When our love....it's time to end....

I am a patient person...

Never give up on anything easily.

No matter how difficult it is, I will fight, I will continue to endure.

But maybe with this story.....

I've endured too much too.

I think it should be 'over' already....

When our love....it's time to end....

ZEN 's  Part :::

“What do you mean, Zen!! What does it mean to talk to you like this!!!!???”

Brother Keng is clashing with me right now. His face was red with anger. Meanwhile, my mood was no less irritated than his.

“I meant what I said.”

“So Zen is thinking about breaking up with you, right?”

"who? Who exactly is Keng? who is thinking of breaking up with each other"

“I never thought of it like that.”

“What is it that confirms that you still love Zen? ... Do you think Zen doesn't know? That I'm still dating Belle!!”

I yelled out through tears. P'Keng's face turned pale for a moment. before adjusting the facial expression to return to normal as before

"Zen knows... when?"

“Three days..”

Yes....I've known for three days.... But it's not three days like everyone thinks..

“The first three days of our relationship...so exciting.”

"......" Still.... This is the condition that Brother Keng is in right now....

“Zen is too patient... Isn't Zen's tolerance for it too little!?”

I know...that right now I'm the only one who's emotionally invested in P'Keng.. But I'm running out of patience. I know he was dating someone else before he was with me. From the first three days that we were lovers until today... it's already been three years.... Am I still not patient enough?

“I think there must be a misunderstanding. Zen, please calm down first.”

Brother Keng tried to comfort me and calm me down. But it probably isn't the time, huh!

"calm? Brother Keng, can you still say this word? A person was cheated on by his girlfriend. Deceived and betrayed me for 3 years. Brother Keng, are you still going to tell Zen to calm down!!! In the past, it was too little, right?!!! Too little, right....!!”

I shouted as loud as I could, out of breath. But because I cried, sobbed, and screamed, it made me so shocked that I fainted and lost consciousness.....

"Zen!!!"

I opened my eyes and found myself lying on the sofa in the living room. Brother Keng is still sitting on the opposite side. Two strong hands were brought up to grip the temples tightly. The tall figure that looked warm and dependable had now shrunk to just a little. Brother Keng's condition right now is like someone who has been driven into poverty. Unable to find a way out of the obstacle in front of us

"Zen! Have you recovered yet? I'm really worried.” P'Keng swooped over to me as soon as he turned and saw that I had recovered.

"I won't let you die."

"Don't say that..."

"I've been patient for 3 years.... Once Zen dies, I'll be relieved."

I still keep complaining. Tears flowed out of the corners of his eyes again. As for P'Keng, it's no different. Traces of tears were still on both sides of P'Keng's cheeks. So when I blacked out, did he cry?

"Can't we...talk nicely?...Don't berate me like this, okay?"

P'Keng held my hand. He begged through tears... And now he is crying....

“And in the past, where did Zen speak badly of P'Keng?.... Zen endured seeing his girlfriend go out with someone else for 3 years, not saying anything, not complaining, not even bothering to make P'Keng feel annoyed at all. I'm willing to act stupid. Not aware of the story that happened Is Zen still not good enough?...”

“Seeing Brother Keng happy with him, Dee Zen is happy. I see my boyfriend come back with a smile every day. Even though it didn't come from Zen at all. But Zen is still happy...that P'Keng still spreads that smile for Zen to see."

Throughout my speech, P'Keng didn't interrupt or make any excuses. He just knelt next to him as before. Hold my hand like before. and cried tears streaming down her cheeks as usual....

“I'm a real fan... who has to live like a villager's girlfriend... playing things like this. It's not fun at all, Brother Keng..."

“The fact that Zen endured playing with me for 3 years …Maybe Zen thinks that…Zen should change the game.”

I said with a smile while trying to slowly remove my own hand from P'Keng's hand. P'Keng had a slightly panicked expression on his face when I removed my hand. He grabbed my hand again as if trying to keep me from going.

"I'm begging you...listen to me just once."

“Na Zen, for the sake of our love. Listen to me one more time..."

“Zayn should be happy, right? I call the past story our love.”

I turned to answer and agreed to sit down on the sofa as usual, as Keng had asked. I'm not weak-hearted.. I just want to listen to him make things clear one last time..and that's all. My time right now isn't much. Just a few more hours only.....

"I'm sorry."

"Continue talking... Zen is waiting to listen to you. You can make excuses or blame anyone for any mistakes."

“That's probably the best thing I can say.”

"Then Zen, come back."

I cut in and prepared to get up and go home. But P'Keng held me back again...

“Wait a minute, Zen! Why do you want to leave me so much? Are we going to break up so easily?”

“It's too difficult, Brother Keng. If since then.... I told Zen from the beginning. Things would be much simpler than this. Or not, the truth is..we shouldn't have been together since then.”

“I won't make any excuses because this matter is completely wrong. But I want Zen to know..."

“All this time... I really love Zen."

“Every word that you said I love you. I never lie. I sincerely love Zen. I never thought of using it as a tool or as a toy.”

“But you're wrong..because you love Zen. Even though I can't let go of his hand."

“I myself...still have good feelings for him. You're such an idiot! selfish! Catch fish with two hands! You're bad, I admit it!"

“It's finished, right?”

“Please...don't leave me. I'm going to break up with Belle immediately. I just wish that Zen was still with me like before.”

"I'm good..."

I called P'Keng's name in a low voice, causing him to look up. After listening to Brother Keng speak for a long time It's time for me to end this story. It's already dragged on too long. P'Keng's tears overflowed more than ever throughout his speech. P'Keng is not a person who cries easily over anything.

That made my heart hurt quite a bit. I would trade everything, even my own tears, to see his smile. Not tears flowing down my cheeks like this. But maybe...I think today He should also feel my suffering.

“Zaen loves you very much. Brother Keng knows that, right?”

"I've known it all along."

“Zen is happy every time he is with P'Keng.”

"I'm happy every time I'm with Zen, too."

“Zen has been patient for 3 years.”

We talk back and forth. The gist of the content seems completely different. I don't know how.. One person is talking about his heart... The other person seemed to be confessing his guilt.

"I've betrayed Zen for 3 years."

“Zen tries to overlook what you did.”

“You ignore the feelings of the person you love.”

"Zen never complains...that Zen is tired."

“I know.”

"But today Zen spoke.... because Zen was hurt."

“It was really more than Zen could handle. Brother Keng, can you please stop it like this?”

"okay!! I won't cause Zen pain or regret again. Zen is back with you."

Brother Keng quickly wiped away his tears. His eyes and voice sounded full of joy. But that was before the next sentence was heard.

"Let Zen go..."

“Why? I'm ready to end everything about Bell. Zen's pain will only last today. Why?"

P'Keng was stunned for a moment. The tears that had just been wiped away flowed down his white cheeks again.

“Zen wants Brother Keng to be happy. With the person that Keng loves.”

“It's Zen!!” Brother Keng shouted loudly in protest. I shook my head slowly before quickly denying it.

“He is different.... Brother Bell. Don't think that Zen is being sarcastic, Zen is really speaking.”

"Brother Keng loves Zen. Believe me."

“Don't make this matter drag on any longer, Brother Keng. Let's end it here.”

"Zen...."

“It's been too long.... Zen has to go."

"Where are you going..."

“'He' is waiting for Zen...”

"Zayn, is there someone else....?"

Brother Keng asked, his voice shaking. Now he still cries nonstop. He doesn't look like the confident Brother Keng I once knew. He looked very weak right now.

"Not really..." I shook my head lightly. I still send a small smile to Brother Keng as always.

"Zen isn't doing anything like P'Keng, hehe. But Zen has to go..He's really waiting for Zen." I said jokingly, but P'Keng definitely didn't seem amused.

“He is waiting for Zen to finish this matter. End from this pain Then the story between him and Zen will begin. You see...it's not like our story at all. Zen is going to be with someone else. Zen is still waiting for our story to end. Zen still tells me that I'm good at it. Zen's matter didn't just happen out of nowhere to hurt both of us."

“Zen would like to end here. It doesn't mean that Zen will fall in love with him right away. Forgetting P'Keng isn't that easy...... Maybe... Zen might not even be able to love him. Because Zen still loves P'Keng with every breath."

“Then why...”

“Zen just wanted to pull himself out of that stupid place. The fact that Zen loved P'Keng from a distance It might make Zen happy with less pain than right now. The fact that P'Keng loved him completely It might also make P'Keng happier than having to endure hiding Zen like today.”

"Can you not accept it...?"

“And when you went with someone else.... Can Zen not accept it? Can Zen go out and protest to get Zen's people back?"

"I know you're wrong, but it's not.."

“It's good for all of us...”

I interrupted and was about to continue speaking. But my phone rang. When I picked it up and looked at the name, I saw that it was someone familiar to me. Slender fingers are about to slide the screen to answer the phone. But P'Keng just nodded and asked him to be aware of this phone call as well.

“Hello, how are you?”

'Zaen has been gone for a long time. Sorry for bothering you by calling.' The pressure on my hand increased as soon as P'Keng heard Kan's voice. He looked really panicked.

“It's okay. I didn't disturb anything.”

'Oh, I'm a little relieved. I thought I was interrupting people around here, haha.'

“Damn, what are you talking about? So what was the reason you called?"

'It's almost time'

“Ah... I was already thinking about it. Is it going to be a little late? Zen hasn't packed his things yet.."

Gan called to reiterate this time. Damn, it's really slow. Here are the things at my house that I haven't finished putting away yet. But before they had finished speaking, he interrupted first.

'Already taken care of, no worries'

"I really understand. Okay, I'll see you in a bit."

'Do you want anything?'

“Please prepare that shirt. Let's meet at the gate."

'I'll arrange it for you, my lady. Hurry and come, I'll be waiting.'

"What the hell is wrong with you ladies? You can go. Bye."

And then we hung up the phone. We talked to each other as if there was no older brother in the room. Brother Keng himself sat and squeezed my hand. His other hand held his temple and he cried like that. He looked hurt by what had happened... I......it hurts just as much.

"He's really good to Zen."

"yes"

“He really understands Zen. Just the word "that shirt" He still knows which outfit.”

"Zen's usual outfit."

"He's better than me in everything."

"You're the best for Zen."

“Where are you going...?”

“Get away from this pain.”

"Zayn has to go... Our story, no, our pain. It should have ended a long time ago.”

“It's over...really?”

"Just know one thing... Zen loves you very much... Love to the point of being willing to exchange everything. Zen away from this pain But Zen never left Pee Keng's side. Brother Keng is always in Zen's heart. One day we meet again. We might be the best brothers in the world.”

"Zaen will always be my lover."

“Zain isn't here anymore. Don't hurt yourself. Wipe the tears from your cheeks and dress handsomely. Take P'Belle out to eat, watch movies, and live a happy life. Don't suffer just because our story has to end.”

"How will you live without Zen?"

“Zen's time is over.... Go Zen."

I bent down and picked up Keng's face. Then he slowly pressed his lips to Keng's lips....

It was a goodbye kiss... Our last kiss...

Our tears slowly flowed from both of us. It's just a matter of holding your lips together. But it was so long that I almost thought it would be forever.

I slowly pulled away from the kiss. Use your fingers to gently wipe away the tears on P'Keng's cheeks. And immediately got up and walked out of there. Leaving Brother Keng to sit and soak in the room alone....

Our love and pain...

It's already ending....

Zen loves P'Keng...

THE END

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Mama Let's kiss each other.

I couldn't bear it and had to bring it down. (Drop it in the middle of the night)

I confess that this fic is a converted fic. I just composed this shot for fun.

But suddenly I wanted to put on an image of Keng Zen.

After trying to change it... It came out as seen here.

Anyway, please leave comments and criticisms ^^