"Brother Keng, let's go on a trip."
“Can you leave it for another day? Today I have work to do.”
This answer again Every time Zen invites me to travel, he always refers to work.
What do people who love them do?
She never gave me a damn.
“Zen really wants to go to the beach.”
"Sorry Zen, I'm busy."
I walked out of the room without looking back at Zen. Not once did I pay attention to Zen.
I'm a familiar person. But I never returned.
will get attention You let yourself be lonely.
There was never a time when I took Zen seriously. I never cared about Zen at all. My life is full of work, work, work, and work. Is there ever a time that I'll think of Zen?
“If you never had Zen in your life, Why don't you let Zen go?"
Since we've been together, Zen has tried not to be a mess. Don't be annoying. Try not to be spoiled. Zen tries to change himself for you. And what about you...what have you done to make yourself Zen?
I walked around the house one last time. The old feelings, the old atmosphere slowly flashed in my brain again.
"P'Keng doesn't throw trash anywhere anymore."
I stood with my hips up tiredly when I saw 4-5 Coke cans left on the table.
“Sorry, sorry.”
P'Keng hurriedly picked up the Coke can and threw it away.
"Take it all away ^^"
“Thank you for helping reduce garbage ^^~”
I grabbed P'Keng's cheek and he gently pulled it out of annoyance.
From now on, there probably won't be any more. The word "us"..there probably won't be any more people who have to wake us up in the morning. No more cans of Coke that are often left out of place. There is no more beautiful piano sound. His laughter His smile is no longer there.
"Zen, I'm sorry."
I walked out of the house but didn't get anywhere until I met a person..a person I didn't want to meet right now.
You are my girlfriend.
Why do you act like you're dating every day?
"P'Keng"
“Where are you going?”
"It's not finished yet. Why did you come back first?"
“Where are you going?”
P'Keng shouted loudly at me. Two long legs walked towards me, their beautiful eyes expecting an answer.
"Why are you interested in Zen? Heck, take the time to do your work."
“Can you have a reason?”
"Zayn is stupid and annoying. Hey, you don't have to care."
“What is the matter with you?”
P'Keng shook me violently. His sharp face expresses his current mood very well.
Not caring, rarely looking at each other How can you not be disappointed?
I have a mind. If we don't take care of ourselves like this, who can endure it?
"Let go of Zen. Be excited. Let go."
"I won't let you go. Tell me what's wrong."
“Zen, just zen.”
Do you still want to be my girlfriend? Please answer in one word.
"Just what is it? Zen, answer me."
"Zen just wants you to take some interest in Zen."
I pushed P'Keng away but the little strength I had left couldn't shake P'Keng in the slightest.
"Zen.."
“Huh, can you let go of Zen yet?”
"I'm sorry, Zen. I'm sorry."
Now his apologies can't change my mind. Enough with this kind of pain Enough with the ignorance that I have for Zen.
“Let's end our story here.”
"I'm sorry Zen, I'm sorry."
P'Keng hugged my waist. How many times has he tried to hold me back and how many times has he said "sorry"?
“Let go of Zen. Zen is not the person who blocks your future.”
"If I don't have Zen, how will I live?"
"And what about you? Have you ever thought about how lonely Zen is without you?"
Tears that had only recently dried began to flow again. I glanced at a white face that was now filled with tears, no different from mine.
Whoever you are with, she is very good. T and I don't sympathize.
Call anyone. except dial my number
“Why do you give everything to other people, but why do you never pay attention to Zen?”
"elder sibling..."
“If Zen is worthless to you, Just let Zen go.”
"Give me another chance, Zen."
P'Keng reached out and took my hand before gently stroking it. Beautiful eyes stared at me pleadingly.
“Zain gave it all to me. Now it doesn't exist any more.”
“I just want one more time. Just one more time, really.”
If you still don't meet eyes You don't come and say that.
If I could do like you do
"Does this kind of behavior sound familiar to you?"
"Zen.."
"You used to do this with Zen, do you remember?"
"P'Keng~ Please take Zen to the beach."
I rested my chin on P'Keng's shoulder before begging him to take me to the beach. How many times have I asked him and he always ended up with the same answer?
"I'm busy, I'll save it for another time."
“Yes, Brother Keng. Just once.”
"I told you I'm busy."
The same reasons that are often cited to me. Never once did you take care of me like lovers do. Never once did you ask about Zen.
Old images gradually appeared in my head. It played over and over again like a movie set to repeat in the same place. All the tears that had been wiped away flowed down again.
"I'm sorry, Zen, but I..."
“I have to work. Zen understands. Zen understands everything.”
"What you did was because of our future, Zen. I understand you."
“Zane understands you. But have you ever understood Zen?”
Beautiful eyes looked at the conversation partner with tiredness. The tears that flowed down again and again showed no signs of stopping easily.
"Sorry, Zen."
"Zain, please forgive me."
The white hand that once held my waist was now easily released by its owner. As if accepting the truth that happened
"Thank you, Brother Keng. Zen loves you."
I gave P'Keng a small smile one last time before planting a kiss on his thin lips. Now my two long legs are walking out of the house. The house that he and I used to live in together. A house with only memories of the two of us..
The End..