In fact, I feel like we haven't finished writing this fic yet.

But we don't know when we'll get married again. So we took it down.

We just recently started dating Tujun. If anyone has a fun moment or a fun fic, please share some. <3

This fic is suitable for people who have free time. Nothing to read

There are no sweet moments. There is only a description of a cold feeling.

(Listen to the song and you'll get very emotional, right?)

...It's good to comment sometimes...

Isn’t Your Heart Tired?

she is there Are you tired of heart problems?

Junhyung looked up at the dull sky as cold white mist slowly fell down and piled up on the ground until it formed a mound halfway up his knee joints. Junhyung tried hard not to close his eyes. When the mist fell into his eyes But the coldness and stinging made him automatically close his eyes.

Junhyung laughed a little at his nonsense. He shook his head and took a step after stopping in his tracks for a long time.

Maybe because it was a holiday, there weren't as many people as on normal days. Along the walkway, Junhyung could only see the snow that was falling on the road, growing higher and higher. Meanwhile, the snowplow workers began their work quietly. Junhyung smiled politely as he walked past the movie of snowplowing.

Junhyung tightened his crimson scarf around his neck and shuffled his feet into the snow like a child playing in the rain. He smiled at his own vanity. If it was a normal day, he would be afraid that others would think he was crazy. But on a day when there weren't many people around like this, it was like he was freeing himself. And on days like this in the past, he used to keep a straight face. Any other I'm a pretentious person. And there was another person beside me who smiled often.

How have youbeen since the day we separated?

As for me, I have a different life.

(How are you? From the second day we were far apart

As for this person, their life is not the same as before.)

Junhyung let out a white breath because of the extremely cold air. He found that his breath almost turned into ice the moment he released it from his mouth. Junhyung raised a finger and rubbed his numb nose. He thought his nose must be very red in this cold weather.

“Your nose is red too, cute.”

The old memories and the atmosphere overlaid made him smile. Junhyung thought of his sharp face moving closer. Along with pulling his nose until it felt a bit painful, his voice was deep and his face was older than his age. Making him smile easily even though he's usually too lazy to smile.

Junhyung found that he smiled a lot more often since he walked with someone.

before anyone stops walking

“Are you secretly smiling?”

Junhyung let out another sigh and shook his head slightly. He picked up his phone when a message rang in the group chat. He shifted his gaze from the original chat to the latest chat. He looked at the messages that kept popping up. Most of which were Hyunseung and Yoseob who would never stop texting each other.

Yo Zombie (

YOSEOB) :

Read and refuse to answer. Evil.

Yo Zombie (

YOSEOB) :

There were many people who didn't answer at all. Bad.

Kwang: Do you think everyone will be free to talk to you all the time?

Whoever I meet, they ask about you

(meet someone) How many people have asked about her?)

Junhyung looked through the message and all he saw was the two of them talking. He scrolled and read from the first to the latest. And then had to stop with the message that was sent.

Yo Zombie (

YOSEOB) :

Today I went to meet an old man.

Yo Zombie (

YOSEOB):

Came with a girl from somewhere I don't know.

Hyunseung: Let's chat alone.

Hyunseung: If we want to talk about this.

Junhyung smiled when he saw his pretty friend texting in the group chat because he wasn't the type to chat with anyone. And the concern that Hyunseung seemed to notice was the first to be true in the group chat, it was always there who read it. Therefore, it would not be surprising to know that he saw this message.

Round eyes looked at the message from the original Yoseob who had sent an apology in the group chat and asked in the next message.

Yo Zombie (

YOSEOB) :

Oh, I forgot.

Yo Zombie (

YOSEOB) :

I'm sorry, Junhyung. I really forgot.

Yo Zombie (

YOSEOB) :

I didn't mean to.

Yo Zombie (

YOSEOB) :

But why did you guys have to break up?

Yo Zombie (

YOSEOB) :

I saw you guys love each other to death.

My answer is only a smile

(My answer was only a smile)

            Yong     : J

But who knows the truth?

(But really, who knows?)

Junhyung stopped paying attention to the group chat that seemed to explode after he sent a message. In fact, it couldn't even be called a message because it was just a smiley emoticon. He pressed lock. phone and didn't forget to turn off the group chat notifications with his legs walking along the path in no hurry. Today he didn't have work to do and just went out for a walk.

In the past, when he was a teenager, it was an age when he didn't have to think much about anything except studying. In his brain, in his head he was just studying, eating, sleeping, playing. It was a normal life. The most ordinary place There was nothing spectacular and he was not at all bored with his life like that.

Instead, he thought back to that time.

A time when he didn't have to think about anything.

He really missed that time.

Once again, Junhyung stopped walking. He sat down on a bench that had a little snow on it, so he sat down without paying any attention to it. Bench chair that seats two people Junhyung sat on the right side as usual. He accidentally looked at the empty seat next to him. It made him feel bad.

If it were in the past, he would hardly have thought about such things. Sitting alone while eating was a normal thing that he really liked.

“You sit on the right side. I'll sit on the left."

"Why?"

“Because I will sit in your heart.”

“Heh.” Thinking of the stupid joke that came out of his mouth caused him to squeak out. He remembered that he was deadpan at the time. He's not that easily embarrassed.

“Your ears are red. Are you really embarrassed keke?”

That my heart is weak with the change

(That my heart is weak with the word change)

Junhyung sighed. Did he sigh a lot today?

His eyes looked straight ahead at the road. The chair he sat in was stuck on the side of the walkway facing the road. And across the street, there's a sweet-colored ice cream shop where most of the customers are high school girls. If he were to tell Yoseob that he'd ever been to a pink shop like this, he'd definitely be teasing him.

Junhyung pursed his lips tightly.

“Why does it have to be this shop?”

“Why? Pink, your face looks like you'd die when you're embarrassed."

“...Crazy bastard.”

“Um, I'm crazy.”

“Just having you, I can go crazy at any time.”

I want to forget, but I can’t control my feelings

(If you think about forgetting it, you still can't control it.)

Junhyung got up from his seat, walked across the street at the zebra crossing and walked into the pink shop. Today there are quite a few people, strange but good. He didn't want people to ask why he had entered a store like this. Junhyung bowed his head to the counter staff and walked to a hidden corner where a green flower was placed on the table.

Anthurium flower

“Here, give it.”

“Is this anthurium flower?”

"Yes, that's the promise."

“...Funny, it wouldn't be very romantic if I were a girl. Probably hit it with an anthurium flower."

“Who said this is the most romantic thing?”

“Huh.”

“Besides, I wouldn't have given it to any other woman but you.”

"....Do as you say."

          “J”

Junhyung laughed a little. He reached out and grabbed a small pot of anthurium flowers on the table and played with it. Looking at it, he still couldn't understand how romantic this flower was. A flower with petals like green leaves. It looks more like a houseplant than a flower to give to someone. Plus, it looks completely at odds with a pink shop like this.

Until the store employee walked in Junhyung turned his attention away from the anthurium flowers and ordered a large bowl of choc chips, which when the waiter brought them to him, he was stunned.

Junhyung remembered that when he first ate it it was less than this or maybe it was just his feelings.

Or maybe it was because he didn't eat alone at that time.

“Let's eat this cup.”

. “Are you crazy or not? The cup is crazy big.”

"I'll help you eat if I can't finish it."

I want to act like I hate you, act like I’m angry at you

(Make me hate you, make me resent you)

“If there are two people to eat, maybe there won't be this much left…” Junhyung muttered softly. He looked at the ice cream cup that he had just eaten and felt less than half full. In fact, if he had him stuff it in, he might. If not, he might throw up later.

After sitting for a long time, he decided to get up and pay the money. Junhyung returned to walk on the snowy road again, he walked with the same feeling that he didn't want to admit, it was 'loneliness'.

In the condo he rented, he remembers that it used to be always messy. because of someone And he had to clean almost every morning and evening in the condominium room, which was quite cramped because of the clutter of vacant items and the narrow walkway to the point where he often had to squeeze into the people next to him.

It doesn't exist any more.

His rented room is spacious. Very wide, so wide that he didn't want to stay.

In the past, he missed the times when he could always rest on a small bed that was quite hard but comfortable to sleep on when he was tired. But now he hated having to sleep on an open bed with nothing but a pillow and a blanket.

But to speak frankly, I just think I’m not brave enough yet

(To be honest, just thinking about it isn't brave enough.)

Junhyung admits he misses Yoon Doojoon.

I just want to ask you

(Just want to ask you)

Since the day Doojoon broke up with him

He found it different.

It's strange but it hurts, these days he's trying to walk without Doojoon. He walked along the old path. He wanted to look through all the memories he had with Doojoon.

He wants to forget

But he couldn't do it.

He really loved Yoon Dujoon too much.

Isn’t your heart tired over there?

(Are you over there tired of your heart?)

Junhyung was so tired of pretending to forget. Pretending to be ignorant, pretending to be happy without Doojoon Pretending not to feel anything, pretending not to think about the old images that popped into his head, or even when he walked into the pink shop for the second time by himself.

Even though it had been nearly half a year, he still couldn't come to terms with it. It seemed like his familiarity with Doojoon was too much.

“Do you want to try breaking up?”

"....Why"

“Because Junhyung will know his own heart.” Junhyung was taken aback by the answer. and pronouns refer to his real name “In the past, it seemed like I was the only one thinking about it...like I was telling myself that Junhyung was happy being with me...when really, Junhyung was probably annoyed.”

"I didn't think like that...."

“That's why I told us to break up...Junhyung, try asking yourself if you're dating because of pity. Or because just being with you makes you feel comfortable? Nothing more than that.”

"I just want you to think about it..."

"okay"

“If you want to quit, just quit. In the past, I didn't get anything.”

“You're even annoying.”

“Yes, I know.” Junhyung was startled as Dujun's hand that was holding him at first slowly loosened. He felt his own hand feel bare and open and a breeze pass through it. “I hope you have. Happy without me, Junhyung.”

Do you have someone looking after you over there?

Can they do as much as I did?

(Is there anyone there to take care of you?

Can you do it as well as me?)

At that time, Junhyung thought so too.

He also wanted Doojoon to be happy without him. He hoped he would stop his habit of sleeping in just his boxers and throwing his clothes around the room. Or even stay up and watch movies until late at night. and play games without paying attention to the time

Hopefully in this cold weather we will stop playing football. Because it was still cold just walking out, let alone playing outdoor sports at sub-zero temperatures like this.

During the past time, walking down the street alone without Yoon Doojoon, it was very lonely. So lonely that he wants to cry

When Doojoon broke up with him When Doojun let go of him Junhyung didn't even have tears in his eyes. What he did was walk back to his room and lay down on the cold mattress.

Junhyung thought that maybe he was the only one who thought about the other person. Because Doojoon was the one who broke up with him.

As for a guy like me, I’m continuously lonely

(As for people like me, it keeps getting lonely.)

Junhyung used to think that people standing in the rain and snow when they broke up with him were ridiculous, but when he met him he realized.

standing in the cold Being cool isn't because you want to be cool like in the music video.

But it's because the body hardly feels anything. Apart from a heart that is numb with loneliness

Junhyung kicks a pile of snow in the hallway, annoyed by his thoughts. He wants himself to forget because thinking about someone who isn't by his side anymore annoys him. feel bad It's like being repeatedly punched in the face with the words lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely.

The things he got from Doojoon, he had thought about throwing away. But I couldn't do it.

He felt sorry. There is no feeling except regret.

He regretted having to leave it.

Because it was something Dujun gave him...he regretted it.

I’m still taking time to heal everything, it’s reallydifficult

(It still takes time to heal everything. It's really difficult.)

Junhyung decided to walk back to his condo. He walked into the room. Turned on the heater and lay down on his own bed. Junhyung curled up in his own blanket. Breathing, he hugged the blanket that hugged him like he was being hugged by someone.

I want to forget, but my heart ends up remembering

(If you want to forget my heart, it remembers)

Junhyung has never been in love. With Doojoon, it was like first love. and the last time

Junhyung doesn't know how to deal with his feelings. Even though he has dated women and broken up many times, with a guy like Doojoon, he really doesn't know. What Joonhyung did was try to forget, forget by himself, he didn't want anyone to know about his very weak feelings. It was embarrassing and he didn't want anyone to interfere with his personal affairs.

As soon as I look back, how lucky was I that I had you?

(When I look back, how lucky I am to have you)

In the episode with Doojoon, he said that it was annoying to have messages coming to him almost all the time. And he was shot with jokes that weren't very funny most of the time or jokes that made his face hot until he got teased.

But he couldn't deny that he was truly happy. that was annoyed like that

That I got to learn what love was like?

(What I've learned about love)

Love is what he hates the most at this time.

If it was normal, on a cold day like this he would often receive warm hugs which he always complained about as being annoying.

I keep the good days deep inside my heart

(The good days are kept deep in the center of my heart)

Junhyung accidentally smiled. It was like he was smiling to spite himself. He closed his eyes. And choose to ignore your own feelings right now.

Sometimes he wanted to sleep forever. So that you don't have to wake up and face the same feelings.

With the tiredness of trying to act like you're normal.

In fact, it's not like that at all.

When I sleep, I still smile

(Close your eyes and dream, but still smile)

Junhyung loves Yoon Doojoon.

But Yoon Doojoon, do you still love him?

Lately, I'm really crazy about Tujun. I've never been crazy about Junke. But as soon as you get excited, you get excited... Tujun is very cute, but I don't understand why the fic isn't as cute as the moments I saw....

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