When one person is like the heart, it is the first love, the lasting love.

And it's love that's always waiting.

Time may cause the two of them to be far apart.

But there has never been a time that someone's image can be erased...from memory.

The other person compared it to fresh air. is true love And it's a beautiful love

The relationship that is created creates a bond between two hearts.

tenderness and warmth Make life feel like it's already dead.

Can happen again

Because both things are important things in life.

And when it's time to decide on something.

If it were you....what would you choose?

It's finished. Hehe. Finally, I was able to finish it.

I felt like I wasn't going to survive. I don't know if you'll like it or not.

I want to say from the beginning that this story was difficult to compose as well.

But I don't know why. After finishing it, I felt like I wanted there to be a sequel.

(Looking for work for myself again haha) But we're about to start the semester.

If it's finished in time, I might post a sequel.

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“Honestly, Donghae, how can you stand it? Why are you torturing yourself?”

Please don't ask me this question, Hyukjae. I can't answer you. Because even myself Now I still have the same doubts.

How can I... endure like this?

“Kyu, what are you thinking?”

“Hm, no, since when has Donghae been here?” The person sat there thinking about nothing for a long time. When he was greeted, he turned around and saw that Someone was sitting next to me and he gave a small smile. Come to the person who asked.

“I've been here for a while. Secretly looking at the absent-minded person. That I was going to secretly time it. Until Kyu knows that we're here. How many minutes will it take?” Donghae's amused tone was accompanied by a cheeky smile. Kyuhyun couldn't help but move his hand to shake his small head beside him, instead of avoiding his large hand. Instead, he laughed even more.

“A big tease. Have you finished school yet?”

"Oh, today I only have morning class. I have free time in the afternoon."

“What about Hyukjae?”

“Oh, Kyu, don't talk about that chicken right now, okay? I'm so angry.” It's not just words that indicate you're angry. Even his facial expressions were clearly expressed.

The look of this baby fish is really sulking at the mother hen...... Kyuhyun came to a conclusion in his heart.

“What are you upset about this time?”

“It's a chicken, Kyu. As soon as I got out of school He scurried towards Siwon, leaving us alone in the room. Plus it's not enough. Kyu, look at this, purely Kai Kai's document. Left it in the room. We have to carry it for you. Is it a good idea to burn it and throw it away?”

“Heh heh, don't worry, Donghae, if you burn it, you'll throw it away. In the end, Donghae will have to carry his own documents for Hyukjae to photocopy anyway.” As soon as he finished speaking, he received another sulking from Donghae. I wanted to laugh, but it wouldn't be good if he was left sulking for a long time. So I had to both console and lure him with ice cream for a long time. Until the touchy person agrees to smile sweetly again.

People who stopped by saw their father and mother's attitude. The pique of a famous university couple I can only secretly be jealous of how cute and suitable the two of them are. Even though it is a picture that we should be familiar with. But it still brings smiles from people who see it regularly.

And did anyone ever expect that pictures like this....would no longer exist?

“Because I was the happiest in my life with this love, Hyukjae. It haunts me I can't take my hand off him.”

Because there is an image of the happy past imprinted in this heart that beats tiredly. Even if it hurts to the point of death Even if I have tears But because of those happiness, Hyukjae

This heart....it's still beating.

“What are you calling, Siwon?” After sending Donghae home, He himself returned to his dorm to rest. He has lived here since entering university. Because the distance is closer to the university than at home. Although some people at home complained that he was staying somewhere else, they couldn't see each other.

But he usually returns to the house 2-3 times a week, and lately he's had to bring back some mischievous figures that his mother feels especially fond of. Until sometimes he secretly wonders if at home he really wants to meet this son or his son's girlfriend like Donghae.

“Why, if I have to call you when I have no business, it has to be Donghae alone?” Choi's irritated voice sounded. Siwon, his close friend It easily makes the urge to scold people arise.

"Well, if you already know, then I'll hang up the phone. Bye."

“Hey hey!!! Wait a minute. Oh, just joking like this makes me feel bad. Now, tomorrow I'll buy you a lollipop to seduce you. Do you want it?"

"No thanks, that's all. I'm going to sleep."

“Hey hey!! Oh, I'm not joking anymore. You have no sense of humor at all. I tried to create a sense of humor before telling a stressful story.”

"What's the stress?" And the sense of humor will complain about stress. Kyuhyun, who at first acted like he was just lying down and talking, got up and walked over to turn off the television that he had left on. Then walked and sat on the sofa.

“Sigh...let me get over it first. Just a moment...Kyugu, what did you ask me?”

“What are you asking?”

“How are you these days?” Siwon's strange question. It made Kyuhyun's eyebrows almost knit together in curiosity. Since Siwon himself was studying at the same school as him. Even though each group But they meet up every day, sometimes even more frequently than Siwon meets with friends in the faculty. I came back and asked like people I hadn't seen in a long time.

"Nervous?" The only word that resonated with him the most. It was sent out to a friend on the other end of the line.

"I'm really asking, what's going on with your nerves?"

“We meet every day. Come and ask how it is. Mr. Choi, go eat some paracetamol and go to bed. If that's the case, you'll be very dizzy.”

“Hey..Kyuu, don't bother me yet. Ask me anything, please answer."

"I think you're more than Siwon. Whatever you say, it's better to just say it. Don't make a fuss about it. What's the matter?"

"That is..." When he found words that forced him to talk about things he didn't want to talk about yet. Siwon himself only let out a gasp. until the person waiting to listen is annoyed

“Dammit Choi Siwon!!”

"Oh, I already said it. Sigh...Kyu..Listen to me carefully."

"Oh, just say it."

"is..."

“It's....well...”

“Sungmin will come back here, Kyu.”

The telephone line was cut off. It did not ease the uncomfortable feeling in the heart of the person who was the messenger like Siwon. As soon as he said that sentence, The person on the other end of the line was silent for a moment. before almost shouting to ask about the accommodations of the people who had just returned. and cut him off immediately

You don't have to tell me. That right now Kyuhyun would definitely jump into his car and drive to find Sungmin, his old friend who had left for a long time.

That's right....Sungmin..his old friend.

But...I'm Kyu's ex-boyfriend.

When he first met Sungmin while taking Hyukjae out to eat. Feeling happy to see a dear friend who we haven't seen for a long time. It made him feel like today was truly another good day for him. He introduced Sungmin to Hyukjae then volunteers to take Sungmin to his place of residence (

Of course, after understanding with Hyukjae that this really is a friend) But on the way to send Sungmin off,

'Oh..Siwon.."

'Hmm, what do you say, Sungmin? Are you hungry? I already told you to eat since the restaurant didn't believe you. How about we stop by a shop around here first?'

'It's not Siwon..I have something to ask.'

'Oh, come on, what are you asking?'

'Uh..how is Kyu?'

Only, the air around him seemed to disappear for a moment. That's right..how could he forget? That this Sungmin, his best friend What kind of relationship do you have with someone else who isn't present? It wasn't just Kyuhyun that he thought of. When hearing Kyuhyun's name Another friend of his was also thought of.

Lee Donghae....Kyuhyun's new boyfriend

'Kyu are you okay, Siwon?'

'Oh...yeah..it's fine Sungmin'

'Really? And..has Siwon been in contact with Kyu often? Are you studying at the same school?' Sungmin's happy expression After hearing that the person he was worried about was fine. Ploy makes Siwon even more troubled. When it was clear that his friends still had unchanged importance to Sungmin

......It's not. No, it hasn't changed....

Because it looks bigger than before.

'We study at the same school as Kyu, Sungmin, but we study in different faculties. Even so, we still encounter it every day.'

'That's good. We want to meet everyone too. We want to meet Siwon and...Kyu.'

'Uh..yeah..and how is Sungmin? Go and stay there for a long time'

'Hee hee, I'm fine. The weather is really nice over there and there are a lot of cute people. Siwon will like it when he sees it, hehe. But even then, he can't compete with Hyukjae. Don't even think about cheating on your girlfriend.'

'Hey! I haven't thought of anything yet. Don't give us Di Sungmin the trouble of Hyukjae's murder just yet. And what about other people and themselves? The young man flirts a lot. It's so much cuter.'

'Are you crazy!!..Who's going to flirt with us? You can think about it, Siwon. No one is blind and likes me like that tall guy.'

Siwon turned to look at Sungmin's expression again. By this time he was starting to behave incorrectly. I don't know what to say next. Sungmin's expression made him feel uneasy. I don't know whether I should tell the truth about Kyuhyun or not. He also didn't want to interfere in anyone's personal matters. But if he let it go on, he was afraid that in the end, someone might regret it.

Whether it's Sungmin, Kyuhyun, or someone who doesn't know anything like Donghae.

'Sungmin...we have another matter to tell Sungmin'

'Kyu...he...has a new girlfriend'

'My name is Lee Donghae'

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After saying goodbye to Siwon, he went up to his room. Everything is as if it doesn't exist. Sungmin had no idea how he had gotten to his room. And since when did you arrive? He only knew that when he turned his back on Siwon Tears that had been hidden flowed from both of his eyes.

Kyuhyun is not at fault. He had never been angry at this person at all. From Siwon's words Kyuhyun endured so much suffering. The moment he left Make a man from being a fun and cheerful person become a quiet person. Like lifeless Monopolizing himself to the world he chose to leave despite being surrounded by so many people.

But Kyuhyun never thought to care. Tormenting myself with loneliness like that

.....until I met a person named Lee Donghae.

Even though I've never met this person. But he himself had heard what Siwon said. He wasn't surprised at all as to why this person was able to bring Kyuhyun back to his old self with a laugh. and smile Because just listening to him he felt like he wanted to get to know him. I want to be friends with people. Even this

If it's someone's fault that they bring tears to their eyes, It must have been his own person. that makes everything have to be like this

It was him.... who chose to let go of Kyuhyun.

It was him.... who chose to come back because he thought that the other person didn't have anyone yet.

And it's because of him.....who has always loved Kyuhyun.

Meanwhile, he was still thinking about many things. There was a knock on the door from the front of the room. Although at first he didn't pay any attention to it. Because I still want to be alone for a while. But for a long time the knocking sound continued. So he decided to get up and go see those who had come to see him in the middle of the night.

But just opening the door to meet the tall and slender figure of a man in front of him. Sungmin's entire body was instantly frozen.

“Kyu!...”

Time has passed until now, and when Kyuhyun turns to look at the clock again, it's already 2:00 a.m., plus the concern he has for his small body. He slept exhausted from shedding so many tears over a matter that he didn't know how to find a solution. So he decided to sleep in Sungmin's room for the night.

Especially after finding out that Sungmin was an exchange student who would be studying at the same university as him. So he made a deal with Sungmin that he would be the one to take him away. Despite Sungmin's objections, he didn't listen.

He doesn't know and doesn't want to find out. What is the reason he's so worried about Sungmin....whether it's because he feels guilty...or because he still loves him? He doesn't care. He doesn't want to leave Sungmin alone.

“Hello Donghae, I'm sorry I called you so late at night.”

“Oh..It's okay...Kyu, is there something wrong?” Donghae's sleepy voice Calling out a small smile of a slightly stressed face

“Tomorrow we have business. Probably won't go pick up Donghae.”

“Is Donghae listening?”

"Oh, it's okay. And Kyu isn't sleeping yet?"

“I'm about to sleep. Then there's nothing. Good night, Donghae.”

"Oh, it's the same, Kyu. Good night.."

Kyuhyun looked out the window aimlessly. Even though I know that doing this is not good for Donghae. Both about Sungmin's return and the matter of him being the one to send Sungmin off tomorrow But he wasn't really ready to tell Donghae anything just yet. All he could do was postpone the time.

No, Donghae doesn't know about his ex-girlfriend. I know why I don't know. Since his condition when he first met Donghae He is still what everyone says, a 'zombie' without feelings and no identity. It's not strange that Donghae is suspicious. Donghae was the one who asked him directly. And after that time, Donghae never asked about this again.

And today, when Sungmin returns, what should he do next? The waiting is over. The person he had been waiting for for almost 5 years had returned. Can't keep this by my side. What should he do? What should I do next!!!!

...Please...someone tell him.

The sound of his sigh was very faint, but it was clearly heard by the other people in the room. It wasn't just the sound of sighs....even the sound of a phone call, he could hear it from the beginning.

It really hurts, my heart. Why did he have to wake up and hear it too?

And at the same time, someone else is far away. Instead, he was still sitting and looking at the phone in his hand. A smooth, tight mattress speaks volumes. That tonight, no body has yet slept on this bed. Some of the figures had been sitting still since returning in the evening. Until I answered my lover's phone ten minutes ago, I was still thinking about what to do.

And it probably won't escape the matter of your lover calling to cancel tomorrow's appointment. And another matter is the matter that Hyukjae called to discuss last evening.

'I met Siwon's old friend today. His name is Sungmin.'

I've come back. Kyuhyun's first and most important love. That Kyuhyun isn't free tomorrow. Does it have anything to do with this person?

Should I trust my lover?

Throughout the morning, even Kyuhyun was the one who helped arrange things for Sungmin. Both the paperwork and being taken to his school building, which was not far from Kyuhyun's school building. But the conversation between the two of them was only as small as necessary. Everyone is still in their own thoughts.

Each person's conscience keeps reminding them to draw boundaries in their relationships and actions. Even though it may feel like yesterday, when thinking about the reality of the present. It makes everyone have to hide their feelings.

But they really couldn't deny it. About being able to walk together again It makes this heart warm again.

“Is Sungmin hungry yet? I haven't eaten anything this morning. Do you want to go get something to eat first?” Kyuhyun turned to ask the person next to him. I was worried when I saw Sungmin's pale face. This morning he had actually invited me to eat first. But it was Sungmin who chose to come out to university immediately to take care of the paperwork.

“Uh...it's okay, Kyu. We're not hungry yet."

“Then Sungmin, sit here and wait, we'll be right back.”

Don't wait for the other party to say anything. Kyuhyun immediately ran out. Sungmin himself wanted to ask where the young man was going. I didn't dare to ask. So he sat and waited according to the tall figure's words.

“Ah, eat it.” Not more than 5 minutes later, a bag containing bread and a bottle of strawberry milk was handed in front of Sungmin. who was looking up at the person who handed it to him

“Did Kyu run and buy it for us?”

"Oh, here we bought you Sungmin's favorite strawberry cream bread and strawberry milk. Even though I'm not hungry, it would be nice to eat something to fill my stomach."

Just those words from Kyuhyun instantly brought the first smile of the day from Sungmin. Because he didn't think the other party would remember what his favorite thing was. And I don't think the other party will still care and care.

"Thank you Kyu....thank you..for still remembering." Even though I was a bit stunned, whose feelings and actions were remembered by the other party But when he saw Sungmin's expression and awkward expression, he could only sigh.

“We still remember everything about Sungmin and never forget...we really can never forget.”

“Kyu...”

“How long will it be? But we... have never been able to forget our feelings for Sungmin.”

“Stop talking, Kyu!! Stop saying it, we beg you.”

“Sungmin..”

"It's not the same anymore Kyu.... Kyu has another good person beside him."

“We cannot go back to the way things were before.”

“Does Sungmin still love me?”

“Don't ask like that again. Kyu, we beg you.”

“Go back to him, Kyu. We can be alone.”

"Let's go, Kyu..."

“Sorry for bringing this up. If Sungmin is in trouble, we won't talk about it again. But come with us. We'll take you to Siwon. It's probably waiting for Sungmin."

“But Kyu....”

“If Sungmin doesn't want to talk about this again. We promised not to talk about it.”

The atmosphere throughout the car ride was filled with torture for both of them. The silence shown towards each other was becoming more and more uncomfortable. Tears were shed but there was no sound from Sungmin's sobbing. It was like a knife that cut into Kyuhyun's heart very well. Even if it helps to erase the tears

But when the owner of those tears doesn't want them He himself couldn't do anything. All you can do is sit and watch it continue. Until you reach the area where you met with other people.

The handkerchief was handed to Sungmin. without any words Sungmin decided to accept it. Because I know in another person's heart that it will probably be the same pain.

“Let's get off.”

The marble table under the shady trees was occupied by five young people, but the cheerful chatter was probably only Hyukjae, Yesung, and Kangin causing the laughter. Meanwhile, Donghae and Siwon, who were normally the leaders in conversation, were so engrossed in their own thoughts that they didn't notice the presence of the other two.

"Hoy!! What is Dong Hae depressed about? Your boyfriend has arrived."

Just Hyukjae's words. Donghae quickly turned his head and looked in the direction that Hyukjae pointed out. But the image he saw was more like needles stabbing his body. The image of Kyuhyun walking alongside another person he knew was very important to his lover. It almost makes the tears that I try to keep hidden come flow out at any time.

But when I saw that he wasn't the only one here. There were still many friends who were worried about him sitting here.

Donghae could only try to hold back his smile as if nothing had happened.

.....Acting as if you don't know anything.

“Oh, you've arrived, Sungmin, Kyu. Then let's introduce everyone to Sungmin ourselves.” Siwon immediately acted as a mediator when he saw the strangely quiet atmosphere.

“Everyone, this is Sungmin, my old friend and...er...Kyu. He just moved here to study on exchange.”

Just the initial introduction secretly made Siwon stressed. When having to replace Sungmin's relationship with Kyuhyun I could only think tiredly.

“Sungmin, Hyukjae already knows, right? My most beautiful girlfriend, oh my! Don't hit Dihyuk, it hurts. And then, Yesung. He studies architecture. Don't go near it. It's Sungmin, he's such a flirt.”

“Oh!..that Siwon, you talked in my direction again. Don't believe me, Sungmin." He turned to complain to Siwon and then finished flirting with Sungmin for fun. But he couldn't help but laugh when Hyukjae added.

“Oh, that's good. I'll go tell Ryeowook to take someone else on a date. You don't have to pay attention to me. I'm going to flirt with Sungmin now."

"Hoy!!! Just kidding, don't do it...I'm begging you.”

“Don't care about it, Sungmin. As for this guy, Kangin is studying engineering. This guy is not a flirt. But it's brutal, a little distance from it is good too.”

“Do you want to die, Siwon?”

“Oh, and this last person, well…” Siwon could only look at that person’s face. There are people who want to find help. But each of them kept a straight face. As for the others, seeing the strange atmosphere, they could only turn to look at each other to ask their opinions.

“My name is Donghae. Nice to meet you, Sungmin.” In the end, it was Donghae. Forcing a bright smile again Then he introduced himself. before turning to look at Kyuhyun who was still standing without saying anything. And then I could only pity myself in my heart. That she suddenly looked worthless in Kyuhyun's eyes in front of the small figure in front of her.

The conversation seemed rather quiet even though today there was one more guest. Even people who tried to make people laugh like Yesung and Kangin had to retreat back to the group in time. Hyukjae also tried to ask several times but was stopped by his boyfriend every time. Until finally, he couldn't stand it and immediately stood up and left the table in a bad mood.

“Follow Siwon. Don't leave it alone. Everyone around us will be in trouble.” Seeing Siwon's expression hesitating whether to stay or go. Donghae has to help decide. To make Siwon feel relaxed, he tried to add some funny jokes. Which must be considered to help Siwon a lot.

“Then we'll come soon.” Siwon then ran off, leaving the other three to face each other. Even if it's something you don't want.

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“I think I'd better go study first. I'll see you later in the day." Whatever the reason, But it seems like something is warning Donghae.

If you were still here.....in front of this person....

........You will be invisible again in Kyuhyun's eyes.

“Wait Donghae, don't go yet.” But it wasn't until Donghae could walk away. The voice of the person who had always been quiet suddenly became louder. Even those who sit quietly and listen Even Sungmin had to look up.

"Do you have anything to ask?" It's a strange question, but it makes the listener understand well what the speaker wants to convey. causing Donghae to turn and face Kyuhyun.

“What do you mean, Kyu? It's about Sungmin or Kyu's business that prevented him from coming to pick us up.”

“Kyu knows that no matter what We already know the answer.”

“The real Sungmin is cuter than the picture Kyu keeps in his wallet.”

“Donghae…” Sungmin's voice was tired. called out Donghae. I want to call Donghae to his senses and stop saying anything. That might make everything

......It hurts more than this.

“We know Sungmin is Kyu's ex-boyfriend.”

“Like we know that Donghae is Kyu's new boyfriend.” Donghae was silent for a moment when he saw Sungmin interjecting like that. before looking at the two people still here again

“Have we become people...blocking Kyu and Sungmin's love?”

“Donghae...”

"Please tell us...do you still love each other?"

Maybe because of the questions asked. It is still a question that no one has dared to find the answer to. Donghae received silence in response from the two of them. And Donghae seemed satisfied with that answer. So he chose to run away from the two of them. Without listening to the calls from both Sungmin and Kyuhyun

But not long after running out, a hand came to hold Donghae up. before pulling him into Donghae's familiar embrace.

Kyuhyun still has no words of consolation. To the person he brought to tears in his embrace Even though one part of his heart is worried about the person he left behind, this person has nothing wrong that deserves to be left behind as well.

“Do you still love Sungmin, Kyu?” His voice trembled. It indicates the mood of the questioner very well. This caused Kyuhyun to look down at the person who asked.

“Why are you asking, Donghae? If asking is going to hurt, why are you asking?”

“Can't you forget, Kyu? Throughout all this time, Kyu never forgot Sungmin?”

“Donghae...don't do this...”

“I have never been worth anything. For Kyu, right?”

Just as he finished his sentence, the young man's lips were pressed against his thin lips. Even though it made some of the bodies in their arms freeze in shock. But for only a fraction of a second, some of them were willing to obey the person in front of them.

“Donghae is precious to me. Don't say anything like that again.”

“I already told Donghae once. That for me Donghae is the air. Donghae made me live again. No one can stay here. If you're short of breath."

"Go on, I'll walk you."

Since arriving at the Donghae faculty classroom, he had been sitting alone thinking about nothing. But because the room was still empty, there were only Donghae and Hyukjae in it, giving Donghae some private time to himself. Hyukjae, who had arrived earlier, also chose to let his close friend think for a while.

Because she herself has doubts floating around in her head as well. When the person who can give her an answer is not yet ready to answer. She still chose not to ask.

because he was so afraid that the question he would ask

......might hurt her friends.

“Hyukjae, can I ask you something?” The person who had been sitting silent all this time turned to ask Hyukjae who was sitting next to her, who nodded in response to her asking her question.

“Will people ever have a chance to forget their past love?”

“How long does it take? Until we can forget our love once.”

“Donghae..”

“Will there be a chance? To forget that love and start with a new love.”

“.Sungmin, right?”

“Sungmin is Kyu's ex-girlfriend, right?”

"I don't know, Hyuk."

“Donghae!...”

“I really don't know.”

“I don't know for Kyu. Sungmin was just his ex-girlfriend. Or is it the girlfriend he's been waiting for?”

“Donghae...”

“What should I do, Hyuk? I want to know...I want to know for Kyu. How important Sungmin is...but I'm afraid, did you hear that, Hyuk? I'm afraid if I know the answer....I'll lose him.”

“Donghae, calm down..”

“I'm afraid he'll leave me and go back to Sungmin.”

Hyukjae pulled his crying best friend into a tight hug. Trying to speak and comfort the little body. that was trembling calmed down

“Donghae, don't think about anything right now. You don't have to think about anything yet.”

“He told me, Hyuk. Kyu told me....that for him I am the air...that he cannot live without.”

“Oh, I heard that. Donghae, do you see how important Donghae is to that guy? No one can run out of air. Can't you see that doctor is missing you?"

“But you know, Hyuk. When I listened So I know and understand something.”

“What is it, Donghae…”

“If I were air for him Sungmin....Sungmin is probably Kyu's heart. Kyu's heart can't be lacking either.”

“Donghae....can you not think like that...?”

“I am the air that can give life to Kyu....but it can only do that.....air like me. He will never be able to change into Kyu's heart. If he never thought about abandoning his love for Sungmin.”

“Donghae....that's enough. Stop thinking about these things.” Hyukjae's tears began to fall out of pity for his friend Donghae's love.

Even though Donghae is a good person. There is truly pure love.

.......but why does Donghae have to suffer this much?

Who can she blame this mistake on?.....

And because the two of them were still haunted by sadness, they couldn't know that. At this moment, there was a picture of the two of them hugging each other and crying. When you hear the conversation, you can tell how tortured the speaker is. has already been recognized by someone

After the day Siwon introduced Sungmin to his friends, everyone chose to act normally as if nothing had happened. Choose to hold on to the relationship as it was before. By adding only a new friend like Sungmin to the group.

Even though many times there have been events that have caused wounds in each person's heart. But they chose to endure it. Kyuhyun still chooses to hold onto Donghae's paw and heart. But every time I was careless I came to my senses again. His eyes would be fixed on the other small figure.

Donghae himself even knows the eyes of his lover who often turn to look at someone else while his hand is still holding her hand. I just suppressed my tears and pretended not to know anything. Because until now, she didn't even know...that while she was angry at Sungmin for receiving the eyes and concern of her lover.

and feeling guilty towards Sungmin for pretending not to know how connected the two people were to their feelings

......How should you feel about yourself?

Sungmin himself throughout the past several months She herself suffered the same heartache. There were many times when I had to hold back a smile when I saw pictures of two people showing love to each other. Many times you wanted to get up and get out of here. Go back to the place you came from. But she couldn't do it. The responsibilities of work and study make Sungmin have to constantly remind himself of this. So he was forced to endure this pain.

But have you ever thought....that the limits of all of us are limited.......

No matter how much I love you. But if you suffer too much pain

Someone must have given up. Then let go

...................Even though that departure It will be like leaving like a heartless person.

“Donghae, what's the matter with us?” Sungmin received a call from Donghae to meet at a park near the university. asked the person sitting on the marble chair in front of him.

“Sit down, Si Sungmin.”

“Oh,” Sungmin nodded. Then went down and sat next to Donghae.

“I'm sorry, the address suddenly came out like this. It really bothers Sungmin.”

“It's okay. But what business does Donghae have with us?” he asked, even though in his heart he could guess what Donghae's purpose was as to what the appointment was about.

.......Kyuhyun

“We have something to discuss with Sungmin. Want to talk privately I don't want to talk in front of those chattering bastards, hehe.” Donghae's forced smile couldn't attract a smile from Sungmin. But it made Sungmin's expression look even more serious.

“We have nothing to do with Kyu, Donghae. We're telling the truth.”

“We know Sungmin.”

“We want Donghae to be comfortable. That Kyu and I will never betray Donghae. But if Donghae is not satisfied....at the end of this semester...we will try to work out the matter of transferring back.”

“We....will try not to see Kyu again.....if it's the only way. That will make Donghae trust us.”

“We...please leave first.”

“What will happen if you do that, Sungmin?”

“What do you mean, Donghae..”

“Does that mean Sungmin running away like this will bring about something? Even Sungmin was sitting in front of him. Kyu's eyes looking at Sungmin were still sad. Still caring this much If Sungmin goes far from Kyu's sight Isn't he even worse than this? And will we have to endure less pain?”

“Donghae..”

“We made an appointment today. Not to ask Sungmin to stay out of my way. But because we want to come and resolve all problems. Let it all go away. We don't want to suffer like this any longer.”

“We're sorry....Donghae...we're sorry...we shouldn't have come back. If we don't come back Everything probably won't be like this. Donghae and Kyu probably didn't have to hurt each other like this...we're sorry.” Tears of remorse flowed down streams. without the owner thinking of cutting it off or doing anything with it. You've held it in for too long. It's time to let it all flow out.

......if it flows until it completely disappears today

“Enough, Sungmin. Don't apologize to us at all.....don't apologize even though... We still don't know who is truly at fault. With this matter.” Donghae stood up and looked at the person in front of him who was sitting and crying as if he was going to die. And I can only feel heartache from the pain that you all had to endure.

“We can't be angry at Kyu....because we are the ones who chose to love him. Choose to hold him back even though you know who he really wants to go to. It's not Kyu's fault that he still has strong love for Sungmin. Until there is not enough heart left to love me.”

"Huh..no...that's not true...Kyu also...loves...loves Donghae."

“Sungmin himself is not wrong. I myself have never been angry at Sungmin. Sungmin never had the attitude to take Kyu back, even though sometimes...Sungmin did that. We might not even be able to hold on to Kyu.”

“That's not true....not like that...”

“But we don't want Sungmin or Kyu to be angry at us either....for holding Kyu back with the word boyfriend...we just don't want to lose him...we.... I don't want to tear anyone apart..."

“Donghae…” Sungmin stood up and looked at the small person in front of him. Has Donghae always had to hold on to so many feelings? It must be very painful.

“Donghae...I..never got angry at...Donghae. And I'm sure...Kyu isn't angry at Donghae either.” Sungmin's smile was sincere, not forced. This made Donghae feel even more at ease. And finally felt brave enough to decide what she would do from now on.

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“Donghae, Sungmin!!...” Kyuhyun ran to the area where the two familiar people were standing. But he was shocked to see that one of the two was crying as if he was going to die.

“Sungmin, what's wrong?” The tall figure walked in and wanted to support the crying person's body. But he couldn't do it as he turned away from both his hands.

Did you see it already? Who does he care about....who does he choose to protect?

“Now it's all here. I'll be able to finish everything off."

“What do you mean Donghae?” Kyuhyun still couldn't quite figure out what was going on. He knew what Donghae wanted to say. But he doesn't know exactly what Donghae wants to do. I called him to make an appointment to meet here.

Where the two of them agreed to be together.

“I'm tired of putting up with this. It's time to make a decision, Kyu. What will you do?” because it was a question that he never expected to come out of the mouth of someone who is sensitive to various matters. It's as easy as Donghae. Both his resolute tone and demeanor made him realize that he couldn't leave the matter hanging any longer.

“No matter what, someone must be hurt in this matter. No, they've been hurt since the beginning. It's time to choose someone to make it clear. Let's let it hurt one last time."

“Why do you have to do this, Donghae?”

“I'm tired of fooling myself, do you hear that? We don't want to fool ourselves again!!!! If you love or don't love me, please tell us. Whoever you choose, please help choose. Don't hurt us and make us suffer like this!!!”

“If you still can't forget Sungmin. went back to him No need to worry or worry about anything anymore. Kyu has been waiting for him all along. It's not wrong, do you understand? If Kyu will choose him.”

“Donghae.....”

“No one is at fault. If we have to break up....”

Sungmin's sobs became louder and louder. Hearing the words from Donghae's mouth The image Sungmin saw from looking through the curtain of tears is a very fragile body His clear face still had tears streaming down his face.....but his body was devoid of trembling like hers. Donghae's body remained still. There was only strength and determination from the thin body that she could feel.

“Do you know anything?....Since that day when Kyu said we were air for Kyu. The words air and heart have always haunted us. We have always asked ourselves. Which is more important: air or heart? And if one day we let Kyu choose Kyu will choose to keep the air like us.

Or will you choose your heart like Sungmin?”

“And now....we know, Kyu. We have the answer to the question that has haunted us all along. Do you want to know the answer, Kyu?"

“It may be true that regardless of whether one is deprived of air or a heart, a person will die. Because both things have their own importance. But what does Kyu know? If there's a lack of air, that person might die, but he's still intact. Because air is just something outside the body. But if the heart is missing, that person will never be complete again.

He will never be the same again. Do you understand what we're saying?”

“It's time for Kyu to go back to Kyu's heart.”

“Donghae....don't...don't do this...I'm begging you....huh..”

“Let's break up.”

“Did you think it was a good idea to do this?”

“Isn't it too late to ask now? When everything has been done.”

“But that's what I did. It's not called letting Kyu choose like I said. Donghae took care of everything from start to finish.”

“.....I don't dare stay and listen until Kyu chooses. Because if he doesn't choose to let the time last a little longer. I may not be able to let him go. Or if I had to listen to Kyu choosing Sungmin directly. I probably won't be able to accept it again either.”

“Don't you think Kyu might choose you?”

“I don't think I'm fooling myself anymore. I don't want it anymore. It hurts so much that I feel scared until the day I die.”

"Even though he's not sure, he might choose you."

“It's over. Don't mention it again.”

“So what do we do next? I've been skipping class for two days. Will you go to school tomorrow? But the swollen eyes still haven't gone away. Did you secretly cry last night again? So you're going to stop crying, aren't you?"

“Oh!!..complaining again. Why are you so grumpy? Seriously, Kibum who complains to me like this will drive me home, right? Heechul hyung hasn't fired me yet.” Upon hearing this, Kim Kibum secretly annoyed the little man who pretended to raise his head and raise it in front of his face.

Kim Kibum is a friend of Donghae who is studying engineering as well as Kangin. But the two of them were able to get to know each other because Kim Heechul, Donghae's much-loved older brother, is Kibum's real brother, so the two of them had a chance to get to know each other.

Donghae's turbulent love story Kibum found out by accident. Meanwhile, Kibum stopped by to bring things that Heechul hyung had given her at the group. At that time she was discussing this matter with Hyukjae. Since then Besides having Hyukjae who helps console her, So added Kibum and Heechul hyung who were beside her, two more people.

The latter, I must say, is not just comforting. Almost broke into Kyuhyun's group to murder someone who dared to make his younger sibling cry. It's good that she and Kibum stopped each other in time.

“Who would dare chase her? Donghae. Trying to chase you away, I was killed by Heechul hyung. To be honest, I'm beginning to wonder, is it you or me? His hyung."

“I know, it's good to remember it, my dear. As for Kibum, it's not. Haha."

"I know..."

“As for studying, he said he would go tomorrow.”

“Hey!..This is not what I asked just now. I'm asking because I'm just worried. I saw that it had been missing for two days. As for staying here for however long you want? I really didn't say anything.”

“We know, and thank you very much to both Kibum and Heechul hyung, but we plan to go to school tomorrow. Because we're annoyed by Hyuk. He calls every day.”

“Huh, it's not strange, you just didn't tell Hyukjae that you were here. Plus missing school. It's not strange that Hyukjae is worried."

“We don't want chaos. Just us sleeping here is already disturbing. Besides, we want to come to terms with it first.”

“Stop saying the word "disturbing". I already know that no one thinks like that.”

“Oh, thank you.” Donghae's faint smile was once again sent out as a thank you to the person in front of him. To which Kibum nodded lovingly at the thank you.

“You can sleep now, Donghae. Tomorrow I have to go to university. It may require a lot of energy and encouragement. So get some rest.”

“Uh” didn't just say it. Donghae started to feel tired as he lay down on the soft bed. To show Kibum that she was following his words.

“Good night.”

"Wait...Kibum"

"Hmm, what's up, you messy guy?"

"It's him again."

“Heh heh, okay, not kidding anymore. What do you say..."

"Tomorrow....go...be his friend."

“He....is afraid of his own heart, I don't know.”

“Oh, yes, tomorrow we will be beside Donghae.”

“Really..”

“Oh, we promise.”

Only the little eyes Both sides slowly closed with warm hands. From someone holding your hand Even though I'm not familiar with it and not as warm as anyone else But that's enough for you right now.

............This is enough.

[ The End ]