Pairing: Kamepi,Pin(?)

Kame and Yamapi, Jin and Yamapi

Disclaim: I wish I own them.

Warning: - English is not my mother language, therell be a lot of errors.

                - this fic is the first one that I let other people (than myself) read it.

                - written months ago (

Written in early 2010)

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“Jin, I swear to you that if you sigh just one more time, You won't have lungs to breathe anymore.” Koki (who is currently writing his own new song) (but had to be interrupted by Jin's loud sighs for the past 5 minutes) spoke in extreme annoyance.

They were staying together in his room.

KAT-TUN 

There are now 3 people in the room.

Jin sighed and stared at his phone.

Kame was reading a magazine and trying to ignore the other two people in the room.

Koki tried hard to pretend he didn't hear Jin's sigh. in order to finish writing the song

They were waiting for the remaining three members to start their meeting with the manager.

“What else did you do this time?” Kame said after deciding that If he continued to ignore the two of them, Kouki might actually kill Jin. Then make the rumor that Jin won't be in

KAT-TUN

Again, it became a reality.

“What? Why do you think something happened and it was me who did it?”

“Because you keep staring at the phone like you want to call someone but don't dare because you're afraid that person won't talk to you. Or they don't even press accept. And why do you want to talk to that person if it's not because it's your fault?”

“...Uh...well...P's not talking to me. Didn't answer either the phone call or the email I sent. It's been like this for several days now.”

“What are you going to do?”

“No, I really didn't.”

Kouki and Kame stared at Jin with eyes that could be interpreted as saying, 'I don't believe you, it would be better if you told me'

“It's...we were just arguing about small things as usual, like, 'This dish is more delicious than that one. I will watch this TV channel. But P wants to watch another channel' and all that. I might say something that makes P angry that night. And since then P refused to talk to me at all.”

Kame sighed and muttered softly, “Both of you....” before saying, “Jin, you should know best that P. How petulant are you? Especially with you, Jin.”

“I know. Did you know that How much time do I need to reconcile each time? In order for me to forgive you, and then I'll die of being angry at you so often."

“Like you said in Shonen Club many years ago, right? I remember that Yamapi didn't speak to you for 3 months because I thought it was really strange that two people wouldn't speak to each other. But instead, he slept next to him. for months.” Kouki, who had now stopped writing songs, turned to Jin and asked.

“Yes, just like that. And then suddenly after that P came back and talked to me like those three months had never happened.”

“That is your fault too. You're more spoiled than Takki and Touma combined. Mr. P does whatever he wants to do. And you do whatever he wants you to do. It's been like this since the two of you met."

“No, I didn't do that.”

“You did it! And this time, you don't have three months to wait for P to start talking to you again, Jin.”

“Do you want to spend the last few weeks like this, angry at each other, angry, not speaking to each other? So you're going to regret it while you're in L.A.?”

“Jin, LA is very far. And you know this. What was P's condition like last time?"

“........................” Jin kept looking down at his own hands.

“You know, sometimes I think about the person we met P for the first time. If it were Mr. Kame, someone who was P's close friend. It's the person next to you. P throughout the years Will you make P sad like I did? We know very well how much P liked you when we first met and how much he disliked me.”

“What are you talking about, Jin? It seems like you forgot something important. The reason why I'm not in Yamapi's close group of friends, you said, if it were me, wouldn't Pi have to be hurt like that? I once made you feel sorry for me. Don't you remember?”

Kouki could only stare back and forth between the two people in front of him. Kouki felt like he shouldn't have stayed and listened to this.

“The quarrel at that time What is the reason? Why don't the two of you come to an understanding and go back to the way things were before?” Jin asked, still looking down at his hands.

“Don't you know? P never told you anything?” Kame looked at Jin with a bit of surprise.

“No, I don't know anything. P never said anything about this. That night all night P kept crying. And he refused to say anything.”

'Really crying,' Kame thought.

“And all these years You never asked?”

“No, I don't want to make P feel uncomfortable by making him think about what happened.”

“But now you come to ask me?”

“I just want to know what makes two people who fit together like the hands of a clock. We stopped talking for years. And don't come and say that to me. You were the one who started talking about this.” Jin raised his head and pointed at Kame.

“........................” This time it was Kame who looked down at his hands and said nothing. more

"You don't have to tell me, if you....."

"It started about a month ago," Kame spoke up before Jin could finish. “P came to the house to play class the day before that. And then I slept over too. When I woke up the next morning The first thing I saw was P's face, which was very close to mine."

"What? Don't tell me you were frightened by P's face when he was sleeping."

“Dammit, no. You know what Jin said before? It's right. P's really cute. That morning made me realize that I don't want that moment to end. When I have P nearby like this, I can hear P breathing. I don't want it to end at all.... I became afraid. 'What am I thinking?'

I'm trying to stop thinking. But it's getting harder and harder......... So I try to distance myself from P. But, Yama P is Yama P. He kept asking me what was wrong. Why aren't you with him? Play with him like before.”

“So...you decided to end everything. By making P hate you. And then you tried to tell yourself that you hated P, so.”

“.....It's like that. If the two of us were closer to each other, Closer than this It will ruin both of our lives and our careers.”

“So you chose to be a star over P?”

“No, I'm not...between fan service and reality. It's very different. It's not easy. It's only going to be painful. Besides, you know how much P loves this job."

Then the two of them were silent. No one said anything else. Until Jin broke the silence.

“So, this is why you seemed so happy when you found out about Nobuta.”

“...Huh?...”

“That drama.

Nobuta wo Produce

You looked happy enough that you knew you'd get to play that with P. Even though you guys haven't spoken to each other in years.”

“That...” But before Kame could say anything. He was interrupted by Jin's phone call.

….Tuuuuu…..   …..Tuuuuu……

"Is something wrong, Ryo-chan?"

'Akanishi, what have you done?' Ryo's voice was so loud that the other two people in the room could hear it.

“What...Ryo-chan? What are you talking about?”

'Yamapi, when he arrived he didn't do anything. Just sit here and frown. And how will the class work if P still acts like that? I want my leader back, so you have to come take care of it now!'

“Phi has arrived? I'll go right away, Ryo-chan." With that, Jin put his phone in his pocket and ran out of the room saying, “I'll be right back,” without waiting for an answer from the other two people in the room.

Right now, only Koki and Kame were left in the room.

“They say that People will never forget their first love,” Kouki said after sitting quietly for a while.

“What?” Kame turned to look at Kouki.

“You looked really happy, Kame, when you played Nobuta. To this day, you still like to make jokes. Shuji and Akira are here."

“Well.... Yamapi, sometimes you don't know anything, right? Jin, too. No wonder they're close friends."

"Don't you know?"

“Well, I don't know how you feel about yourself. And Yamapi and Jin didn't even know how they felt about each other,” Kouki explained.

“Maybe...it might be better like this. Johnny-san doesn't like that they're close like this.”

“Maybe, but I'm more surprised by what you're talking about. Mr. Tab never talked about your feelings.”

"I don't know. I probably just wanted to get it off my chest."

Then suddenly the door to the room opened. Along with 3 people walked into the room.

“Good morning, everyone,” Junno greeted with a bright smile. Followed by Ueda and Nakamaru.

“Where is Jin...?” Ueda asked after noticing who was missing.

“Same place, in the room.

NEWS”

Koki answered.

“Again? I'm sure I don't want to stay.

NEWS

That's it."

“Don't be mad, it probably just wants to spend as much time with Yamapi and Ryo as possible before it goes away. Or do you want Ryo to come here?”

“In the next life!!”

“I think so.”

The End