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FICTION

Yes, because it is a novel.

SUSPENSE

The first story is that the story proceeds according to my wishes and the writer's (strange) language expressions may cause the reader to not understand. for clarification The writer would like to tell us about the origins of the characters. and further explain the contents of the missing parts. In order to understand the same thing as follows.

Taemin...

Starting with the main character (What the writer loves the most) Taemin was originally like a normal kid. And because Taemin doesn't have a father. Taemin therefore obeyed and loved his mother more than anyone else. The first turning point occurred when Taemin was confined to the house by his mother. While everyone lives their own life Taemin had to live alone.

For a long time, depression developed. The shadow is the only thing that is always with Taemin.

Taemin often looks down at shadows and talks to shadows. Treat yourself like a friend. From having a shadow as a friend to relieve loneliness As the days passed, Taemin began to see his shadow come to life. The writer wanted to convey that hallucinations are a symptom of mild psychosis. which the patient himself still sees as normal

The second turning point was the night Taemin was raped by Jinki. Because I felt lonely to the point of being depressed. The physical pain didn't frighten Taemin as much as the thought of being abandoned. So he was willing to do everything to keep himself from being alone.

The promise that..you are my shadow Then I will be your shadow.. It brings out the shadow or the most important thing in Taemin's life at that time. as collateral And after Mina was tricked by Taemin as well.

SEX

A naive girl who believed in a promise Has acted like Taemin's shadow ever since.

Taemin felt really lonely. But at the same time closing yourself off from outsiders. For fear that others will hate her shameful past and another reason is paranoia to the point of not being able to trust anyone again. That's why Taemin chose to use a robot housekeeper that has no soul.

Taemin is an extreme nature lover. and against mother's research This was the only way Taemin could release his frustration from his mother's confinement. without making yourself feel guilty or being viewed as an ungrateful child

Taemin suspected Mina of killing Isabel from the beginning. and was only convinced when he saw the scene of Katie's murder that Ellie recorded with her own eyes. Taemin is really sorry. But at the same time, I feel grateful that Mina dared to risk destroying another life. To prove the promise that Taemin had made without considering your own future

“Death...usually happens when I sleep. It's a deep sleep where there aren't even dreams.” Misfortunes often happen when Taemin sleeps. But they didn't know that Taemin had actually fallen into a deep sleep only after Isabel's death. Sleeping Before the Next Murder It's just closing your eyes to delay time. To wake up and see an impressive sight of death

“I don't know what happened. Until waking up to meet those deaths At first..I couldn't tell them apart. It's like I'm dreaming. But in the end..a nightmare in front of us They all turned out to be true. Every feeling..is buried deep in the memory. Haunting me It makes me weak.” As for Taemin's statement that..

Unable to distinguish between reality and dreams..The writer wants to convey the symptoms of mental illness that have worsened to the point of being unable to distinguish. Every feeling..is the feeling of happiness when seeing death. It..is death. And the weakness..is Taemin's inability to withdraw from proving his love through wrong means.

From loneliness, depression, to the point of being considered a psychiatric patient..Dr. Rose made the correct diagnosis. without considering love Taemin just wants someone to be by his side. Someone who can make Taemin feel the most valuable. The important thing is that that person must live. There must be blood that is ready to be tainted for him.

Light..is a symbol of goodness. Shadow..is obsession, fickleness and confusion. Night..represents evil. If we picture it, the light is white, the shadow is gray, and the night is black.

Taemin has a fickle mind. Ready to sway and change your anchor if you deem that one to be more stable. comparable to shadow Minho had a strong heart and was evil from the beginning. comparable to the black night

From the content of the last paragraph Taemin allowing his shadow to be overlaid by Minho's shadow equaled acceptance. However, because the shadow was only obscured, the shadow remained. This meant that Taemin would submit as long as Minho could make Taemin feel. They are precious and their shadow cannot be seen.

Minho...

Minho's story should begin with the time he lost his father or the person Minho loved and was closest to in the hydrangea field. Writer did not specify the cause of death. Because for whatever reason The boy, Minho, is convinced that Hydrangea is the culprit who took the life of his creator. I hated it from that moment.

But because he is a brave and intelligent person. Instead of avoiding Instead, Minho brought hydrangeas to study until he knew this type of plant thoroughly. To fight the flowers that once hurt my father Truly..Minho intends to destroy this species of flower completely from the world. But when I saw Taemin The initial objectives have changed.

Minho has the characteristics of

obsessive compulsive disorder

or obsessive-compulsive disorder Since being obsessed with the hydrangea bed without letting go To the point where I agreed to miss school. Just because I wanted to overcome the fear that was buried deep in my heart. First time seeing Taemin His attractive appearance made Minho's gaze become a habit. and was extremely worried for no reason that Taemin would disappear

This made Minho have to keep watching until he couldn't take his eyes off.

From watching with your eyes Later, Minho bought a pair of binoculars to monitor Taemin's every move. Of course Minho knew everything. Not even the secret relationship between the two brothers. The sexual activities that lead to overflowing happiness cause Minho, who is growing up to be a young man, to become avaricious. Desire to touch The evil plan slowly took shape.

But unable to take action Because Taeyeon is a major obstacle.

“I just want to watch you for the rest of my life..that's all.” Minho wasn't lying and it was clear that there were no words of love in this heartfelt confession. Because Minho never really knew. Is it all love or is it done to satisfy a mental illness? The word love is used just because it sounds pleasant and precious. Minho firmly believes that if he can own It's like watching Taemin forever.

Mina...

honest girl believe in true love and adhere to the promise

Mina fell in love with Taemin with all her heart. And with the understanding that Taemin was the one who helped her escape from Jinki's hands, he had to accept the karma instead. Mina always remembers her kindness.

Mina is a soft-headed person and trusts people easily. She believes that Minho is a very good older brother. And trustworthiness is second only to Taemin. Therefore, she was very hurt when she knew every word. Every action of Brother Code It's meant to be used only as a bridge to reach his brother.

Soo Jung or Kai's girlfriend is Min Ah's first victim. With the help of Minho who is inventing

PERFECT POISON

Or a poison that works perfectly and has no residue left for forensic scientists to collect for testing. Mina chose Soo Jung because she wanted to keep Kai, who looked like Tae Min, by her side. and help with housework I never thought about how loving and affectionate would be.

His fingertips tremble every time he poisons them. When the practice occurred many times, the police were unable to take action. Mina begins to forget right and wrong. Look at death as a beautiful thing. Delighted when he was able to prove his love to Taemin. and changed into a cold-blooded person without realizing it

Taeyeon...

Leading scientists and executives Who performs the roles of both mother and father perfectly. Taemin is a precious thing that cannot be compared with anything. Like an only son It's normal for a mother to be very jealous and worried.

But one day Taeyeon realized that her beloved son was catching the attention of a strange boy. If that child steps up to you and talks normally Taeyeon wouldn't be afraid. From days to weeks From a week to almost a month Every time I look at a famous flower shop Behind the original window was a tall, thin boy who stared at his son.

Taeyeon became impatient the day she noticed the binocular lenses. This intruding on Taemin's privacy was too much to bear. But the result of knocking on the flower shop's door to negotiate with Minho to end all his actions like a pervert. It is to be rejected with silence and stares full of hate.

Confining Taemin in a secret place It turned out to be an inspiration for Minho to be even more aggressive. Obsessed with winning And instead of making some concessions Taeyeon instead defends her baby. Don't give up on the young man. Until unable to resist the force of revenge Made the mistake of being poisoned later.

Jinki...

Jinki is a crafty person. and smart about turning crises into opportunities On the night of the annual Faculty of Science party Jinki accidentally overhears Minah and Jonghyun's evil plan. and used it as a bargain until he obtained the position of dean.

Jinki witnesses the murder from beginning to end. Since Jonghyun raised a glass of medicinal juice and served it to Joongki and Taeyeon. Until a couple tried to escape in a car. and had an accident on the way to the hospital All this With the hope of good fortune and position in the future Jinki therefore did not attempt to stop the evil plan in any way.

The deep feelings that Jinki accidentally gave Taemin could be called close to love. Even though it started with a passion for image When possessing the body Jinki falls madly in love with his nephew. Been waiting for five years and was willing to die to prove his last words

Jonghyun...

A close student that Taeyeon trusts very much. Even though she agreed to act as a matchmaker, the mother was determined to have love and affection for her stepson.

Jonghyun fell in love with Minah from the first time they met. The more he was seduced by Mina. The passionate Jonghyun is able to follow a woman's every command in exchange for a hot love scene.

With Minho's planning which Jonghyun mistook for Taemin's plan Jonghyun had to agree to participate in the crime because he couldn't displease his girlfriend. This leads to aggressive behavior and distancing oneself from society. Just to punish and make up for the wrongdoing he himself had committed.

When Taemin returns Jonghyun couldn't stand to be silent. Death was caused by poisoning a coffee cup to silence it. It was actually Mina's handiwork that returned to the teacher's room. But it all depends on Minho's decision.

Kai...

A harmless young painter

Kai is considered the character with the most normal personality in the story. Have a solitary personality It's easy to let go and accept the truth.

Kai has a crush on Taemin. By seeing the loneliness in his cold eyes Mina's resemblance in appearance is just one small factor. which makes Kai often recklessly approach

For three years, Kai lived in the tea shop. Kai often caught sight of the flower shop owner's son, who was watching the empty bedroom on the third floor. Often to the point of being unnoticed It wasn't until the day Taemin returned home that Kai understood when his strange behavior worsened to the point of psychosis. Kai couldn't resist being optimistic. And this is the reason why Kai didn't like Minho's face from the beginning.

Kibum...

Kibum used to love Jinki. But when faced with Jinki's flirtatious and indiscriminate behavior. From love, it was reduced to a relationship for work and social appearance.

Initially, Kibum secretly dates Minho just to relieve his loneliness. But when a competitor like Taemin appears As a person who never gives up Kibum is willing to do whatever it takes to win.

Because they used to have a good relationship with each other. Minho tried to warn Kibum. But Kibum still insists on bullying Taemin and won't let go. Minho then calls Minah to tell her about the danger that Kibum is bringing. and out of fear of being delved into the past He was angry that his older brother was being bullied. Mina decides to kill again. With Minho watching over the source.

About the title and content...

Shadow lust..comes from the word..shadow..which refers to an area where light cannot reach. And..lust..is desire. or sensual desire

Shadow..refers to Lee Taemin The protagonist of the story Those who choose to turn their backs on the light Lust..is the cause of every death. It's not love..as Taemin long understands.

In the content of this story Actually, it has almost nothing to do with love. Even though there are many words of love to be heard But is it really true love? Writer would like to answer that it is not.

according to personal opinion The writer doesn't want to mix love with this novel that has only negative content. Even though I've been heartbroken Writer still views love in a positive way. And believe that if we love to be Love doesn't bring tears.

Regarding black coffee..coffee beans have the property of absorbing odors. Writer takes this fact and imagines it to expand a little further. It is assumed that black coffee can also absorb toxic odors. This is why people with good noses like Taemin like to drink coffee. It can also resist poison from the scent that he invented and experimented with.

In summary, after reading this story, do you have any thoughts? The writer himself is not skilled or good enough to teach anyone. Just leave a question like Dr. Summer Rose once said.

“When the time comes for you to face You must choose for yourself whether to face the light or the shadow.”

Every human being has a choice..whether it's good or bad..everyone has the right to choose. But before choosing Writer asks you to choose with awareness. Choose after careful consideration. Because it's not just you who has to face that result. But there is still a person beside me. This includes the people you love as well. Therefore..before choosing, think carefully.