:)  Shalunla

Have you ever missed someone so much that you felt like you were going to die?

/“That's all for now. I have to go to sleep.”/

"Don't put it down yet...you haven't answered Key yet about when you'll be returning to Seoul."

/"Let's talk later, good people..."/

And then had to hang up the phone even though I still didn't get the answer I wanted. I put the phone on the window sill. before stacking his arms and resting his chin on top of it His eyes looked out the window. White snow is falling from the sky. Accumulated into sheets that became thicker and thicker. It's probably no different from the nostalgia that's stored in my heart right now.

It was enough to even explode. Even though he had painstakingly sent it to someone on the other side of the world. But I'm starting to wonder if the people there know my feelings...I just really miss Kim Jonghyun.

Actually, I'm not very sure about this love. Just take a risk. Bet with all your heart I've heard that love across the horizon is something that is quite difficult to maintain. And the further away The stability and trust that exists can be shaken at any time.

Being there, Jonghyun hyung would probably meet a lot of people. The people there might be better than me. When I think like that, I always feel sad. Maybe it was because I was too afraid. But no matter what, I couldn't help but think about it. I can only hope that the feelings we have for each other remain the same.

We first met in the winter of two years ago. I work part-time at my cousin's coffee shop. Jonghyun hyung stops by to drink coffee at the shop every morning. I myself am looking at him. But I didn't think he would look at me either. I was shocked when I received his Christmas present. Even though I hadn't prepared anything for him at all.

But I made amends by making him a New Year's present. On the day he had to return to study in England. He turned me into a crybaby and I couldn't understand why I would cry over someone I'd barely known. I just hope that Jonghyun hyung will keep his promise.

We will walk together no matter what happens...

Even though we haven't met But the fact that we all try to communicate with each other The distance didn't seem to be a problem for either of us. They may not seem as romantic as other couples. But I think being asked to be my boyfriend passed.

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It's something strange too. I remember that day I cried at Jonghyun hyung too. It's just the fussiness of someone who wants to see the face of the person they love. But it didn't last long. I had to go back to being Kim Kibum who had to patiently wait for my girlfriend to come back to me...

“Sigh often or you'll get old quickly,” a familiar voice said. A white ceramic cup filled with hot cocoa was placed next to him. I turned to smile at my brother as a thank you and then turned my attention to the hot cocoa... “Why are you fighting with Jonghyun?”

“No, I really just want to meet Jonghyun hyung.”

“Missing him, why don't you just fly to see him?” Jinki hyung sat down next to him. before resting his chin and looking out the window.

“Oh, if I had that much money, I would have gone a long time ago. He's the one who refused to give me a raise."

“What? You gave more than anyone else. If you complain again you will definitely reduce your wages...but once this glass is finished you can go back to work. Otherwise, it won't just be a reduction in wages.”

I turned and hammered at Jinki hyung. Before nodding instead of answering...

Many of my friends often ask if I don't regret my time. Being in a relationship with someone But we haven't met like this. Is the way things are today good? From an outsider's perspective, it doesn't look like I have a boyfriend at all...I don't argue that it's not true. I just feel satisfied with everything right now. Except for the time when I felt crazy about Jonghyun hyung.

"Nong Kibum"

"Ha? Oh Sodam hyung, hello.” I turned to greet Jonghyun hyung's older sister who was standing there giving me a sweet smile.

“Iced latte with whipped cream.” After ordering, he sat down on the backless chair in front of the counter... “I just returned from England. Please bring a souvenir for Nong Kibum."

I served drinks to my sister. before receiving a large paper bag from Sodam hyung and saying thank you...seriously. I don't really want souvenirs. But I'd rather have my younger brother come back too...

“So...Jonghyun hyung isn't coming back?”

“Oh, it says I want to stay and travel to Europe first and then return. I don't know what it is. For many years I didn't know how to travel."

Or will I be the only one who wants to meet him?

Snap...

“Eh?” I looked up at Sodam who had secretly taken a photo of me just now.

“I would send a picture of a lonely child to call my younger sibling to hurry home...it really doesn't work. Having a boyfriend as cute as this, would you still dare to leave it like this...if you were me? I left Jonghyun for a new girlfriend a long time ago.” He finished and winked at him.

I could only send a wry smile to my beautiful sister. Before excusing himself to take orders from customers who had just walked into the store...sigh. If Jonghyun hyung comes back soon, it would be great...

It's getting closer and closer to Christmas. But there is still no sign that Jonghyun hyung will come back. I was hurt and felt terrible like never before. When asked when Jonghyun hyung will come back? He would change the subject every time. Until recently, I stopped asking him. So last night I accidentally threw myself at Jonghyun hyung...

“Then just stay there. You don't have to come back at all.”

Jonghyun hyung is quiet. Before laughing and telling me to have a good day like every past day...how can that be good? When I don't have a brother next to me!!! : (

Today is Christmas Eve. I had to go home early because I had to go to church with my family. Even though today's mass is quite late compared to Sunday. But everyone here seems happy. I smiled at the little children preparing to act in a play about the birth of Jesus. When I was a kid, I used to act like this too...

It's the angel Gabriel. By the time the mass ended and we arrived home, it was almost 1:00 a.m. I sent a message to Jonghyun hyung. Even though in England it is still the 24th.

I couldn't sleep, so I left the house and went for a walk in the cold weather like this. I stopped to buy hot coffee from a convenience store. Even though it's not as delicious as the one I made myself. But I have no right to choose at a time like this. I walked until I came to the front of the playground, which was not too far from the house. before sitting down on the swing and gently swinging

Now what am I thinking about? I can't believe how I endured being away from my boyfriend for this long. Thinking about it, I can't help but laugh too. Ah...the cup of coffee is finished. I should go home soon. But the phone rang first. Strange number too...

“Hello, this is Kibum.”

/"Coming out for a walk like this, aren't you sleepy?"/

“Huh? Who is this?” I was really scared. Suddenly, someone called and knew that I was out for a walk. So I turned to look around me. But I didn't see anything unusual. Before asking anything further The call was cut off... "What? Is this a mental illness? Ah!!!"

I couldn't stop struggling as I was hugged from behind. He hadn't even turned to look at the face of the person who had acted so rashly. He was kissed on the cheek again. I'm about to cry. Why do you have to come across something like this? If it gets out, I'll run and report it to the police immediately. Wait and see, but...why is the smell of perfume so familiar?

"Hi, my good friend..."

Obviously, this voice...I don't know. I was annoyed. I wanted to make myself angry. I couldn't help it. I lowered my head and refused to say anything to Jonghyun hyung. So his brother relaxed his embrace. before walking and squatting in front of me The more I saw his smile, the more I felt annoyed. I crossed my arms over my chest and turned my head in the other direction. Even though I wanted to look at his face fully.

"Kibum-ah..." I didn't just call out, warm hands pulled my hands and held them on both sides.

"Don't you miss me?"

Why ask something that you already know the answer to? I turned my eyes to Jonghyun hyung and let out a loud sigh. I want to slap the person who keeps smiling once or twice. Jonghyun hyung is now sitting on the floor. Take my hand and place it on your shoulder. Then he changed and hugged my waist loosely. Damn it...why do I feel like I want to cry?

But it's not just about feeling. Now I'm sitting and crying like a child, so Jonghyun hyung rubbed my back to comfort me.

"Don't cry, Nong Key...Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"

Now Jonghyun hyung pulled me up and hugged me. The soft, comforting voice in my ear caused more tears to fall than before. I held onto Jonghyun hyung's coat tightly. Along with letting out an unashamed shout...

“K...I miss...Key, I miss Jonghyun hyung...huh.”

"I miss Key too," he replied before raising his hand to wipe away my tears...

“When do you come back?”

“This evening. But I knew that Nong Key was going to church today, so I waited at home. We hurried into the house first. I'm going home already. But Key came out for a walk. So I just kept following along.”

“Are you a stalker?” I smacked my chest wide. along with swinging the hammer into the big circle

"Sorry...I just wanted to surprise Key."

“It's not funny!!!” I shouted... “Key misses you almost like crazy. When asked when he would return, he refused to say. People who wait are also disappointed... knowing this, I ran off to love someone else a long time ago."

"This isn't funny, Nong Key." People like this make a stressed face at me...

“Everyone wants to see their partner every day. But we only meet once a year..." I didn't finish my rant before Jonghyun hyung interrupted me.

“After today, we see each other every day. I'm back with Key."

When he heard this, he was shocked and his eyes widened at Jonghyun. So my crazy person couldn't stop laughing until I had to shout out loud to relieve my embarrassment. I'm very happy to hear that. It's probably because the two of us never had many good times together. The past two years, we only met during the winter break. But I secretly thought that Jonghyun hyung would tell me like this.

Well, he's already graduated. Why continue to stay in England?

“It's time to take back control of your girlfriend. Did you see that Sodam hyung said there were a lot of people flirting with him?”

"Well...a lot," he replied with a smile before resting his face on his broad shoulder.

“Huh…” Jonghyun hyung laughed… “Nong Key. You have a lot of Christmas gifts for us.”

The keyword is gift. Just use it to lure small children...but... "which?"

"In my room."

Has anyone ever told Jonghyun that someone with a handsome face like him also has a lustful side to him? I'm confident in you. So I squeezed my girlfriend's cheek like that. Jonghyun hyung moaned loudly. As for me, I laughed just as loudly. I like moments like this the most. When Jonghyun and Key are together

When we laugh and smile together...

The past time has made me realize how valuable our time is. Waiting to meet someone has this meaning. We don't have to be together all the time. Just try to continue to grow our love while waiting. I don't want a Christmas present. I don't want anything anymore...

Just having Kim Jonghyun next to Kim Kibum is enough...

END.

Talk:

Hello, we meet again (?). It's winter right now (in countries outside ASEAN), so I wanted to write a fic that would make me feel the cold. Consider it a Christmas fic. And then I got the song.

It’s cold

from the band Epic Hi to help create and finish composing this story. I've listened to it countless times. It's another song that is fun to listen to and very beautiful. I felt lonely after listening to it, hahaha, so I got Nong Key's lonely mood as I saw it. Well...hope to see you again soon. Nowadays it's really difficult to finish each fic...

Oh, and I'd like to give this fic as a birthday gift to my lovely sister, NRA, who has a birthday today. hope you are very happy And let's love Jongkey together for a long time, hehe.

Thank you for reading up to this line. Have a Merry Christmas God bless you : )