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I just found out my own heart.

KaiDo 

“I just found out about my own heart. That it can't be without you

Had to come to the point of pain and cry with regret

Then who are you going to blame?

The love you gave me was thrown away.

How much does that make you sad?

The more you keep coming back to hurt your own heart.

In fact, he loves, loves you with all his heart.

Why did I just know my own heart?"

Cr.

Just found out about my own heart - Tono

***Warning***

This fic is about a man loving a man. Whoever doesn't like it, just press it out.

The story is only the imagination of the author.

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Just found out about my own heart -

KaiDo

Room 1214

“Jongin...hug..please...don't do this.” Kyungsoo's almost heartbreaking cry begged the tall figure who was packing his clothes and belongings to leave his condo and go to the condo where we were staying. together for 7 years. Yes, Do Kyungsoo and Kim Jongin have been lovers for 7 years, since 2nd year, but the current status is about to become Just an ex-boyfriend......

“Let me go....let's break up, Kyungsoo,” Jongin said, trying to remove his small hand from his arm.

“Jongin....no...no...please...please don't do this...” Kyungsoo cried out loudly. Kyungsoo himself knows that lately we've both been fighting a lot and hardly having time for each other. Kyungsoo is working, Jongin is partying, how long has it been like this? That the two of them didn't sleep together or hugged each other.

“I want to break up,” Jongin said, flicking Kyungsoo's grip on his wrist until Kyungsoo was lying on the floor. Jongin was a little shocked. But he chose to ignore it and walked out of the room...

“Jongin..jumpy...Jongin..da..please..” Kyungsoo cried like that even though his tall figure had walked far from his room and even though his heart wanted to run after him. But his body was so weak that he couldn't get up and follow him.

It's really finished. His love...

Kyungsoo and Jongin's love.....

7 years ago

“Kyungsoo, look, that hoobae is always looking at you,” said Byun Baekhyun, Kyungsoo's best friend, looking at the opposite table where the hoobae he was looking for was sitting. I saw the eyes of another junior looking at his friend with sweet eyes.

“Look and look. Anyway, you don't dare flirt with me like everyone else,” Kyungsoo said because it was very normal. There are many people who like him. But because his reputation for cruelty spread to many groups. Therefore, whoever he flirts with will be scolded. Fleeing and falling apart, only secretly liking it Only secretly delighted

“Huh, don't you think I'll open up to you? This person is handsome.” Baekhyun tried to tease Kyungsoo.

“Huh...if I dare, I'll try it..but I probably won't dare. A little kid too,” Kyungsoo said before turning to look at the first-year student at the table. And meeting the guy that Baekhyun said stared at him like that, I don't know, it's crazy. But that doctor was very handsome, with tan skin and a sexy athlete's body. And if there seem to be a lot of girls who like it too, huh.

“Oh kids, it's delicious, haha,” Baekhyun said and laughed happily. Kyungsoo turned around and smiled nonchalantly and continued reading. Because there will be an afternoon exam as well.

“Uh...sorry...Kyungsoo hyung...”

“Huh...is there something wrong?” Kyungsoo turned towards the voice calling and saw that The boy at the table got up and walked towards him with bubble tea?

“Here..” The man stood a glass of milk tea in front of Kyungsoo.

“Thank you.” Kyungsoo thanked him as usual… but before he could pick it up, the milk tea glass was pulled back to its owner as before.

“Ah..what is this...are you going to give it to me?!” Kyungsoo said, trying to make a face.

"Yes....but can I exchange it for your Line?" said the young man in front of him.

“Wow, our Little Do has someone flirting with us again,” Baekhyun said, teasing that his voice wasn't loud enough and he even invited Jongdae to join in on top of him.

“Give it, Kyungsoo, if you don't give it to me, I'll give it to you.” Jongdae said.

“It's okay, I'd rather get it from Kyungsoo hyung.” The young man said, looking at his sweet face again.

“What else are you gambling about?” Kyungsoo said because everyone already knew his reputation for cruelty, so no one dared to blatantly flirt with him. But this guy is so bold, he must have bet with his friends. Huh!!

"What kind of bet? Me?"

“Huh! I don't know your last name. And like this, do you want me to give a stranger a line?” Kyungsoo said. It's true, we talked for a long time. But this doctor refused to tell me his last name.

“Oh..excuse me. I'm Kim Jongin, first year engineering student.” Jongin said and introduced himself.

“Um,” Kyungsoo couldn't answer but just nodded. And before Jongin could ask anything

The bell rings.

The bell for the end of time sounded.

“Let's go study,” Kyungsoo said to his friends before packing up his books and getting ready for afternoon class.

“But” all my friends stood there wondering what to do with the young man.

"nevermind Please go study. I'll see you after school." Jongin said when he saw that the little guy was going to study.

“Then I'll go first. You remember me, Kim Jongin, Kyungsoo hyung, 2nd year arts faculty,” Jongin said, winking at him and walking towards the group of friends as before. Without forgetting to stuff the pearl milk tea into the small figure's hand.

“What is it?” Kyungsoo said, very confused.

“Cool,” Baekhyun turned to whisper to the two Jongdaes. And the three of them went to study normally.

“How are you, Jongin?” Chanyeol, one of Jongin's closest friends, asked.

“Very, very, very, very cute,” Jongin said excitedly, “Just like Kyungsoo hyung. When you look closely, it's really cute. And the sound is really beautiful too.”

“Wow~~ Ni, I really have a crush on you,” Sehun, another close friend, said.

“I think it's more than just being lost,” Chanyeol turned to talk to Sehun. Let Jongin continue to ramble on.

The bell rings.

"Okay, that's enough for today and I'll see you next week." The teacher at the front of the class said before walking out.

“Kyungsoo, today me and Jongdae are joining the club. Will you come with me?” Baekhyun asked.

"No, today I'm going to buy things for my mom. She asked me to buy things for the camping trip tomorrow," Kyungsoo said before packing up his things and preparing to split up with his best friend.

"Oh! Jongin! Are you here to wait for Kyungsoo?” Baekhyun shouted, greeting Jongin who was waiting to receive Kyungsoo as he had said.

“Yes,” Jongin answered, hiding his gaze at the small figure standing next to him with a calm expression.

“Then we will go first. Bye.” Baekhyun and Jongdae waved goodbye and Kyungsoo took his leave. before they both walked out.

“Let me help you,” Jongin said, helping carry his notebook.

“It's okay, I can carry it myself,” Kyungsoo said, taking the book back and carrying it himself. and move on

“Where are you going next?” Jongin asked, walking along the small figure.

“Buy something for mom,” Kyungsoo said as he left.

“Then I'll go with you,” Jongin said, coming out of his own accord.

“Ni! Why are you following me? I can go buy it myself. Just go wherever you want to go,” Kyungsoo said impatiently. Well, he doesn't like having people who aren't close to him come and pester him. No matter how much he tries to flirt with someone like this, they're all chased away - -**

“Well, I'm flirting with you. I like you, Kyungsoo. I really like that I didn't go out and bet with anyone!” Jongin said seriously. To which Kyungsoo was stunned and silent.

“N...you...you idiot-////-“ Kyungsoo cursed before walking away. which Jongin thought was a very cute curse. And if he wasn't mistaken, he could tell that the little man was embarrassed because his sweet face turned a little red.

“So, what's the conclusion?” Jongin got his bearings and hurriedly rushed in.

“What!!” Kyungsoo said before walking faster -///- This bastard isn't afraid of dark forces anymore.

“Then let me flirt with you,” Jongin said, grabbing the small wrist, causing Kyungsoo to stop walking and turn to look at the tall man seriously.

“I don't know,” Kyungsoo said and tried to shake his hand away.

“Hyung, I'm serious,” Jongin said, making serious eye contact with the little man again.

“Well...well...you can try...maybe,” Kyungsoo said in a low voice. But Jongin still heard it.

“It's....true!!” Jongin said and smiled happily. “You agreed to be my girlfriend.” Jongin said and took his small hand and shook it back and forth.

“Don't mess up! Just let the flirting not be your boyfriend for a bit and let it stick first,” Kyungsoo said, removing Jongin's hand that was like glue and walking forward. With a bright red face

“I'll stick with you, hehe,” Jongin said and followed beside the small figure. Camouflage smiled happily.

After that day, Jongin flirted with Kyungsoo until he became addicted, although it might take some time. Because Kyungsoo is extremely stubborn. But when we're just lovers, what is the stubbornness Jongin doesn't know at all? It's Kyungsoo, so cute, so sweet, soft and cute, more affectionate than what people say is brutal. They're together and They are the envy of many people at the university because their cuteness and love is what makes many people envious of Jongin's love for Kyungsoo.

And Kyungsoo loves Jongin very much. The couple dated until they entered working age, until they entered their 7th year. Many things piled up on top of each other, including time, work, and

third party.....

current

It's been 2 months since Jongin left since that day. Kyungsoo thought that it would be pointless for him to just sit and grieve, even though at first he couldn't accept it and cried so hard that his best friend Baek Hyun had to sleep with him, but now he thinks he's better. Time will heal the wounds of your heart.

“Miss Kyungsoo, I think it's already 8:00 p.m. You should be able to go home now,” Junmyeon, the owner of the company where Kyungwoo works, said to the petite figure who had been focusing on film work since the news broke up with him. My boyfriend is gone. It might be strange that the matters of employees would be of interest to the boss, but for a small person that he already wants to take care of, it wouldn't be strange that he would know about these things. At first he went in to ask for the opportunity to take care of the little person instead. But sometimes the answers that come out make him just a friend or a supervisor.

“Ah...Yes, I'm about to go back.” Kyungsoo said when he looked up at the clock and saw that it was already 8 p.m.

“Then let me send you off as it's already late.” Junmyeon saw the hand and asked to be the one to send the small figure instead, even though he was also a man. But Kyungsoo has a sweet face and a small figure that makes him look protective.

“Uh....Okay.” Kyungsoo replied and hurriedly packed up his things. Actually, this wasn't the first time that Junmyeon had asked to send him off, so he could only accept because Junmyeon was the boss after all.

“Thank you for dropping me off,” Kyungsoo asked as he arrived in front of his condo.

“Kyungsoo-san....can't you give me a chance?” Junmyeon asks for another chance because he thinks that maybe Kyungsoo has come to terms with it.

“Miss Junmyeon...it's me...

....I'm sorry," Kyungsoo said, turning his head guiltily to look at Junmyeon, only now Junmyeon knew the meaning of it.

“I understand,” Junmyeon said, wearing a smile that he thought spoke well of his feelings.

“Then drive carefully,” Kyungsoo said, bowing his head in farewell. before getting out of the car and walking into the condo

Room 1214

Tid!! The sound of unlocking your room's keycard Without even noticing, Kyungsoo walked into the room tiredly. In front of the room there were other people's shoes....

“Kyungsoo....came back?”

“Jongin...” Kyungsoo was so shocked by the sight in front of him that the things in his hand fell to the floor.

“Kyungsoo.....I'm sorry...” Jongin apologized for what he had done before walking towards the little man. that just stood still in place

“Y...don't...come in...” Kyungsoo replied, his voice trembling. Camouflage moved back to answer, his voice trembling not because he was afraid of Jongin, but because tears would flow from it.

“Kyungsoo.....I'm really sorry,” Jongin said again with a sad face. And if Kyungsoo was right, his once good-looking face suddenly looked sad. Jongin looked like he wasn't the same Jongin. People who always take care of themselves

“Get out of here... go back that way.” Kyungsoo regained his composure. He said back in a strong voice.

“Please...just listen to me,” Jongin said, fighting back tears. It's pathetic for men, but Jongin doesn't think it's pathetic at all. Because he cries for the person he loves.

“Don't say that word......the word please....You shouldn't say it, words that you never planned to hear when I said them.” Kyungsoo couldn't stand it and let Tears stream down your sweet face.

“Go back. You left the key card on the table. You have no right to use it again.” Kyungsoo said before walking into the room and locking the lock before sitting down and leaning against the door, hugging him. Kneel yourself and cry as you can't bear it. "Huh...huh...huh"

Jongin hearing the little man cry didn't mean he didn't feel anything. His heart hurts as well. Jongin thought that Kyungsoo wouldn't want to see him right now so he placed the keycard that used to be his on the table. and walked out of room 1214

Kyungsoo cried so hard that he fell asleep and woke up again at 1:00 a.m. When I went to sleep, I couldn't sleep, so I thought I'd go down to the 7-Eleven in front of the condo to get something. But before I left the room, I found another key card for my room sitting on the table in front of the TV. Kyungsoo picked it up and walked to the kitchen before throwing it in the trash.

Cool! The sound of the elevator coming down to the ground floor. And before Kyungsoo found the door to the condo, the guard walked in and wrapped his arms around him.

“Miss Kyungsoo,” the uncle guard walked over and called out to Kyungsoo.

“Yes, Uncle.”

“Well, I saw Mr. Jongin. I'm sleeping in the lobby. I've seen him sleeping since around 9:00 p.m. So I thought that Mr. Jongin probably didn't have a key card, but I didn't dare go and wake him up. Mr. Kyungsoo, please go look at him,” Uncle Guard said in a long sentence. Kyungsoo was a bit surprised as to why Jongin didn't go back to his own house.

“Yes, Uncle. Thank you very much.” Kyungsoo thanked Uncle Yam and walked to the lobby. to look for a tall person and found Jongin sleeping on the sofa

“Here,” Kyungsoo reached out and poked Jongin, who was sleeping.

“Ugh!” Jongin stirred, but he still didn't wake up.

“Huh! Still as sleepy as ever,” Kyungsoo said softly to himself and didn't realize he was smiling while watching Jongin sleep.

“Ni! Jongin, wake up now.” Kyungsoo decided to pinch Jongin's cheek. It was a wake-up call like we had done before.

“Ouch...Kyungsoo.” Jongin woke up wide-eyed when he saw the person he was dreaming about standing in front of him.

“Why don't you just go home and sleep in someone else's condo?” Kyungsoo said, covering his legs and looking at him.

“Well...I think I'll wake up tomorrow morning and go talk to Kyungsoo again.” Jongin said that his own intentions tomorrow were the reason he chose to sleep in the lobby of the condo instead of going back. Self crazy

“..........” Kyungsoo chose to remain silent and stare at the drowsy face instead.

“Go....go sleep upstairs. Sleep here, it's like someone else's.” Kyungsoo said and walked out towards the elevator.

“Hah!!!” Jongin was shocked by what he just heard.

“I will only say this once,” Kyungsoo turned around before entering the elevator.

“Yes,” Jongin quickly answered and ran into the same elevator.

Tid!!

“Come in, why are you stupidly standing there?” Kyungsoo said, leaving when Jongin stood still in front of the door and refused to come in.

“Yes...Yes.” Jongin, who couldn't help himself, didn't think that Kyungsoo would be willing to talk to him again anytime soon. But even though there was scolding along with him, Jongin thought that it was better than just kicking him out anyway.

“Just sleep. Don't do anything and don't touch anything in the room.” Kyungsoo turned and said before getting into his own bed.

“Uh....sleeping...in the bed?” Jongin asked boldly.

“That's right!!” Kyungsoo snorted before turning to sleep.

“Thank you,” Jongin said before getting onto the bed gently for fear of disturbing the little person who was sleeping.

“Kyungsoo.....” Jongin called out to the small figure next to him in a low voice.

"Are you asleep yet..." but there was no response. Jongin thought that Kyungsoo was already asleep.

“I... have never been able to stop loving Kyungsoo.” Jongin So he had the opportunity to vent his feelings from the past 2 months.

“Even though I was the one who asked to break up. I feel like it's really stupid. I want to quit and it hurts.”

“I....have never had anyone other than Kyungsoo....When I think that I have to love someone other than Kyungsoo.....even though I haven't tried yet....but I know. I definitely can't do it...."

“Huh! I must be really stupid and crazy. What do you say to a sleeping person? Haha.......Good night, Kyungsoo." Jongin said in a soft voice and kissed the soft hair of the small figure next to him before falling asleep.

Without realizing that Kyungsoo wasn't asleep yet......

Kyungsoo woke up the next morning but when he looked at the bed next to him, he couldn't find Jongin. But Kyungsoo didn't care that much, even though Jongin's words from last night were in Kyungsoo's mind. Choose to take a shower and get dressed. Prepare to go to work as usual. But before he could get out of the door, his eyes caught his eye. Post your own pink post but someone else uses it. At the front door of the room, Kyungsoo picked it up and looked at it.

“Today I had to wake up quickly because there was singing in Myeongdong this evening...

I hope Kyungsoo comes............I really want him to come.”

Jongin

It might be strange for Kyungsoo to keep reading his ex's stupid paper, but it's even more strange that Kyungsoo chose to keep the paper instead of throwing it away.

“Miss Kyungsoo, do you have any business this evening? I just came across your favorite Japanese restaurant that has recently opened. Are you interested?” Junmyeon invited Kyungsoo who was packing up his things and getting ready to leave work.

"Uh....sorry, I have business today," Kyungsoo said humbly.

“That.....It's okay,” Junmyeon said sadly.

“Then I'll excuse myself first,” Kyungsoo said goodbye and hurriedly ran out of the company. Because now It's almost past time.

“Hahaha!” Kyungsoo rushed from his office to Myeongdong. It's a good thing they're not too far away. Just far apart 2Block Kyungsoo rushed to the venue where Jongin's singing event was held.......Actually he didn't really want to come......he just wanted to know why Jongin wanted to. Just let him come.

“Ah!”

“Scream!”

The sound of teenage girls screaming loudly was everywhere. Jongin and the band have come to sing the opening song here regularly since they were at university, even now working. Some even company owners like Sehun still come to do what they like, which Kyungsoo sees as a very good thing. When Kyungsoo was in university and was still Jongin's girlfriend.

He had the opportunity to sing here as well, but when he entered working age he chose to quit while Jongin still chose to continue doing it.....

“Hello, I'm sorry that we haven't been able to play here much these past few weeks. A lot of things happened to our guitarist today as an apology. Our handsome guitarist would like to excuse himself by coming to sing for you, please, Mr. Jongin.” Chanyeol, the lead singer, told his friend Jongin to take the lead vocal position.

“Ah!”

“Woooooooooooooooooo.”

The screams sounded again and Jongin walked to the lead vocal position before looking for the person he was waiting for but could hardly see because there were so many people.

“Uh...Hello. Jongin.” Jongin introduced himself first.

“That is before I sang. I would like to say a few things....." Jongin spoke again, causing the area to become quiet. The fans waited to hear the words that Jongin, the handsome guitarist, had to say.

“I have done wrong to the person I love and he loves me. I used to think that by breaking up with him I could find a new boyfriend. I broke up with him even though he begged and pleaded with me. I didn't care and walked away from him....but I came to know that I couldn't be without him. I was stupid, right? I was the one who asked to break up and got hurt just like him until now I know how much I love him..............

Kyungsoo hyung, I don't know if you're here or not, but if you are, please listen to me. This Kim Jongin's heart.....can't love anyone else except Do Kyungsoo. ....Please forgive this fool. Please give me the chance to love you again.....Kyungsoo," Jongin finished, wiping away the tears that fell whenever he fell. I didn't know before the music started playing, a song meant to apologize to Kyungsoo. A song that expresses his feelings well right now.

(If anyone has never listened to it, click to listen to the song above. We've already posted it for you.)

“I'm like a person without a heart.

that keeps deceiving you Never cared, never cared

I'm the one who keeps hurting you

Don't look at what you've encountered. It's called true love.

And today my eyes are open It started to become clear when she left.

When I don't know what life would be like without you.

I just found out about my own heart. That it can't be without you

Had to come to the point of pain and cry with regret

Then who are you going to blame?

The love you gave me was thrown away.

How much does that make you sad?

The more you keep coming back to hurt your own heart.

Will it be possible to return to the way it was before?

Will we be able to forgive each other? Whatever I did, I knew I was wrong.

No matter if you don't look, don't care, don't care

I'm willing to be someone who doesn't have any reason. I will do everything in my power to not let her go anywhere.

And today my eyes are open It started to become clear when she left.

When you don't know what life will be like A day without you

I just realized in my heart that I can't live without you.

Had to come to the point of pain and cry with regret

Then who are you going to blame?

The love you gave me was thrown away.

How much does that make you sad?

The more you keep coming back to hurt your own heart.

I just found out about my own heart. That it can't be without you

Had to come to the point of pain and cry with regret

Then who are you going to blame?

The love you gave me was thrown away.

How much does that make you sad?

The more you keep coming back to hurt your own heart.

In fact, he loves, loves you with all his heart.

Why did I just know my own heart?”

When the song ended, applause followed. Some people even cried because of the emotional impact of this incident. After that, Jongin returned to his original position and continued to play another song with the group, even though his eyes were still red.

Kyungsoo walked out of Myeongdong after Jongin finished singing. Kyungsoo took a taxi back to his condo. Because he wanted to reconsider a lot of things right now, ever since he saw Jongin cry, his heart almost broke. It hurt even more than when Jongin asked to break up. Kyungsoo knows himself well and has always known that there has never been a day when he stopped loving and thinking about Jongin as well.

When they got to the condo, Kyungsoo cried a lot. Kyungsoo thought and thought about what he should do. He wanted to forgive Jongin, but he was also afraid that Jongin would break up with himself. Kyungsoo cried until he fell asleep on the sofa in the living room.

Dungdung!!

The sound of the doorbell ringing in front of the room woke up Kyungsoo who had fallen asleep and walked straight to the front of the room.

“Jongin,” the small figure called out.

“Kyungsoo,” Jongin called out at the same time.

“Huh...huh” Kyungsoo went to hug his tall figure, hiding himself from crying again.

“Hee hee...Jongin...hee.”

“Kyungsoo....don't cry, please,” Jongin said, hugging his small body tightly as well.

“Ugh!” Kyungsoo cried even harder as Jongin hugged him tighter.

“I'm sorry, good man. I'm sorry,” Jongin said, the small figure wiping away the tears from his sweet face.

“Jongin....don't...do this...again...” Kyungsoo said, sobbing.

“Yes.....I will never give up my heart again,” Jongin said, pressing a kiss to Nuan's forehead.

“San.....promise....that you won't leave us again..huh,” Kyungsoo said and stared into his sharp eyes.

“Yes, I promise I will never do that again. Give me another chance,” Jongin said seriously.

“Oh!” Kyungsoo nodded happily. “We love Jongin,” Kyungsoo said.

“I also love Kyungsoo. I love my heart,” Jongin said, kissing the soft, heart-shaped lips that he hadn't had a chance to kiss for 2 months. Thoughts, longing, everything came together. Kyungsoo himself kissed back. I miss you too. The pair stood and kissed warmly, and Jongin broke the kiss and stared at the sweet face again. before immediately picking up Kyungsoo in a bridal style and heading towards the bedroom

“I miss you,” Jongin gently laid Kyungsoo down on the bed, telling the small man whose face was bright red. So he couldn't resist kissing that red cheek once.

Damn it!

“We miss Jongin a lot,” Kyungsoo said, reaching out to wrap his hand around Jongin's neck.

“You're my girlfriend now,” Jongin said, smiling happily.

“Oh, so you have to take good care of me.” Kyungsoo replied in the same way. The same words that 7 years ago Jongin had said to him about his request to be his girlfriend.

Kyungsoo responded in his own way.

Jongin smiled until his eyes narrowed before kissing the sweet heart that smiled at him as well. And tonight both Kyungsoo and Jongin were together happily.

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“Tomorrow I will move things in with Kyungsoo,” Jongin said while hugging his small body.

“Alright.....but the other key card was already discarded, so from now on, Jongin and I must return together and exit together. Wherever Jongin goes, we'll go too, okay?" Kyungsoo said, smiling happily.

“Okay, from now on after work we will go take Kyungsoo back to the room together. Wherever Kyungsoo goes, I'll go with you. Jongin will be even more attached to Kyungsoo Jae than he was 7 years ago. Is that okay?" Jongin said, smiling slightly.

“Okay!!” Kyungsoo said and snuggled into Jongin's warm embrace that he missed all the time. Jongin hugged him back before they both fell asleep together, the happiness of being back again. times and Jongin promises that this time he will take the best care of it.

THEEND