Some people search for things. So much to hope for one day

He will find what suits him best.

Look around you until you forget to pay attention to the things that are next to you.

Ignore feelings Don't see the importance

and threw that thing away without caring about its value

By the time I realized that this was what was important.....it was already too late.

Kim Kibum, I have something important on my side. But I never knew the value. Run after what you think is appropriate. Until the day I realized that I had accidentally left out something important. Today I will ask for that important thing back. But it's probably too late, right?

Lee Donghae, I knew myself all along. Know who you are So who is he? How different are we? But because of the word love, I try to resist every truth. Until the day he left me

Kim Heechul, I always thought we loved each other. We're all suitable for each other. Everyone speaks with the same voice. But what meaning will it have? If in reality..he doesn't love me

Chow Kyuhyun, as long as the person I love is happy. I will let him be happy like that. But if one day he is suffering I'll go get him out of there. The place that made him cry

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Th3ovsd8DUU

I used to think that there was nothing wrong with that. People will try to find the best thing for their own lives. I pursue what I think is worthy of me. Look for new things to come into your life. And one day...I think I found what suits me the most. I didn't hesitate to grab it. and choose to let go of things

One that has been by my side forever.

.....but I just realized today. That what I let go.....was my heart...

“I met your girlfriend last night at a party in the hotel. ...He's been out with another woman again.” A notice that the speaker herself felt was extremely uncomfortable for herself and the listener. It was said while secretly observing the symptoms of those who still had no response.

“Aren't you going to say anything, Donghae?” When there was still no response, Hyukjae couldn't help but urge her friend to express her feelings.

“What do you want me to say, Hyukjae?”

“Anything that isn't still like this.”

“Then you can tell we have nothing to say.”

“Why do you have to let him do this to you? Kibum is your boyfriend. Why don't you do anything? I'll leave it to someone else like this!!” Hyukjae's voice started to get louder, indicating Hyukjae's anger that was starting to increase very well. But even then, Donghae could only sigh to relieve the tension.

“So what should we do? Make us go to a party with only rich people like that? Hyukjae knew that if we did that it would be good but it would embarrass Kibum. To have a boyfriend who has nothing like us.”

“Why would it be embarrassing? Donghae is my boyfriend. If it's going to embarrass anyone like this, just stop doing it. You don't have to associate with him, this kind of person."

“Hyukjae, we love Kibum..” Donghae's weak voice couldn't get Hyukjae's sympathy.

“And what about him? Does he love Donghae? Nowadays what it is doing to Donghae, everyone knows. that it never stops Nowadays, he still keeps going with everyone, even though it's Donghae already.”

“Does Kibum dare to openly say in front of everyone that Lee Donghae is his girlfriend?”

“Think carefully, Donghae. that today what Donghae is doing these days What did Donghae do it for?”

“Donghae is going to do a part-time job?” a question from a lover was asked. After she brought up the matter of her going to work as a part-time worker to discuss with Kibum. When we have a chance to meet each other

“Oh, the expenses are increasing to the point that Donghae is afraid that just the funds alone won't be enough.”

“Actually, if that's not enough, Donghae can tell me. So that you don't have to go to work and get tired?”

“No, Donghae doesn't want to disturb Kibum with something like this. Besides, Donghae also wants to try it. So that I can have money saved for when I need it.” Donghae stated his thoughts and turned to look at Kibum's face. Donghae is an orphan who is raised by an aunt. Until when she grew up, she tried to reduce her aunt's annoyance.

Because her aunt also has responsibilities and her own child to take care of. Therefore, she chose to take the scholarship exam. and has always spent money sparingly without disturbing the money from her aunt

“So where will I work part-time?”

“At the same coffee shop as Kyu. Kyu said that right now the shop is running out of people.”

“So, if Kyu is working with me, I trust him. When will Donghae start working?” As they talked, Kibum couldn't help but hug his girlfriend's thin waist close to his chest. As a result, Donghae's smooth, clear face became red with embarrassment. But he didn't deny Kibum's attitude.

“Kyu made an appointment with the shop owner for Donghae to try his hand at internship today. Kibum is going with Donghae.” Donghae turned and invited Kibum in hopes of bringing his lover to cheer him up on the first day of his internship. But Kibum's attitude had changed. This made her feel a little disappointed.

“Are you busy, Kibum?”

“I'm sorry, Donghae, but tonight I made an appointment with a friend to go eat at a restaurant.”

“We'll have another chance next time, Donghae,” was all he said before bending down to press his nose against his lover's temple in comfort. without noticing that his own consolation Unable to console my loved one for a moment.

"I can't believe it, Kibum. We've been studying in the same place for almost 2 years now, but we've never met once."

“Haha, it's not strange that Heechul's group and mine are that far apart. It's not strange if we haven't met each other."

“I guess if we didn't go to the pub last night as Siwon invited us, we definitely wouldn't have had a chance of meeting Kibum here.”

The two people's intimate conversation caught the attention of those around them. Kim Hee-chul, the son of a famous politician who has a star degree in the Faculty of Management and Hospitality. Complete in various aspects Whether it is appearance, status, education, including a personality that is easy to get along with and charming.

Especially at this time, the person participating in the conversation is in the month of engineering. Therefore, it is not surprising that these two received a lot of attention from those around them.

“Even though we haven't met. But I've always heard about Heechul's reputation.”

“Is this reputation good or bad?” Your teasing words and charming smile can really catch the eyes of those around you. And that includes Kim Kibum as well.

“I don't think I've ever heard of Heechul's flaws.” The conversation continued. And the longer it goes on, it seems that the interest that each side has for each other will increase even more. Until the conversation was interrupted when the sound of Kibum's phone ringing.

“You don't accept it, Kibum?” Heechul, who secretly noticed Kibum looking down at the phone screen but didn't accept it, couldn't help but ask.

"Hm...it's okay..just a friend" he said simply. Even if the name appears in the incoming call It will be the name of...Lee Donghae.

[ continue ]

“Is Kibum busy again, Donghae?” A loud voice caused Donghae to turn around and look behind him. So she saw Kyuhyun, another close friend of hers, walking in and sitting next to her. and handed her hot cocoa

“Oh, earlier Kibum told me that he was going home. But when I tried calling, it didn't connect at all. We also didn't dare call Kibum's house. Afraid that his house would know That Kibum...is with us."

“Why do you have to think so much? Somehow, one day at Kibum's house, he must find out who his son is dating. How long do you think it can be closed?”

“We didn't plan to close it, but...”

“Kibum isn't ready to tell him at home, is he?” Kyuhyun's knowing words made Donghae unable to answer. He could only nod at those words. I couldn't help but feel a little disappointed in myself.

“We and him are too different Kyu....We don't have anything....We don't know what we should do....” Donghae could only vent his feelings along with the tears that shed. come out Donghae's tired expression showed. Kyuhyun, who was watching, couldn't help but hold his trembling body as if to protect and comfort this small body.

“We...we're afraid of Kyu....we're afraid that Kibum will leave us....we're afraid that..Kibum's house won't accept us.....We don't have anything suitable for Kibum. Like...we're all afraid..."

“Who said Donghae doesn't have anything? Why don't you tell me?"

“And who said that Donghae isn't suitable for Kibum? Please tell me.”

“..........” There was still no answer from Donghae. Aside from crying in his arms and continuing to listen to Kyuhyun's words.

“Try having someone say that to Donghae. Tell me, I'll go knock it down and take it to Donghae right then and there. I will let him know that Donghae has one important thing that other people don't have like Donghae.”

“....What..is it..”

“Donghae always has pure and sincere love for the people he loves. Is it important, Donghae, that people love each other? They must be equally rich to be a couple. People who love each other must have good feelings towards each other and be connected to each other. Isn't it like Donghae and Kibum?"

“.....Kyu...”

“Even though Donghae may not be as rich as Kibum, But Donghae never had to ask from Kibum, right? Donghae has always stood by himself. Even though in fact Donghae doesn't have to come work here with me. Just Donghae asks Kibum for a moment and Donghae will be fine.”

“But Donghae didn't do it. Donghae was sincere enough about it. Isn't this just another proof of how good Donghae is?" Seeing the small figure who still cries silently He still listened and did not respond. Kyuhyun then gently caressed the other's soft hair before smiling at Donghae to encourage him.

“Be confident in yourself, Donghae. Besides, Donghae still has me by his side. Is Donghae really afraid of something?” Hearing that, Donghae returned and hugged Kyuhyun tightly. again before thanking the other party with a heart full of encouragement once again.

“Thank you Kyu...Donghae loves Kyu the most.”

That's enough, Donghae. Just hearing that Donghae loves me....in any capacity, I'm satisfied.

It's probably like someone once said that time changes things. Always be able to change As time passes, Kibum and Heechul's relationship grows closer. This may be because both sides come from the same society. Familiarity and reading ideas are therefore very similar and probably comparable.

With a relationship that seems to have more and more gaps Between Kibum and Donghae

“Have you ever heard of a person named Heechul?” Even though the tone seemed to be a general question, But Donghae knew exactly what this question from Hyukjae meant to her.

“Does he have something that we need to know, Hyukjae?”

“I just want to know if you know him or not. By the way, do you know him?”

"Sigh...I know, Dao Faculty of Management, are you satisfied?"

"That's all you know?"

“Then do you need us to know more?” Hyukjae knew from just listening to his short tone that this friend of hers wasn't stupid and didn't understand any changes like she once understood. But being fully aware and pretending not to know like this She wasn't sure if it was actually good or not.

“Let's not talk about it, Donghae. What will you gain by enduring being such a fool? Why would you let him trick you, may I ask?”

“No matter how smart we are, we also get hurt. How much does it hurt to fight like a fool like this? But at least we still have him beside us.”

“Stupid!!...Do you really think like this? So let's ask. Is it true that Donghae told us that if you live like this stupidly you will have that bastard by your side? Think carefully. Is it with Donghae that Donghae has to pretend to be stupid these days? He disappeared somewhere with other people, didn't he?!!”

It was as if the sudden loss of consciousness would cause Hyukjae to accidentally say something mean. Because until she came to her senses again The friend she had always loved looked at her in shock before tears could not be prevented from flowing down.

“Donghae...we're sorry...don't be mad at us. We don't say anything anymore. I'm sorry. Don't be angry at us, Donghae...."

“We really didn't intend to make Donghae cry. But we don't want Donghae to be tricked by a brat like this.”

“Donghae's love is precious. Would it be better to keep it for someone who knows its worth?”

"...We...don't want to do this..."

"Oh..don't cry, don't cry..."

“But we....want...to give Kibum. He was the one who told us..."

“Donghae..”

“At least...Ki..Bum..was the one who told us. We..still have good feelings left...to be friends with him..." A trembling voice tried to explain his own feelings. It made Hyukjae feel sorry for his thin body. of little friends even more Until I had to rub and comfort him to make Donghae feel relaxed.

“Oh, we know. We understand. No matter what, Donghae again I'm not crying anymore.." The more I saw it, the more I felt anger towards another man who today would be happy with someone else. Never looked back at her friend like before.

Do you know? That your happiness must be exchanged for the tears of many good people, Kim Kibum

Because I don't want to have to endure seeing my friends shed tears for people who don't value them anymore. That evening, Hyukjae arranged for Jo Kyuhyun, Kibum and Donghae's close friend, to tell Kim Kibum and Donghae's unacceptable actions to this person, even in person. She herself knows this close friend of Donghae only superficially.

Because she herself got to know Donghae when she entered university. Unlike Kibum and Kyuhyun, the three of them have known each other since high school. But as far as she could see, this Kyuhyun was someone who seemed trustworthy. And there should be enough reasons.

And most importantly....he values ​​Donghae. Got more than Kim So kibum in your eyes

The story that Kyuhyun learned from Hyukjae It really made his heart hurt. Emotions that were always under control It's like suddenly being stubborn. He always knew that Donghae was always hurt by this love because there was so much difference between Donghae and Kibum. But every time he always accepts it.

Because at least he still saw that Kibum loved and was able to return happiness to Donghae. But it doesn't have to be like now. It's not like Donghae is suffering from life or death. And Kibum doesn't care about Donghae and turns to other women like this.

.......He will never be able to accept it......

"What's your appointment, Kyu?" a voice greeted from Kim. Kibum who said When you arrived at the appointed place as Kyuhyun had said. Unable to make the person who made the appointment look at themselves.

“Kyu..I asked you, why did you make an appointment with me?”

“Who is the person named Kim Heechul?” A sudden question. was mentioned This made Kibum's breathing slightly erratic. Because I had not prepared myself for talking about this matter beforehand.

“What do you...know...?”

“What I know is not important. It's important who he is!!” His attitude was like acceptance of Kibum's condition. This made Kyuhyun's mood even more heated. The fact that he hasn't interfered in Kibum and Donghae's affairs all along. It wasn't to give Kibum an opportunity to hurt Donghae's feelings like this.

“I...sorry..”

“I don't want an apology. I just want to know the answer to who Kim Heechul is!!”

“Kyu...I'm sorry...but Heechul...he's my boyfriend.” Just then, Kyuhyun's punch slammed into Kibum's face. Until the other party turned around and staggered down. But Kyuhyun just refused. He bent down and pulled the other man's shirt collar to get him up again.

“If he is your boyfriend. And who is Donghae?!!!” There was no answer for Kyuhyun. Kibum could only keep his head down and accept the punishment from the other party willingly for his own crimes. Kibum's expression causing Kyuhyun to try to keep his mind calm. before pushing the other party away Until he saw that Kibum was able to support himself, he began to ask questions that were on his mind.

“Since when? When did you start cheating on Donghae like this?”

"....almost a month ago...."

“Kyu....I don't want everything to be like this.”

“But you did it!!”

“You know me and Donghae don't get along. I can't tell anyone that Donghae is my boyfriend. He is my lover. My society and his are too different.”

“That is your selfish opinion alone. It's not about him and you not being compatible. You've never tried. I don't dare admit it myself.”

“Then what do you want me to do? Just think about Donghae, don't care about anything. You don't have to care about society or the feelings or opinions of people at my house, right?”

“When you say this, have you ever taken Donghae to your house?!”

“If you don't take me, I know what will happen. What must Donghae face? And you want me to take Donghae to experience such embarrassment?!!”

"You're a coward. You better not blame anyone."

“Uh...I might be a coward. But that's because I don't want to have to face any problems in the future. Kyu, do you know if today I choose Donghae? What will my future be like with him? He and I will have to endure the discomfort of the differences that we have with each other. What else is it like at my house?"

“In the end, it was because Donghae was poor. He has no respectability in society, so you didn't choose him.”

“I have never been disrespectful or disrespectful about that, Kyu. But I choose to only look at myself and not see other people's heads.”

“So you had to choose Heechul because he got along with you.”

“Heechul lives in a similar world to me. He always understands me even though we just met.” Silence was the last thing the two of them had for each other. Kyuhyun was too disappointed in Kibum to say anything else. Kibum himself felt too guilty to make any excuses.

“Donghae already knows about this, right?”

“How is he..”

“Do you even care what he looks like?”

“Kyu no matter how bad I am. But one thing that can be confirmed is the feelings I have for him.”

“You can say whatever you want. But there's no use since you won't choose him.”

“What will you do next?”

“I....will break up with Donghae...”

“And if it's not too much? I would like to...go back and be friends with him again..."

“You never realized this, right?!!!” Listening to this, the emotions that seemed to have cooled down suddenly became hot again. Kyuhyun didn't know what to say to someone who only hurt a little girl's feelings. Breaking up with Donghae seemed serious to him. But this is like asking to be friends again. He really doesn't know.

What does Kibum's mind do? I never thought that I would sympathize with someone who could hurt this much.

“You did this to him and still have the courage to come back and be friends with Donghae!!”

“Kyu...I don't want everything to be like this.”

“But you did it yourself. Decide everything yourself Donghae will never accept your selfish thoughts like this.”

“But accept.” Suddenly, a loud voice called out, causing shock and wide eyes to turn and look in the direction of the voice. The two of them then met a young woman who had her hands clasped tightly around her chest. The tears that flowed from her two beautiful eyes together with the way she trembled to hold back her sobs clearly indicated that she was aware of everything.

“...Dong..he...”

"We've heard it all..."

“We already know how we should act…”

“Donghae....I...”

“From now on, don't worry. We'll be friends..."

"Let's just end it, Kibum...be very happy with him."

"Good luck to Kibum."

[ continue ]

From that day Kibum introduced Kim. Heechul as an open lover Many times when the couple goes out to social events together It became noticeable when the heirs of politicians and big businessmen had related relationships between the two families. Everyone who saw the couple spoke with the same voice about their suitability.

Donghae hears news about his ex-lover every day during her university activities. After the day the two chose to change their status from lovers to just friends. Donghae had never had the opportunity to meet face to face with Kibum and Kim Heechul directly. Many times they walked past each other.

The two of them could only smile in greeting and leave. She herself could tell that she was not ready for this change at all. Even though it was the person who actually stated that it was acceptable, but when you really took it in, She also knew that she still needed a lot of time.

“What are you thinking?” Donghae once again had to be the one to wake her up from her trance and return to the real world again. Donghae turned towards his friend who was sitting next to her.

“What are you thinking about?”

“Oh, so let's go to the store? Leeteuk didn't go to the store today either. I suspect Donghae and I have been busy all day here.”

“Okay, let's go.” After agreeing, the two of them got up and prepared to go to the coffee shop immediately. But Donghae was a little taken aback. Kyuhyun, who had gotten up to follow her, reached out and snatched the bag and book from her hands.

“I'm holding it for you, let's go.” With that said, the young man immediately led the way. He didn't turn around and saw that the person from whom he stole his things was. There's a small smile. which had disappeared for a long time, came back to have a beautiful face again

[ 1 year ago ]

"Seriously, what's going on with you and Kyu?" The question seemed serious. But because the question was asked from a face that was smiling mockingly Can't help but make Donghae smile with laughter on his face.

“So what do you think?”

“Still going back again. What do you think? I think you and Ethanee are already dating. You can ask."

“If you have the answer for yourself like this, then why are you asking me? Kyunni, cappuccino and waffles, table three.” Hyukjae, who was hit back by Donghae, just sat and made faces at his friends. Kyuhyun walked up to Donghae's call but heard their conversation.

“Hyukjae, I think I'll ask about these things next time. It's easier to ask me. If you ask Donghae, he won't tell you.” When he saw Hyukjae who looked like he was annoyed, Donghae only laughed a little. And can't help but tease.

“Pretend to speak nicely. Long Donghae tells him not to speak. You didn't tell me anyway.” Just then, the laughter from both Donghae and Kyuhyun sounded again. before separating to continue working together

Hyukjae who was left alone After the other two had to go to work. I could only look at the two of them and smile at the days that had passed. Until everything came to this day, she could only tell herself that there were too many stories. Even though she, being an outsider, could only be a temporary refuge, she felt this exhausting.

She also doesn't know for Donghae and Kyuhyun. Or maybe including how difficult Kibum is?

Having to start everything from scratch was too much for Donghae. Because it's not just the beginning of reversing the loss of Kibum. But Donghae had to relearn how to smile. Stopping the tears that flow every time Why do I have to start over for being friends with Kibum?

And there will also be Heechul, Kibum's new lover. She thanked Kyuhyun on behalf of her friend as he always stood by Donghae's side and was never far away like this. Because she doesn't know if she doesn't have this man. Will Donghae become a new Donghae who is cheerful again in this short period of time?

“What are you smiling about all alone, Hyukjae? Anyone who sees this will think they're crazy.” Donghae walked back and greeted Hyukjae again. He teased when he saw that Hyukjae had just been smiling and not speaking for a while.

"Who the hell is this? I'm trying to think of something good. Wait a minute."

“Oh..that's true.” Just saying that, Donghae turned to smile at Kyuhyun. who turned and smiled at Donghae.

“Donghae...”

“Hm...What do you say..”

“Have you met Kibum now?…” Even though Hyukjae was previously very angry and resentful towards Kibum instead of Donghae. But as said The past days have changed people's feelings. Nowadays, Kibum to her is just an ordinary ex-boyfriend of her friend.

“We met a few days ago maybe. I'm going to watch a movie with Kyu then."

"So....how are you...do you still feel anything..."

“Do you still...love that doctor..”

“No, I don't feel the same way about Kibum anymore.”

“And now you....”

“The feeling I have for Kibum. It has turned into good wishes like normal friends. There's nothing.”

“So..now are you angry at Kibum? For leaving you like that.”

“No, I have never been angry at Kibum since the beginning. As the days passed, the more I wasn't angry at Kibum. Plus I can even understand why he did that.”

“He and I are really different. No matter what we do, no matter what angle we look at, we don't get along at all. At that time, I kept thinking like a child. That it's just love As long as we love each other, we will get through everything. That's why I pushed and forced everything."

“It wasn't until now that I understood Kibum. What did he think at that time? Love alone doesn't keep us together forever. Because we are not the only two people in the world. Kibum has a family. There is a society that needs to be cared for. He himself at that time must have been trying to protect me from having to face the disrespect of those around him, so he kept it a secret and never revealed that we were dating.

And I never understood that point.”

“Donghae..”

“At least I once loved Kibum. It made me learn more things. So now for me, Kibum is a friend that I hope. he will be happy And Mr. Heechul is cute. I've met him, so I believe they will be happy.”

“And what about you? Are you happy now?” Another question, the one that Hyukjae wanted to know the most, was asked. Donghae smiled at that question. It was the moment when Kyuhyun walked and sat next to Donghae because he saw that there were fewer customers in the store.

Donghae turned and smiled at Kyuhyun before holding the young man's hand and turning to look at Hyukjae.

“I'm happy, Hyukjae. Now I can truly smile. Don't worry.”

Sometimes pain always comes with happiness. That's what Kim Kibum is thinking. Because even though secretly sitting in the coffee shop this time will make him hear clearly that That person he always knew he loved. But only found out later that he couldn't allow the girl to be away from him on the day he chose to let go of her hand.

Today, the feelings she once had for him have disappeared.

But he was happy because at least he knew that today. She's happy now.

He decided to walk out of the store without letting her know that this person had secretly walked back to at least stand nearby. You're just this Just seeing you in my eyes It was not at all necessary for her to realize that he was standing here.

“Are you leaving now, Kibum?” a voice greeted from a young man behind him. This made Kibum a little startled. But he chose to turn around and face the friend he was very close to yesterday.

“Is it your intention to come and return like this?”

“You heard it with your own two ears, Kibum. Donghae isn't angry or hates you at all. Stop running away from us.” Kyuhyun's words caused me to look into his eyes again.

Part of me wanted to yell in this man's face. Yes, Donghae doesn't hate me anymore. As if he doesn't love me anymore. Are you satisfied that you were able to take this woman away from me? But on the other hand, I know very well....that everything.....is my fault.

If I don't let go of Donghae.....there will never be a day when Kyuhyun will be able to take Donghae away from me.

If it weren't for me..........Today, the person Donghae chose to hold hands and smile at would probably be me.

...........Not Zhou Kyuhyun.

“Save it for another day, Kyu. I'm really busy today, so let's go.” I chose to turn around and leave from here as quickly as possible. Don't want to stand here and know anything anymore. I've lost Donghae and I know it. And until now, even if I go tell Donghae that I'm willing to give up everything. Whether it's social appearance

fame or family In exchange for making him love me again

...........Donghae's answer would probably be .....no.

I've missed out on this love. There is no opportunity to go back and fix anything. The only way I can do this is to move forward. Because besides this, the path I chose did not walk alone. I also dragged another person into this path with me. I should also take responsibility for that person.

"Hello, Heechul? Oh, I'm going. Wait for me for a moment. See you later."

My life is good, but it makes the people next to me You must have shed enough tears. But this time it might be time for me to stop. From now on Donghae doesn't have me around. I already know that Donghae will have a smile and no more tears. From now on I must go do my duty. I'm leaving all my love to Donghae here.

When I have chosen my role and the society around me I would like to take responsibility for it as best I can. No one will have to cry over my decision anymore.

“I love Donghae. Be happy. As Donghae said I will always support you and look at Donghae from afar.” Those were Kibum's last words after looking at the coffee shop one last time. before moving the car away Abandon everything, even your own heart.

[ End ]