December 5th of every year A young man named Non still has to face loneliness after his father bought him a ticket to visit the heavenly land, and it's been ten years since he still hasn't found his way home......

In father's secret room

A Japanese sedan of a few hundred thousand, white, semi-old, semi-new, was driving along the gravel road. Amidst the rice fields and overgrown grass on both sides of the driver's side was a young man named "Non" in a white V-neck shirt. Turn your eyes to look at the picture. A middle-aged man returned to a little child. About one year old That child is him "Boy Non"

Almost 30 years since I was born from my mother's womb, I have competed for other people's air to survive for my own survival. It's a life style that... Damn! Full experience "from father"

The morning sunlight hits the ground and smells of dirt. Evaporates in the rice fields.

The ears had just emerged and were golden. A breeze was blowing the air in the middle of the rice field. Let the body experience

Regarding the purity of the fields, seeing the traditions of the people of the rice fields that is heading in the opposite direction Looking from a distance, you can't tell that there's a procession of some kind. Ordination or wedding ceremony. There are dancers leading the procession, accompanied by a brass band. As the vehicles turn their wheels and move in until they begin to approach the procession, this procession can be clearly seen. “Young man in white clothes” has a bald head.”

You can guess that it's the groom's happy face. Take the procession to the bride's house. Non left his hometown for a month. The car was being forced closer and closer to the local community. Even though this community is not that far from Bangkok. It can be compared to neighboring houses.

This land used to be a lush rice field. Over the years, this land has been transformed into a similar type of residence. Built to allocate housing to those interested at the price posted on the sign. The appearance of the house is colorful and eye-catching. He forced a few hundred thousand Japanese sedans. Turn into a small alley with tall grass growing on both sides.

Non, a young man who is the current owner of several rai of this land. He was forcing the car to stop under the Malabar tree in front of the old wooden house. Where I used to live and grow up and stayed in this house alone until graduating from university. Non's father passed away, never to return, before he could finish his degree. His father sacrificed, donated his breath to nature.

There will be no father in this world. Travel to breathe anymore This wooden house was well taken care of by the neighbors during the time. A young man must travel out of here to find himself by allowing the descendants of Aunt Pen who lives with him. A young man until his father's last moments lived in this house while he had to work in Bangkok

Non stepped out of the car and was greeted by Ai Daeng and Ai Makham, the dogs he raised. They ran out from under the house and sat and stood waiting for him, wagging their tails, waiting for him to open the car door. Tamarind male dog The young man asked a street vendor at Saphan Khwai Market to support him. Since I was not yet breastfeeding from my mother.

Tamarind, a male dog, was acting suspiciously. It raised its left hind leg. Then release liquid waste from the body through the sewer pipe and put it in a Goodyear brand car tire.

jump and scramble Swirling around him, Ai Makham let out a long, happy yawn. But what's missing is where did the spotted guy go? The spotted guy is a dog that measures the gender of young men's females. Ask Luangta to take care of you. By now she must be a full-fledged girl. young man calls out His dog's name is ..come..come..monkey. There was no barking or howling response at all. He was surprised.

The sunlight shines through the fence that shows off the branches and leaves at the edge of the fence. He opened the trunk of his car, which was cluttered with stuff. Picking up a large sack of dog food was difficult because Non did not have enough strength to lift this sack easily with his own two hands. He bought this sack of dog food from an animal feed store in Don Mueang area. He was carried by two large children into his vehicle.

Non used a wooden cart to help him lift the large sack to the last step of the house until reinforcements came to help carry it up to the house.

Non prepared three plastic basins in three colors with the hope that The spotted one will come back to eat the food cooked by its owner. Nonthee's favorite food for these three dogs is probably their special menu. Rice mixed with fried chicken that was prepared for friends who are life partners. When they poured the rice mixed with fried chicken At the shop there is a sign for delicious dipping sauce.

Pour into red and green basins. Of the red guy and the tamarind guy Under the chicken coop there was a living creature trying to reveal itself. It is the figure of a female temple dog running. It came with three of its puppies. It ran and shook its hips and walked to the white-leafed basin. When it was enough, poured rice for the three dogs. Two of the temple dogs lost.

The puppy probably has the blood of a temple dog and is not a true temple dog. Non stood and watched Ai Makham and Ai Daeng, who came first, and his father was also involved. “We have to help take care of it.” Non moved his legs and walked over to sit on the bottom step next to a large sack of dog food. which was carried with difficulty Looking at eye level in front of him, he vaguely imagined it.”

There was a long row of chairs under that palm tree.” This long row of chairs used to be occupied by an old man who wore glasses and sat and read a book. There was a tamarind lying on his back under the chair.

Behind the chair is a one-story wooden hut. Surrounding the hut are many types of orchids. On the roof beam is a right dove cage.

This hut Non's father built with his own hands. At that time, I remember Non not having the strength to help his father in any way, but he stubbornly tried. Because I wanted to help my father so that he could feel some relief, but he was “scolded” to the point that water came out of his tear glands. So I had to swallow back my tears and let my father build this hut haphazardly.

until father built it completely inside It is decorated with a permanent bookshelf made of teak and rubber wood. Non got up from his previous position and walked all the way to the wooden door. that cannot be pushed open or pulled open He slid the door through. The flowing grooves that Dad had carefully made still flowed well no matter how much time had passed. I admit that Dad was skilled enough.

in assembling and creating workpieces Each type is designed differently. It varies according to the nature of the father's thoughts.

Non, a young man who always walked into the door of his father's secret room. Ten years of never having set foot in this room, but today, "December 5th," from being tired all the time. Many years ago He slid open the wooden door and slowly flowed through his father's wooden slit. Slide until the climax Inside, every item was placed in its original place. There were traces of dust that had clung to every item in this room.

Non moved his right leg to step over the smooth flowing groove. into father's secret room The dirt inside was initially removed by sweeping it outside of this secret room. Old things that had been locked up for decades were still in the same place. Dad's old coffee mug still sits on his desk.

This room was decorated with Stories of memories and strange paintings framed well. “His first painting,” I think back. As a child, Non drew prize-winning paintings. And many items related to him are clustered in this secret room.”

The picture of his father holding a baby” was taken on black and white film. A father and a young boy, Non, sit under a wa tree in front of this wooden hut. Next is a picture of a kindergarten student wearing red pants with four buttons, standing straight and neat, taken at the dark tree in front of the school. Everything is what a father tries to create from the love he has for his child. "Like Khao Chai Non"

This old wooden room was built by his father as a secret room where he took his heart and kept it for many years before giving it back life and breath to nature. In this room, there are still old textbooks that Father kept as medicine for treating symptoms. Stress temporarily takes over the brain. This disease is my father's disease.

Inside, the textbooks that Father had kept were still arranged in an orderly manner. Non brought an old rag. He rubbed it on the table and chair in his father's secret room. The items on the table were kept in their original place and not moved anywhere. It was in the same place and Father's fingerprints could be seen on each item in this room.

Non cleans everything that is on the table. Wipe with the same cloth. He looked around in his father's secret room. When he was tired from work and stressed to the point of having a headache, Dad would come and sit here for several hours to recover and then walk out of this room with a bright face. Non was sure that there must be something special and mysterious hidden in this room, so he looked over and saw a book with outstanding features and eye-catching colors placed on the last shelf.

It was paired with his birth certificate that had been carefully framed. The black book that father recorded the legends in is here. The young man could clearly see that the side of the note was written in special ink: “Father's note.”

Non kept his eyes focused and could see clearly with both naked eyes and was kept on the top floor, so it could be considered that “It's Dad's top secret.” Non tried to climb up to the top shelf to get his dad's top secret journal. that Father had openly hidden in the last layer He tried many times and was hurt every time because his father made him physically shorter than anyone else, causing him to be called "short guy" among his friends.

The young man was surprised because now his body and his father's were not that far apart in height, so why was his father climbing up to arrange it? Books and things in an orderly square inch

Non seriously thought about it. Father has completed the "advanced light body" or "magic" ability to make things move. until he had no doubts anymore when both eyes flicked to see The stairs were small but long enough for his father. Going to pick up things that are on Top shelf easily

A folding leg ladder that Non's father used to climb to reach the books on the top shelf. “Over and over again.” He bent over and lifted the ladder so that the legs were folded under an old wooden cabinet. The cabinet was full of tools and tools for repairing various equipment in this hut. He held onto the slender stairs. Spread your legs wide enough to support his entire body weight.

He spread it out like his father had always done with stairs. He didn't have to try very hard, he stepped on three steps and reached the top.

Non reached out and picked up his father's notebook. Without wasting much effort, he picked up his father's mysterious notebook. I really want to know what's inside. What is written in it? his damn hand He couldn't quite hold his father's notebook in his palm.

“Non accidentally dropped his father's diary on the floor,” causing the fragments to scatter in different directions. He kept the elements of his father's diary inside, which had never been seen before, so no one knew that this room was his father's secret place.

Non began to walk around this hut collecting pieces from one place to another. He picked up every piece that fell on the ground and put it in a box on his father's medicine mixing table. How many years have passed? There was still a little of Dad's junkie left in the ashtray. The piece of paper was blue and white, and it was separated from the Separatists far away.

From Father's diary on the floor alone Small sheet of blue and white paper I bent down and picked up the piece of paper and attached it to the cover of my father's notebook. Contents of the paper handwritten Full lines of letters too. The skills of a young man in childhood Letters may not be clearly seen as before, appearing faded.

But enough to read and understand. It is clear from the sentences that he inscribed. On that small piece of paper when I was young, it read, "Dad, I will be a good kid."

Non couldn't remember when he had written this mysterious letter, nor could he know the exact time, but he could guess that it had been many decades ago. He must have been about nine years old at the time. Because during that time he had not yet made his letters smaller with his own hands. The young man vaguely remembered that one day in B.E.

He was so tired of his father that he couldn't find any excuses because the more he made excuses, the more muddy the water became. In his childhood at that time Non travels to the lake. One place, several kilometers from the village, is a lake. It is said that there are many living creatures and clear emerald colored water. That day he went to catch this kind of aquatic animal.

There are colorful bubbles under the grass. That day, Boy Non stole Dad's bucket was used to catch this type of aquatic animal. Boy Non and Boy Mod Riding our bikes one by one, we tried to reach our destination before encountering many people who had come to. Catching this kind of aquatic animal, we are going slow. All the good and beautiful ones were taken away. Ugly for us

Non rides quickly or the sun will be hot and he'll all die.

Boy Mod has been waiting for the boy since morning. He hasn't washed his teeth or brushed his face yet. Come and wait for him in front of the house when you're done. He ran away from home without a trace so that the boy Non's father could follow the trail and find him.

The journey was nearly half an hour on a dirt road on the wheels of Boy Non and Boy Nok's bicycles. Still crushing the road until it was almost to the temple where novices had come to ordain during the summer break.

Are you almost there yet? Boy Non asked curiously because he was already far from the village.

Still a little too far to go.. Boy Nok replied in a breathless voice.. haha.

Both still ride bicycles. Passing in front of the temple amidst the sounds of temple dogs barking and gazing at their reproductive organs. Less than fifteen minutes had passed and they reached a large lake. The water was probably deep enough to swallow an entire house. And in this lake, it really is the color of emerald, as people have told others. Emerald green water You can see the ground and schools of small fish swimming around in this lake.

Boy Nok had the car parked in a reed forest near a rice field and covered it with straw so that no one would see it.

Is there something like this in the water? Oh, Nok. Boy Non raised his voice. Clear green water in the lake This emerald color

You don't know anything. Non, bring the bucket. It's hidden in here, in the grass.

Boy Non complies with all Boy Nok's conditions. Walking with a bottle of liquor from the famous brand Mekong, following the boy Nok, his friend, who was leading the way, bent down and parted the grass and placed a bucket in front of him. Scrapping through the grass to find creatures hiding in the lake, the bird boy walked easily on the edge of the lake. with expertise

Know where is deep and where is shallow.

bird boy stops Put the bucket in front of you again. Then use both feet to pound the grass several times. Snap! Snap! Don't miss it this time. There was a movement of creatures rushing into the bucket. red-green body The bird boy told him to put the water from the Emerald Lake in a bottle and put the hunted creature in the bottle.

Place two at a time until the bottle is crowded with beautiful colorful “wild fighting fish” that live in this lake. Filled with bottles that used to be filled with alcoholic beverages. but didn't make it The creature in the bottle was not at all intoxicated. “He had fun with the bird boy.”

Until I forgot to think, "I missed my father for a moment." By now, Father must have been searching for Khao Non all over the village and was sure that he couldn't find him. Because if Father came here, Father would probably see him and Boy Non would probably have to follow Father home. Time passed until the sun was directly overhead. Hurry and ride your bicycle at a faster speed than normal. After turning the car into the village

Little bird, your mother is looking for you.

I felt relieved because the villagers called him Nok Boy. We took a break. Drink at the pier It was here that he learned that Father was looking for Boy Non. I heard it from Aunt Pen, a vendor selling the most delicious boat noodles in this area.

Non, my son, our father is looking for us. I just went back into the house for a moment.

Yes, Auntie. Boy Non answered in a trembling voice because when he went home, his father would probably be waiting with a rod that he made from bamboo.

Nok Boy didn't wait. Pour the fish into a bowl and put it in a separate bottle.

Then handed the bowl to Boy Non.

Here, I gave it all myself. I must have been slapped on the butt by my mother.

And what will happen to Non? He's just thinking and can't imagine what kind of action his father will have to take. I don't want to think about what must happen. When Mr. Non rode his bike home with a bottle of wild fighting fish in his hand, he turned into the house and the atmosphere was eerie. Quiet..lonely.. When I parked the car under the house, I took the "wild fighting fish".

The catch has already been put in a bottle. He washed his feet at the square foot basin before slowly walking up the steps of the house. Dad was watching TV, watching a drama about the building collapsing. Father sat and watched, not paying attention to the surroundings, including Boy Non. At that time he was confused with his father. What happened to Dad acting like he didn't exist?

He tried to walk through the swirling sight until it gave him a headache. Father still didn't care about him at all. At that time, I thought that he ran away. There must be a mystery at that lake. “So Dad didn't see him in my sight.” Boy Non walked around in circles, which was annoying. “Did you see me?” Dad didn't see or hear what he was saying. He continued to watch TV as usual. He was so quiet that it was shocking.

Until he walked into a private room to look in the mirror at his reflection. Father's voice followed him. The words that came directly hit both of my ears. "Wherever you go, don't you think there's someone who's worried about you?"

Dad wasn't mute, I couldn't see him from the beginning. Boy Non wanted to talk to his father that day but couldn't, letting time pass so long that there was no way to go back and fix it because time had traveled until his father had already left him.

At that time, fear overtook Non. The word went out. Fear was taking over his mind, making him weak and unable to confess to his father this "wrong" act until the time had passed and it was too late. A young man wants to penetrate the dimension of time and cross over to fix it. His actions that day, the first and only thing Boy Non would do in front of his father was, “Father, I'm sorry.”

All the time alternating between sitting and standing breathing in my father's secret room, I felt that He was exposed to dust mixed in the air. So he moved himself up to the two windows. These two windows are unique and cannot be seen anywhere else. It was a window decorated with curtains that Dad made from coffee straws.

They are woven together into a spiral, colorful and beautiful, and there are paintings by Nont in beautiful frames next to these two windows. Line drawing of a rainbow There are seven colors of the same rainbow that forms the arch bridge. It is the rainbow in Boy Non's imagination.

His father once said, “One day you will see a strange phenomenon of nature.”

The young man opened the two windows and the first thing he saw was the nature his father had created for him. “Large Parichat Tree” beside the pond surrounded by herbs in four directions In just a few years, this Parijata tree was bigger than a person's size. It was both tall and large. Dad said that people born on Friday Must plant Parichat tree to decorate the prestige

What date was that day? Dad went to buy a tree to plant this tree. Since his childhood Until now it has grown so big that I can't even imagine it. Many ranges taller than him. It is the first and only thing that Father created for Non and continues to grow and grow without end. “Dad is always with him.”

Non was still sitting in his father's secret room alone, his hand touching his father's notebook, he stood up and considered it before turning to the next page, not wanting his father's notebook to feel like Left alone again Because he still needed this notebook. The same chair is still waiting expectantly for his return.

When will Non return to his old chair? This father's diary is a story told by Non, a young man who was the only son of both fathers. The story in his father's diary was turned to the next page, which was filled with mysterious stories of his father's diaries and never appeared

He had seen it somewhere before and he himself didn't know before. Father's journal slowly opened. You can see the entire middle of the page. The content of this page that Father also wrote. The blue ballpoint pen remains unchanged and remains as clear as ever even after decades have passed. Father's handwriting

It is inscribed in Thai letters in italicized handwriting, some words are not quite accurate. If you can't read it, you have to pass it by without looking. The left corner of the paper that I saw and remembered vividly. is the sentence that father wrote to Non

“I will raise my child as best I can.” His tear glands were correct. “Hit with a hard object” until the corners of the eyes became red and tears slowly flowed out in the crevices of the face first. The tears were absorbed by the softness of the white handkerchief that the young man bought. Coming from Pratunam Market, drying my own tears The water in his eyes that burst from the broken water barrier continued to flow until the tears overflowed.

It flowed into his mouth until he immediately knew it was salty. The water beneath his broken eyes flowed through the cracks of the young man's face.

Father's diary has been changed to another page in On this page we saw the nakedness of a child who was undressed and not ashamed of heaven or earth. “The picture of Boy Non crawling is in the area of ​​the floorboard.” Boy Non is smiling and crawling with purpose.

The young man's smile revealed cracks on his face that resembled the paw prints of a crow. He stepped on his face and lost it in several places.

His father wrote in Thai characters. It had father's unique handwriting, which was in slanted letters with the message, "It's your birthday, dear child." As I remember, my father bought me a robot. His father had something special that other children's fathers didn't have.

Non's father is both father and mother in the same body. He was born and had never seen his mother's face. His father hid his mother's body so completely that no one knew where his mother had gone. "But Boy Non knows." His mother isn't going anywhere. Has resided in his father's body since He was born and remembers his mother and is now in his father's body every day. He is extremely happy because there is something special about him that is "

Mother lives in father's body.” To this day, I still think that mother has already left with father because when father stopped breathing, Mom will stop breathing along with Dad all this time. Father did his duty and received an outstanding shield from Boy Non. It makes Boy Non feel like he has everything. He looks better than others who have father and mother in the same body.

When Non thinks of his father, he also thinks of his mother. "Father is truly the provider of Nont's boy."

A summer breeze blew through two windows and hit the body of Non, a young man sitting in his father's mysterious room. The summer breeze blows Until the piece of paper was hidden in his father's notebook. It fell out of the book and fell to the ground. The young man bent down to pick it up, curious. It's a white piece of cardboard. It was written that “Father and son, we love each other.”

When I turned over that piece of paper, It is a picture of Boy Non taken with his father in front of this room. He was still a mischievous child back then. The young man placed the picture in his hand on his father's desk. Place it at eye level where it can be clearly seen. Father's diary was also opened again. Until Non stopped breathing for a moment when the young man read his father's writings.

A sentence like lightning struck his heart hard. “I am disappointed in you.” The message on this page is as if the father is disappointed in his actions.

“The grave mistake of a man named Anon.”

“Do you know how worried I am about you?” It had been nearly two weeks since Dad hadn't seen me. Father has been waiting in the same place and counting the days, but there is still no sign that the child will return. Father's symptoms of disappointment began to increase. “I have been waiting for you for so long, where are you?” The father was both disappointed and worried. If his son doesn't come home, will he have enough to eat?

I'm sitting here in this chair writing this book. The father has been in this room since that day when “the son was away.” How many days has it been since his beloved son hasn't returned? Or is it the thoughts of a young man? At that time, there was no father for a while. Father would complain about him. "Don't you miss your father at all?" The father still sits and watches, waiting for the day his son will return.

The father prepared food that the child liked every day. "The father was afraid" that if the child came back any day he would not be able to eat his fill. Get up so you can eat the food that father made for you. “Father sat and waited,” until he “couldn't eat enough to eat for a day.” Father never worried about himself. The father is only worried about the child. The young man thought at that time, why did we weigh our “ungrateful children” so much! The levity of youth without thinking about it

When a father waits for the return of his son who never misses the heart of his beloved, "Non, the young man admits that he forgot his father at that time." Every meal is prepared by his father, but he does not eat his father's food. My father was afraid that if he ate all the delicious food and he came back, "I would be hungry." So he chose not to take anything into his body.

Because I was afraid that my child would not have anything to eat but the child had not yet come home that day. The father threw out all the old food or gave the red man and the tamarind man to eat instead of the child. And the father cooks new food for every meal. Each meal is delicious and suitable for the child's taste. Dad can endure everything. To wait for the child to come back and eat the food that the father cooked.

Father waits for you every day and every day, waiting for the day when you will come back to eat with me. Father must eat rice and fish sauce. To wait for the child when he returns so he will have good food to eat and fill his stomach, but the father will be disappointed. Every time because there was no sign that the child would come back. The sound of the door opening makes me happy every time. I'm happy that you're back, but I'm disappointed because the sound of the door opening isn't you, but someone I don't want to meet at all. Right now, all I want is you to come back. Eating with dad, eating food that dad made The father can only wait for the day when the child will come back.

The young man couldn't hold back his tears, flowing without any warning, flowing through the same cracks. “He felt so guilty about himself.”

Non admits that I want to go back and make amends for what he did to my father, but there's no way back because time has taken him far enough to never see him again. Father left only this notebook that recorded stories about “A boy named Non” before his father returned his breath to nature along with his mother and then both traveled to heaven.

He couldn't change anything, he could only fulfill the promise he made to his father. “I will be a good person,” but one thing I want to do is shout as loud as possible to every level of heaven so that his father can be heard, “Dad, I'm sorry.” I think of that time when a young man did only nonsense. Non admits that at that time he was very attached to his friend, sleeping at his friend's house and forgetting about his father for a moment.

A father who waits for him at home alone.” Time led the boy, Non, to grow up to be Mr. Anon. And when he brought his father into old age, at that time the young man thought that maybe it was because we grew up and didn't need to have a father.

And that day was the day of the return of the young man who had been away from home for many weeks. I don't remember what day it was. When he opened the door and went back into the house that day, he found only emptiness, with no breath separating his breathing in this place.

Non shouted to his father several times. But there was no sign of his father's response. until the shouts reached the ears of his neighbors. Until a large man ran up and told him the bad news.

Non's own father was lying in the hospital at that time. I stood still, not wanting to think about anything right now.

Running to find father in the dark Run with both bare feet. Until a car belonging to a village resident passed by. Mr. Non then asked to stay in the car.

The voice echoed in his ears. “My father is in the hospital. Dad himself fainted in the house.” At that time, Aunt Pen, his neighbor I found my father lying peacefully on the ground in front of the house. While Aunt Pen was walking home

Aunt Pen arrived shortly before Mr. Non returned home!

Upon arriving at the hospital in the pouring rain, “Curse him.”

Aunt Pen, the neighbor of the only person who brought her father to the hospital. When Mr. Non went there, he saw his father lying on a bed in the shared room. Father was the only patient in this patient room, with Aunt Pen sitting on the edge of his bed. Father saw Mr. Non and he smiled happily at him. Father's voice was harsh, lacking the strength to comprehend.

“Are you back now, child? Dad made delicious food at home. I'll go eat it later."

Non is sorry for what he did to his father that day. It was too much of a sin. There was no chance to make amends for his actions at that time. Because father disappeared with time decades ago.

Mr. Non asked Aunt Pen what was wrong with his father. Why are you here?

Aunt Pen replied that Father was tired, father lacked essential nutrients for the body for many days and was sick, and most importantly, Father had not slept for many nights.

Why isn't daddy sleeping?

Father looked at his face with a smile that was hard to bear. Until tears flowed from Father's eyes as his voice came out soft and weak. "I'm afraid you'll come back and there won't be anything in your stomach."

There would be no chance of penetrating the dimension of time and correcting the grave sin of an ungrateful child. If I went back in time and corrected the mistake I had made by mistake, my feelings at that time were so wrong that I would criticize myself. Said, "Unfilial son," the young boy stood looking at his father feeling guilty for what he had done and promised his father that he would not go anywhere again.

If he stayed home every day and didn't go anywhere, Dad wouldn't be fine. He wouldn't have to stay in this strange hospital bed.

Non sat silently in his father's old room with his father's old notebook. “What did Mr. Nont do that day?” And the words he wrote when he was a child, “I will be a good child,” have no meaning because now he cannot change what he did. You can miss it. Because there's nothing that can be done to fix the fact that it's already too late. Leaving only the word "Regret of past time" really regrets something.

It can be said that it is not too late. But this matter was a big mistake and there was no time to correct the mistake at that time. “Because time has taken my father away from him.”

Nowadays, Non always takes his breath away and steals other people's breath. Now I can only do what my father promised me that day. “I will be a good person.” Even though his father wasn't there to hear the story, he would shout and let it be loud enough to echo throughout the heavens. I want his father to know that every day "Non loves his father."

The sunlight began to fade, signaling the approach of dusk. He was still in his father's old room with his father's last remaining valuable journal. Memories for Mr. Non to remember for a lifetime. This notebook made him feel the feelings that his father gave him throughout his life.

But he never cared about knowing what his father's feelings were. Before I knew it, it was already too late. Father had already reserved tickets for a tour of heaven.

Non felt like he was starting to feel tired. The same chair that comfortably supported his weight. The next page was opened. On this page there is a letter addressed to him, Mr. Anon.

To Nonlukrak

I'm glad to be born as your father. I'm most happy that my son is a good person. It won't be long before he finishes his degree and he himself won't have the chance to live until his graduation day. “I warned you, but you didn't listen to me.” I want you to stay with me for a long time. I'm sorry, son. Father has terminal cancer. The doctor told him that he will be able to live with his child again.

Three months later, the father has come to terms with the child, but he is "sad" that he cannot continue being with him. “Father, I love you.” From now on, your child must be able to live without his father. You must be patient, child. Don't be discouraged, don't give up hope, don't let your father die in sin. I have planned everything for you. Until that day, your child will know. Father himself doesn't have many possessions. He only has teachings that will make you a good person in the future so that you can teach your grandchildren to be good people. But, son, "Don't be like me."

My child, please preserve your goodness. All the time my father lived on this earth. I've seen enough. The happiest thing I've ever been to is being a father to my child. And if the next life really does exist, may we be born as father and son again. For the remaining three months, the father will spend his life with his child as long as possible. “I love you.” ...Father

Non felt disappointed. I admit that I feel like I'm the wrong child. “Why didn't you tell him that day?” If his father had told him about his father's condition that day, the young man would have rushed home. Don't leave your father alone. “Father, I'm sorry, I'm the worst son in the world.”

Three months before his father left him, the university had an activity to welcome freshmen as seniors, so he had to stay and help on campus. I do this every day. When I go home, it's almost past 11:10 p.m. every day. Non returned home and hugged his father every time he came home. When he saw his father sleeping on the bed

“Dad, what is there to eat?”

Some days during the last period of some nights, Father still did not sleep. I will always answer that.

Are you in the kitchen? How are you today? Are you tired?

Non admitted that he felt that his father's voice was strange. Father's body was thin, his voice was weak, like someone who could not speak at that time, he didn't say much. He thought that he probably was sick with a normal fever. He went to find medicine for him to take as medicine to reduce fever and relieve pain. Father seemed unwilling to accept the medicine from his hand. But in the end, the father had to forcefully accept the medicine the young man sent. Even though I know that there is no medicine that can cure my condition, I have to accept the truth.

At that time Non was a young man who was his father's only son. “Dad, I think you don't look well, you must have a fever. Take your medicine first, Dad.”

Father forced himself to hold out his hand to take Non's medicine. It's like tears will flow from my father's eyes. Father's eyes were red and bloodshot, tears swirling around the black rims.

That night he told his father, “Dad, you need to get some sleep.” He covered him up with a blanket and gave him a chance to get some rest. "Tomorrow I will boil rice porridge for father to eat." The father smiled at the young man one last time.

Non still remembers that night well. "Father lost consciousness," panting all the time that night. A young man called his father several times. “Father, can you hear me?” Father remained silent, not listening to his voice. Non's father's gasping sound was "so loud" that he couldn't stop the tears from flowing out in time. “Daddy, don't worry, Dad,” he ordered his father before he could finish his words. He ran without thinking for his life and knocked on the door of Aunt Pen's house. Bang! Bang!

Aunt Pen Aunt Pen

What is it? Aunt Pen ran out in a hurry. By wearing a sarong and a basket-neck shirt.

Dad, Dad.

Aunt Pen didn't listen to the next sentence. Hurry and run to my house. When he opened the door to his father's room Father's voice fell silent. I felt "so depressed." Aunt Pen walked over to Father's body.

End of suffering, end of sorrow. “Don't worry about your child. I will take care of him like a child, like a grandchild.”

Why does Aunt Pen say that?

Non walked closer to the body with his heart skipping a beat. As the young man walked closer to his father's body, it had a fishy stench that he couldn't tell. He had never encountered anything that smelled this strong before. It flows from Father's body. Flowing out was a stream of water that smelled so bad that I wasn't sure if it was my father's blood or not. It was flowing from my father's anus. “Father has passed away.”

The young man lost his mind. “That's not true.” The truth was telling Chao that he had lost everything that night. The feeling is more indescribable than any loss in this world because of Non's entire life. There is nothing more important than father.

But if father tells him a word “He made the rest of my father's life perfect.”

But today I didn't have a chance to do it, I could only say in front of my father's corpse, "Father! I'm sorry.”

In this secret room, a scent of sadness began to enter his mind.

Non was still sitting in the same chair in this memory room and looked around, thinking that his father was near him in this room. The room that holds my father's feelings towards him. Included here “Dad, I love you.” Non opened his father's notebook to the last page. On this page, there was only a picture of him and his father.

At that time, he was a child and sat on his father's lap in the chair that the young man was sitting on. "Nont sat in the chair where his father sat, letting Non know that his father was not far away." Until in the bottom edge of his father's notebook.. he saw a short message. That was written in my father's handwriting.

"Promise me daddy that you'll be a good kid."

Non stood up and looked around this room. Along with making a promise,

“I promise, Dad, I will be a good boy.” The teak door slid open. The sunlight is fading. A flock of birds flew back to the nest. Tamarind was waiting for him under the stairs.

The young man walked towards the stairs before stepping up into the house. The shadow behind the young man was like the shadow of his father following him out of the room.. Mysterious note.

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