“How will I live without you?” the love words that a famous movie actress moans to a young hero who is lying on her lap in anguish. No matter how hard she tried to call out to him, he would never be able to regain his breath. Tears flowed down one after another, as if to protest the anguish in the heart that was shattered into dust by the loss of a loved one.

I looked away from the 42-inch TV screen and looked at the person next to me lying on the king-sized bed with eyes full of questions. The words from a famous love story from just a moment ago still lingered in my mind: “How will I live without you?” Those words a moment ago caused me to question my heart with curiosity. And when a question arises in your mind, you can't help but blurt it out and ask as your heart desires.

“How will the app survive without you?” I asked the person next to me as I thought. Since time immemorial, this question has never occurred to me. I never thought that I would not be without anyone in this life. If someone else steps in and occupies space in your heart, it changes everything.

“What are you thinking about?” P'Nat turned to look at me with a confused look on his face.

“Well, I'm just wondering if one day the app will survive without you,” I said as I felt. Can't really imagine That if one day I had to go back to living alone like before, how would I live? When another person becomes a part of life, something that is like the heart and all of love.

If you have to be without the person you love So how can you have a happy life?

“The app is still the same as it was before,” P'Nont answered me with a soft smile on his face.

“If the app never had a partner in the past, it would probably still exist. But now this time the app has siblings together.

The app has come to love you. But if one day the app has to lose you. So what will the app do? Just imagine that one day in the future I won't have a good time. Like this again in life Just thinking about it, my heart felt so broken that I could hardly stand it.

“Why are you suddenly thinking like this?” Brother Nont moved to sit up straight, turning to face each other and staring deeply into his eyes, searching for the answer.

"App is just afraid that one day it will lose you. App is afraid," I said, my voice shaking with worry. Can't know How much time we still have left together and the uncertainty of the future terrifies me.

“You think too much, little one.” A loving smile rose from Brother Nont's deeply wavy lips. A slender hand reached out and stroked my hair soothingly.

“And if one day the app doesn't exist, will you be sad?” I asked the person in front of me out of curiosity, knowing exactly how much I love the other person and she knows that straight people How important is face in your life?

“I'm sorry,” he replied in a casual manner. With a slight smile

“And how will you live?”

“I will probably live my life the same way. Everything is the same.” The person in front of him still answered in a casual manner. There aren't any concerns. When he saw the innocent expression of the person in front of him, he couldn't help but feel a little sad. You really aren't important enough to make another person sad without you.

“P'Noth doesn't seem sad or distressed at all.” I began to change into a child who was ready to cry out loud. A pair of sharp eyes looked at the other person with displeasure.

“Then what do you want me to do? Crying all the time? Or will you have to keep quiet and not do anything, not eat or sleep? If you're like that, the app will be happy, right?"

“…” No answer came out of his mouth. I kept quiet and lowered my head.

“Will App be happy that you let App's love completely destroy your life?”

“Will the app be happy if the app is the cause of your unhappiness?”

“No, right? App wouldn't be happy if you had to be like that. That's why you're the same.” I continued to speak even though the other party kept quiet.

“App, listen to me,” I lifted the rounded chin of the other person, who had his head down in distress, up to make direct eye contact.

“If we have to give up our dreams, give up everything just to have each other. If we were to be side by side with each other then the app would have to leave everything for you. And what good is it all if the app's outpouring of love hurts the app itself? I'm not happy. I don't want this.

We can love each other, but the app must not let our love destroy the life of the app. If one day our love won't last,” I said slowly, using a gentle tone so that the other person could absorb all the words into his heart.

“It's not that I don't love the app. I won't be sad if I have to live without the app. But if there really will be that day No matter who it is, you or the app. We probably won't be able to avoid it. No matter how sad you are, no one will be able to fix it. All we can do is accept it and learn to live with it,” I continued. while the other person still sat silently staring at me.

I reached out and held her slender hand. while making a gentle voice

“I don't know how much longer the time we have together will last. I don't know when we'll be apart. But no matter what, one day we will have to part. Whether in life or death I'm not forbidding that the app must not be sad. It's not forbidden to cry if the app is painful.

But I want the app to be strong and ready to face it. The app must get through this. Your app has to survive no matter how bad things get. The app has to get through it. I'm sure of that.” I smiled widely at the other person with confidence. I don't know how much time is left between us.

But if there's ever a day that I'm not here Not as a lover of the app I just hope that the app is strong and mature enough to get through all its problems without me by its side.

“P'Nont,” my name was softly spoken on his thin lips, those sharp, beautiful eyes overflowing with tears.

I looked into those eyes with seriousness and my lips moved to express my feelings to others.

“Because I don't know how long our words will last. I don't want to promise that you will always be by the app's side. Because I know that I wouldn't be able to do that, but right now, at this time, I'm still here. I'm still with the app. Every minute I have, I use it to love the app. I never thought that tomorrow there would still be the word us.

I never thought of anything more than that I would love and care for the app as best I could through each day. Just today we love each other, that's enough, isn't it?”

“I'm sorry,” the person in front of me raised his bloodshot eyes to make eye contact. Some of his lips opened in a trembling voice.

I smiled a little, feeling some affection for another person's pettiness. If no matter how many times the app yells or acts childishly, Crying and unwilling to understand simple things. I am always ready to calmly explain my reasons. Even though the app may be spoiled and childish, If it's all because you love me so much, isn't it?

So I chose to be calm, chose to understand, and slowly We slowly adjusted our understanding. To preserve each other's feelings so that neither party will be hurt because of bad words.

“It's okay, good person.” I pulled someone into an embrace and gently stroked the other person's hair in a soothing way, conveying warmth that would penetrate deep into the heart of a touchy person. The thin shoulders in the embrace trembled a little. Many tears fell together, soaking the sleeves of my shirt.

I slowly pushed out the body in my embrace. Sharp, beautiful eyes, red and bruised, the tip of a nose red, like someone who had just recently cried. I smiled fondly at the picture in front of me. I couldn't help but reach out and shake the tip of my red nose. that with love

“You don't have to think about what tomorrow will be like. Just for today, just know that I'm still here with the app and not going anywhere,” I said firmly, reaching out to brush a strand of hair that had fallen to hide my pretty face and tucked behind my ear.

The person in front of him pursed his lips and nodded quickly. as a response I held that body in my embrace again with love that overflowed my heart until I couldn't contain it. So he moved his lips to his ear and whispered the words that were most relevant to his heart at this time.

“I love you,” words of love that I don't often say. If I'm really feeling like this right now If you don't open your mouth and speak I didn't know that my heart would explode because the love I had was definitely overflowing.

“I love the app,” I kept saying the same words. Once again, ready to tighten the embrace even more tightly than before. Let the heart touch the heart, let the love penetrate deep. Let the words of love stick Even though I can't know what the future holds. Will there still be the word us? Can't know how much longer the time we have will last.

If the only thing I know and am sure of is that today, right now, this heart is only for you. For you alone, Apple, who is like my heart...

Sitting alone and lonely last night. The question of this story is the word

How will I live without you? I think my brain almost explodes haha.

So I sat and thought. There's a fic where Natapp still doesn't love each other and then comes to love each other.

But we still don't have love for each other. So I thought of something a little unconventional.

This fic came from not being able to sleep so I had some free time. So I don't know what emotion came out.

I don't know if we'll like each other or not. Because I always come in dizzy, haha.

I don't know what to complain about. I forgot everything I thought about -..-

Anyway, thank you to everyone who is still waiting and still following to this day.

Every fic that has existed will not happen at all. Without all of you Great encouragement : )