SF ..

Ashamed

Kibum & Donghae

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SF ..

Ashamed

Have you ever felt it? That many times we fall There will be someone who will offer a warm hand. But we brushed that hand away without a trace and got up and continued walking. Until one day when there isn't that person who is there to reach out and hold my hand to get me up again. It makes us feel like in the past we neglected 'him' too much until it was too late.

“Hot porridge has arrived. ”

A soft voice sounded in the wide dining room. A thick hand lifted a bowl of rice porridge from which hot steam continued to evaporate. A delicious aroma pervaded the room. A small figure in a white t-shirt and light brown jeans sits and dials a mobile phone for fun.

“Dong, come eat porridge first. It's getting really hot. If it's cold, it won't taste good.”

The tall man moved his chair to sit on the opposite side and picked up a spoon and placed it on the cloth next to him. before grabbing the silver video camera that was on the dining room table and recording the little person cheerfully. But the figure in front of him didn't show any interest in the porridge or even his video camera.

Blue eyes looked up and looked displeased at the tall figure. Some hands put down the phone and reached out to swipe away from the camera. The tall figure's expression was clearly not amused by the action.

“Don't take pictures, get the camera away from Dong's face right now, Kim Kibum!!” The little one scolded.

"Dong is cute. I want to take a photo and keep it as a memory."

The tall figure smiled with adorable cheeks puffing out. But it was worthless in Donghae's eyes at all. The small figure stood up and looked at the tall figure seriously.

“I told you not to take pictures. Don't you know what you're talking about? Huh?!!”

A hand knocked over a bowl of rice porridge and it fell onto the tile floor. Broken rice porridge and pieces of broken porcelain were scattered on the floor. Kibum looked at the small figure with an aching heart. A heavy hand stopped the recording and went to pick up a cloth to wipe and pick up the broken tiles.

“I apologize for making Don unhappy. From now on, I won't bother Don again.”

Kibum's pained eyes made Donghae feel extremely guilty for what he had done just moments before. Even though Donghae didn't say anything, his heart was full of words of apologies. Kibum didn't say another word before walking into the room with his video camera.

“I'm sorry, Kibum..” The soft murmur of the thin figure could not be heard by the tall figure.

2 hrs later

Kibum, dressed in a blue shirt and black pants, steps out of the bedroom. In the cell phone, the same video camera came out again, not feeling scared about the events of two hours ago. His eyes swept around the room looking for Donghae, but he couldn't find the figure. A tall figure walked towards the blue sofa. A smile spread across his handsome face.

A sweet, gentle face with both cheeks naturally pink. Her lips are as thin as the first rose petals to bloom. It was recorded on a neat silver video camera.

“Dong is cute like this. That's why I kept Don in my memory."

His hands gently supported the small man's head on the yellow pillow he bought as a birthday present for Donghae. and caressed that sweet face lovingly, but then..

“Just a..just a little.”

Kibum raised his hand to cover his coughing lips. He could feel the warmth of some liquid. before slowly glancing at it Black eyes widened in shock as they saw the bright red liquid.

“Hey! You can't be anything now, Kim Kibum. If you are anything, who will take care of Donghae?”

The tall figure looked at the red liquid in dismay. He always knew what disease he had. A disease that makes the time he has left on this planet less and less every second.

1:30 a.m.

A small figure slowly walked into the house after sneaking away from Kibum to go to a pub at night. Then turned on the light in the kitchen, which was in a very disheveled condition because of an argument with a group of female coyotes in the pub. Small's body drank quite a lot, causing the smell of alcohol to permeate the air.

“Dong, where have you been? Why..”

The tall figure who saw Donghae's physical condition hurried towards the small, slender face in dismay. The bruises that appeared on that pretty face It almost broke his heart.

“Dong, why is Dong's face so bruised? Who did something stupid?”

“There was a problem with Kobota in the pub. Kibum, you don't have to worry.” Donghae slapped Kibum's hand away before standing with his arms crossed over his chest with a neutral expression.

“How can you not be worried? Look, it's all wet. I'll dress your wound. Don, please sit here first.”

Kibum supported Donghae's body and sat him down on the sofa. before getting up to pick up first aid tools and opened the bundle A strong hand picked up a piece of cotton and slowly dipped it into the alcohol bottle, then carefully held the piece of cotton and pressed it down to the corner of his bruised lips. But he accidentally pressed a little too hard. causing Donghae to shout in an upset mood

“Oh!! Please take it easy, this is a person, not a buffalo!”

Donghae emphasizes the word buffalo, hitting Kibum's ear. His face became darker. A thick hand placed the cotton ball on the table and turned to face the window. Warm lips began to move.

" yes ! I'm a buffalo. A buffalo who falls in love with Dong! ” The young man said.

Donghae turned to look at the figure next to him, unable to believe his ears. A guilty expression appeared on his face that the tall figure couldn't see again as usual. Several days later, Kibum had strange symptoms. Both can't sleep Coughing out blood, Donghae never noticed.

“ Just a.. just a .”

Some figures saw the tall figure lying on the bed coughing and hurried over to check on his uneasiness. As soon as he saw the bright blood, Donghae was so shocked that his heart clenched. A thin hand slowly lifted his body up and hugged him tightly.

“Kibum coughed up blood. What's wrong, Kibum?”

1 week later at the hospital

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Drops of saline slowly flow into a plastic bag. The tall figure was fast asleep on the bed with a ventilator on his pale face. Donghae stood and listened to the doctor anxiously.

“Doctor, how is my friend?”

“Uh...your friend. I am sick with cancer in the last stage. The doctor thinks he has no more than 3 hours to live. I'm sorry, doctor. But the doctor thinks that in the remaining time you should make him as happy as possible.”

Just hearing that Kibum was suffering from a serious illness. Donghae felt numb all over. It was as if everything was falling apart and there was nothing left. The small figure walked into the room and sat down next to the tall figure. Before tears burst forth in heart-wrenching pain

“Kibum won't abandon Dong, right? Huh..huh.” Some people held a thick hand tightly and fell face down on the bed that was starting to get soaked with tears.

Thick eyelids slowly opened, revealing deep black eyes. He looked around the room before he caught sight of a small figure in a yellow code shirt lying on his head and crying.

“Dong, why are you crying? It's just a..just a joke.”

Kibum reached out with the thick hand that was being held and wiped away the tear stains on his smooth cheek and held the thin hand weakly. Donghae saw Kibum open his eyes and rushed to hug the tall figure with love overflowing in his heart.

“The doctor said that Kibum I can't last more than another 3 hours. It's not true, is it Kibum? Kibum won't abandon Dong, right? In the past, Dong apologized. Huh..Oh, Dong apologized for being a stupid, spoiled person that hurt Kibum.”

The young man's pale expression became sad. He couldn't fight beside Donghae anymore. His body was too weak to do that. Even though his heart never thought of stopping to take care of Lee Donghae.

“I have never been angry at Don. Don't cry, sweetheart. Don, remember that, Kim. Kibum will always be by Lee Donghae's side forever. Just..just."

The tall man coughed a couple of times. He lifted himself to a sitting position and wrapped the little man in a warm embrace. Soft lips sat on thin lips for a long time. His first and last kiss would be given to Lee. Donghae alone

“Don loves Kibum!”

Donghae said as he hugged Kibum tighter than before. The tall figure leaned his head down slightly and whispered softly into the thin figure's ear.

“I ra.. just ka ka ka ”

The tall figure lay down on the bed in physical agony. But his lips still tried to utter that sentence for some of his body to understand.

“Kibum, take care of yourself, Dong will go see the doctor.”

The small figure rose from the chair but was held back by a strong hand. Donghae turned to look at his lover in distress. and walked towards Kibum frightenedly

“I love Dong, and no one can replace Dong in my heart.”

“Um, Dong will love only Kibum forever. But now Don must go see the doctor first. Kibum, please take care of yourself. Wait for Don to come back."

The small edges of his eyes were filled with tears before the clear liquid trickled down his cheeks again. The tall figure nodded slowly and smiled at the fragile figure. After only three steps, everything ended when the heart rate monitor sounded.

'Tiddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd...'

Time stops there. Everything stopped The world stopped turning the moment Donghae's lover left. The little heart that was shattered sank along with the small body.

' There is no longer anyone who cares. There are no more people who make delicious food to eat. There is no longer anyone beside me. ...No more, Kim. Kibum, the man who will stand beside Donghae'

If that day I was smart enough to care about the feelings of the people who love me and want the best for me...I wouldn't have to sit and shed tears and say 'sorry' when I don't have them in this world. And then 'Kibum Dong is sorry'

THE END