I sat looking at a boy's photo album and smiled. Even though he left me long ago when he was in kindergarten. But I still remember him. He was the first boy to agree to be my friend. We are very close because our houses are next to each other. He is very kind and cute. But he often had to go to the hospital because he was an unhealthy child.

Sometimes late at night I would hear the sound of the ambulance coming to take him home and his mother's voice. He who cried loudly feared that he would not survive. But he miraculously survived every time. I have also visited him in the hospital many times. And every time I visit He immediately seemed to cheer up. He said he was very glad I was visiting.

And then he would hurriedly eat medicine and rice easily. Even though his mother tried to get him to take medicine, he stubbornly refused to take it. Until I went to visit, he agreed. I asked him why he agreed to eat it. He smiled cheerfully and replied:

“Because the red ants came to visit, I agreed to eat it. Otherwise, the red ants won't play with me.”

There was one time when I was sick and didn't go to school. In the evening after school he came to my house with his favorite snack. Both of us, he said he didn't see me go to school so he came to look at the house and knew I was sick so he bought me some snacks. And he also ordered and scolded me that “Bae bought some snacks for you.

Red Ant must get well soon. Otherwise, Bae will really get angry at the red ants.” So I accepted with a smile and invited him to eat dessert together. He told me that when I ate his dessert, I looked much more cheerful than before. I laughed and said, "Probably so." He smiled a small smile and a big smile of happiness. Then he uttered a sentence.

“Ber really loves red ants. When Beta grows up, Red Ant will have to be Bae's only boyfriend."

At the time, I didn't really know what a girlfriend was. But I smiled and promised him loud and clear.

“Yes, Red Ant promises.”

We are tied together into a promise.

However, not long after, he and his family had to move to a foreign country. Both he and I hugged each other and cried when we found out. Especially him, he said that he didn't want to leave me and my friends. He didn't even know where that foreign city was. And what will be the condition?

As for me, I just cried and cried and didn't want him to go. I'm afraid he won't come back again. But the mothers came to comfort us and said that Bae would definitely come back. But now Bae must go abroad to treat her current disease first. And whenever Bae is ready, Bae will come back.

I heard this and my mind calmed down. Even though I was still sad, I felt much better. He probably thought the same as me. So he hugged me and said to me,

“Bae will definitely come back to see the red ants. Well, Red Ant is a Benina fan. Bae won't give red ants to anyone. And red ants, don't forget Ben."

“Yes, Red Ant promises not to forget Bae.”

Then several days later he and his family left. I think I'll wait. Until Bae comes back, I will absolutely not have a boyfriend.

“When will you come back, bae? I miss you so much......"

I moaned sadly. Bae left me when I was in Kindergarten 2 until now I'm in fifth grade. There would be no sign that he would return. Even though he thought he was recovering and studying. But sometimes I still can't help but feel a little disappointed. Because even if you go to a foreign country, you should send news to each other.

But Bae never sent letters or called each other. So I started to think a lot about what exactly he was doing.

I kept Bae's picture under my pillow as usual. I turned off the computer. Turn off the light and lie down. In my head there was only an image of Bae smiling cheerfully, thinking, what will it be like when Beta grows up? Will Bae still be as cute and sickly now? I smiled again. Sigh! I really want to see him soon.

I go to school with a fresh mind, different from every day. I surprised myself as to why. But I didn't think much of it because on days when I was in a good mood like this, good things always happened to me. I smiled and thought about what good things we would encounter today. But was shocked when someone jumped in and hugged his neck from behind.

I turned around and looked at him angrily. But you have to smile with happiness. It's Aom!

“Hey you! Where have you been during the semester break? It's been a week long holiday. I thought you wouldn't come to study anymore.” I shook his hand and shook it with extreme happiness.

“Nothing. I just don't want to come to school yet. I heard that fifth grade is brutal too, right?” He looked clearly bored.

“Oh, that's right, but I don't know much about it. I've only been in Mathayom 5 for one week.” I'm still excited to meet Aom. At first I thought he wouldn't come to study again. So I came out a bit.

We walked around while telling stories about what we did during the school break. Some are fun I just realized now that the lack of friends makes us miss each other and love each other even more, and the relationships between friends become stronger. No one can live without friends.

We've arrived at school and we're walking. Entered the classroom but I looked over and saw a man walking towards the administration room. I feel like he's very familiar with it. I stopped and looked at him carefully and thought. Where have we seen him? But I stood and watched for a long time until he walked out of sight and still couldn't figure out who he was. Aom must have noticed that I was staring at that guy and said jokingly.

“The person walking to the administration room is handsome.”

I heard Aom say this and immediately felt embarrassed. Well, I've never had a boyfriend, so I feel really embarrassed when people tease me. So I hurriedly walked into the room, embarrassed. I felt that my face was hot, I don't know why. Aom still hasn't stopped teasing me.

“Uh....let's just say maybe it was a fluke. He might come to study in the same class as us. Wow! If that's the case, that would be great. Our room will have a famous celebrity in it like other rooms. So you won't be lonely like before. Is it true that it's a red ant?” and it ended up on me, but I was still.

“Oh! What's wrong? Why don't you say anything? You don't care about that guy? He turns out to be as handsome as an angel?” Aom continued to annoy him. So I spoke up.

“Ugh! I don't care about that guy. Whether it's as handsome as an angel or complete with everything, it doesn't matter. Because in my heart there is only one Bae. Other people have no rights.”

“Oh, your first boyfriend in kindergarten? His real name is still unknown. I don't know where his house is. And this was a long time ago. Who will remember you? So far, doesn't he have a blonde-haired foreigner girlfriend?"

I smiled and said confidently.

“There's no way. Bae has already promised me that when he grows up, he will be my only boyfriend.”

“Hey man, that was a long time ago. You and him were both young at the time, what would you know? The child said so. What kind of contract signal has he forgotten until now?”

I feel like Someone's heart was squeezed. It was so painful and uncomfortable that I could hardly breathe. If what Aom said were true, what would I do? Well, we made a promise to Bae that we would be lovers. Thinking about it makes me feel really bad. Why is it like this?

But it wasn't until I could answer my own question. The teacher and the man walked into the classroom. His demeanor immediately indicated that he was a well-raised person. From a tall, slender figure, smooth white skin, a hairstyle that is neatly cut and shaped to fit an oval face with smooth, clear skin, dark eyebrows, and a high nose.

Red lips are beautiful like a woman's. And when looking at his slightly greenish gray eyes, It makes me think of.... It's actually a gray-green beta like this. But Bae's eyes were gentler than this. Even though he has the same eyes as Bae But he definitely isn't Bae. Bae must be more cute and friendly.

But what is this guy like? It was as if I had been at this school for a long time. Pretend like you know the teacher well. That's why we talked here and there often. When I saw it, I was more annoyed than delighted.

“Today we have new friends at... Just moved from abroad, his name is Ranwee. He doesn't speak Thai very well because he studied there when he was a child. Anyway, let's help take care of him."

“Yes!” All the students They spoke loudly to each other. Everyone scrambled to ask about him, what he liked, where he came from, what province he was from. Where are you staying? And many other things that make my head hurt when I listen to them. I sat at my study table, bored and watching the chaos of my friends.

“What? Aom is going with him too? I suspect that my handsome allergy will get worse."

Then I looked at it and saved it. Suddenly I locked eyes with him. I felt like I was transfixed by his gaze. It was like he was sucking me inside of him. But he just stared at me like he wanted something. I saw him staring at me for a long time, so I stuck out my tongue at him to cover up my embarrassment.

But he smiled back in amusement. I was even more annoyed because I was angry at him for not shrugging off his anger. So I turned my head away and looked the other way.

“Uh, teacher, that's enough for now. Because right now Ranwee doesn't have any seats. We need to find a seat for him first. By the way, who has space?” Then the beautiful teacher looked around the room observantly. And what a coincidence, because there was no one sitting at the table next to me. (I sat in the back of the room, so no one sat with me.

My friends said that when the teacher taught, they didn't understand, so they moved to sit in front of each other. All) The sharp-eyed teacher saw it.

“Oh! There, the table next to Natharudee's table is free. Ranwee, go sit at that table. There's a person next to the table wearing a blue long-sleeved shirt.” The teacher pointed at me. He accepted and walked over and sat next to me. He looked at me for a bit and then sat and listened to the teacher lecture about school matters. earnestly

As for me, I just sat there rigid, not daring to look at him. I've never been close to a handsome person like this before. From being already shy, I became doubly nervous. Sigh! And how much longer can I sit with him?

the next day

"Go first, you'll be late."

I shouted to my mother and walked out of the house.

“Wait, before the red ants..” Mom shouted. But I didn't listen. I'm rushing to school because I have to clean up the classroom before my friends arrive. Because yesterday I made a marble vase for the social studies teacher, so I got punished. Clean the classroom for one full month.

“How cruel, that's all,” I muttered as I thought of this. And then hurriedly ran away

“Sigh! It's good that we arrived before everyone arrived. No one has come to school yet.”

I spoke with relief and wiped the sweat off my forehead. I just realized that running to school is really inappropriate. Both smelly and sweaty and tired. Will I have to be like this from now on? Oh, I can't accept myself just thinking about it. I must stink all over with sweat. Sigh!

But let it be just this matter. Cleaning a room is a lot harder work. We should pay more attention to that. You shouldn't think of such nonsense. It's a waste of time. Thinking of this, I opened the door to the room. And then I was so shocked that I cried out.

"Hoy!"

Mr. Ronawee, who was sitting next to the window, turned to look at me, who was making a funny face. He smiled a little. But still maintaining the same quietness. I remained silent for a long time, so he jokingly called out to me.

“Hey, why are you so quiet? Are you shocked just by seeing my face? I'm not that hideous.” Then he smiled as if amused by my expression.

I regained consciousness and was angry at myself for having humiliated myself. But one heart objected. Because he had the same eyes as Bae, I caught his eye. But I can only think about it. He could never be a bae. Because his and Bae's personalities are so different. And I don't like it if Bae is like this.

I put my school bag away. his own study table and then walked to the cleaning supplies room. After a moment, he walked out with a broom, mop cloth, and bucket of water to prepare for cleaning. But before he had even finished mopping the floor, Ronavi walked up and asked.

“Can I help you? It would probably be a long time before she was finished. I'll help you get it done quickly,” he said, taking the mop out of my hand. Then carefully mop the floor. I looked at him for a bit and then went to find a cloth to wipe on the table and chairs.

I secretly looked at him with interest. It's not that I like him. But because when he mopped the floor He looked happy and free. The atmosphere around him was like that of Bae, especially when he rubbed and rubbed, he hummed and Smiling like he enjoyed his work. I looked at him happily without looking at the table I was rubbing.

So he didn't know that there was an unarranged chair blocking the walkway. I was walking and suddenly tripped over a chair. But his hand grabbed me in time. So I was spared from having my face pressed against the corner of the table. I let out a sigh of relief. I was almost there. If he hadn't come to help, I would have definitely hit the corner of the table. Then I got up and tried to move myself out of his arms.

A feeling of embarrassment began to creep in. Just then, I hugged him tightly. But no matter how embarrassed I was, I still didn't forget to thank him.

“Uh...thank you very much. I'm fine.” He released me from his embrace after hearing what I said. But he still didn't bother asking.

“It really doesn't matter.”

I smiled to put him at ease. He then smiled in relief. But it's so strange. Why did he have to help us? Even though we clearly show that we hate him. He doesn't understand yet? Oh, that's probably not the case. He looks like he's going to die. So...what is the reason?

“Ugh...strange today,” he mused out loud. From the look on his face, you could tell that he was truly surprised.

“What's strange?” I asked him confused.

“Well, you smiled at me today. I think it's good. It's cute when you smile. I like making you smile like this. When you're tired, you can recover from your tiredness. In the future, you must smile like this often..” He finished speaking and smiled widely sincerely. I feel like my face is getting hot again.

And not long after, friends all came together. Everyone gathered around Ranwee's table. They competed with each other and asked until a loud noise filled the room. And students in other classes, when they know that our class has new students who are good looking, They all flocked to our room.

“Look, Ronavi, you have to be careful. Natharudee is as fierce as a giantess. Plus the sound is number one. You are sitting next to him. Be careful if he eats you.” The voices of my friends were gossiping about me sitting in front of me.

“Yes, and I still don't like men. Any man who comes to attack has already been crushed by him.” The voices of other friends helped. Support each other openly I, who was sitting next to Ronwee, began to feel that the atmosphere was starting to become more and more uncomfortable, so I got up and walked out of the room and sat on the balcony in front of the room, looking out.

“Oh, I think Red Ant must really like women. The other day, I also saw him walking hand in hand with a middle school student.”

“Dammit, if you guys don't know anything, it's better not to say anything. That girl who doesn't like dealing with men is because she already has a boyfriend. If” Aom's voice came out loudly. After listening to criticism from friends for quite some time.

It's really crazy that even after leaving the room, the voices of our friends could still be heard. So I got up and decided to walk to the herb garden.

“Whew! In a hundred years or a thousand years, you'll come visit me once. And what kind of wind is choking you, Maya?” The sound of a loud scream came from behind a bush. I laughed at her reaction. Khim still has the same attitude, unchanged. She is still as straightforward and friendly as ever. She walked smiling from afar.

In his hand he was holding some kind of seedling. sweaty Even though it stinks a bit, I don't mind.

"You're still the same," I greeted him affectionately. Khim smiled and asked.

“What? Beauty? Oh...it's like this, people are born beautiful. So her beauty never changes.” I laughed.

“No, I mean your stupidity. Even though it's a big semester break, you still manage to keep your crazy side. You really are great.”

Khim makes a fierce face. But I think it's more funny. So I laughed a lot. So it turned on his face. So I stopped laughing but I laughed anyway.

“Is there something wrong with you here?” Khim continued to scold.

“No, I just came for a walk. I was having a bit of fun walking around so I just walked here.” I held back a laugh that was almost suffocating. I thought that if I didn't laugh, I would definitely die. So I thought we should go back.

“Oh, I think I'd better go back first. I'm going to class now. Sorry to disturb you.”

"Oh, no problem," he replied simply.

I hurriedly walked back. As soon as I was out of the herb garden, I burst out laughing with satisfaction. Everyone looked up. They probably think I've gone crazy.

In the afternoon, I sit and lie on the study table. It's not because I'm studying mathematics right now. How did you come up with this afternoon math class schedule? Hot is hot, boring is boring. I really hate this subject. Why does it have to be in the curriculum?

I thought about it and turned around and turned to look at this person with boredom. Then he turned his head and turned to face Ranwi. Seeing him diligently studying, he felt even more bored. What kind of human being is really a crazy student? I rested my face on the table and stared at him. along with asking him

“Aren't you bored? I see that you are studying hard in every subject.” He stopped writing and turned to look at me reproachfully.

“You, it's the same. Aren't you bored just lying there like this? Other people are concentrating on studying, can't you see? You should get up and study instead of being useless like this.” He gave a long sermon. I immediately gave him a disgusted face.

“What kind of person doesn't know how to study? Just asking this is a long sermon. Act like an old man,” I muttered, but he heard me.

“What did you say just now? What kind of old man?” he asked earnestly. So I quickly covered it up.

“No, I didn't say anything. You're crazy about your ears."

And then I just ignored him. Then he turned his head and looked the other way. But when he turned his head to focus on studying, I turned to look at him again. And then I thought of something good.

I sat up and searched for my drawing book. pencil in bag Once I did, I aimed at him to find a suitable angle. There it was. This angle looked really good. He sat upright and majestically. Looking from the side, his face is very beautiful. I keep drawing happily. Beautiful models and views like this are hard to find, so you'll have to save them quickly.

“What are you doing? I'm done studying here. Really aren't going back?” His voice woke me up from my blissful trance. I looked at his face confusedly.

“Huh..what? Have you finished school yet?” I asked him confused. Am I enjoying drawing him this much? But he didn't answer, he instead focused on my drawing.

“Wow! You drew me so handsome and likeable. The skill is still as vicious as ever.”

"Huh! It's definitely there," I replied with satisfaction. But he had to stop thinking immediately.

"Huh? What did you say?" I asked. When he said that, what did he mean? What's the same? Well, he just came to class yesterday. How do you know I'm good at drawing? Even though no one told him!?

"Oh! Oh! Nothing, nothing. I think we can go back for the evening." He stammered as if he was. Trying to cover up some things. I'm beginning to wonder who he really is.

“Hey Ranwee, can I ask you something?” I asked him as we walked home together. He smiled a little and replied:

"Oh, okay. What do you want to ask?"

I looked at him silently. I'm not sure if I asked him if he would be angry or not.

“That is, before you moved to study here. Where have you been before? And what kind of work do your parents do?"

He smiled as if he wasn't worried about anything. Then tell it

“Back then, when I was a kid. Three of us, parents and children, used to live around here. But when I was about to enter Kindergarten 2, I had to move to a foreign country. Because I had a heart condition, I had to go abroad for a heart transplant. And I have continued to study until now. Mother said we should go back to Thailand.

Because I have recovered and my mother is homesick. So we came back. Now my mother works as a government employee. And father is the ambassador to England.”

I looked at him and immediately felt sad.

“I have a friend who is like family to you. In the past we were very close. We will always go everywhere together. But he had to go outside to heal himself. I don't know what he is. All I know is that when the symptoms relapse it is very scary. He will writhe in pain.

Before going, he made a promise to me. When we grow up, we will be lovers. We will never love anyone again. We will wait for each other no matter how long. But now I don't know where he is. What will it be like without me by your side? I don't know if there will be someone to take care of me or not. And I don't know when he will come back.

Every day I pray that he will come back soon. Now I feel lonely and miss him so much....”

And suddenly the tears came out on their own. Why, whenever I think about this story, the tears always come out without my intention. It's probably because I miss Bae a lot and want to see him. I cried out in sorrow. He stopped walking and turned to hug me. Even though I don't know him well enough yet and he's a different man.

But I kindly allowed him to hug me. His embrace was so warm. Not like strangers Why do I feel so familiar? It's like..just like bae!

“Bae, I really miss you,” I rambled out. Ranwee hugged me tighter. while muttering in a voice that sounded like heartache

"I am sorry"

Even though I'm very sad right now But I was very surprised. Why did he have to say sorry to me? He didn't do anything to make me angry. And what does that remorseful voice really mean?

“What did you say just now?” I looked at him.

“No,” he replied evasively, avoiding my eyes as if to hide something from me. But I wasn't too impressed by his words. Now I can stop crying and trying to control my mind. So I felt very embarrassed when he hugged me tightly like this. But how should I tell him to let me go? Because I was so excited I could barely move.

But luckily he released me. out of the embrace Probably because I saw that my sadness was gone. I was relieved because if he hugged me any longer I would definitely die of embarrassment.

He walked quietly by my hand. But I feel strange again. What is this all about? Even though I've only known him for two days. But why do I feel like I've known him for a long time and trust him? Even though if it were any other man, I would probably be depressed if they hugged and held my hand like this.

But with Ranwee, I wanted him to hug me and let him hold my hand without thinking. What is the reason for this?

Or am I just falling in love with him?!

“Is your house here? I saw her last name on it.” He asked me, asking for my opinion. Then stopping and looking at a house, I smiled.

"yes"

"Then I'll be back before it gets dark," he said, turning around.

“Wait a minute, Ronawee,” I called out to him before he could go any further.

“Is something wrong?” He turned around and smiled.

I hesitated for a bit before speaking sheepishly.

“Thank you very much.. For everything you helped me with.”

"Oh, that's fine, I'm willing," he said, smiling and turning around.

“Uh..wait a minute,” I called him again.

“Is there something else?” He turned around again and asked curiously. But it's really crazy! Even though I really thought about wishing him good dreams. But the mouthpiece refused to speak. So I chose not to speak instead.

"Wha...nothing. It's nothing. You go back. Mom and Dad will be worried."

He laughed as if laughing at my expression. But I don't know why, so I didn't shrug off my anger at him.

"Damn, I'm already an adult. I'm not a child who always needs my parents to take care of me and worry about me," he said. And then he made a sad face. I laughed because he was joking. So he laughed along.

“Then I'll go back. See you tomorrow.” He turned and walked away, smiling like a very happy person. Until he was out of sight, I was still standing there smiling happily. I feel like he looks cute and looks really good today. But it's strange that sometimes he acts like he's known me before, even though I've never known him before.

Ranwee has been studying at my school for a week now. I think he's very approachable and doesn't hold back. Oh...evaluate from reality. Because normally people who are good-looking and handsome like gods are arrogant people who think that they are Always above others and will always be pretentious But Ranwee isn't like that.

He smiles and greets everyone in a friendly way and when he has to do something exciting, he is never shy. Will you resist or refuse to do it at all? He will always be kind to everyone. And what makes him already perfect even more perfect is that Excellent brain When studying, he doesn't pay much attention (some subjects).

But during the exam, he was so serious that I was even afraid. But after this period had passed, he had returned to being the charming and good-humored young man he had always been. Therefore, it was no surprise that now he was the number one at school and the most popular girl among all the clubs flocking to approach him. He barely has time for himself.

I saw it and was still uncomfortable. Sometimes I still think about whether he isn't annoyed that there are always people clinging to his side.

He and I are starting to call each other best friends now. Even though before I hated him with all my heart. What kind of person doesn't know that when they're with me they don't talk much? But when he's with other girls, he charms her until everyone goes crazy. But after talking and sitting next to each other, I understood why he had this. That kind of behavior

He said he was a shy person. When he's with people he's not close to, he doesn't talk much. Only when he's with someone he's really close to, will he speak in a tongue-in-cheek manner. I couldn't believe it when I listened to him speak. People like him are shy. Looks like he has very high self-confidence. But I didn't say anything because I understood.

Because I'm like him. Trying to cover up your shame with a hardness that was created to make others afraid, when in fact the mind is more fragile and sensitive than anything else. So I started wanting to be his friend. Because we all have similar feelings We should talk and understand each other.

Our relationship now counts for me. Lucky to have a friend like him. Because when I have to do something difficult or beyond my ability I always have him helping me. both studying and various activities So we always go everywhere together. From walking to school, doing homework, eating, doing activities.

Or even when I went to the bathroom, he still stood and waited in front of the bathroom as a friend. To the point that sometimes I still think too far

“If he and I were more than friends, what would it be like?”

But the thought had to be put to rest because even though I began to feel like I had Feeling changed But Bae's story still lingers in my heart. I must keep my promise. Never break your promise!

Since Ranwee moved to study at this school, many things have happened, both chaotic and happy. Every day he is surrounded by many beautiful women in my room and in another room, and on average he confesses his love to about a dozen people a day.

Until I sat close to him and almost died of nervousness several times. But it was fun to sit next to him. Because when you're bored, you can just sit and look at their face to relieve your boredom. Plus, when you're doing your homework, can't you? that the work was not finished I always have him helping me. Even though before he did it he would have to scold him every time. But it's considered worth it. And as the days go by

He and I became closer. Until they became close friends

“Look, Red Ant, I really want to ask you. What is the relationship between you and Ranwee like? Why do I feel like you guys are so close that it's like we're not friends.." Khim asked me directly. When you get a chance My face immediately turned red. I don't know how to answer. Because in the past we have always helped each other. But I never thought about it.

“Uh...I don't know. I never thought about it.” And I sat there with my head down and silent. His heart skipped a beat when he thought of this.

“What? It's been several months since the school break. Are you still unable to separate your own feelings?” The dulcimer suddenly became emotional. I started to feel really bad. Even though I really tried not to think about it.

“If I think I like Ron Wow, I did something wrong to Ben. We promised each other that we would only have each other.” I decided to say. The truth came out as a hint.

“Oh! Red Ant! That was ten years ago. Are you still holding on and not forgetting it? Hasn't your Mr. Bae already had a dozen boyfriends so far? And after all this time, do you still think he will remember you? Stop thinking about the past and focus on the present.”

“I believe he doesn't. I definitely forgot,” I answered confidently. Even though I actually feel shaken when I think about Bae. I have wronged him. Because even though I had promised him that I would love only him But I betrayed him to like Ranvee. So how can this not make me feel guilty?

"Hey! Hello Red Ant."

Ranwee's cries came from far away. I immediately turned to look. He ran and smiled from afar. I smiled back and stopped walking to wait for him. When he arrived, we both walked together and talked happily.

“Why, today you overtook me? You usually wake up late and don't make it to class on time, right? That's really strange." I said before he could speak. He smiled shyly at my behavior. But he replied indifferently,

“Well...nothing. Right now I think I should change myself. 'Cause I think I should be an adult This is where I'll graduate. Another year, not even two years. If you don't study diligently from now on When the episode ends, you will feel regretful about the past time that you didn't study hard.

So I hurriedly changed myself.” Oh, this bloke. Speak like an adult.

“What? Actually, you're so good at studying that you'll die, right? Why do you have to try? I think I'm more than worthy of studying hard. Because I'm not very good at it, unlike you. You don't have to struggle as much to get good scores." I said as I thought.

“You don't get it. The heart of people like us. Even though we look smart, in reality we are no different from you. Before, I never thought that I would be this famous. Because when I was abroad I was both stupid and naive. Plus I still can't study. But when I was stewed hard

So I began to study hard and have always been a good student. But even if you are the top student in the class I still have to keep myself mentally fit. Because when we have reached the highest point If we lean in one way or another, it may cause us to fall to the ground. It's fine as before.

Therefore, talented people do not have to ignore or not try at all. But you have to do everything twice as much as a normal person. Because I don't want to fall down again.”

He told a long story. But I didn't pay much attention because how would a person like me try? The results came out the same as before. It's not like him who is outstanding in everything to the point of envy. Both external appearance An ability that is not inferior in any matter. And there's also mature thinking and reading.

When compared It felt like we were in different worlds. We don't have a single thing that suits each other. And like this, what else are we going to expect from him?

I walked with my head down and didn't speak again until he became suspicious.

“Oh, what's going on? Your voice was still loud just now.” He bent his head and looked at my face observantly. But I cover it up

“No, there's nothing here. I was just thinking about something for fun.” I answered him with a bright expression as usual, even though my heart was depressed.

He and I walked to the lockers to change our shoes. He had many letters in his locker, which was normal. But when I opened my lottery, I was shocked. What is this!? Who made my locker such a mess? The condition of the items in the locker is now like garbage. It's all a mess.

Things were scattered all over the lockers. The expensive novel I had taken from home to escape my mother was torn until it couldn't be read. All that's left is that it used to be a book before. The drawing equipment I loved the most was completely destroyed. I was very angry when I saw this. So he pulled out all the items to see if there were still any items that had been destroyed.

Then I was even more stunned and angry when I saw the notebook that Bae had given me. Torn in two

Who did this to me!!!!!!

“What's the matter, Red Ant? Why doesn't your face look good? Is there something wrong?” Ranwee asked after finishing off the giant stack of letters. I didn't speak, but turned to look at him and pointed at the locker. He immediately walked over to take a look and was stunned. But soon his consciousness returned. He tried to speak and smile to put me at ease.

“Uh...Red Ant, it's okay. Let's just deal with this matter. I'll help you clean up. As for the book that was destroyed, consider it bad luck.” Even though he smiled at me, I don't have the heart to smile right now. If something is important like this, who wouldn't be angry? I took the notebook and showed it to him.

“This is something very important to me. The person I liked the most gave it to me before leaving. To be something to keep and look at when we miss each other. But look, when it's like this, how can you still keep me calm? You probably never had anything given to you by someone important to you to be able to say things like this!!!!”

I shouted at him in extreme anger. What is it like at this time? Even the people I trust cannot be relied upon or consulted. Even though I was suffering like this, no one understood me.

He looked at me, as if shocked by what had just happened. But he remained silent as if he were not shaken by his surroundings. What's wrong with this guy? Even though I thought I was already very close to him to the point of being close friends. But why don't I understand him at all? The more I thought about it, the more irritated I became.

"Bang!!!!"

“Who the hell is this? Why do they have to do this to me?!”

I slammed into the locker in anger. Why is it all so dark? My brain is completely dark. I really feel uncomfortable in my heart. and it was as if there was a lump stuck in his throat. It was speechless and so heavy in his chest that he couldn't bear it. The entire world instantly blurred. I tried to hold back the tears from falling but I don't know why.

When Ranwee's hands reached out and held both of my shoulders as if wanting to comfort me. Unwilling to obey orders, the damn tears flowed naturally. I cried out loud. So he spoke as if he wanted to comfort me and relieve my sadness.

“I also had friends when I was in kindergarten. And that girl was my first love. She was so cute that I couldn't help but fall in love with her from the first time I saw her. We also made a promise to each other that during my stay abroad we would not tolerate Definitely not liking someone else until we meet each other when we're adults.

And then we'll get married. Before we go, we still have things to give to each other as souvenirs. But after being there I lost it since I don't know when. At first, I felt so sorry that I refused to eat rice or fish for a week. But when I thought about it, Even though the things we gave each other are not there We still have good feelings for each other.

No matter where we are, we still feel as if we are always with the person we love. That's because we use our hearts to connect and communicate our feelings to each other, rather than using things to look at differently. There is nothing that will last forever except the love of two people. that even though they are on different horizons

But they still have each other's hearts...."

He made a face as if he was interested in what he himself said and stared at me steadily. But I don't care When I listened to the story he told, I felt so at ease that I could smile. Wow! What is this? The handsome young man we secretly admire also has a childhood love story that is similar to ours, oh...

I thought that in this world I was the only one who had a promise to my boyfriend when I was a kid, even though everyone said it was nonsense. But I think it's something too precious to put a price on. It is pure feelings for each other and only people who are truly special to each other. So you can understand and recognize. Just like me and Bae!

I raised my hand to wipe away my tears. With shame beginning to spread over my entire body. I'm really funny Embarrassing times are not embarrassing. But when it's meaningless, it feels like you want to crawl into the ground. It's probably because other people are looking at me right now. He probably thought the two of us were fighting. Because from the point of view

They all lowered their heads to gossip and looked at me like they were gossiping about something. What was a person who was famous throughout the school and handsome like a god like Ranvee doing? Suspicious of people like me that everyone was afraid of and dubbed her the goddess of terror This kind of thing is therefore delicious news for the people at the school by default.

When people looked at me a lot, I felt both embarrassed and angry, so I yelled at them harshly and made a fierce face.

“Look, you guys, do you have anything to do that has brought so many people flocking to watch? Learn to interfere in the affairs of the villagers. Be careful. I will not release even one.”

As soon as I finished speaking, the hundreds of students who had gathered to watch quickly walked away, looking as if they were afraid. But the eyes were still as tempting as ever. So I shouted loudly.

"Are you going or not? I'm not going to find you!"

Everyone was running, afraid that I would hit them. I looked until I thought everyone had gone. So I felt relieved.

“You, this isn't bad at all. In an instant, hundreds of people could be chased away, and he had a terrifyingly fierce look on his face. Even though just now I was still crying from my bulging nose. Respectable,” Ranwee said, annoyed. But I don't get angry easily.

“Huh! It's already true. Who wouldn't be afraid of me, who everyone calls the Goddess of Horror? And one more thing that you teased me about. I don't mind. I'm a person who doesn't like to cry a lot. Stop means stop.” I acted arrogantly and confidently to cover up my embarrassment. He laughed as if he was laughing at my expression.

What if I'm trying not to get angry? Will still come and provoke you to anger.

“Yes, Goddess of Horror. I think I'm one of those people who isn't afraid of the goddess. But the goddess is the one who should be afraid of me instead.” He smiled mysteriously. I feel like my face is turning red. So I put on a stern face.

“Why should I be afraid of you? You're not a ghost at all.” I was confused. Why does he have to speak so strangely?

“It's really not a ghost. But I am a thief.”

“Heh! It's a petty thief. I'm not afraid to hire one."

I speak confidently Undaunted

“Huh, a heart thief.”

He said as he looked at me with sweet eyes. Ah...what should I do? I feel like I'm about to be swallowed. What is this? Did he really say that? Or are you just kidding? So what he said was a confession of love? What should I do? What should I do? I'm all excited.

“Are you willing to rob me, Lady of Terror?”

“I...I....you...uh....that is. Uh.....you mean you like me?" I asked directly after stuttering for a long time. Sigh, I've never told anyone I love you and no one has come to tell me I love them yet. So I don't know what it's like. I must have asked the right question. Because from his sweet, watery eyes, he became bored instead.

“You really don't know how people who like each other talk?” he asked, as if feeling relieved.

“Well, you probably know that I've always been a single woman. What boyfriend have you never had? So I don't know what this kind of thing is like.”

he sighed

“Wow! You really are innocent. I really don't know anything.”

I immediately frowned.

“Well, I really don't know. How are you going to tell me?”

He let out a long sigh again. before uttering it like a poem

“Sigh, it's like this, short girl, even though you don't have anything interesting. But why do I like you?”

"Huh..What did you say just now?"

“Ah!” He was shocked at my question. What? He seemed even shyer than me. Just saying this, I was so embarrassed that my face turned red, even to my ears.

But it's cute!

“I like you,” he managed to say. But he still had the same red face.

“Can you date me?”

This time, I was the one who was embarrassed. Immediately stunned My heart began to stir like a small boat being hit by a storm. Rushing in without stopping So how can you resist like this?

"okay"

The answer is short, but the meaning is too deep to describe. Even though those were the words I uttered, my heart felt like it was being melted.

“Here, walk carefully. If you walk sideways, you might bump into someone else.” Ranwee scolded me. So I went back.

"What? I'm walking like this. What's the fuss?"

"Eh! This girl!"

He gave me a fierce look. So I stuck out my tongue at him in annoyance. What kind of person is so ignorant? I don't know how I ended up dating him.

“Hahahahaha, you guys are not like our girlfriends at all. quarrel every day When will we be sweet again?”

Aom's voice sounded irritated. So I went angrily.

“Ugh, there's never a day I get to be sweet to this bitch. How annoying. Did you know that he kissed me the other day? So I slammed it in. He must be scared so he doesn't really treat me sweetly..."

“Why are you saying this?!”

He ran over and grabbed me by the neck. I cried out and struggled away from his strong arms.

“What? Why are you locking me up? Get out of here, you idiot.”

“Heh heh heh, definitely make me release myself, like kiss my cheek. What is this?”

I feel annoyed. So I bit his arm with full force. He cried out in pain and immediately released me.

"Ouch! It hurts. Why did you bite me, you idiot?"

I smile with satisfaction.

"deservedly"

He and I have been together for a long time. Every day usually passes without the two of us being very sweet to each other. I don't know what it is. It's like we're just close friends. We never once talked about dating. Even though they've been together for more than two months now.

We only talk about stupid nonsense. And what we will be especially interested in is that. Where shall we travel today? Most of which are at amusement parks or places with adventure sites. So it was even more like we were close friends. And no one has ever thought of me as a woman.

Everyone is keeping an eye on which girl I'll be dating. Even though I thought I was normal But why did my image of them turn out to be that I was homosexual?

Even though we're not very sweet together But I understand him well. He's a bit shy and doesn't dare to act sweet in front of his friends. But when the time came that we were alone together He will be very good to me. So I felt love for him even more. Even if he doesn't say it in words. But I understand. I still remember what happened the first week we started dating.

That day, the two of us got in the car to go to school. Then I accidentally stumbled into a very beautiful older sister in the car. He was shocked. He must have thought I was a psychotic man. So I screamed loudly in the car. Everyone in the car looked at me. I tried to explain to them that I was a woman. But still no one believes it.

He also started walking in and preparing to gang up on me. While I was at a standstill Ronawee then walked up and told them that I was really a woman and that I didn't mean to. will also collide with that older sister But they still insisted that I was the one to be punished. For molesting a young woman in public He was so angry.

Because I'm too lazy to explain what I really am. So he came and hugged me and said He and I are lovers. There's no way I'm cheating on him. And also said to blame me. This guy doesn't like women. Everyone was very confused and stunned. You probably thought we were a gay couple. So he stopped teasing us again.

Thinking about it now, I still can't help but laugh. I couldn't imagine that at that time he would have thought of such a thing. Then add to the story until those people believed it completely. But thank you very much for helping me.

Our love doesn't have any problems causing us to be apart. We both understand and understand each other so well that sometimes we don't even have to say anything. Just looking into each other's eyes we understand the meaning. But even if we say that there are no problems causing Our relationship is unstable. As for me, I think there is one problem that I don't like and don't want to face at all.

We don't usually act sweet in front of people. But when it's just the two of us, I really don't like it. He will act possessive as soon as he gets the chance (usually I like to give him a fierce face). So he doesn't bother me much. He likes to kiss me until he's satisfied. Actually, I would have liked to have him touch my body, but it would have been better.

If he doesn't push me too far. He would hug me and stroke me as if to arouse me. But because of this, he was kicked away by me and rarely bothered with me anymore. After all, we were both just in fifth grade right now. Also, I'm afraid of sex. Even though teenagers these days don't mind free sex.

But for me, I think I have to graduate first before we can talk about things like that. Now that I'm allowed to touch my body, it's considered a blessing to him. Normally, aside from my mother, I wouldn't let anyone bother me. You could say I'm an ancient child. It's really scary.

"Oh, this is a red ant. Bae's mother said that Bae has returned from abroad." She hurriedly reported to me early in the morning. I, who at first was drowsy and squinted at my eyes, suddenly became drowsy and my eyes widened.

“What? Bae has come back? And where is he now?” I asked my mother, wide-eyed and excited.

“Uh...I don't know. I think it's better to ask Bae's mother at home."

“Yes! I will go now.”

I was about to put on my shoes and quickly run to Bae's house. But Mom pulled on the collar.

“Wait a minute, Red Ant. I haven't showered or brushed my teeth yet. Are you going to go in that state?”

“It's okay. I can accept it,” I said nonchalantly.

“But Mom said you should at least brush your teeth first. I slept all night and my mouth smelled bad. Aren't you ashamed of him? I saw that his mother said that this time Bae became much more handsome and was a different person.”

Mom looks annoyed

“Really?! Oh! So good, I really want to see his face soon.”

I'm so happy I'm out of my sight.

“I have to go brush my teeth first, my friend.”

Mom made a mocking noise.

"I'm going to go already."

I replied kindly.

“It's just that, you can be lazy. Be careful, your teeth will rot all over your mouth.”

Mother still complains as usual. But I said jokingly.

"I'm not afraid to meet you, I'm afraid I won't find you."

“Eh! This child!” Mother made a fierce voice. But smiled like he enjoyed my teasing.

“Wow! I haven't seen you in over ten years. I didn't know that I would grow up to be such a cute girl.”

Beva's father patted my head affectionately.

“If Bae saw this, he would be happy to meet you. After he hasn't seen me in over ten years.”

“When we were there There isn't a day that goes by that he doesn't complain about missing me. It will like to say “When will I be able to go home to Thailand? I really miss red ants. I don't know if I'll forget the promise I made.” Then it would stand and stare at the sky as if thinking about something. Oh....your father's behavior.

Just like a 17-18 year old boy. Auntie saw it and couldn't help but laugh. What kind of child is really precocious?”

Beva's mother and laughed as if to really make fun of him, but about what Auntie said Is it true? Did he really never forget the promise he made to us? But now why are we the one who broke the promise? We went back to having a new boyfriend even though we already had him. Why can't we be trustworthy like this?

Even though he always believed in us and never forgot us for even a minute. Me, what happened to me?

“So where is he now?” I asked absently. But his mother smiled in good spirits.

“Oh! He's not here right now. Today I went to study with a friend at school. I think I'll be back in the evening."

I thought for a moment before saying goodbye.

“Then let me go back first. If he comes, please tell him that I came to see you.”

“Yes, yes, next day, come visit again. Invite a lot of friends so you can have fun.”

"yes"

I walked back dejected, like a person who had no idea what to do. Every fault is my own. I'm the one who created the problem. Therefore, I must be the one who fixes it myself. I will not allow anyone to have their heart hurt because of me. I will be the one who accepts this karma. I have to break up with Ronwee.

To prevent him from falling into the abyss with me. But why? When I thought about cutting him out of my mind, I felt an almost unbearable pain. It was like a thousand needles were stabbed into my heart.

“Today is Saturday. Then tomorrow, Sunday, we'd better invite him to hang out together."

I started thinking about breaking up with Ranvee again. Although the more I thought about it, the more my heart ached. But I thought that We must endure it. So that he won't be stuck with us who will only have sorrow.

“Hello, Ranwee? Oh, this is a red ant. Are you free tomorrow? Mod Daeng wants to invite Ranwee to a newly opened amusement park. Mother got a free ticket, so she asked Mod Daeng to invite Ranwee to go.” I started talking to him in a good mood, but he was probably... Shocked that I called

“Eh! What? Red Ant says he's not ready to date yet. Why is today so strange? Did you take the wrong bottle of medicine?” He annoyed me as usual. In the style of a good-natured, playful young man.

“What is it? People who go out of their way to invite you to go out and even try to speak nicely. It will still bother me. Be careful, you'll meet him.”

I pretend to be angry. So he immediately reconciled.

“Oh, don't be angry, darling. I'm just kidding a little. Please don't be upset.”

It's like this. I'm in two minds Can't decide whether to break up with him or not. Because he is kind, good-natured, playful, and perfect in everything. How can you be easily discouraged like this?

“Alright, then at 6:00 tomorrow the red ants will be waiting at the entrance to the amusement park.”

"Okay, ma'am."

His jokes made me laugh. Even in sad times like this

I looked at him nervously. They were both excited and sad as they thought of the events that would happen in the next few years. hours ahead I held my tiny shoulder bag tightly. So much pressure that you can't do anything. The long hours on the Ferris wheel didn't make it any better. It's only going to get worse and worse.

He looked at me carefully and smiled. Why did you have to smile now, you idiot?

“You are very cute today.”

I immediately looked at him. What? He was complimenting me? That's crazy. I'm about to break up with you!

"Uh...well...I...I have something I want to tell you."

He furrowed his brow as if he was suspicious of something.

"What is it? Come on, I can listen to everything."

What should I do? Why does he have to stare at me like this? And how can I speak like this!

“That is....that is...I would like..”

“The hour is over. Those whose hours are up, please come down.”

The voice of the Ferris wheel operator interrupted. So I stopped talking. and said to him with a smile on his face,

“You can go down and go find something else to play with.”

We played many rides until we were exhausted. One by one, exhausted. But I haven't told him that yet. The opportunity to tell him only interfered. Until I couldn't stand it

While we were walking around the fountain I took the opportunity to tell him.

“This is Ranwee.”

“What is it?”

“Suppose that if the two of us couldn't go together, Are you going to break up with me?” I wondered.

“Uh...I don't know. Why do you ask?” He must have been caught off guard when I asked this question.

“No, nothing. Just try asking.” And then I fell silent.

“And if I already have a boyfriend, what will you do?” This time I asked directly. He looked at me and smiled.

“Probably up to you. Who will you choose between me and that person?” he said quietly.

“What if I choose that person?” I tried to look at him again.

“I would probably have to give way to him. But that's okay. I can accept everything that is you. No matter how bad or good she is Just wishing for you to be happy makes me happy too,” he said with a serious expression. To the point that I was afraid that if I really said it, they would do the same as they said.

“Uh...Ronnawee..that is, I have something I want to tell you. That is...I want..”

I hadn't even finished speaking before he did something I never expected. He leaned down and kissed me as if to shut me up from what I was about to say. Why did he have to do this? Or does he know what I'm about to say?

He removed his lips from mine. Then he grabbed my cheek and squished it with a bright smile on his face. Then invited me to continue playing.

“Let's go, I feel like playing one more time.”

“I already have a boyfriend!!!!”

I blurted out in frustration. And it was like I could hear my own heart breaking. It hurt all over my heart, like being cut with a knife. It's probably over. My first love that wasn't very lustful at all. Even if you meet someone who you think is good and ready for everything. But nothing lasts forever.

I still looked at him with a blank face. He, too, remained silent. The eyes were cold and emotionless.

“He is a friend. who have played together since childhood But when we entered Kindergarten 2 He had to go abroad to get treatment for his illness. When his condition relapsed, I felt very sorry for him. He would hold his hand on his chest and writhe as if his heart was in pain. But in the end, he came back to Thailand again with the promise that we had made to each other. When I was a child, "

When we both grow up we will be lovers and while he is away we won't. I will definitely love someone.” But then I broke my promise to him. Because I'm your boyfriend."

I cried out in frustration. It's been a long time since I vented to anyone like this. Since Bae left I don't have many friends anymore. There are only Dulcimer and Aom who can talk to each other. Until when I met him, my life that seemed like a failure came back to life again. He came to fill in the missing parts.

And now if he leaves My life will probably be lost again.

Then he walked over and hugged me to rest on his chest. I cried even more because I thought he must hate me. I've been deceiving him all this time, saying there's no one, but it's wrong.

“It's okay, Red Ant. This matter is just a trivial matter.”

He spoke in a tone that didn't sound angry at all about my lying to him.

“But for me it was very painful. What do you want me to think? Since I already have a boyfriend but I told you I don't have one yet. I need to walk away from you.”

I looked up at him. while talking through tears But he smiled

“But even though I want to break up with you, I still can't get rid of you. When I can't see your face, it's almost unbearable. But I must keep the promise I made to Bae. What should I do?”

I sobbed, tears streaming down my face. He leaned down and kissed the tip of my nose softly. It's like you want to comfort me.

“Red ants now don't have to do or think too much about anything. Red ants should take more care of themselves. Before thinking about Bae's story."

"Eh! Bae? How do you know that name?” I asked, confused. Well, I never told him that my boyfriend's name was Bae. And where did he know that from?

“Eleven years ago I went abroad for heart transplant surgery. But before going, I made a promise to a girl. When I come back we will be lovers. and will get married when they become adults.”

Eh! What? This is a story between me and Benina. How did he know?

“And now that woman is standing in front of me.”

He said with a smile. Give me sweet eyes But I'm so confused. I don't know exactly what he's talking about. His story is all about me and Bae. And now he's hinting that he's Bae. How is it?

“What do you mean? Are you going to tell me that you are my boyfriend Bae?”

I asked him with a shaken and confused mind.

“Yes, it's me.”

He said smiling.

I was stunned, I really didn't think it was him. Well, he's the opposite of Bae in almost everything. Why can it be like this? Did I hear wrong?

“Then why do we have to fool each other? Why must you make me so dizzy?”

I cried, startling him.

"Bae, you're not fooling the red ants. Bae did this because she loves red ants.”

He holds my hand Then tried to use my children to beg me to make me soft-hearted. But I'm still silent

“Bae wants to know how the red ants are doing. Do you have a boyfriend yet? How much can you study and what other things does Bae want to know about the red ants?”

“And the Red Ant team still doesn't know anything about Bae. This is taking advantage of us.”

I still don't give in.

"Then what do I have Bae to do to make the red ants stop being angry?"

He looked guilty. Oh...so pitiful.

"do not need!"

I shouted at him angrily. What? It's been a long time since he transferred to the same school as me. But why does he have to hide the fact that he is Bae? It's like he doesn't trust me. And it made me feel really bad.

He looked at me guiltily. and then apologized

“Red Ant Bae, I'm really sorry for causing Red Ant a headache. But now Bae wants to…”

“From now on, I don't want to see your face!”

I yelled in his face. and stared at him with empty eyes You could clearly see how much pain his face was in right now. But I don't care how he feels. I'm angry that he deceived me. I refuse to understand anything. When he realized that even if I spoke up now, I would definitely not forgive him.

“Then Bae, I'd like to leave first. Bae thought that if she spoke up, Red Ant would definitely not forgive Bae. So from now on We'd better stay apart for a while. In case time will help us understand each other better.”

Then he walked away. Leaving me standing there stunned all alone. Why does his story with me have to be like this? Why must we be apart? Since we're still lovers, I don't understand. I'm really confused. Why do we have to fight? So what is this feeling?

Why do we have to be hurt by our own words? It's all because I don't understand him. He turns out to be so nice to us.

“Why did we let him leave us like this?”

I asked myself in confusion. And suddenly the tears came out on their own even though I had told myself that they wouldn't. Crying with absolute heartbreak But why does it flow out by itself? Or is this feeling not a symptom of being heartbroken? But someone who is heartbroken!

I walked home dejected. I feel like I want to die and get away from this world. But just thinking about it makes me want to cry. We don't want to leave him any longer. I want to be close to him like before. But at this time, maybe not as a boyfriend. But more than friends When I thought of it, I cried again.

Then I sat and cried in front of the door to the house. Mother must have heard my cries. So I walked out to see. and then cried out in shock

“Red ant, what's wrong with you? Why are you crying like this? Has anyone done anything to the child?”

I still sat and cried, not moving. It's like my heart is numb and emotionless. Tears flowed out on their own without stopping.

“Red Ant, why don't you answer? What's going on, huh?”

Mom still asked with concern. I looked up at my mother, she smiled at me and rubbed my head as if to console me. When I saw my mother treating me with such gentleness, I became even sadder and sadder. More annoyed So he hugged his mother and immediately let out a cry.

I cried without shame I want all my suffering to disappear with these many tears. I don't want to be like this for a long time. Because I felt pain that I could hardly stand it. I want all the stories that happened to be just good memories forever. I'll try to get over it and forget him.

Mother gently caressed my head as if she wanted to convey the meaning, "Don't cry." I just realized that when we are in the most heart-wrenching pain, We will have a mother to take care of us in everything. Even when we have a boyfriend, we neglect him and turn our attention to that person instead. Therefore, I think that from now on I will not make you have to worry about things that are not important. I made it again

I will try to stay and talk with you more. So that when I'm with you for a long time, I might forget Bae. And heal the heart wound that I just got and make it disappear from my heart.

"From now on, the red ant will stay with mother."

Mother must have been confused by the words I said. But he said it as if he could guess what I had experienced.

“What about that boyfriend of yours? Where has he gone to allow his child to come back and beg for his mother like this?”

Even though I knew my mother was just joking. But I immediately showed my symptoms.

“That guy cut off his tail and let him go. No, men are all liars and cannot be trusted.”

Mother laughed as if she knew.

“I know why you just sat there crying like you were about to die. Actually, it was because I broke up with my girlfriend.”

I immediately got up and wiped away my tears. while talking to cover up

“What? I didn't cry because of that kind of person. I cry because of something else.”

Mother looked at me with a puzzled look. and smiled mysteriously

“Then what is the matter that you just sit there crying and not being able to do anything? If it's not about your boyfriend."

I blushed, not knowing how to make an excuse that my mother would believe. So I stammered.

“So...about...the fact that I got zero points on the exam. Oh, that teacher is so cruel. Even though I was determined to study. Still refusing to help me pass. So boring..."

I say it with a straight face. But mother still refused to give up. Continue to wash me

"Really?"

So I couldn't reply anymore. So I stubbornly walked away and didn't answer my mother.

The next day, I walked to school as usual. I thought that if I had to face Bae directly, I would definitely not show him a sad face. and will not show ownership From now on we'll just be friends like before.

“Good morning Monday everyone.”

I walked into the classroom with a bright smile that didn't show anything unusual.

“Hello, Red Ant.”

“As well, red ants. Today is especially lovely.”

“Good, beautiful one.”

“Be careful, it's Ranwee's girlfriend. He'll just punch you."

Friends all made loud noises. I smiled at everyone and looked around the classroom. Then my eyes accidentally stumbled upon Bae's place. Why was he sitting next to that woman? And also have a friendly attitude. Even I have never done this kind of gesture before.

But with that woman, why was he so close? It was as if the two of them were lovers. Eh! But now we have no relationship. Whatever he does is his business. Why do we get into trouble and get angry and jealous?

“What are you looking at, red ant? I saw you standing still for a long time. Is something wrong?”

Aom asked with concern.

“No...nothing. I'm a little distraught.”

I answered in a low tone. But the eyes still look at Bae Aom looked at him with curiosity.

“Oh! Look, it's Mr. Ranwee. Oh...let's talk about red ants. Lately, I feel like he's become more and more attractive to the point that he hardly has time for him. And now I can see that you two were fighting. But for what reason, I don't know. I just want to warn you that.

There aren't many good people like him. You shouldn't have let him wander off without doing anything. You should claim him back before you lose him. I'm just giving you a warning here. As for you deciding what to do, it's up to you......"

I, too, am thinking about what to do with our story. Part of me wanted to reconcile with him. But another part of me wants to tease him back about the things he used to hide from me. Sigh, I'm really confused.

While we were studying, I would secretly look at him so often that sometimes he would turn his head. Looked at me directly and asked, Is there something wrong? But I hurriedly turned around and answered with a curt no. He then turned his attention back to what the teacher was teaching. As for me, I kept waiting for an opportunity to look at his face.

It's like a daily routine for me. If there's ever a day that I don't see his face I often looked at the table or at the entrance where he often walked. I don't know why. But if you don't see his face, your mind will be so anxious that you won't do anything.

The more I saw him with those girls, the more pain I felt. When I said I didn't want to see him again, was I just jealous of him?

At night, I often don't sleep well. Because I only think about Bae. I always ask myself questions like, is that the girl he talked to the other day that he's with? Was he really angry at me for yelling in his face like that? What is he going to do now?

and many other questions that cannot be answered Sometimes I feel like a crazy person talking to myself when I'm in a room alone. Sometimes I cry I also don't understand why after we started dating, I Changed to this extent Even though looking back at Bae, he still had a normal expression as if he didn't have any. It happened to the two of us.

As this feeling piled up for a long time, I started to endure it. Can't help but be distraught. I'd rather reconcile with him than have to continue suffering like this. Now I know how necessary he is to me. I can't live a normal life without him. Every day there is only sadness and torture to the point where I can't do anything.

“Hey! Bae, are you home? Come find me, Bae. Are you there?”

I called out to him in a loud voice over and over until he came out and opened the gate for me and walked me to the living room. He also muttered,

“What is going on? It's already dark in here, you idiot. I'm not in a hurry to go home yet. Don't you know that it's dangerous at night?"

“I know, but there's something I need to tell you right now.”

I smiled while talking, feeling both excited and embarrassed. Born, I have never had any feelings for anyone. When I thought that I was going to propose to him, I felt strange.

"What's the matter? Hurry up and tell me, I have something to do."

I immediately stopped smiling. What? Why did he say that he didn't want to see my face like that? Or does he really have a new girlfriend?

“Why do you have to talk like you hate me like this?”

“Eh?! I'm not. I really have something to do. You have to hurry and finish it. If you don't finish it, they'll blame you."

Bae answered, and I walked along for a long time. Trying to swallow down the lump in your throat so as not to let the tears fall out. Then he spoke with difficulty.

"really? Then I'd better get back. I don't want to bother you.”

“Well, see you tomorrow,” he said, smiling, then walked out and dropped me off at the front of the house.

I walked home feeling like I had just been attacked. Everything around him was blurred by a veil of tears flowing from his eyes. The flowers in front of my neighbor's house near my house are wilted and about to rot. Even though this morning it was still blooming and showing off its true beauty. I am probably like that flower that still radiates brightness in the morning.

But when night fell, it withered and lost its beauty.

I cried all the way. When he got home, he hurried into his room. Grabbing a towel, he walked into the bathroom. I turned on the water and poured it on myself, thinking of taking a shower to wash away my misfortune. But when he thought about this and that, his mind started to spin. Both confused and unable to understand things around us

Why does everything have to turn out like this? Why didn't it turn out like I thought? The more I thought about it, the more sad and incomprehensible I became.

today morning I woke up and felt dizzy. I was very surprised by my own body. I usually wake up refreshed every day. So why am I different today? When I looked at the clock, I was shocked. It was already 3 a.m.

Why didn't Mom wake me up? How could you let me wake up late? Plus today it's my shift to clean the room. If I don't go, I'll definitely be punished again. I hurriedly got up to take a shower and get dressed. But I had to sit on the bed as usual. Because when he got up it was as if the whole world was spinning so fast he couldn't keep his balance.

I also wondered what was wrong with me today. But before I could find the answer Mother answered first. With a distant shout

“Wait, wait, wait, don't get up, red ant. My child is feeling sick right now."

I sat and looked at my mother confused. What? Am I sick?

“Are you sick?”

“Yes, my child has had a fever since last night. I suspect it's because the child poured water on himself until he turned pale. To have a condition like this.”

Mom explains, smiling. I'm confused as to how she knows what I did last night.

“How do you know that I turned on the water on myself last night?”

"There's nothing Mom doesn't know."

Mother said and smiled as if she was satisfied with something. But his eyes were clearly worried about me.

“Go and take a shower and then come eat some food and take some medicine. You'll get better soon. Then I have the strength to continue fighting various problems.”

“I already know.”

Even if I speak badly of my mother But I love my mother very much. Therefore, I do not want to offend you in order to make you comfortable.

In the evening, after I woke up, I heard my mother and someone talking. Then there was the sound of someone walking into my room. That person opened the door and I was taken aback by my unexpected surprise.

“Bae”

I said, my voice hoarse from the effects of the flu.

“Bae heard from Aom this morning that Mod Daeng's mother called to tell the homeroom teacher. That Red Ant couldn't come to school today because he was sick with the flu. So Bae bought a lot of things to come and visit, have you seen that?”

he said hurriedly His expression showed how much he cared about me. Makes me feel very touched.

"Oh...thank you very much."

He smiled widely and quickly brought out several snacks for me to choose from. Then he urged me to eat.

“This is a candle cake, red ant. And here's Khanom Tan, Thong Phlu, Khanom Chan, Thong Yod. I've eaten some of these before. They're delicious. Red Ants, try eating some."

"Has Bae gotten over his anger at the red ants?"

I asked, catching him off guard.

“What is it, red ants? Bae has never once been angry at a red ant.”

He replied with a straight face.

“Then why didn't Bae talk to the red ants while at school? Just talking with other friends and that 4th grade student as well.”

“Oh! Or the story about the red ants acting like they were angry? Is it because of this reason? Red ants are jealous of Bae, right?”

He said it only jokingly. So I blushed and blushed. So I made a face at him and he laughed.

“What is this? We've been separated for so many days because of this? This red ant tends to be a person who thinks too much.”

He laughed, causing me to relax and smile along with him.

“Did you see that? I made the red ant smile. You must get well quickly like this. But I have to taste Bae's dessert first. Otherwise, Bae will be really disappointed.”

“Okay, so which one do you want the red ants to eat first? There are a lot. I can't choose at all.”

He smiled as he lifted a small box out of his school bag. He opened it. Ah...it's really wonderful.

There were many colorful and delicious rhombuses in there. He still remembers what I like. I was so moved that I burst into tears myself. He saw it and raised his hand to wipe away her tears and spoke as if to mean something.

“What is it that makes you so happy that you cry? But from now on Bae won't make the red ants cry again. Bae will treat the red ants as much as life itself.”

I saw the determination in his eyes shine brightly. It shows that he must be very serious. So I reached out and hugged his neck.

“Thank you very much for everything. Bae makes the Red Ants get to know the meaning of life more. It makes the red ants feel like they have grown up quite a lot.”

I smiled at him sincerely, and he smiled softly at me. Now we understand each other and are ready to fight every problem that life throws at us. Our love

“Red ants want to eat that rhombic thing.”

"Alright, alright, I'll give it to you myself."

He immediately volunteered. We pulled away from each other and ate delicious snacks together.

“When I eat this snack, I really remember the past.”

He spoke absentmindedly.

“Oh...that's it. If possible, I really want to go back to that time. We get to play and have fun together every day.”

I think according to my opinion. Smiling happily as he thought about the past.

"But Bae doesn't want to go back."

“Eh! Why? Bae didn't like it before?”

“It's not that I don't like it. Well, if we go back to the past, Bae and Red Ant would not have fought like this. Do the red ants know that when the two of us are like this? Bae felt that she loved Red Ant a hundred times more.”

“Red ants are the same. I almost died of suffering until we understood each other. Some days, Red Ant can't sleep at all. I cried all night. Because Ben is the cause of this.”

“Why is Bae the cause? Bae didn't do anything to the red ants."

"Well, Bae makes the red ants miss you, crazy eyes."

I said to him and pinched his cheek like a fang. So he returned the favor by kissing me once. So I chased and hit him because I was so shy.

"Wait a minute, sick people must not run around."

“I'm cured. Come and give me a good spanking.”

Times like this are truly happy. We both tease each other even though it looks like we're friends who are bothering each other, but actually we both know what's going on. We chased each other until we were tired so we sat down to rest on my bed.

“Beva, the red ant is tired. You should get some sleep. It won't go away anytime soon."

Beva, but I'm stubborn.

“No, a strong red ant will die. It's not like Bae who is so sick that she has to go abroad.”

I said it jokingly, so he frowned.

"Red Ant, don't make fun of Bae from the past. Bae is upset."

So I moved to hug him. and spoke as if comforting a child

“Bae, don't be disappointed. The red ant was just kidding. Even though the red ants are a bit stubborn. But Ant Daeng still loves Bae like before.”

So he smiled. And kiss me once When I played like this, I felt so embarrassed.

“A gift from Beja. I hope you get well soon. Bae wants to see Red Ant's face every day. I don't want the red ants to disappear again."

He said and looked at me with eyes full of love. Oh, how can I not love you like this?

“Red Ant also won't let Bae go with someone else.”

“Oh, those two can come down and eat. It's already very cold. Aren't you really hungry?"

Mother's voice called us both to lunch. We smile happily Holding each other's hands tightly, from now on we will never be apart again. We will be together until we grow old. and will love each other forever

Even though it has been many decades. But my wait was worth it. Because when he returned, he came back to give us warmth again as before. And a smile that can't be found anywhere else is given to me alone. From now on, my wait is over. But my chaotic love story will begin. And you?

Is there still someone you're waiting for?