Late at night, Himchan and I sat and talked about various things. Himchan sits and reads a fashion magazine. I glanced over before picking up the beer can and drinking. After drinking for a while, he spoke.

"This.. Himchan."

"Huh," Himchan responded with his eyes still reading.

"...I've thought for a long time that You have a strange allure.”

"What are you talking about? Are you drunk?"

"Actually, I've even masturbated thinking about your face."

Himchan looked up from his book and looked at me. He looked at me with eyes that were astonished by my words just now.

“Yongguk, I don't laugh at this joke. You've had too much to drink. Go to sleep..." I moved into a hug and pushed Himchan down on the ground.

Can't control my emotions anymore.

“What is wrong with Yongguk? You look very drunk."

"...Maybe." I bent down and kissed Himchan. From the forehead all the way down to the neck. Then started playing a love song together with another person

Why am I doing this? I do this because

Pretend to be drunk so you can hug your best friend

I looked at another person who was sleeping next to me. Himchan's body had red marks all over it. When you saw it, you could tell that I had left that kiss on purpose. I got up from the bed and went to take a shower and get dressed. When I finished my business, I left the room, leaving Himchan lying there. Because he will follow me later.

Inside the practice room There were only me and Himchan. The other members haven't arrived yet. From last night's events Makes us both silent Everyone didn't know what to say. Until Himchan was the one who broke the silence.

"....If it's about last night, it's fine. Because you're drunk."

I'm sorry, Himchan. Actually...not at all.

Because the truth is....I wasn't drunk.

I wrapped my arms around his shoulder and whispered the other person's name close to his ear. Himchan moves away but I hold him back.

"Last night..I felt more excited than having sex with a girl." Himchan looked at me before turning away.

"Huh, don't compare me to women." This time Himchan jerked away until I had to let go.

"Ah, that's not like that...sorry." The words couldn't come out at all. At this moment I can only think.

I want to change this kind of relationship.

"I still...want to hug you again." As he finished speaking, I saw Himchan's face light up. But it didn't last long. Because Himchan yelled back at me.

"I'm not just your sex friend!!!"

"No one said we were like that!? therefore..."

“So what should I call it? Why do I hug friends of the same gender so many times? Is there another reason?” Himchan narrowed his eyes. I walked closer and asked him in a quiet voice

“What if I told you that I wasn't drunk at that time? What will you do? "

"Eh...? ” At this time, Himchan's face was full of surprise. While I wait for an answer The members opened the door just in time. The conversation between the two of us ended there.

We practiced without any signs of stopping. There were times when I secretly looked at Himchan. But I could only secretly look because I was afraid, so afraid that I couldn't look directly at his face.

Many hours have passed. We took a break. Junhong suddenly walked up to Himchan who was picking up a water bottle and noticed something on the back of Himchan's neck.

"Eh, Himchan hyung, is there a mark here?" Junhong looked at him suspiciously. Daehyun saw Junhong's expression and walked over to look at the mark and shouted.

"Whoa! This is Kissmark. Himchan is really not light at all,” Daehyun teased playfully. Youngjae heard this and went to look at the kiss mark. but looked at Himchan carefully

"But being with Himchan hyung makes me feel sexier." And everyone laughed. Each of them continued to playfully tease each other. I secretly smile alone Proud of your own work

“Not at all. Got bitten by an insect. It's not such a happy thing.” Himchan disputed the charge that it was a kiss mark. When everyone heard this, they cheered. It's about as boring as it gets. Then he returned to his place.

I understand that this answer is meant to be a deception, but...

"Just like that? It's an insect bite mark. So it'll go away soon, right?" I said in a sarcastic tone. But after speaking I saw Himchan's hand holding a water bottle. I feel like I'm shaking...

When practice time is over Everyone returned to their dormitories. The younger ones went back first. Leave me and Himchan alone. The atmosphere was strangely uncomfortable.

"Will you go back to the dorm?"

"Um...." Himchan simply replied and went to collect his bag. I, who was standing and looking, walked over to him.

“Himchan, lastly, I will leave another mark.” I raised my other arm. Himchan looked at me in surprise but didn't resist. I bent down and kissed his arm until a red mark appeared.

This is the last time......

"Until the day this mark disappears I, too, will try to forget you. Let's go back to being good friends like before."

Actually, I'm not sure I'll forget that easily.

I looked up at Himchan. It was found that his face now had tears running down both cheeks.

cry .... ?

Why are you crying? ..... I must be the one crying .....

"Himchan," I wiped away the other's tears. Himchan tightens his grip on his shirt. He also shouted with sobs from crying.

"I don't want it to disappear... I don't want it to disappear at all."

If you think about it carefully You should have felt it sooner.

That night... Himchan didn't resist at all.