Maybe I'm slow to wake up?

I walked around to the bedroom that didn't have Sin's belongings anymore.

Nut  part

Maybe I'm slow to wake up?

I walked around to the bedroom that didn't have Sin's belongings anymore.

I looked at the bed where we slept together. I lay down and go to sleep.

“Nat Sin really wants to go to the beach.” Nat remembers how he flatly refused.

“No, Nat, I don't have much time. When I have time, I want to sleep.” What is he working so hard for?

Sin has no one like Nat. She doesn't have a home to return to. Even though she has a home, Sin's home has no one. Not mom or dad or anyone who would wait for Sin to return. An accident took them away from Sin. It's different from Nut, which has nothing at all. Nat has a father and mother, no, everything she has is complete and ready until one day Nat goes home.

Dad was hugging Mom. They both decided to leave Nat alone. With two bullets in his temple. The house was seized and there was nothing left. Nat remembers how long he had to struggle for school and escape everything until he met Sin. The warmth of yesterday returned. Because of a coincidence, the couple had to share a room. We have to be roommates.

Sin is a portrait artist by day. and a singer at night As for Nat, she doesn't have anything except studying, being number one, taking scholarship exams, and being a lecturer. According to various schools Nat needs capital. Nat has to work and has to take exams. Nat has to travel non-stop to give tutoring. Nat forgot something.

When I went back to last year Nat forgot Sin's birthday. It also means the fourth anniversary. Nat forgot that Sin would be sick during the winter. A chronic cold is difficult to recover from. Forgot that Sin had to sleep on the sofa because he was waiting for Nat to come back in the morning. Sometimes on free days he is tired and sleeps all the time and forgets that Sin is sitting next to him reading a rumor book. He was so focused on his work that he forgot that Sin was next to him or what he had told him.

Because Nat thinks that just being together is good. Until I forgot that Sin was feeling hurt. And likes to keep things to himself....Nat always thought that Sin understood. and accept that it is like this Because Nat intends to buy a house. And that was the house that was the home of the two of them....Nat cried softly. The smell of the shampoo on the pillow made Nat cry out.

Sin always hugged him from behind. No matter that Nat turned on his side and ran away because he was uncomfortable sleeping. Sin still hugged him. Sometimes Nat is so tired that she doesn't take a shower. Sin will wipe you off. When I go to work, no matter how early in the morning, Sin will prepare clothes for me. Prepare a bag of clothes...Sin does everything without Nut having to ask.....Nut doesn't have to say anything.

But Sin begs....

“Nat can't stay with Sin....today.” Sin didn't even finish his sentence. Nat didn't listen...

"Natsin wants to travel to..." Nat replied that he was busy.....

“Nat....Sin asked Nat to take care of herself....” It was about Nat's body, but Sin cared.

“Can you please be the same Nat? Nat who was beside Sin on the day Sin needed him. On the day Sin was sick...." Nat didn't do anything at all.... No. Nat neglected me. Nat is a bad person, Sin. Please come back.

thick gray book That fell into the nook. Nut looked at it. It was Sin's book. Inside this book, from the first page to the last. It makes Nat think that no one loves Nat and that Nat will never be able to love her as much as Sin.

A picture of Nat smiling, sleeping, eating, and later it will be Nat wearing a suit. It's Nat sitting in front of the computer. The last picture is Nat and Sin in the Ariya chapter lying with their backs to each other. In the picture, it is Sin who is crying....

What is Nat doing? ......Nat covered his face again. A sob stuck in my throat....I never acknowledged it. I closed my ears and eyes.

Is this what P'Stamp is trying to tell?

"Smart in every way....stupid in only one thing..."

Yes, I'm stupid......

It's so stupid to keep trying to move forward.

Take a steady step Go ahead and build your own empire. Even though I hoped that Sin would come and stay with me. But he never explained his "heavy mouth" and didn't speak.

Where is Sin now?......It's probably like Sin asked where Nat is.....

Very sorry

Sorry for neglecting

Sorry for overlooking

Sorry for not paying attention

But Nat loves Sin.....the person who has always been important.......