Option or choice ?? [

YURI] SNSD

When my love is only worth killing time in loneliness

My true status is only that of a sexual partner.

Kim Taeyeon

Only you can save me. Tiffany Hwang, please help me forget Jessica Jung.

Option or choice?? [

YURI] SNSD

option or choice

Of course, everyone wants to be a choice rather than an option. I am one of the millions of people who think so. But what good is it if we are the ones who choose and we are not their choices?

Therefore, I thought of a new place to avoid this painful event.

For your choice

No matter what the answer to this selection request is. Mental preparation is the most important thing. Whether it hurts a lot or it hurts a little, it depends on how much we spare ourselves.

And if anyone asks what status I am in? I can definitely answer that there are 3 states mentioned above.

The love lesson I learned from 'Jessica Jung', my former lover. She gave me both happiness and extreme suffering. Because of you, I have learned to truly be a choice. Being the choice of the person we love is very happy and pleasing. But because I am not just one of your choices.

It was painful.

Jessica was dating me at the same time as her boyfriend without me knowing. Our relationship isn't just close friends as outsiders see it. More than that, we hold hands, look into each other's eyes, hug each other, kiss each other and do things like people who love each other. Looks like I can't use the word 'we'. Heart when the truth has always been I can only be your lonely bedtime partner.

It's right for outsiders to view it that way. Because no matter how much love we show, Our relationship must be kept hidden. Women loving women in this country is not a happy thing. People will only think of us as different and disgusting. So me hanging out with Jessica all the time seemed normal. When she was together with that senior, every pair of eyes would stare and immediately realize that they were not just friends.

And the secret boyfriend who we're secretly dating only makes us seem unstable and it's never true.

It's been over 2 months since I broke up with Jessica. Yesterday's bond made me forget, I almost picked up the phone and called out to you like I used to. I hate my forgetful personality. I forgot that we weren't dating.

The subject of reading people's minds seems ridiculous and ignorant to me. But in the past, I really wanted to know if Jessica's heart ever loved me.

Have you ever loved this 'sex partner'?

Forced to endure, he bowed his head and accepted his fate. Even if I have to force my facial muscles to smile and greet you, I will do it. Since I can't burn this bad feeling down except by forcing it on. Even though my face was smiling but my heart was crying loudly, I had to get through it.

'I'm fine, Sica. Have you listened to Lee Hyun's song? It's really because of it'

Doing just this is considered good for a choice like me.

They say that if a person encounters bad things, it will make us grow and become twice as strong. The more pain, the more suffering, the firmness will be stable.

Really ?

Why don't I feel it? When what I went through was painful to death. I still feel weak and scared. Not daring to face the truth The mouth says to endure, but the heart will break. The eyes look calm, but deep down, the tear glands are abnormal. This is what people in this world just want to lie to make themselves look superior. Even if it has to be exchanged with loneliness, I accept it.

Don't hold back, don't love and don't wait. At least I can do two things that I really can't do. The more I try, the more I lose, which means I stop loving you.

When did Kim Taeyeon will be able to forget the past created by the deceitful Jessica.

Try traveling to find your true self. I'm the same person with a heart that hurts. There is a rotten wound that emits a foul odor. Is there any medicine that can cure it? If you leave it on longer than this, it will definitely turn into heart cancer. At that time, Jessica's love disease would eat away at her broken heart until there was nothing left.

I used to hate giving up hope. I hate being in a relationship by choice right now. I'd like to try it out. In case it at least makes me forget that deceptive past.

Until one day I decided to walk into the hospital to find a good doctor to treat my wound. And I hope that the day it heals, I will be able to walk out and face the world as a mentally and healthy person. I don't care anymore, even if I break the resolution I made, right now I only want one thing.

It's enough that I don't love Jessica.

Hwang Tiffany, a second-year girl from my friend's group. I know that you've been secretive about me for a long time. Sometimes I like this kind of openness. Do you dare to tell anyone without caring about the eyes of those who look at you that you secretly like me or not? And I am confident that this treatment will be successful.

Day 3 of treatment...

In front of the performance building of the Faculty of Communication Arts I've been standing and waiting for over 10 minutes. In fact, I was ahead of my time. Opposite this building is Jessica's Fashion Design Faculty building. I tried not to look at the modern Romanesque skyscraper. If you dip it in salt, even if it hurts and stings, it will eventually go away. Since the hospital where I will be treated is opposite to your place. It would have to be a bit of a risk. I probably wouldn't be hurt and die before I got better.

Many fellow students from different faculties that I was very familiar with passed by. Even though I study in the Faculty of Arts, I have the opportunity to make many friends from different fields and faculties because I work in many ways that depend on each other. They looked at me with questions in their eyes but didn't dare to come up and ask, and they couldn't help but think about Jessica.

You probably want to ask why we're not together now.

I sat down on the sharp staircase leading up to the building. Fortunately, the cool spring weather meant I didn't have to waste time looking for a seat.

But when he sat down, his face had to turn towards the building opposite. OK, I really can't escape this, right?

This wind is so envious. Blow around, don't be afraid of where you'll go and what problems you'll encounter. Once you know it, let it float by. It's good so you don't have to be attached to it. One day I have to be the wind, not love, not care, not interested, and if I could do that, I wouldn't have to suffer like this.

Tiktok!!

The sound of a message from the mobile phone rang out. There was a warning sound from the mobile chat program. I couldn't guess who it was who contacted me in the late afternoon like this. I took it out and looked to find out the truth.

Seo Joohyun: Taeyeon hyung, when will you return the book you borrowed??

Seo Joohyun or Seohyun My bright-faced younger sister who is one of my closest friends. Even though we are different in age, we are very close. Nong Seo is the daughter of my aunt's friend, so we naturally started dating. With a personality that looks older than his age I think this is deeper than other people's. So I gave her another nickname: 'Precocious Girl'.

Seohyun's dreams and determination have been clear and steady since time immemorial. She wanted to be some sort of diplomat.

I smiled at Nong Seo's persistent message. It's just a Western art history book. It's like I'm in debt for a hundred thousand won.

Kim Taeyeon ^

O^ :

I know, I'll bring it to you tomorrow morning.

Seo Joohyun: I don't know how many days since tomorrow morning. If you don't return it, I'll take your pen.

Seo Joohyun: Do you understand??

Kim Taeyeon ^

O^  : 

Yes!

Seo Joohyun: Always promises but never returns.

Kim Taeyeon ^

O^  :

Really this time

Seo Juhyun : I met Sica unnie yesterday too.

End of this story I sat quietly for a while. Nong Seo is the only person who knows that Jessica and I are together as lovers, no, me again, as sexual partners. It's nice that Nong Seo doesn't act disgusted, on the contrary she seems supportive and has even hinted that this world is a difficult place. We have gone far and would like our country to be more accepting and open.

This is the developer's idea.

Seo Joohyun: Sorry, I forgot.

Not long after Nong Seo replied to a new message. I could imagine what her face was like right now. He probably made an expression that didn't feel right because he felt guilty.

Kim Taeyeon ^

O^  :

So how is it?

Seo Joohyun: There's nothing much. He asked for P'Tae. But I didn't answer anything.

Seo Joohyun: It's really angry for you. What a terrible woman.

Seo Joohyun: Acting nonsense (I don't like it at all)

Should I laugh or be sad? It was Nong Seo's right. Especially regarding Jessica. My Nong Seo doesn't like people who act carelessly and without substance. Irresponsible and dishonest which seems to match Jessica completely.

When the truth turns red and things appear Nong Seo was the first person to suffer on my behalf. She seems to really hate Jessica.

Kim Taeyeon ^

O^  :

Please let him go. I don't think of anything anymore.

Even if you reply to a message like that But I can't help but smile. I felt a hollow feeling in my stomach when I thought of the speculative incident when Nong Seo met Jessica. It couldn't be avoided that she was probably with her boyfriend. Even though I tried, I couldn't do it. I'm thinking about Jessica again.

Someone please get that fraudulent woman out of my life. I'm so tired of trying.

I came back and sat down and was depressed again. I hugged my knees to make myself look even smaller. The weather was not cold, rather cool. Then again, I acted against the trend like a person with a problem.

collapse!

The sound of something and the force of his touch on me next to me. I turned to look and then returned to my normal sitting position. It was Tiffany who sat down next to me. She smiled sweetly. Eyes closed as usual It would be cute if I wasn't thinking about Jessica right now.

“Hi Taeyeon, are you cold?” Tiffany asked in a worried tone. Is she being too clear? Sometimes I secretly ask this question in my heart.

Not even I saw Tiffany as strong and dressed up. But that doesn't mean it doesn't look good. She is very beautiful. Tiffany is knowledgeable about fashion and follows trends like any other girl. Some days the clothes on her body exceeded twenty million won. It was more than one month's money I spent.

No matter what I thought about it, I couldn't understand whether Tiffany really liked me or not. Or is she just having fun every day like Jessica?

How can you not think like that? When we are different, we will die. I am just the daughter of an ordinary merchant. As for Tiffany, she is the daughter of a businessman from America who is beautiful, rich, and talented. Even my friends in the faculty or male seniors like her. Watch without stopping.

“No, there's still 5 minutes left, how did you get out?” I glanced at my watch. and asked Tiffany in return, very casually

“At first I thought about sitting and waiting for you. But when I walked out, I saw her sitting and waiting, so I hurried out,” Tiffany answered with a very proud voice. Which is something to be proud of. Skip school and come find me.

“So where should we go today?” It was a normal matter of meeting Tiffany. I never ask about her personal life unless she tells me. I just want to find someone next to me to go everywhere with. Let your brain be full so you don't have to think too much.

Especially about Jessica.

“Where should we go? Do we want to go to the mall? I think I'm going to buy something for a friend. How about we take a walk together?”

“Um, sure,” I nodded. Actually, even if Tiffany offered to just go to the restaurant in front of the university, I agreed. In this moment, anything can be done, as long as Tiffany can make me forget Jessica.

The couple walked around like they were playing, it was enviable. I could only look at them and form an opinion in my heart. Almost every store that Tiffany and I walked into was not without a young couple walking together.

A pendant from a famous brand that Tiffany was standing at. Reminds me of old pictures that Jessica used to make. Fashion and accessories fanatics like Jessica like these kinds of accessories the most. She liked to ask my opinion but in the end she didn't choose. Damn, I couldn't help but smile at the scene. And Tiffany seemed to have a slightly confused expression.

letter

H

Gold color on clear circle pendant It caught my eye the most.

Hitler (

Hitler) The nickname I gave to Jessica's tyranny.

Stop it right now, Kim Taeyeon. You have to forget that deceitful woman.

I shake my head back and forth. Then he looked at Tiffany who had picked up a few pendants to compare. We women really like things like this, but we're not one of them. I prefer bright colors like cosmetics to accessories like this.

“Taeyeon, which one do you think is suitable for someone with an optimistic personality?” Tiffany's question made me raise my eyebrows. Of course, if you ask Nong Seo a question like this, you'll get more answers than if you ask me who looks at people. Not very good

“The flowers look gentle. The whale looks mysterious but has a childlike cuteness to it. Um....but I think a circle pendant is more suitable because it's not square. I don't know, I don't know,” I simply replied. Didn't have any knowledge about this matter at all. Studying art is true, but applying it to everyday life seems very far away.

“Um, that's it. Then take this circle G-string.” Tiffany turned to tell the store employee and then turned to look at me and smiled. You are the first person to listen to my opinion and follow it willingly. I'm not thinking about myself. But the look in Tiffany's eyes was telling.

While waiting for a call from the staff I kept staring at that H pendant like a drunkard. Looking like that even though it doesn't help anything. It makes me feel bad again.

“Why the letter H?” Tiffany suddenly asked. I was slightly startled because I had been stuck in a trance for so long.

“No, I think it's beautiful.”

“I thought you'd buy it for me. My last name is 'Hwang'. You probably haven't forgotten, right?”

“No, it's not related,” I said and turned away. I really didn't mean to act cold. It's just a bad habit of mine If I could solve this problem, I would have a new boyfriend a long time ago.

My crazy subconscious doesn't love me well. Not opposing everyone who came in, but instead calling out for only Jessica.

Continuing from the jewelry store just a moment ago. The two of us walked slowly. Tiffany didn't say another word after my mean words. She followed me like a feral kitten afraid of being scolded by her owner. Damn it, I felt guilty. But there's no need for me to reconcile with you or apologize.

I don't feel anything at all for her.

“Tiffany”

“Yes,” Tiffany responded with a stunned expression. But she answered in a sweet voice.

Or maybe I should really open up. When there's nothing left to lose For me to let go and let Tiffany take care of me would have no effect on my heart anymore. I came to heal, didn't I?

“Let's try something like....see.” I'm going to start receiving serious treatment. Even though I feel a little conflicted.

“What? Can you say it again? I listened. No...” She stuttered and made an expression. What's going on with this girl? Why are you shocked when you've always been the one taking the offensive?

“Just look, I'm not dating you, are you okay?” Even though I had Tiffany come in to treat the wound, I don't want to block new doctors who are more skilled or equal. At least it's not binding. This is a good solution. I myself am not known for completely breaking my resolutions.

“Okay, very okay, then we can hold hands, right?” Tiffany smiled. If she could jump around, she would have already done so.

“Okay.” Just holding hands, I reached out and grabbed Tiffany's hand and held it gently. Before I smiled at her a little in an unintentional way, at least my face looked nice and smiling now.

Look, I'm good at acting too.

“Let's go celebrate.”

“What occasion is this?” I really can't guess the mood of the rich girl. Likes to attack when I'm not prepared.

“Well, let's take a look. Even though we're not dating But this is enough,” she said softly with a shy expression.

Day 4 of treatment...

It's a good thing today is a holiday and there's no school. There is no activity outside. So I didn't have to face Tiffany. You don't have to be tired of making up your face or making up your words. Just lying down comfortably in your own room like this is the best.

This short message from Tiffany this morning made me smile..Taeyeon, have you eaten anything yet? I really want to meet you.. I don't think Tiffany is serious about this or because it's her personality that when she sees something new she gets excited and wants to explore it all. It still has the typical fun-loving personality of an American girl.

I typed a response back.

..finished She left Tiffany..

Another minute later, a message was sent back. like chatting through

SMS (

SMS)

..Yes, I already ate. Um, Taeyeon, are you free tomorrow? ..

.. It's free. Why? Tiffany..

..You can call me Fany *//* I don't mind. I mean, let's go see a movie..

..I don't like watching movies..

I quickly typed a reply. What activity that approaches Jessica I don't want to do? I know that every holiday Jessica has to go to the mall or see a movie, so I don't go. I don't want to face her.

..It's a pity, so leave it for another day..

..You can come look at my house. If you don't mind..

This message seemed to be the turning point of everything. Tiffany agreed and I gave her directions to my house. Which is not 100% my home. Because it was my aunt's house, my mother's older sister here opened a Korean restaurant downstairs. The upper two floors are the private area of ​​the house.

My room is on the third floor, neither small nor big. It's enough for me.

Day 5 of treatment...

Tiffany sat on a bed that was only a few feet wide enough to accommodate two people, but it was a single bed that few people could sit and lie on. The first one was Nong Seo. The second person is Jessica. And the third person is Tiffany. Persons other than family members Tiffany looked tense and sat still, hardly moving.

The action movie I just started didn't have any content other than commercials. I walked back onto the bed and slid into it, sitting close to the leather to find a place to lean on.

“Fanny, please take it easy. You don't have to be so tense,” I teased her, who sat frozen like a statue.

“Well, this isn't right. You suddenly invited me to your house like this,” Tiffany replied, still turning her back on me. I could only smile at her words.

It's a lot, people.

“So, are you close to Jessica?” Tiffany's question made me stiffen into a statue. I moved to sit next to her on the edge of the bed.

The photo of me and Jessica is still in the same place on the nightstand even after we broke up. I forgot that we weren't together anymore. So I didn't have time to pay attention to the remaining details in the bedroom, trying to float the past between us. Whether it be dolls, photographs, drawings, stickers, even the house shoes that Tiffany is wearing.

“We used to be close.” I avoided answering anything but instead said no and ended it.

It was not strange that Tiffany knew Jessica. Everyone knows the hot, beautiful girl from the rich house. that there is no shortage of people coming and flirting as they please Actually, it's as famous as Tiffany. Their habits are also similar. But I think Tiffany is much better than Jessica.

“You can sleep, Tiffany, feel free,” I said, moving back to my original seat.

“I told you to call me Fanny.” She turned around and made a fierce face. But that's the worst, right? I think she's making her face look cuter.

“Fanny is Fanny.”

The movie proceeds The sound of gunfire exploded loudly in the combatants. As soon as Love came, the heroine's moans were loud and clear. I noticed that Tiffany's face was red, even though the makeup she had put on her face was covering it up. But because today she wore light makeup, it was more noticeable than ever and she sat there twisting around as if she was trying to hide from me. see face

What's the big deal? It's just a love scene between a couple. Tiffany herself is probably more familiar than me. She grew up in the west.

“Taeyeon, have you ever kissed anyone?”

“Huh?” Why are you suddenly asking about something like this? Tiffany turned to ask and smiled faintly, as if she was forcing it and waiting intently to hear the answer.

“More than just kissing,” I said jokingly, pretending to laugh. But deep down what was said was the truth. Even the previous bed scene with Her Majesty I had already experienced with Jessica.

Well, I'm just a 'sleeping partner'.

“You said it right away,” Tiffany turned back around. “But I don't mind. Even if the kiss I get from you is a hundred thousand kiss.”

I really hate Tiffany's honesty. I don't like it and don't want to accept it. Well, our culture really doesn't like people like this. I stared boredly at the back of Tiffany who was sitting still.

Having known each other for a long time through friends did not allow me to understand and adapt to Tiffany's personality.

“Because there are a lot of you too, right?” he asked stubbornly, observing her response. It's not wrong to guess that someone like Tiffany has been through a lot. This kiss could be from a young person.

“Yes, I accept it, but I want you to be the last.”

“Can you do it?” I didn't think anything of this statement. It's more like giving advice.

“It's up to you whether you want me to be the last or not.” Tiffany turned to look at me. Her eyes looked steady and serious.

“I don't know, I still want to kiss a guy,” he replied, laughing but not really thinking about it like that.

I don't want to kiss any man or woman. If that person wasn't Jessica Even if I want to forget, I can't do it easily. First kiss and such first time Jessica is my teacher. You're the first person I tried to forget.

“Then you must feel strange that I like you. Because I'm a woman But she didn't reject me, which shows that she was interested in me too. She gave me the opportunity to show that she still has a deep hope that we might be able to get along well.”

“Do you think so?” I just found out that Tiffany thinks like this.

“So what is it like? I want to know too. Do you like me? No, no. What do you think of me?” Tiffany pursed her lips for emphasis.

“She is a very straightforward person.”

“That's all.” It seemed like Tiffany was still expecting some more answer. which I don't want to answer How can I tell the truth that I agreed to play with you because I was forgetting someone?

“So what do you think of me? Don't you feel like we're different?” I changed the subject, allowing myself to regain control of the game.

“Answer me first.” Eh, the role of being stubborn is becoming more stubborn like that. You're not the Jessica I want to please. No matter how good or stupid the story is.

“Just like I said.”

“Then I will answer just one question. I don't like you.” Oh, I don't like you, so why are you messing with me? Do you see me as a solution to loneliness like Jessica? My face immediately fell when I heard the truth directly from Tiffany's mouth like this.

“But I fell in love with you from the beginning.” Tiffany smiled shyly and looked down as I looked into her eyes.

“Do you know that someone said they loved me? But in the end, I was only his partner.”

Day 6 of treatment...

Actually, I can't say that it was another day that I couldn't heal, since I haven't seen Tiffany and don't plan on seeing her again. Or am I allergic to the word love? To be honest, I was shocked that Tiffany came to tell me that she loved me. Which I couldn't believe those words at all. What's the reason you came to love me?

Choice Today, I learned this word for the first time. Even though it's just a small starting point But it gave me a feeling of superiority. Jessica must have felt this way when I followed her, held her back.

An evil spirit enters the body.

I sat in the Faculty of Political Science coffee shop with Nong Seo sitting across from me. Nong Seo didn't talk to me at all, just reading books and vocabulary. As for me, I sip my coffee and play with my friends on my phone in a chat program.

Kim Taeyeon

Not a virgin, but imaginable ^^ 3 minutes ago

Im Yoona, Kwon Yuri, Park Jaebum, Sunny like this.

Im YoonA, is there still anything left for you to flirt with, Taeyeon?

About 3 minutes ago Indifferent ß (Yuri clicks like)

I like the comments of the juniors in the faculty. I didn't feel angry at all, even though it seemed a bit harsh for seniors and juniors with comments like this.

Kwon Yuri, what's left? I've already looked into everything. Haha.

about 2 minutes ago Like

Kim Taeyeon had a lot of fun, Lee Ling Yi Kwang.

About 1 minute ago Indifferent 2 ß ( Yuri and Yoona press like )

Kwon Yuri is not amused, so please don't come and read, you short dog. Haha.

But hey!!! People like Taeyeon are probably still virgins because no one wants them.

About 1 minute ago Just 3

It's not just me and Yuri and Yoona anymore. The fourth person involved in this conversation made me lose face for two seconds. I want to stop playing and turn off the device so that I know how to survive.

Jessica joined in and she liked Yuri's latest status and messages.

Are you going to come and remind me that you don't want me anymore? Because I have him, that man of yours.

Jesse Jessica is wrong, Yuri. Taeyeon and I have been together for a long time ^^

A few seconds ago, just 10

The likes on Jessica's message were overwhelming. It keeps increasing and seems to start to become many times more fun. A hot and heated comment, it's not for anyone else but me. want to cry

Im Yoona, Sica, maybe you're in the wrong place. Is it with P'Tack who said it many times?

About 5 minutes ago, just ß(Tiffany came in and clicked "Like")

Tiffany Hwang is all over the place.

About 4 minutes ago Indifferent ß ( I went to understand this comment )

Jessie Jessica just with

TY

That's what's messed up too ^^

About 4 minutes ago Just 2

The Kwon Yuri who's messing around here probably isn't Lee Taeyeon. Don't come on too strong around here. Haha.

About 2 minutes ago, just ß(Tiffany came in and pressed again)

Kim Taeyeon, that's right, don't be too strong around here.

About 1 minute ago Just 3

Jessie Jessica knows whether you're strong or not, right? Charlie.

A few seconds ago Like

Charlie, or full name Charlie Chaplin, famous legendary comedian. It's my nickname that Jessica used to call me. Why would she come to reminisce? We're over. I became annoyed when Jessica made a strange comment.

“What is it, Brother Tae? You sighed loudly.” Nong Seo pulled me away from the chaos in the fiber world. I handed my cell phone over to Nong Seo to look at.

The girl carefully read the dozens and twenty messages and it didn't take long. Nong Seo turned to look at me with a teasing face. Definitely because you probably know the reason why I sighed.

“Sister Sica, what is this? You're busy and don't understand the matter,” Nong Seo complained angrily and handed the cell phone back to me.

“Sica is like this.” After we broke up, I got to know another side of Jessica's personality, how possessive she is. Likes to show ownership even though the item is no longer important to her.

“It's good that we broke up. Otherwise, I definitely won't be able to stand being with Tae.”

“Now I've broken up with him. Don't worry. Please continue reading,” I said and returned to looking at my phone.

Kwon Yuri, I guess there's a hunter for Virgin Taeyeon already, Hwang, hehe.

About 6 minutes ago Indifferent ß(Tiffany clicks Like)

Kim Taeyeon, what are they doing??

about 2 minutes ago Like

Tiffany Hwang, I'm not afraid despite what Taeyeon has been through.

About 2 minutes ago Just 2

Im Yoona, Jessica and Tiffany, why are they fighting over Taeyeon? There's nothing worth searching for. Haha.

About 1 minute ago Just

Kim Taeyeon, who told you that I'm still more complicated than I seem? Is that true, Fany?

About 1 minute ago Just 2

Tiffany Hwang, maybe if you let me go to your room again this Saturday?

I can't say enough about how complex she is.

1 second ago Just 10

There are ten comments that like this message. People who are online like it. Tiffany is helping me heal. She's saving my life from keeping me from Jessica any longer.

Kim Taeyeon Yes, I'm also looking for someone to solve this mystery. One on one clothes are not relevant, hehe.

2 seconds ago Just 10

Not inferior to anyone My opinion is starting to get hot. After all, there's nothing to lose. Don't care what Jessica thinks. When we're over

Kwon Yuri, can you not be rated? nosebleed

30 seconds ago Just

Im Yoona, Kwon Yul hyung told me it was the wrong person. Next week, I'll guarantee that the photos will be all over the internet -.,- Haha.

20 seconds ago Indifferent 2

In the end, the status I set up did not escape the navel issue. The more people joining in were Yoona and Yuri. Don't expect anything to happen.

Day 7 of treatment...

Today I had to take work to Yuri at the performance building. Yuri gave me a job and asked me to draw a picture for him to put on the board. Three large sheets of drawings on 100 pound paper in various orientations. I rolled it up and put it away carefully before handing it to Yuri, who was cutting paper in front of the board under the building.

“Thank you very much, Taeyeon. Eat some snacks first.” Yuri took the paper from me and pointed at the pile of snack bags and glasses filled with colorful syrups.

"Oh, no problem. I'll hurry back today." I said goodbye and quickly walked out of the performance building.

Feeling sleepy, noi, bored with the world since yesterday when I had a random, unspecific conversation with Jessica. The red underlined words show how much I still love you.

Bored.

“Taeyeon,” I turned to look at the person calling my name. Tiffany ran out from inside. She stopped in front of me and gasped.

“Are you coming back?” Tiffany asked with her breath coming out louder than her voice.

“Um,” I answered shortly.

“Can you wait for me? I want to....want to....talk to you,” Tiffany said, choking up. She's strange today.

“Say it.”

“No, you have to wait until I finish work.” Who do you think you are? I'm not in the mood to sit and wait for anyone right now. I keep a straight face but she smiles.

“Nice Taeyeon, just wait for me for 30 minutes,” she begged me. Damn it, I wanted to jerk off but you were too cute.

“Alright, but I'm sitting here waiting.”

"No problem, but don't go anywhere first."

I sat waiting for Tiffany on a bench near the performance building. Even though I didn't want to do something like this, I had to force myself to do it. You have to memorize it by heart. Tiffany is healing me. If it's difficult, then I have to do something I don't like.

Now I'm starting to become a full-fledged demon. What I did was no different from what Jessica did. Deceived, lied, gave hope. But what if it made me stop loving Jessica?

I'm willing to be a bad person.

“Tae,” a familiar voice, as sweet as clear glass. I raised my head to look at the source of the voice. Actually, the person in front of me isn't your fault.

Jessica is smiling at me.

“What?” I said without thinking. It's short and curt.

“Tae and Tiffany are dating?” Jessica said with a slight dissatisfaction in her eyes. She's possessive, that's what I thought. She doesn't like things that once belonged to her falling into the wrong hands. Especially with a forever social rival like Tiffany.

“No,” I answered honestly, not hiding anything.

Please calm down. I'm going crazy over this situation. I became an option again when I was in front of Jessica.

“You guys are too close and you know it?”

“I know, Fany is a friend of Yuri's group. And Yuri is my friend. You yourself know this, so why are you asking?”

“I know, but what I want to know is how close are you two?”

“I don't think it's something I'm going to tell you about, Sica. Besides, what's going on with Fany and I? It's none of your business,” I said flatteringly. She was quiet for a while. You can't say anything when I say everything right.

“About that, anything that has to do with you is all about me.” Jessica began to be sullen and spoiled in her own way. I know you don't give up easily. No matter what, she held on to all of her belongings to the best of her ability.

And what she said like this Makes me forget that we don't love each other anymore.

“Sika,” I called for her to stop talking. Otherwise, I'll definitely have to be soft-hearted again.

“This Saturday, don't forget to make something delicious to wait for me, you know,” she told me and smiled sweetly.

“I'm busy, I'm not here,” I lied to her, even though in fact I didn't do anything but just lie around at home like usual.

"I don't know. I'll go wait for you at home. If you're not there, I'll just wait like that."

“Sika, please don't be spoiled. I said no, no.” I sounded stern and stubborn.

“Have you ever stopped me, Charlie?” Jessica put her hand gently on both of my cheeks. Because I know, I told her to stop. Stop before I can't take it anymore and go back to loving you as much as before. I don't want to love you until I die. When you get away from me, go away, go back to that man of yours, please.

The trembling look in my eyes stopped it. Don't use it on me. Stop acting like I have to love you.

I'm confused by this action.

“Don't do this.” I slapped her hand away.

Stop being so hung up on our status.

“You don't love me anymore, Taeyeon? Don't you love this woman anymore?” Please don't look sad like you still want me like this.

“No, I don't love you anymore. Stop bothering me and go back to your brother, your man.” I got up from the bench and walked away, but it didn't work. Jessica grabbed my hand.

“How many times do I have to tell you that there's nothing wrong with Sica and him?” Jessica screamed at me. Are you pretending to cover up your feelings? It doesn't work. Enough of your countless lies

“Go fool the kindergarteners, I'm not a donkey.”

This evening, I was no longer bright from where I was and was even more depressed than before. Tiffany tried to ask what was wrong with me. But I answered indifferently that I felt sick to my stomach. And what Tiffany wants to tell me is

“When will we really get together, Taeyeon? If you're afraid that other people will know about our relationship We can secretly date each other."

No, I don't want to secretly date anymore. It's painful to die. I want to show myself as the owner of the room, but I can't. I want to tell the world that this person is my lover, but all I can do is look at it and let it pass. This vague status I don't want to get into again.

But not now

“Let's have a serious relationship, Fany.” It was as if I had signed a surgical contract for this treatment. When there's nothing to lose

“But you mustn't tell anyone, don't be jealous, don't be possessive, don't show ownership in front of anyone.”

Now it's my choice. No, I don't want to be Jessica's choice anymore. Even though deep in my heart I still want to be

“Well…all right.”

Day 8 of treatment...

Tiffany is too serious and nice. She's so good that I'm starting to get scared. She followed through on every agreement we made. Am I breaking the heart of a good person?

But never mind, she's just a doctor.

Day 9 of treatment...

Counting the days we've been together I'm only going to get worse. I pretended to be happy. But in my heart I was sad. Tiffany is still as good as ever. You do everything I want no matter how stupid I am.

But never mind, she's just a doctor.

Day 10 of treatment...

I can feel Tiffany's kind heart. It is as beautiful as a flower that blooms without fading. She is bright and gentle. I erased the image of a strong-willed woman from my memory. All that's left is Tiffany, a sweet and pampered girl. If my heart doesn't beat fast, there's no emotion except emptiness.

But never mind, she's just a doctor.

Day 11 of treatment...

This evening, I made an appointment with Tiffany at a coffee shop. My regular branch where Nong Seo and I like to sit and read books. I have decided that I will introduce Tiffany to my closest friends. I think Nong Seo must have an apologetic face today. In the past, I often sat sad, absent-minded, thinking about Jessica with every breath I took. Even now it still is.

Strangely, today Nong Seo isn't reading like usual. Instead, I sat and played with my phone intently and intently. The effects of having excellent concentration also have their annoyances. Nong Seo didn't pay any attention to me at all.

“Joohyun, I'll come and go to the bathroom first,” I told Nong Seo and got up from the chair and headed towards the bathroom.

Alright, I'm afraid to tell Tiffany about this. Of course, Nong Seo wouldn't be stupid enough to believe everything she said that I happened to like Tiffany. Last night, I still called and cried with Nong Seo about Jessica. Whether it's good or not, Nong Seo might call me bad like Jessica.

female justice

I finished my business and confidently walked out of the bathroom. Even though I harbor many worries in my heart

Tiffany sat at the table. Opposite Nong Seo, they talked. At least I can trust that Tiffany won't bring up anything between us first. I sat back down on the soft sofa next to Tiffany. She smiled at me like always.

“Has it been a long time?” I asked Tiffany. She didn't answer, but shook her head and smiled wider than before.

“Sister Tiffany, should I order something first? I'll call the staff for you,” Nong Seo told Tiffany, who looked like she was smiling like a crazy person.

“Yes, yes.”

“Nong Seo,” I gathered up my courage and called out to Joohyun in a formal tone. Nong Seo turned to look at me with a questioning face.

"Nong Seo, this is it. You and Fany are dating." I grabbed Tiffany's hand and held it gently. Not to suggest that I like it very much, but I'm looking for encouragement to act in front of people who can see me in every way.

Silence A stillness enveloped the entire table. Nong Seo kept a calm face. I think she must have found fault with me. Tiffany squeezed my hand back. I didn't turn to look at her face to see what she was doing, but she seemed very satisfied.

Nong Seo looked at me and Tiffany back and forth and let out a long sigh.

“I already planned it. How could Tiffany suddenly come to see Tae if there wasn't something going on? That's good. Congratulations." Unexpectedly, Nong Seo said happily and smiled with satisfaction. "Uncle Tiffany looks a lot better." There is a meaning behind this sentence. I feel that way. Probably comparing it to Jessica.

“More than that,” Tiffany said in Acco's voice. I turned to look at Tiffany, afraid she might catch my suspicions.

“It's better than Tae's ex-girlfriend. Nevermind, I'll go order some coffee for Tiffany to drink.” Nong Seo hurriedly cut in and cleverly escaped.

“Let's have a latte, thank you very much.” As soon as Tiffany finished speaking, Nong Seo walked out towards the counter.

escaped, but I'm still afraid that Nong Seo will find out about my terrible history. If she does, I'll definitely hope Joohyun will come and seek justice for Tiffany.

“Fany, can you come see me at my house tomorrow?” I also feel selfish for always letting Tiffany come to me. Even though we should be sharing everywhere we go. But because Tiffany is not Jessica. So there's no need for me to care much. She is just a doctor who helps with treatment and therapy.

More importantly, I didn't feel anything more than someone I knew.

“Okay, would you like to eat something special? I'll buy it for you,” Tiffany replied eagerly and looked excited.

In fact, I'm just afraid that tomorrow Jessica will really come like I told her. And if she really came, I would definitely soften back to the way I was before. I'm afraid. Even yesterday, late at night, she sent me a message.

'See you this Saturday, Charlie. I miss you so much.'

My heart almost exploded It felt good mixed with pain. Definitely if it's when I don't know who she already has. I'll be happy with a smile on my face. But here, you all have him and say you miss me.

“No need, just be considerate of her. Just you coming to me is enough.” That's all.

“Don't be afraid. Well, she is... ”

“Say no, no.” I was annoyed at Tiffany's stupidity. It wasn't that she was really stupid. She's just trying to flirt with me but I don't like it. One of the principles of reality is the wall.

I don't really like you.

“I understand.” Tiffany frowned.

“Uh...I'm sorry.” Damn it, I feel guilty myself. I gently pulled Tiffany's hand into my own and rubbed the back of my hand with my thumb. “I just don't feel normal. Last night I slept little. Don't mind me.”

Tiffany smiled slightly and nodded in understanding.

Day 12 of treatment...

Saturday I woke up feeling a little dizzy. Last night I kept worrying about whether Jessica really came. I thought about it and it got late and I fell asleep. Woke up again at nine o'clock. I got up to take a shower, washed my face, brushed my teeth, then went downstairs to eat breakfast before sitting up in my room.

I have two messages on my phone. I opened it and there were two messages from Tiffany. Both the missed call and the message she specifically sent.

'I'll be at your house in a while. Like waking up late.'

Finished reading, I threw the phone on the bed as before. Then I switched to turning on the computer. In my mind, I was worried, confused, chaotic, and afraid of all kinds of things.

I decided to catch the problem and take a look around the internet. In the morning like this, there probably isn't anyone online. I read articles and general news. Before switching to reading comics online

“Taeyeon, a friend has come to see you.” A shout from downstairs rang through the room. Although it was very soft, I could hear it clearly.

“Yes,” I answered. Tiffany must have arrived by now. I got up from the computer and opened the door and walked downstairs.

Every table at the restaurant was full of customers as usual. My aunt's shop has a name. Ever since I put the information on the internet and broadcast it on TV, people have always been interested and flocked to it. From the beginning the shop closed at 10pm, it was extended to closing at midnight. I looked around to see where Tiffany was but couldn't see her. You should have arrived by now.

I walked up to my aunt in the kitchen and asked for Tiffany. But it was unexpected and he still hadn't said anything.

Jessica stood and watched my aunt make the hot pot.

She's really here. Damn it, what am I supposed to do?

“ Tae Sika is looking at how to make hot pot. I'll learn the recipe and I'll make it for you.” Jessica turned to look at me and told me. Both Auntie and Jessica seem to get along well. In fact, they were really close like aunts and nephews. Jessica comes here often. In the past, she really came to live with me like family.

The way you do this reminds me of the past. It used to be warm and beautiful. There's nothing wrong with the picture now.

“Miss Taeyeon, there's someone here to see you,” a shop employee walked over and said while I was absorbing the happy scene. I answered and quickly walked out of the kitchen.

The person waiting at the entrance to the second floor was actually Tiffany. At least she really came even though she was a few minutes later than Jessica. In Tiffany's two hands were bags filled with fruit. She probably bought it to give to my aunt as a good guest etiquette.

“Fanny,” I probably stared at her bag of building goodies for too long.

“I just feel weird if I don't buy anything. You probably don't mind.” Tiffany looked worried. She's probably afraid that I'll be harsh like I often do.

“Never mind, come and help me carry it.” I reached out to help carry all the things in her hand. before leading Tiffany up to the second floor

Inside the living room on the second floor I got her some water and snacks and went to turn on the TV for her to watch to pass the time and not get bored. Tiffany didn't look as tense as when she first came here. She looks more comfortable. Maybe it was because she had confidence that we were together. We watched TV together and talked about general matters.

In fact, I was just trying to find something to stop my brain from thinking about Jessica downstairs.

and it seems Everything you've tried won't work. Jessica walked up with a hot pot in her hand. She stopped on the stairs for a moment to look at me and Tiffany. Her eyes looked displeased. After a while Jessica moved on and placed the hot pot on the Japanese table in front of me and Tiffany.

"Hi Tiffany," Jessica smiled. I thought her smile was devious and not very sincere.

Very uncomfortable. Jessica deliberately acted strangely in this atmosphere.

“Hi,” Tiffany replied. I didn't see how she looked. Since right now I'm staring at Jessica incomprehensibly. Maybe Jessica was acting possessive towards me in front of Tiffany.

“You didn't notice that Tiffany was here.” Jessica purposely said to make Tiffany look like someone else. It's true, she really is just another person.

“Have Fany eaten anything?” I tried not to ignore Jessica's words and turned to ask the person who was known as my new girlfriend.

Finally today Tiffany has finally made herself useful. Heart cancer is starting to show up. I need a doctor like you more than anything right now. I only ask that you help prevent this heartless bastard from attacking me again. Even though I felt pain and had side effects from the treatment, I was ready to take the risk.

“If you haven't eaten anything yet, you can eat the hot pot I made first. At first I was going to make it for Taeyeon, but now I'm going to have to let her open the ceremony,” Jessica said and went to find a cup and spoon to scoop out for Tiffany.

Tiffany doesn't seem to think much of it. She smiled and was pleased with this service.

“What about Jessica? Aren't you with your boyfriend during the holidays like this?” Tiffany's question made me stiff. As for Jessica, she stopped her attempt to scoop up the hot pot soup. Of course, this question was burning in the hearts of many people, not just Jessica, but also me.

Thinking back to Tiffany's words, why would she come to me when she also has a boyfriend who loves her so much? We always go everywhere together. and will probably go somewhere deeper Or because she's lonely? Maybe she's lonely because he doesn't have time for her.

Jessica is lonely.

“Girlfriend? Well, I'm here with my girlfriend. You can now.” The hot pot owner handed Tiffany a hot pot bowl filled with thick red soup and meaty vegetables.

“Thank you,” Tiffany accepted.

“I'll be right back. Go turn off the computer first.” I was in debt from this uncomfortable situation. Damn it, I was shaking all over. I don't want to show my weakness to anyone.

Press to shut down the computer. I want things that we don't want to see to be able to be closed from our lives, like giving commands to a computer. There was the sound of the bedroom door opening and I turned to look. Jessica walked in and pressed the lock on the door. She was quiet, her face steady. She usually shows this expression when she's extremely upset about something. And I know what you're upset about right now.

Tiffany is the answer to this question.

Once aware of the situation I walked over and sat on the bed. Waiting for what she'll do next, whether she'll swing, be angry, or act unlovable. I also want to know if she will show off her food with this 'sleeping partner'.

“Why Tiffany?” the first question that came out. It didn't sound as good as before.

“What is the reason?” I asked her back. Since I know that Jessica doesn't like Tiffany's eternal rival, Everyone compares these two people.

“What is wrong with you guys? Tell me now.”

“Friend, how many times do I have to tell you that Fany is Yuri's friend?” I answered slowly, making the other person see that it didn't matter. On the other hand, I wanted to insinuate that I was lying.

Now I'm not an option anymore. I won't accept it as your choice. And the person who will become the choice is you, Jessica Jung.

I won't let you be the only devil. I can be evil too. When you are evil and deceitful, I will respond in return. Why do I have to be a good person when being a good person hurts? Wouldn't it be better to fight as a bad person who doesn't care about anyone like you?

“Don't do this, Kim Taeyeon.”

“What am I doing? What are you doing? Jung Sooyeon, who are you and what are you doing to me?” I asked coldly.

“Who am I? How do you say this? Don't you know what you're doing? I am your lover, Taeyeon.” She was angry, she was upset, she was exploding. Jessica walked over to me on the bed.

"Love? Don't you use words like that with me," I stood up helplessly. Stop using these words that have been deceiving me all along. You have no right to use those words with me again. Because it was never mine for a second.

“The word love doesn't exist for us. You see me more as just a 'sleeping partner'. Why isn't he here that he's come to see me? But what will you tell me? If you want to sleep with me, you're wrong. I am not an outlet for your loneliness.”

“Tae!! ” she shouted in my face. We're back to arguing about this again. “I never thought Tae would be a person like this. If it looks like this Why don't you just say that Sika is a slut!! If you see that Sika is very easy, please do as you please. Yes, it's dirty.”

"I'm glad you know," I said in a condescending tone. But I feel a terrible pain in my chest. I feel hollow. My body is numb. My hands are cold. Am I saying that the person I love the most?

Maybe I've changed like Jessica said. I stood and looked at her crying without stopping. Her tears made me feel like I was about to die. I didn't want to see them. I hated the tears of the person in front of me the most. Why do you have to act like this? Why do you have to squeeze tears for me to see?

Please don't cry in front of this person who is so weak.

His hand touched his clear cheek, trailing up the length of the liquid that flowed from his eyes. Am I being soft-hearted again? I'm drying her tears with guilt. Or because I love you so much?

“Don't cry, Sica. Your eyes will be swollen.” We locked eyes with each other. I was defeated by those deceptive eyes.

“Don't hurt me like this again, please,” she said, her voice shaking and sobbing.

“I'm sorry, please don't cry again.” I pulled her into a hug. This feeling had disappeared for more than 2 months, warm, gentle and hot. It's very different from being around Tiffany. With that girl, I'm empty. But Jessica, I want to hold you for as long as I can. as much as possible

“Why does it have to be said like that?”

“Tae, I'm sorry, Sika. Don't cry, smart one."

In the end, Tiffany's treatment didn't help at all. Heart cancer is too strong to use medicine on your heart. It's my own fault that I lost to Jessica. The person I love with all my heart

Day 13 of treatment...

A gentle hug on my naked body. Makes me almost startled. Last night I came back to being a stupid girl. The options are the same.

What else do we have in common?

But it's so wonderful I cannot deny the desire from deep within my heart. I told you that my subconscious mind doesn't love me well. Every touch of ours still makes me hot like before. Jessica is still gentle and hot in love roles as always. Maybe I have Jessicalism. I hugged my fragile body tightly.

Since I argued with Jessica for a long time yesterday and walked out to invite Tiffany to eat. I can't find her anymore. I followed her until I realized she had gone back. Never mind, I wasn't looking for anything. But at least if you're going back, you should come to me first.

Look at Jessica's beautiful face. I'm starting to feel weak. Do I really have to be just a 'sex partner' forever? Even though I myself am trying to get rid of the pain from this disease.

I slowly got up from the bed, naked. Come back and look at yourself through the mirror in the bathroom. The face of a fool is like this.

The word stupid is stuck on his forehead like a tattoo.

Last night's event was no different from the past. I'm just someone who provides Jessica's physical happiness when she's lonely. But wasn't I happy to have such a good time with you?

Day 14 of treatment...

After telling everything to Nong Seo I was scolded. Nong So wore her hair and walked away. A is angry that I turned soft on Jessica. I feel angry at myself too. And when I came to hear the most painful words that touched my heart from Nong Seo's mouth. I feel like I'm falling apart.

“I want to be just a 'sleeping partner' forever, whatever you want.”

It was correct and true as Nong Seo said. Everything was correct. It was so true that I thought the truth was too cruel.

“So, do you think that you are the only one who has slept with him, and his girlfriend?”

It may or may not be true. But I'm in pain But it's very true. Nong Seo spoke so directly that I didn't want to sit and listen any longer. I want to escape far away

“Don't you feel disgusted?”

The harsh words from Seo Joohyun were not exaggerated at all, on the contrary, they were too real and cruel.

But what can I do? Well, I love Jessica.

Then suddenly a thought popped up in my room. I called Tiffany on the phone and told her I'd be there in 10 minutes.

It's probably time for me to do what I need to do.

Tiffany didn't smile like usual. Maybe I thought she knew about me and Jessica. But at least she agreed to meet me in the garden behind her performance building. It was in the late afternoon so there weren't many people walking around. Tiffany sat on the grass less than a meter away from me.

“I'm sorry I didn't send you off that day.” I apologize from my heart, I'm really hurt, I feel guilty.

“Are we still lovers, Taeyeon?” I didn't want to answer this. Tiffany asked in a serious and measured voice without wanting an answer. It's like she just wants to vent.

Only the wind can know this answer. I didn't answer, letting my words just now float away with the wind. The truth is too cruel to speak. Tiffany herself shouldn't have known this pain. Just let me keep it to myself. At least I can stop sinning against good people.

It must be difficult to start over with anyone. But nothing is too difficult for a human like me.

“I love Jessica very much. I know you already know about me and Sica. We were together for a long time but then we broke up. Sigh. Actually, it's not fair to say that we were together when things between us were a secret. And I'm just like Sika's partner.” I don't know why. That's why I want to tell Tiffany the truth. But I don't feel afraid at all. I want to finish talking, say it all.

“What did we have that day? The day you left without saying goodbye to me, I'm sorry. I don't want to hide it from you again. I'm really bad.”

I don't want to guess how bad Tiffany feels.

“Don't apologize to me. I've known this for a long time,” Tiffany said, handing something to me. Photo of two girls The face looks familiar. The person on the left is Tiffany. As for the person next to me, I remember Jessica clearly.

What does it mean?

“Jesse is my best friend. In fact, we used to be close. But because there are many things, we gradually grow apart. ” She is making me stunned. Of course I didn't know that she and Jessica were close friends. In the past, the two of them had shown such a gap that they looked like they didn't know each other.

Tiffany's face looking out ahead She looks absent-minded, but on the other hand, she has a definite focus.

“I also lied to you, Taeyeon.”

“How?” I really want to know. Tiffany turned to me and gave me a small smile. At least today she's smiling like every other day.

“ Almost 2 years ago, Jesse and I met someone. He was so cute and I fell madly in love with him. At that time, I was hesitant about whether to go talk to him because he seemed so calm. But Jesse walked over and talked to him without hesitation. From then on, both Jesse and he became close and started dating each other. I can only look and show the slightest emotion.”

She smiled and was silent for a moment, “Kim Taeyeon.”

“Huh,” I answered my name. Even though he frowned in confusion at his sudden name being called

“His name is Kim Taeyeon. She's not just Jesse's partner. Jesse really loves you. But he had to date Taecyeon because Jessica's mother and father began to know about them. Jesse's house isn't as chill as my house.”

“But they are together and are very suitable for each other.” Unlike me, there is nothing suitable. But being born a woman is wrong.

“It's true.”

“What is the matter with them? I don't care Even though it hurts a bit,” Tiffany laughed. It seemed at odds with her sad voice.

I moved closer to her and held her hand tightly.

“Do you think I can stop loving Sika?” My stupid question rang out amidst laughter.

“No, if we love someone, there will be no way to stop loving them. No matter how much you hate it, the love deep within your heart can never be erased. You can't stop loving Jessica, Taeyeon. Because no matter how hard I try not to love you, I still can't.”

I don't know how long it will be before I stop loving Jessica. And I don't know if it can be done or not. Tiffany might be talking about how we can't stop loving the person we're cool with. That I don't feel it, but it doesn't mean I don't love it. It is to cover up the heart so that it doesn't act strangely.

After this treatment No matter what happens I, too, am prepared to deal with it, even though my treatment will take the rest of my life.

Maybe one day the cancer in my heart will subside.

Even though today I'm back to being a choice again, at least Tiffany has made me see that I can make choices myself. Even so, I still don't get carried away. Because being willing to choose is the best solution.

Day 387 of treatment...

“Fanny, what are you doing? If you cook food and it tastes like vomit like this, you don't have to do it the next time.” I shouted at Tiffany, sounding extremely annoyed and dissatisfied. Hot pot tastes like people's vomit mixed with spoiled food. From initially sitting and waiting anxiously because of hunger, we had to give up.

Even though our relationship is not much different from the first day we met. But we have become closer under the small, more clearly defined framework of the word 'girlfriend'. Tiffany is still the same good Tiffany. She showed no hesitation in turning away from me. Even today I still can't forget Jessica.

Again, last night Jessica came to see me as usual. and doing the same things as always

Hot love battle in bed

Even though I can only be a 'sleeping partner', I am willing and happy to perform my duties with all my might.

“I tried, Tae. Don't blame me,” Tiffany made a face.

“Let's go out and get something to eat. I raised her myself.” I hurriedly got up and carried the hot pot to the sink before destroying it. It's not just the bad taste, the smell is also strong.

Even though Dr. Tiffany couldn't cure me of Jessica's heart cancer, But at least today I have begun to love the doctor a little. Time is like the magic medicine for this disease. Maybe I was in too much of a hurry at first. But now I let myself be the wind that takes the bad things away and brings in the good things.

The status is still unclear between him and Jessica. Seems to be a bit displeased and displeased for Nong Seo. But now Nong Seo doesn't have enough time to teach me. She received a scholarship to study in America. I just dropped her off a month ago. Nong Seo is still 'Precocious girl' in my eyes is fine. No matter how strong it is,

In the end, he cried and cried in front of his parents, including me.

'Take care of yourself, parents'

'Uncle Tae, I'm not here to read a lot of books.'

This love is so strange Whether you're happy or not Whether you're suffering or not, you're not suffering. But the role is heavy and full of force, making you lose your guard.

“Taeyeon, stay here with me tonight,” Tiffany walked over and begged while I was washing the cool hotpot with clean water. I looked at her slightly from the corner of my eye.

very cute

Now my feelings are not empty with Tiffany anymore. It was no different from when he was with Jessica at all.

“No, I have morning class tomorrow.” I pretended not to care and replied nonchalantly. But even though it's true No need to wait for her to invite me to stay over, I was already planning to stay over at Tiffany's condo. I noticed her face darken with disappointment.

So who's interested? I like seeing sad faces like this the most.

The hot pot was completely engulfed. I wiped my hands clean and prepared to go outside. I was now so hungry that I could easily eat everything in sight. The two of us walked around to choose a restaurant in the nighttime commercial area. There are many interesting shops everywhere. But I probably wouldn't choose to eat hot pot. That strange smell still lingers in my nose.

Until finally, we chose a Japanese restaurant. Tiffany ordered the raw fish set and I ordered the beef rice bowl.

“You'll get bloated soon, Taeyeon,” Tiffany scolded me, who was happily eating the delicious meat. Who cared? Those who were sitting patiently waiting to eat the amazing cooking that Tiffany had studied with my aunt. It came out really bad like that.

“It's delicious. Taste it.” I held the meat in front of me, intending to feed it to another person. Let them know how different their skills are. The next day, she wouldn't be able to cook again. Tiffany didn't accept my food. She just stared blankly.

“It's delicious, try it, it's really amazing.”

“You eat?” Tiffany lowered her head and continued eating her own raw fish. I just shook my head, not understanding why they were ignoring me. Normally, I only run. The more I do things that seem to please me like this,

What is it about him?

Through dinner, I felt a little better. Even though my stomach was a little tight, I wasn't as bloated as Tiffany was concerned about. The two of us walked through the night plaza looking at clothes to digest our food. At first, I just walked around and didn't want to buy anything, but because I was with a shopping girl, I had to stop and compare every store. A plain t-shirt doesn't suit you like Tiffany, no matter how you look at it.

“Fanny, hurry back.” I tugged at her sleeve. But she didn't care about me at all.

“Then I'm back, sleepy.” I'm still the same spoiled Taeyeon. I ignored Tiffany and walked out of the store. People don't know where to go. I don't know how to sleep.

I don't know how I lived like this when I hated doing this to anyone other than Jessica. But I've been doing it for years. The nighttime lights in this area are quite romantic. If I have free time, I might have to call and invite Jessica to come out for a walk. Even if invited in a vague position

“Taeyeon-ah, you can't just wait like this.” Tiffany ran after her, making a sad sound. I looked at her with a furrowed brow.

“Are you finished?” I lead her out. I didn't care about Tiffany's face.

People started walking more and more until I walked out to the bus stop and saw Tiffany's crinkled face. Take it in. Do you think she's cute? That's right, it's cute, so why not do it often? I'm lazy, my heart is pounding.

Saluting, sighing, I walked up to Tiffany and gently wrapped my arms around her waist. She was slightly startled. and stared at my face without understanding

“Let's go home, I'm sleepy.”

“Home,” she looked suspicious. Yai Er just said this and pretended not to understand.

“Tonight........I want to be with you.......This meal won't make me fat.” I raised my face and whispered softly into Tiffany's ear. Then gently blow the air to give her goosebumps for fun.

“Crazy,” Tiffany gently pushed me. Before we hailed a taxi and headed towards Tiffany's condo.

My relationship with Tiffany didn't reach a dead end like I first thought. We can knock down obstacles and move forward together. Actually, we're just like any other couple, except we're women too, so we didn't reveal it to anyone. Tiffany followed the agreement very well.

She's not jealous.

She's not jealous.

She doesn't show ownership.

But she only showed how much she loved me. She tolerates my spoiled idiocy while I don't want to tolerate her idiocy.

Tiffany, I love you, but I still love Jessica. You wouldn't be angry, would you?

It's complete.

Hurry and get off before I'm unavailable for a month. Anyway, please leave a comment.

It's the writer's first story. This short story is very difficult. I don't know how to end it. Haha.

Finally, I would like to wish everyone a happy New Year 2012.

No matter where you take the entrance exam, whatever you do will be successful. Amen.../...