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"Let's break up, Zen...I'm bored."

"Okay, okay. If it's P'Keng's wish, heck, heck, Zen will accept it."

"Goodbye...Zen loves you Keng."

....Is this something? I used to think of a life with only me....

Geng Part

"P'Keng, Zen, can I ask you something?" Zen asked as I was about to return to my seat to continue working.

“Um...what? Hurry, I'm busy." I'm very busy these days. So much so that there was no time for Zen at all.

"These days when P'Keng is with Zen, with Zen, P'Keng...are you happy at all?" Zen asked me with a displeased look in his eyes. It's yours.

“What nonsense are you asking? I'm going to continue working. And don't bother me.” I thought it was really nonsense, so I replied to Zen out of annoyance. What a waste of time to work.

"Wait a minute, Brother Keng." I was about to walk away but Zen called me first.

“What else, Zen?!!! I don't have much free time to sit and answer Zen's questions. Stop acting stupid. How annoying!!” Finally, I lost my patience. I'm also a person with low patience -*-

“So, Zen, are you really annoying?” Zen asked, looking down at me. Zen's voice started to shake a little too.

“This is Zen...I think so. Wait for us to calm down and then we can talk.”

"no!! Brother Keng, please answer Zen. Zen is stupid, boring, annoying, right? Answer Zen!!” Zen asked me while hitting me. Zen is crying a lot right now.

“Zen stop!!!” I shouted loudly causing Zen to stop and turn to look at me.

"I think...we should break up, Zen." I don't know what made me decide to tell Zen like that.

“Phi Keng, what do you say?”

"Let's break up, Zen...I'm bored." Lately, I haven't had much time, and Zen and I have been fighting a lot.

"Okay, okay. If it's P'Keng's wish, heck, heck, Zen will accept it."

"................" I stayed silent and didn't say anything. Or is it because Am I speechless?

Zen walked up and kissed me softly. Before saying the last sentence "Goodbye...Zen loves you Keng."

Zen then turned and walked out of "our" room. He was gone. He was gone. Now I was the only one left. I should be happy that things ended like this...but why do I hardly have any strength to stand on my legs now? What have I done?

TT

...Is this what you ever thought about? A life with only me.

From now on, I'll be alone like I thought. Is this what your heart wants...

Now I'm back to sitting and working again. But I don't have the concentration to continue doing it. My head is full of me and Zen right now. Since I chose to break up with Zen and just break up with Tai, now I feel strange. It feels like my life...is missing something.

...Is this what I always dreamed about in my heart?

Life without you feels like it's missing something...I don't understand...

I broke up with Zen a week ago. I try to forget Zen Forget about us But the more I try to forget It reinforces that I can't forget him. I still remember everything between us.

...Keep old stories in a box.

I saw it and it hurt...

I looked at the desk. Makes you see a picture of me and Zen. The picture we took together when Zen asked me to take him to the beach that time....

“Phi Keng Zen wants to go to the beach. Brother Keng, please take Zen a little bit. Haha. Brother Keng." Is it possible for Zen to beg like this so that I won't be soft-hearted?

"Okay, I'll take you there."

"yay!! Zen loves you the best ^^” Zen said while kissing my cheek.

"Brother, come and take pictures. The view here is very beautiful."

“Okay, come on.”

It hurts so much. The more I look at it, the more I think about it... Tears are flowing again.

TT

...Photos of us traveling together back then. Now it looks even more sad...

I'm hurt, hurt by the memories. No matter which part of the room I walked into, the pictures of me and Zen would always come around to remind me.

“Brother Keng, are you hungry yet? Let's eat together. Today Zen made only his favorite things. He's good at it ^^"

"P'Keng, are you tired today? Come on, I'll give Zen a massage for you ^^ ."

“Brother Keng, don't work too hard. Zen is worried."

“Brother Keng, let's watch a movie. Zen also bought a lot of new ones. He said that this story was very fun. Brother Keng must really like it.”

Since that day when Zen walked out of our room, I have only seen these images every day...every day.

...There is no sound of his words that we have ever heard.

No one came to ask.

Only memories remain.

It emphasizes that...

Now I know. That I made the biggest mistake of my life I hurt my own heart Hurting the person I love And most importantly, he loves me the most. Am I really that bad for letting my short temper destroy everything Zen and I built together? We overcome various obstacles. We've come together a lot before we can love each other, but I

I'm the one who destroyed everything with my hands...

I used to think that if one day Zen wasn't beside me, what would it be like? Today I know. I know now that I can't lose him. When I don't have him beside me, I feel lonely...lonely to the point of death. But I couldn't go back and change anything. Now all I can do is smile and tell myself "What is this world without Zen anymore?"....

...Is it you that my heart is connected to?

And it's only you, today I just understood

Without you, it seems lonely.

Smiling sadly, I told myself.

What is this world without you...

-The End-

It's finished. How are you? Can you tell me when you read it? I just thought of Keng Zen so I gave it a try. Anyway, please leave some feedback. There may be a next story :)