Hello all readers ><

Back again with a fic based on my mood (and my taste, haha).

This fic was born from a song.

Gemini

Wright listens and thinks of Sika. So I want to convey it to other people as well.

First of all, let me say that this is the first fanfic based on the band that Wright wrote.

All of the things that happen in this fic are just Wright's imagination.

I can't find any truth (it's my imagination).

Wright did not intend to attack or harm the artist.

But if it's really too damaged, you can inform Wright. I will delete this fic immediately.

And finally.. paste credit for the lyrics.

Korean lyrics >>

http://www.siamzone.com/board/view.php?sid=4144989

Thai song translation >>

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIGBJjH1q8w (

yours

SummerTime

yes)

Ah.. almost forgot, as always. Wright won't post the song because he doesn't know how to post it.

TT

more

My.iD

Change to a new one, Wright is even more confused.

I hope all readers are happy with reading ^^

'I -

Taeyeon hits the ceiling of the melon charts in the first 5 minutes!!'

'The first artist of the year

I -

Taeyeon has reached the ceiling of the melon charts 15 times!!'

'Tiffany reveals!! Crying after listening

I -

Taeyeon'

Now there's nothing.

I -

Taeyeon' is gone.

Don't doubt that you'

I'

what is that It is my first solo album Kim Taeyeon, an album titled '

I'

Now I'm sitting back in the dorm playing with Fany's dog, Prince, after I went to a fan site. My first steps as a solo singer have gone well. Fany always tells me the story. Mine is just beginning.

Starting as 'Kim Taeyeon' is not. 'Kid Leader of Girls' Generation'

However, I was still embarrassed because this was my first fansite event where I was sitting alone without the other eight members surrounding me to hide on the side of the stage. It was impossible.

Ah.. Looks like I said something wrong.

Another member is 'seven', not 'eight'.

I really am. I like to forget all the time. I like to think that there are still nine of us.

              'I missed the times that we almost shared I miss the lovethat was almost there'

A sweet, familiar voice sounded from my phone. I looked at the phone that was sitting on the low table next to the sofa. The name 'Yoona' was floating prominently on the screen, indicating that it was the person calling at this time. Yoona, definitely the second younger member of the group, the sweet ringtone continues to ring even if I don't pick up the phone.

Do you remember who sang this song?

Of course everyone remembers. Members of the band also remembered and asked me why I put this song up, but the answer I got was 'I like this song' and that's it.

"What's up Yoona?" I answered the phone and entered my voice.

[Uncle Tat, your song is very beautiful. Yoon likes to sing the song.]

[Yes, Taeyeon. Congratulations] Seohyun's sweet voice came over the phone.

“Oh, is Seohyun with that bald boy?” I asked after Seohyun finished speaking.

[I live with you too.]

"Whose voice is that?"

[Damn, I can't remember my own member's voice. It's so annoying.]

"Yuri?" As soon as I guessed, I heard him answer, "Yuri?" 'Yes' I asked further. "Then why are the three of them living together?"

[We were on a conference call and just happened to have some free time so I took the opportunity to call Taehyung] Seohyun answered.

[Are you here alone in the dormitory?] Yoona asked.

"Yes, no one has returned yet."

[Oh Brother Tae, I like the song.

Gemini

Very much. The song is very beautiful. The meaning is very good] Yoona said.

"Ah, that's right. I like this song the most too."

[I think for a while there must have been some connection to the Baektae issue and they just broke up, right?] Yuri said.

"Hello, we just broke up. What the hell? Don't make it sound like I'm really dating that kid, okay?" I replied, sounding disgusted.

[But when I listen to this song I miss another person more.] Seohyun said.

[Who is Joohyun?] Yoona asked.

[...........] Seohyun was silent.

[Is it Jessica?] Yuri spoke up.

[... yes]

[Taeyeon, are you sure you didn't compose this song yourself?] Yuri asked me.

“Of course, I only write songs.

I

It's only one song and it's only a little written."

[I think if Sowon listens to this song, he will definitely miss Sika hyung as well.] Seohyun said.

"Um.. That's good. I don't want Sowon to forget Sika."

[Ah! Brother Yun has to go. That's it for now, everyone, bye] After saying that, Yoona hung up the phone.

[Alright, let's go] Yuri hung up the phone and followed Yoona.

[I hope you get first place for nine weeks. I'll wait first.]

“Thank you, Seohyun.” I finished and Seohyun hung up the phone. I put the phone down and thought about the conversation with those three people a moment ago and sighed. Song

Gemini

So..?

It wouldn't be strange if Seohyun listened to this song and thought of Jessica.

Even when I read the lyrics for the first time, I still thought of you..

January 2014

After Girls' Generation achieved overwhelming success with their full album,

IGAB

The past year has made me think that maybe Girls' Generation may have reached saturation point, but seven years is a long time for girls. And we probably can't be girls like this forever, but one member once said on the show,

'SNSD will step down in the most beautiful way'

Yes..from now on for another ten years. Girls' Generation is probably just the name of a legendary girl group. We can't be girls like this forever. One day we have to go and follow our dreams.

And now one of our members is doing that..

As soon as I walked into the room, I saw a thin woman talking on the phone in the living room, looking at Jessica who was now talking on the phone with someone. It is expected that there will be no escaping the launch of the brand.

Blanc

That you've definitely been planning to stay for a long time.

She's been flying back and forth to Hong Kong-Korea a lot lately, so often that I was surprised to see her sitting in this apartment when she actually moved out with her sister a long time ago.

Will you forget that next month we have to promote our mini album again..

What should I say?

What makes you so obsessed?

You and I are still here.

She didn't even seem to realize that I had walked into the room. I put my bag down on the table and walked over to sit next to her. She turned to look at me and gave me a small smile, then exchanged a few words with the other end of the line. Hang up.

“Have you come back yet?” she greeted me.

“Um, why are you here?” I asked.

"Haha, you probably already know why I'm here."

Jessica sat closer and rested her head on my shoulder. Her brown hair was just on the tip of my nose if I turned to face her. The faint scent that I remember so well makes me unable to help but dig the tip of my nose into that hair.

"Have you thought about it well? What about the brand?" I asked.

"Um," she nodded, still leaning on my shoulder. "Look, Tanggu, when I was a kid I had two dreams."

"..........." I silently listened to her.

“My first dream was to be a singer. I want to be surrounded by people who love me and I love them and want to give them happiness. And now I've done it."

"Well, you did a good job of it."

“And my second dream is to be a designer,” Jessica said, reaching out and intertwining her hand with mine and squeezing tightly, “Tang Gua. You know that Girls' Generation has reached its saturation point and I want to pursue my remaining dreams."

"No one said anything about it."

Yes..we've talked about this before. Both the members and the company are now left waiting for Jessica's one-year contract to end. Girls' Generation's Jessica will gracefully step down from the stage amid the understanding of the members and fans.

"Taeyeon, if you weren't from Girls' Generation, what would you do?" Jessica changed from resting her head on my shoulder to resting her chin on my shoulder. She stared at me wide-eyed.

"Um.. I love singing. Maybe I'll release a solo album?" Haha"

"Ah..Good. Until that day, you have to invite me to perform as well. Your song has to have Jessica's name on it, do you understand?" Jessica pulled away from my shoulder and sat down to have a nice chat like old

"But until then

CEO

Jessica must be so busy she doesn't have time to sing with a new singer like me.” I said sarcastically and gave the person in front of me a teasing smile.

“No, just let her say it. I will go see you right away.” Jessica gave me a small smile like always, “After my brand is launched. Her airport fashion must include glasses.

Blanc

Do you understand?"

"Yes, I understand."

"After I'm no longer an idol, should I go see them backstage often?"

"Now find time to practice promotions with me first haha."

I said, shaking the head of the person in front of me affectionately. Right now she was no different from a little child talking about her dreams. She was so.. Really cute

"Oh, those are your glasses. Fany said that Fany really likes them. I bet you'll see them in Fany's airport fashion more often than in my airport fashion."

After I finished speaking, Jessica's dreamy expression from just a moment ago disappeared, leaving only a faint smile and a hand holding mine. Jessica tightened her grip on my hand and spoke softly.

"Tang Gua.."

"Huh?"

"Until then, will Tanggu still take care of me like before? Will we still love each other like this?"

"Of course. How can I change?"

Her whispers were full of anticipation.

Like the dreams we painted together

“You won't change at all, right?” Jessica asked again.

"Um"

“Even your heart that loves Tiffany Hwang won't change it, right?”

"Is that right, Kim Taeyeon..?"

I was speechless at that question. What should I answer her? Since I know in my heart that this woman 'loves me'

But now I have a lover named 'Tiffany Hwang' We have loved each other since I didn't debut until now, we still love each other.

Yes.. that's what I told myself.

Even though the other part of me was screaming out loud that I wanted a woman named 'Jessica Jung'.

I want you so much..

"Answer me. You don't have to feel sorry for me." Jessica smiled sadly. "Fanny is the most suitable for you."

"But Sica.."

"I'm fine. Otherwise, how could I have stayed by your side for seven years?"

Seven years.. is that a long time?

Since debuting, Jessica has debuted with the image of an ice princess, which is at odds with her true self, which is sweet and warm. Cute, which goes against my true self, which is a quiet person. We really don't talk much. Should Jessica and I switch appearances?

The story of how close I am to Jessica, even the members of the band, no one knows. We understand each other without saying anything because we are the same. One person hides everything under a cold mask, the other person hides everything under smile mask We talk to each other through our eyes. Until Sowon likes to imagine that Tang Sik is an ex-girlfriend couple.

In the beginning, we were just close friends, but after a while, good feelings started building up in both of our hearts until it turned into love.

Now that I think about it, did I keep Jessica as my secret lover for that long?

"But Sika, I want to talk."

"No, don't touch me. Don't say it."

After speaking, Jessica hugged me tightly. The slight trembling on my back made me realize that she was crying right now. How many times have I hurt this woman?

“If Tanggu says this right now, how will I be able to accept myself and walk away from her?” His voice was muffled and slightly trembling. That made me shudder. I didn't want to see this woman cry.

“Do you really not want to listen? I've never said these words to Sica before." I raised my arms to hug the small of her back.

"........" She was silent. I tightened my embrace and decided to speak.

"Tae Rak Sika"

When he finished speaking, the thin girl in his arms let out a gasp. The small hands that used to hug me changed to hitting me. My small shoulders were shaking because the person in front of me was hitting them not too seriously. I hit them and complained.

"Why do you say that? Crazy people!! Kim Taeyeon, Kim Tae-gu, crazy people!! And now what am I going to do? I'm beginning to not want to leave you."

“Sikaya.. you go follow your dreams. Shall we contact each other often?"

Jessica stopped beating me and instead hugged me loosely, her beautiful face resting on my chest. Her small hands gripped the hem of my shirt tightly as if seeking refuge.

"Promise me, don't break your promise.."

"Um, I promise."

After I finished speaking, Jessica raised her head. Her face, although stained with tears, was still beautiful. I gently ran my thumb under her eyes to wipe away the tears, but it didn't take long for her to reach over. A hand gently touched the back of my hand. Her fingertips circled the back of my hand pleadingly. I watched her actions until she turned to meet my eyes again. Her beautiful face slowly moved closer and closer to mine. I closed my eyes as if unable to resist the charm of the person in front of me.

A thin pair of lips touched the same spot as mine. Jessica nibbled my bottom lip appeasingly. The tip of her finger still glided on the back of my hand pleadingly. I reached out with my other hand to grab my waist and gave us a hug. We were closer than before. I started to kiss her in return. The fingertips that used to run down the back of my hand turned into intertwining my fingers and squeezing my hand tightly. I changed to controlling the game.

As soon as I touched the tip of my tongue to her lips, she opened her mouth to accommodate my hot tongue very well.

Jessica Jung..she knows everything about me.

Our kiss ended when we were both satisfied it would stop. Jessica leaned over me again and pressed a soft kiss to my neck.

“Sika loves you. I love you..until I'm almost crazy."

"I know, you're cute too, my princess."

Will we be able to love each other?

current

Now I'm sitting on the same sofa that day. The day I told you I loved you for the first time That day, I was the one who said that we would keep in touch often. But it turned out that after Jessica left the group, she and I no longer had contact with each other.

I really don't want to say it.

But I miss you again, Jessica Jung.

The memories between us might not be that good, that's for sure.. You are my secret lover. No one knows except the two of us. How can it go well?

But for me, if there is you in that memory, no matter how bad the story is, it will always be a beautiful memory.

Come to mebaby Come come to me baby

Come, come to me, darling.

Our past is beautiful.

Or maybe it's because she didn't contact me.

Are you still angry at me about that..?

September 2014

“Jesse, I think the company would definitely not allow her to open up.

Blanc

Even though they're still Girls' Generation."

"I agree with Fany. If she does that, the company will definitely remove her."

“Sooyoung was right in saying that she should definitely choose to be.

CEO

Or is it Girls' Generation?

"Hyo.. I can't choose right now," Jessica replied teasingly.

Right now, the Girls' Generation members are all together as they are in a meeting about Jessica's brand launch. Suddenly, she has reversed her plan to leave Girls' Generation at the beginning of the year. I want to continue and open a brand at the same time.

I know very well that it is impossible..

The president has discussed this matter with me many times. He said that Jessica is so busy working on her brand that she doesn't have time for the group. I have come up with all kinds of excuses to keep Jessica until now. But if Jess Ka will be launched.

Blanc

Now, no matter how I draw the five rivers, the president probably won't listen to me.

“Sika, now you shouldn't just start.

Blanc

can? Soon her contract with the company will end and now she can be a member of Girls' Generation, right?" I tried to speak calmly.

"But I want to make my own brand.."

"I'm not telling you to stop doing it, I'm just telling you to extend the launch a little longer."

I really don't understand Jessica. Even though her heart isn't with the group, she still wants to be Girls' Generation at the same time.

CEO

We are always looking in the same place.

It gradually became discontinuous.

Even when I'm near you, I can't see your heart.

"I.. will try to think back."

Jessica said that and walked out of the room, leaving the other eight people troubled by her expression.

Even though she said she would think about it, we both knew that. Jessica will definitely launch a brand.

'September 30, 2014

Jessica was removed from Girls' Generation.

current

On that day, Jessica decided to launch a brand.

Blanc

which is currently called

Blanc&Eclare

or abbreviated as

B&E

The company suddenly removed her from the group without warning. Both Jessica and all the fans were shocked except for the other eight members who already knew that if Jessica debuted,

Blanc

She will not be in Girls' Generation anymore.

No matter how I talk to the president, I can't hold Jessica back any longer..

From the beginning, I was going to gracefully step off the stage, but instead I was pushed off the stage by an invisible hand from where I had originally prepared the song.

Divine

It was a goodbye from what was initially thought to be Jessica leaving the industry with understanding from fans.

It turns out that she left, leaving many mysteries behind.

It's now been more than a year and she's just announced her departure.

SM

Officially, just one day after Girls' Generation's eight-year anniversary, it's good that she's at least thinking about the fans' hearts. Let's hope that eight years have passed before she can leave permanently.

She has officially left us..

song

Divine

with music

Girls

It turned out to be a song that I didn't like, not because it wasn't beautiful, but because it was a song that was sung for Jessica's unhappy farewell.

song

Catch me if you can

It has become a song that I can't stop listening to. Because the nine-member version that was secretly released doesn't have the entire song.

song

Into the new world

It's become a song that makes me shed tears every time I listen to it, not just because it's a debut song like before, but because it's a song that confirms the efforts we've made as a group of nine people.

Girls' Generation is today because of the efforts of its nine members. Everyone in Girls' Generation shines brightly, but Girls' Generation shines brightest when there are nine members.

It seems delusional for me to say this.

But I really want you back, Jessica..

Like the moon rushing to rise at sunset.

I hope you come back to me like nothing happened.

The pain now will be far away like a dream.

Finally got to the Goodbye stage, I had to go on stage again with the song.

I

It's a promotional song, but this time it was a little different because I had to sing it.

Gemini

It's also a free gift before leaving.

I really didn't think that I would be able to sing this song live.

When I went on stage, I sang.

I

Same as before, but enough songs

I

In the end, I had to adjust the mood to match the song.

Gemini

Quickly, to be honest, the mood of the songs is very different. But I can easily adjust my mood just by thinking about one person.

Jessica Jung..

My lips move, creating a powerful melody.

R&B

For the listeners to be mesmerized by this is the first and last time I've performed this song on stage and I really want you to listen to it..

Do you still remember how we cried and laughed together?

처음그 시간으로돌아 갈 수 있게 You

We can go back. Return to the starting point

At this point, images from the past where I used to play with Jessica when we were together are flashing in my memory. Can we go back to that time again?

We were together until we became each other.

I can't imagine a day without you.

처음처럼 Me and You You You You Yeah Oh Yeah

We are one, me and you.

We used to be like the same person, using the same eye language. Just by looking into each other's eyes we knew what we wanted. But now..I don't have you anymore.

저하늘에 기대 안은 별처럼Kiss me (Kiss me Kiss me Kiss me)

In the sky like the stars waiting expectantly kiss me

서로가아니면이 빛은 사라져버려Yeah Yeah

If we aren't each other, this light will disappear.

A warmth that is still remembered even for a short period of time.

When you're gone It's a cold winter, my breath is weak

There wasn't even an image in my head of her walking away because we parted without saying a word of goodbye. But because the mood of the song came and went, it gave me an image in my head.

Jessica was standing in front of me in my mind, I kissed her goodbye just once. Then she waved her hand and walked away..

Maybe this is my deep desire to say goodbye to you once before I leave.

따스했던 맘이 작은 몸짓이(My Only)

warm heart slight wave of hand

Before your breath fades

발걸음을 돌려 You

Her feet came back..

And here it is again That I think..

I really want you to come back, Jessica Jung.

When I finished work, I came back to change clothes in the dressing room. The whole room was just me because the stylists had all left. When I finished changing clothes, I sat and played on my phone, thinking about the time I sang.

Gimini

Just a moment ago, I felt like I could do better than I thought.

I have to thank Jessica.

Add..

There was the sound of a door opening behind me, but I didn't pay much attention. It must have been that the stylist came in to get things. The sound of footsteps came closer and closer to me, causing me to instinctively look up at the mirror.

Huh?

I was a little taken aback because the person I saw in the mirror was an unfamiliar stylist. He wore a hoodie, a mouth mask, and glasses.

B&E

One as big as a house, covering the face and eyes that much.

Wait! glasses

B&E

So!?

I rose from the chair in front of the mirror and turned around to face the strange woman again, but this time I stared at her from head to toe.

A small woman with a thin waist but S-line proportions like this..who could it be?

It seemed like I had been staring at her for too long and she started taking off her hoodie and sunglasses. That made me instantly know who the person in front of me was.

"Jessica.."

I spoke softly, like a sleepwalker. She stuck her sunglasses on the collar of her white shirt and took off her mouth covering, emphasizing what I was saying.

That's right.. this is Jessica. Reserve yourself now.

“Taenggu-ah, what are you looking at?” Jessica said and gave me a soft smile.

"Sika.. how did you get here?" I asked, completely surprised. “I had the stylist Unnie bring me in,” Jessica said, laughing a little like she liked to do. "Don't worry Taenggu, no one will know about this matter, not even the people in the circle."

"Ah.. you really are." I shook my head a little in dismay.

"Oh, hey! Congratulations on your solo album. You're as cool as I expected," Jessica said, handing me a large bouquet of flowers.

"Thank you," I took it and said thank you. "I'm sorry that I don't have your name on the album."

"Haha, if my name is weird then it would be weird for me," Jessica laughed. "I'm sorry I haven't contacted you at all."

"It's okay. The matter has already passed."

The light of your star passed by me once.

Two stars are meaningless if they are not one.

"Tanggu-ah.. are you still the same?" Jessica asked.

"Um..I'm still the same." I paused a bit, placing the flowers on the table. "Oh, not everything is the same as before. Something has been added to my life.”

"What?" Jessica asked.

"I think about the girl named Jessica Jeong every day."

“Huh?” Jessica raised her eyebrows in surprise. She laughed again, making me suspicious.

“What's so funny?” I asked.

"I don't think we're the same," Jessica replied.

"I also think about the girl named Kim Taeyeon every day."

Finished speaking, she slowly walked over and hugged me gently. We haven't seen each other in two years. Jessica has hardly changed at all. How gentle and nurturing she once was, now she is still like that.

You will always be my princess..

“I'm still the same. I still love Tang Gua the same way. Let's not lose touch again." Jessica whispered in my ear while we were still hugging.

“Well, I'm the same as before. I still love my princess Jessica the same way.”

영원토록 Me and You You You You Yeah Oh Yeah

forever you and me

I was the first to break away from the embrace. I held her shoulder and gently pressed my lips to the same part of the other person. My hand slowly moved from her shoulder to hold her thin waist. Putting her other hand on her round hip, Jessica drew her arm up and wrapped it around my neck, holding my nape so that our lips were close together, each of us kissing each other's lips like no one would give in.

Such a passionate kiss after being apart for almost two years..

And just like before, our passionate kiss stopped when we were satisfied. Her breath was still a small gasp, her slightly bruised lips making me unable to take my eyes off her. She tightened her arms again until our foreheads moved close together, a slender hand caressing behind each ear. My left side seemed a little tempting as her thin lips slowly moved, bringing out the sweet, clear voice of the last verse of the song.

"Should be Me and You"

The End

TALK!!!

Let's talk ^^

Wow! Finished with the fic.

Gemini

It's a fic that was heartbreaking to write because I had to stress to myself all the time that Sika was gone.

TT

This story, Wright intended for it to be in the same style as

Lost In Love

Yes, it follows the story with the lead song.

But this story is a more emotional fic.

Lost In Love

Again, because I put it on right away.

Finished decorating in one go. If the story moves too fast or is very confusing, I apologize here.

Plus, I only inspected it twice. There has been no content modification in any way. If you come across a lot of mistakes, I apologize again ^^;

I have a feeling that Wright will really like this type of emotional fic.

If the girls released songs and the writer liked a particular song, it would probably come out in fiction form again. Because this is my fic. Hahaha.

Having said that, if I could write a lot, this could probably be compiled into a book. A collection of short fiction based on mood. It's probably weird -..-

Oh, there's been a lot of chatter. Wright said that there must be something in the story that will definitely make the reader confused.

So I'd like to arrange a session.

Q&A

Q&A: Questions that Wright expects readers will be confused about. (Will a talk this long still have people reading it?)

Q :

Taenie Tangsik, how is this? Why is it that Tae is Fany's boyfriend? So why did you end up with Sika like this?

A :

This couple is my boyfriend. As for Tang Sik, as the story says, they are secret lovers.

I mean, Tae loves both of them. Fanny Mia Sika Mia keeps it like that.

Q :

Tang Sik has been secretly dating for seven years. What does Fany say? Don't you have any doubts at all?

A :

In the story, Fanny is not mentioned. Because this fic is a fic that presents the story of Tang Sik from Tae's point of view. Therefore, whether or not Fany knew or not was not important at all.

But if I were to explain it according to the story.. Tae-man still understands that Fany doesn't know. As for whether Fany actually knows or not? Let the reader continue his imagination ^^

Q :

I wonder why Sica in the story suddenly wants to continue being Girls' Generation.

A :

If Sica is mentioned in the story There's only one reason why she wants to stay: 'Sika loves P'Tae'.

It is the emotion of wanting to follow your dreams and be beside the person you love at the same time. But in reality, she couldn't do that.

Q :

Why in the nearly two year hiatus did Jessica not contact the members?

A :

If mentioned in the story Jessica must be shocked that she was taken out unexpectedly. And it's work.

CEO

Must have been busy and lost contact.

She came back to P'Tae this time because she missed P'Tae. If we follow the feel of the story, it's probably similar to Sika just stopping by to bring flowers to Tae. Let's understand each other.

Came for just a moment and then parted ways. Everyone returned to their duties as before. She came quietly. I intended to come see P'Tae alone and then leave.

Q :

Wright should raise Fanny's issue as well.

A :

If I brought up Fanny's issues too, it would turn into a long fic. Haha. And probably not.

Gimini

Also, if you're going to make it into Tae Nee, you'll have to change the title.

Emphasize!!

In this fic there is only truth. Girls' Generation and its members really exist.

Other than that, it's just Wright's imagination.

Wright doesn't know the ins and outs any more than other fans do.

Wright is aware that he is very close to drama. (But it's easy to want to dress up..)

TT

If this fic doesn't deserve to continue, please let me know. Don't press ban ._.

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