Title: From the Hearts

Summary: What you say and what you feel maybe they are different things....

Part 1

Please take care of me

Part 2 The Hardest thing

Part 3 儚い指先

Epilogue

Date finished: March 10, 2012

Date first post: March 11, 2012

Date post here: March 24, 2012

A/N:

It's a fic that has nothing (really nothing -.-“), but the soundtrack makes the writer's heart hurt.

Turn on the background music. Read it and you'll get very emotional.

Part 1 

Please take care of me

Tomohisa’s side

Knock, knock, knock.

'Yes, just a moment.' The cries of people inside the room sounded out, letting those outside know that they were coming to open the door for them.

“Oh, it's Yamapi. Please come in first. Jin hasn't come back yet. Said I'd be back late today."

“Um, I know, Mesa-chan. I just dropped by to visit today. How are you feeling? Are you feeling better?" Yamapi asked as he walked into the living room.

“It's a little better. Right now I still can't do much. It still gets tired easily. Just do a little and you'll feel sleepy."

“It's a normal symptom for pregnant women. Let's endure it a little longer. Soon the symptoms should disappear......... So you're going to cook food now? I'll help you,” said Yamapi, who brought the things he bought and put them in the kitchen. Then he glanced at the things that were all laid out in the kitchen.

"nevermind Just do a little," Mesa replied considerately.

“It's okay. Let's help each other do this. It will be finished quickly. Besides, how will Mesa get some rest? So you won't be tired. I'm pregnant." Yamapi turned around and smiled.

“Then...thank you,” Mesa replied considerately.

The two of them were helping to cook in the kitchen. From what Mesa intended to do only a few things There have been many more, for the reason of Yamapi that

'This one Jin likes'

'This one is delicious'

'This one helps nourish. Children will be strong'

'Better do that too. Jin hasn't eaten in a long time.'

and many other reasons related to gin

“Yamapeni is also good at cooking.” Mesa turned to praise him after almost everything was finished.

“Who do you think Mesa cooked when I was with that guy? There is absolutely no way for that person to do it themselves if it is not necessary. When I'm hungry, I always go out to find something to eat.”

“It's true,” Mesa smiled, accepting Yamapi's words. Her husband really is like that.

“Eat at the restaurant. It's really delicious. But the food

Home made

Well, it's still better, isn't it? Mesa-chan should learn to cook better than this. In a little while, Jin isn't the only one that Mesa has to cook for,” Yamapi continued, turning to smile at him.

“I'm trying to practice as well. But it doesn't feel right at all.”

“Keep practicing. You'll be good at it now."

"yes"

“Um, so did you buy some snacks to keep? That fat guy also likes to eat snacks.” Yamapi walked over and opened the refrigerator. He looked around and asked.

“There aren't many. You can go to Super on your own. Jin doesn't have a lot of free time either.”

“Really?” In a situation like this, how could you let yourself go shopping by yourself? “So, if you go to buy or when you ask someone to go buy ............... Try buying these things and storing them in the closet. Jin likes to eat.” Yamapee bent down and wrote a list of words. Put the paper in and hand it to Mesa.

“Let's go, take the food and put it on the table. It's time for Jin to return now," Yamapi said, bringing the food he had just finished slowly placing on the table. Arrange them neatly.

“Mesa-chan, you've organized the house so well. It's so good. She's married. I have a wife who keeps the house neat and orderly.”

“Not quite like that. I'm just staying at home. I didn't go out to work like before, so I had time to organize things.”

“This is good. Jin is very forgetful. If the house is messy, he can't find things anywhere. Before, my mother and I had to run around looking for things that Jin forgot. The room was messy, and he also forgot to put those things away. Where do you put it? It's always like this," Yamapi complained.

“It still is now. Sometimes their work is piled up and I don't know which one to take.”

“It really can't be cured. This disease.... Hey, it's still hard to wake up in the morning, right?”

“Yes, we woke each other up for a long time before we were willing to wake up. No matter how many watches you have, it doesn't help at all.”

“Um, Jin sleeps in the house and eats in the city. Plus it's really hard to wake up. That's how it was before, even if I sat on top of it. It hasn't woken up yet. Just lying there like nothing happened,” Yamapi told me about a story from many years ago.

"Really? And what do you do to wake up Jin?" Mesa asked in case she could use it to wake up Jin.

“Kick him off the bed,” Yamapi said as he laughed loudly. As for Mesa, she sat and looked shocked.

“I didn't mean to let Mesa do it.” Look, Mesa is only a little. Plus I'm pregnant. No matter how you kick him, Jin won't fall off the bed. What is the weight of the body? “Let's keep this as a final measure for when he really doesn't wake up.”

“When you wake him up, he shakes himself hard. He can't stand it and he'll wake up on his own. But the best way to wake up is your mother's voice. Jin is guaranteed to wake up. Another day, I will bring you an alarm clock that records my mother's voice. I guarantee that there will be no more problems with not being able to wake up.”

Mesa laughed and nodded in response.

“What time is it? .. Ah.. I'll be back today. And the next day it will come again.”

“Oh, why don't you stay and eat together first? Jin will be back soon."

"No, I have work to do today," Yamapi said, getting up and walking towards the door.

And while opening the door Yamapi turned to Mesa who was handing him over.

“Mesa-chan, please take care of Jin. Even though he has some disadvantages, likes to act like a child I like to be a bit overbearing. But that guy is a good person. You must definitely be a good father to this child.”

“Yes, I will take care of Jin. And this child, do your best.”

Yamapi has gone back.

Mesa walked back and sat at the table. Look at the food that has been prepared.

Why don't you know why Yamapi has come? Look, there's so much food. There were only things that Jin liked to eat. And there's also a list of things that Yamapi wrote. Yamapi is very worried about Jin, she knows.

Now there are still many things. She knew less about her husband than her best friend, who she had been with for more than half her life, like Yamapi. But she promised Yamapi in her heart that I will learn and will take care of Jin the best I can. Definitely not letting anyone be disappointed.

How to make up your mind? With people who used to care

In the end, it probably depends on if he goes.

I want to do my best. I know I have to accept it.

When I'm the person he doesn't want

Even if I can hold him for a long time How much do you want him?

The more you hold on, the more you hold on. The more you hold back, the more you lose.

Please take care of this man. Like I care

I want you to take care of me. Love and be sincere every minute.

I love him as much as I do. I know you're doing well.

Please tell him that people like me give up.

Hug him to keep him warm. Before going to bed every night

Kiss him when he wakes up. on the cheek lightly

Look into his eyes for me. Tell him you love him every time.

To have a life that goes well

Even if I can hold him for a long time How much do you want him?

The more you hold on, the more you hold on. The more you hold back, the more you lose.

Please take care of this man. Like I care

I want you to take care of me. Love and be sincere every minute.

I love him as much as I do. I know you're doing well.

Please tell him that people like me give up.

Even if I can hold him for a long time How much do you want him?

The more you hold on, the more you hold on. The more you hold back, the more you lose.

Please take care of this man. Like I care

I want you to take care of me. Love and be sincere every minute.

I love him as much as I do. I know you're doing well.

Please tell him that people like me give up.

~Please take care of me for me - Maleewan Jamina~

A/N: part 

The first comes from what the writer wanted to tell Mesa. Please take good care of Jin. Please take good care of Jin. Even though I don't love Jin the most But I'm very worried about Jin. I've seen Jin since he was only 15-16 years old. I want Jin to be happy.

P.S. 1 I just found out that Mesa doesn't know how to cook. But it's been a long time. It probably is now.

P.S. 2 Will anyone say that the writer is old? Look and choose each song. The writer is not old. Younger than Mapi (How much less? (¬.¬))

Part 2 The Hardest thing

Jin’s side

“ただいま！！” Jin's voice shouted to the people waiting in the house.

“Have you come back yet? How was work today?”

“Maybe I have to fly there for a while. Do you want to go together?”

“I want to go, but it wouldn't be good. Pregnant people often fly back and forth on planes.”

"Um, that's it. So how was your day? Did you lose a lot?"

“Today you are a good child. So I'm not allergic to much. Are you hungry yet? Do you want to eat right away? The food is finished."

"I'm hungry. What do you have today?"

“Today there are a lot of them. Look, I like all of them.” Mesa walked Gin over to the table. Open each side dish for you to see.

"It's full. Why did you work extra hard today?" I turned to ask my wife in surprise.

“I didn't do it all myself. Today Yamapi came to help me do it.”

"Eh" ...P... "P came too? And where is P?" He looked up. Since entering the house, I haven't seen it at all.

“Went back for a while before Jin came back for just a moment. I saw that you still have work to do.”

“Really?” Why don't you wait for me first?

“Please eat. It'll all get cold."

“Um.”

....in January....

'P.....I have something to tell you'

‘Huh, what is it, Jin?’ Yamapi turned to look at Jin. But then I had to ask with concern when I saw Jin's expression.

'Jin, what's wrong? Doesn't look good at all'

'P....I.....I'm getting married!'

'What? What are you talking about? Are you joking, Jin?' Yamapi at this time was even more shocked.

'I'm really telling you, P, I'm getting married...........Mesa is pregnant'

Yamapi stood staring at Jin. unable to move Someone tell him that this isn't true. This is just a bad dream. He will wake up and find Jin will not marry anyone anywhere.

Jin saw Yamapi go silent. Those big eyes that he liked to look at were filled with clear water. Jin wanted to comfort him. I want to wipe away your tears like I used to. But now he couldn't do anything, it was too late, and it was all his fault.

'Now I can find a room. This room is quite a bit bigger than the room you and I used to live in. It's wide enough to raise children. And we.. me and Mesa are about to move in.'

Will Jin know that? Each word spoken It was like a knife cutting deep into Yamapi's heart. But Yamapi remained silent and listened to Jin.

'I'll take Mesa to see mom and dad. If a mother knew that she was going to have a grandchild, she would be happy. Finally becoming a grandmother before the age of 45' Jin said this and looked away from Yamapi. I didn't dare look into those eyes. Eyes that conveyed sorrow like he had never seen before in his life.

'P......sorry for making you sad. But things between us probably.......'

'I understand Jin, I understand'

'I'm really sorry, P.'

The more Jin said sorry to Yamapi, the more it hurt. The tears that I was trying to hold back were almost impossible to hold back.

'No need to apologize, Jin. It's what men are supposed to do.'

'P...' Jin was about to say something. But then the phone rang and interrupted.

.....RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR……..

'yes.......................... yes................... I'll go in soon' as he talked and sipped Jin, then hung up the phone. Then I turned and told Yamapi.

'I'm calling about work. I have to go first.' Jin slowly got up. Then turned and walked back out. But he stopped when he heard Yamapi calling out to him.

'Jin........Mesa is a good person. Please take good care of her and the child.' His voice was clearly trembling.

'Um,' Jin accepted, but didn't turn around to look at Yamapi. He himself tried to hold back as well. Be strong and keep walking.

'Be happy, Jin,' Yamapi's voice said softly after seeing Jin walking further and further away. He stared at the parchment silently. The owner of that parchment would never turn back, Yamapi knew.

From that day until today Jin barely talked to Yamapi at all. It's not that he doesn't want to. But I can't do it. The more Yamapi saw him Yamapi will be even more sad.

“Jin, Jin,” Mesa's voice called out, causing Jin to snap out of his thoughts.

“Is something wrong?”

“Nothing. I'm just thinking about things. It's already late. Go to bed. You need to get some rest, you know?"

"Yes Jin, please don't sleep too late." She said before walking into the bedroom. Leaving Jin alone in the room.

"P..." It's not that I don't love you, but now everything is impossible. Jin could only hope that someone would take care of Yamapi for him. Because he can no longer perform that duty....

We both know that I shouldn't be here

This is wrong

And baby it's killing me, it's killing you

Both of us trying to be strong

I've got somewhere else to be

Promises to keep

Someone else who loves me

And trusts me fast asleep

I've made up my mind

There is no turning back

She's been good to me

And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do

To look you in the eyes

And tell you I don't love you

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie

To show no emotion when you start to cry

I can't let you see what you mean to me

When my hands are tied and my heart's not free

We're not meant to be

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do

To turn around and walk away

Pretending I don't love you

I know that we'll meet again

Fate has a place and time

So you can get on with your life

I've got to be cruel to be kind

Like Dr. Zhivago

All my love I'll be sending

And you will never know cuz

There can be no happy ending

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do

To look you in the eyes

And tell you I don't love you

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie

To show no emotion when you start to cry

I can't let you see what you mean to me

When my hands are tied and my heart's not free

We're not meant to be

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do

To turn around and walk away

Pretending I don't love you

I've made up my mind

There is no turning back

She's been good to me

And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do

To look you in the eye

And tell you I don't love you

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie

To show no emotion when you start to cry

I can't let you see what you mean to me

When my hands are tied and my heart's not free

We're not meant to be

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do

To look you in the eyes

And tell you I don't love you

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie

To show no emotion when you start to cry

~The hardest thing – 98 Degree~

Part 3儚い指先 + Epilogue

.....RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR……..

“Ah,” Yamapi exclaimed. When I saw who it was that called, I was happy. Because it's not often that this friend calls. Well, he's a busy person.

"What's up, Kame?"

'P, are you free today? I'm going to invite you to eat together.' Kame's voice came over the phone.

“Where should I go when I have free time?” I invite you to eat. Like Yamapi, there is no way to make mistakes.

'Is it the walking store you went to last time?'

“That's good. That restaurant has many other things that I want to eat.”

'Hahaha, then that shop..... Do you want me to pick you up?' Kame laughed in good spirits when he heard the answer of someone who liked to eat like Yamapi. Before asking because I know that Yamapi doesn't drive anywhere. He picked him up so he didn't have to take the train.

“No need to, Kame. I'd better go myself. Kame won't have to come and pick him up. I mean, I live in the city. Not at home or at the company So you won't waste time.”

'Yes, then I'll meet you at the shop.'

"Um," he responded before hanging up the phone, happy that it had been a while since he'd been able to eat with Kame.

“Immmm, delicious, Kame, why don't you try some?”

“No,” he replied with a smile. “I just saw you eating. I'm already full.”

“Eh, Kamenie, are you talking about me?” Big eyes flicked up and looked at the hammer.

“No, I'm not very hungry. I'm already full.” Kame pointed at the dish he was eating.

“Shit, I'm going to eat a lot. I'm not fat, either."

"Yes, thin person, then eat it. That's another thing you ordered." Kame nodded to behind Yamapi, where the waiter was bringing food to serve.

“Ah, here it is.”

Kame just sat and looked cheerfully at Yamapi who was eating. But in his eyes Some things aren't. Something tells him The smile he saw here It didn't come from the heart. It wasn't a smile like he'd ever seen before. He only saw this kind of smile when there was news about Jin. What will I do to make him see the same smile again.....

"So full. You must have a good night's sleep tonight."

"Kame, what's wrong? Why are you looking at me?"

“Uh...can't you come home tonight? Let's go on a trip together first."

"Where are you going?" "What's wrong with Kame today? It's strange."

“Let's go watch the sunrise by the sea.”

“Eh, go see the sunrise. And Kame doesn't have work tomorrow?" How did you think of inviting me to go see the sunrise?

“Yes, but now it's late, right? If we drive, when we reach the sea, we won't wait long for the sun to rise. Then I drove the car back to you and then went to work. Let's go together. I want to see the sunrise."

"Um, I'll go." Yamapi hesitated for a moment before agreeing.

Kame slowly drove to the beach. I'm not in any hurry. There's all night until morning. Along the way, we also stopped to buy supplies.

"Hey, Kame." While sitting there waiting for the sun to set Yamapi spoke up.

“Huh?”

“I....let's go find Mesa as well. But Jin wasn't home at that time.”

“My stomach has gotten a lot bigger. That kid must be strong.” As he said this, he looked out at the still dark sea.

“P....”

"I want to see many faces quickly. Will they look like father or mother?"

“Yamapi..”

“I... won't cry because of this anymore. I have to grow up. Must be an adult Because of me.....because I won't have Jin by my side. Just like before again.”

Kame grabbed one of Yamapi's hands and held it. Then look into the eyes of a person with big eyes

“This hand that Jin has always taken care of..............can I be the one to do that job in place of Jin from now on......?”

“I am not going to replace Jin. No one can replace Jin, I know.... I just want to be the person who can take care of P."

“I...want to see P smile again....want to see a bright smile, smile with both mouth, eyes, and heart.......can you give me a chance..P..... ........"

Yamapi didn't answer. Just looking into Kamen's eyes.

In front of the two people It is the big sun that is shining brightly from the horizon. indicating morning time Time of new beginnings

It may take time But Kame is confident. That one day he will definitely be able to bring that smile back.

After that night, the couple returned to their normal daily lives. Work is as busy as usual. Nothing has changed. But there are some things that are different. Just a little bit

That is..

Kame answered the phone more often. Sometimes, if the manager is present, he will leave his cell phone with the manager and say that if "someone" calls, that he will call back as soon as he gets a break.

And another thing that surprised the manager was Kamenashi Kazuya asking for a day off! People who normally work from morning until late at night without complaining. Asking for holidays What happened?

No one knows what the future will be like, but as of today, the two of them are slowly adjusting to whether or not things will evolve and change today. It depends only on these two hearts......

YOU FEEL ALL ALONE YOU HAVE LOST THE SMILE

愛していい? YOU IGNORE ME

BUT I LOVE YOU MORE YOU JUST TALKED TO ME

BE STILL MY HEART 哀しみでBLUEに染まった花だから

LET ME KNOW 冷めたKISSをCOATINGして 永遠を信じてた

WHAT WILL I DO? 左耳にRINGTONEだけ鳴り響く 一人の部屋

儚いFORGET-ME-NOT 摘み取りたい SHOW ME YOUR SMILE AGAIN

YOU ARE IN THE PAST YOU HAVE LOST THE LOVE

愛したいよ YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE

SO I LOVE YOU MORE I JUST TALK TO YOU

OPEN YOUR HEART 切なさで心は枯れてほしくない

LET ME KNOW 「会えないよ」ってTWEETINGして 溜め息で誤魔化した

WHAT WILL I DO? 甘い嘘にMOONLIGHTだけ気づいてた あの夜を

彷徨うFORGET-ME-NOT 摘み取りたい SHOW ME YOUR SMILE AGAIN

I'M WAITING FOR YOU 遠くても

ただキミのそばに IN MY MIND

LET YOU GO 片方の夢をFILINGして 永遠と呼んでいた

WHAT WILL I DO? 左耳にRINGTONEだけ鳴り響く 一人の部屋

儚いFORGET-ME-NOT 摘み取りたい SHOW ME YOUR SMILE AGAIN

~儚い指先 – KAT-TUN~

Epilogue

……Pip……Pip……Pip......

A notification sound from the phone indicates that someone has sent an email. Jin then left his work and turned to grab the mobile phone that was beside him and look at it. And when he saw the name of the sender, he frowned slightly in surprise. Because the owner of this number has hardly ever contacted him in recent years. But, Jin himself doesn't usually contact him.

Subject: Untitled

 Sender: K.Kazuya

 Attach: 000658132.jpg

In the mail was a picture of a person Jin was very familiar with, smiling brightly. A smile like he hadn't seen in a long time. With the backdrop of the clear blue sea. along with a short message From the person who sent the email saying

'P smiles now, Jin, smiles now'

Jin immediately understood the meaning. What was Kame telling him?

....Don't worry anymore. Jin....I..will take care of P....

THE END

A/N: 

The writer just wants someone to be with Yamapi as a friend. Because P is very lonely, and when I look at it

priority

Yamapi who set the kame quite high. So tall that Yamapi is a member.

NEWS (

I think it's Koyama and Shige.) Go find Kame without having to take time to decide. So the writer chose this Kame.