love guide

I am a simple person Interested in every matter Until making myself a person that everyone comes to consult on various matters without paying attention to my age or educational background. No matter how difficult studying is I will always try to find answers to them. Even about work, marketing plans, stocks, the economy, I can answer them.

Of course even politics I can answer. If you want to answer... But I'm the kind of person who doesn't care much about politics or government. But if counting various matters There's only one thing I can't answer. It might be called dying in shallow water..

'..The story of love..' which is a common human matter. But it's something I don't understand. Even if you open a few hundred textbooks There is no book that can make me understand.

..but then I began to understand that maybe love is something that I have to create my own textbook using time to learn it..

10 years old.. Childhood friends talking about people they secretly like.. I said I had a crush on a teacher. Because that teacher was kind, cute, and good at teaching..but his friends laughed that he didn't secretly like that. I couldn't understand it but walked away from the group of friends who were talking about it.

Age 15.. A friend told me to give a letter to a boy. I asked why he didn't give it to himself. My friend replied that he was embarrassed and afraid of being laughed at. I was just puzzled. I didn't understand but agreed to take the letter. And then the next day I saw my friend talking to the boy in a more intimate manner. which I can only think

Is that because of that letter?

18 years old.. A friend who is dating his girlfriend. A quarrel ensued to the point of breaking up. But I'm together Instead, surprise and doubt arose. Why is that even though the friend has already broken up with that boyfriend? But every evening That friend would invite me to sit in the corner of the building. To look at my ex-boyfriend who came to play football on the field

19 years old.. Someone came up and asked to date me. That I don't even know what a relationship is? I still think it's like normal dating. But I was wrong.. Just less than three months We have to break up. without arguing Didn't talk about the reason for the break up. Plus we can easily become friends again.

I'm 20 years old. I have a friend I've known for four years. please marry me I listened and was stunned. But immediately refused I choose my future..

21 years old.. I have the opportunity to date a new boyfriend. This time I feel like I have the little love manual I've been working on by my side. So I thought that I would never make the same mistake as the first time again. And at this time I learned one more thing. When is there love? fear paranoia It will happen in the mind.

I'm afraid that person will hate me. Who is not in good enough shape to show off to friends What can I be confident in myself? That is.. my own habits and knowledge in my head, of course.. So I try to be a good woman.. But then the word..good woman..turned around and hurt me. I got hit back saying..you're too good.. Why..? Is it wrong too? I'm just not jealous.

Even though I was already jealous in my heart. Is it wrong or.. I just don't beg. Don't annoy him. Even though in my heart I wanted to beg him like other girls. but because he was afraid of being annoyed So is it wrong or not? That I let him go easily without holding back Just afraid of being told back that..you are the most annoying.. My love guide

It seems like everything is in turmoil with this matter..

22 years old.. since that incident happened.. I almost turned my back on love I treat everyone as a fellow human being. The little love manual I created was used to give advice to others instead. But it can't help me at all. Mother.. asked when I'll have a boyfriend. Get married sometime.

You want to hold your grandchild. And now I understand that.. Maybe the person I'm dating is really my boyfriend. Not someone I have to worry about, be paranoid about, or someone I would entrust my life to. But it has to be the person I want to move forward with..!

Age 22 turning 23 years now.. My love guide The volume has not gotten any bigger than before. But it has content that has a clearer understanding..

..When more time has passed. This love manual couldn't get any bigger than this. But it will probably become more and more clear. And until the day I find someone to move forward with Then this love manual would not be necessary for me anymore..

...Because that would be the summary of the last page of this love manual...

..finish..