The Route...

Heart choice[

YunJae feat.Yoosu]

When one person is life

And another person is like a breath

The only way that you have to choose is... to cut your heart out.

The Route...

Heart choice[

YunJae feat.Yoosu]

Title: [SF]The Route…

Heart choice

Pair: Yunho×Jaejoong

Genre:?

Writer note:

It's the first fic I've written. I'd like you to try reading and commenting. So that the writer can take it and improve it..right.. If it's fun or not, you can tell us. Reiter doesn't mind...(but bites instead. Haha, just kidding. Reiter is not a dog or cat. So you can rest assured hahaha) And another thing. This fic is

SF 1

It's a real episode, it's just that it might be a little long (maybe?) haha.

When one person is life

And another person is like a breath

The only way that you have to choose is... to cut your heart out.

“Jaejoong, Jaejoong,” the voice calling my name came with a heavy blow to my left shoulder. Inevitably, I had to turn and look at the source of the voice who was sitting on a white marble chair next to me.

“What's the matter, Yoochun?” A quiet voice indicating slight dissatisfaction was sent to greet a close friend in the same class, Park Yoochun, a handsome young man in language arts in the third year of high school who was one of the top charmers at school. Even though it's not so caring about the world. But the glibness that has been with me since birth It made the girls almost melt in front of them.

“You don't have to act cross-eyed. It sounds green. Jaejoong...that's you. Can't I take my eyes off Yunho? ”

Referring to a third person like Chong Yunho, a handsome young man with a degree in football at the school. Being good at sports isn't enough. It is also excellent in learning. Jung Yunho studies science, which art-types like me are intimidated by the tight study schedule every day. But Yunho was able to divide his time...so good...

And if you're still wondering how we know each other? I told you that. Yunho's and mine's houses are next to each other. Plus, the parents are close friends. We've known each other since we were children.

Let's go back to Park Yoochun. I think... Yoochun is speechless. Still making mischievous glances Plus he's smiling. But that...isn't the reason why my face just heats up. The last sentence is different. That makes my circulatory system work too well. Yes...too good Because right now my face must have turned into a ripe tomato.

“No.” Even if it were true But please refuse. I don't have the face of applying cement mixed with glue and then applying cement again like Yoochun. It's a bit oily.

"Just say it, I still don't believe it."

"......." I turned to look at Yoochun's face. Ready to give you a look that you don't understand

“Are you…really not going to do anything? Even though Yunho is your best friend. But if you don't say No one knows.” A serious tone that I've only heard from Yoochun for a long time. This made me have to bring my eyes back to Yunho who was practicing football with his teammates on the field again. With eyes that dimmed

“You know I can't.” After that, there was no further conversation from Yoochun and me. We are all caught up in our own thoughts. Until I was the one who broke the silence.

“What about you, Yoochun? Are you going to tell Junsu?” I didn't take my eyes off Yunho, who was running and jumping around hugging his friend. Then he waved his hand and smiled wide-eyed at me on the sidelines. After scoring another goal, Yunho's team now led 2-0.

“I...Junsu likes Yunho. I know.” Yoochun's voice sounded so sad that I had to take my eyes off Yunho. Turn to look at the person next to you again.

“Um, I know,” even though it was an answer that didn't help matters. But..I really don't know what to say.

“But...yours is different from mine. Jaejoong...I love Junsu. Yes, I admit it, and I know that your younger sibling likes Yunho a lot too. But with Yunho, if you tell him..”

“Yunho must like Junsu. ...My younger sibling won't be sad, Yoochun,” I interrupted. Yoochun was now staring intently at my face. Yoochun's eyes looked really sad. So sad that I had to look away.

“I'm sorry, Yoochun,” I said, grabbing my shoulder bag and getting out. I feel sorry for Yoochun, but for Kim Junsu. For the sake of my only little brother, I can accept this. I must keep the promise I made to my mother. I will do everything to make Junsu happy. I will not let my brother be sad.

Knock knock

“Jaejoong hyung, I'll go let Yunho hyung tutor him in chemistry.” Junsu's voice sounded through the fine wooden door. This made me, who was lying on the bed with my eyes closed, have to get up and open the door. I met the bright face of my little brother...that's right, Junsu studied science like Yunho. His younger brother had always been good at studying. Unlike him who only studied enough to go to the temple.

"Um, then this evening I'm going to make kimchi curry with lots of pork heads and feet." He reached out his hand and ruffled his younger brother's soft hair, who smiled with a smile on his cheeks.

“I love Jaejoong hyung the most.” Junsu threw himself into me and hugged me tightly. Playing almost made me choke. before pulling away and rushing to the side of the house... Yunho's house.

“Hyung, you're back.” The door opened along with Junsu's voice.

“Wow, it smells so good.” Junsu scrunched up his nose. Looking at the bowl of curry I had just scooped out of the kimchi curry on the dining table. before rushing into the kitchen to scoop up rice

“Oh, why did you make three plates, Junsu?” I asked after seeing Junsu place the third bowl of rice on the empty space next to him.

“Or are you really hungry?” I said with a smile.

“No, that's Yunho's.” The voice trailed off. I felt my heart skip a beat. I don't know because I'm shocked. Or happy to be able to eat with Yunho after not eating at home together for a long time, but of course Junsu was smiling happily. That's what I know Before I could think of anything more than this. Today's dinner guests walked in with the same casual expression as always.

"Wow, we can't wait to eat" he said as he sat down next to me. Then he reached out and picked up his own rice bowl. Scoop rice into your mouth and chew.

“What? We haven't eaten yet, Yunho hyung,” Junsu's voice said. For a moment his face fell. before smiling and continuing to talk as usual

“Oh? If so, let's eat it together. Haha.....Come on, eat it, Jaejoong." After finishing, he scooped up the meat and placed it on my rice bowl. When he saw that I was still

“Ah...oh, thank you.” I felt my heart beat faster again. What should I do? But..no, if I do this, Junsu will be sad.

“You...Yunho, you gave it to Junsu. Don't bother me...you need to nourish Junsu a bit. Study hard." I shouted. But Yunho still looked forward to eating. I didn't pay much attention to my words. The sounds of talking, laughing, and shouting continued loudly throughout dinner today until we were all full.

“I'll take it for myself, Junsu. Let's go sit and talk with Yunho." I said as I started to shake the food scraps together.

“No, Jaejoong hyung already did it. I'll wash it myself,” Junsu said, reaching out to take the dishes from my hand.

“It's okay, Junsu, I'll just…”

"No, I want to do it. Go sit and rest." After saying that, he carried the dishes into the kitchen. Don't let me speak.

There was no arguing anymore, now it was just me and Yunho standing staring at each other in the middle of the dining room.

“Then…” Yunho spoke first.

“Then you go help Junsu wash the dishes,” I said.

“What? I still want to talk to you, Jaejoong. We haven't talked in several days." Yunho looked pouty. What happened again, this bear? Talk like lovers who have to talk every day.

“If you don't go wash it. Don't expect to eat again the next day,” I threatened.

“Jaejoong-ah......Jaejoong......Okay. Don't threaten me like this.” After saying that, he made a pouty face and walked into the kitchen to help Junsu wash the dishes. Sigh...Does Yunho the bear think he's a five year old child? Why don't you look at your own age?

After that evening Yunho and I hardly saw each other. Everyone was busy preparing for their final exams at the end of their last semester. Before separating to study at the university of your dreams Even more science-minded like Yunho. The more you must be twice as tired. Because Yunho dreams of studying medicine.

Therefore, you must try many times harder than others. Personally, Yoochun and I would probably study communications. like singing Learn to make music That's the most suitable for me. Until two weeks had passed before the exam. The day my heart broke Until I want to disappear

“Jaejoong hyung, I...I have something I want to discuss,” Junsu's voice said at dinner one day.

"Huh, what's the matter?"

“I...I think I...I like Yunho hyung.” Junsu's voice said shyly. With cheeks that are flushed I felt my heart suddenly twitch.

“Is that so...have you told Yunho yet?” he asked, holding back his courage.

“No, I don't know how to tell you...so I came to consult with Jaejoong hyung...He said that if I tell Yunho hyung, Will he reject me?” Junsu looked at me.

“No, how could Yunho reject the cute Junsu? I said just tell me how I feel,” I said.

“Really? Jaejoong hyung thinks so?” Junsu still looked worried.

“True, believe me, Junsu will definitely get his wish.” The more he spoke, the more it felt like his heart was shattering into pieces. Even though I thought I didn't have to say it. I just want to be able to stand next to you. But now I know that there is no possibility anymore. Can't love Yunho anymore Since Junsu is already confident in his love for Yunho like this

How can you continue to behave so despicably in love with your younger brother's people? It's time to choose, Jaejoong.

the next day

“Junsu, I'll help you,” I told my younger brother as we walked to school. After staying up all night thinking about how to deal with my heart. I finally made a decision. I made a choice.

“What?” Junsu turned around, looking confused.

“What you're going to tell Yunho, I'll make an appointment for you,” I explained to Junsu.

“Really? I'm so happy,” he said, smiling.

“How about this noon? At the water pavilion behind the school,” I said, still looking straight ahead.

“Alright then. Thank you, Brother Jaejoong. Then I'll go to my room first." After saying that, he ran up to the school building. I stood still for a while and then decided to call Yunho. The signal sounded only two times before Yunho's voice could be heard coming through.

“I'm so happy.” Those were the first words the doctor said.

"what"

“I'm so glad you called. And I'm glad I got to talk to you this morning.” His voice sounded bright. It makes me want to see the face of the person speaking clearly. But you have to restrain yourself.

“Let's meet at the water pavilion behind the school this afternoon,” I told him my purpose.

“Wow, I'm double happy. You also want to meet me.” I swear that if Yunho was in front of me, I would definitely see a look in his eyes and a smile that would make my heart flutter.

“Come here, that's all.” I hung up the phone before my voice shook uncontrollably. before feeling a pressure on his shoulder It's Yoochun who's been here since I don't know when. I hugged Yoochun before letting out tears without crying. Yoochun himself didn't say anything. But I think I understand.

“I...Today Junsu will confess to Yunho.” My voice was muffled by Yoochun's shoulder.

“I'm sorry, Yoochun. I'm really sorry.” I know that Yoochun must have been as hurt as I was. But that's really all I can say...sorry.

“Um, I understand.” Yoochun let me cry for a while and then invited me to the infirmary. Said I wouldn't go to class this morning, had a headache and wanted to get some sleep. I know that wasn't the real reason. Yoochun just wanted to stay quiet. which I have no objection to

I don't know when I fell asleep. But of course it's been so long that now I'm about to go to class in the afternoon. I hurriedly got off the bed and went to wake up Yoochun who was sleeping in the bed next to me as well. Yoochun was quiet but probably understood what I was saying. So we ran back to the classroom even though none of us had eaten lunch yet.

This hour is Korean hour. which I tried to listen carefully to the teacher Because he didn't want to think about Junsu's confession to Yunho. I don't know if Yunho will actually go to the appointment or not? Or are the two of them now really agreeing to be together? I don't want to think about anything.

After that day I tried to avoid Yunho, didn't meet him, didn't call, even Junsu, I didn't ask how he was. Is your relationship going smoothly? Because I'm afraid, afraid of my own heart, afraid that I won't be able to endure it in front of Junsu or Yunho. I left the house early in the morning. After waking up at 4 a.m. to make breakfast for Junsu to eat before going to class.

Had some lunch with Yoochun. I secretly disappeared and made myself feel better by crying to myself. Returning home late at night almost every day. Even though I felt guilty that I didn't come back to cook dinner for my younger brother who studied hard like before. But I told myself I only wanted it for this time. I only need one moment to make up my mind.

One week before final exam

After the brutal English hours are over I felt like I was exhausted again. So he slammed his face down on the table. But before he could rest, there was a loud noise, followed by a strong tug on his wrist. Pulling me to run and run along with that enormous force. It was Yunho. What the hell is going on with this guy?

“Ouch, it hurts!” I said, using my other hand to try to pry Yunho's hand off. But Yunho didn't listen. And it hasn't been released yet. Until he dragged me up to the roof of the building, he finally let go.

“What the hell are you doing?!” I shouted, rubbing my wrist that was now red because of someone nearby who was staring at me.

“I should have asked you more, Jaejoong. What is wrong with you? Why do we have to hide from each other?” Yunho raised his hand and grabbed both of my shoulders.

“I don't.” I turned my head and looked to the side. I didn't dare look Yunho directly in the eye. Why must he make me shake again? Even a week ago I think I can do it. I almost did it. Almost got over it.

“Huh, isn't that so? And what is this thing you're doing called, Jaejoong? Didn't see him, didn't talk to him, didn't look him in the eye. I went to look at the house and couldn't find him. I called and you didn't answer. If you don't call me you're avoiding me. And what will you call it, Jaejoong?! Answer me!!!” Yunho's voice rose louder as the pressure on his shoulder increased as well.

"...." I bit my lip tightly.

“Why don't you answer?... You didn't answer because what I said was true, right? Why, Jaejoong? Or did I do something wrong? Tell me so I can explain it to you.” Yunho's voice softened. Makes me unintentionally turn my eyes A face I haven't seen in a whole week. Yunho's bloodshot eyes were about to make me weak.

“Can't we be the same as before?”

“Are you really not going to talk to me, Jaejoong? Huh?” Yunho's eyes were pleading with me. I feel that way

“Congratulations on your love with Junsu. May you be happy..." I held back tears, biting my lip until it hurt. “...And I want you to know that Junsu really likes you, Yunho.” I used all the strength I had left to shake my shoulders before quickly turning my back on Yunho. I don't want Yunho to see the tears. I don't want you to know that my heart is crying. before running away

Last day of the exam

“Jaejoong hyung, do you and Yunho hyung have something to do with each other?” Junsu asked after we both finished our final exams. heading home

“Why do you ask that?”

“Because Yunho hyung comes to wait for Jaejoong hyung every morning. But Jaejoong hyung went to school first,” Junsu answered.

“Ah, that's because you had to rush to tutor Yoochun. So I have to leave early,” I said.

“But I think Yunho hyung seems a bit depressed these days.”

“Is that because we didn't take care of Yunho? People who are lovers have to take care of each other, Junsu. Especially because that bear is so touchy-feely.” I laughed dryly.

“Girlfriend?” Junsu's eyes widened, “Yunho hyung and I are not lovers.”

“What?” I was shocked, stopping and looking at Junsu with confusion.

“I said that Yunho hyung and I are not lovers,” Junsu emphasized.

“What about that day?”

“He rejected me. He said he loves me like a younger brother.” My heart seemed to swell. Heart pounding for no reason Even though the younger brother was sad But I'm being such a disgusting person... I'm an unusable older brother.

“He also said that he already has someone he loves,” Junsu said with a smile. But that only made my heart swell. Withered immediately Just knowing that there was someone already occupying Yunho's heart.

“But I don't have many regrets. Maybe it's because I love Yunho hyung like an older brother too.” Junsu walked in front of me and opened the door. Before I follow

Actually, my bedroom and Yunho's bedroom are close to each other. In the past, Yunho liked to climb into my room often. But lately it's because my feelings have changed. So I closed the window Closing the curtains, he couldn't show his face to Yunho. But today I want to see his face. I'd like to see your face for just a moment.

I reached out and opened the window. Saw the light from Yunho's room. I guess I'm not asleep yet. Are you taking a shower or something? I looked up again. But I didn't see the shadow of the room owner at all. Until I almost gave up Yunho walked towards the window holding a towel. Our eyes met by accident. I think Yunho would be shocked to see my face today.

I really want to ask, is there really someone I love? But I can only think.

“You…” It was Yunho who broke the silence.

“Uh...well...I haven't seen you in a long time.” Damn..is that all you can say, Jaejoong? I cursed myself internally.

"um"

“You probably want to rest. No, you don't want to talk to me. ....Then...then take a rest. Good night.” I bowed my head and forced a smile to myself. He must have been hated by Yunho. before reaching out and about to close the window

“Jaejoong,” I looked up at the source of the voice. But that made me startled and my eyes widened even more... Yunho is climbing up the window!

"Ah, sir." He didn't have time to speak or prepare himself. Yunho climbed up the window and came into my bedroom. before pulling me into a hug My face was pressed against Yunho's chest. I could smell the soapy scent from him. It smells fresh and feels so good you don't want to let it go.

“I miss you,” Yunho's voice said softly.

“I don't know what I did wrong. But please forgive me. Let me be beside you. Don't avoid me again, Jaejoong.” Yunho's voice trembled again. It's making me weak. I'm going crazy

“I'm sorry.” I really didn't know what to say. Yunho wasn't wrong. If it's wrong, it's probably me. who went to love Yunho himself

“As for Junsu..”

“I heard it from Junsu. You don't have to say it, Yunho.” My voice was muffled. Because Yunho tightened his embrace again. “Actually, I have something I want to ask you.”

“You really have someone you love, right? Who are you? Do I know you?” Her throat felt dry. Makes my voice hoarse like a duck now

“Now...please listen to me...please listen to my feelings. You may not accept it. But don't go away from me. You can put me in any position. But don't push me. Let me stay by your side.”

“Yun…”

“I love you Jaejoong. Love as a man can love someone.” Yunho released his hug and turned to hold my shoulder and stare into my eyes.

“Yunho...” I said softly. My heart is pounding so hard it's going to pop out of my chest... Is this Yunho's love for me? I didn't dream, right?

“Do you...do you love me?” Yunho still refused to look away. Is he going to stare at me and make me disappear from here? The more you stare at me, the more your heart trembles. Don't you know?

“Are you telling the truth? You weren't trying to trick me, were you?” Tears suddenly flowed out of my eyes. But I don't care anymore. I just want to know that what Yunho said was not a lie.

“Why would I fool you? I love you until my heart aches. Just not being able to see your face makes me go crazy. I love you so much that I don't even know what to say, Jaejoong.”

“Huh huh…” I hugged Yunho again. Plus he let out a loud noise without any restraint. before pulling away and staring Yunho clearly in the eyes

“Thank you, thank you Yunho...I love you. I really love you.” Yunho's eyes widened before pulling me into a tight hug again. I felt like I was floating in a dream. But the difference here is true. It's true that Yunho and I love each other. Our hearts are the same. I'm so happy that I don't even know how to describe it.

I don't know what else will happen in the future. But I won't let go of Yunho's hand. I..will not cut my heart again...from now on. I will love Yunho as my heart desires.

“Yunho, I love you.”

Fin.