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Closeness

Pairing: Gongchan x Sandeul

Auther: imeffa

"Come on, rest for an hour."

Our dance teacher shouted loudly in the practice room. We hurriedly fell to the ground, completely exhausted, as if we had jerked the rope. After practicing dancing to the songs of the new album for nearly three hours straight, exhaustion spread into every part of my body until I wanted to run home and jump into the soft bed to lose myself.

“Just now, my dancing was wrong in several places.” Chinwoo hyung got up from the floor. He reached for a cool cloth in the corner of the room and handed it to me, who was still rolling around on the parquet floor. I nodded in acceptance. I only smiled teasingly.

“Do you agree?”

“There are two of them. Not Gongchan and Sandeul There's a dance competition going on wrongly.” Chinwoo hyung laughed in good spirits. while frowning at the other person who had just been mentioned. I turned to look at a man with jet black hair in casual clothes and a white T-shirt who was rolling around like a worm stretching in front of the mirror. While complaining here and there to Stylist Noona, her voice was so muffled that she couldn't hear the words.

So I could only smile and shake my head weakly before continuing.

"Well, the new song is really difficult to deal with."

"Take it before practice. I'll teach you again."

“Thank you,” I said gratefully. Chinwoo hyung smiled at Rao and replied that it was okay. before turning away to the other side of the room It wasn't until I was able to push myself up to stand up and do what I intended. His entire body was hit by another person who rolled around from another corner of the room on purpose.

push!

“Someone was gossiping about us just now!” The culprit who just attacked me said in an annoyed voice. “Damn, I'm far away, but I can hear you.”

Sandeul bared his teeth. Acting like a hobo who was too big for his body, so different from his normal behavior that I couldn't resist, turned around, reached out and pinched those chubby cheeks hard.

Be persistent..

“Ah, it hurts,” the other party shouted. “Gongchan Sadist,” his pinkish, freckled lips turned down in annoyance. looked at me expectantly It's not yet time for me to say anything else. He began to move, trying to make arrangements to move to lie on the floor next to each other.

"This time I'm really tired. My knees hurt."

The person next to me moaned breathlessly as he sighed and looked up at the floating ceiling. “That's a difficult position.”

“Oh..” I smiled mischievously. “If a pose is difficult, don't do a difficult pose. Just take the ordinary pose.”

“It's not such a difficult position!!” Sandeul's brother shouted loudly. He grabbed the haunted duck pillow next to him and hit me hard. Made me laugh out loud in the practice room. Sandeul hyung burst out laughing too. They lay down together as usual.

“I'm hungry,” I snorted. “This week, I've gained three kilos and Stylist Noona is complaining, haven't I?”

“Quiet,” Sandeul hyung made a sound of annoyance in his throat. But he continued speaking in an indirect tone, as if accepting my accusatory sentence.

“People are growing up. I don't understand at all..”

“Uncle, you've been growing up for a long time. Fat duck.” I laughed heartily. Because I know that the other party will definitely scream or curse me every time. Which is as true as you think. As soon as the word "fat" was dropped, which is like a forbidden keyword. Sandeul hyung jumped up and stood up from his friend. Turned around and shouted loudly at me.

“Gongchan!”

Ag!

"Hoy! Thap Mai!”

I shrieked. When it was hit by another person, it jumped hard. and tossed and tossed and tossed and refused to stop. Plus there's no way to listen to me. Because the more you speak, the more it seems. He quickly threw his weight on top of me. while laughing loudly with satisfaction

"Come say I'm fat. Wait a minute. Father will crush me to death. This is it! Die!”

"Hey, hey, hey, hey, go out."

I screamed, pushing and shoving. The other person still refused to get up. Until I had to call out to the remaining hyungs for help.

“Jinyoung hyung, Baro hyung, Shinwoo hyung, please help!”

But other people, instead of coming to help, stood and laughed. P'Baro even picked up his phone and took pictures for fun. When he said "Oh, say, cheese," he would quickly run away to the corner of the room. Typing something cursily on the phone alone Probably upload the picture to Twitter or fan cafe. any way

Uh.. Brother Baro, I accept. Come back and help me first!! _!!!

“You're not small, Sandeul. Hey, you're a fat duck! Let me go.”

“Who is fat?!”

Oh..Shit, Gong Chan Shik _

Sandeul hyung stared at me sternly like a hobo in an alleyway. He didn't have time to call out to the other staff for help or turn around and flee. The fat duck immediately leapt up and used both hands to put an end to my weak point.

“Two Hands Killer, Kill Gong Chanshik!!”

He tickles me!!

"Hoy!! Hahahaha, no, hey!! Hahaha let go..hahahaha.”

I squirmed because I was being tickled so hard. while trying his best to ward off the other's hand.

“Heh heh heh.. Please make up for the karma that you did to this Sandeul-sama.”

“Stop it.. Haha Sandeul hyung.. Hahahaha oh.”

“Damn it!!!”

I was laughing hysterically uncontrollably. Those little hands moved and curled knowingly even though they were still lying on top of me. I started laughing so much that I felt pain all over my stomach. I could only shout and not speak the language.

Being fat isn't enough, it's still evil! (I can only say this sentence in my heart..)

“Hahahaha, let me go.”

“No!”

Sandeul hyung brought his face closer to a distance that shocked me. Brown eyes held a child's satisfaction, staring into the depths without fear.

“Is the tingle gone yet?”

A small smile appeared at the corner of another's mouth.

It was several minutes before I felt his hot breath rhythmically brushing my face.

That made me conscious.

That we are too close to each other..

“Uncle Sandeul”

I said in a low voice and stopped laughing. The other party stopped as if surprised. I slowly pushed my small body away and got up from the ground. Sandeul-hyung just looked at me confused as to why the play between the two of us ended so quickly. He opened his mouth to ask, but I answered in his usual cheerful tone.

"Let's go eat now. We've been playing around. It's almost time for a break!"

Not good at all.. too close like that.. Not good at all

I glanced at the person next to me who was walking side by side right now. Then secretly sighed quietly

Yes, it's really not good..

After we stopped playing for a while I invited the rest of the unnies to come out to eat instead of eating stuffed food in the practice room like before. Plus there is still a lot of rest time left. We walked slowly on the familiar road. which is now quiet and deserted by people Because the time had passed, it was almost 2:00 a.m. The road was eerily quiet.

Only the lights from a few lampposts were bright. Enough to make it difficult to see the way and walk anywhere. But because we often walk out to eat in this area, we know the way very well. Walk down the street for a few blocks. I found a cart selling udon on the side of the road. An old restaurant where we always go out to eat.

“Do it the same way, Auntie,” Brother Chinwoo said as always. The vendor nodded and smiled knowingly before turning around and preparing the udon. So we started to reserve seats. But because the shop is a small shop So there were only five or nine chairs, exactly the same number of people. It's a long row of counter seats.

I don't know if it's a custom or something that every time we come to eat, we never change seats once. The first two times might have been a coincidence, but as time passed, We do it out of habit. I was seated on the far right. Which on my left hand every time is Sandeul hyung..

The fat duck that nearly killed me just now_

“The wind is cool and it looks like it's about to rain,” P'Baro said as he looked up at the sky. Even though the sky was completely dark, we could see the dark clouds forming a rain shadow. Combined with the cool wind blowing, it was widely known that within an hour it would definitely rain.

“Here,” Jinyoung hyung reached out to take the bowl of udon from the vendor and turned to hyung Sandeul. “Has the knee that I complained of pain healed yet?”

“Oh, not yet.” The other person smiled wryly. The conversation just now made me turn around and ask in confusion because I had never heard of it before.

“Sandeul-hyung has knee pain? Since when?” I glanced at the other person's knee and realized that it had been wrapped in elastic for a week without me noticing at all.

Yes...that's true. I have heard him complain many times about his pain but it never bothered me.

My eyebrows furrowed in confusion until the other person had to quickly smile and deny.

“The pain has been there for a while. But it's really no big deal.” Sandeul shrugged, seeing it as a small matter. But I still heard the next sentence that he murmured in a low voice, intending to speak to himself. “But just now I was dancing. I feel the same pain..”

“Then why don't you go see a doctor?!” I blurted out.

“Hey, don't be harsh, I told you it's really okay.” Sandeul's mouth pursed. But I still insist on arguing.

“This pain for a week is no small matter.”

“It'll get better soon.”

“We're not like everyone else, bro.” I changed into a stressed voice. I'm a little angry that he doesn't care about his own health like this. “You have to dance and walk every day. If you suddenly fall while dancing, what do you do? Isn't this worse? Plus, if you leave it alone, it might become serious to the point where you won't be able to run at all.”

“Wow, is this your younger brother or is it your father?” Brother Baro's voice teased from the chair next to him. The person whose body shrunk to the smallest size because of being scolded could easily complain.

“Oh, Gongchan is really cruel.”

“Sandeul hyung,” my tone said that I didn't find it funny at all. "Please don't make me worry.."

The other party was speechless after listening to my plea. Several seconds passed before Sandeul hyung finally raised his hands in surrender.

“Okay,” he sighed, “Let's just finish eating and go buy some painkillers at the mini-mart first. Then I'll go see the doctor on Sunday. Is that okay, Dad?"

Because of this, after finishing eating udon After the other seniors asked to be separated and returned to the company first. I walked beside Sandeul slowly, not leaving his side, following him out onto the still dark road. Until another person complained

"Why are you following me? I'm just going to buy medicine."

“I knew it would be crooked,” I said knowingly. “So I had to follow and take control.”

“Huh!”

And it is true that The small figure stomped its feet with a grunt and hurried to walk in front of me, not waiting for me as soon as he realized that his own devious plan had failed. I laughed happily chasing after me until I heard cursing coming from the people in front of me.

Like the fat duck, it's true that he can eat anything. But with medicine, I see it as a bad thing. If you eat it, you'll die every time. When I'm sick, I like to brag about not going to the doctor often, complaining that it's bitter and that I have to just put it in my mouth before I'm willing to eat it.

The two of us continued walking without saying anything. Even if you walk deep into an alley that is starting to look unfamiliar to you The light poles that lined the side of the road became less and less visible until it was hard to see the road. But I thought that the other party probably knew the way to the minimart that I was going to, so I didn't say anything. Until a long time had passed when we had walked quite a distance. A small voice asked.

“So where is this minimart? Gongchan..”

"look for? _ ?”

I turned to look at Brother Sandeul in disbelief. Those clear eyes looked at me innocently. “You know the way, don't you?”

"Hoy!! I don't know!”

It's broken..

“I think you know where the mini-mart is..” I said, hoping the other person was joking. But Sandeul hyung quickly refused and ruined my hopes and I fell down with a loud thud!

"Hoy! How was I supposed to know? I know where there used to be a minimart around here,” Sandeul answered with confusion. Before I could open my eyes, I didn't blink when I realized what was wrong.

The two of us looked at the completely strange scenery around us and had to swallow.. I'm really not familiar with it. A dark atmosphere enveloped the whole place. There were no bustling shops like the ones we walked past. Even the houses that lined up were abandoned. Looking into the house, there was only darkness.

It's like we walked into a housing development that was closed down for a year because of a bad location. No living things, quiet.. very quiet..

There isn't even a sign with a number on this road..

Did I just slip into the third dimension?!

“Fuck, Gongchan,” Sandeul hyung swallowed hard.

...No need to tell you, right now it's just the two of us.

“We've lost our way!!”

That's right!! _ !!

I rubbed my head for trusting Sandeul hyung too much. How could you forget that Sandeul hyung knew where and where? Just going back and forth to the company and not getting lost is great. And the matter of remembering the way back, I can forget.

“What should I do, Gongchan..” Sandeul hyung moved closer and tugged at my shirt. Those round eyes looked frighteningly at the dark and silent surroundings. I looked for a moment, stunned. Before I can't stand it He reached out and gently rubbed his head.

“It's okay. Did Sandeul hyung bring his phone? In case we can call Brother Manager to tell him."

The person next to me looked up and shook his head, pursed his lips like he was about to cry. "Forgot..put it in the practice room."

A real crisis.. I sigh

“I forgot to bring it.”

Sandeul's brother kept walking in. His voice began to tremble, "What should I do? I don't know if there are any thieves around here or not.. Plus..ghost.”

Stunned!!!

"Hoy!!"

A small figure hugged me in shock.

"What's that sound, Gongchan? Huh? If you don't want it, I'll go home."

Building building..

"Hey, I'm scared."

A muffled cry came from a small figure who hurriedly pressed his face against my chest out of fear. He closed his eyes and refused to look up at his surroundings. Both hands still hugged tightly like a defenseless person.

Building building.. Building building..

It's bad..

I looked down at the small figure in my arms. The fragrant pink scent that he likes to use wafts up to his nose.

It's bad..

Building building..building building..building..

“It's nothing.” The voice I uttered was stammering, as if it wasn't my own. I turned to look at the source of the loud voice a moment ago and spoke out to put the other person at ease. “L..The wind blew down the old mailbox of the house next door.”

Sandeul, who was still in his embrace, slowly raised his head to look at me.

Those brown eyes..

"Really?"

It's already very close..

"Uh.. Turn around and take a look."

I slowly and politely pulled myself away from the other person. Sandeul turned to look at the abandoned house next to him that was not too far away from us. I was relieved when I saw the mailbox that had toppled over because of the wind a moment ago. He breathed a sigh of relief. He raised his hand and scratched his head and spoke in an indirect tone.

“Easy, I accidentally jumped and hugged Gongchan.”

That sweet smile was sent to me. With eyes that shine brightly every time

“Gongchan?”

“Let's just walk along the path.” I changed the subject. “Maybe you'll find a familiar path.”

“..Oh, okay.”

Sandeul hyung nodded in acknowledgment even though his expression looked like he had something he wanted to say. But the other party decided to remain silent and not speak.

I walked ahead of the other party, keeping a considerable distance. We slowly walked along various paths and alleys. Even though it looks unfamiliar But it's enough to start feeling your way around. At least I was relieved that we were starting to walk into an area with more power poles. It's not as gloomy as it was a moment ago.

But strangely, neither of us said a single word.

abundantly..

abundantly..

The sound of thunder rang out. The wind blew so hard that I had to stop and look up at the sky.

“Too bad..”

"What's up?"

“Sandeul hyung.. run!!!”

Fizzy!!!

The rain that chased the elephants poured down from the sky in a violent and reckless manner. I turned around and grabbed the other person's wrist and ran without giving Sandeul any time. The rain that fell hard even though it was heavy hurts. It also made my vision very blurry. Can hardly see the way But the two of us held hands and ran through without any choice.

The wind was blowing so hard that a chilling sensation gripped my entire body. His whole body couldn't help but tremble.

“No.. I can't take it anymore.”

Brother Sandeul said in a breathless voice. Shaking my hand away, I took a rest in the middle of the road. Even though the rain still falls unexpectedly His body, which was soaked all over, was panting. Both hands on knees, expression showing pain.

“Its knees..”

Grab

I grabbed his whole body and rode him on my back. Until another person shouted, "Hey!"

"I'm carrying you myself."

Then I started running through the line again, while another person silently wrapped both hands around my neck. Brace yourself so you don't fall.

Who knew that my heart was more agitated than the raindrops that were raging right now?

We were lucky to return the same way shortly after the rain started. I began to see familiar shops lined up again. Without waiting, I hurriedly ran to find shelter from the rain. They relied on an awning from one of the closed shops for cover. It stuck out enough that it didn't get too wet. Sandeul hyung slowly lowered himself to the ground. Then he sat down next to me on the sidewalk.

“Very unlucky, not getting lost enough, encountering rain again,” the small figure grumbled out of habit. I only smiled a little and didn't answer. before glancing at the pale, paper-like face of the person next to him Raindrops coated his entire body, soaking wet. His body trembled slightly, making him look pitiful.

Sandeul is a person who gets sick easily..

I decided to take off the jacket I accidentally wore. Bring it to cover the other person to help keep it cool. Sandeul looked up at me in surprise before speaking.

"Aren't you cold?"

“It's okay,” I smiled, “You just wear it, or you'll get sick.”

“So you won't get sick yourself?” Another person stubbornly said.

“I'm dying, let's put it on.”

“Then let's wear them together?” Sandeul hyung smiled brightly when he realized he had a better idea. I moved to sit closer until our arms were close together. Change position to hug your knees. Then he casually covered both of us with our jackets.

“Gongchan won't get cold either, right?”

We are close again..

Too close to each other..

"It's okay, I'm not cold." I moved away like always. But this time, another person grabbed my wrist so loudly that I was shocked.

“What's wrong, Gongchan?”

Sandeul's face clearly had a look of disappointment on his face.

"What are you angry about? Why are you like this now?"

“What kind.. what kind?”

“Why do you have to distance yourself? If you did something wrong, why didn't you tell me? Why can't we play together like before? Why? Gongchan, what did you do wrong.. Can you tell me? Why has it changed so much?”

Complaining words poured out from the other party until I was startled..

Sandeul takes everything and thinks too much. without ever saying it once

In the brown eyes that used to shine brightly Now there are tears in the unit's eyes with sadness. Those delicate hands still wouldn't let me walk away.

“Since that practice room It was the same back then. Why do I have to move away every time I'm near? What do you hate me so much? What did you do to make Gongchan unhappy? Can you tell me? Where did you go wrong?”

I've never done anything wrong..

"do not have anything.."

It's me who is at fault.

“What is nothing? Do we really have to continue like this? You can't go back to the way you were before, right?”

Sandeul hyung angrily wiped away the tears that fell casually. Those beautiful eyes had a mixture of regret, disappointment, and anger mixed in them, tears welling up in their eyes. He stared deep into my eyes as if searching for the answer hidden within.

Has been hidden for a long time.. For many years, more than anyone else knows.

"You're really not going to answer me, are you?"

“Okay.” Sandeul hyung made a move to walk away. But it was me who quickly grabbed his wrist and stopped him from going anywhere.

A pair of beautiful eyes looked back at me as if not understanding.

Those eyes that I'm so infatuated with..

It makes my feelings go back.. A very long time ago

It's been so long.. that I can't remember when it started.

Since when?

“Gongchan~”

Since when did I start wanting to be close to someone?

"Hey, no, no, don't play, Gongchan, no, don't play, sign out!"

Since when? I began to be happy with the little things that the other party offered to me.

"Hey, have you eaten yet? Let's go eat with my friend. I'm lonely."

Since when have I only seen him?

“Who were you secretly looking at just now? I see them looking this way all the time. It gives me goosebumps. I thought there was a ghost behind me!”

Since when has my heart been boiling with anger for someone?

“Ngh, it hurts, Gongchan, give me a blow, it hurts.”

Since when? that those feelings gradually accumulated Until I realize It was already overflowing.

There was so much that I was afraid..

“Gongchan.. no, hehe.. don't be like this. I want everything to go back to the way it was before.” The little body sobbed and cried like a child. When I refused to say a single word Sandeul hyung reached out and shook my arm, demanding an answer.

The rain stopped a long time ago..

Only the road surface remains. with the sound of raindrops lingering on the trees The drops hit the ground with a soft sound.

I stared aimlessly ahead.

I don't even know what I'm looking at.

But I couldn't stand looking at those eyes. With what I decide to say from now on

“It has never been the same for a long time..”

“Why Gongchan? Why.. Huh?”

“I never want to be near you,” I hissed hoarsely. Sandeul hyung froze when he heard the words he heard. Deep sorrow appeared unconcealed.

“I have to walk away every time we get too close.”

“Why..”

"Why?" My voice was so soft I could hardly hear it. I could only smile with self-pity.

And I don't even know when I turned around to look at the other person.

“Do you hate me or something?” Sandeul's eyes began to swell. Sugar still drips out unexpectedly.

I reached out and gently wiped it away. Away from the face

You're really not suitable for crying.

"nothing"

“Then why..”

I unconsciously moved my face closer.. Until the two of us were only an arm's length apart

It's intimacy. That I've always avoided

"Because I'm afraid you'll find out.."

“You know how fast my heart beats when I'm near you.”

Then I bent down and pressed my lips to those thin lips that I longed for slowly and gently, like the air mist that was floating at this moment.. It's like he's going to answer everything. Everything that other people wonder about..

Let another person know

That there was never even a single second.

..that I don't love him

THE END