Bear it.

He often walked into the studio. at the Faculty of Architecture to work at the desk Woo Ji Ho is a tall man with good looks, causing his juniors in the branch to greet him along the way.

A single from a favorite band is played over and over on one's smartphone. The content of the song is about standing and watching an ex-lover be happy while still forcing a smile.. I really like it. Listen to it on loop all morning and evening without getting bored.

Looking at the proof paper in front of me alternating with the window looking out to see the view of the buildings and trees that surround this place, I hope to work.

deline

The teacher held his pencil to paper and looked at the first focal point that he wanted to draw, such as the large tree that stretched out from the faculty building.

But his focus was obscured by the two young men standing next to each other, causing him to look up at the two of them earnestly, “Hey, yo---.”

It was as if the sound had been swallowed up and disappeared as soon as the two people looked into their eyes.

Silence enveloped the atmosphere. The distance between the drafting table and the 'couple' was only a window. Jiho tried to turn away to avoid his eyes before bending down to scribble on the paper as if busy. Staying with that piece of work even though my mind was distraught when I met those same eyes.

Those same eyes were so warm.

“What are you standing there like?”

The hoarse voice that came through couldn't help but make him glance up. He saw a white-faced, scruffy-faced kid stretching the arm of someone who was probably an important person.

The music from the headphones was still loud, and the annoyingly excited chatter of the couple in front of him was still equally loud. He almost wanted to shout out loud to them. Can it help us go on a date far away?

In my heart, I don't know how it feels strange.

"Let's go~ He's hungry!"

Huh?

Heh___heh

"Huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

pencil

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The carefully sharpened pencil was pressed onto the paper before the owner of the left hand smeared it with such force that the pencil that was said to be the strongest almost broke, causing the juniors and friends sitting nearby to gasp in turn. Because who would have dreamed that a person who was always in a good mood like Ji Ho would be so clearly annoyed like this?

"What's the matter, brother?"

"....."Breathing hard because I used too much emotion, so I felt panting.

"Are you okay? Please calm down first." He looked at Pyo. Jihoon was really weighed down. He himself almost wanted to shout out that he couldn't stand it, but his mouth was cocky and said the opposite, “What? I'm..normal."

“Normally, it's crazy, to be honest, I've never seen anything like this before.” A whisper came from my good friend Park. Kyung made him even more irritated.

“I'm fine, Kyung.” He turned away and plugged in his headphones. Of course, the incident just now made him want to change the song as much as possible.

Grasping the pencil, repressing the thought of working again, but in the back of his head he was fighting all over the place. His hand was shaking like never before, so he had to decide to put it down and slam his head down on the table.

I don't like myself right now. Damn it.

“Hey Jiho~, let's go eat shabu?” Kim's cheerful voice sounded. Yukwon, a friend from his group who was in each group, appeared from the window, causing him to flinch.

"No, I..."

I'm not okay right now.

I really wanted to say that, but someone with a big ego like him would definitely never say it like that. He knew that.

"I will finish the work. I'm afraid I won't be able to send it in time."

“What the fuck are you nerding out about now?”

“Let's all go. I have work discussions with the group as well.” Let me tell you, at this point, I'm lying.

Yukwon himself nodded in response, confused, before saying goodbye and not forgetting to urge him to hurry back to the dorm again like a close friend would. "Let's go," waving his hand to dismiss the other person.

"Oh, I'll eat it just in case!"

Already alone

Jiho put down his pencil and turned to his left and right to look around the studio at midnight, looking at the finished work with difficulty both due to his physical health due to sleepiness and his mental health that seemed to still be irritated until the moment. this

Raise your neck to stare blankly at the white ceiling..why is it so quiet?

Before he lay down on the drafting table, hoping to use this as his bed tonight, the sound of the clock ticking was as loud as his sighing. In fact, when he closed his eyes to sleep, he Unable to sleep, I forced myself to pull out my smartphone and press the application.

Music

along with searching for the name of the song'

Sweetless’

Some of us are just weird.. Even the sadder I am, I still find sad songs to listen to to make me feel more depressed.

Let it hurt in your heart more than before.

Or am I the only one? Or just one Gusadist....

And it's even more funny since Woo Ji Ho has vowed not to cry over 'anything', if it's not a family life movie or a depressing documentary. Clear water that he didn't want to admit was tears but couldn't deny when it was flowing from his eyes.

I've listened to this song ten times, why am I crying tonight?

Born 22 years old, he never had any idea about who he should be attached to. I didn't think that I would be able to get attached to anyone easily and I made a promise in my heart that I would not entrust my love to anyone.

Because deep in my heart I'm secretly afraid.. Afraid of not being good enough Afraid that you will make the other person sad, afraid that you will get bored.

Okay, I can accept that men like him are the ones. 'I used to get to know' Song Min Ho, the person who made me worry the most today. We didn't agree to be together, but our status isn't a word that should be used as just friends or siblings. It's just a phase. It's probably like that when they see each other.

At that time, it was very popular among the faculty and the university. It's not normal for Duan'athpat and Duean Silpa to be clingy or can be said to be flirting like that, and they both look more than 100% manly.

I really don't want to admit that it was his first girlfriend and it was a man?

To be honest, Minho looks really good to him, plus he's a very cute and warm guy who cares about him in everything. It's always easy to please, that is, there's no reason why you shouldn't agree to be lovers with the other person.

But what about Ujiho?

A chauvinistic man who doesn't seem to think too much but is actually the opposite.

As he said he was afraid.

And when it gets to a certain point, he feels 'bored' at some point. It's just a feeling of boredom, but it's not that he's annoyed. Do you understand what the emotions of a man who have been single his whole life and are used to being alone are like? how

I don't know what the hell happened that night that made him ask to end the relationship with the other party. Plus, looking back, he was clearly a spoiled child. It's such an idiot to want to scold myself even though the other party didn't do anything wrong. Even though yesterday we still had a nice conversation, but suddenly I pushed the line to say,

'Will you please stop?'

'Would you like to try getting to know other people?'

Are you mean?

That's right...he just found out today that he was really mean. Plus, after the time we separated, we never spoke to each other again. It's not that the other party didn't say hello, but he was the one who didn't reply. He had his own reasons for not answering..simple because he just wanted the other person to cut him off so he didn't contact Minho again.

So how is it? Is it effective?

Let's try it from today.

Ai Dam Song's face brightened with his boyfriend, who looked prettier than him and was smaller than him. Looks more adorable. And it made him extremely irritated. Plus, the fact that his 'new person' used the pronoun 'black' instead of Minho's name was even more annoying. It wouldn't have mattered if he himself had been called this way as well.

Angry, annoyed, annoyed

Until now it has been shaken 5000 Sometimes it comes out as the word 'missing you'.

I am quite amused at myself for crying as a child. She cried and cried and still had a cold that made her almost unable to breathe.

I don't regret saying goodbye.

But I'm sorry that I was the one who said goodbye and had to think about it myself like this.

And does he still have the right to say in front of the other party that he misses him?

I used the back of my hand to wipe away the tears from my ears, not wanting to feel like I was being sensitive. I was also afraid that if anyone saw me, I would definitely be shocked, but it was probably very unlikely at this time.

It hurts the most, but you have to endure it first. I have to endure it..

His finger moved to click on Facebook before coming across the name of someone that made him stop and look for a long time.

I admit it with a shameless side that I want the owner of that name to chat with me sometimes, but look how long it's been like this but there's still no sign of it. I really don't want to admit it shamelessly that I like to look at my profile page. of the other party and also click "Like" to let them know that they are still watching.

But it was perfectly still.

Who can understand the feeling of having Facebook or Line even seeing each other but not being able to tell? Can't say anything How uncomfortable is it? I don't have enough courage to say hello first.

I really want to say that it's not okay. I want to say that I miss you. I want to say that I miss you.

miss

I miss you so much.

But I don't dare...

I really don't like myself right now.