D E A R F R I E N D

Dear my Friend <&> My Dear Friend

© themybutter

D E A R F R I E N D

A small figure sat alone on a small wooden bench in a wide park. His small hand gripped his cell phone tightly. Her sweet face looked up at the sky to hold back the tears that were welling up in her clear eyes. How many times had he had to endure the same pain over and over again? This heart is hurt beyond repair but the only reason he is still here.

Don't really walk away or retreat from being just because of the word love.

Are you free today? Can I go see you?

The last message sent was still clearly visible on the screen. If it were before, he would probably be happy to meet the person he had been waiting for all along. But right now, he doesn't even know what happened to him. talked with another person Does it make him happy or makes him more miserable? The small figure took a deep breath.

Before breaking out into a wide smile and typing a reply to the other party.

okay

J

A small figure walked along the path. Even though the weather was cold today, he didn't feel the slightest bit of cold. Maybe it was because his heart had already gone numb. There was nothing worse than the pain that was oppressing and gnawing at his heart right now. The sweet memories of yesterday flow slowly.

With snowflakes falling from the sky Sometimes he wanted to walk away but he couldn't. He should be hurt and remember. It would be better The fact that he is greedy for a little happiness from that person. that no matter how much he got, he would never have enough. He was probably just a fool who still endured this situation. Finally, the water is clear.

that he had suppressed for a long time slowly flowed from her beautiful eyes. His fate was very funny. The day he met the person he loved Someone in the sky inspired that person to meet the person they love as well. If only that person wasn't him.

D E A R F R I E N D

Changhyun still remembers it well. A thin but warm smile was sent to him. A tall figure walked in and greeted him with friendliness. If he had known that fate would play this trick on his life. On that day, he would definitely walk away and not start getting to know Choi Jonghyun.

“Ahnyeong, my name is Jonghyun. Choi Jonghyun, do you think we will be punished by our seniors? We woke up late so we arrived late.”

“Annyeong, this is Yoo Changhyun, nice to meet you.”

“What about you? Why are you late? I woke up late too.” Before the little man could answer. A tall figure sat next to him. He turned his attention to the person who had just walked in. But it wouldn't be strange that anyone would. They will all turn to look at the owner of the sweet face who has come to join the other seniors.

“Oh...is this a man? Very sweet face More beautiful than some women.”

"dress..."

"Do you think that if I go flirt with him, will he flirt with me?" When the little guy was quiet, The tall figure took his eyes off the beautiful senior and looked at the person next to him instead. And had to burst out laughing when they saw the other person's greasy face after they finished registering as students. As punishment for being late, they were punished by having their wrists tied together.

But do not remove the cloth until the end of the day and must remain like this for the entire 3 days of the group's new friend-welcoming activities.

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After Jonghyun and Changhyun were tied together Having to participate in various activities together, they became close partners and were loved and adored by their seniors. With Changhyun's innocent cuteness and talkativeness, So pampering Take excellent care of Jonghyun. It can be said that right now there is probably no one who doesn't know Double Hyun.

And even though time has passed and they have become seniors, The two of them are still attached to each other as always. Even without the cloth tying their wrists together. But Jonghyun always drags Changhyun around. Or even when Changhyun has errands to do. Jonghyun always followed the little guy around like his personal bodyguard.

“Changhyunnie...”

“Hm...what?”

"If...we have good feelings for a person...do you think we should tell him?" The small figure was stunned for a moment. Even though he knew that Jonghyun was a straightforward person, he still wasn't used to someone else directly blurting out questions like this.

"If you love someone, if you like someone, just tell them."

“Love?...I don't know...I don't know if this is called love or not. Hmm...with him we feel comfortable. Happy to see his smile I want to hear his laugh often. Can this be called liking?”

“If you bring it, Jonghyun Na... you go confess to him. I saw you secretly looking. Secretly giving someone else's gift Don't tell him directly. And when will Chanhee sunbae realize that you secretly like him?”

"Hoy! How do you know that we secretly gave things to Chanhee-senpai?” The cutie could only shake his head gently. Why wouldn't he know what the tall figure thought of the sweet-faced senior? I've been stunned since the first day I saw it. But he couldn't really do anything. Sometimes he secretly wondered what Jonghyun was thinking. If you really like your senior Why don't you just confess?

But I let time pass for a year like this.

“Um...how should I say it? Chanhee senior. To us, he is like a star in the sky. It would be beyond my reach.”

“How will you know if you don't try? Is this enough to put you off? Where has the courageous Choi Jonghyun gone?”

“I don't know, I like him. But like...the feelings are different for each person. It's not like we have feelings for another person.” The small figure's slender brows furrowed together. Because since he's known Jonghyun besides Chanhee senior, he hasn't seen the tall figure like anyone else. Or maybe the big guy secretly likes someone and he doesn't know.

It shouldn't be possible because they were stuck together for almost 24 hours like this.

“Changhyun-na...I like Changhyun.” The little figure gasped. No words came out of his mouth. There are so many thoughts in your head all beating together. He wouldn't dare deny that he didn't feel good. with the person sitting in front of him right now But with a close friend who always reminds him not to think too far. And he also knew how Jonghyun felt about Chanhee sunbae.

But what Jonghyun opened up to him today left him stunned and unsure of what to do next. Because the tall man himself did not deny that he was interested in the sweet-faced senior.

“Funny, we're friends. Your feelings for us are a bond.”

“We really mean it. We are comfortable with Changhyun. I like seeing when Changhyun smiles. We love listening to Changhyun's laugh. It makes our world so bright.”

“And...what about Chanhee-senpai?”

“Just like I said. Moreover, there are many talented and cool seniors who are also interested in him. We probably can't compare.”

“Be brave, go flirt with him. You won't get confused and play crazy things like this again.”

“Changhyun thinks I'm confused by my own feelings...?” The tall figure thought to himself. It might be true what the other person said, since his feelings for Changhyun and Chanhee sunbae are different. And if he likes Chanhee senior like that, it means that his feelings for his little friend might just be a bond like he said.

Jonghyun decided to follow his best friend's advice to deal with his unresolved feelings. The small figure also smiled broadly as he gave him encouragement.

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When Jonghyun decided to move forward and get to know his sweet sunbae more. The small one and the big one saw each other less often, but they still talked through the chat program as usual every day. Most of the conversations were reports on the progress of Chanhee and Jonghyun's relationship. The tall figure always asks Changhyun for advice.

Until Valentine's Day comes around It was Changhyun who helped think and plan Jonghyun's love confession. And when a message sent from a dear friend appears on the screen His sweet face was stained with a smile. But Changhyun also didn't understand himself why there was clear water. flowing out as well

Mission complete! ^^

As soon as he knew that Jonghyun had succeeded and that Chanhee sunbae had agreed to be with his best friend, That moment made the small figure realize that he had actually been overthinking the tall person all along. And the fact that he tries to deceive himself in every way The past few days had not diminished his feelings at all.

Sometimes he blames himself. that if on that day The day the tall figure was still confused about his own feelings. If he accepts another's confession If he doesn't push the other person away. How happy will they be? Changhyun is a coward who doesn't even dare to follow his heart, and today is the day when it's all too late.

What can he demand?

Congratulations, I told you, if you don't try you won't know:

P

A small figure walked out of the school building alone. The long walkway that normally had tall figures walking beside it and inviting many stories to talk probably no longer exists today. The annoyance he had felt when the other party kept talking about this matter had disappeared, leaving only an emptiness that made his heart feel strangely dizzy.

Does the tall figure know that his smiles and laughter that he liked so much have now been replaced by tears and sobs instead? He should be happy. Happy that his best friend now has someone to love in front of him. He should wish Jonghyun and Chanhee sunbae lots of happiness. But sometimes the devil in his heart always makes him feel hurt and envious of Chanhee senior.

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Changhyun's birthday this year probably won't be anything special. In fact, birthdays are just ordinary days. His one day has come since time immemorial. Until last year Jonghyun had dragged him out of the dormitory the moment the clock struck exactly midnight. A tall figure dragged him out to a nearby mini-mart. Just to buy ready-made seaweed soup.

Claiming that he wanted to be the first person to tell him happy birthday and wanted to eat seaweed soup with him. And that was a very special memory and the only birthday he really celebrated. Even if it was something small, it made Changhyun very happy. Meanwhile, the little body was sitting staring blankly at the bowl of ready-made seaweed soup in front of the mini-mart.

The mobile phone vibrated, signaling an incoming call.

'Saeng Ilchukkahamnida Saint Ilchukkahamnida Sarangha Neun Chang Hyunnie Saeng Ilchukkahamnida~ Happy birthday Chang Hyun Na. Have a great day. Sorry I couldn't eat seaweed soup with you today. However, we are sure that we will definitely call to wish you the first time.'

“Ah...you're really the first. Anyway, thank you very much. That I won't forget..."

'Oh...Chang Hyun Na. How can we forget Changhyun's birthday...that's all for now. You have to go to the factory. Just came to watch a movie with Chanhee.' Chanhee's sweet voice shouting Jonghyun's name was clearly heard. Even though the tall man went on a date with his lover, at least he didn't forget to call to wish him a happy birthday.

This is really good, isn't it, Yoo Changhyun? What else do you want?

"Um...bye..." When the water is hot Starting to feel dry around the corners of the eyes The small figure hurriedly looked up at the sky and picked up the seaweed soup in front of him that had been left out until it had cooled. Came up and drank it all in one go.

“Jonghyun...you are the star...even though you see it every day. But there's probably no way to reach it..." The small figure got up and walked back to the dorm. His slender hand ran back and read old messages. where he and the big man talked Even though we talk less, Jonghyun is still the same Jonghyun who always tells stories for him to sit and read and smile.

And the big man still always asks for advice from him. Maybe Changhyun doesn't understand why people who dare And he's good at everything, but he's so weak and has no confidence in love.

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When Jonghyun first started dating Chanhee sunbae, everything seemed to go well. But when suddenly The two of them began to quarrel with each other, and every time the two had problems, the tall man always came to Changhyun's room. Just seeing another person suffer His determination to be callous was falling apart every time, even though

Who knows that he will be hurt over and over but still allows this heart to be hurt continuously. Sometimes I feel like I want to break up.

“Are you fighting again?”

"yeah..."

“Did you fuss over him again?”

“Oh...Chang Hyun Na...we're not children anymore. But Chanhee? I like to act close to people. This person goes on and on. When I go out, I always let other people get involved.”

“Don't forget that he is also a man. He can take care of himself…”

“But...we mean Minsoo sunbae. Always likes to come close to Chanhee. Chanyong sunbae is another one who likes to follow Chanhee all the time.”

"Don't forget that Chanyong-senpai and Chanhee-senpai have been close friends since high school. Look at you. In the past, if you followed us, we would have died..." The little man suddenly stopped talking. The past is the past that has passed. These days, Jonghyun doesn't follow him around like he used to. Sometimes he should just get used to it and forget. It's time to go.

“Changhyunnie...”

“That's right, you don't beg for it too much. Chanhee sunbae, he won't get annoyed and say you're a kid again.”

"Oh, you and Changhyun, we're going to cry. No matter how stupid we are, Changhyun doesn't know what to say to us."

“How are they the same? We are Jonghyun's friends. But Chanhee hyung is your boyfriend.”

“That's why we say that we are most comfortable with Changhyun. We still confirm our previous statement that we like Changhyun.” Inside the room, it was completely quiet. Changhyun's heart was pounding so fast that his little body was sure that the person sitting behind him would definitely hear it.

“Are you hungry? I'll cook ramen for you. So...will you stay here tonight?”

“Oh...I still don't want to go back to being alone. Thank you, Changhyunnie.” The little man nodded in understanding. The tall figure stole a soft kiss on the cheek and gave it a big kiss. Changhyun himself didn't quite understand whether what he was doing was right or not. They're close friends. Even though some actions seem to go too far

But since these things made him happy, it wouldn't be wrong for him to take advantage of this moment of happiness. The little man pulled away from his best friend's embrace before disappearing into the kitchen as the tall figure looked on and smiled happily.

Every time Jonghyun and Chanhee sunbae quarrel, it's always like this. The tall figure chose to escape the awkward atmosphere and spend time with his little best friend. Changhyun himself always indulges in moments of happiness that arise from the fragility of his tall figure's love relationship with his sweet-faced sunbae.

The little man never refused Jonghyun's warm embrace, which hugged him all night until morning. Including Goodnight Kiss and Morning Kiss. At first, the small figure himself was quite shocked by the tall figure's actions. But when the deep desire in his heart yearned for the touch of a tall figure no less. So he gave in to the desires of his heart.

“Chanhee has sent a message to reconcile with us.”

“Ah...if you play too hard, be careful. When Chanhee hyung is born, he'll be bored if he doesn't reconcile and he'll regret it."

“We are not afraid. Anyway, we still have Changhyun. We'll go back first, see you later." A wide smile was sent to the tall figure. The little man waved his hand slowly. But as soon as her broad back disappeared from view, clear water immediately dripped from her beautiful round eyes. When will this cycle end? How long will fate play tricks on him?

If you want him to be happy, can't you be happy forever? Why is he so happy when? must bring him down to suffer More pain and suffering And when he was suffering so much, why was it necessary to bring him up to happiness? Or did the person in the sky want to teach him a lesson that being selfish is a natural part of humanity?

When you don't know how to love yourself There will never be a day where I will be truly happy.

D E A R F R I E N D

When the small figure opened the door and entered the room, he found a tall figure sitting weakly leaning on the living room sofa. As soon as I saw a picture like this His determination to be callous was shattered every time. He wanted to try keeping quiet for a bit, just in case he could get over it.

“Chang Hyun Na...why don't you wear thicker clothes? Look, your nose is all red. Why are you walking around in the snow and your face is all wet?” Will the tall figure really know that? And his nose was red not because his body was cold, but because Changhyun's heart was cold from crying so much. Would the tall figure know that the glistening water droplets on his small face were mixed with tears?

It's not just water droplets that come from melting snowflakes.

"We're fine. Please excuse me." The small figure walked into the bedroom and immediately closed the door. He wasn't ready to talk to the tall figure just yet. Changhyun takes a shower Take the medicine and go to bed immediately. He turned off all the lights until the room was completely dark, allowing him to clearly see the glowing stars that he had attached to the ceiling and walls of the room.

The tall figure saw that the little man had been gone for quite some time and had not yet come back out, so he opened the door and came in to take a look.

“Changhyunna...are you asleep...?” When there was no response, Jonghyun slowly walked away. Throwing himself on the bed, he slipped himself under the thick duvet before laying on his back and embracing the other person gently.

“We fought with Chanhee again,” a soft voice whispered in Changhyun's ear. How long have we been friends? Why doesn't he know that the other person isn't asleep yet? I just pretended to be asleep because I didn't want to talk to him.

“Please talk to us first. We really need Changhyun right now.” The little man was annoyed. How many times has another person been like this? He didn't want to be in this situation again, even though he had intended to keep quiet, even though he had planned not to talk, but when the feelings of resentment that had been suppressed became too much to bear, the little body couldn't help it. Will vent out his feelings for the other party to know.

“How many times has this happened? Whenever you quarrel with Chanhee sunbaenim, you come to us. What exactly are we doing here, Jonghyun?”

“So...friends? We need Changhyun right now.”

“Yes, but what you are doing right now is beyond what any friend would do, Jonghyun. And when we need Jonghyun? Where did you go? Have you ever been interested in us? You know that we can give you everything. Please, don't play with our feelings like this." The tall figure tightened his hug when he felt a slight sob.

From the little person in his arms with a soft kiss on the cheek.

“We don't want to be alone...how many times do we have to say that the time we spent with Changhyun... We are very happy.”

“That's enough. Do you know that just by saying this, I'm feeling weak? I don't want to be a close friend who isn't being honest. And no one wants to be a backup, a dead item, a time-saver, or a third party..."

“I don't know how to explain it either...we don't want to break up with Chanhee but we want Changhyun. I'm sorry...”

“Let it be, that's all I said. We've been hurt enough but there's nothing we can do. I already love it. It's our fault." The little one always thought of blaming himself. If he hadn't been the one to push the other person away that day, he wouldn't have had to sit in pain like he is today. But what can be done? Since he can't go back in time and change the past.

“Changhyun isn't wrong. Anyway, we thank you very much for staying by our side. Don't leave us anywhere. It's my heart to be Changhyun's best friend.” The tall figure pushed the other person to face him before planting a soft kiss on the lips that changed to become harder according to the force of his emotions. Hot tongues were sent to sweep away the sweetness from the small mouths, and the deep desires within their hearts led them to dive into a passionate love song that never seemed to end easily.

D E A R F R I E N D

After Jonghyun and his sunbae came to an understanding, it came to the one-year anniversary of when they agreed to be together. A tall man who just sits and sighs because he doesn't know how to surprise his lover to celebrate his anniversary. My little best friend just sat and watched with amusement.

“Write a letter to gather your feelings for all the time you've been together. I think Chanhee senior must be impressed. And beautiful flowers One bouquet should be enough.” The little man gave advice from experience. The sweet-faced senior seems to be someone who likes romantic things quite a bit. And since Jonghyun couldn't sing or play sweet music for him.

Writing letters conveys good stories and memories. The two of them spending time together is probably the best option.

“That's the problem. I don't know how to write this, it's embarrassing..."

“This is why I'm embarrassed. With us, we can still fantasize about a lot of things.”

"Well, it's not the same here..."

“You just write about them, their first date, or whatever they did for the first time together. Impressions of time spent with him That's about it."

“Okay, I'll give it a try. Thank you very much, dear friend.”

"This is just a small matter. Let's take us to get some food."

“Er...Let's stay together this evening. I want to be encouraged. I don't dare go see Chanhee alone..." The little man nodded in acknowledgment before excusing himself to go to class. He always had a soft spot for this big friend. Having said that, the relationship between them as it is today is not that bad. Changhyun just keeps reminding himself that love doesn't always have to be possessive.

Just being Jonghyun's close friend like this He is happy now. There is nothing better than seeing a tall person happy. and making a tall person happy

After class, Changhyun followed the tall figure who was carrying a large bouquet of red roses and an envelope of letters, keeping his distance. The two waited for Chanhee-senpai at the meeting point for a while. Some people have arrived. A wide smile appeared on his sweet face as soon as he saw the big bouquet of red roses. When slender hands received the bouquet of flowers and opened the letter to read

As soon as he finished reading, the thin figure rushed towards the older one. The sight in front of him made Changhyun's face smile. Seeing that the mission to surprise a dear friend's anniversary went well. Changhyun then walked up to the tall figure and asked to be taken home.

“Congratulations, senior. Let's love each other for a long time. We'll be back first, Jonghyun."

“Is this Changhyun? Jongin talks about us often to you. So cute like this. You can't stop watching. Anyway, thank you very much.”

“Ah...you're welcome. Jonghyun often talks about Chanhee sunbae to me. The same.”

“Yah~ Are you the model revealing something to your friends?”

“Oh Channiya~ No, no. You hurry back, it'll get dark soon."

“Uh huh.”

“Welcome back, Changhyunnie. See you soon.”

“Yes, Senpai.” The small figure walked away. Since today the person he loves is happy. He should be happy and join in the congratulations too. On the day that Jonghyun already had the person that Jonghyun loved in front of him. I just hope Jonghyun doesn't forget the person who loves him behind him like Changhyun. This little person was satisfied. The small figure had not walked very far.

The thin cell phone in his pocket vibrated, signaling an incoming message.

I'll go look for it tonight.

The little man smiled slightly. With a slight shake of the head. It's a waste like this. Since no matter what he did, he probably couldn't get over Jonghyun. It stays like this. Slender fingers typed a message before sending it back to his best friend.

Um...come on.

J

T H E  E N D

TALK:;

While spinning a long fic

SinceNov

Living in staleness

So I did it.

SF

This matter came out instead.

I don't know if this style will be liked or not. Anyway, you can criticize.

Ending like this, I write that it's perfect in its own way ^^

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