The day you owned me I hope that I can convey my feelings to you.

Do you still remember? The day I first met you I still remember it and never forget it. You were just a little kid that day. cute and adorable demeanor As for me, it's a brand new physics textbook that's just been printed at the factory. I still remember your eyes looking at me for the first time. Eyes that radiated discouragement as soon as they saw me at that time.

I really want to shout out,

'Physics isn't that difficult!!'

“Okay, for the engineering faculty that dreams. Let's try together.” Your voice came out softly. Immediately, the discouraged look in his eyes changed to a look that shone with determination. Until I couldn't help but feel amused.

'Okay, if you think you can endure this class. I will help you,' I thought to myself before I felt that I I have received a great responsibility.

A small house made of wood Sometimes when people walk, they often hear a creak. I don't like the sound of it at all because it seems so annoying.

You put me on the white table by the window. I guess it's the desk you use to work on because it's full of papers. And that evening I was picked up and read for the first time....

“Sigh!” The voice sighed again and again. of you as soon as you read me It rings again and again. So much so that I couldn't help but think that you would be able to become an engineer as you dreamed of. Since the first chapter you opened and read, you still didn't understand anything. And let alone the contents of the rest of me, which became more and more difficult.

Many times I've seen you give up. But you haven't given up yet. Which makes me feel very upset, but what can I do? It's just a book for you to read and then take to the exam, that's all....

“Even if it's difficult, I won't give up. I must become an engineer!!”

Needless to say, you still managed to draw a picture of a boy dressed in a dignified manner. With large letters arranged together that read:

'Engineer' on my last page Before laughing alone Amidst the sun that is about to set and the night that is about to creep in to take its place.

Finally, the opening day of school has arrived. That day I was put in a small black cloth that looked stuffy. I couldn't see anything outside and I didn't know how much time had passed. All I know is that it will take a long time for me to be brought out into the outside world. And as soon as I was taken out, I found that I was surrounded by friends who looked similar to me. Just different

Some volumes look so new that it's as if they've just been published. As for some books, they look so old that they are torn and worn. Plus, some books are filled with so many colors that they look cluttered. Every one of them chatted loudly. But it doesn't seem to have caught the attention of owners.

“My boss looks smart and is very hardworking. You know that, as soon as he got me He hurriedly opened it and read it and marked many important places. Look, the marks are still there.” The sound of a book rang out. along with turning his face to show red marks all over his body which received a lot of attention from the books in the room.

“Yours is just a mark, doesn't mean you should read it. You have to look like my boss. Besides reading, it's not enough. He also completed almost the entire book of my exercises. If you don't believe me, just look at the pencil marks.” Another book spoke up somewhat uncompromisingly. All I could do was listen to them boast because I didn't know what to boast about.

While the bosses of other books seem smart and Have good basic knowledge But at the same time My boss didn't understand the content at all!!

Time passed until the day of the midterm exam arrived. I remember the day before the exam. You read me anxiously. But he didn't complain that he didn't understand the content. Then I sat and read until day and night. And on the day of the exam, I went to school in a sleepy state.

10 minutes before the exam I was brought to read again, and suddenly someone's voice rang out. before picking up the hair that was being read and throwing it to the side violently

“I'm reading a book,” the boss's voice said. express dissatisfaction

“A fool like you, can you even read and understand?” The other party's mocking voice sounded. Which made me start to get angry. If I had arms and legs, I would run up and punch him in the face and knock him over.

“If you don't try, you won't know.”

“Huh! So let's try and see who can get more points.”

Result announcement date

"Alright, today the teacher will announce the scores from yesterday's exam, and the teacher will first announce the people who got the highest and lowest scores in the class." As soon as the teacher finished speaking, The cheers of the students grew louder. Some complained about the exam that they couldn't do it. Some console themselves if the scores are not satisfactory.

But all you do is sit still and close your eyes. It was as if he was mentally preparing himself for his own score.

“The teacher will announce the score of the highest student first. which received a total of 48 points out of 50 and the person who got it is..”

boss boss

I prayed in my heart that the name that was mentioned is the boss's name. This moment is the moment that I am most excited about.

“Mr. Phongsakorn, teacher, I would like to congratulate you. She was ranked number 1 in the class.”

Loud applause filled the room followed by applause from the students. Except for my boss because the person who got the highest score was..

That person who threw me on the ground and mocked my boss!!

"As for the person who got the lowest score, the teacher asked her to try harder and wanted to see Mr. Phongsakorn as a role model, Mr. Phonchana." As soon as the teacher finished speaking, It's like a bolt of lightning struck the middle of the classroom because the name of the least person is..

My boss's name!!!

“Oh, Master Phon, he's so stupid he'll die. Even if he boils a physics book and drinks it, he won't become smarter.

Haha!” A mocking voice rang out, along with the laughter of the entire room. It's funny to look at your score. Without knowing that How sad will the person who was laughed at be? Two drops of clear water fell onto my collar. And its owner could not be anyone else. Besides my boss, and now, I want to shout out to everyone to stop laughing. But it was impossible.

Don't be sad. If you didn't get it this time, there's still hope for next time.

My comforting voice reverberated around me. But it cannot be passed on to you. Tears continued to fall onto my collar before being dried by the wind.

The bell sounded when school ended. The boss put me back in that stuffy black cloth. Before traveling home and once home I was placed in my original position.

"I can't take it anymore..."

A faint sound of despondency emanates from you. Right now, you're not like the you I once knew. That look of determination had completely disappeared. All that is left is sadness and despondency.

Don't give up yet. If that's all, you'll retreat. What are you living for?!!!

At this time I would like to give you a voice of encouragement. But it was impossible. Suddenly something popped up in my memory. Without waiting, I hurriedly turned the pages of my book. Go to last page Where you used to draw your dreams

Are you willing to let your dreams be just an illusion??

“Really..” As soon as I turned to the last page You managed to pick up the hair before giving it a scrutinizing look. The eyes that were discouraged a moment ago began to change into the eyes I had been waiting for. Yes, the eyes of determination!!!

“I cannot give up now because I still have hopes and dreams that must be fulfilled.” A voice of determination rang out, transforming the surrounding atmosphere that was only gloomy and discouraged. Leaving only lessons to teach us as a blueprint for the future.

“It's time for us to make our goals come true!!”

After that day you try harder to make your goals come true. Throughout your studies, you have been diligent in your studies. Not tired of working Don't get tired of listening to the teacher and don't get discouraged from practicing. Until finally you can Grabbed 1st place in the class. But that doesn't make you careless in any way.

You turned out to be twice as diligent as before, and as time passed by. You can take the entrance exam for the Faculty of Engineering as you wish and then graduate as an engineer. And when you get a job, Your time began to disappear until in the end you never picked me up to read again...

end of winter The summer breeze has begun to blow. You today are completely different from before. The scalp that was once thick and dark became completely white. Wrinkles formed all over his face and his former strength began to fade. Personally, I began to change. The white page turned yellow. The skin begins to crisp up. There will be no shortage.

But still, I still have it on the same white table.

“It looks a lot older.”

Your hoarse voice rang out. Before picking up the hair and examining it carefully

You yourself are getting old too.

You lead yourself and me to a small wooden rocking chair on the balcony. before sitting it down and looking ahead Before saying that

“Before, I didn't really like physics. It was difficult, my head ached, but I had to study hard. Because I want to be an engineer But as I studied, I began to find it more and more difficult. I felt discouraged many times. But because of my dream of becoming an engineer, I tried until finally I was able to do it.”

You said, flipping through the lectures you had given in the past.

It's been a long time.....that you haven't read me like this.

You keep flipping through and reading me. Until finally reaching the last page. Where you used to draw pictures and write your dreams, your wrinkled hands gently caressed the pictures and letters.

“Do you know what for me? He himself is considered a good friend as well. It may seem nonsensical. That someone brings a book as a friend, but for me, every book, no matter what genre it is, It helps make me happy. Help me smile. And...help make me...who I am today. Thank you..my good friend.”

But for me You're not just friends. You have many people passing through your life. you have family There are important people to take care of, but for me, since I was born I was put in a bag and sent to you, so I have no one. Except you alone Thank you for taking good care of me. Thank you for talking with me. Thank you. Really thank you..

and if possible I would like to ask God to grant me one wish. That is, let me pass on words that have been distilled from my heart. Let you know that...

'I love you...my dear lord'

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