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evening sun

King's smile remained the same and had not changed.

History is the record of important events from the past, such as Isaac Newton, who discovered gravity with the drop of an apple. Or even Barak Obama's becoming the first black president of the United States. These events are well known to people around the world.

But for an ordinary person that is like a drop of water in the ocean. Of course, the lives of ordinary people are not of importance worth recording. However, every small step, choice, decision is made. Those things make the life of every ordinary person a true life. Some people may be satisfied with their own life.

Meanwhile, there were quite a few people who were running away from their shadows or even doing whatever it took to make the nightmare end.

Life rarely turns out the way we planned. Things we least expect come suddenly. Create excitement and excitement in life.

But sooner or later In the end, no one can escape the truth.

This isn't the first time I've made eye contact with King. And then the whole world stopped turning. The breeze carries the scent of January. New year is coming But if we talk about happiness I still can't answer. It's normal that everyone Three hundred and sixty-five days Many things have changed. The year number increases by one.

Annual animals switch between duties. In the past, tigers ruled the forest. But now many people probably see rabbits running around everywhere. Some are married, have children, have families, some are divorced. Broken family A baby opens its eyes to the world Ready to step up and take the place of the elderly, hearing the sound of the clock ringing every day.

Some people start a new life While some people live in the past

His smile is like the batteries in my life clock. Every day that I meet her, she smiles at me, the two of us walking hand in hand. Amid looks of contempt, contempt, and disapproval. Sometimes I feel hopeless, discouraged, and feel that life is worthless. Just one offense

Whether it's intentional or accidental. It can change a woman. People who used to have friends A person who is known to people A woman who is about to become a loser. People who live in a narrow world that you yourself created dying woman

But King always tried to tell me that everything ends happily.

I still remember the picture from about two years ago very well. Everything is full of happiness The joy of meeting people around you Feeling overwhelmed and proud of everything I had dedicated to my life as a high school student. The exams were approaching at the time. Various textbooks It began to form a mountain on the table.

But I never gave up on reading it. Never give up on making your dreams come true. Being able to enter the Faculty of Medicine at the country's leading university was considered the highest hope at that time. It was what my mother had always expected. With fighting spirit and blood Discouragement and hopelessness become motivation and inspiration by default.

And then the veil between dreams and reality was lifted. I look at myself in the mirror What you saw was not an ordinary woman. But she is a woman full of energy. A woman who made her dreams come true I can't help but be proud of this woman.

… But then the nightmare began.

Not long ago Father and mother argue almost every day. Dad is an unreasonable person when he loses consciousness due to alcohol. And mother had to bear it all. I once asked my mother if she could bear it. Can you bear having to bear pressure that you did not create? Can you endure having your father beat you every day?

Mom smiled half-cried and told me it was okay. If mother doesn't come pick me up instead. The next person will probably be me. And this mother of mine is a shield that protects me from family divisions.

And finally, the shield was broken.

Since that day, I have never been able to forgive myself. I tried every means to escape the old images. that haunts Picture of mother collapsing on the ground Picture of father hitting mother until she passed out From sleeping pills that didn't seem to help at all, it escalated to nightlife. Venting out your sorrows at an entertainment venue with a crowd of strangers

Even though those people may not be as good or uneducated as other people. But I swear that none of those people would ever kill my mother like my father did.

I slowly sank into the ocean in the darkness.

Until I found the light It's too late The doctor told me I had AIDS and would be dying within three months.

The only thing I could think of at that moment was going back in time to change the past. A past that was caused by a fleeting mistake. The past that has shattered my future into dust I never thought I would see myself in this condition. Even if it happened, it would be too fast. Three months is a short time. Just breathe in and exhale and it's all gone.

The branch walked in and told me to stay in the present and leave the past to end there.

The Faculty of Medicine building remains the same and has not changed. The nine floors were full of students walking around the faculty. Balcony where students and teachers can walk out to enjoy the fresh air and the cold breeze passing by. Looking down from the balcony, you will find Soi Suwanna flowers that usually bloom at the end of the rainy season and beginning of winter.

But now it was beginning to wither away from the unbearable cold. I feel cold Every molecule of my body is cold.

Winter is like a mirage that stops time with its coldness. But in reality Three months is still about ninety days. It hasn't gotten any longer at all.

Three months…only three months

I lay down on the ground in the middle of the field in the dark. And tell myself that this night is still long The sound of cicadas that echoed from time to time hid many truths within. Normally, the cicada's life cycle is the most brutal to ever appear. As larvae, they burrow underground for a very long time.

They waited for the day they could open their eyes to the wider world. However, their life above ground ended after only a few weeks.

But I believe that those few weeks above the surface of the earth are the best time of their lives.

In the midst of darkness, cold, and a heart that is about to give up. I know that day is coming. The day I won't have anyone left. I looked to the horizon and saw Venus twinkling brightly. Shining light without thinking of the surrounding darkness as an obstacle. The branch hugged me and we both fell asleep under the big sky.

Since that night I understood the short sentence. that the branch is trying to tell me

Everything ends happily.

My life is comparable. evening sun that is about to disappear from the horizon Welcoming sleep and darkness on February 14, 2011, an ordinary twenty-year-old woman who once had everything. I lost everything and was never able to return from AIDS. But the most important thing is the word love.

That's the last thing the branch told me. And I just realized that this whole thing was just a nightmare.

Winter can be a quiet season. Lonely for many people One person may be hopeless to continue living. Meanwhile, another person may have hope, but it's already too late. The two people's lives were completely different. As different as heaven and earth But what is always true for those two is No matter what season Any month evening sun It will shine again the next day.

Before I die I look at myself in the mirror and found that King's smile remained the same and had not changed.

 irreplacable ...