What do you know? How do you know that I do everything for myself? You don't know anything!”

“Yes, I don't know anything! You never said anything, never said anything, never told me anything. Acting like I'm an outsider, when I interfere in your business, I get scolded. And what else do you want me to know from you, Jongin!”

The tall figure walked back towards the little man who was still speaking in a loud voice despite the tears still streaming down his face. The thick hand that had only given a gentle touch now tightened on the small shoulder until it was red and streaked.

“Everything, I do it for you. For you alone!”

“What the fuck is that for me? I never saw what you did. I see myself alone every day. You just turned your back on me and took care of your own business without talking or consulting. This is not the kind of married life I want.”

A thin hand brushed off the strong arm that was firmly holding his body with all the strength he still had left..no. Those strengths were almost non-existent.

“I waited for you to go but you never did. It would be me who had to walk away myself. Breaking up would be better than it is like this.”

A hand hurriedly wiped away the tears on his face. Grabbing a beer can that was almost half full, he threw it at the tall man's chest with enough force to cause a red bruise.

Golden-yellow liquid poured out of the spilled can and splattered all over the floor. Before long, another liquid could clearly be seen dripping onto the dark carpeted floor.

Two tears from two people..

No matter how loud the cries from the sky above were, neither of them could hardly hear the fierce sounds. Some of them took steps to avoid the tall person and walked towards the door of the room before their hastening legs were soon interrupted by another person's words.

“Don't go, Baekhyun. ..I need you.”

“Every day I keep myself to myself. Many times I have missed work and it is every time I see you come back tired from work. I've thought about telling you those stories, but it seems like it's only adding to your stress. I'm just thinking about how I can make enough money to have a stable job so that I can live comfortably. I always think.. until..

It turned into this crazy thing. I just don't want you to be tired because of me."

"Do you know anything? The more you do this, the more tired I become!"

The small figure walked back and stood in front of him. The weak eyes that pretended to be strong stared deep into the other's eyes that were overflowing with tears. A slender hand pushes a strong chest until the other person almost stumbles back, which is probably all about strength, both physical and mental..

“Tell me, Jongin, tell me, who told you to live alone? Is it fun and happy? Jongin, answer me!!”

Two slender hands squeezed his strong arms tightly, speaking as if he were unconscious while shaking his tall body, waiting for a word to come from those lips before slowly lowering himself to sit on the ground like a powerless person, letting out tears and crying out. Unashamedly loud

“Does dating me really cause you that much hardship, Jongin..”

“No, it's not like that. I don't know what to do.” Jongin said as he wiped the tears from his face with both hands. Before slowly kneeling in front of the little man who began to hold back his sobs again.

“Do you love me or not? Jongin.”

"Love.. I love you. I'm sorry."

The soft voice and the sad look from the tall person made the other person who saw him cry even harder than before. Two slender, trembling hands slowly lifted up and gently touched Khom's face, using his fingers to wipe away the tears, even though he himself had not stopped crying.

“I'm sorry.”

A trembling voice sounded as tears flowed once more when receiving a gentle touch from the person in front of him.

“Can we talk about this from now on? Can you promise not to build walls or act like I'm just a lifeless, emotionless robot? Can you promise it won't be like this again? We won't be this tired again, Jongin.. Let's do it all again.”

“I'm sorry..”

There was only an apology and teardrops in response as the little one hugged and comforted him with a face still wet with tears.

“Sorry for making you tired. I'm sorry I did something stupid just because I thought it would be nice if you weren't tired because of me anymore. But it's all the things I did wrong. I'm sorry Baekhyun.."

“Huh, can you stop saying you're sorry? Can you say promise to me?”

“Promise, I promise.. everything you said. I promise to be a better person as best as I can for you. Good enough to protect you, I promise.”

“I love you, Jongin.”

The tall figure forced his hands not to tremble as he moved up to hug him in response, stroking his soaked hair to soothe him before pulling the small figure into a hug tighter than before, even though the tears were still flowing non-stop.

The sound of loud sobs competing with the sound of the thunder outside for a long time before gradually quietening as the heartbeat returned to normal again after beating so hard it almost burst out of his chest due to anger and almost How can there be no sound of beating when the pain is so painful that the heart almost breaks..

Kim Jongin cradled his small, weak body against his chest before gently scooping him up and taking him to rest in his room. Sharp eyes stared at the sweet face that used to have only a smile and eyes that used to be bright, but at this time those images were almost nonexistent. There was only a tired-looking face and red, swollen eyes.

Some people's breathing softened before they slowly closed their eyes after capturing the sharp face near them as the last image of this night that was about to pass.

“Everything that happened before It started with me starting to change. That I made you sad until the time that I made you feel alone when you needed a refuge. Everything I did was wrong. I wish..that this will become the last nightmare.”

A low voice drove away the nightmares that had passed for a figure who had just entered the deep slumber. Just a light kiss as a promise.. To love and protect this person as best as a man can in this life.

The sound of the alarm clock rang out throughout the room at the same time as a bright light slowly shone through the room, waking them both up and ready to welcome the new morning in a weather that looked fresh because of the humidity from the drops. The rain in the night sky that just passed

The tall figure looked at the time before turning off the digital clock like a person who was not yet fully awake. It was strange for another person who every day could easily wake up just by hearing a sound, but today he was lying still as if he hadn't heard a single sound.

“Baekhyun hyung, wake up and go take a shower.”

Just reaching out and touching the thin hand, he sensed an abnormally high body temperature. Scrutinizing his eyes, he looked at the old clothes that still hadn't been changed out and immediately remembered before slowly becoming angry at his own folly. ..Yesterday the little man was wet and when he came back he fell asleep.

As he moved his hands to touch his entire body, there was hardly any part that was as cold as it should have been. He turned his little body over to a more comfortable position before gently removing his clothes that were still slightly wet. ..both shirts and hair that are still damp when exposed to the coolness from the air conditioner probably increase the coldness doubly.

What time is it?

“..Jongin.” His slender eyes looked up even though his eyebrows were still furrowed together. That was probably because of the fever that was rushing through his entire body causing a headache that almost made him fall.

“You have a fever. Let me wipe you and change your clothes. How are you feeling right now? Do you have a headache, are you dizzy and do you want to vomit?” One hand is still supporting the small body while the other hand hastily dialed the phone to request a leave of absence from work.

“Headache,” the small figure lowered his head and answered while the tall man pressed his phone and read his body temperature from the mercury that had just been measured a moment ago.

“39, should you go see a doctor?”

“No need, just take some medicine and sleep. If it's still not good, we can go.” The tall figure squeezed his thin hand tightly with a worried expression on his face. That was because it was the first time since their relationship that Baekhyun was this seriously ill and it was the first time he had to take care of a sick person by himself.

"I'm sure."

"um"

“I'll come quickly. Are you okay?" The tall man asked eagerly, fearing that something might happen to the other person. Gently help move the little body to lie down again and quickly run to find clothes and things to reduce a fever.

“It's no big deal, you don't have to look so stressed. It's a fever, it's not cancer, Jongin.” Some people still talk teasingly in order to ease the worries of another person who seems to be sick instead.

“Well, I've never touched anyone and felt this hot before,” Jongin said, adjusting the youngest's clothes properly after wiping himself down to reduce his fever.

“Isn't it a problem, Jongin? I mean..about last night."

"It's me who has to ask you."

Baekhyun smiled at Jongin's words before taking his hand and giving it a gentle squeeze, telling his body language that everything was nothing more. ..It has already passed.

“Now go make something for me to eat so I can take medicine. Go lie down and wait.”

“I'm so glad that my old lover came back. Kim Jong In..is back.”

“It's already dead. Kim Jongin, a heartless, stupid person.” The tall figure left a light touch on soft hair before hurriedly getting up to act as Baekhyun's personal nurse.

The whole day the tall figure looked after the little one and was not far away. Even when some of them are asleep, they are still beside them, never disappearing. I keep checking almost every hour to see if my body temperature has dropped. Hurry and prepare warm food when it's time for the meal before it's time for the medicine.

“You don't have to watch every second like that.”

The tall figure who had fallen asleep opened his eyes when he heard a soft voice and the warm touch of a thin hand that held the tall person's hand and didn't let go.

“Has your headache gotten better?”

“Um, it hurts, but not as much as in the morning. It's much better and you can stop making your eyebrows wrinkle like a pug."

“It's not as hot as it was in the morning and I'm feeling a little relieved,” Jongin said, turning to look at the clock hanging on the wall that said it was already 3:30 in the afternoon.

"Boring, only eating and sleeping. When I sleep, I wake up and eat again." The small figure mumbled alone while the tall man heard it clearly.

“Today, that's all I can do for you. When I get better, I want to go run and play, chasing trees anywhere.”

“Right here.. does it hurt?” His hand gently rubbed the center of his chest where the younger man had thrown a heavy beer can at him out of anger and disappointment. Meanwhile, the tall man only looked at him and shook his head lightly before smiling to show that it really wasn't anything. It had become a small matter compared to the feelings that the little person was almost unable to maintain.

“Is it a bruise?” he kept asking until Jongin had to pull his hand out to hold it.

“I'm fine. Don't think too much about that.”

"excuse me"

“Well, the only time it hit me was even less. I'll still allow you to slap me in the face."

“Now I can't slap you. Now I want to hug you but I can't. You'll get the flu again."

“Holding each other's hands tightly is enough. In the past, I used to hold your hand too loosely, but now it won't be like that anymore. No matter what happens, I will never let go of your hand because I made a promise to you.”

“We will not let go of each other no matter what.”

“Our words from that day still ring true today. I'm glad that it continues like this..and so on.”

“No matter how many times I think back to the events of that day, it always makes me think that it won't happen again. Make sure we really need each other. Things on that day were not pretty and seemed a bit cruel, but it was an expensive lesson that I will probably never forget.”

“I watched you cry until you fell asleep, probably because that matter really made us suffer. If it were anyone else, they definitely wouldn't be able to endure being with me like you. It made me realize how much there is one person who loves me.”

“Miss Jongin, it's time to take your medicine.”

It was the voice of a kind nurse calling out to the elderly person with a smile as she brought in the medicine tray. Jongin only looked back and smiled in thanks.

“Today, Nurse Choi doesn't have to watch me take my medicine. I definitely ate it because Baekhyun hyung forced me.”

“Yes, I won't be watching today,” the middle-aged woman said in a gentle voice, smiled at the two of them in a familiar way, then immediately walked back out, allowing the tall man to take care of himself as he had said.

“Oh, go take your medicine so you can rest. I'm sleepy now too.” Someone got out of the tall man's embrace and walked to stand at the foot of the bed, waiting to watch the tall man take the medicine the doctor had ordered.

He barely resisted when the youngest gave an order. A small, empty glass was placed on a nearby table before he slowly leaned on the clean white mattress and stared at the little person who was still standing in the same place.

“Today it's like Dr. Do has increased the medicine for me.”

"That's good. You'll get better soon."

“I have to sleep again. Those drugs are..”

“Oh, I have to sleep too. Take a rest and then wake up and talk again.”

“When I wake up, I have to see you next to me as usual..”

"good night.. Kim Jongin”

The last loud sound was heard before everything turned into a bright white light.. Delete everything that was there Delete everything that used to be What pictures have you ever seen? Now..no more

“It's time for you to give me your answer. A month ago, you must have thought everything through carefully. Now Kim Jongin's whole life depends on you.”

The doctor's calm voice spoke to the little man, who at this time had a pale, haggard appearance. Full lips moved, but not a loud sound could be heard.

“Will you cure Kim Jongin completely or will you let him live his dream..”

Countless times, Kim Junmyeon's brain thought about this matter. The story of Kim Jong In.. An illness that wanted to be cured but came at the cost of suffering and it took Jongin's strong mind to get through that time of suffering. But another thought was that he wanted to let his younger brother His own life is like that.

Living with dreams, living with imaginary images Living with the image of him being happy because he knew how much pain Jongin had in the past because of those bad things that had happened. Junmyeon didn't want his brother to go back to that. I want to see that smile every day. But if we let it be like that, it would be no different from letting Jongin die from the real world while still breathing.

Everything today is a story that happened unexpectedly a month ago…

“Junmyeon hyung told me that I'm busy today and I'm in a hurry. I'll go look at it tomorrow.”

“What are you doing when you're busy?”

“I want Brother Baek to marry me. That's all for now. I'll call you. Bye!" Kim Jongin hung up the phone without thinking about the person on the other end of the line who might be confused and yelling at him because he didn't say anything first. Putting the cell phone down on the table, he looked down at the object and smiled.

“I bought it for you,” he said to the ring box on the table. ..That pair of rings that the youngest person ever wanted. And then I told you that 'When the time comes', that is, this time to ask that one person to truly live together after saving up all the money to build themselves up well now.

A strong hand grabbed the ring box and put it in his pocket and dialed Baekhyun's phone to ask if he had arrived at the appointment yet, but there was no response from the other side. So I decided to walk out of the office and drive straight to the restaurant that had been reserved as a special place for the night.

“Why don't you answer the phone, Baekhyun?”

Jongin talks nonsense almost every time, no matter how many times he calls, the other person never answers. Until now, when Jongin has already arrived at the appointment, Baekhyun is still silent and has no contact.

“Or did you just arrive and forgot your phone? But I'm not a forgetful person..” Jongin muttered to himself before smiling as he grabbed the ring box and put it in his pocket and got out of the car and walked straight into the restaurant.

“I reserved the second floor. My name is Kim Jongin.”

said this to the store employee and turned to look at the people who were starting to wake up and walk out of the park with expressions full of doubt.

"Please come upstairs. Two places please."

“The other person who will be coming with me hasn't arrived yet, right?”

“Yes, no one has come yet.”

“Yes, then what happened? Why..”

“On the road, in the alley next to the shop, it must have been an accident. It was as if I had just seen the police arrive just now.”

“Oh, is that so?” Kim Jongin nodded in response to what he had heard, looking down at the clock which still had almost ten minutes left until the appointed time, his two legs stomping back as if something in his mind ordered him to turn around and leave. Go see that event even though he isn't a person who likes things like this much.

“Then I'll go up,” he said to the female employee and immediately turned and walked back outside. His two legs followed the man who had just walked out earlier and he dialed Baekhyun's phone in concern.

A large group of people gathered around the scene. The police kept the group away as they began to investigate the situation and the victims. What Kim Jong-in heard were only words from those present that he might have been robbed and assaulted, and the more he listened, the more he felt. It sucks when you hear things said. He has died

Jongin couldn't see anything from where he was standing and looked up for a moment before calling Baekhyun again.

“He was stabbed in about three important places and it was like there was a fight, Captain. It was thought to be a robbery. Both the phone and wallet were missing. I looked in the bag that was dropped next to me. There was the dead person's ID card..”

Jongin stopped listening to what a nearby policeman was saying as Baekhyun's phone line cut off.

“Name ..Byun Baekhyun. Probably about 25 years old."

At the end of those words, the strong arm that held the phone to the ear lost its strength and let it fall to the ground as soon as he heard that name..

“What did you say..”

The tall figure slowly walked towards the police officer who had just made the report and slowly turned to look at the image that was like a nightmare.

“Uncle Baekhyun.”

His whole body trembled uncontrollably. Tears fell as soon as he opened his mouth to say that name. Even though he barely had the strength to stand, he still stepped closer to make sure that what he saw in front of him wasn't real.

“Can't get in, you.”

“Let go.” He forced himself to swallow the sticky saliva and spoke softly when the police stopped him and pulled the tall figure away.

“We don't allow you to go near the corpse.”

"body! What the hell are you talking about? Turn around and look, he's not dead yet!! So why can't I go in? He's the one who loves me. He's waiting for me!!!” The tall figure shouted loudly like an unconscious person. He shook the police officer's hand away from him as tears continued to stream down his face in front of the dozens of people watching.

“Why don't you answer my phone? I called you but ..but you didn't accept me."

Jongin kept chattering as he walked towards the small figure lying in a pool of blood in front of him. Tears flowed endlessly and there was no sense in every action.

"you"

“Don't come near Baekhyun!!” A harsh voice shouted again as the same officer approached. His knees slowly touched down on the cold floor before he picked up the unconscious little body and hugged it to his chest.

"Talk to me..Talk to me. I'm right here."

It's unbelievable that just a few minutes can turn a normal person into almost unconscious. Eyes that were still filled with tears looked at his lover absentmindedly. Embracing the blood-soaked body, he gently rocked his body to comfort him, as if the person in his embrace was just frightened and still breathing.

“You don't have to be afraid. I will protect you.”

“Today, do you know why I made you come out here? ..I will propose to you with that ring that you always wanted.”

“You will marry me..”

“..Will you marry me?”

The tall figure continued to speak with his eyes wandering. I didn't think about the eyes of so many people watching. A trembling hand carefully placed a white gold ring on the ring finger of his left hand that was covered in bright red blood. His thick lips twitched slightly at the sight in front of him.

“It's as beautiful as I said..”

A faint smile was still evident on his face. He moved his arms to tighten his embrace before slowly moving his face down to press his forehead against the other sleeping figure. As the tears continued to flow down her face, the loud cries became louder and louder as her body trembled.

It was as if every sound around him had disappeared, not even the sound of his heart, which slowly weakened and disappeared. There was only the sound of cries begging for mercy from above.. Please don't take my breath away.

I just want to return that heart..

The events of today that Junmyeon still remembers vividly. His younger brother, who held his lover's breathless body without letting go of his lips, kept calling Baekhyun's name, crying and begging for mercy from the sky that had taken his love away from him and could never return it. That picture makes me feel sorry for Kim Jongin no matter how many times I think about it.

“Jong In's story was caused by a situation where when he was very happy, he suddenly encountered a terrible event that he could not accept. To put it simply, it is like being very happy and then one second later becoming very sad and in pain in your heart.”

“So what should I do?”

“Jongin-sama never accepted, never thought that Baekhyun was no longer on his own. Baekhyun hasn't disappeared anywhere. It is still the same story of both people. He lived in his imagination and created Baekhyun himself to be by his side as usual and didn't think of sleeping because in his mind, if Baekhyun wasn't in his sight, he couldn't bear it. He will think that Baekhyun ran away from him.

He endured day and night to be with Baekhyun who was just a figment of his imagination.”

“Will it be like this for a long time?”

“Right now what we are doing is giving him a sedative to keep him asleep for a long time. When he wakes up, he will be angry and angry because he is seeing the reality that Baekhyun is gone. It's normal that his brain, when he just woke up, hasn't had time to tell him to imagine Baekhyun yet. He will slowly calm down once he starts drawing Baekhyun again.”

“And getting cured completely would be difficult if Mr. Jongin's mind is not strong enough. It would be very painful if we really chose to let him delete Baekhyun right now. What I would like to suggest is to leave Jongin like this for a while and act like everything is still normal. This makes Kim Jongin believe that he is just suffering from some illness that is not a mental illness.

If he says Baekhyun is here, we have to act like he's really here. Simply put, everyone around you has to lie and play the drama as Mr. Jongin wants it to be.”

“If you really decide to cure him completely. That is, erasing everything that ever happened. There will never be a Baekhyun in Kim Jong In's life. But it is a difficult method and the patient must cooperate with the treatment.”

“Right now I.. are probably no different from Jongin. I have to handle the case with Baekhyun's funeral because he has no relatives. This is probably the best thing I can do for Jongin and Baekhyun.”

“I understand you, Mr. Junmyeon, but everything will be fine soon. Mr. Jongin is now one of the most pitiful people I have ever met, but that pitiful person still has a good brother like you who is always beside him.”

“Give me one month and I will give you an answer regarding treatment.”

“Can I answer now?” Junmyeon was silent for several minutes before deciding to tell Do Kyungsoo the answer.

“No matter what you want, I believe everything will work out well.”

“I want Jongin to go back to living a normal life.”

“I ask that you please remove the person named Byun Baekhyun from Kim Jong In's life..”

The final answer you choose is to hope that it will be the best for Jongin. Kim Junmyeon said Baekhyun's name through tears before lowering his head while saying an apology to both of them in his heart.

It hurts both ways, either way. Choosing one option makes you feel sorry for the person who is still there, but choosing another option makes you feel guilty for the person who has already left.

With Baekhyun, who almost became family members. The person he had met for more than three years now, Junmyeon decided to make him only a memory. No matter how difficult it was to do, I chose to do it..that was for Kim Jongin.

1 year ago

“Jonggin, today is a day off, go out with friends,” Junmyeon sat down next to his younger brother, half-inviting, half-requesting.

"Where are you going? It's so hot, do you still want to go out?" The tall man answered even though his eyes were still focused on the work that he still had to bring back to do on the holiday.

"Not for long. Just wanted to go out there today."

“Where is that?”

“Well, tell me now, I don't want to go again. Why don't we just go and be friends? Come back and I'll help you get a job."

“Speak like you pretend. Let me continue for a little longer and then I'll leave.” Jongin responded as if he was reluctant. That's because the work that's still in progress wants it to be finished.

One year ago, the terrible events that had occurred were unprecedented. Kim Jongin took nearly three months to heal before he returned to normal and began to adjust to his new life, which seemed quite different from before, both in his work and in the society around him.

“Is that far?” Jongin followed Junmyeon into the soft sunlight in a wide open area.

“Come here like this, who taught you to complain? Isn't this a place that should be quiet?”

“Well, I can't tell you what I'm doing here today. Suddenly taking you for a walk in the cemetery isn't what it is anymore, Junmyeon-hyung.”

“Hold it and stop talking for two minutes.”

The elder looked back and handed Jongin one of the white roses. He continued walking for a while before stopping in front of a grave.

Kim Jongin stood far away, not walking in, only watching as his brother stood silently before saying something that he couldn't hear from such a distance.

“I'm sorry, Baekhyun. No matter how much time passes, I want to say these words to you. A year ago, even though Jongin never knew or missed you, you missed Jongin, right? I once dreamed that you came to see me in my dream. Tell me that you are not culpable or angry at what I have done. Thank you.

And you still told me to take good care of Jongin. Which is why I did everything as best as I could. Both for myself and for you. Don't worry.”

“Today would be the perfect day for me to bring Jongin to you. One year since you left us. What you are doing right now is right, Baekhyun..”

“You have never disappeared from my good memories.”

Junmyeon said in a soft voice before gently placing a pure white rose in front of the white marble pedestal. He looked up at the sky and tried to hold back the tears as he thought of everything that had happened in the past.

“Jongin,” Kim Junmyeon motioned for the person standing far away to come closer, then he backed away, leaving room for the tall figure to stand in his place.

Long-legged walked closer to the white stone pedestal and looked at his brother in confusion while Junmyeon only nodded, telling Jongin to do what he should do. The sharp-faced star turned and looked at the scene in front of him again. Scrutinize and read the name in front of you softly.

“Byun Baekhyun”

“Byun Baekhyun”

His thick lips subconsciously moved and spoke again. Gazing at the picture of the owner of that name, he let the roses he held in his hands fall to the ground. Raising his hand to his heart, he slowly knelt in front of the grave. Everything that happened happened on its own without anyone expecting it, even Junmyeon who was watching was still completely confused.

Where have you ever seen a smile like that? ..And why does that name seem so connected?

“Baekhyun..”

Slowly saying each word His right hand pressed tightly to listen to the distorted heartbeat, and just looking at the image of the person in front of him again, tears that he never expected to exist suddenly flowed out.

“Give him flowers,” Junmyeon said, his voice shaking just as Jongin's tears fell. The tall figure moved his trembling hands to pick up the white rose that had fallen by his side and placed it next to Junmyeon's other one.

“Why does his name feel so familiar to me? Why do I feel like I've seen this person? In my dreams or somewhere I have seen a smile like this, I feel..”

“Who is he, Junmyeon hyung… So why do I have to cry?”

“Why.. do I feel so much pain?”

Jongin spoke through tears while Junmyeon himself didn't answer those questions, just trying to hold back the tears. That was hard enough when seeing the image of the same Kim Jongin, the one who had suffered just as much as anyone else. who died during that time

..I know how much it hurts and suffers when the person you love leaves without even being able to say goodbye.

And I know how sad it is when people I once loved suddenly pass away without leaving a single memory to think about.

“The person named Byun Baekhyun..”

“Why do I feel like my heart used to love this person?”

“Or even now..it still feels like love.”

'For a long time, I will love only you. I'll love only you. And there will be only you..'

Promise..that no matter how much time passes The owner of my heart will still be you.

Even on the day I die, I will still miss you. I love you.

only you

-Baekhyun-

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New story, the title is clearly dramatic in the description, I believe there must be some reserve at the end, haha.

If people read Nebe and feel that it's okay. This matter is similar to that. I hope people who like Mama will like it too, hehe.

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I didn't know how to come, but suddenly I came. Not into the concept What's the drama? Maybe it's because during this time, In P'Pyeon's My Turn Two solo, so we went to stand at the piano. Haha, I'll give it to you, and I'll give you an honest link too.

*The entire story arises from the author's imagination only. Doctor Don's school is pure imagination - -

Thank you for reading until now. If you work harder, there will probably be more.

..with love and Kaibaek

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