Just the word "close friend" makes it known that

A love that cannot come true How is it...

...I secretly loved him from the first time I saw him. And we have been together for a long time as friends. But in my heart I wanted more. What can I do when the word "friend" keeps me locked up?

What could be more painful than this? With loving a close friend That even though I love him But I didn't dare to say "I love you" just because I wanted to keep the friendship between us.

“Hey! Wait for me, morning glory,” Christ's voice called out to me from behind. I turned to look and stood and waited until he came running.

“I have called out to you many times. Didn't you hear that?" He scolded me as soon as he reached me. His hair is messy because he just woke up. School uniforms look like they've been roughly ironed. Even though it's not very neat, it's like he doesn't care at all.

"Well, I went up to wake you up in the bedroom, but you wouldn't wake up yourself. I couldn't help it," I said, walking ahead of him. Let him run after you.

“Well, I didn't hear that. I guess you didn't wake me up loud enough.” He said in a murky excuse, even though he was the one who woke up late himself.

“Then from tomorrow onwards. You woke up yourself!” I said angrily and walked away without waiting for him. He followed along and apologized profusely to me.

“Come on, morning glory. You know that I would definitely die if I didn't have you. We made a promise that we wouldn't be separated. Have you forgotten?” He tried to find all kinds of words to persuade me. To make me agree to wake up a sleepy person like him every morning to get up in time for school.

“I...I haven't forgotten yet!!!”

“Then from now on You have to wake me up every morning before school, as usual, I promise,” he said with a smile and raised his pinky finger. I looked at him and raised my pinky finger to intertwine with his. He smiled widely, happy that I accepted. without ever knowing that Inside my heart, I never thought of wanting to leave him anywhere...

Christ and I have been playmates since kindergarten. Our two houses are next to each other. And our fathers were friends. Both of our families often visit each other often. Especially me who likes to play at his house often. Because Christ's mother always makes delicious snacks for me to eat.

And because I was an only child at home, I was lonely because I had no friends to play with. So I have to come see Christ often. So we are very close. And because we continued to study together until we reached high school, the closeness between him and I became even stronger. To the point that some people call us "twins" because wherever we go we always go together.

But there is something hidden in the intimacy of friendship. It happened to me from the first day I saw him. I was a little child then. I overheard Mom and Dad talking about a new family moving in next to our house. Out of curiosity, I immediately leaned forward to take a look. And I saw Christ, who was really cute then.

As soon as I saw his face, I was extremely impressed with him. I wanted to get to know him, and I wanted to be friends. And that day his mother introduced us to each other. We have been good friends ever since.

At first I thought The feelings I had for him when I was a child were just childish feelings of liking someone. But I realized that I was wrong because when we studied at the level I still liked him in middle school, but it wasn't until high school that I realized that I really like him.

Even though he doesn't know right now because friendship is still blocking him. But one day I will have to tell him how I feel about him. Even if it takes a lifetime

“Senior, this is a Valentine's Day present.” A girl from Mathayom 4 handed Christ a wrapped chocolate with a shy face as Christ and I were about to walk into the classroom. He stood confused for a moment before extending his hand to receive it. That girl rushed over as soon as he took the chocolate from her hand. I leaned forward and looked at the chocolate in Christ's hand out of curiosity.

But he quickly stuffed it into his bag.

“Hey! What's going on? Take it out and look at it now. We never had secrets from each other, right?” I said as I reached out to grab it but was blocked by him.

“Except for the lover!” he said with a deadpan smile. I didn't know what to do, so I just stood there and was angry. As he walked into the classroom

“Ugh! Did you think I could let another girl take you away from me?”

After standing there angrily by myself, I walked into the classroom. As soon as I entered, I was so stunned I could hardly speak. My classroom was filled with women giving Valentine's Day gifts. Tie to Christ They stood around Christ until I couldn't even see his head.

“What is this? Why are they all standing in my room? Is there nothing else to do?” I said in a loud voice. But as soon as they heard my voice, they rushed towards me!

“Valentine's Day present, senior.”

"My name is Yaem. I live in room 4/1. I've liked seniors for a long time."

“Does your senior have a boyfriend now?”

“We're in room 3. Anyway, let's take this chocolate. But if you don't like it, that's okay.”

"Did you know that you're really cool when you play sports?"

In addition, there were dozens of men gathered around and crowded around. together to give me a present By the time they could go back, I almost died. The gifts they gave me were all piled up on my study table.

“Oh, morning glory...how could you do this? Both men and women are gathering around you like flies gathering in a pile of poop,” Christ's closest male friend, Top, said in an astonished tone. But I'm not proud of this.

“Aren't you worried about your friends at all? I was crushed to the point of being crushed by them. Do you still have the face to be envious of me?” I said fiercely, standing up. After being crushed by the younger generation and sitting on the floor. Christ walked over and grabbed my hand and pulled me up. Wow...my heart almost fell to the floor.

“Thank you very much,” I said softly as I stood up and brushed the dust off my skirt. Looking at Christ, he saw that he was just looking at me, no matter what. But when I looked at his study table I saw that there were only gifts that the ladies had brought and presented all over the table. From the joy I felt when he held my hand just now It seemed to fade away after seeing those many gift boxes.

During lunch break, me, Christ, Top and 5 other male friends went to eat at the cafeteria like every day. But today might be a little different. Because it seems like all those lucky friends are always teasing me about that morning. Until now I almost He was already burying his head in the ground and escaping.

“Did you guys see it this morning? The younger generation flocked to bring gifts to the morning glory. Oh...what would it be like? Both women and men are surrounded in every direction. I saw it and I'm still jealous. Let me ask you a question, Morning Glory. How can you do it? Even a handsome person like me can't do it.”

The loudest male friend in the group spoke up loudly like his mouth was plugged into a loudspeaker. The other friends all sat and pretended to vomit in disgust. So he got hit with a hammer and his eyes almost fell off.

“I saw a girl who was probably a Mathayom 4 student. This was very touching. She said, 'Even though the senior is a girl, But you made us know that If I could make one wish What we would like to request is Just ask the seniors to hug us for a long time.'” Boss, who was the most playful member of the group, stood up and spoke in imitation of a woman's voice.

Hands hugging Mangosteen's waist, my partner. Mangosteen also cooperated in the performance very well by hugging in response. with a voice imitating me

"Yes, I will do as you request," Mangosteen said and hugged Boss who was hugging his waist. Along with making a deep emotion Everyone in the cafeteria looked at the two of them with shock and curiosity. I was really ashamed. I didn't know how to do it. It was so embarrassing. As for Christ, he just sat there and laughed like a crazy person.

What is this, my friend!?

“Oh! And have you guys noticed? There was a girl who was small and cute...cute. But I can't believe that he likes morning glory. Oh! If I were you, Morning Glory I'm going to.....Hmph..." Note, the friend who was like the animator of the group, said with a lustful expression. We all burst out laughing immediately.

Toph laughed so much that he spit out rice onto the schoolboy's face like a green. But it seems like Khiao didn't feel anything at all about the incident. He kept a straight face and ate his food like he had no feelings. But my friends were laughing so hard I couldn't breathe. The other people in the cafeteria were laughing like crazy people.

Until I had to drag a bunch of my naughty friends out of the cafeteria because I was embarrassed. Why don't you ignore me for not knowing what you're doing?

After finishing studying in the afternoon During free time, all 8 of us went for a walk around the school. From walking to watch them play tennis, football, volleyball, takraw at the stadium. Go look at other rooms, do crafts and draw pictures. at the art building Went to see him practice music and dance in the music room. Then I went to see junior high school students play Thai music in the Thai music room.

A place where the whole school is afraid that this room is haunted by the spirit of a dancer. After walking for a long time, we all gathered to sit at our usual place. That's the pile of wood behind the school. And as soon as we lowered our butts to our regular seats The boss hurriedly spoke as if he was afraid that someone would steal his speech.

“Hey, hey, I have a good idea that I want to present to you guys. In case you guys are having fun like I am…” “If you have anything to say,” Christ said in a good mood.

“But if the matter you presented is as nonsensical as yourself, then I probably know what you'll be like.” Pun said it in a serious tone. Khiao could only nod his head, agreeing with what Phan said. The boss looked at each of us one by one and smiled coldly. he asked slowly and in a low voice.

“All of you are free this evening, right?”

"Uh..." we said together. Sit and look intently at the boss because you want to know what he will say after presenting for so long. The mischievous-looking man smiled widely and spoke slowly.

“I say, this evening, let's hunt down the truth about the spirit of the dancer in that Thai music room, shall we?”

“I don't want it! I'm busy this evening. I have to read a book!” Khieo shouted loudly. His face was so pale that even I was shocked. He was probably afraid of having to face something called a ghost. As for me, I try to keep my face on and be confident. They'll know that I'm afraid of ghosts too. Even though I'm reckless and not afraid of anyone, there's only one thing I have to accept and ask for. Far away, that's a ghost.

“What is it, Green? Where are you going to read this book?! We're going to find exciting things to do, but we're still worried about reading books. And when you told me that you were free Do you remember our vows? 'When a man speaks, don't go back on your word. One word that we vowed to remember until we die'” Mangosteen said angrily.

“I agree, I will come tonight,” Christ cut in. I gasped, not expecting him to dare to come. As for the ghost in the Thai music room, I heard friends in other rooms say that it was very haunted. Even the janitors who come on duty at night have also been hit. And I also heard another friend say that he himself had this happen when he forgot something in the room and went in to get it. Ugh!

Boss, what was he thinking to do such a prank?

“I will also come to prove that the rumors spread throughout the school are true. Or is it a story that was made up to frighten other people?” Note said with a solemn expression. Phan nodded in agreement. Ah! What should I do? Only Top has not agreed to come. Oh...Amen. Please don't let him agree. At least I'll have an excuse that if TOP doesn't come, I won't come.

“Okay, I'll come.”

Hoy! You idiot, then I'm the only one left!

“What about you, morning glory?” Toph asked me. I hesitated for a moment before smiling and confidently answering.

"oh! Me? Of course, people like me will miss this kind of thing. Tell me the appointment time and tell me at what time you want me to come. I will prepare in time.”

“I already thought about it. We have to meet at the 4th intersection in front of Note's house at 8 p.m. When we're all here, we'll prepare to go," said the strategic boss. while looking at the faces of others Christ asked.

“So what do we need to prepare? Um..I mean the rescue equipment...or some kind of tool that can be used in times of necessity.”

“Oh! Don't worry about that. I've prepared it already,” Boss said as he grabbed the bag that was next to him and opened it for us to see.

“Whoa! There are only great things,” Phan said in amazement. Mangosteen, Note, and Toph themselves looked at each other with their eyes widening. As for Khiao, he just sat and looked as if he was about to cry. I also tried to act normal because I was afraid my friends would find out that I was afraid of ghosts. You'll ruin the school's strong female image.

"Then let's agree to this. Tonight, meet at 8 p.m. at Note's house intersection at 4."

After school ended, I hurried home and packed my things into my trusty shoulder bag since the sun had not yet set.

“Flashlights, pocket knives, candles, lighters, electric shocks. Rotten egg scent spray Ah...and what's left?...” I counted the things in my bag and thought about what I forgot. All self-defense items are complete. It can be used in emergencies or when a ghost comes in and grabs your neck. Eh! Wait...is there still something missing?

“Father, I have something to ask for help with!” I shouted before I could reach him. Dad looked up from the vegetable patch and looked at me.

“Fathers, I would like to borrow your amulet.”

“What is the matter that caused you to borrow my father's amulet? Are you going to meet a ghost?” Dad said, right on point. Made me feel embarrassed. Is there anyone who knows my heart more than my father? When Dad found out that I would actually do as he said, he laughed.

“Hahaha, I thought it was nothing wrong. You crazy child! I'm afraid I'll go again. I must have been invited by a friend to invest this much,” Father said, taking out the amulet in his neck and giving it to me. I took it and joked with my father.

“Father, I know everything. If you buy the lottery, you'll probably win every draw."

“Okay, wherever you want to go, just go. It's getting dark here. If you go when it's dark, be careful or ghosts will come out and wander around,” said Father, making a scary face.

"father! People are even more afraid. You're still coming to tease me.” Then I quickly ran to the house to get my bag.

The sun has gone down. Everything is completely dark. There were only a few lights in the park that shone a dim light like those in a ghost movie. I walked around hugging my bag tightly. Try to walk as quietly as possible for fear of ghosts hearing you. His eyes narrowed and he could barely see the path ahead. Ears were always attentive to the sound. I only realized when I walked out of the house just now that nights without the moon can be this scary.

After a short walk I arrived at our meeting point. No one has come yet. And most importantly, not long ago I heard the old people here say, The intersection in front of Mr. Note's house used to be a cemetery. But when civilization came, that cemetery was made into a road. The more I thought about it, the more scared I became. The atmosphere in this area is also not very reliable. It's dark.

The cool wind likes to blow often. Huh...somebody please hurry up and come. I'm so scared I'm going to pee!

“Oh! Who do you think is? This morning glory girl Have you been waiting for us for a long time?” It was the boss's voice. It's like a voice from heaven. Oh...I thought I'd have to wait in fear of ghosts until shit got into my brain. I'm so lucky to have you as friends.

“I went to check on her at home. But her mother said she came out at 7 p.m., so I went to wait for the two of them,” Christ said, pointing at Toph and Mangosteen. The two of them could only smile teasingly. As for Boss, do you think your friends are complete yet? Then he asked

“Oh! Note and Green haven't arrived yet? What is it with these two people not keeping track of time? It's already 8 p.m., why haven't you seen his head yet?" But before he finished speaking, Note walked out of the house with Green clinging to him tightly, refusing to leave him. The boss immediately complained.

“What have you two done? The house is just this close. I walked two steps and was still as slow as a turtle crawling.” The two of them didn't say anything. Christ cut in.

“Now we are all here. I think we can go now. It's already 8 p.m.!” The friends immediately cheered with joy at the adventure to find the truth. About the spirits in the Thai music room is about to begin. Except for me and Khiao, who could only look at each other, unsure of whether to come back out of Can the school be kept in its original condition?

We entered the school by climbing the wall because the front entrance was completely closed. With Boss leading the way, followed by Top, Note, Phan, Khiao, Mangosteen, me, and Christ walking last. We slowly walked around exploring each building. Because we were afraid the janitor would see us, we had to sneak in little by little and use a flashlight only when necessary.

It took more than an hour to reach the art building. When I first saw it, I didn't think it was a school building. Because it's both dark and scary. Everywhere is quiet. The person walking in the middle was trembling with fear. I, too, began to feel giddy. I didn't know if anything would pop out or not, so I hurried over and pressed Christ in.

Because if a ghost shows up, at least I'll be able to cling to him. As for his mischievous friends, they didn't appear to be afraid at all. On the contrary, they even seemed to enjoy catching ghosts. As soon as the boss was able to open the art building door We immediately walked in to take a look inside. Everything in the room is normal. Both the international music room Ballet practice room Folk music room, dance room, visual arts room, dance room

And there are many other rooms that are not much different from the daytime. But that Thai music room!

“Did you guys hear anything?” Green suddenly blurted out. The friends stopped and listened intently. Boss said, not very satisfied.

“Are your ears deaf? There's no one here. How can there be any sound?” Even though Boss said that, Note said with a pale face,

“But I heard it. It sounded like...a fiddle!” The friends all started to look bad. I myself am starting to lose focus. Fear took over me until I was completely gone. I hugged Christ's arms tightly, trying to keep myself from screaming. The sound of the fiddle disappeared, but instead there was the sound of xylophones and dulcimer!

“I...I...must go and see for sure. Is the ghost story that the whole school is rumored to be true or not?” Boss still held onto his ideals. He is like this. If you think about doing something, you usually won't give in easily. He walked to the door of the Thai music room and slowly opened the door.

“Hey! No, are you going crazy?!” Pan called out to the boss and immediately ran towards the boss. We ran after the whole group. I clung to Christ but then my hand felt like it was melting. Then it slowly slipped out of Christ's arms. And everything went completely dark...

“Hahahaha, I didn't realize that. People who are known as the strong girls of our school. He's famous for never being afraid of anyone, but he's so afraid of ghosts that he faints, hahaha.” Mangosteen sat talking and laughing while we were eating at the cafeteria. The friends in the group all laughed happily. I looked angrily as my friends went to eat. Can't say anything because it's exactly what they said.

“What about other people? You guys are the same. As soon as I opened the door, before I could even walk into the room, they ran all the way home, almost unable to make it home,” Christ said after sitting in silence for a long time. But as soon as he finished speaking, his friends were immediately mobbed and sprayed with a war of words.

“What about you, handsome man? If you see him standing there stunned for a long time, he probably won't be able to run,” said the boss.

“I walked in to take a look. You all rushed over and didn't see anything unexpected,” said Christ, looking like it was extremely exciting. The friends spoke together.

“What? Something unexpected!” Christ smiled and shouted.

“Well, the Thai music teacher forgot to turn off the tape. The music was loud throughout the building like that.” That answer almost made all of my mischievous friends shiver. I laughed until my stomach hurt because I'm not the only one who's afraid of ghosts. The whole group of friends also have lungs.

Our lunchtime passed with laughter. We all went to sit in the classroom and wait to go to class in the afternoon. Everyone rested comfortably. The boss was sitting in front of the window talking on the phone, twisting and turning. Sitting and playing games drunkenly in the back of the room. As for Khieo, he sits and reads a book (novel) at his own table while smiling.

and mangosteen and notes lying on the table placed one after the other Sometimes their legs are draped around each other's necks, so it's just me, Christ, and Toph who sit and talk. I talked and put my hand under the table (as is my habit) and was surprised. Confused, I took out 4-5 pink envelopes from under the table. Oh....a love letter!

“Let me see some,” Toph said, quickly snatching it out of my hand. I can't hide a thing from this guy, right?

“You don't have to open it and read it, do you? I don't see anything interesting. I don't know what I wrote, it's nonsense. So sweet you'll vomit Plus, there are still women who are mentally unstable. Even though some of them are pretty and pretty, I don't understand why women are able to do this now.” I rambled for a long time, but Christ and Toph looked at me and smiled as if there was something wrong.

“Is there something wrong? Why are you looking at me like that?” I asked curiously. The two looked at each other but Christ only smiled. TOP handed the letter back to me. I took it and read it, but when I read it I felt my face start to heat up. Because the letter that was written was from the most popular male senior in school (after Christ).

I really didn't think that the person that everyone in school was crazy about would lower himself to be the girlfriend of someone that everyone called a gangster like me. Toph appeared and looked at me and said jokingly,

“Do you see that your face is red like this? It shows that you're shaken. Of course, the person who came to flirt with you is a senior who makes everyone crazy and crazy. If I were you, I'd already promised you, morning glory girl..." Even though Top said that, I never thought of doing what he said. What's the point of putting yourself at risk with that senior's fan club? Refuse to be his girlfriend

For the rest of my life I will definitely have to be careful. And again, in my heart there is only Christ. Even though that senior is as handsome as an angel, he will never be able to win my heart.

“I'm a bit naked. I'm not shaken. And I will reject him too. Because I don't like him,” I said confidently and firmly, but both Top, Christ, and friends in my group (who had been together since I don't know when) all looked at me and asked at the same time,

“And who is the person you like?” I looked at each of my friends' faces in shock. And when thinking about the answer that I want to answer It immediately made my face heat up. I felt myself blush until my face was red. So he solved his embarrassment by yelling at them. It made my friends panic and run in different directions because they knew how scary it was when I was angry, and because they had encountered it often, they knew it and had to quickly escape to save themselves first.

After learning how to play all day, our group of 7 boys and 1 girl immediately raced to their favorite bakery.

“Hahaha, I win. The last three people who came late have to feed us all, do you understand?” I shouted loudly in the shop. My friends who came with me immediately cheered. But the people who came late were Khieo, Christ, and Top, who all complained loudly.

“What? We didn't agree on it from the beginning. You're such a cheater,” Toph complained as he sat down on his chair. As for Green, he could only breathe from exhaustion. Christ immediately cut him off.

“Hey, hey, don't talk too much. Today I raised it myself.” We immediately cheered throughout the shop. Christ is such a kind and loving friend that everyone likes him (including me). We ordered several desserts and sat and ate while talking. Making loud noises throughout the store Fortunately, the auntie who owns the shop is very kind and we are regular customers. Otherwise, he would have been kicked out of the store.

“Hey, hey, don't take away my pancakes. There are so many things on your plate that it's overflowing!” Boss shouted as I was about to scoop up the pancakes on his plate.

"Yah! Just this makes me jealous. How much can you eat? You're as skinny as you want to be impaled on a ghost.” I said, somewhat dissatisfied. Christ hurried in to mediate. because he saw our expressions pretending to eat each other

“Come on, both of you! Give back your pancakes, boss. As for you, why would you want to steal his things? My own plate is full and I won't be able to eat it all.” Christ spoke harshly, so I just sat still. But in no time the spirit of the good angel entered Christ's body again. He scooped pancakes from his plate and gave them to me with a kind smile.

“Oh! I gave you a lot to eat, little pig. The little one ate almost all the snacks in the store. Oh! It's stained! Can't you just eat it well?" Wow...my heart is melting again. He was so kind and understanding of me and even wiped my cheek that was covered in candy. Oh...how am I going to behave?!

“Oh...please take care of each other. One person likes to be spoiled. Another person is good at pleasing. Oh...it really is as if we were best friends!" Toph said irritably.

“But no matter how you look at it, I don't think it's like friends at all. It's more like father and son,” Note said with a laugh. Everyone burst into laughter, including me. (I think it's more like making a teasing face.) Sigh! Sitting in anticipation, almost holding your breath, thinking about what to say. I thought to myself that the note probably said that Christ and I were like lovers.

Where was the image of me and Christ in the eyes of my friends? They saw me as a child and Christ as an adult. Oh...let's just say it's really like what they said. From the time I was a child, Christ was always there for me and managing my life. (Just like my father)

And maybe it was because of his pampering towards me that made me a stubborn and self-willed child that everyone was fed up with. But no matter how stubborn I was, he never once got angry at me. He was kind, gentle, and would always have a smile for me. Because of this, I like him.

Every day after we had a crazy idea to invite each other to go on a school tour at night. To prove the story of spirits in the Thai music room and found that it was just a misunderstanding. And then the person who saw it trembled. I feel like we'll become closer (even though we often have to yell at each other), especially with me.

My friends will never let me be alone. Because since the day I was so scared of ghosts that I blacked out, my friends know that I am a person who is very strong when meeting other people. But when I met a ghost, that's all. Her strong womanhood instantly disappeared before her eyes.

“Hey, I thought it would be a good idea for us to go on a trip tomorrow? Go to an amusement park, go swimming, watch movies, eat food, eat ice cream, eat spaghetti, pizza…” I said as we walked home from school in the evening.

“Agreed that this program is all about food, right?” Christ said with a smile. The boss intervened.

“What else does this thing have besides food? If something comes up and no food item comes in, what? I think I'm not the morning glory anymore.”

“You are the same, Boss. If it's such a reckless, death-defying thing, only you like to do it,” said some people.

“Oh...but what the morning glory said also makes sense. Go to the amusement park and take a break for lunch. Then go watch an exciting action movie and then go play in the water before leaving. I think it's good to do this as well.” Toph rambled along with the air of a great scholar.

Green nodded his head, indicating that he agreed with what Toph said. But I interrupted.

“Something else is fine. But in my opinion, you have to watch a ghost movie to make it fun. Haven't you ever heard what the book says? People who like to watch or play games that involve killing or other violent things. When I watch it for a long time, it stimulates my subconscious mind to feel like killing people. Serious things are normal things that anyone can do.

Just like they were making big news in the newspapers. Aren't you afraid that it might happen like that?” I mixed up various reasons, both academic and personal, to make my friends agree. But instead, the mangosteen came back.

“I want to watch a ghost movie and I'm afraid of ghosts until I pass out. Have you gone crazy, Morning Glory?”

“Well...it was fun. I still remember The day we went on a school tour at night. Oh...it's extremely exciting. It's both fun and scary mixed together..." I said, smiling. My friends probably thought that even if I objected, it would be of no use to do as I wanted. Change the travel program from watching action movies to ghost movies instead. Huh, it has to be like this to be my true friend.

“Scream!!!! Get out!” I screamed while watching a movie and a ghost suddenly appeared. Boss's voice rose angrily as he tried to push me away from him.

“You are the one who gets away from me, morning glory. Hug me tight like this, I'm so excited. Go hug Christ over there.” Then he pushed me over to Christ who was sitting in the next chair. I staggered slightly before falling into Christ's strong embrace.

“Let me go, Christ. People will misunderstand each other,” I whispered to him as I pushed his chest away from myself.

“It's okay. Aren't you afraid? Hug me, I know that when you're afraid I'll hold you like this. Then you will stop being afraid and fall asleep,” Christ said softly. I just sat with my head still, not daring to look up at him. Because I realized that right now my mind was spinning and I could hardly control myself.

I closed my eyes and rested my head on Christ's chest. Hug him tightly and try not to think about the movie you saw just now. The sound of the scary movie was completely destroyed when I was wrapped in his warm embrace. His scent, his voice, and the hand that stroked my head as if wanting to reassure me from fear were so overwhelming. Gentle and feels safe I have nothing to fear anymore.

What should I do so I can own this embrace forever...

After the day we went on a wild trip My every day is still the same. Every morning I had to wake Christ up and walk to school at the same time. But there was one day when everything seemed different. That day, as I walked to Christ's house to wake him up like every other day, it was unexpected.

The person who likes to sleep soundly and doesn't get up until someone kicks him until he falls off the bed and then wakes up. Walking out of the house before I even walked to his house.

“Oh morning glory! Come early in the morning. Uh...sorry, today I can wake up on my own. So she had a hard time walking all the way home,” Christ said with a bright smile.

“Ah...Oh! It's okay. It's my duty.” I smiled dryly, not knowing why I felt strange.

“Then let's hurry up and get to school or we'll be late,” Christ finished and walked in front of me without another word. Christianity is really strange. The whole way we walked together he didn't say a word. There will be some when I talk too. But he asked for an answer. Until he reached the classroom, he could only greet his friends with a few words. Then he excused himself to go outside the classroom to talk on the phone.

“What is it, bloke? Acting like you have some guilt attached to you,” Boss said with an annoyed expression.

“That's right, he usually likes to greet us and joke with us all the time. So why is it so quiet today?” Mangosteen added.

“I wonder if he read too much last night and became depressed,” Khiao said, his eyes still fixed on the book.

“Who the hell is reading a book like you green-headed idiot? That thing must have something to hide from us. Otherwise, it wouldn't have changed like this.” Note scolded Green and rolled his eyes. Khiao was quiet and kept his head down and continued reading.

“Or does he secretly have a girlfriend?!” Pan said loudly. Everyone in the class turned to look at our group with curiosity. Toph hurriedly rebuked them.

“Please keep your voice low. Christ, it might not be what you guys think. Maybe there's something to think about,” Toph said, looking at each of us one by one. But even though I said comforting words like that, I still felt uncomfortable.

“Christ, even though he has a lot to think about, he doesn't abandon his friends. Don't you guys remember? When we were in 4th grade. His mother was seriously ill and could not do anything. The entire burden fell on him. Both work and take care of mother. But when we invited him to go to a waterfall in the provinces, he still went along even though he himself was so stressed that he almost didn't want to do anything..."

I spoke up after sitting in silence for a long time.

“So what's wrong with Christianity now?!” Boss said angrily. The entire group of friends were silent.

“That's it, what's wrong with Christ now...” I said in a trembling voice. Trying to hold back the tears from falling. But thinking of his reaction to me that morning, Tears streamed down uncontrollably.

“Hey! Morning glory, what's wrong with you? Why are you crying?!” Boss said in a shocked voice. He got up from his chair and grabbed my shoulders and shook me back and forth. All my friends also looked at me in shock. I hugged Boss and cried without shame. I could only hear the voices of my friends consoling me. But...I can't stop my own tears from falling.

It hurts so much to think that Christ will have to leave me.

“Cry out, morning glory. I'm sorry enough. Then come back to be the same person who is strong and beloved by many people like before..."

“Even if Christ has someone else? But you still have us.”

I immediately stopped crying. What? What did your friends say just now? They said it like they knew I liked Christ. I looked up at my friends. They all smile Toph probably knew I was confused so he explained.

“You have no doubt that we know you like Christ. Because she often shows that she is jealous of Christ. Even though people thought that she was just worried about her friends. But those of us who were always with her always knew that she thought of Christ more than as a friend…”

“And we think of you as more than a friend, too,” Pan said softly. What is it with this friend who is also known as the most stubborn in the group with a red face?!

“Especially the boss, Phakbung. He has secretly liked you since elementary school,” Mangosteen said with a smile. I turned to look at the boss who was hugging me tightly in surprise. People who only think about adventures beyond the horizon. Crazy and energetic and often has a crush on me like this boss who secretly likes me. Since elementary school together

Even though he is so handsome that women turn to look at him when he walks by. But I still can't imagine that when I was in elementary school, the boss went to the same school as me.

I looked closely at the boss. He began to blush more and more. But he still pretends to be dark and stern in order to cover up his embarrassment. What? If you think of a prank, you'll make a cheeky and irritating face.) But when you're embarrassed like this, it's really cute too.

“Stop looking at me like this!” Boss, who was now red in the face, shouted as he pulled away from me. He quickly walked out of the room. The friends all smiled at the boss's attitude. Everyone said with the same voice: 'It's embarrassing, don't pay any attention to it.' I could only look at it, not understanding much.

During the lunch break, we still went out to eat together with Christ as usual. He himself didn't seem much different from before. It's just that he tends to talk on the phone for a long time, and sometimes when he's not talking on the phone, he just wanders off like he's thinking about something.

“This is Christ! What's wrong with you guys these days? I often see him sitting blankly. If you have any concerns or if there's anything I can help you with, just tell me. I'm happy to help you with anything..." I said while eating at the cafeteria. Christ, who was busy eating, immediately looked up at me. He smiled widely and stood up and shook my hand happily.

“Really, Morning Glory! You'll have to help me. Only you can help me.” He trembled as if the suffering in his heart was as big as the weight of the entire world. Christ's voice was so pleading that I gave in to helping him. Even though he didn't know what was causing him suffering.

“So what is the problem you are having now? That's why you're acting so lethargic that you're going to die like this,” Pan interjected after he had eaten his fill. Christ made a sad face and replied in a low whisper,

“Uh...it wouldn't be right to call it a problem. Call it something I only fantasize about. Ever since I was a child, I have only secretly loved May with one side. She is a beautiful person. Always cute and kind to everyone. You...are like something so high you can't reach. When I was in Mathayom 2

I confessed my love to you once. I still remember that when I spoke, she smiled and said softly, You only think of me as a friend. From then on, I always secretly looked at her. Until now, I, who was known as the most popular person in school, still secretly looked at May. Even though I want to tell you I love you again

But I'm afraid you'll answer the same as before....”

Christ spoke with a sad face. The story he told left me speechless. He secretly likes May, the most beautiful girl in Mathayom 5, who is smart, good-looking, ladylike, and has status. Everything, I can't fight her. Especially when it comes to my pretty face and femininity, I hardly even have one. It's right that Christ would prefer a perfect woman to a woman who isn't feminine like me.

“But I think that when we have something that is very difficult to obtain, we will be even more proud of it. I got it without any effort. If you confess your love to May and he says he only thinks of you as a friend. You shouldn't be upset because that's because you tried your best..." I said softly, confused by my own words as well.

Even though I told him that he should try until the end. But why don't I dare to tell him I love him?

“But if you look at it from another angle. Just because May sees you as just a friend doesn't mean that you're hopeless. Have you ever seen a movie? Often, before love can happen, friendship must come first. Because if you and May were friends first The two of you will get to study each other's personalities and have the opportunity to get close and build a bond. Good relationship with each other

By that time, the matter of thinking about dating wouldn't be difficult." Mangosteen made a cheeky face.

“Oh...ten years and ten lifetimes before you were able to say something meaningful like this once. I never thought of it. Oh! No wonder why the sun is unusually scorching today,” Top said sarcastically. Mangosteen immediately turned to attack him. The two then chased each other throughout the cafeteria. Everyone laughed happily. Except for Christ, who sat thinking.

“Oh...what you and Mangosteen said is true. I've never tried in the past. Just look at him....good! Then I'll go tell him right now!” Christ finished speaking and immediately ran out of the cafeteria. Everyone could only sit in confusion, not believing that Christ would be so impulsive and impulsive. Boss spoke out like he was annoyed.

"Ugh! What's the matter? There are really good people beside you who still run towards people who never see themselves in their eyes. Is it crazy?”

“So you're not happy that Christ went to see that May girl?” Note said. Boss made a face as if he didn't understand.

“Why should I be happy? That thing going to Miss May has nothing to do with me?”

“If Christ is dating Miss May. The morning glory will have to break up with Christ. And you have no competitors. Being a lover with morning glory is not difficult anymore.”

“I only like Christ!” I exclaimed angrily. Then he immediately got up and walked away from the cafeteria.

After that day Christ and May are openly dating each other. Christ returned to his old warm and kind self. But it seems like he hasn't returned to the way he used to be for us. He was with May most of the time. From the looks of it, Christ hardly has any personality left. Sometimes when our group walked past him and May

He hardly paid any attention to us. They just walked past like people who didn't know each other. And what makes me almost unbearable is the pain. It is my duty every morning to wake him up like normal. Now it became May's duty. Even knowing that from now on he doesn't want me to wake him up again. But I still went to see him as usual, just didn't go inside the house.

Because it's not yet time to go in. He would walk out with May with a bright smile that made me cry every time I saw him in pain.

“Please let go of Christ, Phakbung. Christ, he has a girlfriend,” Note said during lunch break one day when we were all sitting together in the room with dead faces on.

“Since Lord Christ has been with Miss May. You are like this. He just sat there and refused to speak. There aren't any strong female figures left at school. That guy has a big mouth. Where has all your bad temper gone?” Mangosteen said as if bored.

“It's only been a month and you're still like this. And if those two continued to be together for a year or 10 years, wouldn't you be sad and die?" Pun said.

“Morning glory, until now Christian is dating May as his girlfriend. But it doesn't mean that she and he will have to break up with each other. She and Christ remain friends. We're still together, right?” Toph said as if he wanted to console me.

“But now he only lives with May. You don't even have time to spend with me. So how can I think that we can always be together?” I said after listening to my friends talk for a long time. It's true that Christ and I have been together since childhood. But now Christ has May. And will he still want me?

“You believe me. Christ, he can't live without you. He cares for you more than anyone else, don't you know that?” Toph said.

“In the past, yes. But now he has a girlfriend. A lover is a person who must be loved and taken care of at all times. It must be more important than friends,” I protested, looking sad. Toph sighed and put his hand on my shoulder.

“Christ is a person who considers friends most important. Even though he has a girlfriend, he can never leave his friends.” I looked at Toph, even though he had only known Christ for a few years. But TOP knows and understands Christ more than I, who have known Christ since I was a child. I'm such a bad friend.

Several days later, I walked to school alone as usual. My days without Christ are so lonely and boring. I'm like a sunflower missing the sun. that is both dry and not knowing how to live How can I continue? Every day I just pray that he and May will be together for a long time and that they won't break up like I feared.

I don't want Christ to be hurt by his high expectations. Because if he's in pain I would be equally hurt that I couldn't help him. Even to console him, I wasn't sure if he would accept my good wishes or not.

I walked into the classroom and quietly put my bag on my desk. No one came yet, so I walked out to the balcony. As I walked over to stretch, my eyes looked over and saw Christ sitting in the corner crying. Stairs to the second floor I immediately ran to him.

"Christ! What's wrong with you? Why are you sitting here crying all alone like this? Why? What's your problem? I can help you,” I said as I shook him from the knee hugging position and cried until his head was shaking. He looked up at me. When he saw that it was me, he immediately hugged me.

“Huh...Phak Bung, he...he's gone from me. Huh...I was a fool for letting him fool me for so long. Before I knew it, when he walked away with someone new, huh.....I'm such a fool..." Christ's words and sobs poured out from his pent up heart. I know how weak his mental state is right now.

But I don't know what I should do. So I could only console him. At first, he still complained endlessly about Miss May. But as time passed, his crazy-like attitude began to calm down. and return to being the most original Christian

“Yesterday when we walked back together, May said he was busy at a restaurant. Because he had to work there part-time. It would be late by the time I finished, so I had to leave first. But when I got home, I couldn't help but worry and went back to look at the store again. But I didn't realize that the person I was worried about was walking out of the store with a sugar daddy.

I walked up and asked him who that man was and he was speechless as if he had something to hide. But before he could say anything, the old man answered loudly: May is his wife. Looking at May, she was silent. So I understood everything..." Christ recalled with a sad expression.

“I'm sorry, I can't help you…” I said without knowing when the tears began to fall. I immediately wiped it.

“Tears aren't good for you.” Christ raised his hand and gently wiped away my tears. He forced a smile at me even though he was heartbroken. Now I'm not sure how to hold onto the love I have for you. Keeping Christ a secret, what should I do?

“I like you,” I finally said. He was slightly stunned but quickly returned to normal.

“Although it is a slightly retarded reason. But I've secretly liked you since the first time I saw your face...you wouldn't know..” Once I'd spoken, I decided to say it all without getting stuck in my heart. Even though I felt so embarrassed that I almost ducked, I would definitely repress it for the rest of my life if I didn't say it now.

Christ must have been both shocked and shocked that a friend he thought was a friend suddenly died and they were talking to each other. Got everything like me telling him I love him unexpectedly like this. But people like him always adapt quickly. After being stunned for several minutes, he said in a calm voice:

“Thank you very much for having such good feelings for me. But I apologize for not being able to respond to the feelings you gave me…”

Christ looked at me with a soft look that hinted at me. He really feels for me like he says. I was quiet for a bit and forced a smile.

“I... thought you'd say this, but... it's good that I let you know. At least I know what you think of me and I'm comfortable saying it...and even if you don't like me... But we're still friends, right?” I said with a smile to put him at ease. But how can someone like me fool Christ? He pulled me into a hug.

“From now on, I will never make you sad like I did today. Won't let you run away from me I won't let anyone have her. I will always be with you and be a good friend to you,” Christ said like a promise. Until I couldn't stop myself and had to cry out loud. He gently caressed my head.

“No one in this world is born who has a perfect life. Everyone has flaws. But you trust me. The thing that will make our lives more complete than before is friends...”

Christ, I believe you. There is nothing better in life than having good friends who understand everything about you. For me Every friend is like a gift box from God. No one knows what's inside. Just like friends who when we first meet may not know their personality and therefore feel indifferent. But after getting to know each other and being together for a long time

Things you think are just ordinary things will become priceless. At that time we will probably want to thank God. who has given us this important gift

Even though we're just friends now But the future is uncertain. I still remember Toph's words: Often love begins with friendship. So I'll keep trying. Because it's not certain. A "dead friend" like me might become a "confident friend" that no one expected.

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