[ EXO - Fiction ]

'ChanBaek'

 ...Somewhere only we know...

 If you have a minute why don’t we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

‘Cause this could be the end of everything,

So why don’t we go

Somewhere only we know?

- Lilly Allen -

[ EXO - Fiction ]

'ChanBaek'

 ...Somewhere only we know...

 If you have a minute why don’t we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

‘Cause this could be the end of everything,

So why don’t we go

Somewhere only we know?

- Lilly Allen -

Time is passing quietly. The sound of the clock hands tapping is a slow rhythm that matches the steps left and right of both legs. He lowered his eyes and walked towards the old place. I tried to make time go a little slower, but in the end my feet met in front of the same coffee shop.

Inside the shop, it looked quiet like every day, but his heart was beating like never before. Even more, both hands were wet with sweat in the first snow of the day.

Baekhyun is so scared...

A small hand pushed the door in until he heard the jingling of the shop bell. The staff at the counter smiled kindly and familiarly. The old atmosphere flows like a CD playing sweet music in this coffee shop.

Ride along with Baekhyun's memories... Until his eyes stumbled upon a familiar young man. The two legs suddenly stopped as the pair of large eyes in front of them met.

Today is the first snow day in Korea... A day spent mostly by young city dwellers showing their love.

Or asking for love... Baekhyun style

He pursed his lips tightly. Jumped down in front of Park Chanyeol who was already waiting for him. Baekhyun stared deep into his dark eyes. Trying to find the sweet spark in those eyes It won't be long before everything will be revealed...Baekhyun thinks so.

Even if Chanyeol speaks How does Chanyeol argue or try to explain? Chanyeol's expression never lied to him.

If Chanyeol is happy.. That person will laugh.

If Chanyeol is in distress...that person will frown.

If Chanyeol loves Baekhyun...that person will smile.

But now everything is linear. His face was handsome and smooth. The mouth is serrated and pursed tightly. The eyes were empty. Seeing this, Chanyeol's heartbeat became smooth and straight.

There is no thrilling moment. There is no noise. ...like a heartless person

“Chanyeol... do you want something to drink? I'll order it for you...do you want it? ” He clenched his hands tightly, speaking a long sentence. Even though it was a simple sentence, his heart felt like it was being squeezed until it hurt.

“No, you have something to do,” said the person in front of him with a stern voice. Even though he had prepared himself, what must he encounter?

Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes... So he could only sit with his head bowed and avoid his eyes.

“Can we break up..? ” Because today was a good day, he made another person come out...

First snow and asking for first love...returned

He kept his head down. Not making eye contact with the big man Both afraid and afraid... Afraid that the other person would be dissatisfied, afraid that the other person would be extremely angry. Even though we had already agreed that we would not break up. Even though we made a firm promise that we would not use stupid reasons to harm ourselves...

But Chanyeol's words about being apart for a while before that were like breaking up, weren't they...?

Wouldn't it be better if we broke up...?

“Let's break up, Chanyeol,” he repeated. while the other person remained silent His eyes lowered and he stared at the two hands, unmoving.

Chanyeol might not really have feelings...

“It's up to you, I can do it.” He heard a faint sigh from the other party. But it was probably louder than his own heartbeat anyway.

He raised his head as if he had received royal permission. But Chanyeol is truly like a noble person because all this time he respected Chanyeol more than the king of life. Do everything to make another person happy. and love with all my heart

But day by day, that love has been shrinking like it's been swallowed up in a black hole. Chanyeol really took care of him. Our love-like actions over the past four years have made many who know us envious. But day by day, he couldn't feel those feelings at all.

It's like we're playing a big stage show, spoofing society.

Chanyeol's mere actions show that he doesn't want to endure being here for long.. He knows

“Chanyeol... It's not that I don't understand.” Baekhyun suddenly dared to speak. Even though I intended to just walk in and say goodbye. But his damn heart still wants the person in front of him quite a bit.. Even though he was the one who broke up, why does he still want to see Chanyeol here?

Saying it yourself hurts... He didn't understand why he wanted to cry. Even though not a single tear fell on the ground, deep down it was like Baekhyun was drowning in a large puddle of water.

“Have you finished speaking? ” The conversation was abruptly cut off, like someone had put a knife in the middle of my heart.

Two cold, damp hands rested on top of a large one, like they were holding each other together. He didn't squeeze tightly. It was a light touch only to hold Chanyeol back.

“Are you angry at me? I can be angry, but don't do this, Chanyeol. We broke up and we became friends again... I beg you.” The more he saw the reaction of the person in front of him, The next second, he swallowed the word break up in his throat. He shouldn't have uttered a single syllable.

He just still loves me, but he knows that the love we have isn't enough... Was he very wrong to say it?

“I'm not mad at you, Baekhyun. I have never been angry at you... You came in and asked me to be your girlfriend. You had to be the one to break up... It's the most correct thing.” His voice was calm. Doesn't show any emotion or is Chanyeol feeling so much that he doesn't know how to say it?

It's like he's sitting quietly right now... Be quiet to listen to your own heart.

“I'm not worthy of your love... ” Between us right now there is only awkwardness. A cold stare pierced his entire body.

He was lost in thoughts in his head. Review your feelings... He still loves Chanyeol. And then he asked to break up with Chanyeol because if we go back to being friends.. Turn to take care of each other's feelings again or review actions that were once neglected. To recapture some of the forgotten love ...everything might get better

Because we only know what is valuable when we lose it...

He wanted Chanyeol to appreciate him.

But thoughts are just thoughts. The end result is watching another person walk away completely out of sight without expecting them to turn back.

Don't let Chanyeol see this loser here.. Baekhyun was too ashamed to bear it.

He just wanted Chanyeol to understand... It's not that he doesn't love Chanyeol.

Baekhyun is now praying that today will be a good day despite the gloomy atmosphere as rain drops, large and small, fall from the beautiful blue sky.

He stood by the window like every day. Standing and watching the same atmosphere from the same angle, waiting for the same people... to come back.

His eyes slid through the clear glass and looked at the somber black mass above. The raindrops that fell unexpectedly were just a small group that carried heavy hopes. Until the body's skin feels the cold air

He looked away with his eyes wandering, not fixated on anything in particular as he had imagined. Under the empty darkness, he could only see thousands of raindrops hitting the clear window panes.

Water mist clings to the glass pane, faintly foggy, blurring the image of a man... who is walking hurriedly into the building.

Someone is walking towards this cold place. ..He can feel it.

Baekhyun smiled unreasonably as the wait ended. He walked to the front door to welcome the important guest.

That person is the real owner of the house... A house owned only by Baekhyun's name, but Chanyeol occupied every inch of the space, hoping to be remembered.

He knew that another person was now standing there waiting for him to open the door. Even though Chanyeol seemed hesitant to turn the key in himself like always because after our big argument, Chanyeol never came back to step foot here again.

Chanyeol probably didn't dare face him or for whatever reason I don't know but in the end he saw another person approaching.

Even though his dark face looks weary Chanyeol looked more tired than ever. But the tall figures still stood and smiled at each other. He watched Chanyeol stoop and stoop to put his shoes out of sight and out of sight.

I don't know how long Chanyeol will waste time there. Even though he wants another person to come and hug him like every time we meet. You don't have to do a lot of good deeds. As long as we encourage each other that will be enough.

From that day on, all he did was watch the phone to answer calls. Even though I sent the message ten times, the mean person never responded once.

He already knew that he didn't want anything from Chanyeol...just having another person nearby in his sights.

... Don't you miss each other? This was probably the question he wanted to ask the most.

The big man didn't answer. I kept walking away from him and towards the sofa. Throw your body down on the soft cushion until you hear a squeaking sound. The black tie was immediately removed in discomfort. A black suit was placed on the sofa next to him.

A long sigh when there was only our silence. Chanyeol closed his eyes tiredly. He let himself sink along with another person, leaving his thoughts and feelings still somewhere, but not beyond the concerns of those close to him.

He could only sit and look at his pale face, devoid of any happiness. Even before we used to greet each other with hugs. Talk and tease every day in a funny tone. And Chanyeol's face will have red streaks like his as well.

But today... Chanyeol didn't speak, he didn't speak.

Because we had a big argument... He was probably still angry.

But how good is it that Chanyeol came back.. Come back to Baekhyun...

"Chanyeol...." His soft voice couldn't make the person in front of him feel it.

What will he do to make the noise in his head sound like he's crying? ..What must he do?

The fist in his hand was shaking now. Ready to lift him up and punch him hard in the middle of the chest.

Let him feel the way he should feel. Let Chanyeol hurt like he hurts... But Baekhyun couldn't do it.

Because if Chanyeol gets hurt, he'll get hurt more... It's completely pitiful.

And Chanyeol seems to know. One of his arms was resting weakly on the back of the chair, and Baekhyun was wrapped around him. He slowly pressed his body closer to Chanyeol, fearing that the other person would be displeased.

He leaned towards Chanyeol to radiate warmth. Chanyeol didn't seem to reject the small embrace as it slowly tightened on him.

It must be him who has to start first. This Baekhyun was the one who had to back away in order to reduce our distance.

He didn't know where things began... But because he has done wrong, he must be held accountable.

“I'm sorry... ” That would be the best thing to say right now when thinking about the day we fought... That day..

For Chanyeol, it would be better to kill him or completely cut him out of Baekhyun's life than to watch himself be shamelessly reduced in importance.

He who has only ever He who had never truly been in love until he met Baekhyun. Baekhyun, who never seemed to love him any less.

Or maybe Baekhyun is too tired...

He knew that it would happen one day for someone who didn't value love like him..One day Baekhyun's love would eventually disappear but he never thought that he would become worthless when everyone. They offered him many valuable things, including love.

Even though he pretended to be stubborn, he walked away. But to be honest, he just didn't want to see Baekhyun walk away from him.

After that day, even though we came back together because the other person asked us to go back to being friends like before...the house was like an old structure even though the outside was perfect and everything was good. He still lives in this house. Because if he comes back, he will meet Baekhyun.

This house is the first thing that comes to mind. In the matter of Baekhyun and our memories, it is like there is only one medicine that is contained in this house.

Smiles, laughter, sadness....tears...

But from then on, who knew that Baekhyun never came back again..Baekhyun cut him out of his life forever.

So today he stood at the old door. The front door was carved with the name of the beloved owner himself. His hands touched the wood that had been carved into beautiful letters:

Baekhyun

He spread his hand around as if sensing the presence of the people in the room.

When did time seem slower than usual? Minutes turned into hours until it was almost a month.

...after the incident happened

We were together shouting over each other's heads. Often there are big arguments. Never had the slightest respect or sympathy for each other. We argue over the same old issues as my brain can remember, which is about everything including non-issues. The line of consciousness was suddenly broken by the same emotion. The original reason...

He smiled to himself at the mistake in his heart and apologized repeatedly before pushing aside the thing that separated him and another person in this world.

Long legs walked slowly through the corridor. Looking at the many pairs of small shoes, they were arranged in a very unordered manner. He bent over and put it in the closet, even though he had never done it before, but today he would do everything he never did for Baekhyun.

'Why are you really late?' His voice still resounded. If I stayed here a little longer, I would definitely hear another person say that I miss you.

‘Have you come back yet?’ He heard a voice coming from far away. A little person might be hiding in the bedroom, kitchen, living room, or some other room in memory.

He sank down, hoping to sink into the sofa. Let the softness of the leather seat support your heavy brain, as if relieving it... It had been nearly a month since Baekhyun had died.

This house is like the past, reinforcing the mistakes of Chanyeol's entire life.

He closed his eyes tiredly. Dreaming of the old days like a small child Imagine the beauty you once experienced. Smile and receive the warmth from the embrace.

It's sad when everything is held back in the past... He could only dream.

He stood up and walked with his last strength towards Baekhyun's room...

A picture of a little person curled up on a wide bed. Slender eyes closed tightly Beautiful, luscious eyelashes Cheeks soft and bruised with tear stains. His nose turned bright red. Small teeth bit down on a tight lip.

And soon the bed area gradually collapsed. He tried to do everything he could even though Baekhyun would never know.

He used the back of his white hand to gently touch his face. Faded and blurred like the picture in front of us is unclear to experience. ..

It's so difficult to hold back the thoughts in your heart until you accidentally express them even though you know you can't help them.

Even though I know that Baekhyun probably doesn't want it anymore..

“I'm sorry, Baek... I'm sorry...” He was seeing someone lying there shivering, letting him wipe away the dried tears that were stuck on his red, bruised cheeks. The fingertips accidentally scratched along the dry cracks.

He pulled his hand back as tears hit the back of his hand. .. It was his own tears.

The tall figure left the soft bed where someone had slept soundly, not knowing anything. ...It's the last picture of us arguing before the incident happened.

The image he saw was just a dream, causing him to wake up and face the truth... There was no longer Baekhyun here.

There is no Baekhyun to hold and hug. Here, only emptiness remains, a hole in Chanyeol's heart. Before pulling up the blanket that was piled up at the foot of the bed, it covered the warm bed instead of the hug he wanted to give.

He glanced up at the white rope, tightly knotted on the wooden beam. Luxurious decorations unintentionally create a very sad tragedy. He climbed onto the soft bed. Grasping the same white rope and tying it into a loop before it was unraveled because of him...

Even though my brain tried to imagine my breath missing, The brain never thought about forgetting the way Baekhyun struggled as the rope above his head tightened around his neck to stop himself from thinking.

But that place is definitely warmer than this cold heart...

Chanyeol walked out. He heard the sound of the door being closed as before. He heard a cracking sound from within. The heart was frightened when under the eyelids there were clear water drops trembling.

Like ice cubes leaving behind sweat and fatigue.

His body was steady, but his heart was trembling, he couldn't tell. It was as if something was growing under the ice land on which he stood...

Someone is walking towards this cold place. ..He can feel it.

He looked away from the scenery in front of him that looked beautiful but seemed to be hiding something. Repeatedly stepping towards the main door. With the same feeling With the same pair of eyes. ..slowly

His body was still and numb, like his breath had stopped for just a fraction of a second. The iceberg gradually collapsed until it finally collapsed. .. The large door slowly opened. His eyes shone like the sunshine melting his cold heart.

"Chan....." Just for a fraction of a moment, the warmth from your touch touched my cold heart. ...Just sunlight shining throughout the cold place.

Just the touch of your fingertips brings back feelings inside until it stirs.

The ice slowly split into cold debris.

The pain in my heart that is slowly breaking into pieces... Huge chunks of ice sink into the ocean.

Just seeing Chanyeol slightly ahead of him on the slowly cracking glacier. The thick back is so warm that you want to hug your body and let the coldness go away. Just reaching out and touching it will feel hot and burning.

In the end, he could only let the clear water droplets cling to the skin of his cheek until he trembled. ..

But when the footsteps stopped, gloomy eyes looked at him with longing hearts. ..

When the world stops turning... Our world seems to be turning around again.

Cool air from somewhere wafts a sweet smell. The temperature was so cold that he accidentally pressed his arms close to his body, hugging his fragile body loosely.

Slender eyes surveyed the contents inside with interest. Everything remains the same. Old pictures placed on bookshelves Everything seemed to have not moved since that day.

Baekhyun's dream image spins again....

Just seeing Chanyeol slightly ahead of him on the slowly cracking glacier. The thick back is so warm that you want to hug your body and let the coldness go away. Just hoping to reach out and touch it feels hot like it's burning.

In the end, he could only let the clear water droplets cling to the skin of his cheek until he trembled. ..

But when the footsteps stopped, gloomy eyes looked at him with longing hearts. ..

and was easily destroyed..

" . .. Huh . .. You're back. ..Really.. Huh... “Both legs that were once strong suddenly collapsed. So many questions just piled up in my chest. He couldn't open his mouth to speak along with this stream of suffering.

The crying couldn't be stopped just because a little hand tried to stop it. He himself couldn't stop his heart from hurting like this.

Likewise, he didn't even have the right to stop these tears from flowing.

The only thing Baekhyun could do was. .. get used to pain as much as possible

"Are you okay? ...." His soft voice made his heart beat hard. A simple question, but he didn't dare make eye contact and give a direct answer. He's still fine.

I'm afraid it's just a dream.. But it's not.

"Are you lonely? .." The person being asked accidentally looked up. He didn't know how those eyes that met made the person in front of him feel. Why do their sharp eyes look frightened but their faces remain hidden as if they have no feelings for each other?

He then bowed his head once more before nodding and flashing a faint smile to make the people sneaking by look more confident.

“I'm sorry...” Chanyeol sat down, wrapping his arms around him loosely. His small body wrapped around his shoulders to avoid the cold. His deep voice trembled throughout his body. Until the sobbing sound was heavy The force of the hug couldn't help but become tighter.

“I miss you...Baekhyun, I'm sorry.” His dry voice screamed loudly, competing with his trembling body. Every day he cried, only the sound of his heartbeat was the only thing he could hear of the painful farewell.

No one knew about the heartbreaking suffering, but today... Chanyeol already knew it...

“We're back together, Baekhyun... I'm sorry... I'll let you leave me again.” It was as if the body was freed as the tired heart swam in memories.

When the heart is getting weaker and weaker And how long will this little heart continue to cause him suffering? Why do you ask for warmth from the owner who has always abandoned you again?

Even though I know that Chanyeol will probably never be able to offer it...

Which he himself didn't think would happen today. ..

The day we fall in love again...

The End

What happened? Brother Chan died.. I feel sorry for this.

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