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JONGHYUN x TAEMIN

I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset 

I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset

Deep in my heart

It was empty like there was nothing.

I looked at the loneliness and darkness.

Just someone to hold my hand

*I recommend turning on the music as well*

#ficreset

CR.SHL

I wanna reset 

I wanna reset

I am alone in the midst of loneliness.

Please, please hold my hand.

It's like a scar that will never heal.

I want to go back to the happy days.

I want to start over

“Dad, don't do it, Mom. Please do my hair instead, huh.” A small hand clung to the arm of the man who was his father trying to stop him from hurting his own mother. Tears from those beautiful eyes flowed down continuously as his mouth and body tried to beg the man in front of him, the man who was his real father.

“Don't you dare, back off!”

So much!!! Pleng!!

A ten year old boy who was trying to help his mother was pushed away by his father and hit his head on a standing vase. He didn't care how much his own child was hurting. He never cared whether this child was good or bad, he hated it.

“You will soon die after your mother!” The father turned and shouted at the boy who was holding his head. The fresh blood flowed non-stop and the wound extending to the edge of his eyebrow made the little boy want to cry. But when he saw his own mother about to suffocate, The little boy rushed over and grabbed his father's arm, causing him to release his wife. before turning around and squeezing his neck.

“You really want to die, don't you? can!!"

“Pa .. Father A.”

“I'm not your father! This bitch is promiscuous! Why have I never loved you? You don't even know because you're not my son!!” The boy thought back to the past when he was younger and saw his father beating his mother. After that, his father continued to attack him. He did this almost every day. He once asked his mother why he did this and why he had to make her cry. As he was still a child, his mother simply replied that his father did not intend it and he always believed his mother.

“Just... ah, father.”

“This bitch had an affair when she was dating me!! Oh, and my father. Go look for him in hell. By now, I'm probably waiting for you there.. with my skills.” The little boy was about to suffocate, his hands and feet starting to tense. The man in front of him didn't even show any mercy. He squeezed harder before he felt a pain in the middle of his back, like something was stabbing him.

before he let the boy down Then he collapsed to the ground. The father turned to look at his wife, who was holding a knife in her hand. That trembling look in his eyes made him know that she would definitely not be able to kill him. But he was wrong..

Shocking!!

“You made my child!! Do you think I wouldn't dare kill someone like you?!” The wife stabbed her husband until he fainted. A long stream of fresh blood flowed. The mother hurriedly embraced the boy, whose body was now covered with wounds.

“It's okay, my dear. We went to another place.. Ugh.” A man lying in a pool of blood grabbed a piece of a broken vase and stabbed his wife to death in the boy's arms.

Seriously!!

"You're going to die following me.. Ugh," the father said before he coughed up blood and died following his wife.

"mother!!!!!!"

“Whoa!!” A nineteen-year-old boy woke up in the middle of the night, sweat beading on his forehead. He turned to look at the clock, indicating that it was now 3:00 AM. Every time he dreams like this. He dreamed of his father and mother again. Even after nearly ten years had passed, he still couldn't come to terms with the pain he had received.

Tears flowed from his beautiful eyes until he began to sob until he threw up, raising his hand to cover his mouth. He was afraid the other person would find out he was crying again.

“Taemin, you're here. It's okay. It's okay.” Another young man woke up and hugged Taemin to comfort him, telling him it was okay. He heard Taemin cry every day for eight years. Eight years since he had to hug and comfort this little person like this. I pity him so much for Taemin. Ever since Taemin's parents passed away, Taemin has always been alone, living his life alone.

Until his father and mother went to adopt Taemin and raise him like a child. But soon his parents died in a car accident. Causing him and Taemin to be the only two people. He takes good care of Taemin. And he loves Taemin very much too.

“Hyung, Jonghyun hyung, don't leave me.” Taemin hugged Jonghyun before asking the question he had asked a thousand times before him. And the person in front of him repeated this sentence the same way every time, a thousand times as well.

"You'll never leave us, I promise."

“I love you.”

“I love you too. I love you more than my life.” Jonghyun kissed her forehead before the two lay down on the same bed, covering each other's chests with the covers.

“Good night.”

jingle!!!

“Morning. Wake up and go to class,” Jonghyun said, using his nose and neck to caress the other's bright cheek. But I only heard muttering from the little person who replied that he would like another five minutes. He shook his head at the sleepy little man before walking to the bathroom to do his own business and then going down to make breakfast, preparing the same thing every day.

He and Taemin were always like this. He always wakes up early to cook food for Taemin to eat, including dinner. Just because Taemin said he liked his food was the main reason he liked to cook and opened a restaurant. Apart from his father and mother, it is Taemin who he loves the most. And now he only has one heart left, his heart is with Taemin.

We've been through a lot together since the day he lost his parents in a car accident. His life was also bad at that time. Because of the debt that his father and mother had left behind, he was almost penniless. So he had to work to send Taemin and himself to school to earn food to survive every day. Until they got to this point, when they had enough money to open a restaurant, it made their lives better.

“Is there anything to eat? I'm really hungry.” Taemin, in his student uniform, walked down the stairs and put food in his mouth without waiting for another answer.

“All of our favorites.” Hearing this, Taemin smiled at his personal chef.

“Hurry up and eat so we can go.”

“I can go myself. It's hard for you to pick me up every day.” You said it like that but it felt good that another person drove you to university every day. But deep down, he was afraid that he would become more of a burden. He wanted to do more by himself. Because Jonghyun indulged him in everything from childhood until adulthood. He secretly thought that one day if Jonghyun wasn't with him, what his life would be like.

Jonghyun has become a part of his life, everything. If Jonghyun said his heart was with Taemin He wanted to say that his heart was with Jonghyun as well.

“It's okay, that's all.” Without saying anything, he reached out his hand and stroked the soft, caramel-colored hair of the person in front of him as usual.

"but .."

"But what? Is it finished yet? Let's go." Jonghyun said before picking up another person's bag and holding it in his hand and walking towards the car. Taemin shook his head lightly and smiled at the lover in front of him.

“Look, is everything ready?” Jonghyun grabbed Taemin and turned him left and right to inspect his well-worn student uniform. Before giving a thumbs up to say it's great.

“Very good, talented person. Then I'll come pick you up at 6 p.m. Do you want to eat anything so I can buy it?”

“No, I'm happy just because you came to pick me up,” he said cutely before hugging Jonghyun.

“What is it? You come to pick me up every day, haha.” Jonghyun said jokingly before hugging the lover in front of him back and burying his nose on his soft cheek.

“It's just.. every day I want it to be like this forever..”

"Yes, I promise. But now you can go study, smart one." He said before pulling away from the hug and gently pushing the other person's back to enter the school building.

“Bye.”

“Hey Taemin, can you tutor me today?” Sungjae, one of Taemin's classmates, said after he walked over and sat down at the table.

“Today? Uh..” Today he made an appointment with Jonghyun hyung. He didn't want to miss the appointment, but he also didn't want to reject Sungjae because Sungjae had tutored him often too.

"Why? Aren't you free today?"

“Not really, we have an appointment. But can I get it tomorrow?” Taemin said while making a sad face. Or should he call and reschedule Jonghyun's appointment?

“Um, no problem. It'll be okay for us to read the book ourselves."

“Uh, then we can tutor you,” Taemin said in embarrassment. He had to call Jonghyun hyung first or else it would definitely be a problem. Every once in a while, Sungjae would ask him to tutor him, but he couldn't refuse.

“Thank you, Taemin. I'll see you in the evening,” Sungjae said in a good mood before turning and walking away.

“Where? Who are you going with?”

“Ah, I don't know where yet. I'll tell you again. It should be just Sungjae alone.”

“Sigh, be careful. If something happens, call me right away."

“Okay, I don't have to worry, I'm just tutoring. I'll be right back.”

“Do you want me to go pick you up?”

"nevermind I'll be right back. I don't want to disturb you, I'm busy with work."

"Alright, if you change your mind, just call me."

“Yes, bye.” He heard Jonghyun sigh several times after calling to say that he would be late today and had to postpone his appointment. He knew that Jonghyun was reasonable enough that he wasn't angry, he was just worried about him that much.

“Are we going yet, Taemin?” Taemin looked up to see Sungjae standing and waiting. He hurriedly put the things in his bag before giving a slight nod.

“Let's go to our room. There are all the books there. Is Taemin okay?”

“Ah, okay, then let's go.” Taemin didn't forget to message Jonghyun with his address as he had promised.

‘Gangnam-gu, Yeoksam-dong, 25-1, Jin House’  

"Sit down, I'll go get you some water."

“Uh huh.”

“Make yourself comfortable, Taemin.”

“Are you alone?” Sungjae asked the person who was busy at the kitchen counter. Taemin walked around the room with interest.

“Yes, we are alone. Let's drink water first. We squeeze this orange juice ourselves.”

“Thank you.” Taemin picked up the glass of orange juice and held it to his lips before feeling a vibration in his pocket. He put the glass down before opening it and reading the message the other person had sent. 'Hurry back and be careful. ' Taemin smiled before putting it back in his bag.

“Who is it? Your boyfriend has a big smile on his face.” Taemin didn't answer, just nodded lightly before thinking of another person and accidentally smiled.

“Let's drink some water first. Please taste our skills.” Sungjae pushed a glass of orange juice towards Taemin. He drank it all and after a while he started to feel sleepy and his eyelids started to feel heavy.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..

“Until you fall asleep,” Sungjae used his hand to push the unconscious person to make sure he wouldn't wake up. Before picking up Taemin's phone, turning it off and throwing it away. He picked Taemin up and placed him on the bed and began unbuttoning the other man's shirt.

"I'm finished. I've worked hard to be nice to you for a long time before I could even respond. Ah, but I'm really sticky. Let me take a shower first, or I'll come have some fun too."

“Tue Dueng ..”

“Whoever came, wasted all my time.”

“Tue Dueng..”

“Who are you looking for?” Sungjae answered in a moody manner before glaring at the person in front of him.

“I came to see Taemin. Are you inside?” Jonghyun answered before noticing the man in front of him was wearing only a towel. He rushed forward and punched the person in front of him without stopping.

So much!! So much!!

“What are you doing to my girlfriend!!! You bastard!!!” Jonghyun's non-stop punches made Sungjae fall to the ground, bright blood flowing out of his mouth, and his face was covered in bruises. He removed his hand from Sungjae and walked into the room to see Taemin unconscious and his clothes frayed. Jonghyun walked back out again before delivering a kick to the other person's midsection.

Ugh!!!

“Spit, do you think I'm afraid of you? Your girlfriend will be mine.” Sungjae spat blood-filled saliva on the ground. He looked back at Jonghyun with a challenging look in his eyes.

"you!!!!"

“Yah, stop it, Jonghyun hyung!” The two of them turned to look at Taemin's call, who walked out of the bedroom in a distressed state.

“Taemin, please help us,” Sungjae said pitifully. Before Taemin turned around and pushed Jonghyun away and supported Sungjae's body up.

“Why go help him? He's going to rape us!”

“Be quiet! Sungjae is my friend. He doesn't do that. You're so cruel, Jonghyun!!” Taemin shouted cursing Jonghyun before gently helping Sungjae up. Taemin looked at Jonghyun with a disappointed look on his face. He never thought that Jonghyun hyung would be this cruel. How can you hurt your friend?

“Taemin, don't you believe me? ..”

“Taemin, we apologize because of us. We saw you faint. So we'll wipe you off. Then he came in and saw me. I'm sorry. Don't blame him.” Without saying anything, Sungjae turned and smiled at Jonghyun. Before pretending to look sad

“You!!!” Jonghyun meant to rush in and take issue with Sungjae again. But Taemin intervened before his slender hand slammed down on the other person's face with full force.

Plenty!!

"I've told you enough!! Go back!"

“Taemin.. Did we choose to believe it more than you?” Jonghyun's face was numb at the words and actions he received from the person in front of him, his throat felt tight to the point where he couldn't speak.

“You go back first. Right now I don't want to see your face."

“Fine, if that is your wish.” Jonghyun turned and walked out of the room without looking back. Taemin stood still as he looked at his own hand that hurt Jonghyun. Before tears flow from those beautiful eyes He didn't mean to.. He didn't go home that night and he didn't stay at Sungjae's condo.

Taemin went to rent a room and he didn't want to go home yet. And he still doesn't want to see Jonghyun's face. He apologized to Sungjae I don't know how many hundreds or thousands of times but Sungjae said it was okay.

It had been three days since he hadn't gone back to his house, three days since he hadn't seen Jonghyun. He turned off his cell phone all day, thinking he should go back. Only at that time he still felt guilty towards Sungjae.

“Taemin! Hee hee hee!” friends in the same class shouted before panting like people running from a distance.

"What's up? What's wrong?"

“Sungjae, Sungjae has been arrested by the police, do you know yet? Just last night.”

“Huh? Why what happened?”

“A woman reported that Sungjae raped him. And when the police went to search, they found a lot of evidence. Video clip that Sungjae secretly recorded They're such perverts. It's scary.” Taemin felt himself numb and his hands unconsciously tremble. Eyes are hot through So it's true that Jonghyun hyung came to help him? Why doesn't he believe it?

A person who is a part of his life, but who believes in other people, hurts that person with his words and actions. Taemin rushed out of the university. It is now 7:00 p.m. because I have a late class. He rushed out, hailed a taxi, and hurried home. But the house was empty and no one was home. Taemin hurriedly ran out towards the village.

He ran everywhere but couldn't find Jonghyun. Until he saw a man who looked like Jonghyun standing on the other side of the street.

“Jonghyun hyung!!” Taemin shouted from the other side and hurriedly ran across. Jonghyun turned around at the sound of his voice before he dropped the item in his hand.

“Taemin, be careful!!”

Chrome!!! Thump!!!

Jonghyun ran over and pushed Taemin away before he was hit by a truck, his entire body falling to the ground until a long stream of bright blood flowed. Taemin hurriedly crawled over to Jonghyun and cradled his entire body in his own embrace, tears falling from his beautiful eyes without stopping. His hands were shaking and he could hardly breathe. Small Mouth shouted for help non-stop. But no one helped him.

“I will take you to the doctor. You have to be patient, hehe.” His small hand searched around for his phone. But he couldn't find him before he shouted for help again.

“I'm okay. No need to cry. Just a gulp.." Jonghyun smiled faintly at Taemin and raised his barely-strength hand to lovingly wipe the tears of the person in front of him. His hands gently caressed his face, staring into the beautiful eyes that he liked to look at when we were tired or discouraged.

“Call an ambulance for me!! I beg you! Please.. Huh.” Taemin held Jonghyun's hand tightly as if he would disappear.

“Help, help my girlfriend. I give it my all and help him!!” A small figure screamed across the street. He sat and embraced that figure without disgust. He cried until he threw up as his asthma started to flare up. But he still tried to carry Jonghyun on his back.

“Brother, you have never been angry with us. Don't blame yourself, Ugh!” As if the more he spoke, the more Jonghyun's condition worsened and he started coughing up blood as well as wounds all over his body.

“Let's go, let's go to the hospital. Huh..” The small figure shook his head and used a handkerchief to press down on Jonghyun's stomach to stop the bleeding while the blood continued to flow.

“Taemin-ah..” Jonghyun reached into his pocket before the blue velvet box fell. He slowly used his strength to open the box. It turns out there was a diamond ring with a heart-shaped pendant in the middle that he intended to buy for Taemin's engagement.

“Can I please give you my hand?” Jonghyun smiled as his eyes started to blur. He saw Taemin cry until his body was so small that he looked so pitiful. Like always, he wanted to reassure him that it was okay. But now he's so tired. Taemin held out a trembling hand to the man in front of him and carefully placed the ring on his left ring finger. Jonghyun gently kissed the back of his small hand.

“That's enough. Don't do this. We'll still be together!” Taemin tried to carry Jonghyun's body again. He used all his strength to support that body.

“Taemin-ah.. Just a little, that's enough.” Jonghyun tried to hold himself up, bright blood spilled out of his mouth as soon as he spoke. He knew Taemin couldn't carry him anymore and his small body was starting to have an asthma attack. If Taemin didn't hurry up and take the medicine, his life might be at risk. He couldn't let anything happen to Taemin.

“Don't talk, stop talking! I'll take you to the doctor. You'll get better soon!” His legs and arms barely had the strength to carry Jonghyun to the hospital. Asthma symptoms began to worsen. The small body fell to the ground before Jonghyun reached out with a weak hand and searched for something in Taemin's bag. Jonghyun stuffs ventolin into Taemin's hand. Because he himself probably couldn't take it anymore.

“Hurry up and squirt the medicine.” Jonghyun's breath was coming down hard as fresh blood flowed out without stopping. He couldn't take care of the person in front of him any longer.

“I'm sorry. I love you. You'll be fine. You have to stay with me.” Taemin crawled back to Jonghyun before trying to carry him on his back again. But his effort had gone to nil, he didn't even have the strength to stand. The two figures fell to the pavement again. The sound of the ambulance came closer and closer after which their consciousness faded.

I had a dream. I dreamed that I was with Jonghyun hyung, both of us wearing white clothes, surrounded by a field of flowers. But Jonghyun hyung suddenly became further and further away from me. I tried to run after him but he just smiled back and waved at me. I called out to him from far away, but he couldn't hear me.

“Whoa!!” I was startled, looked left and right, here at the hospital. I pulled the IV out of my arm and rushed out.

"nurse! The person who came with me, Jonghyun, Kim Jonghyun, where is he? Is he safe?” I grabbed the arm of a nurse who had just walked out of the opposite room. My heart was pounding, my lips were dry and the edge of my answer was starting to feel hot again. I hope my dreams are just a lie

“The patient who came with you. He has died. I'm so sorry.” It was as if the whole world was falling apart. The little body collapsed on the ground before a nurse came to support it. He cried out without shame, his heart seemed to stop beating. He saw Jonghyun standing there. The little figure rushed out to the hospital balcony. He saw Jonghyun standing and waiting for him. Wait for me, I'll follow you.

He tried to climb onto the balcony. But a nurse came in and caught him in time.

"release!! Hey Jonghyun!! It's not true, you guys are lying!!! He's not dead yet!!” He looked like he was about to suffocate, holding his left hand on his chest. A cry sounded throughout the building and the small figure collapsed to the ground again. It was like my heart was about to break into pieces, everything happened too fast. He was just dreaming. When he woke up again, he would be with Jonghyun hyung.

His body went through so much crying that he fell asleep. As before, he dreamed that he was in a white dress with Jonghyun in a field of flowers. And then Jonghyun disappeared.

"If I don't have you anymore, Taemin must survive.”

"No, where are you going? I won't let you go."

“We can't be together anymore. Take good care of yourself. I love you always.”

“I love you too, but don't go. How can I live? Don't leave me, I beg you."

“I'm still here. Always be here with us.” Jonghyun placed his hand on the other person's left chest. before gently kissing her forehead.

“Whoa!!” The little body was startled by tears that were flowing out of his eyes. He cried. He dreams of Jonghyun. Jonghyun left him and never returned. The small figure clutched his left breast before crying out. It was because of him that if he hadn't hurt Jonghyun, if he had believed Jonghyun, this kind of incident wouldn't have happened. The person who died was probably him, how could he live like this?

“Go to sleep, naughty child.”

"Oh, I'm going to bed now."

“Yes, good night.”

"I don't eat this vegetable."

“Okay, I'll eat it for you. But other vegetables must be eaten, you know that, right?”

“Yes, Jonghyun hyung is the cutest.”

"Then I love you a lot."

“Oh!”

"What's wrong? Does it hurt anywhere?"

"The glass is broken. It hurts."

“Next time, be careful, you know? I'll dress the wound for you."

"Wow, it hurts."

“Phew, it'll be gone soon.”

“Take my hand.”

“Of course.”

“Don't let it go at all.”

“I will definitely never let go.”

"I don't have anyone left."

"I still have you. You will always be with us."

"You won't leave me, right? Promise."

"Yes, P'Sanya."

“You broke your promise. You said you wouldn't leave me. Please take me to live with you..” The small figure placed a black rose on the face of the carved plaque. A slender hand brushed away the dust from the plaque before tears streamed from her beautiful eyes. He bowed his head to the grave like a helpless person. Wherever he went, he saw only memories of him and Jonghyun.

When Jonghyun doesn't eat vegetables, he eats them instead. When he was sick, Jonghyun always took care of him. No matter if he was right or wrong, Jonghyun would never scold him. But he has never done anything nice for Jonghyun. The small figure looked down at his trembling hands. The hand he used to hurt Jonghyun that day He slammed his hand against the carved stone tablet, bright blood flowing from his hand.

He looked at the ring on his left ring finger that was covered in blood. He kissed the ring repeatedly as tears streamed down.

“I love you, but you are so cruel, how can you leave me alone?”

“But I'm not angry at you. Soon I will follow you.”

“But if possible God is not cruel to me. I want to start over I don't want it to be like this.”

“You will be the person I love forever.”

“Goodbye, my heart.” The small figure walked away with tears streaming down the pouring rain as if it wanted to cry as a friend.

I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset 

I wanna reset , I wanna reset , I wanna reset

Deep in my heart

It was empty like there was nothing.

I looked at the loneliness and darkness.

Just someone to hold my hand