Being able to still see and meet another person again
If that's the case...can you tell me? How can I forget you again?
SF : Memories : You Gave Me Guidance
Author : Soolampoom
Genre: Boy x Boy,AU.
Rate: PG
…I’ll send you a love letter without address…
Your voice makes my heart flutter. It's like going back in time.
“We haven't seen each other in a long time.”
"I don't know...maybe two years or more."
“Since we broke up I never saw Jaebum again. Are you fine?”
...not good, not good at all...
"Um...not too sorry."
The corners of his mouth lifted only slightly. I laughed at my own answer. In fact, he was very funny and pitiful to his own fate at this time.
It's just that I suddenly wanted to drink the same flavor of coffee that I had been avoiding for two years. The coffee shop that had previously been his and someone else's regular shop.
But when the other party said goodbye to the relationship for no reason He also irrationally avoided his usual coffee shop.
I never thought that stopping by the shop was because I missed a taste that had disappeared for a long time. From what I planned to buy to take back to eat at the dormitory. It turned out that I had to sit and create a strange atmosphere in my (used to) favorite shop. With someone I haven't seen in two years...Park Jinyoung.
That's the strange atmosphere. It's very strange because since he answered the other person's question. The space around was nothing but silence. Jinyoung didn't react to Jaebum's answer.
…It’s true love though it hurts…
Coffee doesn't taste good anymore. Because Jaebeom let the ice melt so carelessly. The craving for coffee has completely disappeared.
I don't like this...many things are going back to the way they were two years ago.
Just like when we first broke up. From having stopped feeling
But that can still be seen and meet another person again
If that's the case...can you tell me? How can I forget you again?
“That day, Jaebum asked me for a reason, right?”
...Don't act like it's a good memory now. I don't want to know anymore...
Didn't answer anything back. He just raised his eyebrows and asked what the reason was.
Hit me in the face without knowing. Because I don't think I want any reason right now.
The truth right now is what I want to do. Got out and ran back to the dormitory.
I'm not ready to sit and talk about old things that haven't healed yet.
“I'll tell you the reason. If you'd just look me straight in the eye Stop looking elsewhere.”
“Then it's okay...because you chose not to tell me since that day.”
Okay...Let's understand first that Im Jaebum isn't trying to insult anyone.
Just saying what you think, not being sarcastic.
And that crazy request! Who would make foolish eyes?
This just hurts, like putting your hand on a wound that's about to heal. Then the blood seeped out again.
...My eyes were deprived and my heart taken away…
…So I’m crying because I can’t let you go…
It seemed like the conversation that had been started had not progressed anywhere.
One person asks...another avoids answering the question.
Park Jinyoung is not a calm person. The slender fingertips moved slightly to lightly touch the other person's fingertips. No need to wait for the other party to retreat. Holding the slender hand of the person who was still sitting silently watching Jinyoung's actions.
Jaebum didn't pull his hand back. Just looked at the other person's face without understanding.
With the corners of Jinyoung's mouth slightly raised.
...That's the smile that Jaebum hates. At least I hate it the most at this time...
"Your hand is cold...it's shaking."
…It melts the frozen time I tightly held you hand…
"busy..."
“It's kind of confusing...I was the one who broke up with Jaebum.”
“But I was the one who felt like I was going to die.”
"deservedly"
“If that's the case...can I miss you?”
“It sounds selfish, right?...Leave you. When we met again, we talked like this...Jaebeom probably hates me now."
“I don't hate it.”
“I've tried before...but I can't do it...I can't hate it. Probably because I love you so much. I can't hate it.”
“Jaebeom-ah…”
“Don't call me that...Today we just happened to meet. Just sit and talk. It won't continue any other way. I don't hate you. But you're about to cease to exist in my memory. I'm about to forget.”
…Some day this pain will become part of my memories for me…
Once again, no one said anything...but both hands still held each other.
The truth discovered in this situation Jaebum didn't feel much pain or regret.
Strangely, it felt like the first day that another person came to get to know each other.
It's not a very good feeling. You will come out more confused.
They were quiet for a long time. Until he was confident that the other party would understand and understand what he had said. So he slowly pulled his hand back out...which wasn't as difficult as he thought.
...I thought the other party would hold on and not let go...
...Okay, that's ridiculous, Im Jaebum...
And when Jinyoung still sat quietly and didn't say anything I understood that he might be able to go. Standing up to his full height, he stole a glance at the other person's reaction.
which...is still as quiet as before
Jinyoung is just a bad person. that he was about to forget
Now it's still a bad habit. Come and make it harder to forget.
But that's okay. Hope we won't meet again.
You should seriously forget this person.
Turn on your heel and prepare to turn your back on your former lover...walk out while your heart is still not too hurt. It's good
But...before he could move far... White's wrist was held back again.
“Forget it, Park Jinyoung, the person from two years ago that Jaebum knew...forget it.”
Take one step in Reduce the distance between each other
“And prepare to remember this new Park Jinyoung...because I will start counting again with you.”
...Do you see that Park Jin Young's personality isn't as good as he says?...
…It’s true love though it hurts
To be in love is not something to be ashamed of
There’s only one person I can be with
While the wind blows
I wish you stay here right by my side
I wish you smile
Until now you’re my shining star…
fin.
Soolampoomz Talk :
Hello everyone *sweet smile* I have an idea that I want to write a talk. But when I really put it in I can't think of anything to say, haha.
First of all, thank you for your comments.
Falling U
I don't think anyone will read this.**embarrassed
I mean, we might look at Jaebum from a different angle than many people. For us, Im Jaebum is a cute guy. Haha ><
It's hard to find P'BK fics to read. So we decorated it ourselves haha.
I'm glad there are people who like it (?) (or not). Haha.
I hope that you will be more fond of BK. Thank you for your comment *throws heart*