HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOI SIWON

I Love You More n More

[SF]The Guy No. 10

In this world, everyone wants to be number one. It's rare to find people who want to be inferior to others. I, too, want to be number one in everything. I want to be number one at singing well. I want to be the best at dancing. I want to be the best at acting. I want that, I want that, I want to be number one in everything...

I want to be a good MC like Jung Soo hyung. I want to be charming like Heechul hyung. I want to speak Chinese well like Hankyung hyung. I want to speak well like Kangin. I want to have singing talent like Yesung hyung. I want to be funny like Shindong hyung. I want to be cute like Sungmin. I want to dance well like Hyukjae. I want to be loved by everyone like Donghae.

I want to act in a good drama like Kibum. I want to be able to raise my voice high like Ryeowook. And I want to sing well like Kyuhyun.

But I'm just a number 10 guy who can't dance very well, because I have a good figure and I'm tall, so I can see it in any way I move. The singing isn't that beautiful, but it's survived until today because the chorus of fellow bands helped keep it from sinking. Acting in any drama doesn't mean you're good at acting. Just because you're good looking is good enough, so you were chosen to play the lead role one time.

The rest of the matter aside from preaching to bandmates and people around you... I'm just the 10th average guy in a famous Asian boy band.

If you ask me why I want to be number one, well... I'm not sure why I want to be number one. Maybe it's because I also believe in religion that people are only born once in their lives. Because of that, I want to be number one for others to remember.

Even though I die, my name still exists. That would be my dream.

Soon it will be my birthday. Even though the birth date stated on the birth certificate is not the actual birth date. But by February 10th, I will be twenty-four years old in Korean terms.

Ah! Who's that walking there? Jungsu hyung and Heechul hyung, these two senior senators, why are they walking alone on a dark sidewalk like this? (Don't just blame him. Why am I walking in such a dark place? Oh, I forgot that I was walking to the bathroom.) Both senators had serious expressions on their faces. His eyes were fixed on the cracked Apple phone in his hand and he couldn't look away.

“What should I do?” Heechul hyung said first.

"I don't know. Sigh... It's getting worse day by day. Why must bad things come to light now? I'm really tired.” Jungsu hyung complained like an old man before walking away with Heechul hyung.

I stood still and thought about what the two brothers had just said, making a rough guess. Being born as the leader of the band is tiring, not playing at all.

Thinking that I had been gone for a long time, I walked back to the practice room. During this time, I have extra free time before filming starts on the drama I just agreed to star in. Because promotions in China were stopped, I had free time until I had to act in dramas for fear that other people would forget me.

When I opened the practice room, I found Ryeowook being teased by Yesung and Hyukjae by making strange jokes. Being born as a baby like Ryeowook is such a hardship. I'm always being teased by others. It's such a pity. I can't resist because I'm a younger sibling. Even though he has a good voice, he can't handle this meek personality either.

Turn the other way... Sungmin has his own private world with his pink mobile phone. I understand that Sungmin is cute. Aegyo is good at it. But if I had to do that often, I probably wouldn't be able to accept it myself.

After a while, Jungsu hyung and Heechul hyung walked back in and told us to start practicing the songs they would be preparing for the awards ceremony in the next few days, which happened to be the maknae's birthday.

I stood in my place and was shocked... This song deserves to have Hankyung hyung standing with us. But now that he's gone, the remaining people must move on.

When the Supergirl song came on, we started moving to the rhythm of the song that we had rehearsed and memorized. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. An ordinary-looking man wearing a t-shirt and jeans was standing in the middle and dancing, looking tense.

"How can Siwon be so pretentious and handsome? I'm not actually going live, so don't be pretentious." Shindong's voice came from far away. I looked confused because I didn't understand when I was faking it.

"Uncle," was all I said before continuing to dance. To be honest, I wouldn't be able to be funny like Shindong hyung all the time because I always make bad jokes. Plus, I had to follow the company's concept of acting like a prince.

This time we had to sing Supergirl live because we didn't have time to record over the old stuff. Therefore, when rehearsing, we had to sing our own parts as well. Heechul, who was busy working on a drama and couldn't appear on the live show, excused himself to go back and continue reciting the lines. After practicing for another five rounds, we rested again. Yesung hyung was coughing because he was choking too much.

For being the main singer who has to provide the chorus for almost the entire song seems to be quite a serious matter. Most importantly, you must try to take good care of your larynx as well. This kind of thing just couldn't be done with practice, it required talent as well.

Just like Kyuhyun, the maknae who has a lot of talent. That mega-kids were quick-witted, learned a bit of theory, but were able to apply it all with almost no practice at all. With that soft, deep, dreamy voice, I really want to be him.

“This is Hyukjae. Don't secretly play my game. Give it back right away!!!” The maknae's voice shouted throughout the practice room when he saw that a jerk like Hyukjae secretly took his own game to play. I heard that he only rested for ten minutes and he still wanted to play the game. I told you that he's a kid who has grown up even now and is still addicted to games. I don't want to sleep all day if I don't play a game to clear things up first, no wonder...

His face looked worn out like a zombie. Without the help of makeup, no one would recognize her as the main vocalist of the famous boy band Super Junior when walking outside.

Thinking about something for fun for a while, taking turns teasing Ryeowook, then it was time to continue practicing. Jungsu hyung drags his withered body out to practice and complains about being an old man. After a while he went to take a nap and let us continue practicing by ourselves. I really sympathize with you. Being the leader of a band with thirteen members is really tiring.

As soon as 2:00 a.m. started, practice stopped. I was getting ready to drive home when the mega-kong boy ran up to me and said that he would like to join the car and stay at home. So I just went because this kid went so often that he became part of my family.

While driving, Kyuhyun took out his laptop and played Starcraft. This kid is really addicted to games.

"So, if I stop singing, will I become a gamer?" It's more diligent to play than to practice."

"Maybe not... Don't bother me just yet and drive. It's about to be cleared up." Kyuhyun said until I thought to myself if I was Mon or Bae Man. When I got home, he turned off the machine and walked away into the house without waiting for me.

Everyone at home is asleep. As soon as we reached the bedroom, Kyuhyun ran off to take a shower first. When it came out smelling good, I jumped into the game and even after taking a shower, I came out and saw it still playing and refusing to sleep.

"Are you going to play all night?"

"Well, I don't have work tomorrow," the khong boy replied immediately, his eyes still on the computer screen.

"Don't play until you can't sleep."

“I know, I can complain about being an old man like you. Didn't you realize that your face had grown?"

"Do you know how I got my hair cut?"

"Yes," he answered so bluntly that I thought he wasn't interested. When I decided to close my eyes and go to sleep, Kyuhyun spoke again.

"What's wrong with you lately? You seem stressed. Is there something bothering you? Is it about Brother Han?" he asked in a series of words. In summary, which question should I answer first?

"It's nothing, it's normal," I answered honestly, but the kid didn't seem to believe it. He turned to look at me, willing to abandon the game he was heavily addicted to and stare at me.

“Lie, you act like a person carrying the whole world and still say nothing else. If Teuk hadn't asked me to, I wouldn't have come to sleep here and let you complain."

"Eh? Do you sound like someone who has problems?"

“Well, look in the mirror and look at your face. Your eyebrows are already overlapping. If you have any problems, tell each other so we can help solve them, not keep quiet and think for yourself and then suddenly act like some people. That's infuriating, you know?"

Now I understand why no one dared to offend Kyuhyun. It's this kind of crazy, crazy thing. In front of the camera, acting innocently behind his back... Come on, I'm used to it. There are only people who are maknae... Shit.

"It's really nothing. Trust me."

“I don't believe it, there must be something to it. Tell me what you're worried about... Did you know that the reason why we came together as a group was to help each other solve problems, not keep them to ourselves? Otherwise, would they call it a team?”

"Well..." My heart ached a little at the maknae's words. It sounded silly, but in reality it was just an exterior image, not an inside look that was smart and matured and forgot... not for long. It's Kyuhyun's birthday and he'll be another year older.

"Uh, right there, can I speak?"

“Well, it's really nothing. I just think... Why aren't you as good as this person? Many times I tried so hard but I thought I still couldn't compete with you guys. There's nothing good about it. Dancing doesn't matter. Singing sucks. I came in here probably because of my looks. But right now, your looks don't help because you guys are all handsome. It's in front of the house."

As soon as he finished listening to this, Kid Kyu laughed and laughed. “You can... think like a child. Think about it, if you weren't sure, who would bring you into the group? If you weren't good looking, would they hire you to be a presenter for three or four years? You're not good at dancing, but why are you always standing in the middle when we dance?

If you weren't good at singing, would you get to sing your own parts more than Hyukjae hyung? If you weren't as good at speaking as Teuk, would you be able to speak often on shows? You are the face of our group. I'm your representative. You are a person who is more dedicated and diligent than anyone else. Even though you say you don't have any talent, do you know that your talent is making other people fall in love easily?

Who sees you and doesn't love or dislike you? Because you are the person who makes others love you, that's why you are the representative and always stand in the middle so that we can receive some generous love. In the eyes of P. You may think that you are nothing good, but those who watch you know that you are an amazing person in every way.”

"Really?"

"Well, if you weren't really that good or not, you probably wouldn't have joined Super Junior. You wouldn't have worked solo often. I probably don't have a fan club that is as loving and loyal as this. Do you know that people in general know you more than they know Super? Junior again Because you work harder than anyone else, you deserve to be number one at Super Junior.

Even if you're just guy number 10, do you know that you're the most handsome in the group? Let me tell you, since I was born, I have never seen anyone with a better face than you.”

I laughed softly because this kid spoke exactly what I wanted and answered so many of my questions.

I turned off the bedside light, leaving only the sound of Kyuhyun's computer, then reached out and gently stroked the megaphone's head. "Thank you."

"Just this matter... Oh... I'm about to get another year older. On my birthday, you brought me a cake treat. I want to eat chocolate cake.” I laughed again from the selfishness of the maknae who didn't realize that he would be surprised in the middle of the upcoming results announcement. It must be kept a secret for now. When it's my birthday, I'll take him for a party again. He's helped me have more self-confidence.

When Kyuhyun turned off the computer The room was completely dark. I was about to fall asleep and then the mega-boy spoke up again.

“Now there's only me left. Don't disappear anywhere, you know... Otherwise, I will be very angry at you. Don't disappear like some people... Don't go anywhere."

"Definitely not going anywhere... I will always be Super Junior's Siwon."

Even though I want to be a good MC like Jungsoo hyung I want to be charming like Heechul hyung. I want to speak Chinese well like Hankyung hyung. I want to speak well like Kangin. I want to have singing talent like Yesung hyung. I want to be funny like Shindong hyung. I want to be cute like Sungmin. I want to dance well like Hyukjae. I want to be loved by everyone like Donghae.

I want to act in a good drama like Kibum. I want to be able to raise my voice high like Ryeowook. And I want to sing well like Kyuhyun. But I am Choi's hair. Siwon, the number 10 man who is like this It probably couldn't be changed into anything else.

Even if I'm a good dancer like Hyukjae Sing well like Kyuhyun He's good at acting like Kibum. But if I'm not me I'm probably not Choi. Siwon currently serves as a super presenter. Junior, the band that I love, let others get to know I'm probably not Choi. Siwon who worked all over Asia to make the group I love famous...

Even though it's just the face of the group, it's my duty. Number 10 of the famous Asian boy band Super Junior.

I'm just me, this me... Choi Siwon

Happy Birthday, Choi Siwon.

The Guy No. 10