:: A part of memory ::

Kris

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Luhan

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October 2008

It was the first time that Yixing had held a birthday party abroad. Exchange students who come to live in Korea to study Fortunately, Yixing is an easily adaptable person. Even though in the beginning you had to come under a lot of pressure from yourself. It had been five months since he had gotten used to living here. Every morning I have to wake up and use the language that I gradually begin to absorb.

"Happy birthday, Yixing."

A small hand received a gift box that was just the right size in his hand with excited eyes before thanking him with deep gratitude. Just friends coming together to organize a surprise is enough of a joy.

"Do you like it? "Ah," a sweet voice came closer. Yixing turned around before being embraced by his best friend. A small body that is the same height One of Yixing's closest and most trusted Chinese friends.

“Thank you very much, Xiao Lu. I really like today,” a sweet voice said sincerely, holding the other person's hand.

"It's okay. It's my Yixing's birthday." Luhan smiled sweetly as he grabbed Yixing's shoulders and shook them back and forth. Some people already intend to organize a birthday party for this close friend. Fortunately, nothing went wrong, although there were some hiccups during preparation. The birthday person smiled sweetly. The venue is a small restaurant where only close friends are invited.

Yixing is Chinese like Luhan and doesn't have many close friends in Korea. Most of the people who attended the event were friends in the same field of study.

"But arranging it like this seems too chaotic and too big..so considerate." Luhan laughed before hugging Yixing tightly. Because the other party has a kind heart and always thinks about other people's little things, it makes Luhan want to repay Yixing and his friends agree.

"Everyone is willing to make you smile, smile. Why do you have such a sad face?" Luhan teased before pulling the other's cheek to stretch out. Yixing shrieked before laughing at the same time.

“Oh, but what about your friend who said she was coming? Has he come yet?”

“Ah, I completely forgot..I'll call first. I don't know if I'm lost or not.” Yixing scratched his head in worry while Luhan nodded. He walked away. Looking after Yixing who walked outside to avoid talking on the phone.

Yixing made a call to another close friend who had made an appointment. Direct flights from abroad After separating to study according to the career that you dreamed of It's been many years since we've seen each other. But they still keep in touch with each other from time to time. One thing is that Yixing himself always inquired about the welfare of the other party.

“Wu Fan, where are you?”

When he heard the message on the other end of the phone that he was almost there, Yixing gradually lost his worry. Wu Fan himself was Chinese, but Wu Fan's mother often traded in many countries, so he was still young so he had to follow along. At one point, Wu Fan's mother came to leave his grandmother to raise him. This makes both Yixing and Wu Fan close because they were raised together since childhood.

Until Wu Fan reached his early teens, Wu Fan's mother arranged his studies and moved the family to set up roots abroad. Yixing still remembers the first time he felt lost and heartbroken.

But they weren't completely apart because every summer Wu Fan would come back to visit and come back to play with Yixing as usual. Being close to each other Being close to each other, Yixing understood that this was the bond he had with Wu Fan and that this relationship of friends, siblings, close relatives would never change to anything else.

After Yixing said that he would come to study in Korea. Before that, Wu Fan had not contacted me again.

Wu Fan had grown into a young man with outstanding qualities. The last time he saw Yixing, he still remembers his handsomeness. His body is taller than the standard. This is probably a consequence of growing up abroad, which makes people taller than Asians. I'm not sure about this one.

The other side chose to study editing and design something related to graphics and computers. Wu Fan took beautiful photos. Others often send handmade postcards as gifts when visiting various places. Yixing put every disc in a box. Whenever he thought of it, he would pick it up and read it instead of consoling himself.

Yixing decided to stand and wait for the other party. Because he was afraid that Wu Fan would not see him when he came. After only a few moments of waiting and without much time for Yixing to prepare, Wu Fan arrived in his car.

"Whoa, who's car are you going to get?"

Yixing teased as he looked at the tall car that had parked in the driveway. Wu Fan opened the car door with a handsome smile playing at the corner of his mouth. The tall figure grabbed a dark colored suit and a comfortable t-shirt, which Yixing saw and couldn't help but admire the other's beautiful figure.

“Why are you standing here waiting? The dew has fallen."

The other party walked closer. The reason I was always smiling was probably because I saw Yixing through the mirror from the beginning. He asked in a tone that sounded like he was concerned. As for Yixing himself, he could only shake his head in denial.

"Wu Fan is wearing a thin shirt..isn't it cold?"

"No, I'm used to it." Yixing smiled before being grabbed by the other person's wrist and twitched in a gentle tug. The small figure staggered slightly but agreed to follow Wu Fan to the car.

"I have something to give you."

You blinked as you stood and waited for the other person to grab something from the back seat. I was secretly a little excited even though I really didn't expect to receive anything from Wu Fan. It was because this year, Yixing really wanted to meet Wu Fan, so he asked the other party to come to his birthday party. Even though it was usually held with his family, this year he was in Korea, so he thought he would be able to celebrate his birthday alone. Who knew that Luhan's best friend would intend to make such a big surprise?

“Oh!” Wu Fan smiled and laughed at the other person's expression. A large, bloated plastic bag was handed over to Yi Qing, who took it and was staggering.

“What is this? It's so big!” Wu Fan teased, lifting the bag to cover the other person's face. So Yixing couldn't see a way. But from the touch you can feel the softness.

“Oh, Wu Fan, you're all grown up!! Why did you have to buy me a doll?!” Even though his mouth was murmuring like he didn't like it, the expression on his side made Wu Fan know how satisfied he was because his cheeks were decorated with deep dimples that looked cute since youthful times It was Zhang Yixing's uniqueness that Wu Fan especially liked.

“No, please keep it in the car first. Bringing it in like this would embarrass other people." Yixing was annoyed, resisting carrying a bag of giant dolls and starting to enter. Friends who came to the event today must have known the secret that Yixing likes and is crazy about all types of dolls. It didn't seem to suit the manly Zhang Yixing.

“Alright then,” Wu Fan accepted without any problem. While walking to the car, I secretly surveyed the person who had grown another year older. It was the first day that Yixing would be his age. Because from one month from now, he would be older than Yixing as usual.

“I have something to tell you. I don't know if I'll be happy or not."

“What is it?” I turned around and asked the tall figure standing behind me.

"I'll stay in Korea for a while..we'll probably see each other more often."

"Huh? TRUE? Is this true?!”

Yixing wanted to shout loudly. He didn't know what this feeling of excitement and heart pounding erratically meant. But just the thought of seeing Wu Fan more often made his cheeks almost burst with smiles.

Yixing brought Wu Fan inside. The tall man asked first if he was handsome enough. Upon receiving the answer that he was the most handsome at the event, Wu Fan smiled and followed. The first person Yixing wanted Wu Fan to get to know was probably Luhan. No matter how much he craned his neck to look for another person, he couldn't find him. Wu Fan was also looking for Yi Qing. Just want to know who the little person wants to find.

Luhan saw the new member who came in with the birthday person and guessed that it was a friend that Yixing had often told him about. The other party was tall and slender. Even though the lights in the store were dimmed low, the other party was still incredibly bright. Luhan walked closer to Wang, greeting him at the same moment the other person turned to look at him.

They looked into each other's eyes for a moment. The brain feels confused and disturbs every nerve cell. Any sound received does not enter the ear. There is only a pair of sharp eyes that attract and direct you to look without neglect.

"Lu..Xiao Lu"

"Huh??"

“I just found you.” Yixing moved in. Holding the other person's arm before pulling Luhan closer

“This is Wu Fan, the friend I once told you about. Wu Fannie Luhan My best friend."

Yixing introduced himself in a cheerful voice. Luhan smiled faintly at the tall figure's soft smile, contrasting with his fierce face. Looking at it like this, he could feel the gentleness that was being sent.

"I'm so glad. My important person was at the birthday party today. Thank you, Wu Fan, Luhan," Yi Qing said sincerely. Nanna's beautiful eyes that always sparkled, but the sadness slowly faded away as he smiled. Wu Fan took his eyes off Luhan's pretty face and turned to the person beside him. Said a few teasing words but then turned back towards Luhan as before.

The birthday party that Yixing was impressed with and doesn't plan to forget has ended. The only three of them left were Yixing. Luhan and Wu Fan who hadn't left the store yet

“Let Wu Fan send it away. It's late and it's dangerous."

"Do you want that?"

“Oh, come on, I'm worried about Xiao Lu too.”

"That's all right," Yixing urged Luhan to return with him. Wu Fan volunteered to drop him off, so he asked the tall man to stop by and drop off Luhan first. Wu Fan was not a mean person. Throughout the event, he also smiled sometimes, but not much because he didn't know anyone in particular yet. Or maybe he didn't have the heart to be interested in anyone besides Luhan, Yixing's sweet-faced friend who was so eye-catching that he couldn't go anywhere else.

"Please help me." A shy smile without pretension. Wu Fan smiled back at the other party and walked towards the car. The seat next to the driver was occupied by Yixing. In the back seat was Luhan, who looked at the side of the bag with a puzzled expression.

Inside the car was a light perfume smell. It was assumed that it was Wu Fan's body odor. Yixing gave directions and Luhan nodded his head. Tell me yourself because this Yixing is more forgetful than anyone else. Even though I often go to Luhan's dormitory, I often remember the room on the wrong floor. Upon arriving, Luhan thanked him before saying happy birthday to Yixing again.

"Sweet dreams, Luhan."

Yixing shouted as Luhan walked out. Causing the small figure to turn around and look. In front of the dormitory, the lights were on brightly, making it possible to clearly see Yixing from here. What was more clear was that the person who had been silent all along the way was staring at him.

Luhan wasn't sure if he would have as good a dream tonight as Yixing wished him to.

Because just by closing my eyes to sleep, I now felt that the image stuck under my eyelids had become Zhang Yixing's handsome friend.

“Wu Fan…”

"Van Van"

"Fan Ge"

Yixing called, called over and over again. Wu Fan answered in his throat every time, but he didn't turn around and smile back. In the past few hours, since Wu Fan had met Luhan, Yixing had sensed that something had gradually changed.

"Luhan is cute, don't you think so?" When it's just the two of them. Intimate words that were used to address each other when we were children are now being used. Nowadays, almost no one calls him Wu Fan, except for people who have known him for a long time, like Yi Qing, etc.

"It's cute."

"So cute!! This friend of Yi's has a lot of people who like her."

"........" Wu Fan pretended not to listen, but his heart twitched out of its original rhythm.

"But Luhan doesn't care about anyone...."

“If Fan Fan likes it, Please contact me,” Yixing said as he secretly observed how Wu Fan would respond. But there was only silence in return. Yixing pretended to adjust the seat. Lean back slightly and face the mirror. The scene in front of him was a road, but when he looked into the mirror, he saw the side of Wu Fan's face, which he remembered in every detail.

Even though the other party didn't answer, Yixing could already feel Wu Fan's feelings.

The loss approached Yixing unexpectedly.

Yixing slept the whole way. Wu Fan didn't know where Yixing's current residence was. In the end, he brought him to the condo where he lived. He woke up the thin person even though he felt a little sorry for his gesture that said he was having a good night's sleep.

The other party moved. Rubbing his eyes with a puzzled face

"Go up to your room and sleep."

"Uh huh."

Yixing nodded obediently. Walking down like a sleepwalker The small figure that he had when he was a child was about the same height. But Wu Fan soon overtook him and became a taller boy because he did sports, not painting or playing the guitar like Yixing.

"Wu Fan"

"Huh?"

"Thank you..for today."

Wu Fan smiled, Yixing's eyelids were closed, but his mouth was still moving. Looks like he was tired and exhausted for most of the day, so Wu Fan ignored it and didn't hold any grudges against the person who refused to take a shower and get into bed.

"Happy birthday, Ching Ching."

Yi Qing is glad that Wu Fan is in Korea these days. in the same place as him Meeting to get rid of missing you is not difficult anymore. Wu Fan said that he was working on a project and would be staying in Korea for a while. Yixing was very happy. Every time we meet to eat, whether it's lunch or dinner, Yixing always invites Luhan along.

Wu Fan, who started getting to know Luhan more, found that the other party didn't just have a cute face. But his personality is also very cute. The two got to know each other and became closer even if it was only for a short period of time.

Yi Qing smiled happily. One person is important. The other person was someone he loved equally. Seeing Luhan and Wu Fan get close really made Yixing happy. But sometimes that happiness comes with a resistance that cannot be released.

“I can go do my own business now. Let's go with Wu Fan." The look on Luhan's face showed that this was not a good idea. He pretended to refuse, but Yixing pressed his thin shoulder to follow Wu Fan in time. Now the three of them were together at the department store. Let's have lunch together. But since the three of them didn't have work or afternoon classes, they decided to take a walk.

But Yixing seemed to remember that he had important business to attend to. And besides, he wanted to give the couple an opportunity to spend time together. In the past, Wu Fan himself had not revealed much. He is a person with a loud mouth that makes Yixing feel annoyed. Luhan himself, although he didn't show any reaction, Yixing knew that he wanted to get to know Wu Fan more than before.

Yi Qing separated himself from the two people and grabbed a taxi in front of the shopping mall. The weather isn't very hot. Including living a life that can be called happy during this period. He told himself that everything now was full of meaning and was going well.

But the heart doesn't listen.

It hurt every time I felt myself breathing.

Yixing waited in line to be called in front of the examination room alone. Today is the day to hear the results of the physical symptoms that Yixing has had since childhood. It used to be much better for a while. But now he felt so depressed that Yixing was worried about his own body. Some people sat still and froze. Asked what is going on in my brain right now, the answer turns out to be completely white. And as soon as he heard his own name being called, he jumped up with his heart pounding erratically.

Yixing sat down on the opposite side of the doctor. The smell of disinfectant was impossible to escape. He sat tensely for a moment and the doctor, who was in his 40s, gave him a kind smile.

At that moment, Yixing felt that he had received a piece of divine help from President Chongkwan. At least the doctor's expression wasn't bad.

"Don't you have any relatives of the patient?"

“No…” Yixing replied, his voice slightly sweet at the end. He has been alone for a long time.

The doctor's expression that Yixing observed was neither good nor bad. But it's plain and simple. Perhaps this is a skill that all patients are trained to use.

“How do you feel about me?” Yixing asked, holding back his courage. The doctor only smiled a wry smile.

Yi Qing immediately knew that none of the gods had mercy on him.

Winter is the season that Luhan loves.

"Wait a long time?"

"No.." The small figure smiled sweetly as he extended his hand to receive the small, warm coffee cup that was being held in his hand. A big man who just walked

Arrived and sat down Today is not a special day, it's just the day they met.

It turned out to be normal. A coffee shop where Wu Fan came to rest with his favorite laptop. Luhan will follow behind. Sometimes there is an I Ching. Sometimes there aren't any. For example, during this time, Yixing was often busy. When asked, he said it was a personal matter. Luhan heard that and didn't want to bother asking further for fear of being too careless.

"Does Chris know where Yixing has gone?" A question lingered in his mind. Luhan asked carefully. The owner of the handsome, eloquent face simply shook back and forth slowly.

"Normally, if something happens to me, I'll tell you...I wonder..it's probably really a private matter." Chris said he was worried. But I think that during this period I did nothing to make Yixing dissatisfied or uncomfortable. The last time they talked, Yixing wished him happiness with Luhan, which was considered an opportunity. Chris therefore thought that the other party's frequent disappearance during this period might help him in another way.

Luhan nodded slightly. Received the book Chris had asked for earlier and opened it to read briefly. I just found out that this guy likes to read. Luhan felt himself getting closer to Kris. Even though Chris's name was requested.

'Please call me Chris.'

'Wu Fan wants Yixing to call alone.'

Even though it was a small matter, Luhan still didn't think about it. That sentence reminded Luhan that there was no one Kris could trust more than Yi Qing. Even though now the two of us are starting to open up and talk more than usual. The specialness that Chris gave to himself was different from the one that Chris gave to Yixing. Luhan tells himself that this is nonsense because Kris already said that nowadays everyone calls him Kris. Only Yixing was not used to his mouth and refused to call him by a new name.

It became a small knot that Luhan knew he would have to feel doubt about for a long time.

"Yesterday I went to the bookstore..I found a book that looked worth reading..Let's take a look," the small figure invited with a smile. Chris nodded without thinking. The coffee I had in my hand was slightly diminished.

"Where do you want to go?"

"I don't know...I didn't think at all," Luhan answered truthfully. Every time we meet up, it turns out to be chatting instead of taking a walk like teenagers like to do.

"Actually, I'd rather sleep." Luhan raised his head and looked straight at the other person. His voice was cheeky and his face was stern. Another angle that Chris had just revealed to him.

"Why is my face so worn out?"

"Not at all." Chris closed his eyes and shook his head. The tall figure stretched slightly towards Luhan and used his thick hands to hold the small body's long, light-colored hair behind his ears.

The two of us began to get closer.

Falling into the stillness of time, just keeping eye contact

Chris' gentle smile made his cheeks begin to tingle with blood.

The air outside, although cold, was the temperature that his little body was feeling right now. So warm that he had to secretly smile a little.

Luhan knows that he loves winter because it means waiting for someone else to share the warmth of this season of love.

Yixing curled up in a thick blanket. The heater in the corner of the room makes a noise indicating that it is working properly.

Fever

Even though I felt a little better, my body couldn't resist the fever. Must be bedridden Bury yourself from the outside world.

I'm so tired.

Yixing said to himself with heat flickering in his eye canals. He turned around and looked at the large doll, Wu Fan's favorite birthday present from last year.

I want to call but I'm afraid I'll disturb the other person's time.

But let the tears flow

before he disappears Yixing doesn't want to be a weak person until the end. Wu Fan never told him to stop fighting problems. Wu Fan never said that he would take care and protect each other.

Wu Fan taught him to be strong.

Teach him what it is like to have a worthwhile life.

But the time left is too short.

The whole time of I Ching

Wu Fan's time

our time

Everything would just disappear into a memory.

Yixing thought... as he closed his eyelids that he couldn't hold them back any longer.

It's probably like time. That no matter how much we try to stretch it, it will flow and never return.

“Yixing!” Chris pushed open the door with a sweaty face. The large overcoat that had created warmth was now causing the body to feel hot, only to receive a phone call from Luhan, and the other end of the line said that Yixing was seriously ill. In the hospital

His brain was covered in white paint. It was not unusual for Yixing to be sick. But the fact that the other party didn't say anything was going to be a huge matter for Wu Fan.

The first thing he saw was Luhan standing in front of the emergency room where Kris knew that inside, Yi Qing was getting help.

It's his fault.

"Chris"

The owner of the name looked up at Luhan, whose face was wet from crying. A tall figure walked closer. Hold tightly to the trembling shoulders

"what happened?"

“Yi Qing..Ugh..Yi Qing's fever was so high that I almost went into shock. If I don't get there in time, what will happen to Yi? I don't know..Kris." Luhan stretched out his hand and gripped the tall man's shirt tightly. The heart that was pounding rapidly from exhaustion seemed to slow down and seemed to stop beating. Chris didn't think Yixing would be this seriously ill.

"Calm down..I'm in the hands of the doctor." He tried to console him, not wanting to lose consciousness even though his heart was as restless as Luhan's. The person inside is the important person he has been connected to since childhood. Even though Yixing was often sick, he never deteriorated to the point of being worrisome. Chris tried to remember. It is similar to remembering that Yixing has a congenital disease that cannot be cured.

It would only cause relief and not relapse, causing Yixing to have to go to the hospital often for a period of time. But when he received continuous and consistent treatment, Yixing's symptoms disappeared until he was almost completely gone. And that made Chris always think that the other party was normal. Not having any physical weakness or abnormality

"I was very shocked. Suddenly in Yi's room it was hot like a burning stove. Huh..Chris, Yi will be okay, right?"

Chris only nodded. Because he himself prayed that Yixing wouldn't get into anything either.

Yixing has been released from the emergency room. Chris is the person who goes to the administration and handles various matters on behalf of the other party. The doctor did not allow Yixing to return home until it was deemed appropriate, which made Chris suspicious. But he brushed aside those thoughts because it was best for Yixing to be close to the doctor's hand.

The patient room at Yixing is quite airy and comfortable, suitable for someone who is uncomfortable like Yixing.

Kris pushed open the door and the first thing he saw was Luhan's small figure sitting near the bed with his back turned to him. The sweet face of the other party turned around. Traces of wetness are still visible. Chris wanted to walk in and wipe away her tears. Luhan is not suitable for tears at all.

“How is Yixing?” Chris asked, placing his hand on his shoulder and squeezing it gently. Luhan tried to keep his sobs from being heard by Kris. Shaking his head to say he doesn't know. Chris couldn't comfort the other person from his worries as those feelings were firmly lodged in his heart. His sharp eyes were hot and he could see the pale face of Y Qing who was lying unconscious.

Yixing was a fragile person, like a clear glass vase that contained only emptiness. If neglected, it will break and collapse. It looks like Chris is the one who did that. He let Yixing out of his sight. Not bothered by the other person's abnormality At this point, even an apology may not be enough.

Luhan stood up and pulled the tall man to sit down. There was no further conversation. A small figure came out. He thought he understood Chris' feelings well. Even though he hadn't been with Yixing for a long time, he still felt connected and worried in various ways. Chris, who has known Yixing for over ten years and is such an important person, must definitely be in more pain than him.

Luhan sat down on the sofa in the room. I saw Chris's back slowly relax. In his feelings, Luhan thinks that Kris is the perfect man. He was hardly like any other ordinary person, in terms of appearance, appearance, and even his amazing abilities. But those were not the things that Luhan fell in love with Kris at all.

He loved this man with all his heart. Chris's heart was gentle towards those around him. Attitude changes many aspects of Luhan's life.

Luhan can feel it. He received something good after getting to know Kris...but really it wasn't at all. He had received good things since he met Yixing.

What made him love Kris was the same feeling that he loved Yixing, but just in some ways that Luhan couldn't explain. When he was around Yixing, he felt comfortable being himself. Whatever you think or feel, express it that way. But when I was with Kris, my heart was pounding so hard that I was afraid it might burst out.

He tried to reconsider these feelings many times. It always bothered him. Every conversation between him and Chris often mentions Yixing's name.

He loves Yixing but is jealous..he is jealous of Yixing and Kris. Or maybe jealous of Kris and Yixing, I'm not sure.

At this moment, he could only look at Chris's hand that gently held Yixing's pale white palm in his hands.

A pain slowly crept into the middle of his chest.

Because Chris is an important person to Yixing. Yixing is equally important to Kris. So there was never space for Luhan from the beginning.

For nearly a week, Yixing was recuperating at the hospital. A bright white figure sat leaning on a pillow on the bed. Watching the television set with an absent mind

“Ah Yi…” Luhan walked closer and put the fruit on the side table. For a few days since Yi Qing recovered, Luhan had always come to take care of him. We are separated from Chris who will sleep with us at night. Suddenly I felt like I was a burden. I wanted to quickly leave the humid, clean but disgusting smelling room, but the doctor wouldn't allow me. It was probably because his body and immunity were too weak to do anything. Even just sitting still feels tiring.

"Would you like some fruit? I'll peel it for you." Luhan smiled kindly. His friend's sweet smile made Yixing want to smile back. But he could only smile a little. No one spoke about his condition but Yixing knew that Luhan and Kris must have known about it.

"Xiao Lu"

“Huh?” Luhan, who was peeling fruit, raised his head. Yixing's expression was ashen as if he was unsure whether to speak or not. He lightly bit his lip.

"Can you get me some paper and a pen?"

"Huh? Why would you take something like that?”

"Come on..."

Luhan didn't bother to ask further. I think Yixing was bored and wanted to doodle. He opened his backpack and found a thin book that could be torn and handed it to Yixing. The other person smiled until his cheeks formed a distinctive dimple, muttering a soft thank you before writing something down there. Luhan lost interest and turned back to taking responsibility for the fruit in his hand, but was stopped by Yixing's mumbled sentences.

“Next week is Wu Fan's birthday.”

Luhan had no idea that Kris' 24th anniversary was approaching. Now he chooses to look at the gifts. The short period of time made him unable to prepare. But just him buying a gift must have been a big surprise for Kris, since the other party never told him in advance that in a few days it would be his birthday.

What should I buy?

I want the first gift to be something that will be unforgettable. Our relationship is going well. When he opened his mouth to consult and ask Yixing, the other party laughed softly.

“What did you buy for me? Wu Fan likes them all.” Even though Yixing said that, he was not at all sure. What should a gift from him be?

Yixing sat and watched the people walking around in the patient room. His expression was strangely confused and agitated.

“Wu Fan, what's wrong?” He walked around until he felt dizzy. The tall figure turned around and smiled softly at him. Still the same kind-hearted man of Yixing. The thin hand that was on his lap was grabbed and held. Wu Fan was white but not extremely white like Yixing. Their skin tones were clearly contrasting, and the sizes of their hands were so different that it was as if Wu Fan was holding them completely.

“Is something wrong?” Yixing asked, the light pressure that was being transmitted through the club was similar to indicating that he was in a state of anxiety. Wu Fan gave a tired smile and shook his head. This time, Yi Qing pretended to be fierce.

“Is it difficult for Fan Ge to take care of us?”

“No, little one,” Wu Fan called out almost immediately.

“But we think it's boring. Is there a problem?” Yixing used a stern tone that made Wu Fan feel weak. His eloquent face bowed silently. Both hands still held together tightly. Wu Fan didn't let Yixing go, and he didn't want to let him go either. So there was only time left for the couple to continue. After a moment, the tall figure raised his head.

“Yi Qing..” His eyes were pressed with various emotions. A spark of sadness that even though you pretend not to see it, you can still feel it. The pair of sharp eyes had a dull glow because of Yixing. The clear water that was overflowing inside was due to Y Qing himself. Today Wu Fan talked with the doctor who had the fever. Yixing's condition did not improve.

It may be stable for a while but it will never get better. The whole world seems to stop spinning. He wavered for a moment, like the feeling of being pounded with a heavy hammer. The pain was so great that he couldn't hold back his tears. But the doctor just told him to be strong and try to tell Yi Qing about this. How would it be any different from him killing Yixing with his own hands?

“Fan Fan,” Yixing raised his hand and touched the cheek where the clear water flowed. Wu Fan suddenly cried. Dry eyes did not blink away the tears of sorrow. Instead, it only reflected the other party's pale face. Wu Fan raised his hand and touched his pale cheek. This time, Yixing only realized that his own tears were flowing as well.

Silence is sometimes the best signal and response.

Yixing blinked once. Wu Fan's face was so blurry that he couldn't make out his point. Trying to hold back the sob in your throat.

"I..."

Yixing's moaning sound was like a knife that was slowly cutting into his heart. Wu Fan loved Yixing like a real little brother. He's been his best friend since the past. He was an important person that Wu Fan didn't want to lose to anyone.

“I'm going to die, right, Fan Ge?” Wu Fan touched his full lips with a finger to signal him to stop before gathering the little man into a hug with care.

"No...you won't die...you won't die yet," the tall man said even though he wasn't sure. His voice, which should have been firm, suddenly became soft and difficult to believe.

“I know... I've always known this, Fan Ge.” Yixing squeezed his shoulder before pulling himself away from the other person's embrace. The warmth he received made Yixing smile in a sad time like this.

“Don't say that. You can't die, Zhang Yixing,” Wu Fan pleaded. A dry voice was emitted by weakness. Yi Qing cried repeatedly. Seeing the person you love cry Especially crying for a burden like him.

"When we are born we must die. I just died a little too quickly. I don't see a problem at all,” Yixing said with a smile. He had prepared himself for this matter for a while. Just...I didn't think my time would be this short.

"Wu Fan"

“Stop being so childish. It's not suitable for the talented Wu Fan." "I've never been talented."

Yixing shook his head slowly. He held the tall figure's cheek. Wu Fan at this time did not have the traces of a man who looked good every inch. His lips twisted. His face was wet with tears. Eyelashes are wet. The gruff sobbing could still be heard.

"Just crying like this makes me weaker..."

Yi Qing said as he wiped Wu Fan's tears once more. A strong hand captures the action. His slender and pale body was so pale that Wu Fan could notice it. His already small wrist was so small that Wu Fan was afraid it would break in his hand if he did anything too harshly.

"excuse me"

"I don't think it's necessary at all." The figure was still smiling. That smile that was accompanied by tears was what caused Wu Fan's heart to clench once again. Yixing had given him special abilities in many forms. But he never did anything in return for Yixing. Even at this time, he still couldn't do anything for the Yi Qing he loved.

"Wu Fan"

"Hmm?"

“Do you love Luhan?” Yixing suddenly asked. Wu Fan couldn't help but be surprised.

“Why…why?” For the first time, Wu Fan avoided Yi Qing's eyes. The figure didn't answer, so he reached out and touched his broad shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze.

“Before I die, I want to see the two people I love happy. The more the two people I love love each other... there will be strange happiness."

Yixing probably didn't know what kind of feeling, tone, or even expression he said with those words. His heart said that he rejoiced in Wu Fan and Luhan's love. He must have been truly happy. But if he looked deeper, Yixing probably saw his own heart that was twisted and waiting to be broken.

It was very dishonest. He hurt and destroyed Wu Fan's trust by falling in love with him. He was turning his back on Luhan because deep down he didn't want to lose Wu Fan to anyone.

But Wu Fan was not his. Chris doesn't belong to him. Yixing did not own that heart. Because like this, Yixing has no right to be jealous if Luhan gets it. Yixing has no right to think about reclaiming things that do not belong to him. Because of that, he was willing to sacrifice. Soon his time would be up. A winding clock would never stop running, he shouldn't have caused Wu Fan to suffer. Or leave Luhan to wait

Someone took a deep breath. The gentle smile on Wu Fan sitting in front never disappeared.

“I want you to take good care of Luhan and love him very much. I don't know, but I want to see the two of you really love each other. If you have good feelings for each other Tell him...don't keep it. Time never waits for us. One day, Luhan might leave you without you even saying it. It's a shame. Because as far as I look, you all seem to be on the same page.”

Yixing spoke a long sentence. A hard lump was still in his throat, but he continued.

"If that's the case, I'll probably die and sleep. I don't worry about anything anymore."

Yi Qing confessed. When his friend looked up, he saw Wu Fan staring at him first.

He couldn't change those cold, blank stares. Right now, he might be giving the same look as Wu Fan.

The pain was so painful that I couldn't explain it.

Wu Fan didn't answer. The thick figure moved closer and pressed Yixing's face into his right shoulder.

"This time, I will be with you...belonging to you..Yi Qing."

Wu Fan's right shoulder was an area supporting a clear stream of water. Overflowing and showing no signs of stopping. Yixing hugged the other person's waist tightly. Let out a sob as a strong hand rubs your back. A gentle caressing touch on the back of the neck. Even the hug the other person gave said that it was his. Yixing cried even harder. Pale, full lips moved to speak without a sound.

'I love you...................'

He will keep this secret. Let it die along with himself.

Don't forget the smiles

Don't forget the past

Don't forget the time we've shared

Luhan clung to the edge of the door as he looked at the tall figure with a broad back that was now arched. He relaxed as if he was letting go of what he had carried his entire life. The sight is almost familiar to the eyes. Chris often takes time to himself these days.

During his own birthday

It's like retracing the past filled with various memories. Luhan was separated from that world. He could never understand or feel what Chris was thinking about. Even though it wasn't every moment of his life, Chris never forgot. Every year when this day returns, the brightest being like Chris seems to fade away and be swallowed up as part of the memory.

It's been four years since Yixing's passing. It was still a memorable and full of four years. Yixing's time stopped and the other party passed away peacefully. Everyone was as sad as anyone else. Kris cried, and so did Luhan.

"Chris..."

Luhan decided to walk closer and put his hand on his broad shoulder. Chris winced before turning his handsome face towards him in shock.

“A lot of friends are already waiting. It's really your birthday, don't you think about being a good host?"

Luhan teased as he gently ran his palm over the other's right cheek. Kris responded softly, taking Luhan's hand and gently rubbing it before turning to put away the wooden box that contained many letters.

"Let the owner's boyfriend take charge first. No one will say anything...after all, we're considered the same person." Luhan punched the other person's shoulder. I felt better that Chris agreed to talk to me, even though it was cheeky.

"It's really invasive."

“Or not?” Chris raised his eyebrows and leaned closer. Luhan hurriedly pushed the other person away in case anyone saw him. After all, they were still considered a new couple. They only decided to be together at the end of last year after spending some time looking at each other.

Luhan smiled and let Kris snatch his soft cheeks. Smiles sent to each other filled many feelings that cannot be fully expressed. The little man could only look at the other's eyes. No matter how hard you try to hide it, the pain is clearly evident.

"Don't just blame yourself, Chris."

The tall figure moved his mouth as if to smile, but inside he didn't smile at all. So it came out strangely distorted. Luhan is still laughing. The little man's smile made Chris want to smile as well.

"Thank you," was all he said and managed to drag Luhan and himself out of the room. Go out and meet what is called the present. His career is now stable. Be famous and successful in the way that everyone expected. Luhan has been by his side for a long time. He didn't want to keep Luhan waiting endlessly.

I don't want to be any more selfish than this.

Often people look back but are never able to make changes. Sometimes the past is a refuge when we are discouraged and depressed. It's true that it can never be returned, but it will still be there as long as we think about it and try to look back at it.

The same is true of fragments of memory. Everything in this world always has an origin. Looking at something may remind us of something we've experienced. It conveys stories. Telling only a few seconds will cause it to be replayed in your memory.

Kris hooks his fingertips into Luhan's. Currently, he has a love that is worth saving. He will never abandon Luhan. he told himself This cute little person still gives you the same pleasing feeling as the first time you met him. Luhan still flashed a sweet smile that made Kris fall in love. Tighten your palms together to show that you won't let go.

Chris turned back to the door. Leaving behind a small rectangular wooden box filled with the stories of Zhang Yixing and Wu Yifan.

' This might be the last edition, Fan Ge, I'm so tired.

Don't feel guilty. If I still feel that way, I, who is watching, will never be happy.

Can you imagine the first birthday we blew out the candles? No one knows that you don't like sweets. Everyone pleases you by buying a big cake. In the end, you had to laugh it off and force me to eat alone.

Do you remember when I was sick on my birthday? At that time, you were holding your forehead and not going anywhere. Look, it really reminded me of my own situation right now. I'm sick and need my boss to take care of me constantly.

It's been almost 10 letters since I started writing good wishes instead of giving you gifts...Fan Ge, I want to stay and write letters to you for 10 years, 20 years. If possible, I want to stay and write for you forever.

But it probably isn't possible.

When you read this letter, what feelings will you express? Will it be the same as when I started writing? It was too sad, Fan Ge. There are so many things I want to tell you. But now there's only sadness.

Really bad.

Van Van

By the time you read this, you may be on your way to success and fame. Just thinking about it, I can feel that it must be true.

My van is the best.

dress

I began to be unable to think and put things together.

Wu Fan, I love you because you are my best brother and best friend. The thing I want to thank is fate that brought us together. Thank you, Fan Ge. Remember my blessing. Wu Fan must be happy. Must be equipped with strength You must be as successful as you want.

"love......."

Zhang Yixing

Luhan stomped into the cemetery. Silence spreads over a wide area. As he carried the scent of the flowers that Yi Qing liked the most,

"Aee"

He put down the bouquet of pure white flowers and brushed away the dust and leaves that had accidentally been scattered in front of the cemetery.

"Today Chris was busy with business, so I came alone."

"Chris is about to get promoted again."

"Bachelorette parties are super fun."

"Chris took very good care of me."

"I, too, will take good care of Chris as you asked."

"Aee..."

Luhan sat down in front of him. A stone marker with the name of his best friend Zhang Yixing stood out in his eyes. He stroked it, touching it slowly as if he had gathered various memories from the time he had known Yixing. Thinking back to the first day when we smiled at each other. Thinking of the day when Yixing helped him. Everyone says that Luhan's smile is beautiful.

Everyone who sees it feels refreshed and bright. Few people know that Luhan's headache-inducing behavior was the origin of Yixing. We are happy as teenagers Lu Han Yeo admits that Yixing is a true friend. A close friend that from now on he probably won't find anywhere else. Luhan's smile is beautiful when he smiles with Yixing. We are like the moon and the sun.

A gentle person like Yi Qing only received a shadow of light passing through him. Luhan doesn't like it at all. He doesn't like people thinking that Yixing is clinging to him to make himself stand out. Everything is the opposite. Luhan couldn't do without Yixing's gentle heart.

"You probably don't know..."

"Even Chris won't know...but...that's okay. I'll treat it as a secret from the two of us like you asked."

"I love you. I wanted to talk to you before for a long time."

ENDING

AN ;

We can talk now. After finishing writing this story I hope it's a 3P fic that everyone likes. Whoever is curious, wants to ask and criticize. If you want to complain, we have two channels. One comment on Twitter Two comments in this article ,,, Finally, this plot was a crush on Chris's birthday. If you remember, you will know that Chris received an alpaca as a gift. (Not related)

I'll have to piece it all together myself. I'm so tired, too lazy to talk (hahaha). Finally, I really want to decorate Chan Paek.

*Curves like Zhang Yi in 360 directions*

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