Sequel to [

SF SJ]

air or heart

It might be a little too long. But we just had some real free time.

This time we will mostly talk from Kyuhyun's point of view.

Don't forget to tell us if you like it or not.

Listen to the song: Pak Jai Jai Jai - Film Ratthapoom

People will make the same mistakes over and over again. How many times did you get it?

Will there still be a chance for forgiveness?

............or everyone will be............just like me.

A park that is beautifully decorated Make the atmosphere around you seem filled with happiness and smiles. The greetings and chatter of the guests at the event further helped to enhance the feelings of everyone. The audience became more cheerful.

.......but it wasn't with this person..........it wasn't really his feelings at all.

"Hoy! Kyu has arrived?” The voice greeted him from his best friend who had always been by his side, Choi Siwon, causing him to turn around and nod in response. Before turning his eyes away and looking around the work as usual, his condition made the people standing next to him He let out a sigh.

“Sungmin, didn't you come together?”

“No, Sungmin said he would come. He'll probably be here soon, Hyukjae."

“Stay inside the work. Right now I'm probably with....Donghae.” Just hearing this name He drifted back into his own thoughts again.

The name of the person who used to be by my side......but today.....has become someone else's.

“Are you okay?” Siwon continued to ask me with concern. which even though it is the opposite But I chose to nod in response. For the comfort of friends who expressed great concern for my feelings.

“Is work about to start yet?”

“Wait a minute, will you go find the others with me?”

“No, I'll wait for Sungmin first.”

“Oh, then follow me.”

"yeah..."

I looked at the backs of friends who walked into the event. Before choosing to come back and look at the atmosphere of the event again A park that has been beautifully created Makes me think back to someone's words. that was spoken to me a long time ago

'Kyu, look at this, it's beautiful.' A magazine was opened and handed to me in front of me. While I was sitting and watching a DVD movie that I just bought.

'Hm...oh, it's pretty. Wearing a wedding dress is very charming.”

'No!.... Oh! You have a habit. I let you show me the place. What are you going to see? You're a flirt.'

'Oh, Donghae didn't tell me what to watch. I saw this picture sent to you. I thought that you should look at the people in the picture.'

'You don't have to, Kyu. Here we show you, they organized a beautiful event. Organized in the park as well'

'Which is...it's beautiful. Why is it like this?' A question that was said with a smile and turning to look at the face of the person being asked. It made the sweet-faced person's face immediately turn red. before he leaned his head back and rested it on his broad shoulder.

'Oh, we dreamed it. That if we have our own wedding We would like to organize it in a park like this. You'll be happy, look.'

'Huh, are you daydreaming? Mr. Lee Donghae, organizing an event like this isn't easy.'

'I don't know, we like it like this. Therefore, Mr. Zhou Kyuhyun, our wedding must be like this. If it's another way This Mr. Lee Donghae is sure to go on a rampage, hehe.'

'I feel like this girlfriend is going to be cruel. Plus, if I got a job like this, would I be able to do it?' But the speaker's face always had a smile on it. It makes people who have beautiful dreams feel a little annoyed.

'If you can't take it, you have to take it. There will be many more years until you graduate. Go study well, my friend.'

What I once said to him was that his dreams were difficult. There's no way it can be done. But who else is not? For the doctor, this is happiness. No matter how difficult it is There was never the word impossible. He is able to create dreams and bring them into reality beautifully and flawlessly.

Until I myself felt ashamed in my heart.

“Kyuhyun,” a small voice came from behind. When he turned to look, he saw a small figure. who is wearing a cute outfit behind me A sweet, clear face decorated with a light amount of makeup. Help make this face more attractive to look at.

But if the little face had a smile

Not the sad eyes you see now.

This person must be much more attractive than he looks right now.

“Have you arrived, Sungmin?”

"Oh, you've been here for a long time?"

“It's been a while. Do you want to go straight to work? Siwon and others I went into the work first.”

“Alright then.” The two of us walked into the event together. In the meantime, there were friends Who I know stopped by to say hello. Many people who after graduating from school disappeared and rarely kept in touch with each other were reunited at today's event....

“Hey!!!! The bride and groom have already arrived.”

..............Kim Kibum's wedding with......Lee Dong Hae

Two figures walking side by side holding hands. They looked so suitable for each other in every way, their happy expressions. were distributed to attendees along the walk holding each other. I stood and looked at the two of them who were coming towards where we were standing. The more you look The more I felt my heart begin to weaken.

Until Kibum and Donghae walked closer. I began to feel a small hand. who moved to hold my hand

I turned to look at Sungmin who even remembered my hand. But those eyes looked towards the person who was about to walk in. This action made me thank.....and apologize to Sungmin in my heart.

“Congratulations, both of you. It's a shame, my friend.” Such rude words from a wild friend like Kangin didn't create any resentment from the newlyweds. But he received a smile in return for the blessing.

“Those two are quick. Look at the two of us. Let's get together before the other two, Ryeowook. When will we get married?” These words did not belong to anyone else. Aside from Yesung who turned to his cute boyfriend Ryeowook. who was embarrassed by words that sounded like a marriage proposal

“If we get a bouquet of flowers from Donghae today then we'll agree.” That's all, Yesung. almost immediately ran to the bride of the event

“Donghae, my dear friend. If you help a friend this time Don't forget to throw flowers in my beloved's direction. I will not forget your grace until my child is ordained.”” That's all. The sound of laughter rang out like no one was meeting anyone. There were only two people holding hands who stood still without any laughter. And probably because of that, the eyes of the bride at the ceremony turned to stare at the couple.

“Thank you, Kyu Sungmin, for coming to our event.”

“Don't say that. Donghae and Kibum's work We have to come anyway.” Sungmin chose to speak up when he saw that the other person holding her hand tightly wasn't ready to say anything yet.

It hurts Kyu..........It hurts like I do right now.

But it's okay Kyu, this person will be beside you.

“Donghae, let's go look at the stage first. By now, Heechul's head is spinning. Handle it alone." Kibum turned to his bride. After talking with close friends for a while To which Donghae himself nodded in response before slowly releasing the hand that held his lover's arm. So that the other party could walk to the stage like they had said.

“How can it be so sweet?” Siwon saw the expressions of the two of them and could only tease. It's like a joke. But those eyes stared at his friend, who until now had remained silent and said nothing.

“Too little, you still don't see me Siwon. This couple, even when they dress up, they still can't stop being sweet together. Aren't you afraid that I'll be jealous?” Hyukjae, who today took on the important role of being a bridesmaid. Walk around holding the arm of your lover. Those slender lips still continued to accuse their lover.

“I'm jealous, so I'm going to ask Siwon to be sweet like this. I will stop being jealous.”

“If you don't tell me, I'm going to arrange for you to stay here, Donghae. Oh, darling, I'm going to be really sweet. Until the newlyweds were embarrassed and waited to see, hey! Just give me a moment, I'll be right back." That's all he said. People who want to be sweet immediately drag the jealous person away. But do you think you'll be able to go on a sweet date with just the two of them? It seems difficult when people want to know (want to see) how to make a sweet date (that may be rated).

They secretly ran after the couple. It made Donghae laugh so much that he had to hold his stomach. And if there is no voice calling Maybe you could run along and watch as well.

“Wait Donghae, let's stay with Kyu first. Let's go get something to drink, I'm thirsty.” Sungmin, who was still standing here and not running with the others, spoke up, and of course she didn't wait for Donghae to have a chance. He refused and ran out before anyone could stop him.

The atmosphere suddenly changed from lively to quiet like I was. When the only two people left chose to keep everything quiet. But seeing that if it continued like this there would only be discomfort, Kyuhyun chose to speak up.

“Donghae is very beautiful today.” The words that seemed to make the most sense were said. causing Donghae to turn his eyes to the man standing in front of him.

“Oh, thank you, Kyu looks very handsome today.”

“But you probably won't fight with Kibum, right?” Although I thought of not saying anything that would make both sides uncomfortable. But in the end I made another mistake. Donghae turned away when I finished speaking.

..........I'm really...crazy.

“But just today, we will allow Kibum to be more handsome. Another day, we definitely won't accept it.” I can only hope that these words that seem like a joke will help the atmosphere between us not be too uncomfortable. And I have to admit that it helped a lot. When Donghae turned around and smiled at me again.

“Narcissism hasn't changed at all, Kyu.”

“Or would you say it's not true?”

"Yes, no more arguing. Handsome father, extremely handsome. Is that okay?"

But after that, the two of us were quiet again. I don't know if this is my punishment or not. that made everything travel to the end in this form For the painful love of our past

..........Yes, our past love.

...........My love with this person ........Lee Donghae

Every incident at that time, the beginning came from me. That has created many scars for two people who are important to me. Whether it was Donghae or Sungmin, even though I knew how many tears they had to shed. At that time, I seemed to forget the person I was holding hands with.

I neglected the person who was known as my boyfriend. But go care about the people who are in your own memories. Everything I did caused Donghae extreme pain and suffering. But I never once embraced Donghae or comforted him. I let Donghae suffer alone.

.............And in the end, Donghae gave up and chose to walk away from me.

I remember that day Donghae arranged for me and Sungmin to come out to the park. That was another big mistake I made. I ran towards Sungmin who was crying heavily. I forgot to think that

..............Maybe people who don't cry Might be in more pain

And that was like the last straw for Donghae's long patience. Donghae's tears flowed out. Even without a sob But I knew how much he was suffering from the expressionless expression in his eyes.

I hurt the person I love

Until he no longer had any feelings left to keep as a memory.

'Let's break up' four short sentences. That makes a fool like me understand everything. But it really was too late. I came to realize that I should deal with every problem. On the day Donghae ran away from me. I just had the opportunity to know. That Donghae misunderstood the meaning of my word "air"

Maybe it's true like Donghae thinks. That if compared, Donghae is the air, Sungmin is the heart.

It may be true that when a person loses their heart, their body will never be complete again.

But Donghae probably forgot.........how important a person's heart is.

But one day we can change our hearts.......if the old heart is not the same anymore.

For me, Sungmin's past may have once been my heart. But now Sungmin is my brain, a memory that I will never forget.

Because the person who is my heart and my air has changed.

There is only one person in my heart and air right now, namely him.........it's Donghae.

....................But I realized what I should have said........on the day it was too late.

“Kibum is a very lucky person.” I once again spoke the words to break the silence between us. But this time, my words might sound strange. That's why Donghae looked at me like that.

“We are the lucky ones. We are lucky to have Kibum by our side.” Would it be very wrong? I would like to ask him to listen to my words. without letting him say anything

Because everything he said......hurts me so much.

“So....the event was beautifully organized. Just like the ones we had seen in magazines, no, the event was even more beautiful.”

“ Kibum's skills, and Heechul's help is also strong. But until Heechul hyung agreed to help Kibum was really teased by Heechul's hyung. We don't think the same. that Kibum could do this much for us We believe what Kyu has already said. that organizing an event like this is really not easy at all.”

“But Kibum can do it, right?”

“Oh, he did it. How do we say that we are the lucky ones, not him?”

“How are Kyu and Sungmin doing?”

“It's normal.” This was another matter that Donghae never knew the truth about. Donghae has always thought that Sungmin and I were lovers since the day Donghae cut off ties with me. I never had a chance to explain the truth.

Actually.....I asked Sungmin to stop loving me. From the moment I saw Donghae walk away from me

It might sound selfish or too mean. But for me, someone who has always thought about letting everything get better by itself using time to help. But in the end I had to lose the person I loved. It made me realize that In some cases, letting everything go is not a good solution at all.

The fact that I didn't speak directly to Sungmin It is not to help Sungmin gradually You can get rid of me.

But it only made everything deeper.

“So when will we get married? How could you let us overtake you, Kyu? Be careful. Don't rush, or else someone else will take Sungmin away. I don't know.”

..........Like he stole you away from me, right?

“Kyu...are you happy?” A strange question, but this time it was asked by Donghae. Makes me not know what I should reply to him.

Answered that he was happy.......in exchange for receiving Donghae's comforting smile.

or answer truthfully That I was suffering so much to let him know my feelings.

How should I answer?

But in the end, I chose to nod to Donghae as the answer. Which is as expected. I received Donghae's comforting smile in return. But it wasn't long before that smile was passed to another person who walked towards us.

“Everything is ready, Donghae. Let's go.” The groom's hand, Kibum, was extended to his bride. Donghae turned and looked at me again. before reaching out to hold Kibum's hand with a happy smile

.......This is enough.

........Just seeing him happy should make me happy, right?

“Do you want to get out of here, Kyu?” a voice came from behind. Even without turning to look, I knew it was Sungmin. And if I had to guess, Sungmin has probably been here for a while.

“You can't do that, Sungmin. The more you do that Donghae might be uncomfortable.”

“Even though I'm here, Kyu will get even more hurt?”

“We're okay. We can endure it. Donghae has been hurt like this too.”

“So, can you take pity on me, Kyu?.......can you take pity on me? We don't want to see the person we love hurt like this. We don't mind....if Kyu doesn't love us. But please Kyu.....we beg you not to do this. Let us endure seeing Kyu hurt like this.....it hurts us even more than Kyu saying he doesn't love us."

“Sungmin..”

“Is it our karma, Kyu?.....Is it our karma that is coming after us...that once....we both made good people? ....and there is nothing wrong with Donghae having to suffer....because even today Donghae is able to be happy.....the two of us still have to suffer like this.”

“Don't cry, Sungmin. We beg you...don't cry. Please don't let Donghae's happy work lead to anyone's tears. I beg you.” I hurt Sungmin again. I stopped him from crying. For selfish reasons again

Why am I such a bad person?

“We understand. We don't cry anymore.....that's it. An auspicious event should not have tears. We are really bad Almost wronged Donghae again.”

“I'm sorry, Sungmin. Did we hurt Sungmin again?”

“Not at all, Kyu. It's not Kyu's fault. We do it ourselves. We'd like to go home first. Please tell others because we are busy And please apologize to Donghae and Kibum for leaving first.”

“Sungmin..”

"We're really okay, Kyuu. Don't worry about us."

“Do you want us to drop you off?” Even though I wanted to stay and see the whole time Donghae was happy. But I probably shouldn't neglect or ignore the person who hurt me, right?

“We can really go back on our own. Moreover, we believe that Kyu would like to stay. Do something that makes you happy. We really are okay.”

Sungmin returned soon after and the ceremony began. Guests began arriving at the white circular stage that had been set up in the park. On stage were the newlyweds and Heechul who served as MCs for today's event. joyful laughter It makes me smile with happiness to see the most important person in my life happy.

.......Even though that happiness Even if she receives it from someone else.....that's not me.

“I have secretly loved someone for a long time. She is my brother's sibling. It might not even be love at first sight. But I was impressed with her from the first time I met her. Especially after that day we had the opportunity to talk. That is even considered a small happiness for me because for people like me who think there is no opportunity next to me. The person you secretly love

But at least we had a chance to talk with him. I consider that to be enough for me.....”

Words that come from the feelings in the groom's heart. was broadcast for those in attendance to hear The more you create a warm appreciation for the work. Those strong hands still held tightly but cherished the bride who always stood by their side.

“Until one day, I had the opportunity to stand beside him. Even though at that time I was just someone who looked after and encouraged me. But that is my greatest happiness. I never had any hope that he would love me back. I just want to be by his side. Whatever the situation, I'm happy. If that will make the person I love happy.”

Clear tears flowing from the bride's beautiful smiling face. causing Kibum to reveal a warm smile. and reached up to wipe away her tears

“So what I want to say right now is that I thank him. I thank Donghae for choosing me, for loving me, and for choosing to be by my side like this forever. I promise that this man will do everything for Donghae to make Donghae is the happiest. And definitely don't regret choosing to love and live your life with me. I love you, Donghae.”

Only then did the applause of joy grow louder and louder. Along with the newlyweds hugging each other tightly on stage. Donghae still had tears flowing from his eyes with endless gratitude. That made me even more relieved.

that that man I will definitely never make Donghae cry out of sorrow like someone like me did.

Because of the size now Even Donghae cries Still tears of joy. I don't have to worry about anything anymore.

Then the microphone was handed to Donghae after he was able to hold back his tears.

“For me, I consider myself the luckiest person. To receive love from this wonderful man He was once the person I took for granted. I don't see his importance. But he never left me. He is still standing by my side so I can get my life back on track. Until I felt like I was the one who should say thank you to him. Because if I don't have him

I wouldn't be the Lee Donghae I am today. Thank you, Kibum. For everything you did for me And let me say that I always believe that you can make me happy And I'm glad to spend all the life I have from now on with you. I love you, Kibum."

Finishing Donghae's words, Kibum slowly leaned his face down and pressed his lips to the bride's small lips. Amidst the many screams and applause of the guests at the event And the ceremony continued until Donghae threw bouquets of flowers to the guests. In this event, there were two people who got it: Ryeowook and Leeteuk.

Coincidentally, the two of them reached out to receive the flowers at the same time. In the end, it caused two people who might have the right to be the groom to be angry among themselves over who would actually get the bouquet. Play with other people Laughed a lot at the argument between two immature people.

“Donghae...” I called Donghae as I walked and stopped in front of her. Friends' eyes Every couple turned to look at me. But I don't care about any pair of eyes. Equal to the big brown eyes of the person in front of you.

“We brought our father and mother a present. He also asked me to say congratulations. I wish you a very happy married life.” I handed the gift box in my hand to Donghae. Donghae looked at me blankly before holding out his hand to receive the gift.

“Please thank both of you, Kyu. When we have a chance, Kibum and I will go thank you both in person.”

“Oh, you guys must be happy that Donghae and Kibum are going.”

Yes....Both of you must be happy. Since Donghae is another child that you love and always thought that we would be one family

.........but because of various things Those things have become just the past.

“Then let's go back, Donghae and Kibum. Congratulations once again.”

“Are you going back now, Kyu? Aren't you staying at the party first?” Donghae said, looking at me with a look in his eyes that I couldn't read how she felt.

...........But I can't continue.

“No, Donghae, we just have some work to do at the company. Here we secretly ran away. By now, you must be prepared to be severely complained about. But it was Donghae and Kibumni's important work. Even if we complain, we accept it.” I tried to put everyone at ease. Even though it's true Because today's work has made me finish all my work since last night.

"Oh, thank you Kyu. Thank you for coming to our event."

"It's okay. We're happy to take good care of Donghae, Kibum. I leave it to my friend as well." This is probably the last thing I can do for Donghae. It is to ask for a manly promise from the person Donghae has already chosen. That I will take care of her the best I can.

Take care of her and be happy. Don't be....like me.

“Oh, we promise we will take good care of Donghae. Don't worry.” After receiving this man's promise, The duties of someone like me would probably be over. I slowly walked away from the place that made the people I love happy. I don't even remember when I sat in front of the steering wheel of my car.

Because when I came to know again I leaned over and put my head down on the steering wheel and let the tears flow without ceasing. With my mouth mumbling words one after another Like a doll that has been wound up and has no feelings anymore.

“ .....I love you, Donghae.”

“What are you doing, Donghae?” The voice of the person who had become one of my life came from behind. With both hands supporting the person who was arranging the many large and small gift boxes in front of him. Before bending his head down to kiss his cheek that was slightly red. of people in arms

"I'm going to finish packing things, Kibum. Is Kibum hungry? We'll go make something to eat." Little hands that were previously busy arranging gifts He was sent to caress the young man's cheek with concern.

“It's okay, we're not hungry yet so we'll go take a shower first. But Donghae, is there anything we can help with?”

“Kibum, go take a shower. That's all we can handle.”

“Oh, then let's finish taking a shower. Then we will hurry and help you.”

“Oh,” when Kibum pulled away. Donghae continued to sit engrossed in the pile of gifts. Until they reached the final box that no matter how hard Donghae tried to remember, he couldn't. Who gave this gift box? When he unwrapped the gift, he found a card stuck to the side of a cardboard box that probably contained the gift.

Donghae then picked up the card. And she just opened the message card. Tears almost immediately welled up in her beautiful eyes.

          ‘ to...Donghae

This gift is something that someone once had. One told me that he wanted it the most. But I overlooked it. Today, I have chosen this item as the last gift that I will give to that person.

The last thing I want to say is I'm sorry for all the suffering and everything that has ever made you sad. It was because I was stupid that I didn't know to take care of the most important thing in my life. I hope Donghae is very happy. Kibum is a good person. I believe he will make Donghae the happiest. Donghae is the person I love.

Even though today I don't have the chance to be by Donghae's side again. But please know that every breath you take in and out from now on will always have only Donghae.

Because Donghae is my heart and air.

Jo Kyuhyun'

Donghae gently placed the card in his hand on the table and slowly stretched out a trembling hand to open the present in front of him. Trying hard to hold back the tears But she just took out the gift contained within. Tears that she thought she could hold back. They all poured out continuously.

The clear glass in front of him was meticulously cut and molded. It is in the shape of a flower with large petals that blooms beautifully.

'Do you want flowers? I've seen it for a long time.'

' Oh, I want it, but if it's Kyu, I'll buy it for you. He won't allow it to be an ordinary flower like this.'

' Oh...then what kind should I take?'

' If Kyu will buy it for him. He will take it as a glass flower. I only want one flower, okay?'

'Oh wow, it's such a luxury to play like this, when other people buy it for you, do they all have to be glass flowers? It's hard to find, let me tell you'

' I told you it was just Kyu alone.'

'Why is it just us?'

' Because of the glass flowers that Kyu gave us We can keep it for the rest of our lives. Even if it's just one flower But it will be the one flower that we love the most.'

' Heh heh, I think it's very romantic. Okay, if I have the opportunity to add wisdom to this person, Zhou Kyuhyun, I will try to find just one glass flower to give to Mr. Lee Dong Hae, let's decorate it as the flower of my life..... ’

The past of yesterday that I recalled Still able to make Donghae smile and cry. But today, she no longer knew what feeling these tears came from.

She is glad......that she has now realized how much the person she still can't forget loves her.

She was delighted.....with the gift that she thought she would only receive in a faint dream.

Or are you sad......that you came to know all this....on the day that you couldn't go back again?

The sound of the bathroom door opening caused Donghae to quickly wipe away the tear stains from his clear face. before turning and smiling when that person walked towards her.

“What is it, Donghae? Why are you crying?...” A warm voice conveys the concern that the person has. This has given her very well.

........She knew.......that she wasn't wrong in choosing to be with this man.

“We're just happy, Kibum. It's nothing.”

“What are you happy about? Can you tell me something about it?”

“Kibum, we have something to tell you..”

“Uh...what do you say? What's the deal?"

“We love Kibum.”

"Hm...what's this? How do you suddenly tell me you love me?"

“Just wanted to let you know.” Not only that, she stood up and hugged this man tightly. It was as if she wanted to convey to him all the feelings within her heart. which Kibum was able to understand it very well

“I also love Donghae. So whose gift is that? Cut flowers are beautiful.”

“Is that so...oh, beautiful...the most beautiful flower in our lives. Put it on the bedside table. We want to see it every day.”

“Yes, I am following Donghae's wishes.”

“Kibum, let's go to bed. We've been tired all day today."

“Heh heh, you just came to tell me you love me and now I'm inviting you to sleep. I suspect my wife won't sleep all night tonight.” Without saying anything, Kibum carried his beautiful wife floating in his arms. Amidst the laughter of the two of them And before the two of them walked into the bedroom, a pair of small eyes fell on the cut flowers on the table. before disappearing into the couple's bedroom

Thank you Kyu for the most beautiful flowers in my life.

Thank you, Kyu, for making me realize that I am not just air for you.

I still love you. You will always be my heart and air.

But today, I choose him to be the person who will be by my side forever.

If there is a next life, may we be born to love each other again.

May we love each other and not make the mistake of not being together in this life.

The last thing I want to say.....I love you too, Kyuhyun.