Introduction

The story is that.....

“Fuse, what time is it? Hurry up and take a shower. Get ready for school."

The morning of September 21, 2015, the first day of class at my new school. My name is Fuse. Mr. Pramet Chatraksa. I'm in Mathayom 4. The school won't tell you. Haha.

“What are you doing? It's already 7.10, Fuse. It's already late for the first day of school. Will it be late next time?”

“Mom, I'm 16 years old.” I sighed at her words. My mother always thought of me as a child. But, I lived with two mothers and my father died when I was in elementary school. But don't worry. My mother works as a police officer.

Punctuality is something that Mom is very strict about.

-school-

“After school, Mom will come pick me up. Hurry and find new friends.”

“Yes, mother.”

I'm a school transfer expert. My record for transferring schools is 27 schools in 2 years. I don't like my male friends. He likes to think I'm gay. But I don't have same-sex attractions. Well, I have a problem with having male friends. Because male friends like to have dog-mouth stories, which is why I moved to a boarding school.

It's not just that I move often. You see me as quiet, but I have strong charm. Strong charm among girls Those girls were having problems trying to get over me. What could I do? When my mother found out, she moved me myself. I feel sorry for my girls.

T^T

The school I transferred to was a co-educational school. But most of the time there are more female students than male students. I don't care anymore. Because I think that soon I will have friends myself.

“Respectful students”

“Hello, students.” Oh my gosh, my homeroom teacher is a woman I've only met in the past.....

"Hello, students." The teacher is a transvestite -*-

“Hello, students.” The military bloodline teacher is so cruel.

But I met a beautiful female teacher. I was happy, but that's all. I'm not interested anymore.

"Pramat Pramet"

“Yes, teacher.”

what is love

“Hi,” the friend sitting next to me said in a pitiful voice.

“Hello, what's your name?” I asked politely.

“My name is Dew, and you?” Oh my god! She is a woman but has a man's name. I really want to know who set it up.

“Fuse name”

-In front of the school-

“How do you go home, Fuse?” This woman was the first woman to walk up to me. Please, please don't let me see your mother.

“Mom, hello.” Oh, I met this girl. Mother must have asked.

"Hello, friend Fuse? You're really cute and have good manners. How do you go home?" Folded! This girl has very good luck. Because my mother usually meets someone who sends me off, if it's not a transvestite. It's the bad women. My mother will turn away.

“Get on the minibus.”

“If you don't mind. Let's come together. I'll send you home soon." Oh my god! I'm going to send this girl away. She's going to go crazy.

"thank you"

-Dew's house-

“Come home carefully.”

“Yes, thank you for coming.”

I want to shout ten million times. Mom opened up to my friends for the first time since I was in school.

“Who sent it?”

“My friend's mother, Dad. Daddy, don't worry, Dew is all grown up."

-house-

“What is that girl's name, Fuse?” Mother asked the girl's name -...-

“Dew, friend sitting next to me. Looks like he's good at studying. Is there something wrong with you, Mom?”

“Mom wants to get to know you better. Next time, invite me to your house."

“Yes, mother.”

Time passes very quickly. Dew and I became closer. I feel like I'm starting to like Dew. But, I probably just like her personality more.

“Uh Fuse, do we want to go see a movie this evening?”

“What is the matter?”

"Red Love" just the name of the movie makes it weird. Will it be fun to watch?

"Okay, let's call mom first."

"hello"

"Mom, today Fuse is going to see a movie with Dew. I'll be back no later than 8 p.m."

“Okay, don't come back late. After looking at it, take it back.”

“Yes, mother.”

-In front of the movie theater-

“Choose your seat.”

“I want to be

A8

with

A9”

“380 baht. Do you have a membership card?”

"No, here it is 380."

"Oh, I'll pay for the movie."

“Thank you.”

-In the movie theater-

“Fuse, what do we have to tell you?”

“What?”

“We love you”

I was stunned when Dew told me he loved me in the movie theater. Since I had never had anyone tell me they loved me, I replied to Dew,

"Thank you. We love Dew too."

"Really? We're dating."

“We......” Dew suddenly put his mouth on mine.

“What are you doing to her?” I shouted very loudly. until everyone turned to look

"Just kiss, you said you love me."

“I said I really loved you. But love as a close friend We weren't finished talking and she was already kissing us.”

“So what was the past? Why are you being nice to us?”

“Just friends. Don't just think about it.” As soon as I finished speaking, I stood up from my chair and walked out of the movie theater immediately.

-In front of the movie theater-

“I said I really loved you. But love as a close friend." Only close friends? But how much do I love you? I've done so many things for you and become just friends! Fuse's words are engraved in my heart. It still stirs in my heart all the time. Oh! I want to die And from now on, I'm going to look at the front of the fuse. Is it stuck?

-The next day-

"What? A fuse?"

“Fuse has already moved rooms.”

“What room are you moving to?”

It's the only way I can break ties with her. There's only one way. That is, move the room.

-Lunch break-

“Fuse” I turned to look and what I saw was

“Fuse, why did you change rooms?”

"That's enough, Dew. One day we'll have to move anyway," I said through tears. And I walked away from her coldly.

start

Saying that might make Dew sad. But it was the only way for me to cut Dew out of my life.

“Hello, what's your name?” Whoever this man was, he suddenly came to greet me.

“My name is Fuse, Mr. La.”

“Mouse's name is 5/9.”

"Why"

"I'm going to invite you to eat ice cream this evening." Is it a good idea to go?

“I'll tell you later.”

I'll give it to someone I just met. It's okay to say yes. If you refuse, you will be accused of being arrogant.

-evening-

"fuse"

“Is there something wrong?”

“About the matter we invited you to, what is the deal?”

“Go, you wait for us in front of the school first. We'll do our duty for a moment."

"okay"

-In front of the school-

“Let's go.”

“Um.”

“Let me hold your hand.” This idiot must be gay. But this matter cannot be decided at all. Just arrest and arrest.

I held out my hand for the mouse to hold. It was strange. I had never felt this before. What was this feeling?

-Ice cream shop-

“What should I get?”

“I want a chocolate banana.”

“I would like a milkshake, please.” What is this feeling that is swirling in my heart? Am I shaken? Even when ordering ice cream, I was embarrassed. Or did I really like his mouse?

“So how do you get this fuse back home?”

"oh! Let's take a taxi back, Mouse?"

“Can we go sleep with Fuse? We don't want to go home. We rented a dormitory and lived alone. We were lonely.” He asked to come sleep at our house. Will Mom be okay?

"Mom, today my friend Fuse wants to come sleep at my house. Will you....."

"Come on, let's get something to eat. Mom's on shift late today."

“Yes, mother.”

“What does Mother Fuse say?”

“He allowed it.”

"I'm so happy, kiss." Mouse kissed my cheek -_-

-bedroom-

“Good night, Fuse.”

"sweet dreams"

Who that night? The mouse sleepwalked and hugged me. But I thought he was just sleepwalking. After a while he put his mouth on my neck. I had to let him go. because I was hugged by him After a while he took off his shirt. And he said to me

“We love you.” And then he caressed my neck until I fell asleep. That night, he and I had sex all night.

“Morning, Fuse.”

"Um................." I was still sleepy. I guess last night was a bit heavy.

"Go take a shower first, kiss." Mouse acted like I was his girlfriend. He kissed his cheek. I still can't accept the story of last night.

"Fuse, we're using your toothbrush."

"okay"

-school-

"thank you"

“Thank you for what?”

“That you don't hate me for being gay? And another thing about what we had last night. Don't tell anyone.”

"Um, I won't tell you."

If my story with him is a forbidden story that cannot be told to anyone. I won't tell anyone. Because I still can't accept it either.

-classroom-

“Okay, students, today there is one more student transferring to our room.”

“Hello, my name is Mouse, Mr. Suthipong Sakulchatmanmee.”

“She went and sat next to Let's go together.”

"yes"

"hi"

“Um, hi.”

Happiness or suffering?

-During study-

“Fuse!” Mouse wrote a note to me. Why would he send it when he was sitting next to me?

“Say it.”

“Should we try dating?” When I heard that sentence, I couldn't help myself.

“Okay.” His mouth didn't match his heart. What do you do with a short temper?

“This evening, we would like to sleep at Fuse's house again.”

"Probably not. Today my mother is here."

“Okay, another day.”

"okay"

-Drop school-

“Please go to the bathroom for me.”

"okay"

-bathroom-

“Fuse, please come to us. The toilet can't flush water."

"Where? Huh?"

“What are you going to do? Why take out the condom?

"So what are we going to do again?"

“No, this is a school. You can go do it at our house the next day. If you do it here, if anyone sees it, what will you do?”

"okay"

"fuse"

“What do you say?”

"love"

“Hmm,” confused about what I was doing. I don't know if I'm confused or not.

-hotel-

“Brother.”

“What do you say, Dew?”

"Do you have any? Condoms."

"No, I didn't buy it. It's fresh."

“Then I think 2800.”

"Wow, if you don't have a bag, you'll charge an additional 300."

"You won't want it. You won't take me back. There are a lot of customers."

-House of Fuse-

“We just sent this, Fuse.”

“Wait a minute.”

“What?”

I slowly kissed him softly and gently.

-school-

“Hi Fuse, my name is Nat. 5/8”

“Is there something wrong?”

"I like you. I've liked you for 2 weeks now."

"Thank you, but I already have a boyfriend."

"We can wait." Is this hurting his feelings? Probably not.

-meeting room-

“Next week, Mathayom 5 will be going to a freshman camp on September 1-4.”

“Fuse.”

“Huh?”

“Sleep with us.”

"If not, we'll sleep with our boyfriend."

"Go, Fuse. I'm annoyed by thieves. They like to steal other people's things. They're shameless."

“Alright, let's go to class.”

“Nimous, you spoke too loudly.”

“Why? We're lovers. Is it normal to be jealous of each other?”

“It will be too much.”

“Oh, now you see other people as more important, right?”

"Don't invite a fight."

“I didn't invite a fight.”

"Have you ever trusted each other? Failed."

“Fuse, oh my.”

“Nong Mouse. My name is James. I'm in Mathayom 6/5. I'm the leader of the freshman camp."

"yes"

“I will invite you to help me think of a work plan. Will you have free time?"

"okay"

"Then I'll go pick you up in the room in the evening."

-Drop school-

“Mouse”

"Come on, James."

“Let's go.”

"okay"

“Where is the mouse going?”

"Wait a minute, Fuse," Nat came, I don't know when. I was completely shocked when I played it.

“Where are you going? Oh! I'm going to find the mouse. James is gay."

“Really?” I rushed to find and punch that older man in the face, but what surprised me was this.

“Don't go back to him again. What if he doesn't want us anymore?” Nat's words shocked me. And I thought back to the time when Mouse and I had an argument.

“Oh, now you see other people as more important, right?”

"Don't invite a fight."

“I didn't invite a fight.”

"Have you ever trusted each other? Failed."

I received a warm embrace from Nat. I'm shaken by what I'm doing right now. Yes, the mouse is happy. We're just passing through.

-Before going to camp-

"I'm going to draw lots for sleeping partners in the camp."

"Pramat slept with Phongphisanu." I slept with Nat. I turned to look at the mouse's face. The mouse looked at me with sad eyes. I felt sorry.

"Sutthipong sleeps with Kunathip." Whose name is Kunathip? Brother James's name is Kunathip. Mouse has to sleep with Brother James. I want to die Brother James slept with a mouse. Oh my gosh.

“Mouse”

"What's up"

“Mouse slept with James. Take care of yourself.” I didn't have much to say. Because Mouse might not love me anymore.

-Day of camping-

“Mouse”

"Yes, James."

“Sit near me.”

"yes"

“Nut”

“Tonight, sleep next to us,” I sarcastically said to myself. I don't know why I would do this.

"um"

-It might make you sad. But I want to tell you "I'm sorry"-

reason

When Mouse and Fuse get into a heated argument, it can cause them to break up. But soon a senior came to build a relationship with Mouse. This senior's name is James. This person might confuse the mouse. But Fuse also has a friend next door who befriends him by the name of Nat. Both Nut and James may cause Fuse and Mouse's relationship to become unstable.

-During the trip-

"fuse"

“What?”

“Is something wrong? I saw you sitting quietly just now.”

"oh! We are thinking about it.”

“What are you thinking about?”

“We miss Mouse. I don't really like James at all. We don't trust him. Whether or not he will do something to Mouse, I don't know.”

-1 month ago-

"Will it really work, Nat?"

“James, listen to Nat. Nat knew that it would be difficult for the two of us to become friends with Mouse and Fuse. I also like Mouse but haven't dared to tell him. As for Nat, Nat has liked his Fuse for a long time. Therefore, the two of us must find any way for those two people to break up. Without others being suspicious.”

“It's not good, Nat. The two of us are going to cause other people to break up. I don't really agree with it at all.”

"So James will do it?"

"You can do it, if this is the way to make me fulfill my love."

“Nut nut nut.”

“Huh?”

“We're already at the camp. Get ready." What was Nat thinking?

“Alright, here it is. Friola Portfront Hotel, Phuket. My name is Alice. I'm the leader of this year's freshman camp."

“Mouse”

"Yes, James."

“What are you thinking? since leaving school I saw him sitting quietly all alone. Is something wrong?”

“No, Mouse just thought of a fuse. Mouse wanted to apologize to him. that the mouse does reason Mouse might be the reason why Fuse had to become close with Nut. To be honest, Mouse doesn't like Nut. Including me. Because my brother and I have only known each other for a short time, we are not close at all. Sorry for being so direct.”

"fuse"

"Mouse, what's wrong?"

"Sorry Nat, we'd like to talk alone."

"okay"

“Is there something wrong?”

“We would like to apologize to Fuse for the entire incident. It was because of Mouse's impatience, and Mouse was unreasonable. The fact that we argued made things worse. For 15 days the two of us didn't talk. Fuse, do you know how much Mouse misses Fuse? Can Fuse forgive Mouse?”

“If the mouse repents Fuse can forgive you, but it's probably not possible for the two of us to go back to the way we were before. Fuse is afraid."

“What are you afraid of?”

“Mouse's jealous personality. Because this behavior is the cause of the two of us fighting. And if the two of us go back to the way we were before Not sure about the fuse Will Mouse be able to stop being jealous? So when did Mouse break this habit? The two of us slowly came back together. We've been apart for a while for now."

“But Fuse..” Mouse's face looked sad. I feel really guilty for doing that. But it was the only way I could temper his mouse. I hope Mouse takes his words back to heart.

“Why, why, why isn't the fuse the same? Because of you, it made the fuse change. Yes, if Fuse thinks so. I too must do as Fuse tells me. That is, let go of the fuse.”

-First day of camp for newbies-

“Okay, everyone, today is a relationship building activity. The result of doing that activity is friendship. If you are ready, you can practice it."

"Brother James"

“Is there something wrong?”

“Pair with me.”

"okay"

“No, the fuse will match the mouse itself. Please go with someone else.”

“Fuse, what do you plan to do with Fuse?”

“Nimous, it was Mouse who told me. That the two of us would go back to the way we were before And now Mouse is paired with someone else and fuses?”

“That's right.”

“Mouse loves fuse.”

“Fuse loves Mouse too.”

“It shows that the two of us......”

"Well, we're back together."

From now on I won't hide myself anymore. Because I received love and good wishes from the people I love. It might not be a reason, but I love him so much. Until I don't want to lose him I will try my best to make Mouse as happy as possible throughout our relationship. I only have one person. And I won't love anyone again. And I promise that Mouse will be my last.

-Second day of camp-

“Fuse, what did Fuse tell Nut? That Fuse doesn't love Mouse anymore? So what is this? Why are we getting back together?”

“Nat, listen to us. Throughout the time we were with Nat, we never forgot his mouse for a second. Because we love only Mouse. And here we are with Nat Let's not meet again. If the mouse knows that the two of us are still in contact with each other. The mouse may have broken its fuse.”

“So can we choose anything? Can you choose to let the fuse continue with us? If you don't let me go, will you do what I want? Letting her choose us probably won't work.”

“When the fuse has to be like this Nat can go by himself. thank you for everything"

“Thank you for everything too.”

-During lunch break-

“Mouse”

“Huh?”

“How long has it been since we last ate together? Since we fought Does Mouse know how much Fuse misses Mouse?”

“It's not just Fuse alone. Mouse is the same way, thank you.”

“Thank you for what?”

"Thank you for coming back to Mouse."

“Nut”

“What is it?”

“We will come and tell Nat that Can Nut stay? When Nat doesn't have us."

“Are you worried?”

“Friends must be worried.”

“Friends? But we don't want to be just friends. Fuse, did you know all the time we were with Fuse? We're so happy. There is not a day that we are with Fuse that we are miserable. Because you know what? Because we love you.”

As soon as I heard those words, I felt like I had abandoned someone important to me. But correctness must come first. His mouse came first. Anyway, I have to choose the right thing.

"If there's nothing else, we'll go first."

“Nut”

"What else? Can we still be friends?"

“Didn't Fuse tell us? That from now on we shall not meet each other again.”

"It's true, but there are two of us."

“Enough Fuse, since Fuse said so. We will do it.”

“Nat, please, let's go back to being friends. We want to take care of Nut like before. We still care about Nat.”

“We don't care about this matter. There's just no fuse. Why were we able to live in the past when there were no fuses? Leave your concern for the mouse. We don't need to meet again. Which way does the fuse go? Fuse helped me walk back that way.”

Nat walked away from me coldly. It's like Nat doesn't know me. But everything that happened was my fault.

“Mouse”

“Yes, sir.”

“Mouse knows, right? What are you going to say to the mouse?”

"I don't know."

“Mouse, I love you. I've loved you for a long time too. Love before Mouse and Fuse were together again But I'm the one who came later. All I can do is wait. Until one day the two of you had a quarrel and I walked in and you gave me hope. Until I entrusted my heart to you, but look at what you did, you went back to be with him. Do you see what I'm feeling? Is it a toy?"

“It's not like that. I know you love me. But I've already told you that I don't like you. I'm not close to you yet. To be honest with you, I don't even want to get to know you if possible. Because I don't want to make his fuse sad just because I'm near you. I felt guilty already. The fact that you came to love someone like me I'm happy too. But the two of us must end our relationship just like this.

Because I don't want to make Fuse even more sad.”

"What are you asking?"

"Yes, just ask. Don't be shy."

“How much do I have to do to make you not ignore me? What must I do to make you love me? What must I do to receive your love? What must I do? Answer!!! I told you to answer!!”

“Brother.”

“As much as I have, I've given it all to you. For the sake of love, I'll do everything. No matter how much you devote to it, it will not be the person you love. How much more do I still have to do to make you love me?”

“Brother.”

“Because you are my everything. I love you with all my heart. What must I exchange? I'm always ready. I just want you to love me."

"James, listen to me."

"I'm not listening."

“What is wrong with you?”

“What kind of person do you love?”

“I know, but I already told you that I can't love you. I love Fuse more. I love only Fuse.”

“Everything that makes it blur, right? No matter how much I give, I will never be number one in your heart.”

"If you say that again, I'm leaving."

“Go ahead, take care of him and love him well, from now on I won't bother you again. I'm just happy with your love with him. Let's love each other for a long time. Don't break up. Now that we're together, we've loved each other for a long time. I'm really worried about him. Don't make him sad like you did to me.

I love you every time”

"fuse"

“Yes, sir.”

“What do you have to tell me?”

"yes"

“Sorry, you're being cheeky. I know that I love and love Mouse, but you came back to take him away. If you really love your mouse, why don't you take good care of it? Why throw it away? A person is not a toy. When you're done using it, throw it away, you bastard."

“Is that all you're going to say?”

"Why"

"Hyung, I know you're sorry, but you should show some restraint. I'm going."

Attachment cannot be bought.

-Last day of camp-

“I would like to thank all the young people. Thank you for attending the camp to receive freshmen until the designated time was complete."

"fuse"

"How is it going"

"Let's go back and sit together."

"um"

“Nat, our plan didn't work out at all. Why did Nut tell me that everything would be fine?”

"Stop it. James is blaming it for Nat's fault, right?"

“Nut”

“People like Fuse are probably going to stare at you.”

"And you, Fuse himself, probably don't want to look at you that much."

“What do you mean when you say this?”

“My nature is broken.”

"It's me."

-Fuse and Nut's bedroom-

"fuse"

"what"

“Few has taught us that that attachment cannot be love Not the person who dreams of being attached, no matter how much it is, it is not my fault that I hope to get love from you.”

“Nat, we think the two of us have settled things.”

“Start with the word 'I don't love you'. But at least we used to be close to Fuse. It's right that Fuse has to choose the person that Fuse loves. We always understand.”

"um"

-Mouse and James' bedroom-

“Brother James, from now on the two of us will never meet again, absolutely no contact with Mouse. Because Mouse doesn't want to have problems the second time.”

“I understand. I probably couldn't hold back your heart. Thank you for always putting up with me. Thank you.”

"yes"

Thank you for loving me.

“Have a safe trip, guys.”

“Thank you.” I was very happy the entire time I had the mouse. I feel that loving someone is not easy. Thank you for everything that has passed. Everything that has passed in our lives I think it's a wall that we both have to cross. Various obstacles in our love began to disappear because the two of us had adjusted our understanding.

"Oh, this is Fuse. We have something for you."

“What?”

“Close your eyes first.”

“Happy Anniversary  

Today, it's been two months since we've been together. Fuse, do you know that we chose it on purpose? Fuse, do you remember the first day the two of us met?”

“Remember, that day was the day when someone I didn't know came to get to know me.”

“Today, a month ago, was the first day the two of us agreed to be together.”

"Yes, I still remember when our fuse was my boyfriend."

-2 months ago-

"fuse"

“What?”

“What do we have to tell you? Fuse, do you know all the time we've known each other? that we talked about that we were together The mouse is very happy. Mouse had never been so happy before. Mouse thinks Mouse loves Fuse. We're lovers."

“Mouse, have you thought about it well? that he wants to have me as a lover I'm not good at taking care of anyone.”

"We'll take care of the fuse, we promise."

"agree"

“It's that time. When the mouse kissed my cheek."

“Do you want me to do it again?”

"Huh...." Mouse gently kissed my cheek. His hand touched the whole side of my face and he slowly said.

“You are the most precious thing in my life.” He then kissed me gently. I am happy that this was my first kiss and probably Mouse's first as well.

“How was our first kiss?”

"What did you say? I'm embarrassed ><"

-school-

“Where is mother now?”

“We've arrived.”

"Where is it? I haven't seen the fuse yet."

“Look behind you.”

“Oh Mom, hello.”

“Who is this?”

“Mom, this person named Mouse is Fuse's boyfriend.”

You’re my first kiss

that makes my heart tremble That kiss I remember to this day.

You’re my first kiss

Come back and kiss me.

Oh,baby kiss me one more time.

-Completely completed-