A fic written with a short-term, funny feeling (I don't think anyone will read it. But I did this myself 55)

If anyone reads this, please leave a comment to let me know. Thank you.

P.S. If the story of time and place doesn't match the real thing like in Syria, it's fic, it's fic.

Marriage... It is a beautiful dream image that many people dream of.

If that dream of his was shattered into pieces

"Hide..."

The young man's voice trembled. Like a slender hand holding a phone to your ear.

It's not true... It's not true. It's not true, right?

I could hardly believe what I had just heard.

Brother Hide... the person he will marry in a few days. The person who until yesterday still smiled at him like every time has now passed away... Leaving without being able to return again...

Sugizo

It felt like the whole world was suddenly uproarious. Until the voice on the other end of the line He couldn't hear anymore.

Picture of a beloved person Many smiling images of the senior guitarist appeared in his mind. make the eyes tremble Makes my heart ache...

Even though it should be beautiful Even though I've decided that I'll always be by your side for the rest of my life until I'm old.

Everything ends... Like a dream that will never come true...

Funeral ceremony for the guitarist of the band

X-Japan

full of sorrow Hide was beloved by friends and fans who filled both sides of the street to see the artists they loved and admired one last time. A face full of tears and a painful scream calling out the name of the young guitarist who passed away. It is a picture that makes everyone feel moved.

If so, no one saw it.

Sugizo

Image of the Merciful Mother on stained glass It gently reflects the sunlight from outside that shines down onto the cool LDS floor.

"Really come here," a voice said in the silence. along with a tall, thin figure who stepped into the LDS

"you

Heath"

Call the other person's name When he turned around to see who it was he came looking for him.

“Work didn't go, calls didn't go through. Everyone is worried. Do you know?" said the bassist. along with looking at some figures standing in front of the altar for the ceremony

Sugizo

Dressed in a pure white wedding dress Contrasting with the hair that was dyed red Her pretty face was covered in a little makeup, filled with sadness. If it still looks beautiful...

"Then why do you

Heath

Why are you here?" asked the other person who approached.

"I came looking for her."

Sentences that draw some forced smiles from the listener.

“I'm sorry for making everyone worried. But no matter what... I also want to marry Brother Hide. Even though he...is gone."

The young guitarist said A pair of sharp eyes looked up at the ceiling. Hide the tears that are about to fall

"Even though it's only a few days away I will be standing here, right here, next to Brother Hide. Even though it really should be like that..." His voice trembled for a moment. A slender hand holds the ring finger of the left hand that is wearing a white gold ring. His partner's ring was being buried with the person who had given it to him.

"But why is it like this? Why!!!"

Sugizo

Shouting out in a pained voice His slender body collapsed to the ground. With the most tears he could hold back, he broke down the embankment.

Heath

I could only listen quietly. He himself is not a good speaker. The white hand then gently embraced the other person.

"Uncle Hide...Uncle Hide," the white-robed guitarist buried his face in his strong chest, sobbing, muttering the name of the person he respected and loved with all his heart.

Oh my god...

Even though everything should be beautiful Even though Brother Hide and I should have sworn an oath in front of His Majesty. But why does it have to be like this? Tell me why...

Beautiful bride...

ring on left ring finger Magnificent bouquet

Everything looks ready. All that's missing is the groom who should be by her side...

The tall, thin figure of a young bassist walked out of the bathroom. A slender hand rubbed his newly washed hair. Before sitting down on the wide bed His eyes looked at the person sleeping on his bed.

Because the other party doesn't want to be alone. Plus, leaving someone who is strong in many meanings like this alone after just losing someone important to you can't help but be worried. Thinking about doing something rashly would be bad. In the end, the young bassist decided to let the other party stay in his room for the night.

The eyes looked at the beautiful, sharp face that was almost weary. Closed eyelids Makes the eyelashes lie on the white skin. Maybe it's because I haven't slept since I found out about Hide.

Sugizo

So he fell asleep easily.

Heath

Gently caressing red hair before leaning closer Place your lips on your forehead.

"Good night..."

At least now I wish you good dreams...

"Here.

Sugi-chan"

A voice called out from a person with bright pink hair who was rolling on the bed.

“What is it?” the person asked. without moving his eyes from the paper in front of him.

No matter what time, I always work hard.

Hide smiled slightly. before approaching the younger guitarist who was still concentrating on songwriting.

"Let's get married."

only His beautiful face suddenly turned to look. His brows furrowed together slightly.

“Don't joke like this. I'm working." With that he turned back to dealing with the note paper. If a white hand grabs the thin wrist

"I really mean it," Hide said. before taking out the ring Carefully insert it into the other person's ring finger.

"Why

Sugi-chan

I don't believe it," he said with a wide smile. His eyes locked with the other's eyes. A person who is both a younger version and a lover...

Sugizo

Stunned... The brain that was full of music notes just now seemed to be deafening for a moment. While my heart is pounding Feelings are all mixed up. Both shocked and happy...

"Well... Brother Hide suddenly spoke up. I thought he was kidding me."

"Well, I don't know when to say this. Why are you crying?

Sugi-chan~~"

Hide hurriedly spread the teardrops gently from his white cheeks.

"Because of you."

Sentences that make the listener laugh before being spoken

“Don't cry.

Sugi-chan 

Whether crying because of happiness or something But I like making you smile more."

Sugizo

Trying to hold back the tears that suddenly flowed out. But found it very difficult to do. He is very happy... I'm very happy.

"Sugi-chan

Can you keep me by your side forever? Let's be together from now on forever. Let me be closer to you... Marry me," Hide said. while holding a slender hand tightly Ready to look at the person in front of him gently and seriously.

it makes

sugizo

Feeling warmth in my heart A smile suddenly appeared on his face unconsciously.

"Yes, Brother Hide."

There weren't many sweet words. Plus, the location isn't romantic at all. If this is enough... Just the person in front of him was Brother Hide...

"love

sugi-chan"

Finished speaking, he held his slender body into his arms. before placing a kiss on her thin lips A kiss that is both sweet and gentle It's like a promise to be together forever....

"No... Brother Hide, no... Brother Hide!!" A loud cry was filled with pain. Causing the tall figure who was sitting and working to rush to find him.

"Sugizo"

He called out, shaking his restless figure. Makes a pair of sharp eyes widen.

"you

Heath..."

Mumbling the other person's name softly before rushing towards the strong chest

Beautiful dream images of yesterday that ended in a loss It hurt him so much that he wanted to disappear from this world.

Sugizo

I never thought that I was weak. I never thought... that I was this fragile. He only cried. and hugged the senior bass player tightly

"It's okay... It was just a bad dream.”

A soft voice whispered With slender hands stroking red hair Silent comfort

The sobbing sound is still loud... For a long time... before silence disappeared along with the consciousness of some bodies.

Heath

Gently put the person who had fallen asleep due to fatigue to lie down. Look at the sharp, beautiful face stained with tears. Looks weary and reflects pain...

He carefully wiped the tears from the soft skin of his cheeks.

“Hide-san.

Sugizo

I love you very much.”

And because of love... Now that you're gone It nearly broke him.

Move the blanket up to cover your slender body. Then he walked back to his seat and continued working.

The phone kept ringing throughout the day with no one answering. Its owner just kept it under a blanket.

And when the phone rang again for the tens of times I don't know. Some people's patience is running out.

Sugizo

Shake off the blanket Grab your mobile phone and turn it off. Then he threw it and hit the ground in frustration.

"If you're annoyed, just accept it," said the room owner's bassist.

"No, I don't want to talk to anyone yet."

Heath

Shake your head a little. Before walking in and picking up the mobile phone that was lying on the floor.

"Not cute at all... Friends are worried.

Sugi-chan"

"Well, I... don't want them to see me like this."

Sugizo

speak softly

A condition where the eyes are bloodshot and swollen from crying a lot. And he still has a pale, sickly face.

Those guys will definitely make a huge noise...

“What are you going to do?” he asked. When I saw the bassist pressing the phone for a while

“Message, tell me you're here. If you leave it like this, your friends will be even more worried."

You'll think that you jumped off a bridge and died.

This one

Heath

I could only think in my heart.

"Alas! you

Heath

Say that, and they'll definitely invade here.”

And so it is true...

The doorbell rang loudly at the front of the room. It indicates the excitement of the press very well.

Heath

I can't help but think that If the door was opened later than this, the door would definitely be broken into.

"you

Heath

TAT~

Sugi-chan 

Ah!

Sugi-channn!"

"Sugi-chan

How are you?!"

"Is that bastard dead yet?"

"Sugi-chan

Are you here!?”

The shouts and cheers sounded almost simultaneously, causing the young bassist to pause for a moment. Looking at the younger band members like

Luna sea

huddled together in front of the door

"Uh... do you want to come in first?" he asked. With a little smile before turning and dodging to the side

And without delay The four young men quickly rushed into the room. and immediately rushed towards some figure sitting frowning on the sofa.

"Sugi-chan!

Why aren't you answering the phone?"

Ryuichi

that he was ready to inspect his friend to see that no part was intact

"Yes, we are worried, you know?"

Inoran

Hurry and add.

"J

It says you probably killed yourself.”

to the sentence of

Shinya 

Make your eyebrows twitch. A pair of sharp eyes immediately turned to look at the foul-mouthed person.

"Who do you think died?!"

if

J

Instead, he shrugged his shoulders innocently.

“Who knows? disappeared for a few days The phone didn't answer. I also thought Hurt was so overwhelmed that he thought about jumping off the bridge."

“Dammit.

J!!"

Sugizo

So angry that he almost got up and yanked the other person's shirt collar, but

Ryuichi

Stop it in time.

"Come on.

J

worry

Sugi-chan

Yes, me too. I'm very worried."

The words made the guitarist's irritated mood disappear completely. He looked into everyone's eyes.

Ryuichi Inoran Shinya 

and

J...

Everyone had a clear look of concern.

"Oh, I'm sorry."

Sugizo

He said, bowing his head low. The edges of my eyes are hot.

see so

Shinya

So he rubbed his friend's red hair hard until it was completely messy.

"Now that you know, don't make me worry again."

band member

Luna sea

We talked for a while, the expression on his face

Sugizo

Much better, at least I can smile normally. Even those beautiful eyes are still filled with sadness.

Everyone said goodbye to

Heath 

Except

Sugizo

who are not yet ready to return to their home... A place filled with memories of Hide Everyone agreed that it would be better for the guitarist to stay here for a while. The room owner didn't have any objections either.

Heath

Stand and send everyone off before greeting those walking behind others.

"I really like it."

A sentence that made a tall figure almost stumble across the plains. But the person who spoke still continued to tease.

“Ninety-two Miss Calls in total. More than half of it is yours.

J"

“Is it really that easy to see?” the younger bass player asked before sighing.

Even though he didn't express it clearly.

J

Really nothing?

"No... I'm just guessing."

J

Smiling slightly, laced with bitterness...

"Don't tell him."

Heath

Looking at the other person, he felt sympathy for this junior so he nodded without asking any further questions.

I like it, but I can't say it. Even though I'm closer than anyone else. But I just looked. It must be a very uncomfortable and painful feeling.

"Then I'll excuse myself. Please take care of that pillow."

J

Said with a slight bow. before the tall figure turned around and followed his friends

The young bassist closed the door. Walk back into the room.

"Do you feel better?"

asked the person sitting on the sofa.

"Uh, well... a little better, maybe?"

Sugizo

Answer with a slight smile

When I'm with a lot of people It actually made him relieve some of his loneliness. But when they went back Sadness returned to fill my heart.

I miss you... I really want to see you.

I don't want anyone. Even if you don't have any friends, just have this person, the only person you want to meet. People who leave and never return.

...Brother Hide...

Ah... Damn it.

Sugizo

Lowering his head, he felt the edges of his eyes burn. and tears welling up And he must have cried. If it weren't for the fact that the towel and clothes suddenly flew and fell on his head.

“Now you can go take a shower. I don't want to be with a pervert. Mushrooms have already grown on their heads."

Sentences that make your pretty face lift up in another direction to cover up your embarrassment. before walking and slamming his feet into the bathroom

That's right... since he came here he hasn't showered once. But it's not to the point of rotting...

"you

Heath

What are you doing?"

Sugizo

Now that he had finished taking a shower and getting dressed, he walked out of the bathroom and asked the person sitting at the desk.

"Song a song now.

X

I don't have any anymore. I think I'll just work solo first."

It's true...

X-Japan

The band has already disbanded... Left together with Brother Hide.

"Uh...sorry. I shouldn't have said it."

Sugizo

in a soft voice I feel guilty because I know it's for the other person.

X

It's a house, just like that.

Luna sea

It's his home.

Heath

Looking at the depressed face of the younger generation before putting your hand down Then he turned and pulled the slender figure's hand to sit down.

"I'm wet. You're going to feel sick," he said. and picked up the towel that was draped over his shoulder. Then he started to wipe the water from his red hair.

"you

Heath

Very kind."

Sugizo

He said, closing his eyes.

The slender hand playing the bass was now gently wiping his damp hair. Very similar to that person Really very similar

Just like Hide...

Yes, when he washed his hair and then went to sleep without waiting for it to dry. Hide always drags him to dry his hair...

"you

Heath"

call out

"Huh?"

The beautiful face looked up. Make eye contact with the other person and smile slightly.

"Thank you."

Heath

Just smile back and dry your hair.

Sugizo

Continue quietly

  "...zo...Sugizo"

A voice calling his name rang out in his ears, but damn, he still didn't want to wake up.

"Ummm, give me five more minutes."

"But you've already come three times in five minutes."

This time, the hand that shook him increased in strength until he felt irritated. Slender brows furrowed together. A cry of protest in my throat.

"agree with"

"You have to wake up. It's late."

This time I lost patience. A slender hand pulled the collar of the other man's shirt and brought him closer in an argument. He opened his eyes and shouted loudly.

"Can people sleep without disturbing them?!"

Hoy!

Then when he opened his eyes he saw who the person who had woken him up was.

Sugizo

He swallowed down the saliva in his dry throat.

Damn you.

Heath!!!

"You're not being cute at all," said the young bass player. His eyes met eyes that were just inches away. before pulling away The slender finger tapped the sleepy person's forehead loudly.

"Ouch! It hurts, you.

Heath"

"Go take a shower," he finished. The tall, thin figure walked out.

Sugizo

Gently rubbed the red forehead. muttering in the throat Before picking up his things, he walked into the bathroom.

What he saw after walking out of the bedroom It is breakfast that has been prepared. That made him feel ashamed.

Come live in someone else's house And still just sitting and lying down doing nothing.

"Uh... you

Heath 

If there's anything I can help with, please tell me."

The young bassist raised his head to meet those dazed eyes and smiled slightly.

"It's okay. Just getting better is enough."

"But I'm considerate of this."

Heath

There was silence for a moment. Pretend to think before speaking.

“Um...then don't wake up late. Don't destroy things. Oh! And don't forget to shower."

"you

Heath

TAT!!!"

The redhead gasped. Especially when seeing the other party's amused smile. It makes your face feel hot.

Got bullied! Got bullied again!!

"I'd better go outside." Someone stood up. Shake your head and run the other way.

"You're not acting cute anymore."

If people are scolded, just hold your head up. then walked away

Which made the bass player laugh in good spirits...

A slender figure in casual black clothes walked along the path. Eyes under sunglasses lenses looking up at the sky

I haven't come outside to breathe in the air for many days...

"Suki"

The call sounded. Calling him to turn around and look.

"J 

What are you doing around here?"

The tall figure of the young bassist, fellow band member, approached. before sending the bag

“So I thought I'd stop by and bring you some of your stuff. must be needed"

Sugizo

Receive items from the other party One was his violin case, and the other, a few sets of clothes. with various cosmetics and skincare

Yes... these things are very necessary. Especially cosmetics because of your house.

Heath

There are hardly any of these things. He's also the type who has to be perfect all the time.

"Thank you very much. You understand me better than I thought."

J

Just walk away without answering anything...

The two young men continued to wander together. We didn't talk about anything in particular. Especially the story of Brother Hide. It seems like it's even a thing.

J

Who likes to speak frankly and doesn't care about his feelings, he also deliberately avoids them.

After walking around looking at various things Most of which are musical equipment and sheet music. Time passed until evening.

The wind blew past, causing the hair of the people leaning against the bridge barrier to sway.

"When will you come back?"

J

Preeya asked, it was the first question about today's band. The young bassist lit a cigarette and smoked it. without forgetting to hand the envelope to the other party

"I...don't know." A slender hand accepted the cigarette from the other party. Put it in your mouth and turn your head towards me.

J

light a fire

“Without you, I can't go to work, Suki. I know you're not in the mood to work. But we can't rest the band for long."

"I know"

Sugizo

Said, turning to look at the sky that was dyed orange and gold. Then he blew dark smoke through his lips.

“Then don't mix personal matters with work. You will be the weight that brings us all down.”

A sentence that made him start to feel angry. The guitarist turned to meet the other's eyes. speak loudly

"Then you go find someone else to play for you!" It must be very satisfying to you. You must have wanted me to leave the group for a long time.”

J

Looking at my bandmates His eyes were as harsh as his voice.

“I never wanted you to leave the group. Not everyone wants that. If I'm missing you, it won't be me.

Luna sea 

So be conscious and think about what you should do next!”

Damn it... You really don't understand anything.

No one wants you to go. Especially me...

“I... I'm sorry.

J 

I didn't mean to say that.”

Sugizo

He mumbled, feeling like he'd been slapped in the face.

Hell, I can count the number of times he's apologized.

J 

But this time he was really wrong.

Yes, he was thinking too much about himself. Ignoring the group and his friends who were worried about him.

“Give me some time.

J 

It won't be long.

Luna sea

It's my home. I'll never leave it."

The bass player looked at the person next to him before sighing.

"I will wait"

“Then I'll go back first. Please tell them I'm fine." He finished. Some people turned and walked away.

J

Look at that back. He thought for a moment before speaking.

"Suki na..."

A soft voice called out that made a pair of sharp eyes turn to look. Make eye contact with the bassist who is leaning back against the divider. and when he saw that the other party didn't say anything further

Sugizo

So I turned around and continued walking.

"you

Heath"

The call sounded. along with a thin hand that grabbed the arm of the owner of the name

"Is there something wrong?"

“You take the bed. I'll just go sleep on the sofa."

Sugizo

That just staying here makes me considerate. This also caused the owner of the room to have to sleep on the sofa for two nights.

"It's okay. I am the host And you're a guest."

Because I'm the guest and you're the host!

He argued in his heart.

"Come on! I'm afraid of you.

Heath

Just sleep here," the younger guitarist said. Ready to pick up the pillow Prepare to take your family home and sleep on the sofa.

if

Heath

Instead, he snatched the pillow and spoke.

"It's good for you to sleep here."

"I don't want it."

The two of them held each other's pillows for a long time without anyone giving in, until finally

Sugizo

I'm tired of continuing to talk.

"okay! I can sleep here, but you

Heath

I have to sleep too." He finished. Some of them lay down and went to sleep. Ready to pull the other person's arm to make them lie down together. The tall figure lurched, but because

Heath

He was able to hold himself up, so his current position was that he was straddling her body.

Sugizo

Two pairs of eyes met for a moment. Before the young bassist let out a long sigh when he saw the stubbornness in the other pair of eyes.

"Fine, we can sleep together."

Heath

That before turning over to sleep next to the other person.

"Is this okay?"

"Uh"

Sugizo

Accepting the word, he smiled widely, causing the other party to sigh again. A slender hand swept the blanket up to cover her body and turned it on its side.

"You're stubborn. This isn't cute at all."

"Where do you care?" said a younger person. Ready to turn my body to the other side. Sharp, beautiful eyes closed. His lips mumbled and he called out to the person next to him.

"you

Heath"

"Huh?"

"Good night."

The young bassist turned around. He looked at the head covered with red hair from behind and smiled lightly.

"Good night"

today

Sugizo

Waking up extra early, no... it's called not sleeping so well that I thought it would be better not to sleep any longer.

Some people stirred up. and gently stepped off the bed. Try not to disturb the other person who is still asleep.

The sky is still dark...

Slender hands picked up the violin case that was on the bedside. Then walked out into the living room.

A beautiful crystal violin appeared before the eyes. He picked it up. before placing the bow on the string

He's been away from music a lot lately. When was the last time you picked up a violin?

The song rang out. It's a sweet love song. If the sound that played that melody came out as sad and heart-wrenching, stabbing... painful.

He felt his eyes blurry and he couldn't see anything. And when you blink Drops of warm water flowed down his white cheeks.

Ah... that's crazy.

I think it's enough to forget. But when I close my eyes I still dream about it every time.

Dreaming of beautiful moments That it will never come back again...

Sugizo

Stop playing, someone puts down the violin. Then he buried his face in his palms. Let the tears flow

Sugizo

Have you ever thought about committing suicide? The moment I realized that I had lost my loved one forever. He didn't want to stay any longer. That's right... he was a coward. Afraid of living in a world without smiles There is no voice or guitar playing from Hide. So I thought I would die.

If at that time all friends

Luna sea 

Other people, even Mr. Yoshiki, who was no less hurt than him, stopped by to visit. That gave him the courage to continue living.

But how long does it take?

Or it takes a lifetime To be able to miss you without pain...

The image of a slender figure crying silently Reflected in the eyes of the bass player, the owner of the room.

Heath

Just look, just stand and look.

Because he knows where

Sugizo

Want is time It's not a comforting word.

Yes... only time will make your smile

Sugizo

The old person came back...

Today it continues to be simple.

Heath

sitting and working

Sugizo

He was sitting on the bed kissing his lips.

"you

Heath 

Aren't you going to go outside? Aren't you bored?" he asked. While looking at the other person

"Well, the work isn't quite finished yet."

Heath

Answer without looking.

"Maybe I should go out and change the atmosphere."

Sugizo

I mumbled before getting out of bed.

"Let me take a look," he said, reaching for a piece of paper on the table. But a white hand grabbed his arm first.

"It's not finished yet," the senior bassist said. Before releasing your hand Then turned to continue working.

“Oh, you.

Heath

"Okay, I'll just take a look," the redhead said. The beautiful face began to curl.

"But doing that isn't cute at all."

Heath

that

"you

Heath

I always like that I'm like that."

Sugizo

He spoke, the slender eyebrows on his face knit together.

"Why do I have to act cute?"

A question that made the hand holding the pen stop short. The young bassist turned around. before using his finger to poke his prick in the middle of the other person's eyebrows

"Because you're cute," he finished, laughing lightly. Makes 'cute' people's faces feel so hot that they have to turn their heads and run in the other direction.

"I'm not cute at all!" I was about to get up and run away. But you have to lose your footing. When your arms are slender but strong.

Heath

Hang some on the waist.

"Cute" he said again when he saw that

Sugizo

Still struggling, he forced the thin body to sit on his lap. before whispering softly into your ear

"Cute... Cute..."

"you

Heath!"

The person who was bullied gasped. The skin on his face turned red with embarrassment.

That made the young bassist laugh in good spirits.

“What are you laughing at!” The younger guitarist turned around and froze when he met dark eyes in the distance.

Too close...

Heath

Looking at the other person, filled with various feelings in those eyes. A white hand gently stroked the flowing red hair. with a sharp face that slowly moved closer

Sugizo

I felt like I had to turn away. But I couldn't take my eyes off the eyes staring at me. Closer than ever before...

If for a moment their lips touch His sharp face moved to gently kiss her smooth cheek before whispering.

"cute"

After speaking, he pulled away. His strong hand rubbed the other person's hair so hard that it hit him with a hammer.

"you

Heath

Bad habits"

Sugizo

He said, struggling until he was free from the arms that were loosely wrapped around his waist. Before shaking his head and walking away in a petulant manner.

The young bassist looked at that back. Raise your hand and ruffle your hair.

Not good, this is not good at all...

Eyes reflecting embarrassment He touched his hand on his left breast. Feel what's pulsing inside.

Even though I really thought I could get rid of this feeling a long time ago... Since I knew

Sugizo

Dating Hide and now... Instead, he took the opportunity that Hide had left to get close to the other party.

Damn it...

"Sugi-chan...

She's too cute."

And it makes me [love] you....

“What is it about him? You like to tease each other all the time.

Heath...

No, that's everyone. Why do you like to tease me so much?” Some of the figures stumbling into the bathroom mumbled. Meanwhile, slender hands grabbed concealer and hid under eyes that were puffy and dark from crying and not getting enough sleep.

You're so annoyed.

Heath

Crazy, I saw him quietly but teased him harder than anyone else! And then he was in the mood and suddenly wanted to tease him like that, but never had the time. Thinking about it makes me even more angry. It's better to go outside!

Slim body, beautiful makeup. Grab your sunglasses and a black scarf, wrapping it up loosely. before walking out Stopping, looking at the landlord's hammer again, he stepped out of the room.

Tall but fragile figure

Sugizo

Walk down the road even though you're not dressed very well. But that alone caught the eyes of many people. Especially the fiery red hair that reflected mockingly in the sunlight.

“What kind of flowers are you interested in?” the woman asked. Smiling politely at the young man who stopped in front of her flower shop.

"I'm thinking about it."

Sugizo

that he looked at many kinds of flowers But there's still nothing eye-catching.

"Who are you giving it to? A lover?"

smiling guitarist With a slight smile mixed with light pain

"Fiancée. But he's not here anymore..."

Sentences that make young women blush

“I'm sorry,” she said. before picking up a white flower

"Would you like to be Lily?"

A pair of sharp eyes looked at the flower in his hand. It was beautiful, but it didn't suit Hide...

"No."

Because of you... Always bright

Such a bland color. It doesn't suit me at all.

"I'd rather it be a rose, a red rose."

The young woman smiled. Arrange a bouquet of flowers meticulously before sending to customers

“Here, as for that lily. I'm giving it to you," she said.

Sugizo

Say thank you and pay before walking out

Now he was going to face the truth. Let's go find Brother Hide...

A slender figure stood in front of a large stone slab surrounded by flowers. and pictures of people lying beneath the ground

hide

was what was engraved on the stone marker.

“There are a lot of people who come to visit you. It's nice to see. There are many people who love and admire you, and so do I."

Sugizo

Mumbling, he knelt down and gently placed down a large bouquet of bright red roses.

Forty roses... Instead of the meaning of true love...

"You left me without saying goodbye... But it doesn't matter. I'm not angry at you. Because I love you," he said, touching the cold stone.

“You said you would be with me forever. But I broke my promise. I don't hold grudges... Because I love you."

He felt a sob rising in his throat. Until the voice began to shake

“You said you would write a song for me. will hold my hand You will never make me sad. But I lie about everything. I haven't had time to compose a song yet. Right now you're not holding my hand, and now... I'm crying because of you. But I don't hate it. Not angry or hateful at all."

Tears rolled down from beautiful eyes. bathed through the skin of the cheeks

"Because I love you very much, Hide-sama."

Sugizo

Sobbing loudly His right hand holds his ring-clad left hand tightly.

He didn't know how long he had cried. And how many tears were shed? He just sat there, sobbing softly until the sky was covered in clouds. And in the next moment The rain was falling heavily.

Ah... It's like a desperate scene in a drama. There's nothing wrong with it. Damn it.

And at that time An umbrella was held out for him to protect him from the rain.

A pair of sharp eyes turned to look.

Heath

There he was, standing in the rain.

"I've been looking for it for a long time."

"you

Heath..."

The young bassist looked at the other person before sighing.

"Let's go back."

Sugizo

He didn't answer, he just turned to the stone sign. Gently kissing and whispering

"I'll come again, Brother Hide."

After speaking, he stood up. Then he turned and smiled a little at the person who had come to pick him up in the rain.

"you

Heath

Can you come outside now?” He couldn't help but tease a little as he walked out of the cemetery.

This morning, he said he would work.

"Well, it probably wouldn't have come out if there weren't people missing all day and still sitting in the rain playing."

Sentences that make teasers cringe

"you

Heath

Are you angry?” he asked in a shaky voice.

"I'm not angry," the senior bass player replied calmly.

"That's not true. I'm really angry."

heard so

Heath

So he let out a long sigh.

"I'm not angry, but I'm worried," he said, turning to look at the other's face. A slender finger dipped into the middle of her forehead.

"If you know, don't make me worry, okay?"

Sugizo

Looking at the person in front of me, I felt my heart warm. Until I couldn't hold back my smile.

A slender figure stepped out from the shade. To the cool rain

"you

Heath 

Let's play in the rain."

The young bassist frowned together. criticize

"I'll catch a cold."

“Anyway, you and I are already wet from the rain. It's okay if it's a little wetter."

Sugizo

Said, walking over and pushing the tall figure into a lurch.

Heath

I can't get tired of acting like a child like that. Just as he couldn't help but smile as well. The white hand dropped the umbrella. before running off to chase the younger generation who had fled far away

The sound of laughter sounded. The two people chased each other in the rain like children. until exhausted So he lay down on the soaked grass.

"you

Heath"Sugizo

He called out with a slight gasp from exhaustion. Wait until the person next to you turns to look. Then he continued.

"I'll try not to worry."

"Just trying?"

Heath

He asked, causing his pretty face to start to pout.

"Is that still not enough?"

"That's enough... for now," he said before chuckling lightly. A white hand reached out and vigorously rubbed the other person's red hair. He stood up and held out his hand.

"You can go home now."

Sugizo

Looking before reaching out to hold the other person's hand, he answered in a clear voice.

"yes!"

Maybe because after facing the truth That the lover has already passed away I cried a lot. Plus he's running around until he's exhausted tonight.

Sugizo

So he slept soundly for the first time since Hide's death.

Heath

Turning around to look at the other person's sharp, beautiful face.

In the past, he often saw

Sugizo

Always put on makeup But when I saw her face without makeup up close He found that he liked it better this way.

like...

Look at the red hair that spreads on the pillow.

Looking at the closed eyelids and long eyelashes

Look at the high nose and thin lips.

I like everything that makes up this person... yes

Since the first time I encountered it. If you can give up, no, I always thought you could give up. Until now...

Because they're too close Makes the feelings that you thought were completely gone come back.

His eyes stopped at the white lilies in the vase on the table that the other party had placed.

White lily for a heart of pure and stable love...

A sharp face moved closer. Gently kissing her forehead.

He knows that

Sugizo

I love Hide so much... and will love you forever

Therefore, all he wanted was for some body to be happy.

That's really all...

The next day, everything continued to spin in its own way... The sky was clear and the bright summer sun still shone on the land.

Sugizo

Sitting quietly on the sofa with a violin. Before the young bassist walked out of the bedroom

"you

Heath 

Aren't you asleep yet? I didn't sleep the other day. Did you still work until it was light last night?" he asked. The tall man sat beside him with a weary expression on his face.

"Um, compose a song."

Heath

He answered softly before changing the subject.

"Keep playing. I want to hear."

Sugizo

He frowned before speaking accusingly.

"You should go rest."

Heath

He muttered something in his throat that he couldn't understand. Before the tall figure leaned down and put his head on the other's lap and spoke.

"Staying..."

Sugizo

He sat frozen for a moment. before letting out a soft laugh

you

Heath

I'm begging for it too...

Beautiful eyes looked at the eloquent face that closed its eyes. Looks tired from not getting enough sleep. A slender hand unconsciously stroked his jet-black hair.

“I can keep playing. But now you need to go to sleep,” he said. before picking up the bow from the table Then the sweet sound of the violin sounded again.

Heath

Closing his eyes, the drowsiness and body odor of his body caused his consciousness to drift away easily.

Only now...

I wish I... could be beside you...

Than the young bassist opened his eyes again. I found that it was already late afternoon.

He tilted his head up from his lap. Look at the beautiful face with eyes closed.

Sugizo

Must have fallen asleep

Heath

Lift your body up and sit. He raised his hand and gently stroked the other person's fire-colored hair.

Just within reach... Until you can feel your breathing and heartbeat beating regularly. Sweeter than any music...

I don't know when he leaned in closer until the tips of their noses touched.

But even though it's really this close

The young bassist pulled away. then let out a long sigh

Break your heart again and again and found it increasingly difficult

Heath

Take a thin body and lift it up. before walking into the bedroom Place the person who is sleeping soundly on the wide bed.

To give up again Why is it this difficult?

"Ah, I lost again, you.

Heath

Definitely cheating!"

The grumbling turned into a cry when the slender finger of the person beside him flicked the middle of his forehead.

"If you lose, don't bully."

The younger guitarist rubbed his forehead, which had a prominent red mark, and groaned.

"you

Heath

"Crazy as hell," he said as he grabbed the PlayStation's joystick and pressed start a new game.

"you

Heath

Yes, I'll go home this afternoon."

Sugizo

He said, his eyes still looking at the television screen.

"That's good. Your friends will be relieved of their worries."

Heath

that your fingers press the joystick to use various skills fluently

"Uh... Thank you for the past. It bothered me a lot," he said, thinking back. Since he was here, it really bothered the other party a lot. Even though they weren't that close and the other party was also a senior. What a shame...

"It's okay. Just making you feel more comfortable is enough," the young bassist said.

"Win again"

"Wow, I'm not playing anymore."

Sugizo

Said before putting down the joystick in annoyance.

"Have you packed your things yet? Don't forget anything weird."

"What's strange about it not being there?"

Sugizo

He bowed his head in confusion, causing the onlookers to chuckle softly. And couldn't help but pat the other person's head hard.

“That's enough, Mr.

Heath

Oh, I'm all messed up." A thin hand brushed away his white hand. before hugging the other person gently Then quickly pulled away

"Thank you very much," he said with a wide smile. It was the brightest smile after Hide's departure.

Heath

Look at that smile. He only smiled in response without saying anything.

The person in front of him was about to return to where he belonged...

Himself, it was time to go where he should go...

After the important guitarist and violinist of the band returned to their normal lives. Was welcomed by friends most warmly (?) with enormous work that had to be done to make up for the break, including music, advertising, and also having to prepare for a concert tour. It can be said that he was so tired that he almost passed out.

But it was good because work was so busy that he didn't have time to sit and think about sad things...

His slender body lay down on the soft bed. With a long sigh

"Wow, I'm so tired." I buried my face in the pillow. before turning the worm over. His eyes looked to the corner of the room with familiarity.

Ah... that's true.

Now... I'm in my own room. I'm going to have you.

Heath

How can you just sit there and work?

A pair of sharp eyes closed with exhaustion.

"He's probably still working right now."

Mumbling softly to himself before consciousness is restrained into sleep

One month has passed. It's been a month filled with work, work, and work, so much so that there's hardly any free time. And in that little free time

Sugizo

I chose to go find Hide. Talk to each other as if the other person is sitting right in front of you.

"You're in heaven. Behave well. Without me around, he'd probably be a complete flirt. There must be many beautiful people up there. Now I can take it easy. If and when I die, we'll definitely have to settle things for a long time."

Sugizo

He said with a smile. The eyes that looked at the sign engraved with the name of his lover were filled with nostalgia mixed with sadness.

“I'm very busy these days. I probably won't come see you again for a while. Don't worry, I told you before," he said, standing up.

"I'll come find you again," he finished. The slender figure stood up. before turning away Walking out of the quiet graveyard

"Oh... What are you doing here?"

Sugizo

asked surprised When he saw the bodies of his bandmates standing in front of the entrance

“Just passed this area. Then I realized that Mr. Hide was here. So I stopped by to take a look."

J

Answer before asking back

"Suki, where are you going next?"

Sugizo

His brows furrowed together, "Why do you ask?"

"Go along."

"What do you think of me wanting to go with you?" He paused for a moment before continuing.

"I still don't know where I'm going. That I'm going to keep walking."

"Then can we come together for a moment?" and without waiting for an answer

J

He went out and led the way first. Causing him to hurry and follow in confusion.

What is it....

where

J

It didn't take him very far from the cemetery. It was the same bridge where they had stood and talked a month before.

"Why did you come here?"

J

Didn't answer right away. He lit a cigarette and smoked it. Fill your lungs with smoke. Then released slowly

"Did you know that you

Heath

I'm going to America today."

A sentence that makes the listener frown together.

"Don't joke.

J 

If you

Heath

If it's true, I have to know."

and you

Heath

Never once talked about America...

"Sorry, this is true. He didn't really tell anyone. I just found out from other people myself.”

The other party's calm tone made his expression

Sugizo

change to serious

How can we leave each other without even saying goodbye?

"What time does the plane leave?"

"Half-past seven"

A pair of beautiful eyes immediately looked down at the clock.

It's six o'clock now... If you hurry, you'll probably be in time.

"Thank you, see you tomorrow," he finished. He started to run if

J

Instead, he grabbed his arm.

"Suki na"

J

He said while staring at him with strange eyes. It's the kind of sight that

Sugizo

I'd never seen the other side before and felt like I wasn't acting right.

"Why did you call me? I'm in a hurry," he said, shaking his hand away. If the other party still refuses to let go He also sighed and cursed.

"Fuck, I'm not calling you names."

A sentence that makes your eyebrows furrow together.

Didn't call? You can clearly see that it's called that, right?

When you see that the other party still doesn't understand

J

He made an annoyed sound in his throat. before speaking again This time it was slow and clear.

J

n

"Suki, I like you [

Sugi ore wa kimi ga sugi]"

only A pair of slender eyes widened. Confusion and shock swept over him until he felt completely dazed.

Crazy... Damn.

J

I like him. Normally they argue a lot. It can be said that there are people in the band who are always trying to find trouble with him. And now you're going to say that you like it? This isn't April Fool's Day!!

“I know it's unbelievable, but I don't have to express it so clearly. This is serious."

J

Speak when you see the other person's expression. It's as if there's a word. 'I don't believe it' is stuck in the middle of my forehead.

"Uh... well, normally you look so stinking I'm going to die. Suddenly saying things like this, who the hell is going to believe them?”

Sugizo

Speak with a difficult expression Still can't believe my ears like before.

“What the fuck. I just want to let you know. The answer doesn't have to be."

Because I know that there's no hope for it...

He could only think of this sentence in his heart.

"Sorry.

J...

But now I have to hurry and find you.

Heath

First, the plane is about to take off," the guitarist said, pulling his hand away. before turning around and running, but not getting very far The pretty face turned to look at her friend.

"I'll think about that!"

Sugizo

Shouted and waved a little goodbye. Before the two legs carried the slender body to run quickly.

J

Stand and look until the back is out of sight. A young bass player pumps a cigarette into his lungs. Before closing my eyes

No... I know.

Even without Mr. Hide You would probably never be mine. Like right now, I choose to go to you.

Heath

But even though I already knew Still can't get over it. You're so crazy...

And I will continue to call you by that name. Words that are similar to my feelings

...Sugi [

like]....

The taxi stopped in front of the airport. Guitarist of

Luna sea

He paid the fare and quickly jumped out of the car.

Shit, I'm calling you.

Heath

Not following the drama formula exactly!

Beautiful eyes glanced at the clock. He still had ten more minutes. And it would be easier if he knew you.

Heath

What airline are you going with?

"Keep calm..."

he told himself

If it's according to the drama. He must go in time!

"Really... I need to call someone and ask."

Sugizo

Press to find a name in your phone. Before you decide to call the person you think might know you.

Heath

Where?

The sound of the phone waiting for a call seemed longer than it really was when he was so impatient.

“Hello, Mr. Pata.

Sugizo

Please, do you know that you

Heath

Where is"

He quickly uttered his voice as soon as the other party picked up the phone.

'Yes...

Heath

So today it's going to America? Now I just passed through the gate myself. Why?'

His reply almost made him drop the phone from his hand.

"So... Thank you very much."

Sugizo

Press to hang up before closing your eyes.

Damn it, if it was normal, wouldn't he have to be there in time?

The slender figure walked back out of the airport with a slow expression. I felt a strange feeling of loneliness in my heart.

In the end, we didn't even say goodbye.

And at that moment The phone's ringtone suddenly sounded. And the name that appeared on the screen caused a pair of sharp eyes to widen.

"you

Heath!"

'What's up? Called many times. Is there something wrong?'

The smooth voice that was heard It made him feel angry.

"You don't have to ask! Going to America, we didn't say a word. Plus he still doesn't answer the phone. Aren't you going to say goodbye?"

'Oh, I think it would be better if I left without saying goodbye.'

"you

Heath!!"

Damn it! You are..!

'It's sad when we say goodbye. I don't like that atmosphere. And it's not like we won't meet again.'

“But if you go without telling me, I don't like it. And how long will this go on?"

This if

J

I won't tell... It'll probably be a while, right?

'Probably for about a year, I'll go to work.'

"It's been a year, huh? It's been a long time, too."

'Um, sorry.'

I don't know why he smiled...

"you

Heath

It's a bad habit. I won't forgive you. Until you come back and speak again in front of me.”

The other end of the line laughed softly as always.

'The plane is about to take off, that's all. See you later'

"Please take care of your health."

The line has been cut.

Sugizo

Put your phone in your bag. before letting out a long sigh I felt somewhat relieved.

America? It's also far away...

The weather is very cold. Today I have a lot of work. I want to go back to Japan~

“Just come back,” a muttered voice sounded after he read the message on his phone.

after

Heath

It's been more than a year since I went to America. But the other party still had no signs of coming back.

past time He lives his life around music, work, traveling, drinking, going to see Hide whenever he gets the chance. and wait to read the messages sent from America every night

Oh, he also tried dating.

J

Look, too, but the relationship doesn't seem to work from the beginning. Because of their strong personalities and unwillingness to accept each other In the end, they just broke up. Even though he knows that

J

I love him very much. But both of them

J

They all thought they were best friends.

Sometimes... love doesn't have to end with being lovers.

That doctor said this. Which looks crazy cool.

“Whoa, come back. What is so good about America that you refuse to return? It's been more than a year."

Sugizo

He complained while typing a fluent reply.

In the cold weather, you must take good care of your health (^ ^)

But it will be printed as You can come back! It seems a bit strange.

Press send before throwing the phone in another direction. Then he buried his face in the pillow.

So why are you upset?

A slender hand placed a bouquet of red roses in front of a grave filled with flowers and gifts from those who loved and admired the person who lay peacefully beneath them.

"I came to visit you again."

Sugizo

He said with a smile and crouched down to sit down.

"Are you okay? But it must be fine up there. As for me, I'm fine. You don't have to worry." His eyes looked at the stone sign. With a little smile

"Really... Do you know that you

Heath

I sent a message to complain again. Complaining that he wants to go back but he never seems to come back. Plus, when you left, you didn't even say goodbye to me. My friend is not very good."

Sugizo

I didn't realize that. Since when? That's enough to come here. Just talking about another person...

"When I come back, I'll tell you something. Make your ears numb."

"It's not cute to do that."

A familiar sentence sounded from behind. Make your beautiful face look back

The person who was being gossiped about was standing there with a bouquet of flowers. It doesn't seem to have changed much. In addition to longer hair and whiter skin.

"you

Heath!

Since when have you been here? No... since when did you come back?"

"I just arrived in Japan this morning."

Heath

Answered, putting down the bouquet of flowers. Hands clasped at chest level before turning to speak

"Come here. Since you started saying that to me."

"Have you been secretly listening all this time?!"

The senior bassist smiled before shrugging.

"I didn't eavesdrop. But if you speak loudly you will die."

Can't argue...

The face is white and faded. before he changed the subject.

“So, did you forget anything? That stuck with me."

Heath

He looked at the slender figure beside him and smiled slightly before speaking.

"I'm sorry... for not saying goodbye and for making you wait."

At first I didn't get anything. But the end of that sentence made the listener's face turn red. Hurry and argue.

"I didn't wait a bit!"

Ah... Damn it, why are you embarrassed when you really weren't waiting?

Just... I want you to come back quickly...

For a moment, silence fell between the two of them. Before the next sentence of

Heath

It will make him almost face-down.

"Are you going to get married?" the bassist said in a voice that was as smooth as his expression. As for the person who suddenly got a marriage proposal in the summer and wanted to jump into the water.

"Ah...ah...what!!"

I probably heard it wrong.

Heath

This will come...

"Will you get married?"

Proposing for marriage!!

This time it was clear to both ears. Plus, no matter how I look at it, I'm not joking.

Arrhythmia Plus, breathing is still difficult.

Sugizo

His mouth hung open for a long time before he could form words.

“So...then why are you suddenly saying something like this? And in front of Hide-san too!"

"You have to say it in front of Hide for it to be correct, right?"

Heath

Ask, which is true. But suddenly speaking up like he was talking and asking for all kinds of information, that's...

Plus, to get married, you have to love each other first, right? Even though he doesn't hate you and is still secretly happy, even though he doesn't quite understand why he's happy, ah, but this shows that you

Heath

I like him. When did I like him? Since when? I can't tell. The more I think about it, the more confused I get.

Seeing the confused and dazed expression on the other party's face,

Heath

So he laughed. He reached out his hand and ruffled the younger man's hair roughly. before standing up

"Never mind, I assume we've never spoken before." He said as he turned and walked away. Makes confused people widen their eyes

No!

The slender figure hurriedly leapt and grabbed the tall figure's neck before it exploded.

"you

Heath

Bad habits, not good! Suddenly you come and say it and tell me how to forget it!!”

Even though I still don't understand it myself...

Now he still loves Hide. and will love you forever, but when you

Heath

I'm really happy to get married.

I like it... even though I don't know since when I liked it. But I like it already...

"Say it and say it! If you

Heath

Don't let me marry you. I'll lock your neck like this!"

sentences that make

Heath

Laugh even though it's hard to breathe.

"Not cute at all."

Sugizo

Hold your head up and receive the word proudly.

"I'm not cute to you.

Heath

It's also a bad habit. Now I can answer. Married or going to marry?"

Forced to give a clear answer.

Heath

think

But how... He's going to answer like that anyway.

"You can dress up."

"Alright, this doesn't seem very willing."

Sugizo

He complained, but relaxed his hand.

As soon as you can move The senior bassist turned around. before pulling his thin waist closer Then he placed his lips on his forehead.

"Then... I want to marry you instead."

Sugizo

His face blushed, his heart felt so warm that words couldn't describe it.

"If you leave me without saying goodbye again... This time I will go and drag you back.”

Heath

Laughing, making deep, serious eye contact with the pair of sharp eyes in front of you.

"It's not cute to do that."

If people are not cute, they smile widely.

"But I love you, right?"

Marriage... It is a beautiful dream image that many people dream of.

Even though his dreams had already been shattered once If now it was starting again

Even if it's not with the person you love the most. But it's someone who has always cared for him...

"I've always loved you."

It is the last love that will be together forever...

-Fin-