Missing you...

"Brother Kevin, it's... I like you. Can you date me?"

I still remember my words from that day well. The day I decided to propose to Kevin after my date with Chunji caused me the most pain. - Niel

"Um, okay, Niall. Ah... Do you know how happy I am?"

I still remember the day Niel asked to date me. It's very satisfying, you know? It's like all the happiness comes from me alone - Kevin.

"I don't love you, Niall..."

I still remember the words I told Niel that day. It caused him a lot of pain. I didn't mean to, Niel.. I'm sorry. – Chunji

:) Shalunla

“Chunji, let's go on a trip today. I want to be with you all day today.” As soon as his phone connected to the next number, The tall man hurriedly invited the person on the other end of the line to go out together.

'I'm sorry, Niall. I'm busy today and have to tutor Changjo.'

But on the other end of the line he refused, causing people here to frown in a very bad mood. Again, this bear boy again!

“No, let's go on a trip. I'll just tutor that bear."

'You idiot Niel. He's about to take the exam!'

Chunji began to raise his voice on the line. Making the listener shocked that the other party raised their voice. Even though normally when invited to go anywhere, I don't see him ever refusing. His brows furrowed a little but he tried not to be impressed by anything, but replied in a low voice.

"Okay...then maybe another day. Bye."

'Bye Niel'

After disconnecting the call The tall figure could only stare at the phone screen that was now off. Before he could think of anything else in his head, he quickly picked up his jacket and walked out of the room. The tall figure headed towards Chunji's condo room. I planned to go and surprise another person. Along the way, he walked in a good mood until he stopped in front of the room.

His hand raised, hoping to knock and call someone in the room, but changed his mind and twisted the knob on the white door instead. It appeared that it...was not locked. His hot tongue calmly licked his lower lip before slowly opening the door with the slightest sound.

“Chunji-hyung, I think I like you.” Long-legged stopped his steps as soon as he heard a loud voice coming from the living room. I could hardly believe my ears. The tall figure hurriedly crept closer to the living room. Until now, he hid behind the doorless entrance of the living room. Makes you see what's going on in the living room.

Chunji was now sitting red-faced on the sofa with Changjo on the floor below him. Armrests and a low table were looking at Chunji's face. Before Chunji could answer The tall figure came out of hiding and showed himself first.

“Neel!/Brother Niel!”

“Changjo, what did you say just now?!” His appearance made the two of them look shocked. Changjo quickly stood up and turned towards him. Niel slowly stepped closer to his taller junior without the slightest fear.

“Niel, what are you going to do?” Chunji saw his bad posture and hurriedly stood up from the sofa and rushed over to grab his arm. Changjo's expression was shocked to see Niel looking so angry.

“Just now I heard this kid say he likes you!”

“That's right! And why are you angry at Niel?” Chunji doesn't understand why Niel would be angry at Changjo. He likes it. When the two of them are nothing to each other...

“Well...” The person in front of him's question seemed to make Niel mute for a moment. That's why he was angry when someone said he liked Chunji. That's because Chunji must be his!

“I love you, Chunji. You can't like Changjo.” Niel had said it. The words he should have said long ago seemed too late. When uncertainty gnaws at the hearts of those who wait. Makes a weak heart need someone, and Chunji's heart has already been given to Changjo. Niall is too slow...

“Niel, you…” Chunji's sweet face shook, not understanding why Niel said it now. When his heart wasn't for Niel anymore

“I don't love you, Niel...” Chunji said before walking to stand beside Changjo. A thin hand slipped into Changjo's thick hand. This just reinforces that Niel is a loser. Lost because of my own stupidity in not being able to protect my own heart.

“You lied to me, right Chunji? You don't like Changjo. You like me too?” Right now, he could feel his own eyes heating up. His hands clenched into tight fists until his knuckles were white. I felt pain in the palm of my hand, but it wasn't as painful as the one inside my left chest.

“If it were before Niel But right now, the person I like is Changjo. Did you hear that? I like Changjo!” Chunji's eyes started to water a bit. Trying to tell Ninel to cut it off. But Niel is a determined person and never gives in to anyone. He refused to believe that everything had changed now. Chunji is no longer the same.

Changjo, who stood silently, could only squeeze his hand to encourage the person beside him. If Chang Jo said anything right now, there would definitely be a catastrophic incident. So he chose to stay silent and stand next to Chunji like this.

“Okay... Okay, I understand.” Tears were about to flow from Niall's sharp eyes. He didn't want Chunji to see his tears of pain. The tall figure hurriedly walked out of the room. Long Legs hurriedly walked towards the elevator and when he got in, tears overflowed.

“Niel, what's wrong? Can you tell me?” asked the thin figure of Kevin, a senior who had just joined the club when he saw Niel sitting quietly staring at the piano keys with his fingertips pressed down. Lose it.

“Ah, it's nothing, Brother Kevin.” The tall man turned to look at the source of the voice before shaking his head and smiling. And he regained his senior's bright smile. A bright smile that makes you unable to stop thinking of someone else...

“Will Niall play the piano? I want to play,” he said and sat down next to him. Before the slender, beautiful fingers of the thin senior began to play the sweet song that he liked on the piano. Niel's determined eyes and happy smile made him unable to help but secretly glance at him. Chunji's image suddenly overlapped with the person in front of him.

He let it be like that. It might seem selfish, but it made him happier on a day of suffering like this.

He had always tried to develop a relationship with Kevin. Because Kevin looks so much like Chunji. Until maybe Kevin will be able to make him love and forget Chunji. Since the days when the seniors joined the club, they have become the closest seniors and today is the day Niel made an appointment for Kevin to meet at the music club room. When Kevin came in, he met Niel who was already waiting at the big white piano.

“Wait a long time, Niall? Hurry and come here." Someone gasped. Slender hands supporting his knees, indicating how quickly he ran. Niel smiled at the childishness of the person in front of him, even though he was his senior. But you have to wait for him to remind you and always take care of you. A tall figure rose from his chair and walked towards the person who was still standing and panting.

A strong hand led the thin figure to walk to sit in the chair first. It will be a rest.

“Calm down, Brother Kevin. I'd rather wait for you to recover from your exhaustion and then I'll speak.” His long arm was raised and folded over his chest, waiting for the other person to recover from his exhaustion. No need to wait, Kevin's curiosity seemed to overcome his exhaustion.

“I'm tired now. Niall, do you have something to say to me?” His sweet face looked up at the person standing at his full height in front of him. But Niel suddenly sat down on one knee in front of him. and said things that made Kevin smile uncontrollably.

"Brother Kevin, I... I like you. Can you date me?" A thick hand grabbed Kevin's thin hand and held it. His sharp eyes stared at the face of the person sitting in the chair in front of him who now had a happy smile on his face.

"Oh, okay, Niall. Ah... Do you know how happy I am?" His slender arms tightly hugged the person sitting in front of him. He is the happiest now. Until I don't know if there will ever be a time that is as happy as this time.

“Why are you crying?” Niel felt a wet tear drop on his shoulder. A thick hand rose and caressed the head of the man in his arms. before pretending to rock her body back and forth like a lullaby to a little child

"I'm happy, hehe." A thin hand slammed into the shoulder of the person who liked to tease him. before hugging even tighter Niel pushed Kevin away so he could stare into his eyes. and held the thin hand with both hands

“If you are happy, why are you crying? I will take good care of you, I promise.” His smile was fake to show that he was happy too. Even though he couldn't love Kevin, But I want him to be happy with the image he created. He will try to find Chunji in Kevin. But if there isn't any

That day he will stop hurting the person in front of him and let go of this person...

“Niall, try this scent. Does it smell good?” One afternoon, Kevin invited his younger lover to help him buy a new perfume. Because Kevin actually wanted to wear the perfume Niel liked. Everyone wants to make themselves loved by their lovers.

“I think the smell is a bit strong. I'd rather use a mild scent." After sniffing the perfume from the test strip that the thin man handed to me, Niel also looked at the list of scents on the perfume bottles that were lined up in the store. Before his eyes stumbled upon a perfume bottle with a very familiar shape.

“May I try that scent?” he pointed to a silver and yellow apple-shaped perfume bottle. The store employee brought some test paper for him to smell. This perfume is the scent that Chunji uses. He still remembers the scent that lingered in his nostrils when they were near each other. A scent he could never forget.

“Where would you like to try some?” Kevin took the test paper and smelled it for himself. before smiling Some people seem to like this scent. too It's a light fragrance that hides a sweetness. Refreshes with fruity scent. But I still don't dare buy it because I don't know if the other person will like it or not.

"Oh, it smells good. What do you think, Niall?"

“I like it.”

"This is the perfume of

DKNY

It's the name of the scent.

DKNY Be Delicious Eau de Parfum”

The store employee told the couple the name of the scent.

“'Then take this bottle,' Kevin bought it almost immediately as Niel liked the scent. The store employee placed the perfume bottle into its own box, placed it in a luxury bag with the store's logo, and handed it to Kevin, who was waiting to pay, but Niel stopped him.

“No need, Brother Kevin. I'll buy it for you myself.” He smiled at the person next to him before taking out the money from his own pocket and paying for it instead. A strong hand received the bag before holding another's hand and they walked out of the store.

“Shall we go get something to eat? I'm hungry." The tall man turned to tell Kevin and rubbed his stomach, showing that he was very hungry right now. Kevin could only smile at Lee's cute expression before pulling his hand again to follow behind him.

"Then let's go. I'll take you to a restaurant to eat. It's very delicious." A scared face turned to look at him before intending to pull him along. That way he could only look after Kevin. The back he likes to look at because it's like Chunji's. Where does Cheonji want to go? Whatever you want to do, you will like dragging and pulling together. And there was never a time that Niel wouldn't follow that lead.

“Uncle Kevin, let's go see a movie in my room today.” Now the two of them were sitting in the music club room, today Niel was sitting and waiting for Kevin to practice the piano as usual. When he saw that Kevin had finished practicing and was gathering his things, he invited him to sit in his room.

"Um, okay. Do you want to go now or are you going to eat first?"

“I already have food in my room so you can eat it in my room,” Niall said before helping Kevin carry his bag and the pair headed out. Along the way there was only laughter. Kevin is a lovely, bright person. Always care about those around you. He always says funny things to Niel because of this. Because Kevin is too similar to Chunji that Niel can't erase Chunji from his heart.

A large, wide flat screen television was showing blockbuster movies from foreign countries. Opposite was a sofa where the two of them were eating popcorn and watching a movie. Niel's long arms wrapped around Kevin's thin waist. With a full mouth, he kept munching on the popcorn that Kevin gave him. Niall likes to hug Kevin. Always loved the smell of the perfume he bought for Kevin.

When a romantic movie progresses to the end Of course, the important scene of the story would not be the warm kissing scene of the hero and heroine. Niel could see that Kevin's cheeks lit up when he saw the kissing scene in the movie.

“Do you want to try kissing like in the movies?” Niall asked before turning to look at the person leaning in his arms. Kevin, whose cheeks were now red all the way to his ears, hugged the popcorn bowl tightly. It was such a cute picture that I wanted to press my nose hard against those red cheeks.

“Are you crazy?” Kevin kept his head down until his chin was close to his chest. A strong hand gently lifted the other man's chin up. Sharp eyes tried to stare deep into the figure's clear eyes, but he saw that these clear eyes belonged to Chunji instead. The eyes that he misses The eyes that he wanted so much that he couldn't stop himself from pressing a kiss to her thin lips.

The hot tongue gently caressed the lips without invading until the other person also opened the way to come and taste the sweetness within. Until it seemed like the other party couldn't catch his breath before Niel pulled away. But what he missed was not the person in front of him, but now it was someone else. Guilt filled his heart until Niel had to stop his actions.

"I'm sorry..." Bring your thoughts and yourself back to where you were before. Now he didn't dare to meet the eyes of the person next to him. Kevin seemed to know exactly what was going on. Some people pushed themselves out of their arms and sat looking at the person in front of them with unreadable eyes.

“Can Niall tell you? What's wrong with you?" A hand was placed on the front of the leg of the person who was sitting with his head bowed. He didn't understand the other person's attitude, which was so strange.

“Brother Kevin, I'm sorry. I can't forget him. Everything pours in His image overlapped with yours.”

“I try to love you because you are similar to him. Very similar in almost everything I try to love you in case one day I might forget him..."

”But no, the closer I get to you. The more I miss him, I'm bad, I'm selfish…” In the end, I couldn't stop it. Niel's tears were flowing.

“I... want to stop hurting you. But how can I do it? If you don't have him I...can't stand it.” The tears that flowed out even though there was no sound, the more there were no sobs, the more painful it felt. Kevin could only take the other person and hug him tightly. I admit that it was heartbreaking to know that another person didn't love him for who he was.

Will Niel let go of him? And how can Niel endure being alone?

"I can bear it. I love you. Can I just be beside you?" A slender hand caressed the wide back. I feel pain all over my heart.

But if you let go of Niel and have to endure seeing Niel suffer. He would be in even more pain. At least he had been the one who had pulled Niel up from his sorrow and pain. Therefore, he will be the one who will keep Niel's smile no matter how much it hurts...