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Axis Powers Hetalia

It's not a cartoon. But it is purely the imagination of the composer. Please understand.

**Most importantly, this fic is based on the current situation, so it smells a little (?) of drama, so readers who can accept it are asked to use their discretion in reading.

Title: Thailand , People , Sunflower And Sun

Pairing: No Pairing

But the main characters are Thai and Russian.

Rate: PG

Note :

In a very lonely world, I met a person who was different from everyone else, 'Thailand', a small country that often... Always makes me wonder and not understand him.

Since opening my eyes, all I have seen in my life is white....the color of snow.

Ever since I can remember, I have only felt the cold.

The warmth that I longed for in the past is fading away.

I'm cold, so cold, it's so cold I'm numb, it's cold in my heart.

Cold...lonely...lonely...lonely

How long has it been since I felt these things until it became a habit?

I am 'Russia', I am the soul of a cold country. Cruel and cold-blooded

My family consists of three brothers, my older sister Ukrainian, me, and Belarusian.

We were born a long time ago, we were born amidst the harshness of cold nature.

Growing up slowly under the rule of General Winter, a person who was probably family or perhaps a stranger, the person I both loved the most and hated the most.

I grew up...learned many things in the world, watched human growth, watched human beings' endless sins as if it were the same old drama that revolving endlessly because humans never learned. My own mistake....

I still remember the story that Brother Ukrainian told me when I was a child about the sun and sunflowers. I liked this story so much that I wanted to become a sunflower because at least the world of sunflowers was full of it. Warmth that I have never experienced and sunflowers that will never be as cold as I am. I told this to Ukrainian, but she just smiled and said something I don't remember.

All my life before, I used to think that in this cold world, at least 'family' would still be with me forever. It was like a child's dream, yearning for warmth, a 'Soviet' dream.

Until time passed and I woke up from my dream. 'No one will be with me forever'

Everyone left me: Ukrainian, Belarusian, Lithuanian, Estonian, Latvian, and others.

And even 'I' also abandoned my former identity. 'I' abandoned the name 'Soviet' and I grew up in a lonely world in the name of 'Russia'.

I grew up amidst changes in the world from external wars, internal wars, revolutions, colonization. But no matter how much the world changed, how cruel it became, for him it was just habit. The world remained the same, still cold in his heart.

But finally, in this cold world, I met a person who was the soul of the country just like me. He has something different from everyone else and has something he doesn't have.

I later learned that he was 'Thailand', a small country in Southeast Asia near 'China', a country that is sometimes a stranger, sometimes a friend, sometimes an enemy according to each war.

I still remember well the first time I met 'Thai'. He was a young man, thin and small, but he could see that this small country hid his strength. His black hair was typical of Asia and his black eyes looked like... Gentle and gives tenderness to everyone, no matter who that person is, their face is decorated with a smile similar to mine, but why do I feel that my smile and the Thai smile are smiles that do not have a shred of similarities?

At the time, he was wearing a clean white long-sleeved shirt with various rank decorations and strange-shaped blue pants that he had never seen until he later learned that they were Thai ceremonial clothing called Rajapataen and loincloths. He turned and smiled at me, raised his hands to his chest and spoke to me in a sweet and gentle voice that he had not heard in a long time.

"Hello Mr. Russia. Nice to meet you. My name is 'Thai'."

In that moment it was as if the world stood still. For a split second I was surprised by my own feelings. I was 'jealous' of Thailand even though it was only for a second before the feeling changed to 'warmth' or maybe Maybe it's because he and I are too different. His body was too bright to the point of hurting my eyes. His gentle face and gentle expression seemed to make people in the world relax. But the opposite was true for me.

I felt like I was losing in front of him.

It made me think of an ancient legend from the time of the gods.

Lucifer who dared to compare himself to God

Too proud to accept the fact that Lucifer is not God.

It was just a demon who was consumed by darkness in the presence of God.

Just like me.... who created a gentle mask, tried to face the light, created an arrogant self comparable to the gods of the world.

But when I was in front of 'Thai', I realized the identity of myself that I was trying to block. But when I was in front of the true light, I realized that I was just a lump of darkness, just a demon that could be seen. want to be god

I am 'jealous' of Thailand. Even though I am a bigger country with more power, it cannot shine as brightly as Thailand. From jealousy, feelings fluctuate to being interesting. Interested in a small, warm country that smiles as if it has never experienced suffering before. I really want to know how long this country will continue to smile....

Since I was born, I have known that I am the soul of the country 'Siam'.

A land of peace and abundance

But it can be a land of fighters when anyone comes to harm our land.

I think I am proud of my country and I love the smiles of everyone in my country.

I love you so much that I think it would be good to continue like this….I hope there won't be any changes to my people.

I am 'Thai'. I am the soul of a small country that is called 'Thai' all over the world. 'Land of Smiles'

I don't have any real siblings but at least I have 'Lao', a girl who is like a sister to me and many neighbors, whether Burma, Cambodia, Malaysia, who is a friend and arch enemy of Thailand at the same time, and also a young Vietnamese girl with blood. of Ms. Jean, a young warrior girl who is now both a friend and a competitor in many ways.

It sounds like I have enemies all around me, but if you look at it the other way around, everyone is my comrade. The bond that comes from fighting, which is probably similar to the relationship between the British and the French.....maybe.

I grew up surrounded by the warmth of tropical nature in Asia, nature that created abundance for me.

I grew up surrounded by the smiles of my people. People who are proud of me and I love them the most.

I am very happy and hope that this warm world will continue forever.

But time has taught me that the world is changing, time never stops. Over hundreds of years, countless wars have passed, whether in the names of 'Sukhothai', 'Ayothaya', 'Thonburi', 'Siam' or A name that lasts longer than that, and finally my name ends with the word 'Thailand', a land that stands firm with independence and a king.

Many external wars have made me stronger and able to learn more about the world. But I never thought that the internal war would weaken me. No, I never thought that the internal war would happen to my people.

When my friends and I were young, Mr. Jean, who came to visit us, used to tell us about something called 'snow', something that we never had but might have near the end of the world. Mr. Jean jokingly said it. Mr. Jean said that snow is the ultimate coldness. It is a color of pure whiteness, a beauty so desolate that I think I will see it at least once.

Until finally, the dream of seeing snow came true when His Majesty King Rama V was scheduled to visit Russia, a country in Asia but not Asia, a country of cold weather.

As soon as I entered Russia, I felt the cold and white desolation. It was very beautiful and charming. I liked it, but I didn't want it because snow didn't suit me, it was too cold.

And once again I met someone who was like me the soul of the country 'Russia'. He was a tall man with a kind smile on his face which made me a little surprised by the appearance of the person at the window. From what I had heard, he didn't look as cruel and brutal as I thought, but instead....

He looked sad and lonely, but on the other hand, I could feel his pride, his grandeur, not caring about change, and being above everyone else in the world.

In the split second of meeting him, I felt a great deal of 'admiration' for Mr. Russia, admiring the pride and greatness of the person in front of me. Big, cold, but lonely, you really are like snow. “Nice to meet you too, I'm 'Russia'.”

Since meeting Thailand, the differences that interested me have passed many years ago. Our relationship remains strong as friends even though we are far apart. All this time I have been following events related to Thailand and that has made me even more interested. Thailand always surprises me.

But there must have been times when I lost contact with Thailand because I had work at my house even this time.

I received news about Thailand again, but it was not good news. I heard that Thailand is seriously ill. As for the reason, I went to investigate and found that the main reason was not because of the economy, but because of the war.....internal war.

I traveled to visit Thailand and this encounter with Thailand surprised me the most. I was surprised by the changes in Thailand.

Thailand this time looks very weak....

Even though Thailand's condition is this bad, why, why, why? Only this word comes up in my head.

Why are you still smiling?? Even though your eyes are crying?

Why are you still tolerant??Tolerant of humans who create chaos in Thailand.

Why should you care??about humans who harm Thailand unkindly.

Why do you accept false reasons?? Reasons that say you're doing it for Thailand, but in the end, you are the one who destroys Thailand with your own hands.

And why do you allow change to harm yourself?? Why? I don't understand.

Or because we are too different, I don't understand Thai at all. What is Thailand doing??and why??

Until I couldn't help but ask out of curiosity and concern like never before for any other country.

I'm feeling sick because of my people....

But I don't want to blame them because I love them....the most.

I love them, I love every human in my land. I watch everyone grow up and do everything to make everyone happy so that everyone still has a smile.

Even though right now I'm being betrayed.....

Mr. Russia came to visit me today. He has not changed at all from the last time we met. He is still as great and admirable as ever.

Mr. Russia asked me a question that seemed to pierce my heart, but I was happy to answer....

Why are you still smiling?? Even though your eyes are crying?

Because....I can't give up. If I bow my head and accept the reality and give in from now on, who will take care of the people I love??

Why are you still tolerant??Tolerant of humans who create chaos in Thailand.

Because....they are my family and I am like their big brother. I am willing to accept their problems because I cannot bear that their problems will hurt my father. Father, you are old and you have been tired a lot. I don't want you to be tired because of your children's problems again, so if I am still here, I will not allow anyone to create chaos in you.

Why should you care??about humans who harm Thailand unkindly.

Because....I love them, I love them very much, I love them the most......

Why do you accept false reasons?? Reasons that say you're doing it for Thailand, but in the end, you are the one who destroys Thailand with your own hands.

Because....I love everyone when we love something to the point that sometimes, no matter what the reason, I'm ready to deceive myself.

And why do you allow change to harm yourself??

Because....I still hope that everyone will come back to the way they were before and smile at each other again. Hopefully when everyone knows that This 'change' is hurting yourself and the country. It is a change in the wrong direction. Everyone will come back. 'Change' in the right way

So last question, why do you love them??

Because....I love them. Love that doesn't need any reason, so try to accept my love without reason. I love you so much, I love you the most. I want everyone to be happy. I want every time to come back and smile like before. Come back to smile like foreigners call it. 'Siam Land of Smiles' because everyone is my family and is my 'love'.

Haha, I accidentally said something strange to Mr. Russia, but Mr. Russian, what do you think?

To be honest, right now I'm secretly envious of Mr. Russia, because he's very great and strong despite going through a lot of bad things. In fact, compared to him, I feel very inferior and weak. Mr. Russia, who has faced... Many changes but still standing strong unlike me....

I really envy you.

“I'm very grateful to Mr. Russia for your concern, but I'm fine....really.”

Thai's answer surprised me and I don't understand anymore, but what I definitely understand is that his love is very great.

Poor Thai....the tenderness that cannot be sent to the other party.

Warm Thailand has always lived in a warm world, even though now the 'source' of his happiness and warmth is making him sad.

And then the picture of Thailand overlapped with the story that Brother Ukrainian had told long ago and the words of Brother Ukrainian that he had forgotten...

The beautiful sunflower lives on because of the sun.

Thailand survives because of 'the people'.

Sunflowers always look at the sun with happiness.

Just watching his 'people' grow up made him happy.

Even though the sun ignores the sunflowers

Even though people are not interested in Thailand or have forgotten 'Thainess'

But that's okay because even though the sun doesn't care about the sunflowers, at least they still shine on their gentle warmth.

But it doesn't matter if 'the people' don't care about him because at least the happiness and peace of the people will still reach him. He's already happy.

But who can know the true feelings of a beautiful sunflower?

For Thailand, is that feeling really enough??

It's okay. It's okay. Sunflower keeps telling herself that just looking at her is enough because sunflowers love the sun the most.

It doesn't matter because All 'people' are people I love....I love everyone so I don't mind.

“Ivan, do you know that even though on the outside the sunflower receives the warmth of the sun and pretends to be happy just looking at it, in reality the sunflower is very cold? Because the sunflower never receives anything in return. It came from the effort of watching.”

Brother....now I understand what you said.

A pitiful sunflower....

Pathetic Thai....

A sunflower that the sun never looks at and ignores its efforts and sometimes comes back to attack the sunflower with heat that is too much to bear.

'Thailand' that tries everything to hope that everyone will be happy, but all good wishes are no different from the wind that cannot be seen only because of 'the people', only because of 'certain groups' who choose to overlook the Thailand's efforts and the destruction of Thailand's good hopes are turned back to harm for the sole reason that 'Do it for Thailand'

"It doesn't matter. If Thailand has any problems, you can consult with me."

"Haha, thank you, Russia, but now I still want to keep trying because I still hope that everyone will come back as before, come back to smile like before, come back to love each other, come back to truly love me like before."

-- finish --

A fic about friendship (?), the relationship and feelings of two countries that are quite different and the current situation rather than being genre-bending.

Y

But if anyone can read this

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All right. (will try) not to hold ___.

There are references to the current situation, which makes the fic rather dramatic. If readers see something inappropriate, please let us know and we will delete it immediately.

And finally, if the language in this fic is strange and confusing and you can't find the meaning, don't hold it against me when I write it in an unusual mood (haha).