Have you ever been in love? What do you compare your love to?

My love is like a clock.

that has the feelings of two people pushing the needle to move every second

And when someone's feelings disappear..that clock won't run any longer..forever.

And what is your love clock like?

Thank you for the beautiful theme from..

CRY .q

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Love's Clock -

NoRitz-

Have you ever been in love? What do you compare your love to?

My love is like a clock.

that has the feelings of two people pushing the needle to move every second

And when someone's feelings disappear..that clock won't run any longer..forever.

And what is your love clock...what is it like?

The evening sun dyed the horizon a pale orange. A gentle breeze blew against the two figures walking along the road that was the little man's route home. The two people walking hand in hand, no matter who, it could be seen that their relationship was no less than lovers. They talked and laughed and looked happy. Smiling faces without worries, as if nothing could separate them from each other.

Phakin stopped walking and turned to look at the small figure with deep eyes before gathering himself into a hug with love that overflowed his heart. A small hand reached up and hugged her back with equally great love. It's been 3 years since he and Rueangrit upgraded their relationship from siblings to close friends to lovers. There hasn't been a day that hasn't gone by that I haven't loved you in all this time.

And no obstacle can shake their feelings. They never even argued once. Love..smooth Simple but warm at the same time..

"P'No, Rit can't breathe.." The small figure beneath his embrace muffled a muffled complaint when the tall man refused to loosen his arms.

“Ah!..Sorry, are you uncomfortable?”

"Probably not. Hug so softly like this -3-"

“Behold! Are you being sarcastic to me?” He pinched his nose with irritation. Rueangrit frowned and pulled away from his embrace and held hands instead.

The small figure led the tall figure by the hand as they walked across a small bridge on the way. Looking blankly at the road ahead that extends from the bridge. Phakin looked at his lover's actions without understanding but didn't ask anything. I think Rueangrit will like the atmosphere here.

“Do you like this place, hmm?” When the little man didn't seem to say anything, he asked as he thought. But the words didn't seem to enter the other person's ears at all. Is something a big deal wrong?

"P'No..." called his name without taking my eyes off the path.

"How is it going"

"Look at the road in front of us..." Phakin looked at what the little figure said. But no matter what, he still couldn't understand what his lover wanted to say. Rueangrit's attitude like this started to make me have a bad premonition. I can only hope that he thinks too much..

“Um..the view is beautiful. Do you like Rita? Do you want me to take a photo and keep it?” he asked politely. before diligently searching for the camera in the shoulder bag that he had brought with him Today is the three year anniversary of him and Rueangrit dating. I would like to create special memories on a special day like this.

“...The path ahead doesn't have any obstacles, right? We can walk around without worry. It is..just an ordinary flat road that, as you follow the path, you will find that the destination is separated from each other....." The eyes that had been staring ahead suddenly returned to look at Phakin's face. Before calling out to the person next to him again, "Brother No..."

“Yes?” I answered, still busy looking for a camera to take pictures of my lover.

“Will our love..be like that...?” His voice dropped to a whisper at the last sentence.

“Finally found it! Let's take some pictures,” he invited enthusiastically, raising the camera to a suitable level and facing them.

Rueangrit looked at the tall man's actions with eyes that looked as if he had something to say.. I looked for a long time until Phakin, who was preparing to pose for a photo, turned and looked confused. His eyes looked so sincere and steady.. So firm that it makes the other person afraid to say something. Rit will...tell me, okay?

“What's wrong? Are you sick?” He lowered the hand holding the camera to his side. The other hand rested on Rueangrit's rounded forehead, alternating with his own to measure the temperature. I was worried that the little person would be sick.

"Nothing ^^ Let's take a picture." He brushed off the distractions from his thoughts and put his face next to the tall figure, smiling brightly. A happy smile suitable for a special occasion like this..

While traveling to Rueangrit's house, the tall man often invited him to stop and take photos. Until enough time had passed. The sky that was once light orange was erased by the darkness of the night and finally arrived at the little body's home.

The pair stopped in front of a dark brown wooden fence. Surrounds a medium-sized modern style two-story detached house. The atmosphere around the house was familiar to the tall man. Because every time we go out together, he always comes to radiate power.

The small figure pulled the gate open and led himself inside. home before turning to smile at his lover to say goodbye. Phakin smiled back and reached out to pat the smaller man's head affectionately.

"Rit loves you," he said softly, but those eyes looked like they were sad.

"You're really petty, little one," he finished, pulling the other person in for a hug before saying goodbye as well. "I'm already gone. See you later."

I waved my hand in goodbye again before turning and walking back to the path I had just walked to return to my own home..

Rueangrit still stood in the same place, looking at the image of his lover walking back until he was out of sight, the small hand holding the doorknob clenched tightly with his emotions. A pair of beautiful eyes flashed with pain.

Rit..I love you..

Said in a soft voice, like a whisper. And walked into the house with the wooden gate closed...

As my feet walked along the path home My brain kept thinking about today. The things his lover said when they were on the bridge.. What does the gesture of saying goodbye mean? Even though today was their anniversary together, the little man seemed unusually quiet. What is the reason?

My head is so full of questions that I don't know how to begin to find answers.

I always trust Rit.

Probably just thinking too much. Maybe it's nothing.

The night breeze blew against a figure standing blankly by the window. The hair that falls down flows in the direction of the wind. Eyes looking out the window, don't wander aimlessly. My brain still thinks about today incessantly.

Crack.. Crack..

The communication device in his bag vibrated, signaling that someone had contacted him, causing Rueangrit to come out of his thoughts. Someone picked up their cell phone and looked at the square screen to find the name of the person who had contacted them. When he saw who it was, his slender fingers immediately touched the screen to accept.

[Hello Rit, how was today's date? Did it go well? Have you told P'No yet? ] Before I could say anything, the person at the other end started firing off questions until the listener could hardly think of an answer in time. The deep voice filled with concern made the little man smile slightly. But that was a very sad smile.

“Ummm, it's going well. Very good! So much so that Rit..didn't dare tell P'No that we...were going to be together." His voice at the end was soft and we didn't want anyone to hear those words.. We thought this through well, right?

“It's okay.. If Ritter isn't ready yet, there's no need to tell her. Don't think too much, maybe things won't be that bad.” The words of encouragement that the person on the other end of the phone sent made Ruengrit's heart feel a little lighter. Some of them couldn't help but smile a little at those thoughtful words. However, he must choose..

"oh! Now 'Gun' has to go study with friends again. Just this for now, Rit."

“Um.. I intend to read the book as well. It's not like we're going to play, do you understand?”

“Yes, Rit, don't think too much, or you'll feel sick. Take care of yourself. Sweet dreams.”

“Um...”

After hanging up the phone, the figure walked away from the window and lay down on the bed, exhausted. Sweet Face thought for a moment and decided to do what she had planned from the beginning.

Rita can decide now.

Tomorrow... will be the last day that Rit and P'No will be together as lovers!

The morning sunlight shines through the clear glass panes and hits the eyelids of the room owner. Rueangrit turned his body slightly and pushed himself up to a sitting position before stretching to get rid of his sleepiness. A small hand pushed himself up from the bed and stood up to his full height and disappeared into the bathroom to do his own business.

Not long after, he walked out of the bathroom with only a towel wrapped around her lower half, revealing a white, smooth chest that looked like it had been well nourished, and a smooth stomach without excess fat, which looked charming even without it. Muscular like a normal man. His small hand grabbed a t-shirt slightly larger than himself and some comfortable pants and put them on like a person at home.

Someone walked to the counter and picked up the phone before calling someone else..

No matter what.. Today I have to tell you...

Crack.. Crack..

The vibration of the elegant black square communicator woke its owner from a sweet slumber. Phakin reached for the phone on the table next to the bed to see who had contacted him, slightly upset. However, when he saw the name of the person on the other end of the line, the short-faced person smiled widely with happiness and barely accepted in time.

"What? Did you call me early in the morning? Is there something wrong?" Trying to speak in a normal tone. So that the other person doesn't know that he's happy that he contacted you.

[Is Brother No free today? Rit would invite me to lunch and then watch a movie.] It was one of the few times that the other person called and invited him to go out first. Makes the listener unable to help but smile.

“Ah.. I have to think about this one first. Because even though I'm free, it's not like I want to go with Rit..."

[If Brother No doesn't go. So we can invite each other instead. That's all..]

“Wow, you're so irritated... Rit knows this. In my whole life right now, apart from my family, there's only Rit. Whatever you want, if you can give it to me, I'll always give it to you. That's why I'm sorry. Please, small one.”

[Clearly pats the head and pats the back... This time, Ritter was able to recover. But Brother No has to treat me to ice cream, haha]

“I can do it.”

[So.. let's meet at the mall at noon.] I said a forced conclusion. before continuing in a softer voice. [...I love you No.]

"Yes, I know you love me, but suddenly you said it like this. I'm embarrassed. Haha."

[Hahaha, then Rit won't disturb me when I'm sleeping. That's all. Tid...]

Sharp eyes looked at the phone in his hand thoughtfully.. Why does the word "love" spoken by the little person give me such a strange feeling? It was like saying goodbye like that... Even though he acted like it was nothing, it wasn't like he couldn't feel the little person's change. Since yesterday, his posture has clearly deviated from what he used to be..

"Think too much. There's probably nothing..." His mouth said just that. Even though my heart is so afraid that the love between the two of them will change...

If you're stressed out, nothing good will come out of it. Today, his little lover invited him to go on a trip. If there was a little surprise, Rueangrit would be very happy. Thinking about it while smiling a small smile and a big smile with happiness. A strong hand grabbed the camera that was on the small cabinet next to the bed and opened the photo that was taken yesterday.

The image of him and the sweet-faced little person smiling side by side, no matter how many times I see it, always makes my heart swell..

Pakin took the camera in his hand and walked out of the room to go to a photo cleaning shop not far from the condo. After telling the shop what I wanted, I walked to find a quiet corner to sit and do something fun while waiting for the pictures. He picked up his luxury phone and surfed the internet to pass the time. My eyes wandered along the website page, looking for a song to listen to for a while.

“Can time be stopped..? Hmm, that's interesting. Let's give it a listen." He said casually and put on headphones to listen to the music so as not to disturb the other customers.

A sad melody rang out, causing the person who was smiling a little in a good mood to smile.. The sound of the guitar solo Drum and bass rhythm It was so crushing on his heart that he couldn't breathe easily.

Her symptoms indicate something...

There is a word to hide in plain sight...

The first verse of the song echoed in my ears as someone else's eyes from yesterday evening appeared in my mind. But it didn't take long for that image to disappear due to the intention of the person who was trying not to think too much. Try to trust.. The incident was just a coincidence similar to the song's lyrics..

The tone of the word love Add weight to the word goodbye

I don't want to ask for fear of shedding tears. I don't want to hear the word quit...

“Customer, the picture you recorded has been completed.” The employee's voice called out to the person who was lost in thought. Phakin took off his headphones and casually put them in his pocket, not forgetting to turn off the sad music before going to get the picture he had ordered. Once you've paid at the photo cleaning shop, go straight back to the condo.

A strong hand gently pushed the door to the room before closing it and locking it like he always did. White Yao walked towards the bookshelf in the corner of the living room without hesitation. I searched for something for a short while and found a green, hardcover notebook. Phakin carried the notebook and put it on the writing table and took out the stationery in order to make a present for his beloved little one.

Slender fingers carefully pasted the pictures onto the pages of the notebook, one page at a time, until the pictures he had pasted were gone. Then use colored ink pens to happily write various messages under the pictures. Even though it may be something that I'm not very good at and cause some things to get stuck, the person who does it doesn't feel annoyed in the slightest.

His sharp face now only had a happy smile.. Happy to see the smile of his lover after receiving this gift.

“Whoa, it's finally finished! If this little guy sees it, he'll definitely smile until his cheeks hurt,” he said with a smile, turning the pages over and over to check for neatness. But when he opened it to the last page, he found that there were 2 blank pages, or 1 sheet. But he didn't know what else to write or decorate, so he had to leave the paper blank...

“It's almost time....” He said softly to himself to remind him that he was sure of what he was going to do from now on. Rueangrit took a deep breath into his lungs before walking out of his room.

A small figure walked past the bottom of the stairs and was about to walk out of the house. But someone's call stopped him first.

“Rit, son, where are you going?” A familiar voice of a middle-aged woman sitting on a bench in front of the house with a man of about the same age asked her son who was about to go out. The slender face has traces of time, but its beauty is clearly still preserved. The warm smile that was sent made Rueangrit unable to resist walking over and hugging him tenderly.

“At first I was going to go out. But I thought it would be better if Marit didn't go, or the old man around here would keep my mother alone. Rit is really lonely.” He said it in a ridiculously serious way and then parted from the hug. The words also referred to the person sitting on the other side of the middle-aged woman.

“Give it a little, Rit. Your mother is my wife. After all, a child like you will never be better than me. Is it true, Mom? Oh my god..” This direct display of love made the son who watched burst out laughing. His mom and dad are really cute. Such an enviable love..

“So, dressed like this and handsome, where would you like to go with a girl?” His teasing question made Rueangrit smile funny. His mother is cute, kind, and also cheerful like this. It was no wonder that Father chose to stop his whole life with this woman.

"Where are the girls? No~ Rit will go with P'No." The answer from the son's mouth caused his face that was once smiling cheerfully to become solemn until it became indifferent.

“Rit.. We talked about it, right..” His voice was calm but he could feel the tense atmosphere. The father sitting next to him could only look at his son without commenting. Rueangrit is now grown up and should be allowed to make his own decisions..

“Yes, Mom, you don't have to think too much. Rit and P'No are just siblings." He replied while smiling to make the listener comfortable, but inside he felt pain when he said those words.. Words that go against the heart...

Said goodbye to the couple and walked out of the house. The little feet had not yet stepped out of the gate of the house, and a rice-colored Mazda car was parked in front of it, causing the owner of the house to be stunned. We made an appointment to meet at the department store.

"Oh, I'm still standing. Can I go? Come on." The little man reached out and opened the car door and immediately sat in the driver's side. The luxury car then left the area and headed towards their meeting place.

“I said I'd meet at the mall. So why did you come to pick me up at my house?” he asked, confused and happy. At first, it had already been agreed that they would meet at the meeting point. I couldn't imagine that a tall person would come to pick him up at his house.

“Who would dare to let Rit go by himself? The shorter I am, if I hang out with a large group of people, I won't even be able to find them.” The teasing sentence that couldn't be uttered may have been as sweet as it was sweet, but it was also filled with concern. Rueangrit is wearing a little face. Before letting out a smile..

We talked and teased each other all the way until we finally reached our destination. Luxurious cars were parked in the parking area of ​​the shopping mall. The two walked out of the car and immediately entered the mall.

“Today's program is to eat, watch a movie, eat ice cream, and then take a walk!” I concluded it myself without asking the other person's opinion. The tall man could only smile at his lover's eager expression. ..Where are you going with this excitement, you bastard? Traveling together for the first time, I haven't seen this much excitement..

Today, the little person seemed to be especially cheerful because throughout the past activities he kept smiling and laughing at little things, making the other person unable to stop smiling as well. But in my heart I couldn't help but think that it seemed too strange. No matter how cheerful Rueangrit is, he probably shouldn't be in such a good mood.

“Is something wrong with us? I haven't stopped smiling since we arrived."

“Hm, are you a little bit of a bitch? What's wrong with P'No?"

“Whatever it is, you can see that he's smiling. Where do you get your good mood from?”

"No, I'm just happy to be traveling with my girlfriend. Is that wrong?"

The answer from the little person was difficult for anyone to ask. His face was white and red spread to his ears. Rueangrit looked at his lover's condition and laughed jokingly. Normally it makes me feel embarrassed, sometimes I'll feel it. Haha...

“What kind of movie did you take me to see? I don't think it's fun at all. I don't know what I'm looking at. Plus, at the end the hero and heroine separated again,” Pakin complained after the pair walked out of the movie theater. Make people walking next to you He looked at the tall man's face and smiled playfully.

“Come on, Pino. It's not that bad.” Rueangrit comforted the tall figure by extending his arms briefly. Try to hang it around the neck of another person who is taller than yourself.

“But I don't like the ending. What meaning does the hero and heroine separate like this?”

“At least bring it as an example for us to see..”

“What are you looking at?” he pretended to ask. Even though the truth is enough to capture the meaning. ..I can only hope that it won't be like that. Probably not..

“...a story of unrequited love,” he answered in a low, uncertain voice before turning to look at the face of the person asking. Those eyes were hiding something.. What did he pray that wouldn't happen?

I won't think about it myself.. Trust Rit..

"Alright, where should we go next?" he asked in a softer voice than before, turning to look at the little man's face.

"You'll know soon," Rueangrit smiled widely before turning to take the tall man's hand and lead him out of the department store. Little legs walked briskly along the path, heading towards a familiar place.

Phakin could only follow in a daze, but could only follow the figure in front of him continuously. Until they stopped at a park that was some distance from the mall they had just walked from.

“Why did you bring me here?”

“Let's just eat ice cream,” he said and walked towards the ice cream truck that was waiting for customers nearby.

“What ice cream?”

“Here,” he replied, holding up the ice cream and holding it in front of him, “Two chocolate-flavored helms. For the two of us ^^”

“And eat here.”

"Why? What's so strange about the park?"

“It's not strange at all. But I just thought we'd like to go eat at the mall."

“At the park. The atmosphere is good..”

“Well....”

“Let's just eat this ice cream first. Look, it's all melted,” Rueangrit said before turning to continue eating the ice cream, pretending not to care about the person next to him. He asks that the young man not ask any more questions. He wasn't ready to answer right now.

Phakin looked questioningly at his lover who was eating ice cream in his hand until he ignored himself. But since the other person acted like he didn't care, he didn't want to ask too much and handled the ice cream that the little guy had bought without much thought, not knowing that the story that Rueangrit was going to tell was something that Ah. It might make him so nervous that he doesn't even want to touch the ice cream in his hand.

The ice cream was gone and the two people were silent but with different emotions. One person is silent because he doesn't know how to start a conversation, but he looks into the other person's eyes as if he has something to say. The other person was quiet because he was waiting to hear what his lover was going to say.

“Why are you quiet?” Phakin finally broke the uncomfortable atmosphere by starting to ask.

“..." Only silence was the answer. Which did not help solve the tall figure's doubts in the slightest. Instead, it made him even more worried. I can't say I feel bad. The small figure withdrew his gaze and looked down at the grass.

“What's wrong, little one? Acting like a depressed dog,” he asked, acting like he normally did. Even though in my heart I was afraid..so afraid that I couldn't do anything.

Phakin stared at Ruengrit's face for a long time before the small figure slowly turned to look at him in response. The little man's eyes changed. It looked calm, cold and sad at the same time.

"....Our path has ended, Brother No..." he said, not very confident. He also averted his eyes and didn't look directly at him.

"Well, we're sitting at the far end of the park," he jokingly said, avoiding the topic Rueangrit would say next. As you can guess, it probably wasn't a good thing. But it looks like the other person isn't playing along. Slender face looked up at him again with a serious expression.

"Rit knows that you understand what Rit said!" He raised his voice angrily. The tall man tried to deflect what he was talking about, even though the situation was like this, it would still be funny.

"No..I don't understand..."

The sharp eyes that had always sparkled were filled with confusion. Phakin shook his head back and forth as if trying to deny what his lover had told him. Denying that he understands what he is hearing, even though it is not complicated at all. ...I just want to not understand it... That's it.

Rueangrit looked at the tall figure's face tiredly. He knows that the person in front of him understands what he is saying but doesn't accept it. Of course, from people who love each other very much suddenly talking about something like this, no one would be able to accept it. But it is not the case that only the person who listens will be hurt. He himself..was just as hurt.

“We should stop now.”

“For what reason?”

"Rit...." took a deep breath to build up his courage and continued speaking. “...there is someone else.”

"...." The answer from the little man's mouth made the listener almost stop breathing.. So stuffed that I couldn't say anything. I couldn't believe that something like this would happen to his love... The love that this Mr. Phakhin devoted with all his heart So is this what he got back?

“Brother No..”

“Together, right?”

“Since when, Rit?” Looking into his lover's eyes, he wanted to ask. “Since when have you been in love with him…”

"Rit, I'm sorry." The words I thought of were all erased by the pained look in his eyes. There was only one word left that could be said.. The word sorry is really just one word.

"Don't you love me anymore? Rita no longer loves you, right?" He said with difficulty. A question that cuts into the heart of both the speaker and the listener until it hurts. But even if that's the case, I still want to know the answer... Even if it ends up hurting myself to death, I accept it.

“No! Rit loves P'No very much and will never stop loving him."

“...Then why?” The first tears fell from the young man's eyes. Phakhin didn't bother to wipe it off. He looked at Rueangrit's face, waiting to hear what he had to say.

“Rit loves him more. I don't want him to have to endure seeing Rit with you like this. Even though Rit and he love each other."

"..." Tears, drop after drop, fell endlessly, showering all over Sharp's face. Phakhin could only sit quietly and listen to the answer that reinforced Rueangrit and Naphat's relationship without objecting... The answer that came out of those thin lips was like a knife slicing through the heart. It hurt all over, hurting to the point of not having the strength to even say a word.

All you can do is bow your head and accept it...

“I thought I would tell you a long time ago. But because P'No takes care of him and does good things to Ritter, it makes Ritt not dare. If I leave it like this, it's like Rit hurting you. Hurting another person that Rit loves, which Rit can't do... Rit wants to end this torturous relationship once and for all. P'No understands Rit."

"..." There was no reply from the tall man as usual. His handsome face was stained with tears that flowed endlessly until his eyes started to turn red. Rueangrit looked painfully at the picture in front of him. A small hand was ready to reach out and wipe away the tears of the person in front of him. I want to tell Phakin that the whole thing was just a joke and stop crying.

But in reality, it's impossible... Since it was he who caused the pain in his tall body. It was him who made the tall figure shed tears... There was no right to comfort him at all.

“For the three years we've been together…” He tried to keep his voice from shaking but it didn't help at all as he was crying the hardest right now. “I think...we love each other very much. I've been doing everything to make our love strong, even though I know that Rit's family can't accept this..."

"...!!" The last sentence that came out from the tall figure made the little man turn and look at the tall figure in shock and doubt that could not be concealed. It was impossible. How could Phakin know that Rueangrit's family did not... Satisfied with this Since he..has never told the person next to him anything at all...

The real reason... Why do we have to part?

I've never told you and I think I won't tell you forever...

“...I tried to do everything in my power to make Rit's family accept our love. Because I believe in Rit and believe that our love is strong enough to overcome this obstacle. I tried to make every day the best we could be...but I had no idea that what I did would hurt Rit this much.”

His broad shoulders trembled heavily with each sentence. I know how hard the person next to me is crying.

“..Brother No.” He swallowed hard. Every action seen, every word heard Makes me feel an ache in my heart that I can't tell.

“I'm sorry, Rit, that I caused you distress. I'm sorry that I couldn't make Rit love you more than him. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Huh.." Phakin said these words over and over again with tears in his eyes. The words that were repeatedly cut into Rueangrit's heart caused a severe wound.

“P'No, Rit, I'm sorry.” Other than these words, Ruengrit couldn't think of any other words he could say right now. I could only look at the tall figure with sad eyes as if a person were crying...but there were no tears.

"I love Rit. I love you so much that I can't make Rit suffer any more." He looked up at the little man with deep eyes. “I love Rit very much. If Rit is happy being with him...I'll accept it."

“I will not hold Rit back just for my own happiness but to hurt the people I love. I want Rit to be very happy, and I believe that we will definitely make Rit very happy.” After saying that, he stood up and smiled at the other person through tears. A smile that was so powerful it could be seen how painful and forced it was. But it was the last smile he could give to the little person. "I want Rit to be happy."

Phakin turned around and released the tears he had been holding back. The smile on his face a moment ago disappeared before a pained expression flashed on his face. Phakin raised the back of his hand to wipe away the tears that were falling down his face before stepping on his barely-strength legs and walking out of there, leaving Rueangrit who was sitting looking at him with a guilty look in his eyes.

“I'm sorry, I made a mistake. I love you...I love you the most, P'No." Rueangrit could only say these words alone because the person he wanted to hear had already walked away...

With trembling hands, he pulled out a phone from his pocket and dialed Naphat. At this time, there was hardly any energy to do anything. Phakin's face was filled with sorrow and his heart ached too much to bear it...

[Hello Rit]

"Kan...." replied in a trembling voice as if he had just gone through crying heavily... Maybe it was because his heart was crying for him.

[...Is it okay?]

“No, it's not okay at all... It really hurts..."

[...Then why did you decide so quickly?]

“Even if I don't tell you today. One day, Brother No will have to know, right?"

[It's true, but...]

"Rit is afraid.. if I leave it on longer than this, I won't dare tell him."

[Then when you're okay or not, do you want me to pick you up?]

“Um... in the park.”

[The same place, right? I'll go now... Tid]

At the sound on the other end of the line, the hand that was holding the phone flattened to the ear was released and rested weakly on the bench. His feelings right now were probably not much different from Phakhin's. He just pushed that person away and chose to keep that truth to himself. The fact that... In his heart, there has always been only one person and he has never changed to anything else...

I don't know how long Rueangrit sat staring aimlessly on this same bench. Images of events not too long ago continued to repeat in my mind incessantly. The more I think about it, the more I regret making that person cry... Even though I thought it was the best way, why am I now suffering because of my own actions?

After a while, the familiar sound of a car could be heard in Lot's mind, followed by the owner of the car walking down to call him to come home and he himself walked to get into the car.

Throughout the journey, no one talked or anything happened. Rueangrit still stared aimlessly out the window, refusing to speak. A face that seemed to be expressionless still held a hint of sadness through eyes that were trembling but without tears. Naphat kept glancing at the condition of the person sitting next to the driver from time to time with the utmost concern.

He and Rueangrit have known each other for a long time. When something comes up that hurts the little one's heart, he almost always cries like a child. But this time it's not... That sweet face didn't even have the slightest hint of crying. It shows that today's event must have been very emotional for a small person...

He could only pray that Rueangrit would at least cry rather than sit silently like this without a soul...

“...Thank you very much.” After being silent the whole way, the little man finally opened his mouth to speak. This made Naphat sigh in relief that the person next to him had already responded. Even if it's a conversation without any introduction at all.

“Why thank you? We haven't been able to do anything yet."

"Well....thank you for making Rit lie to P'No about us being lovers..."

“Oh, there's no need to thank me for this matter. We're related."

"um..."

We had just talked for a few sentences and Ruengrit seemed to be quiet again. Napat was in trouble for having to find another topic to talk about in order to keep the atmosphere from becoming too tense.

“Ah, Errit! Once you get home, you can start packing your bags. If you hurry up tomorrow morning, you won't be in time.”

“Where are you in such a hurry? We're leaving next week, aren't we?”

“Auntie, haven't you told Rit yet that we changed our flight to the day after tomorrow?”

"...." Just two more days? Really fast.

“In the afternoon, Brother Ruj called and said that in the next 5 days it would be my aunt's surgery case. So I want you to arrive about 2 days before the treatment day to allow your body to get used to it first.”

“Ah.. so.. then I might have to hurry up a bit, haha…”

“...Is this okay? If you want to stay here, you don't have to go. Staying there, Brother Ruj will probably take care of Auntie herself. Or you can give it to each other instead. After all, Rit's mother is already an aunt... Please go back to him and don't force it any longer. We don't want to see Rit sad."

“Rit can't do that. We know how much a mother wants to hold her grandchild.. Plus now my mother is sick...”

“Thank you for your concern. But it's better for things to be like this…” The last sentence of the conversation between the two ended as silence enveloped the car once again.

Naphat secretly sighed, thanking the little man for being such a grateful person. Because if Rueangrit chooses to go back to that person instead of flying abroad to return to his family. It might hurt Rit even more if he had to know some truths like he did...

It happened 3 months ago...

It was one holiday during the school break that Naphat thought of inviting Rueangrit to go on a trip together after not seeing each other for a month. He came home to visit a distant relative who was like a close friend. But when he entered the familiar house, he saw only the little person's mother..Rit was not there.

Auntie said that Rit went out with her boyfriend...

Of course Naphat already knew this. But he wasn't sure if his aunt would accept it. Because Rueangrit is the only son. The expression on Auntie's face when she spoke didn't look very good either.

“Gun..Do you think how serious he will be with Rit?”

Auntie suddenly asked, 'Don't you have a bagpipe or flute' and 'he' probably means Brother Tono? Naphat looked suspiciously at his aunt's face. It seemed like she was having some discomfort.

“Auntie, is there something wrong? Why.. do you ask like that?”

".......He has someone other than Rit."

“Auntie has known about this for a while. But Auntie doesn't want Rit to know that the person she loves is with someone else.."

"...Auntie"

Maybe he views Auntie's love in a too negative light.. There is no parent who doesn't love their child. And his aunt loved Rueangrit very much. She didn't object to her son's love.. But she's worried. I'm more afraid that my child will be hurt because of the cruel truth.

“If you care about Rit like Auntie does... Please help cooperate with Auntie.”

Naphat immediately nodded in agreement. Like Auntie said..he is worried about Rit too. And that day, he and Rueangrit's mother began to follow the plan that had been laid out. The map made Ruengrit have to go abroad even though it was not necessary. The plan was to break up with that person, with Rit being the one to break up. And the map where he becomes a well-wisher..

That's right, it's all laid out. To prevent my dear friend from having to accept the painful truth. Had to lie to protect it...

At the airport

Finally the day came to travel. I don't know how many times Rueangrit has been bid farewell by a distant relative who holds the position of close friend.

“Have a safe trip. When you arrive, please contact me immediately, send an email or something. But do not completely disappear from view. It's cold there, so wear thick clothes and a hat. Oh, and a scarf.."

“Together!..Stop worrying. Ritto has grown up and can take care of himself. Just keep talking and Rit will miss the plane."

“We won't see each other for a long time. I'd like to say a long goodbye... Nirit isn't here. Who do we hang out with in our free time? It must be really lonely.

TT^TT”

“Rit just moved house and didn't die. Thinking of each other, we flew to see Rit there. If we come, I promise to take you all around the city, haha.”

"Right now, are you okay? Regarding....."

“Ah, that's good, let's just keep it like this... Let's go first..."

“....Things that are too heavy, just leave them here. Don't bring it on the plane or you'll exceed the weight of your baggage.

J 

Have a safe trip, Tia. In my free time, I'll go visit and find places to travel and prepare as well."

Rueangrit smiled at Naphat to say goodbye again before walking towards his father and mother who had been waiting for him for a while... Walk away from the pain that has happened. Leaving everything behind, he has to start a new life abroad with his family. Goodbye Thailand.. Goodbye to the many memories that have happened here..

Goodbye, Tony...

Even though our love clock has stopped ticking

But Rit hopes that you will meet someone who will make your watch move forward.

I'm sorry..that I can't keep our love clock up anymore....

Special  Tono’s  part

Her symptoms indicate something... There is a word to hide in plain sight...

The tone of the word love Increase the weight of the word goodbye...

I don't want to ask for fear of shedding tears. I don't want to hear the word break up...

Will I be able to stop time?..the song that I accidentally listened to when I went to clean up photos to make a present for Rit at that time. Who knew it would resonate with me this much? When Rit broke up with me, it hurt so much that I almost didn't have the energy to do anything. But I forced one last smile before I brought my heavy body home.

At that time the symptoms were serious as well. I remember that I locked myself in my room and people at home were very worried but they didn't come and ask anything. Just called him down to eat and when he finished eating, I came back into the room again. It was like that for almost three months. All the time I tried to think of reasons for myself.

Why is it like this? Where did I make a mistake? Why is there space for each other to intervene? But no matter what I think, I still don't understand... Or will I blame Rit for sharing my heart with him instead of just me? Or is it wrong that Rit loves him more than me? If that's the case, what should I do?

The end point that must be met... I knew I had to say goodbye.

But I'm not ready... I'm not that strong...

If you think about it carefully...in fact, I myself can see that lately Ritt has been acting strange. It should be about two months before we break up. That he likes to look away often when we're together, like there's always something to think about. But when I asked, I always said there was nothing. And it was also a coincidence that I overheard Rit and my mother talking.

I heard that he was not satisfied with Rit's relationship with me..

At that time, I thought that Ritter's stress probably came from this. It's not that strange. Because Ritman is a son with a bright future. Parents naturally have high hopes for them if they are displeased that their beloved son is associating with a man. But I am confident that the love I have for Rit is stable and strong enough to prove it until you all accept it. I didn't think that the story would end like this.

Our 3 year anniversary Why wouldn't I know it was trying to tell me something? Something that made me so afraid that I didn't dare to listen, even pretending I didn't know anything like that. The feeling that came through his love voice made me think in many different ways. And then everything finally fell apart the next day when we went out together.

At the park, Rit's words almost broke my heart. Tears flowed down and didn't seem to dry up easily. I hurt...it hurts until I can't breathe. Because I love it so much Love until you forget for your heart. Love until you can't get angry. Even though it almost hurt, I forced myself to smile at it. But what I can't understand... Ritt told me that he loves other people more.

He chose someone else and asked me to leave... But why does that grandfather look so hurt?

For three months I stayed in my room. Finally came out to face the truth... The fact that no matter how much it hurts, I still miss Rit. I went to look for him at the house and met him and walked out. And I found out that Rit moved abroad a long time ago...to live there permanently...

And we... haven't seen each other again since that day. There was no contact from Rit. It's as if we live in different worlds...

But it's like the sky is bullying... I must be hurt that I lost the person who was not enough in my heart. There is still another person who comes and takes away happiness from my life. A woman...that I had a relationship with recently. I went out with her before my 3rd anniversary with Rit.

Yes...I messed with her even though I still had Ritter...

But it was only for a moment. I dare to say that I have never loved anyone except Ritt. My heart is for him alone... And even though it was my fault, I didn't want a sudden emotion to make me regret it. So we ended things secretly and she never bothered me again. Until today...

The day my heart left you came back again. Ready to take away all the happiness in my life with that simple sentence.. She's pregnant...

Maybe Ritter breaking up with me was a predetermined thing. Let people like me take responsibility for their own actions...

Even though I take care of my children and wife as I should. But my heart can never forget Rit.

It's like fate is playing tricks on me again. When Rit's first contact after not seeing each other for many years... It's a wedding invitation card. of Mr. Rueangrit The person who is my heart...with someone other than myself...

guitar solo sound Drum and bass rhythm Still playing songs that reinforce stories of the past throughout the journey to Rit's wedding venue. I looked at the green book on the driver's seat that I had originally intended to give as a gift five years ago and put it in the gift box I had prepared.

Now might be the time to take it to its real owner...

I stepped inside the auspicious event in front of me with an uncomfortable feeling that I couldn't tell. Maybe I should congratulate the host. Yes, I would if the name on the stage wasn't the name of the person I love the most...and someone else. Rit stood to welcome guests in front of the event with his bride. You heard me right, the bride... she is very small.

It's even smaller than Ritter. Plus he has a cute face. Impeccably good character It really suits Rita very well.

"Oh, Brother No, hello. Come to work first."

He walked away from the bride at the reception as soon as he saw me walking into the ceremony. That smile still looked as good as it did five years ago. It's still the same Ritter I know. cute and bright But now I can't hold it anymore.

Which watch will you stop time with? I want to spend as long as I can with you.

I want to be able to change your mind. Let her fall in love again.

Forget about breaking up, forget it.

"excuse me...."

"yes?"

“I probably won't be able to attend the ceremony. I have to go pick up my child... excuse me"

Even though I love it and want to reconcile with it. Please let us get together again. But the fact that Rit no longer loves me cannot be changed. So I chose to say it like that. At least Ritter won't have to feel guilty for leaving me.

"child? Since when haven't we told each other about this?" He said jokingly. It was so funny that I couldn't help but smile. I don't even know what kind of face I'm making right now. I know it hurts... Having to meet again in this situation is not funny at all.

“Where can you contact us? If you go abroad, we won't tell you. There is no contact number.”

It's like the more you talk, the more uncomfortable you become. I probably won't be able to smile like this for long... Rit made a embarrassed face and felt guilty. I couldn't help but reach out and gently rub its head. We might have to say goodbye for a while...

“You don't have to think too much, it's already happened a long time ago. This is a gift from you. I hope you have a happy married life, little brother. I'm going now." I handed the gift box I had prepared to hand to him... I hope Rita likes it.

"Thank you. In my free time, I'll take my son to visit Rit sometimes." He smiled at me like he always did...

Can I stop time...can I stop the clock? Before I regret it any more

Just stop her. I'm willing to trade it with everything I have.

Let the world stop turning The minute I still have you...

I smiled back before walking back along the path I was supposed to follow... It was a smile that came from real feelings, not forced. Even though we can't come back to love each other from before But as long as I see that it's still happy Not hurt, not sick That's more than enough. Even if our love clock stops ticking forever

But my life clock and it still must go on...

End  Tono’s  part

His back became further and further away until he was out of sight. Rueangrit looked at the gift box in his hand and smiled widely.. Thank you for coming to Ritt's wedding. At least this time we parted well…

Special  Rit’s  part

Five years ago I decided to break up with Tono. At that time, my mother was seriously ill and had to be transferred to a foreign hospital for treatment at Brother Ruj, where my man worked. And he said he wanted to hold his grandchild... So I chose to hurt my own heart by pretending that I didn't love Tono anymore. But I love each other who are distant (very distant) relatives instead. Which worked, Brother Tono believed it completely and he agreed to walk away.

While there, I tried to act as normal as possible so that my mother wouldn't be worried. Even though there were no tears, it didn't mean it didn't hurt. Tono and I have been together for three years and have never once had a problem. But suddenly they had to break up even though they still loved each other. Who can accept this?

I lived with that guilt for three months. Even though we've broken up, I still love Tono. The thoughts of it increased every day until finally I couldn't bear it. I decided to secretly fly back to Thailand, intending to tell the whole truth. I believe that no matter what, Tono must understand and then we will love each other again as before.

But it seems I was wrong...

The picture I saw made my legs go weak. Brother Tono and the woman who is pregnant, no matter how you look at it, you can't think of anything other than... Brother Tono is the father of that child. As quick as a thought, I carried my almost weak body out of there and back to America. It hurt... but there were no tears at all.

“Rit!! Where have you been? Mom and Dad are worried, you know!!” Dad said as soon as I stepped into the house. before coming and hugging me as if afraid that I would disappear again

“Let's go visit, Dad. I haven't seen him often lately, and Rit hasn't been back to Thailand in a long time... I apologize for not telling you in advance.”

“Next time, please don't do this again. Your mother was so stressed that her condition deteriorated, what should I say?”

"I won't do this again." Sometimes I indulge myself too much and forget to think that my mother is sick... It's really bad. Ruengrit, if something happened to my mother, I definitely wouldn't forgive myself.

After that day, I tried to get over my feelings from Tono. Of course, it's not easy. Feeling distracted all the time So I went to take care of my mother at the hospital. And it turned out that the way I took care of my mother made me completely forget about Tono... because I was stressed about my mother's condition instead.

One day I went out to eat lunch and when I came back I didn't see my mother at the bed. I was shocked and looked at the bathroom or balcony and there was none. Fear began to grip my entire body. I'm afraid my mother might leave. So scared that I couldn't do anything except stand still like that....

“Are you...is something wrong?” a woman's voice asked me in Thai. She is a nurse here and a watcher and mother.

“Nurse! My mother is here. Isn't something wrong with her? Why did you take her away without telling me? What would you say if something happened to you?!” As soon as I realized this, I asked until I could hardly breathe.

"Calm down, don't be alarmed. I'm just taking your mother to get her wound cleaned," she said in a calm manner. “In a few weeks you can bring your mother home.”

"go home? My mother is so sick that she cannot be cured. Do I have to take her to someone at home to take care of her?” I asked impatiently. Even though my mother looked normal. But why can it be like this? Or because my mother was stressed about my hair, causing my symptoms to worsen.

"No, I mean in a few weeks your mother will be fine."

Because of the events of that day, I got to know the nurse who took care of my mother. Always watching over her as she took care of my mother. Take care of other patients And...take care of me sometimes. Within a few weeks of getting to know each other You come in and change the dull blue sky to look bright. Like a light that gives warmth

Because of this, I have chosen you to be my wife, my life partner, and I believe that you will definitely never make me regret it.

And I really didn't choose the wrong person.

“Why did you walk here alone? Where did you go from just now?” my future wife asked as soon as she saw me walking back alone. I smiled at her attentiveness. Because of this, I can't let her go to anyone.

“I've gone back. Go take your child home."

“I thought Rit had chased away the guests already.”

“Do you see what kind of person I am?”

"Um...it's just a grumpy idiot who misunderstood that your mother had an incurable disease. Keekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk I have loved with all my heart. Because of you, I was able to overcome the pain. Her laugh and smile made me smile. She is like someone who brings happiness into my life again.

"Don't be kidding, I didn't know at the time."

“Okay, no kidding. Then let's go into the wedding, all the guests have arrived.” I walked hand in hand with the person who will be my wife in a few minutes and entered the wedding. Walking on the path that the two of us will create together She is someone who will never let me down. And so do I. Our love clock will never stop ticking until the clock itself breaks. We'll be together until the last second.

End  Special Rit’s  part

The last gift box... From Mr. Phakin, his 'older brother' who did not attend his wedding. Rueangrit opened the box and found a green-covered notebook that, if I remember correctly, he gave to Phakin a long time ago. ‘Why did you give it back?’ I could only look at it in surprise. But when I opened it and looked inside, I understood.

Every page had a picture of him and Phakhin along with a caption that would have made me feel a bit embarrassed if it were before. There are some solo pictures, some couples, some in sequence, a good story between him and that older brother. Rueangrit opened page after page, every picture and every event flashing back into his memory. Until the last page that had only scribbled, hard-to-read handwriting on it...

To Mr. Rueangrit Siripanich

Thank you for coming into my life and creating so many good memories. Even though our love clock has stopped ticking But I hope that Rit's love clock will continue to run. Congratulations, little brother is on our side now. I hope Rita has a good love life. and apologized for not being able to attend the event

When I have free time, I will take my children to visit. I have a younger sibling to come play with as my little bastard's friend quickly.

P.S. The content may seem a little strange. In fact, I planned to give it as a gift for our third anniversary. But it turned out to be Rit's wedding present instead. Don't worry, I'm not asking for us to go back to the way we used to be.

With love

Brother Tono

Rueangrit smiled at the last message from his brother. It felt good that at least we were apart on good terms and there was nothing left behind. Phakin must continue on his way. As for Rueangrit himself, he must go his own way. Even though it cannot be returned to the way it was before But we still have good wishes for each other as brothers.

They must move on...

Have you ever been in love? What do you compare your love to?

My love is like a clock.

that has the feelings of two people pushing the needle to move every second

And when someone's feelings disappear..that clock won't run any longer..forever.

Even in the end, the old love clock stops ticking. But my life clock keeps ticking.

To carry new batteries that will push the clock hands to move again.

And what is your love clock like?

Special part has arrived.

May be a little dizzy due to lack of sleep.

It's finally over. Our short fic for 1 year haha

Thank you for reading this Dong Khem fic until the end.

Thank you for all your support, views, comments, fans.

I hope that if I open up the next story, there will still be people who trust me and read it, hehe.

-Mekakurin-