Meet, fall in love, say goodbye, grieve, move on, just say these words. Images of someone I had a relationship with floated into my head. It is normal that when we meet, there must be goodbye. Whether in friendly relationships or relationships in the form of lovers
The first time meeting the face of a former lover. I didn't feel like he stood out. At that time, he was just a classmate. We talked very little. He was a normal-looking young man but charming in his own way. His eyebrows, eyes, and nose were in perfect harmony. His height was about 173 centimeters, which was considered a standard height for boys.
He is considered to be a very tall man.
In Thai language class in Mathayom 6, Term 1, I accidentally drew a lottery and sat next to her. I secretly felt a little regretful that I wasn't sitting next to a friend of the same sex. But it is considered a good opportunity to get to know other friends more. I remember that she was also nervous to know that I was sitting next to her.
I believe that you also don't want to sit next to me.
She tried to talk to me in an awkward manner to reduce the awkwardness between us. The image of a boy wearing glasses with innocent eyes trying to strike up a conversation with a confused question about why is still engraved in my mind. It seems like he doesn't talk much with friends of the opposite sex. But being like this is his charm.
Sometimes I'm behind in learning some things. She kept calmly explaining. Not only that She even took time out of her evenings to tutor me instead of resting.
For a long time, the things we talked about were not only about studies. We talk about our personal lives, our interests, our hobbies, and even our dreams. When I asked him what he wanted to study, He answered with a sparkle in his eyes that he wanted to study engineering. During the entrance exam, both of us were stressed. I am not a very good student.
When I saw his intentions, I felt that I had to try to do the same. After school, the two of us would go read books at a cafe. Some at the library Sometimes we go read at someone's house. But I just sat and read in the living room. I didn't do anything excessively.
The two of us went through stressful times. Discouraged together Encourage each other from the reading period, exam period, until the day the exam results are announced. That day we sat and looked at the exam results together. When the results came out, we hugged each other with joy. He passed the Faculty of Engineering exam as he wished. I got into the Faculty of Liberal Arts at the same university.
"Congratulations, you're very talented." I congratulated him from my heart.
“Thank you, you are very talented too. Thank you for making the effort,” he replied with tears of joy on his face.
“Studying at university is the beginning of another chapter in life. We separated to find a new environment, a new society. We weren't sure if this would cause our relationship to grow distant. Even if it's a friend relationship. But I want to be close to you for a long time.” I said indirectly, hinting that I wanted our relationship to continue.
And I don't want to be just friends. But I didn't have the courage to ask to be my girlfriend.
“Do you view us as just friends? But we don't want to be just friends.” He replied with a slight scowl on his face like a petulant child. As I smiled inwardly
"Then I want to be your girlfriend." I opened up to him fully.
"Let's be lovers," he said loudly, excitedly. His face was red with embarrassment.
"Okay, we've been waiting for this moment for a long time." I accepted the girlfriend request right away. Ready to embrace him again Today is another day that I am very happy. I got accepted into the university I wanted to go to and I still became a boyfriend to the person I liked. He was my first love and my first boyfriend.
I've seen many couples break up during university. I'm deeply afraid that I don't want our couple to be like that. It is fortunate that I have a boyfriend who is strong and honest. Of course, when I entered university, many people approached him. His hairstyle and clothes changed to make him look more handsome. Combined with kindness, it is a charm that makes people want to be close to girls.
Many people fell in love with him because of his kindness. Some people aren't sure if they're flirting or just want to be close. But he clearly draws lines in relationships between friends of the opposite gender. Not too kind in some situations
While I have people approaching me as well. But not as much as him Because of my appearance, I look like a wild girl. Even though I'm just keeping a straight face together with the love of solitude Don't like to do activities Therefore, I don't stand out much in the eyes of my friends.
Whether it's during new student activities, exams, or other busy times, we can always find time for each other. After school at the usual time, we spent the evening getting something to eat and chatting. See the atmosphere of the university bustling with people.
Because we are all students and have a middle-class family status. Both weren't very wealthy. There are a few activities that we do together, such as finding something to eat near the university. Visit nearby provinces and eat buffets on occasion. We do the same activities with the same people over and over without getting bored.
I am very happy each time. But I didn't pay much attention. Because I think that no matter what, there will be a chance to meet again.
But then, one day after the second year semester break, just one day We arranged to go to an amusement park to relieve stress from final exams. The weather was very hot that day. She wore a long-sleeved shirt and slacks. I'm wearing a short-sleeved t-shirt and dungarees. The architecture at the amusement parks and rides is beautiful and fun.
She and I took turns taking pictures for fun.
In the picture she looks very manly, but in reality she is really afraid of heights. I really want to ride a roller coaster. And I'm okay with playing alone. I don't want her to have to force herself to play with me. But she chose to face her fears to spend time with me. The touch of the hand that holds me tightly Her screams as the train descended from above still ring in my ears as I remember that day.
After completing the thrilling roller coaster ride We sat and rested for a moment. Then continue rafting to change the atmosphere to be happy with the river. We were thrilled to open up new experiences together, like going back to childhood again.
After spending time together at the amusement park She took the car and dropped me off at the dorm. She hugged me and waved goodbye. Because I will return home to the provinces. While he will be working part-time for a while I hugged with a warm feeling. I think that next semester we will meet again.
“Good night,” I texted him that evening, waited about 2 hours with no response. It was unusual for him to normally reply to chats in a timely manner. But I'm optimistic. I think he must have fallen asleep. In the morning, I might be able to answer the chat.
the next day Several hours had passed. From morning to evening From evening to afternoon I still haven't received a message from him. Didn't even receive a read status message. I kept imagining if something bad had happened to him. Or he had an accident I decided to make several phone calls to him. There was no response.
The status of using various applications does not appear.
I was very worried about him, so I called his mother to ask. It means that he is still fine. Still in regular contact with mother His mother also asked if the two of us were arguing about something. I swallowed the lump in my throat and replied in a hoarse voice. "We didn't argue about anything. Maybe the app has a problem so they can't see my messages. I was just too startled. Thank you very much, mother."
After hanging up the phone, clear water immediately flowed from his eyes. You must really no longer love me. It's a goodbye without saying goodbye. I am typing a message thanking you for everything. I'm sorry I made you unhappy. Even though I don't know what she's upset about with me. But I sincerely want to apologize to you. Thank you for being a good memory for me.
She didn't read the message I sent again. But I believe you probably read it from the notification bar. It was an unfortunate end to the relationship. I can't believe that this happy trip will be the last time we see each other as lovers.
Until now It's been about 2 years, and I don't think about her every day like I did when we ended our relationship. You are still in the depths of your memories. It was a bittersweet relationship during my teenage years.