Fix you

Title : Fix You

Author : T.S.Choi

Editor : Silver Butterfly

Pairing : TempG

Genre: AU, Romance, Tragedy

Rate : G

Author’s note (T.S.Choi) : 

At the end of the story there is a theme song for the ending. If you have finished reading Let's try listening.

It's already 4 a.m.

But he still couldn't close his eyes.

Fatigue clings to your temples. Squeezing the symptoms of chronic migraine for years into a relapse. His lips were full, holding a burning cigarette all the way to the bottom of the filter. The cup of coffee has gone cold for a long time.

Yet he could not get up from there.

The table in front of him was piled with notes of chemical formulas and mathematical equations. There was a loud sighing sound. A soft yellow lamp restricts the light to a narrow desk. Glowing screens of computers and modern electronic devices surround the slender figure. Constantly display calculation results and various rates.

His thoughtful face remained calm for a long time. Immersed in speculation and solving problems, in the end, some eyebrows furrowed. He leaned back into the leather chair as before. The fingertips tremble slightly. When the cigarette is removed from the lips His eyes shone with exhaustion, 38 years of time had carved terrible wrinkles on his face.

Combined with the tiredness of waiting and expecting. The youthful face that was once bright in his youth… now there was only dry sorrow in his eyes.

10 years…

He had endured and persevered for 10 years before reaching the final stage of the experiment.

To bring back his lover...

Kwon Jiyong got up from his chair and walked across the room, which was as cluttered as a work desk, test tubes, and images showing the proportions of the human body. A blackboard where you write down your thoughts and formulas. Covered with white chalk until tightly packed. A figure stepped out of the dark office. He entered the white, partitioned laboratory. He stood behind a thick sheet of clear glass that shielded the things he held dear from germs and foreign substances.

In a large glass tube located on the other side.

Choi Seunghyun's naked body lay in it.

Choi Seunghyun, as pure and beautiful as he was 10 years ago

The pulse monitor made a rhythmic 'beep', slow but sure. Jiyong had succeeded in cultivating Seunghyun's tissue to replicate the other's body, almost exactly the same as every inch.

almost…

He raised his hand to his lips. Heavy hope clenched in my chest. It was congested inside until it ached. The tear glands that had been working hard for 10 years seemed to be slightly reacting to inner emotions. But he was so exhausted that he couldn't squeeze out any more liquid.

Ji Yong looked blankly. He had been stuck at the stage of restoring consciousness for 3 years. Restoring one's physical body from just a few cells would be difficult. But it's not impossible... but restoring the human 'mind' to its original state is another matter. If his theory is correct A person's DNA records their final memories and feelings before death.

If he could stimulate that part of his DNA to work again. The same Seunghyun from 10 years ago would wake up and hug him again.

If his theory is correct…

Fatigue from working for almost 2 weeks made my body weak. He reached out and put his hand on the mirror to lean against. Close your eyes for a moment. Give your brain a break. Yet…my mind was still restless. He felt the time coming. Funds are beginning to deplete. Diseases begin to plague us as we age, and most importantly…

The hope in my heart began to fade.

His journey had come to a close.

He wanted to cry… I want to vent some of my thoughts and suffering. But time was too cruel. It made him used to waking up to see the body of his lover sleeping soundly every day. Until the scene in front of him was not enough to stimulate his body's systems to 'cry' again...

The pain must have taken root so deeply that it had become another piece of his spine.

Since 10 years ago, Seunghyun breathed his last.

Jiyong also died…

“Jiyong, these days you often have to travel to lecture abroad. Please be careful.” A deep, warm voice rang through the phone. His mouth was full and he smiled, happy that the other person spoke up and cared about him.

“Hyung… when I came out just now, why didn't you say something like this?” Still, he pretended to be pleading. Knowing that it was extremely difficult to expect any expression of love from this shy young man… But he couldn't help it, he loved very much and desired the warmth from the other party.

“Uh… just now… there were so many people, I…” His smile widened as he thought of the handsome face at this time.

“I'm just kidding... Just hearing hyung say this I'm happy.” The other party was silent for a moment. The period of time he waited for an answer was actually very short. But in this heart filled with longing Seconds count as eternity

“I miss you.”

Very soft... but he could still hear it.

Just those five words made his heart swell. Squeezed in my chest like the roots of an orchid shaking a large tree, stimulating yet sweet and indulgent.

“I miss you, hyung…” He replied in an equally soft voice, as if the two of them were close together under the thick cloth like last night. No one disturbs There is nothing blocking it. Feel each other's temperature Convey and embrace

He still remembered the feeling when Seunghyun slid her feet against his. To provide warmth to feet that are cold because of the air conditioner. The whisper of the other party asking, Is it cold? It made him feel hot in the crook of his neck. Chest and hip pads Where slender lips kiss and leave their mark

“Go back, this time I have a surprise for you.”

“Surprise…?” Jiyong secretly excited the other party. He smiled as he heard his low voice suddenly become excited. The time of his return was close to Seunghyun's birthday. So Ji Yong ordered Bearbrick to make a special one with engraved characters.

SY&JY for 28th HBD 

hold

“What will I tell you? When you come back, you'll know. Otherwise, wouldn't it be a surprise?”

“Okay, hurry back… I will wait.”

“Ha, then I'll go back and see hyung.”

But…

When he comes back Jiyong could no longer see his lover's bright, playful eyes. It was hidden beneath dark purple eyelids. The skin he had touched and embraced. It's cold and dull. The smell of the body he sniffed close to Now he is angry with the embalming fluid.

He did not listen to the details described by the police. I only know vaguely. that Seunghyun's car was overtaken by a truck and lost control Hit the edge of the expressway Flipped off the highway while heading towards the airport.

while coming to pick him up

Jiyong looked at the still figure silently, not shouting, not screaming, only the warmth that was continuously flowing from his eyes. Overflowing until it dries up He only remembered that He hugged the other person loosely. While whispering and innocently asking, "Hyung, why did you say you'd wait for me? Wake up."

“Beep!” Jiyong opened his eyes when he heard the sound of the pulse monitor making an unusual noise like never before. On the other side of the glass… Seunghyun's body lying inside the test tube in the green liquid was twitching. He rushed to check the meter. Cell retention rates dropped alarmingly. Jiyong's heart dropped.

What he was worried about was happening. Simulated cells cannot convert nutrients into energy that can be used to build new cells in time.

Seunghyun is melting like clay dropped into water

Jiyong quickly opened the door that separated the two rooms. He didn't even have time to change his gown and fume with disinfectant gas. His two feet led him to a storage shelf for life support chemicals. A hand hurriedly searched for a tube of Cell Activation Liquid. He took out 4 doses, twice as much as normal… Even though it was risky, But this was not the time for Jiyong to worry about scientific predictions.

A clear blue liquid immediately flowed through the rubber tube connected to Seunghyun's circulatory system. Jiyong stared at his lover's body with worry. Cold sweat coated his face. Soon, the cell production curve stopped falling. and increase the level slowly But Ji Yong breathed a sigh of relief for a short time. The heart rate graph suddenly jumped up.

Chemicals that accelerate cell activity have an effect on supporting cell structure. But at the same time, it stimulates the heart muscle cells to work more abnormally. Seunghyun's heart was about to fail.

'Damn!'

He turned back to the control panel on the wall. Calculate pulse rate and adjust pacemaker levels. He quickly pressed the button to send out a gentle electrical current. into a test tube to bring the function of the heart muscle back to normal. Seunghyun's body twitched once. But the heart chart still hasn't improved. Jiyong pressed three more times.

Pain in my chest every time I saw my lover's body trembling. But the numbers on the screen are still critical. make him hesitate If it were more stimulating Seunghyun's already weak heart muscle may be damaged beyond repair. His finger flickered on the button…

Finally, the vital signal graph sounded a long 'beep', dragging Jiyong's coldness along with it.

no! He screamed like a wild animal in a rage. before rushing to open the test tube The thick plastic outer frame slowly slides open, leaving only the glass tube inside.

Too slow…

Jiyong used a white cloth placed next to him to wrap his fists before punching the glass of the test tube until it shattered a hole. Green liquid quickly overflowed. He tore the cracked glass into pieces. Ignoring the blood drenched on his deeply cut hand Pull out the cord that connects your lover's body. All that's left is a wireless heart rate sensor attached to his neck. and carried Seunghyun's exhausted body out to lie on a long plastic table next to him.

Jiyong clasped his hands on her wet epigastrics and pressed in quick rhythms.

“Hyung, don't give up yet. Don't leave me yet,” he whispered unconsciously as his eyes switched between the naked body in front of him and the pulse display. The green lines that were supposed to dance up and down were completely still. There is no change…

“No, hyung, don't do this. I'm waiting for you, hyung." His voice trembled as he clasped his hands over his epigastrics.

“Please, hyung, wake up!… Wake up!”

“Ahhh..” Jiyong was startled as Seunghyun's body convulsed. The young man suddenly tensed, choking on a green liquid from his mouth and screaming in pain. He was stunned, unable to do anything, leaving Seunghyun holding his stomach and writhing on the bed… He expected a pulse. But I never thought that the other party would 'wake up' like this.

“Hyung!” When Jiyong regained his composure, He turned and grabbed a syringe and a mild sedative. Before he returned to insert the needle into his lover's body, Seunghyun soon stopped screaming and lay peacefully on the plastic table. Everything fell into silence. The only thing left was the sound of his pulse returning to normal again. along with the sound of both of them gasping for breath

“Hyung… Seunghyun hyung,” Jiyong said softly, almost whispering. He still couldn't believe what was happening in front of him. His lover is awake. Was he dreaming? The young man was so stunned that he didn't dare move. Until those sharp eyes opened. Even if it's just a little But the bright eyes that Jiyong had longed for so long returned to stare at him again.

“Jiyong…has returned…?” His deep voice was dry and soft. But that was enough to pull out everything in Jiyong's chest.

“I have returned... I'm back, hyung.”

he cried

Jiyong couldn't help but smile as he sat at the dining table. He hadn't slept in three days, but he didn't feel tired at all. His big eyes stared intently at his lover sitting in front of him as he fed him some food for his recovery. Jiyong couldn't help but laugh at the way the other party turned his mouth and turned away. ready to lament for him

“Jiyong…can't you just eat? I don't like the smell.”

“I can't, hyung… Hyung's body had not fully recovered yet. You have to take in a lot of nutrients. Otherwise, I'll have nausea and vomiting like the first day again."

Seunghyun seemed to handle the matter of his resurrection better than expected. The young man calmly listened as he recounted everything that had happened. When he finished, Seunghyun simply said, I'm sorry for making you suffer for so many years. Jiyong's tears flowed when he heard those words. Don't say that. I'm just following through on my promise. That I'll come back to hyung, that's all.

Seunghyun's body recovered surprisingly quickly. Jiyong himself couldn't find the answer. It might be a cell accelerator that he risks overdosing on. It may be electrical stimulation. It could be anything… But as far as Ji Yong knew This is a miracle.

Yet…he still didn't trust it. Try to check graphs of cell activity in various systems. of Seunghyun for 3 days and 3 nights, but still haven't found anything unusual. So he decided to remove the various detectors. out of Seunghyun's body and allow the other party to live freely as usual

I can only hope that it will always be like that…

“Hey… you're 38 now, and I'm still 28. Call me hyung. Aren't you ticklish like this?" The other party teased him, smiling. After swallowing the disgusting chemicals Jiyong, who just remembered, couldn't help but blush.

“Why? No matter how much time passes, Seunghyun is still my hyung.”

“You have to call it refusing to grow old, haha.” Seunghyun burst out laughing for the first time. A bright voice like a child who hasn't been heard in 10 years.

Jiyong smiled.

“Crazy hyung,” he protested, before walking over to help the other person up from his chair. “It's time to take a shower. I'll have to check on Hyung's physical condition again."

“Come on, I've been too lazy to sit here for a long time,” Seunghyun muttered childishly again. It's true that the physical examination took a long time. But it's necessary for him. Necessary for both This time, Jiyong would not allow that mistake to happen again. He won't let Hyung leave him again.

This time…Jiyong will take care of Seunghyun himself.

He promised…

“Mmm…” Jiyong moaned sweetly in his throat as his lover's lips gently kissed his shoulder, the two of them huddled in the thick blanket. Spreading warmth to each other like they had 10 years ago. At first, he didn't intend for Seunghyun to exert much effort. But the years of waiting didn't leave only painful wounds. If there was still a deep root of desire in Ji Yong's heart How many nights had he had to relieve himself while imagining lying beneath a tall figure?

And this evening, his dream came true again.

“Hyung…are you tired?” he asked after the other party freed him from the bondage of the kiss. Seunghyun replied softly, wrapping his arms around him tighter. Jiyong turned around. Staring deep into deep brown eyes

“I miss you, hyung,” he whispered softly. That moment seemed like it would never end. Before Seunghyun could answer, he returned with a small smile.

“I'm sorry… that I caused you such trouble.” Ji Yong's eyes were hot. He shook his head slowly.

“Not at all, not at all…” He buried his face in his broad chest. “I just want to be with my hyung again…”

“I have always been here, Jiyong… in here.” A thick palm moved to touch his chest, right at his heart, “I have never left.”

Jiyong stared into Seunghyun's eyes. Before getting up, he planted a soft kiss on his lips. It was a long time before the two separated. His full lips were hot and he could feel the bitterness dripping from his eyes.

“You cry more often than before, you've grown up…” Seunghyun smiled at him again. The sharp eyes gradually dim with exhaustion and drowsiness

“It's because of Hyung that I'm like this…” Jiyong collapsed onto Seunghyun's forearm, closing his eyes and lying still, listening to the sound of the other's pulse rhythmically pounding beneath his skin.

“Stay with me forever…” His plea echoed faintly in the air. But there was no answer. Seunghyun was already asleep. Only the sound of long breathing remained.

Jiyong then closed his eyes.

and fell asleep in those arms

“Hyung saw the book.

BIOCHEMISTRY

of

NIH

Is that there? It's a gray book.” Jiyong shouted to Seunghyun who was in the living room. As he was cleaning up his office for the first time in years A week ago, Seunghyun showed no abnormal signs. happen to the body Jiyong was therefore much relieved. He had a good night's sleep for a week. And finally, the two decided to clean up the small house.

How can you endure living in a place like this? Aren't you a person who loves cleanliness? Seunghyun's question yesterday evening made Jiyong blush with embarrassment. Busy, I have to work. There's no time to clean up. Because of hyung He replied as he returned the hammer. Seunghyun only chuckled. in his throat before playing with his hair.

“Where did you put it?” Seunghyun's voice asked back.

“Probably on the next floor. The sofa is brown.”

He replied as he busily sorted through the sheets of scientific data he had kept for the past ten years. Many of the series were during which he was testing the production of tissues from genetic code. Some of the series were when he experimented with tissue-nourishing fluids. Some are periods of experimentation in stimulating the body's functions.

while sweeping past Memories from throughout the past period come back periodically. The feeling of failure, of success, he still remembers the moment he jumped up and shouted with joy when he saw the first glimpse of the tissue he had grown. And when he collapsed in tears when the resuscitation fluid test failed for the fourth time.

The past made Jiyong sigh softly. What did he have to go through? How much must you endure for the person you love? It made him wonder what had driven him to this point…

A hand moved to rest on his chest. …I've been here all along.

That… this was probably the most important thing that made him stand firm.

Jiyong smiled…

He gathered up a pile of useful pieces of paper. And another pile that had to be transported and thrown away. When he was finished, Jiyong stood up and turned around and walked towards the living room.

“Hyung, have you found the book yet?”

Silence reverberated throughout the house as an answer.

“Hyung?” Jiyong walked into the light brown living room. But I didn't see Seunghyun's shadow except...

“Hyung!!!” He rushed towards Seunghyun's body lying motionless on the ground. Vomit stains were all over his face and on the carpet. He used his hand to feel his pulse. The other party's heart beat so fast it almost exploded. He tore off the other man's shirt. A red rash on his side indicated that Seunghyun was about to have kidney failure. Jiyong quickly ran to the laboratory in another part of the house. Grab all the necessary equipment and medicine and return to Seunghyun.

Everything happened quickly. It was as if the past week had just been a dream.

And he is about to wake up to the real world.

God is returning to demand His miracles.

Jiyong was startled when the other person's thick palm reached out and touched his cheek.

Cheeks crusted with tears

He fell asleep on the side of the bed. Surrounded by cordage to support Seunghyun's condition, stretched to the side. Jiyong felt pain that his lover had to be in this situation again…with a condition that was worse than before.

It seemed that his improved body for a few days was due to the stimulation of the chemicals he injected. combined with a mild electric shock This caused the cells in Seunghyun's body to function normally for a while. Until the cell structure begins to deteriorate Everything plummeted into the abyss again…

48 hours ago Seunghyun's respiratory and gastrointestinal systems failed three times, he nearly had kidney failure once, and his heart failed twice. Jiyong tried everything he could to save his lover's life. Seunghyun's forearm was covered with injection scars. Many chemicals flow into the blood system like a rainstorm…

Jiyong continued to struggle. Even though I know that this is only prolonging time…

“Jiyong…” Seunghyun's soft voice wailed. Awaken him fully.

“What is it, hyung, does it hurt somewhere?” He tried to hold back the tears that were brimming in his throat. While looking at the eloquent face that was shaking his head in denial

“It's probably close...time for me to go back...” Jiyong stared at the other person intently. Seunghyun smiled slightly.

“Don't say that. I won't let anything happen to Hyung again,” Jiyong said in a scratchy voice. He lied to Hyung, he lied to himself… Everything has arrived at its destination.

“Don't be stubborn... You never give up.” Seunghyun gently caressed his cheek. comforting some of the figures who sat curled beside the bed, trembling.

"I'm not stubborn..."

Jiyong shook his head… He was just trying to keep the promise he had made.

Seunghyun was silent for a long time. Sharp, dark eyes looked at him wearily. But his fingertips still gently caressed Jiyong's cheek.

“You've done enough for me already... At least…I know that you came back from that trip safely.” Seunghyun continued to smile. Ji Yong's body trembled with an aching warmth.

His tears flowed again.

Crazy! Why do you have to cry at times like this?

Wouldn't these tearful hearts allow him to look at his lover's face fully?

“Don't cry. I like you more when you smile…”

What was the point of him patiently walking all the way to this point…to see such a sight?

“Hyung… can you not leave me again…” Jiyong sobbed. Drops of hot water kept pouring down on his face.

“Stupid boy…I told you, I was here…all along.” A thick palm slid down onto his chest. “I am here… rooting for you. ...Keeps you alive. And it will always be like that.”

“You have done enough for me, Jiyong… You kept your promise to me for 10 years. That alone makes me sleep happily… It's time for you to be happy.”

“I'm already happy when I'm with hyung.” He shook his head, wiping away tears from time to time.

“I know…Jiyong, I know…”

The two were silent for a long time. There was only the sound of Jiyong sobbing for a while. He wiped the corner of his eyes before looking at Seunghyun's relaxed face. That face had a strange power. Help calm the feelings in Jiyong's heart. Finally realized that This is not the time to let sorrow consume you. He swallowed back a sob and looked at Seunghyun silently.

“Jiyong…can I lie on your lap? Please read the book to me.”

“Sure, hyung, what do you want to hear?” His voice was calmer than before for no apparent reason.

“You still keep the book I like, right?”

“Um…”

Jiyong stood up. Walk to the wall shelf. Take out a hardcover book that's been stored in a nice plastic bag. The gold cover still looks new. Khalil Gibran's philosophy of life... He walked back and sat on the bed.

“Can you please unplug these wires? I want to sleep well.”

“But…” He intended to refuse. But Seunghyun's pleading eyes made him soft. Sharp eyes looked at the cordage that was strung back and forth above the tall figure. It made Seunghyun look not human. It was just an experimental body that existed to satisfy his desires. It is a simulated object that can be reproduced at any time.

He felt a sharp pain in his chest. Never before had Jiyong realized this. He modeled Seunghyun. Bringing the other person back from the past, from death, measuring them, testing them all… this is no way to treat a lover.

He thought of Seunghyun's mind… A young man who was once bright and cheerful and refused to obey any rules. Like an eagle that dreams of soaring in the sky. The bird that spread its wings embraced him. and float away into the land of love...

He gulped. Before reaching out and disconnecting the various meter cables including life support equipment and moved to sit nearby Let Seunghyun lift his head and rest on his lap.

“The page that hyung bookmarked is still stuck.” He flipped the book open inside.

“Um, I posted this before driving out to pick you up. Read it…”

Almitra then asked further, 'Marriage'. Tell us about your grace.

and he replied,

She was born together And you will be together forever

He read the message slowly and calmly. One hand spreads out a book A hand gently caressed Seunghyun's head.

You will be together even when the white wings of death scatter your days.

That's right, you'll be together. Even in the quiet memory of God

But let there be space in your togetherness.

And may the winds of heaven blow between you.

Jiyong looked down and Seunghyun smiled slightly. As the other's breath became softer Strangely, Jiyong didn't feel the pain in his chest anymore. Every moment there was only him and Seunghyun.

Love one another But don't create bonds of love.

And may love be like the ocean

moving between the two sides of your soul

“Don't worry, Jiyong… I don't mind.”

“Hyung…”

“Then I will wait for you there.”

"Ha"

Fill each other's cups. But don't drink from the same cup.

Give bread to one another. But don't eat from the same lump.

Sing and dance together. And be entertained. But let each person have a chance to be alone.

Just like the strings of a harp are all alone. But it vibrates with the same melody.

The pulse in the temple of the man on his lap slowed down so much that he could hardly feel it. Jiyong took a deep breath once… before continuing to read in a clear voice It was as if lulling a child to a peaceful sleep.

A warm feeling surged in his chest. Ten years' worth of memories dissolved into a cloud of smoke. It wasn't Seunghyun who wanted treatment. But it's him. A mind that is torn with sorrow It is now being filled with the solitude that only pure love can provide.

Give your heart, but not to the other person.

Because only the hand of immortal life can hold your heart.

and stand together But don't be too close.

because of the pillars of the temple stood apart

and oak and cypress trees They cannot grow under each other's shadow.

Seunghyun's breathing had long been quiet. But his body was still warm. Jiyong closed the book. Bending down to kiss the other's cheek before whispering softly.

“I love you hyung. I will live my life for both of us. Wait for me on that side first…and I will go see hyung eventually…I promise.”

the next morning Jiyong managed to leave everything behind. He contacted the medical research institute of the university where he worked to obtain the ten years of data he had recorded. Including Seunghyun's body to serve as an example for students.

He announced the sale of that house.

On the day Jiyong will depart He stood on the sidewalk on the side of the road. One hand holds a life philosophy book. One hand on the left side of the chest

“Let's go…”

The End

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After note 

Oh, it's torture. It's a fleeting fic that comes in at 4:00 a.m. I can't sleep and have to get up and compose. You have to stop every once in a while when you get married.

The question that I would like to try and answer for fun is the name of the fic.

fix you

Who exactly is this?

fix

Whoever, hey, I can think of many things.

I hope everyone will be happy (?) reading it.

m(-__-)m *

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P.S. The writer's medical knowledge is very low. There's a lot of speculation. There's a lot of guessing. If you read anywhere you'll make a fuss. Just let it go. Consider it a fantasy lol // *runs away*